Date: Wed, 26 May 1999 00:30:11 GMT
From: Chuck Moors <stang32@hotmail.com>
Subject: KEVIN & JORDAN 5-6 (celeb)

Legal Disclaimer: This story is a total and complete work of fiction.  It
is nothing but a fantasy I have.  It is not intended to imply anything
about the sexuality of any of the people written about.  In particular
Kevin Richardson or Dowie D., of the Backstreet Boys, or any other
celebrities mentioned.  If homosexual acts between 2 males disturbs you or
if you are under 18 or this material is illegal in your city, state, or
country then you need to leave.

Comments are welcome at stang32@hotmail.com

*****AUTHORS NOTES***** I hope everyone is enjoying this so far.  I know
that there hasn't been any sex yet, but I want them to get to know each
other before they jump in the sack.  So just be patient, it will happen.  I
promise.  Also, be on the look out for a special surprise in part 10.


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KEVIN & JORDAN


PART 5

	As I got into the elevator, I couldn't believe what I had done.  I
had just kissed Kevin.  What was I thinking?  How could I do that?  I knew
what both Brian and Howie had said to me but, I still didn't know how Kevin
felt.  Neither of them had come out and said that Kevin was gay, but they
came close.  Just the fact that Howie had told me he was gay was shocking
enough.  But how did Kevin feel about me?

	Once I reached my room, I went in and sat on the bed and lit a
cigarette, not sure what to do.  My mind was racing with everything that
had happened to me that day.  From having the Backstreet Boys sing to me
for my birthday, to kissing Kevin like I did.  I put the barely smoked
cigarette out and laid down.

	The next thing I know, the phone was ringing.  I looked at the
clock.  6:30.  I guess I had fallen asleep.  I reached over and grabbed the
phone.

	"Hello?"

	"Jordan, you ok?"  a voice said.

	It dawned on me who it was.

	"Yeah, Sarah.  I'm fine.  I just woke up," I said.

	"Oh...sorry.  Well, anyway, how was lunch?"  she asked.

	"Don't worry about it.  I had to get up anyhow.  Lunch was good.
Interesting.  But good," I said.

	"What do you mean interesting?  What happened?  Tell me!" she
exclaimed.

	"Let's just say that things didn't exactly go like I thought they
would," I told her.  I proceeded to explain everything that had happened,
including me kissing Kevin's cheek.  Her next statement floored me.

	"You mean Howie is gay?  I can't believe it.  You will never guess
who will die when I tell him," she said.

	"I don't have any idea.  Who?"  I was curious to find out.

	"You will never believe this, but it's David, and he has a thing
for Howie," she came back with.

	"You're kidding right?  You can't be sitting here telling me that
David is gay," I asked.

	We were talking about David Boreanaz, who plays Sarah's love
interest Angel on "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".

	"Yes, I am," she answered.

	"Oh, my god...you're right!  I can't believe it!  I mean everyone
thinks that you and he are an item.  You guys look so good on screen
together that everyone just assumes it's because it's real," I said.

	"Well, we made it that way, so that no one would suspect.  The only
people who know are the rest of the cast.  And now you, of course.  So no
telling!  Not even Howie.  Deal?"  she asked.

	"Deal," I agreed.

	"So, what are you doing tonight?"  she asked

	"I'm supposed to go out with the guys, but first Kevin and I are
going to talk,"

	"Well, good luck.  I hope everything turns out ok.  I'm sure it
will,"

	"Thanks Sarah, and don't worry about me saying anything about
David.  I won't," I promised.

	"You had better not.  He would kill me if you did.  I gotta go.
Call me in the morning and let me know how tonight goes," she said.

	"I will.  Bye."

	"Bye," Sarah said and hung up the phone.

	I looked at the clock, and it was now 7:00.  I had to start getting
ready.

	I got in the shower and let all of the frustration and confusion
flow out of me.  I got out, shaved, and fixed my hair.

	I walked out of the bathroom wearing a towel, heading over to light
a cigarette on my way to the closet when the phone rang.

