Date: Fri, 28 Jan 2000 18:19:13 EST
From: Hanhm16@aol.com
Subject: Lances Love part 12

Disclaimer:  If you are not at least 18 or of legal age to
view sexualcontent please leave now.  If you are offended by
homosexual experiences or acts this story is not for you.  I
am not implying that anyone of the group N'SYNC are gay or
Bi sexual.  This is strictly fictional, all of the
characters are also fictional and for the entertainment of
you, the readers.Let's Get It On
.........

Lances Love
 part 12


    "No, you said no."Jamie said outraged at me.

    "I said no.  That's the end of that." I said looking at
my dear friend.

    "Chris are you insane.  He loved you.  You will never
find some one that will love you like that again."

    "I know that.  I am willing to give that up."

    "Why the hell would want to give that up.  That is all
I have ever wanted and you as well.  Are you on fucking
drugs.  I mean did you take a stupid pill." Jamie said as
she stood and pased in front of me.

    "Jamie you just don't understand."

    "Try me.  Just try me then I will sit hear and listen
as long as it takes."

    "He was going to give up music.  That is his dream.  I
love him that is why I couldn't let him do it.  I want him
to keep making music because that is my dream as well.  I
don't have the opertunity to do that.  I don't want him to
give up anything for me.  This is the best thing that could
have been done."

    "Well, where is he know.  I mean he is hurt I should
probably go and talk to him."

    "Unless you want to go to Orlando you can't talk to
him.  They left this morning.  I can't get a hold of them
ever again.  It is for the best though."

    "Chris I am sorry that this all had to happen.  I mean
it is my fault."

    "What do you mean that it is your fault?"

    "Well I did tell him to go ahead and ask you.  He told
me that he was thinking about it but wasn't sure.  I told
him to go for it.  I never thought you'd say no."

    "Thanks Jamie.  I didn't have a choice.  I love him to
much to do that.  I will live the rest of my life without
him.  I will go without anyone.  I gotta go and clean the
house up."

    "I'm sorry.  If you need to talk to someone just come
see me."

    "Bye"

    On the drive home all I could think of was what I did.
I really do love him but I hurt him so much.  Would I ever
hear from him again.  Well I lost the one person who could
make me smile, laugh, and feel good about myself.  I got
home and there was a note on the refrigerator.

Dear Chris,

    I love you and I know you know that.  I can't believe
you would treat me like this.  I mean you pretended to love
me to get me in bed.  When I ask you what I thought you
wanted to hear you said no and left me alone.  You didn't
even let me talk to you.  I just can't stand to see you or
hear from you ever again.  So please don't ever try to
contact me.  I will have you put in jail for stalking and
harrassment if you do.  It hurts me to say this but what you
did by lieing to me is unforgivable.  How you could lie to
me about loving me is beyond my grasp.  Good bye forever
Chris.

LOVE ALWAYS,
James Lansten Bass

    My dream came true after all.  I can't believe that it
has come true.  I won't let the whole dream become true.  I
can't let that happen.  I won't give him the satisfaction.
I will work and keep the house.  I will live till I am a old
cripled man.  I went to my room after reading the letter.
Sat on my bed which is where I saw him last.  I cried myself
to sleep.  I awoke when the phone rang.

    "Hello" I said as I rubbed my eyes.

    "Hey Chris, this is just your wake up call to make sure
you were gonna make it to work today.  Besides I want to
hear all the juicy gossip about the guys.  You have a hour
an a half to get to work so get up and get ready now."
Mellisa said very cheary.

    "Ok I will be there thanks for waking me up."

    "No problem got to go and get ready myself.  See ya at
work."

    "When I hung up the phone the door bell rang.  I got up
and went to answer the door to see who it is.

    "Hi Mr Parsons.  I brought your car back as scheduled.
With the rebuilt engine it runs better than new.  It is all
ready for you.  I hope you are satisfied with our service
and come back to us with any other problems."

    "Thank you very much ya'll are very punctiional." I
said as I looked at my watch to see the time.  The gentleman
handed me my keys and walked off to his co-worker in the
company car.

    I went back inside jumped into the shower and slowly
washed.  I thought about when me and Lance took a shower
together.  It brought tears to my eyes to think of how I
hurt him.  I should've talked to him instead of dismissing
him like that.  He really didn't deserve it.  I should of
just explained to him where I was coming from.  It's to late
now I have to continue with my life as if I never met him.
That's gonna be so hard to do though.

    I made it to work just in time.  Mellissa was already
at work and sending people on there way through her line.  I
did have to talk to her.  Maybe I would feel better about
what I did if I talked about it a little more.  I took
register 2 because Mellissa was on 1.

    "Well good afternoon" I said to Mellissa.

    "Same to you handsome.  So how was your weekend."

    "I have so much to tell you, but you have to promise me
that you won't tell no one.  That is kind of stupid for me
to say because I know you won't."

