Date: Sat, 11 Mar 2000 05:47:47 GMT
From: Warcraft2 Master <warcraft2master@hotmail.com>
Subject: Lance's Thoughts

Okay this is my first attempt at writing a boy-band story so bare with me.
I figured that since I read the stories so often on here, that I should try
and to write one.
	*Okay the usual disclaimer...If you aren't of legal age or it is illegal to
read this in your state...yadda yadda yadda...just don't get caught.  If you
don't like reading m/m stories than how did you end up here?  In addition, I
am not implying anything about the sexuality on the members of 'Nsync or the
Backstreet Boys.  Please send me e-mails on what you think...good, bad, etc.
  Thanks and enjoy the story.

Lance Thoughts

Chapter 1: The Beginning

	On a dark, desert highway, the 'Nsync tour bus was on its way to its next
concert at Phoenix, Arizona.  The members of 'Nsync were asleep, all except
for Lance.  He sat in the back of the bus on a couch going over some papers
that he had been asked to go over.  He finished with the papers, but he
still wasn't tired.  He picked up the remote for the TV and started flipping
through the channels trying to find something interesting to watch.
	He let the TV fall at a random station.  He wasn't even paying attention to
the program.  He was thinking about all of the things he had just now come
to realize and accept about his own sexuality.  He knew that his parents
would probably have a hard time dealing with this, but he also knew that he
DID have to tell them and his fellow band members.  This combined with the
new boy-band tour coming up with them and the Backstreet Boys was taking its
toll on Lance.
	As he was thinking this Justin came into the room, snuck up on Lance, and
grabbed his shoulders.  Lance jumped up with a yelp and turned around to see
Justin laughing.
	"Oh you little bastard," Lance said grinning.
	"Ha ha, I got ya," Justin replied in triumph.
	Lance didn't say anything.  He just sat back down and continued.  Justin
sat down beside him and said, "Penny for your thoughts Scoop."
	"Not this time Justin...this is just something that I need to think about
alone."
	Justin nodded and got up to leave.  Lance turned to him and said, "But
thanks.  I really mean it."
	Justin again gave a nod with a smile and left.  Lance sighed and eventually
fell asleep on the couch.  He awoke to find that everyone was still asleep.
He then checked his watch and found out that it was only six in the morning,
and that he had actually only been sleeping for an hour.  He decided to go
up and ask the driver how much longer.
	"So Brandon," Lance said as cheerfully as he could, "how much longer?"
	Brandon turned around for a second to see who it was.  He then focused his
eyes back on the road and replied, "Oh I don't know...probably another two
hours."
	"Thanks," Lance said and walked off.  He walked over to his bunk and
crawled in to try and get another couple hours of sleep.  It didn't take
long and soon sleep came over him.  Before he knew it he was being shaken
lightly as he heard the person saying, "Come on Lance, time to get up."
	Lance groaned and pulled himself out of the bunk.  He blinked a couple
times so that he could focus on the person who had awakened him.  He looked
up to see a pair of brown eyes starring at him.  He groaned again and said,
"We there already Joey?"
	"I'm afraid so, and it looks like we have been expected," Joey said
pointing out the window.  Lance turned and saw what looked to be at least
300 people lined up outside their bus.
	"You have to be kidding me," Lance said in all seriousness.  He couldn't
even think about going out there and signing autographs.  All he wanted to
do was go to his room and fall back asleep.
	"Don't worry Scoop.  We called and security's on its way to help disperse
the crowd.  We already told them that we wouldn't be signing autographs at
the moment.  J.C., Justin, and Chris went to sign a few to make it look like
we weren't being pricks," Joey said with a small smile.
	Lance just nodded and went to the bathroom.  He fixed his hair, used the
bathroom, and brushed his teeth.  After five minutes he emerged from the
bathroom and heard the other member's voices coming from the front of the
bus.  He walked in as they were talking about their schedule.  Lance nodded
to J.C., Justin, and Joey who were facing him.  He sat down next to Chris
and just listened to the other guys talking.
	He started thinking about the upcoming tour.  He had wanted to meet up with
them because it had been a while since they last saw each other.  Almost 2
years actually.  He was anxious because he liked hanging out with them.
They were so easy to get along with.  He was snapped out of his daydream
when Chris lightly flicked him on his ear.  "Yo, Scoop.  Hey.  Hello.
Anybody home?"
	"Huh...oh yeah sorry, what?"
	"I said we can get off the bus now."
	"Yeah, thanks," Lance said sleepily.
	"You alright, Lance?"
	"Yeah, I am just really tired.  I was up last night going over the schedule
and what not for the upcoming tour."
	"Oh, ok I will make sure that you are allowed to sleep for a little while
longer," Chris said with a smile.  Lance returned the smile and walked off
the bus.  As soon as he stepped off the bus, he was greeted by a young girl
running up to him past security.  She looked like she was probably fourteen
or fifteen.
	"Did ya need something, darlin'," Lance asked with a big smile.
	"Umm, yeah I was wondering if I could maybe get an autograph.  I know you
guys weren't signing any, but I really wanted to get your autograph," the
young girl said.
	"Hmm I guess I could sign just one."  The girl got a very big smile out of
that comment.  Lance was handed the picture of him she was holding and
signed the picture.  To the one who ran past security to get my autograph.
Love, Lance.  The girl read it over quickly, thanked him, and ran off.
Lance sighed to himself and continued the walk to the elevator.  The ride