	"Hello?"  I said.

	"Jordan, its Kevin," he answered.

	My heart skipped a beat when I heard his voice, but I quickly
recovered.

	"Hey, Kevin...so what's the plan?"  I asked.

	"Well, I was thinking that you and I could go and get something to
eat and talk," he said.

	"That sounds fine, but what about the rest of the guys?"

	"We're going to meet up with them later, if that's ok with you.
I'll understand if you don't want to though," he said.

	"No...no...that's fine," I said.

	"Cool.  I'll be there to pick you up in about 20 minutes.  Is that
enough time for you?"

	"Yeah.  That's fine," I replied.

	"Great, see you then."

	"Bye Kevin," I said with a little disappointment in my voice.  I
didn't want the conversation to end.  But I also knew that I had all night
to talk to him.

	I went back to the closet to pick out something to wear.  I wound
up pulling out a pair of khaki's and a shirt from Structure.  I got
dressed, checked my hair one more time, and sprayed on a little Escape by
Calvin Klein.

	Twenty minutes later, I was down in the hotel lobby and Kevin was
walking in.

	"Jordan, you look great," he said.

	"Thanks.  You, too," I commented.  He had on a pair of black pants
and a dark blue shirt.  He looked absolutely gorgeous.

	We got into the rental car that Kevin had gotten, as the guys had
the limo, and headed off the restaurant he had decided upon.

	We didn't say much in the car ride over.  I think we were both too
nervous to say anything.  I just kept looking at him and smiling.  Trying
to keep myself calm.

	Ten minutes later, we arrived at a small Italian restaurant.  We
walked in and the maitre d' approached us.

	"I believe you have a reservation for Richardson?"  Kevin said.

	"Ah...yes, Mr. Richardson.  Everything is ready for you.  Right
this way, please," he said.

The maitre d' escorted us to a small, secluded table in the back of the
restaurant.  Subdued overhead scones and candles lit on the tables.  It was
perfect.

	"Here you are, gentlemen.  Enjoy your dinner," he said, as he
walked away.

	"Thank you," we both said in unison.

	We sat down across from each other in the small booth and just
looked at each other.

	Kevin was just about to say something, when our waiter came over to
explain the specials to us, leave menus, and take our drink orders.  With
that done he left.  I decided right then that I was going to have the upper
hand.  Or so I thought.

	"Kevin." I started, but before I could say anything else he cut me
off.

	"Jordan...let me go first...please...because if I don't, I don't
think I'll be able to get this out," Kevin said.

	"Ok...go ahead," I said.

	"First of all, I want to apologize for being so distant this
afternoon.  I was just wrestling with a lot of feelings that I wasn't ready
to deal with," he started.

	"Kevin, it's ok," I replied.

	"Thank you.  I also want to apologize for my outburst in the limo.
It was uncalled for.  I had just started thinking about someone I haven't
thought about in a long time.  I didn't think I still felt that strongly
about things."  He said all of this never looking directly at me, which had
me scared.

	"Kevin, it's ok...really.  We all have our moments sometimes," I
reassured him.

	"It's not ok, Jordan.  Not when the person you're attracted to is
right in front of you and you're trying to make a good impression."
	
"Kevin, did you just say..." I never got the chance to finish what I was
saying, because at that moment the waiter came with our drinks.  He took
our orders for dinner and left.

	"So, Kevin, before we were interrupted, I was asking..." I tried to
pick up where I left off, but again Kevin cut me off.

	"Jordan, I'm almost done, please let me finish," he said.

	"OK...I'm sorry, go ahead," I replied.

	"Ok, so like I was saying before.  It was no way for me to act in
front of someone I'm attracted to.  Yes, that person would be you Jordan.
And yes, I am gay..." he said.

	My head started to spin.  I couldn't believe this was happening.
Kevin had just told me he was gay.  This was too much for me to take in.
Plus he had said he was attracted to me.  This was turning out to be one
hell of a birthday.  I looked at him in disbelief.

