Date: Sat, 25 Aug 2001 00:56:23 +0100
From: Jose Santos <zeca_p@netc.pt>
Subject: Justin and Zack 2

I'm really, really, really, really, really sorry, but I was on vacation for
the past 10 days and I had some problems, but I promise that I'll start
updating more quickly, as usual send me your opinions to zeca_p@netc.pt.

This story is a product of my twisted mind and I don't know if any of the
NSYNC's guys are gay, (altought I have my suspects...), if you can't read
this then don't ..

Thanks for reading and enjoy the story



Justin and Zack 2

 -Well, we'll answer your question when you tell us why are you still on
top of him?- JC said holding is laugher

Justin looked at me and blushed, he then stood up and sated on the sofa
with his head low, I also stood up and walked towards my sister, I grabbed
her arm and dragged her to a corner of the room

- What the hell do you think that you are doing?- I asked her

- Look, Britney came to me telling me that she had a friend that needed to
find some one that could date with him, she tough that you were up to the
job and I agreed cause God knows how much you need of someone that loves
you.....- she said with a maternal tone

- I don't need no one to love me I'm fine on my one and I think that what
your are doing to Justin isn't fair, besides the guy already pissed me
off....

- Well the look on you face when he was on top of you didn't tell that!

I tried to say something but she interrupted me" You are always telling
yourself that you can't trust no one again, well Zack you have to start
trusting people again, not everyone is like your grandparents Zack, not
everyone is going to ignore you in the difficult times.... "

She knew that I didn't like to talk about our grandparents, and everytime
that we talked about them two things happened: or I would start crying or I
would storm out of the room, well this time the second thing happened,
without thinking I stormed out of the room almost making Joey fell to the
ground

I didn't know where I was going I just needed to get out of that room, I
found myself in the backstage near the stage, I walked to the end of the
stage and sated there looking at the empty stadium, I don't know hoe long I
stayed there, I only come back to the real world when I felt someone
tapping my shoulder, I looked to see who it was and I found Justin with an
concern look

- Are you ok? - he asked worried

- I'll be fine....- I said turning my head again to the empty stadium

- Look I wanted to apologize for being such a asshole when I hit you and
for Britney's and the guy's behavior...

I was going to say something but he continued" They think that since Steve
dumped me I should date again...."- he said sitting next to me

- I know that it isn't my business, but why did he dumped you?

- Don't worry you look like someone that I can trust- he said smiling, but
that smile soon faded when he started talking about his problem- Steve
Brooks, we met on the Net and one day I decided to know him, you can say
that one thing led to another and we started dating. At the beginning it
was really hard cause I was on tour and him in Las Vegas, but then I
offered a musician job at him and everything seemed ok..."

He stooped and whipped a tear that started to fall, he took one deep breath
and continued" Until one day he left with a letter telling me that I wasn't
good enough for him and that he didn't loved me anymore..."

Don't ask me why but I started hating this guy, no one had the right of
doing that to someone" At the beginning it was really difficult and if it
wasn't for Britney and the guys I don't know what could've happened but I
managed to continue and here I am talking to you"

- I'm really sorry for that, no one has the right to do that- I said giving
him a reassuring squeeze at his shoulder, I don't know why, but that felt
good- well since you told me your past I guess I should tell you mine....

- You don't need to do that

- But I want to and I need to....besides you seem like someone that I can
trust- I said grinning

- You need to? - He asked confused

 -Until now I always forget my past and pretend that I had a normal life,
but I can't continue doing that, it's not right I have to accept what and
who I am

He just nodded" Well I had a normal childhood, until when I was 13, that
was when everything happened, my parents were always working and I only saw
them at night, my sister was older than me and she had her friends, and I
only had my grandparents.... they were my best friends, to me they were my
2nd parents, I spent every free afternoon that I had with them... until one
day I decided to come out to my parents, I knew that I was gay since
forever and I always were very mature, so I told them that and they stayed
there looking at me, without saying anything they looked at each other,
grabbed their keys and left, I didn't knew what to do, I just stood there
until my sister arrived, she found me in the sofa paralyzed, when I saw
that it was her I hugged her and cried for hours...."

I stooped to look at him, he had a sad face but he was listening" I stayed
there holding her until the phone rang, she picked it up and a few seconds
later her face was blank, in that moment I had a bad feeling, my sister
drooped the phone and with a really pale face told me that my parents had
died in an car accident..." I was crying at this moment, and Justin did
something that surprise me he grabbed my hand and squeezed it " A few hours
later we were with my grandparents house, we had went to the hospital and
returned to their house to have some sleep, my sister went to bed , but my
grandparents told me that they needed to talk to me, since the moment at
the hospital they were acting really strange, we sated in the living room
and they told me that my mother before going at the car come home asking
for advice, that she didn't knew what to do about having a gay son, I was
really scared, that meant that my grandparents knew about me..."

 I couldn't believe that I was telling him all the story, he was the first
person that knew about my past, besides the fact that he was holding my
hand helped a little" Then they told me that tomorrow we could go to the
church and ask the priest to make me be normal, I could only have 13 at
that time but that pissed me off, I shouted that I wasn't sick and that I
was already normal, they looked at each other and told me that if I wasn't
going to change then they wouldn't have a grandchild named Zack, I was
crying but I was so pissed off that I told them that if that was what they
wanted then that was what they were getting ...." I took a deep breath" To
make a short story of a long one me and my sister have been living together
since then and we got away from Orlando cause that city made me remember
all the bad things, I don't trust most of the people that I know cause I'm
afraid that they will be like my grandparents, in fact I think that I only
have 2 or 3 real friends" I said with a small laugh" but now I have to face
my past and admit what I am..."

 I didn't know how Justin would react, I turned to face him and before I
could focus on his face I felt a pair of lips touching mine...

TBC......................................

Again I'm really sorry for only update now but I'd like to have some
feedback, please e-mail me to zeca_p@netc.pt, and I'm also sorry for this
part being so short