    "Sure shoot, I have been waiting to hear all about it."

    I started my long and complicated story.  Mellissa
stood and absorbed all I said with a smile.  To look at her
face and see her sympathy made me feel relaxed.  Maybe a
little to relaxed because when I got to the end of it I was
in tears.  I understood all of Lances pain as for the first
time since the whole incident.  I now know what I did was
wrong but I can't turn back time or change the past.

    "Chris I am so sorry for you.  But why couldn't you
just talk to him about it.  I mean he sure as hell loved you
if he asked you to marry him.  He would have understood.  I
should just shut up because you need me here to support not
to fuss."

    "Thank you so much.  I think I am going to ask for my
vacation early.  I need some time off and time to think and
get myself straightened back out."

    I left work that day with the blessings of Lynn.  She
understood that I was very upset with my relationship
problems.  I tried to tell her what I could with out letting
go of all of it.  I left out with who the relationship was
with, and that it was a guy.  She had no problem letting me
go for the next two weeks to get my life adjusted to my
sorrow.  I arrived to my house and got the mail.  There was
a letter from Trans Continetal.  I expected a letter of
warning about Lance but instead it was to inform me that
they loved my demo tape that there recieved in my behalf.  I
had a plane ticket to Orlando waiting for me at the airport.
I was supposed to leave Wednesday.  I walked up to the front
door to find Jamie standing there to greet me.

    "Well hello stranger we didn't expect you home for
another hour."

    "Who is we?"

    "There's me, Heather, Christine, Eric, and Mel."

    "Mel?????Why..What..."

    "I called him this morning after you left.  I told him
the whole situration.  He couldn't imagine letting you go
through such a hard time without him here for you.  Chris we
all care about you and worry about you so much.  So he flew
in on the first flight and arrived about ten minutes ago."

    "Damn I didn't know ya'll cared so much about me.  The
whole gang back together again.  There is only one..."

    "Shut up and get inside with everyone." Jamie said as
she ushered me into the house.

    "Crispy, I am here for ya.  Damn I traveled half way
around the damn continent to see ya ugly ass."

    "Well thank you very much MR. Teddybear.  I can't
believe all of ya'll coming together for me."

    "Well I want to dance and we also got some preserves.
Can you say Tequila." Christine said as she walked over to
the stereo and turned on her theme song.  Silly Ho by TLC.

    "I am so glad I gave you that song.  Now come here I
want to dance." I said as I walked over to Christine and
started to dance.

    We danced, talked, and drank alot during those hours we
spent awake.  We passed out, I would say about 5 hours
later.  Everyone just crashed in the living room.  All and
all I would say that it was a success.  I forgot about Lance
which was why they showed up in the first place.  I was
happy that we could all get together and have a real blast,
but when I awoke and found the letter in my pocket I knew
there was a decision to make.  I got up and went to take a
shower.  When I got out everyone was stirring in the living
room making small talk and the such.

    "Good morning everyone, and before ya'll say anything I
have something I need to discuss with ya'll.  Last night was
a blast and I apprieciate all of this and my house is ope to
any of you.  But...."

    "What do you mean but." Eric said wiping his eyes.

    "I got a letter yesterday in the mail.  Someone sent in
a demo tape of me to Trans Continental.  Well they loved it
and have me scheduled to take a flight out tomorrow to
Orlando to speak with them."

    "Chris that's your dream.  I can't believe this you get
to do what you've always wanted to do." Heather said as she
stood and gave me a huge hug.

    "Well there is a problem.  That is the same label that
supports Backstreet Boys and N'sync.  I will just be
starting out so they will probably use me as a opener for
there bigger groups.  Which means I will have to face Lance.
I don't think I can handle that.  I am scared that if I blow
this I will never get the chance to fulfill my dream ever
again." I stood there with tears pouring down my face as the
whole situration hit me completely.  I know this is a true
problem to give weeks of concideration but I only have a day
to decide.

    "Chris, this will give you a chance to finally tell him
what you were doing by saying no.  He will have to talk to
you." Christine says as she walks over to me and plants a
kiss on my forehead.

    "This is your last chance to talk to him in anyway
Chris don't let it pass you up.  Things just might not be
over like you thought.  I think you should go for it." Jamie
tells me as she stretches the last of her morning kinks.

    I packed my bags with the help of some of the greatest
friends ever.  With their help I was ready to go in about a
hour.  I hugged everyone and thanked them for there help.  I
ended up going to the movies with everyone and hanging out
one last time before I left.  When the movie was over we
drove to the airport.  We said I final good bye's and off I
went to Orlando to what may be my dream or disaster...

TBC..........

I think that was a bit of a twist but yet the next chapter
is yet to come.  Will Lance forgive Chris or not.  Who knows
but I am open for suggestions from you all.  I would also
like to put a hand out for all of the arthors who may be
recieving awards soon.  For any comments just Email me at
Hanhm16@aol.com.