	Then he continued.  "Jordan, nine months ago I was flipping through
TV channels in a hotel room somewhere, and came across 'On Our Own.'  That
was the first time I saw you.  I knew right then that I had to meet you.
There was just something about you.  I thought about you all of the time.
So when your manager called and asked us to come on the show, I begged the
guys to do it.  I mean I really, really had to beg them.  It was the only
way I knew I was going to get a chance to meet you.  And it was so worth
it.  I never thought I would be sitting here with you like this.  So, if
nothing else ever comes out of this, that's fine.  But, at least I got the
chance to meet you," he finally stopped.

	"Are you done?"  I said trying not to laugh.

	"I guess, but you don't have to laugh at me, you know.  I mean here
I am pouring my heart out to you, and all you can do is laugh," he said.

	"Kevin, I'm sorry.  I didn't mean to laugh at you.  It's just I
feel the same way about you.  Ask Brian, he'll tell you," I said.

	"Why didn't you tell me?"  He exclaimed.

	I proceeded to tell him everything I had told Brian at lunch.  When
I was done, he just looked at me and didn't say anything.

	"I tried to tell you, but Nick got in the way," I said.

	He still had that look on his face and now I felt like a fool for
saying anything at all.

	"Kevin, did I say something wrong?"  I asked.

	"No, not at all.  You said everything right.  I just never thought
I would hear that from you," he answered me.

	Before either of us could say another word, our food arrived.  We
both just looked at it and laughed.  After the waiter left, we looked at
each other.  What happened next will stick in my mind forever.  Kevin got
up from the table and walked over to me.  He stood in front of me and held
out his hand.  I looked up at him and saw the smile on his face.  I took
his hand and he pulled me up to him.  He put one arm around my waist and
pulled me as close to him as I could get.  I looked into his eyes.  I
couldn't say a word.  He laid his other hand on the side of my neck, and
gently pulled my face to his.  Then I felt his lips on mine.  They were so
soft.  We lightly kissed each other like that for a few minutes, while my
arms went around his waist.  Then, I remembered that we were in a public
place.  I pulled away from him and he got a look of disappointment on his
face like I had slapped him.

	"Jordan, what is it?  What did I do?" he asked nervously.

	"Nothing, Kevin, nothing.  You did everything right.  It was the
most incredible kiss I've ever had," I said.

	"Well, then, what is it?"  He asked, still looking like I had
slapped him.

	"Kevin we can't be doing this here.  Look at where we are.  We're
in the middle of a restaurant in the heart of Chicago and we're kissing.
This is not the best thing for us to be doing."  I answered.

	"Well, if you had paid attention when we walked in, you would have
noticed that there is barely anyone here, and the people that are here are
all in the front part of the restaurant.  We are all the way in the back,
so nobody can see us.  So we don't have to worry," he explained.

	"Kevin, I'm so sorry.  I should have realized.  I just wasn't
paying attention.  I was too caught up looking at you and I don't want to
hurt either of our careers," I said.

	"Thanks.  I know the feeling.  But at least you realized the one
thing that we both have to worry about: behaving in public," he said.

	"Well, for right now, we don't have to worry about it."  Then it
dawned on me.  "You set this up this way, didn't you?"  I asked, noticing
the big grin on his face.

	"Yeah, you could say that," he answered grinning.

	"So, what if I were to do this?"  I said, as I put both of my hands
on his face and pulled him into me and began kissing him for all I was
worth.  Kevin put everything he had into the kiss too.  Kevin pushed his
tongue into my mouth and our tongues met for the first time.  It was like
no kiss I had ever had.  Our tongues wrestled and played.  Then we slowed
down a bit and just enjoyed the kiss.  He became very gentle with me, like
he would break me if he kissed me too hard.  We finally broke our kiss and
just looked at each other, smiling.

	"It would be fine," he answered, catching his breath.

	"Maybe we should eat, while our food is still hot," I said.

	"Yeah, I think we should," Kevin agreed.

	We sat back down to eat, not letting go of each other's hands until
we absolutely had to.  In between bites of food, we just looked at each
other.  Not really saying anything, but with a lot being said by the way we
were looking at each other.


PART 6

	Kevin and I sat eating our dinner quietly.  I kept running the
events of the last fifteen to twenty minutes around in my head.  Kevin
telling me he was gay and then telling me he was attracted to me.  The
kiss.  It was so incredible, soft yet forceful and full of passion.
Kevin's voice brought me back to reality.

	"Jordan, are you ok?"

	"What?  Oh yeah, I'm fine.  I was just thinking, that's all," I
said.

	"Oh...just making sure.  What were you thinking about?"  Kevin
asked.

	"You...me...us...a lot of things," I replied.

	"Like what?  Tell me please."

	"I don't know where to start."

	"Well, just start at the beginning," he said.

	"Ok...here goes.  First, let me just say that I never thought I
would be here with you like this."

	"Me, too," Kevin said, grinning.

	I smiled and continued.  "You know, some of what you said in the
limo this morning made a lot of sense.  Let's just say, for the sake of
argument that, we both want this to go further.  I think I do, but what do
we do then?  I mean, my show films in LA, and you're on the road all of the
time.  How would we make this work?  Please don't think that I'm avoiding
giving this a chance before we even get started, but it's something we both
have to think about," I finished.

	"You're right we do, and I don't know what we're going to do.  I
guess we'll just have to cross that bridge when we come to it.  All I know
is that right now I want to be here with you and get to know you.  The rest
will work itself out.  If we were meant to be together."

	"Listen," he added.  "You're not leaving until Friday afternoon and
neither are we.  So, why don't we just enjoy the rest of tonight, and see
how it goes.  Then, if we don't hate each other by Friday, we can sit down
and talk it over, and figure out how to make this work.  Because I think
you could be someone I want to have a relationship with.  If we both want
it bad enough, we can make it work.  How does that sound?"  He finished.

	"That sounds like a plan to me," I said.

	He just gave me that gorgeous smile of his.

	"So, where do you guys go when you leave here?"  I asked him.

	"Well, we leave here and go to New York for a concert and some
promotional work for the new album.  Then to DC for the same thing.  And
all of that by Monday.  Then, we have the next two weeks off," he said.

	There was a plan forming in my head, but I had to remain in control
and not let Kevin think that I was up to anything.  But now I was going to
need the other guys' help.

	"Wow.  I thought that I had a busy schedule, but shit, I have
nothing on you guys.  Now I can see why you said the things you did this
morning.  I can understand your frustration," I said, sympathizing with
Kevin.

	"Yeah, it's hard.  That's why my last relationship didn't work.
Because I was never home.  He couldn't take it.  It ended very badly.  But
that's in the past," he said looking a little depressed.

	"What happened?"  I asked.

	"To make a long story short, we were on tour and he didn't like the
fact that I was gone so much.  So he went out and found someone else to
fill his lonely nights.  When I flew home to surprise him on a weekend off,
I walked into his house and found him in bed with another man.  So that
ended that and I told him I never wanted to see him again.  And I haven't.
He's tried to call me, but I can't trust him.  He tried to tell me it was
an accident, but I still can't believe him or trust him," he said.

	"Kevin, I'm so sorry.  He must have really fucked with your head
for you to have reacted the way you did this morning."

	"I was in love with him.  Or at least I thought I was.  But I've
come to realize, since it ended, that I didn't love him.  He was just
something familiar to come home to."

	"I can understand that," I said.

	"Thanks.  So, what about you?  Any disastrous break-ups in your
past?"  he asked.

	"No, not really.  Maybe when I was younger.  But, since I got to
LA, no.  I've barely gone out with anyone.  I've gone to premiers and stuff
with different actresses here and there for appearances sake, but I haven't
met the one person I've wanted to be with."  I started, but thinking to
myself 'until now.'

	"The other problem is Phil.  He worries about me.  He knew I was
gay when he signed me.  But we agreed then that for the good of my career,
I should be seen with as many girls as possible.  That leaves me very
little time to even go on a date," I finished.

	"I know the feeling.  It sucks, doesn't it?  That's why I'm so
happy you agreed to have dinner with me tonight."  He was smiling.

	"Thank you.  I'm glad I said yes too.  Although, I was a little
nervous on how it would turn out.  That, and I knew that if I said no,
Sarah would never forgive me," I said laughing.

	"Sarah?  She knows we're here together?"  He questioned nervously.

	"Yes, she does.  But don't worry.  She's my best friend and she
knows about me.  She won't say anything to anybody.  I mean. she told me
about David and...I... oh...my...Go...I don't...believe...I just...said
that," I just stopped talking.  Sarah is going to kill me. I thought.

	"David who?"

	"No one."

	"David who?"

	"No one.  Forget I said anything."

	"No, I'm not.  You said David.  David who?"

	"Kevin, please just forget about it."  I pleaded.

	"Oh my God.  I just got it.  If Sarah said something about David,
it could only be one person.  I never would have guessed," he said
excitedly.

	"Yes, it's him.  But, please, I beg you, don't say anything to the
guys.  I promised Sarah.  She would kill me if she knew I told you.  And I
will never kiss you again if you do," I threatened.

	"Ok...ok...I promise.  I just want to be able to kiss you again,"
he said.

	Kevin sat quietly for a minute thinking. I wish I could at least
tell Howie, but if I want this to last, and I do, I can't say a word.

	"So, where are we supposed to meet the guys?"  I asked trying to
change the subject.

	"Well, I told the guys that after we finished eating, I would call
them, and let them know what's up.  So, what do you feel like doing?  It's
your birthday after all?"  he asked.

	"Well, I know what I'd like to do, but I don't know how the other
guys and you would like it."

	"What is it?"

	"Well, I want to go dancing.  I haven't been in months.  But I
don't want you guys to get mobbed if we go to a club somewhere.  And,
honestly, neither do I, but I want to dance," I told him.

	"Fine, then that's what we will do, and trust me, the other guys
won't mind.  We go all of the time, and as long as we get up and do a song
or two for them, people usually leave us alone.  As for how they will react
with you there, we'll just have to wait and see, won't we?"  he said
smirking.

	"Gee, thanks," I replied.

	"You're welcome," still kind of laughing as he answered.

	We finished eating while talking about nothing really important.
Things like how we felt about the business we're both in.  Movies, music,
anything and everything.  When we were finally done, we both got up from
the table.

	As we got up, I grabbed Kevin's hand and pulled him into me and
kissed him.  When we parted, he asked, "What was that for?"

	"Because I wanted to.  And I wanted to thank you for the best
birthday I've ever had," I said.

	"You're welcome.  But the night's not over yet," he said.  "Come
on, let's go.  We still gotta call the guys.  They're waiting for us."

	Kevin paid the bill and we walked back to the rental car.  Once we
got into the car, Kevin turned to me and asked.

	"Do you want to play a little joke on the guys?"

	"Sure...what did you have in mind?"  I asked him.

	"Well, they know how we feel about each other.  And, if I'm right
they wanted this to work out just as much as we did.  So, why don't we,
just for a little while, make them think that it didn't?  Nothing drastic,
but, let them think that we didn't hit it off," he explained.

	"Fine with me, but you know just as well as I do how hard it's
going to be not to look at each other and give it away!"

	"Yeah, I do, but just think of it as practice for when we're in
public.  Just follow my lead.  Ok?"

	"Ok."

	"Good.  Now let me call them," he said, pulling out his cell phone
and he started dialing.  We leaned in together so we could both hear the
earpiece.

	"Bri?  Hey cuz, it's me," he said.

	"So how did it go?"  I heard Brian ask.

	"I'll explain later," he said, trying to sound disappointed, while
he was taking my hand in his.

	"Come on, Kev, tell me what's going on," Brian pleaded.

	"I said I'd tell you later.  Now, are you guys ready to go out?" he
asked.

	"Yup, we're all set.  What's the plan?"

	"Why don't I come back to the hotel and get you guys and we'll
decide then where we are going?"

	"Um...yeah...sure.  But, Kevin, I have to tell you, I don't like
the tone in your voice.  Are you sure everything is ok?"

	"I said later, Bri.  Now let it go."

	I started to laugh, and put my free hand over my mouth so I
wouldn't be heard.

	"Ok, cuz."

	"Good.  I should be there in about fifteen minutes."

	"Ok...see you then," Brian said.

	"Bye," Kevin said, and hung up the phone.

	"Do you think he bought it?"  I asked.

	"Yeah, I think so.  What I wouldn't give to be a fly on the wall in
that room right now!" he said laughing.

	"Me, too.  But, I'd much rather be here with you," I said smiling.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

	"Ok...see you then," said Brian, hanging up the phone on the hotel
night table.

	"SO!!!"  Nick, AJ, and Howie, all said at the same time.

	"Well, he wouldn't tell me anything.  He said he would tell me
later," Brian muttered.

	"What is that supposed to mean?"  Nick asked.

	"Yeah, you can't tell me that things went that badly," AJ put in.

	"I don't know.  He wouldn't tell me and he sounded kind of weird,"
Brian said.

	"I can't believe those two.  I mean, you could see on their faces
how much they want to be together.  What could have happened?"  Howie
asked.

	"I don't know.  We'll just have to wait until Kevin gets here and
tells us to find out," Brian said.

	"And that would be when?"  Nick asked.

	"In about fifteen minutes," Brian answered.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

	"Let me show you where I want to be," Kevin said, pulling me into a
kiss.  Our lips met and I opened my mouth to accept his tongue.  We sat
there and kissed for what seemed like forever.  When we broke apart, it had
only been two minutes.

	"I could definitely get used to that," I said.

	"Good.  That's the point," he said smiling again.

	Kevin started the car and we headed back to the hotel.  He held
onto my hand the entire ride there.

	We arrived at the hotel and Kevin turned to me.

	"Are you ready for this?"

	"Yeah.  I'll try not to blow it.  Just make sure you don't smile at
me, because if you do, it's all over," I said, trying not to laugh.

	"I'll try not to.  Let's go," he said.

	We got out of the car, and headed into the hotel.  Once we got to
the Elevator, Kevin grabbed my hand and held it until we got to the door of
Brian's room.

	"Here we go.  Remember, act disappointed," Kevin said.

	"I will.  Don't worry.  I'm the actor, remember?"  I said.

	"Yeah, I know," Kevin chuckled and knocked on the door.

	The door opened and Brian stood on the other side.

	"Hi, Kev.  Oh, Jordan, I...uh...didn't expect to see you," Brian
said blushing.

	I almost lost it right there, and started laughing, but I had
promised Kevin I wouldn't blow it.  Now I was going to have some fun.

	"Hi, Brian.  How are you?"  I asked.

	"Fine, come on in guys."

	Kevin followed Brian in and I followed right behind him so the
others couldn't see me.  The guys said hi to Kevin, then I stepped out from
behind him.

	"Hey, guys," I said, solemnly.

	They all looked at me astonished for a minute, then regained their
composure.

	"Hey, Jordan," Nick said.

	"Hi," AJ and Howie said together.

	I tried my best to look a little depressed.  I must have done a
good job, because none of the guys looked like they knew I was faking it.

	We sat and talked for a few minutes to decide where we were going.
All the while, the guys were getting used to the idea that Kevin and I were
just going to be friends.

	The guys left to go to their rooms to finish getting ready and we
went to Kevin's.

	After we got to Kevin's room, he went into the bathroom.  And I
walked out on the balcony to look at the city.  A couple of minutes later,
I felt a pair of arms circling my waist.  I turned my head and there was
Kevin.  I turned around in his arms, and looked into is beautiful hazel
eyes.  We started to kiss.

	Moments later we were abruptly interrupted by a voice.

	"I KNEW IT!  There was nothing wrong with you guys," Howie
exclaimed.

	Kevin and I started laughing hysterically.

	"Busted," was all I could say.