was very short and soon he was in his room.
"Hey Scoop," Justin said coming from the bathroom, "looks like me and you
are sharing a room."
	"That's cool.  Right now though, I just want to get some sleep."
	"Ok, I figured that.  Don't worry I was going to go chill with J.C. for a
while.  I will make sure no one disturbs you."
"Thanks Justin."
	"Hey, no problem, man."  After Justin left the room Lance lay down in his
bed and started up at the ceiling.  He desperately wanted to sleep, but for
some reason, he couldn't.  He was very tired just not sleepy.  He sat up in
bed after more than an hour of trying to sleep.
	"Man, why can't I get to sleep," Lance asked the empty room.  A few moments
later there was a knock at the door.  Lance groaned and said, "come in."
The door opened and Justin emerged.
	"Hey Scoop, just checking to see if you were up."
	"Yeah I couldn't fall asleep."
	"Oh.  Well I came to tell you that the Backstreet Boys are here."
	"Ok where are we meeting them at."
	"We are going to have a meeting in the conference room in the hotel.  Also,
they will have the rooms on the floor above us."
	"Great, so when is the meeting.  Do I have time to take a shower."
	"Yeah you do the meeting isn't for another hour and a half."
	"Ok thanks Justin.  I am going to go take my shower now."
	"Ok I am going to watch some TV."  Lance nodded and walked into the
bathroom.  He started the water up and when it was at the desired
temperature, he stepped in.  The warm water felt relaxing spraying off his
very tense body.  He quickly finished his shower and dried himself off.  He
put the towel around his waist and stepped out of the bathroom.
	Justin was still sitting on the couch watching TV.  Lance walked past him
and quickly got changed into some causal clothes; a pair of jeans and a
black t-shirt.  He saw that he still had about half an hour of time to kill,
so he sat on the couch and watched a little TV with Justin.
	About ten minutes later, there was another knock at the door.  This time
J.C. emerged into the room and spoke up to the two younger members who were
totally oblivious to his presence.  "Hey guys, we have to get going now,"
J.C. said making the two other members rise from the couch and follow him
out the door.
	When the exited the room they were joined by Joey and Chris and they all
headed to the elevator.  In no time, they were all seated in the conference
room with the Backstreet Boys and a half of dozen people from Jive records.
The sat in the conference room for more than two hours mostly going over the
schedules of concerts, autograph signings, etc.
	Lance was having a hard time concentrating on the meeting his mind kept
going in overtime on how he was going to tell the guys of both 'Nsync and
the Backstreet Boys, as well as his family.  He didn't even notice when the
meeting was over.  He came out of his thoughts when he felt someone lightly
shaking his shoulders.  He looked up and saw Brian smiling and saying, "Nice
of you to finally come back to planet Earth."
	"Huh?  Oh.  Yeah...um...I was just thinking,"
	"Ok.  Well the guys were talking about going somewhere for dinner.  They
are going to meet up in J.C.'s room and decide what to do.  I told them that
I would wake you up from LaLa land," with that Brian let out a little laugh
and extended his hand to Lance.  Lance shook it and got up out of his seat.
	"Well, lets get going," Lance said and exited the room.  Brian nodded and
followed Lance.  They both entered J.C.'s room at the same time.  When they
entered the rest of the band members were decided on what kind of food to
eat.  Chris, Nick, A.J., and Justin. all wanted Pizza; while Howie, Kevin,
Joey, and J.C. all wanted to go out for dinner.  Justin looked up and saw
Brian and Lance standing at the door.  He quickly got up and ran to them and
said, "Ok we are trying to decide on what to eat.  We have narrowed it down
to pizza and going out to eat.  We are tied on votes.  What do you to want
to do," Justin said in one breath.
	Lance and Brian looked at him and burst out laughing.  Justin looked at
them questionably.  Lance saw this and spoke to him, "Jeez Curly, I am
surprised you were able to get all of that out in one breath."  With that
Brian gave a little snicker and spoke up, "I want some pizza."  Justin than
looked at Lance and was met with a reply of pizza.  Justin and Nick both
jumped up and said "yes".
	They ended up ordering pizza and eating in Kevin and Brian's room since it
was bigger than the rest.  They all broke up into little groups and started
chatting about the upcoming tour and non-important things.  Lance sat over
in a corner and started thinking to himself.  He was really fighting with
himself about what to do.  He just couldn't decide.
	Nick saw that Lance was sitting all by himself and decided to go over and
talk with him.  "Want to talk about it," Nick asked politely.
	"No, I don't think so.  At least not right now."  Nick gave a shrug and
left.  Lance was approached by J.C., A.J., and Howie all asking him if he
wanted to talk about, but Lance gave the same response he gave Nick.  By
now, Lance was getting frustrated with everyone wondering if he was alright.
  Next came Kevin.  He strolled up to Lance and took a seat next to him.
	"So Lance, looks like something is bothering you.  Anything you want to
talk about?  I am a pretty good listener."
	"No, thanks Kevin."
	"You sure?"
	"Yes I am sure."
	"Ok but if you want to talk about it, just let me know."
	"Thanks I will."
	Soon after Kevin left him alone he moved over to the couch that Howie and
Joey were sitting on, and joined them in watching TV program they had on.
After watching MTV for a very short time Lance got up and excused himself
and went down to his room.  He entered his room, removed his shoes, and
walked over and laid down in his bed.  He let out a deep sigh and wondered
he would ever tell the others that he was gay.  He so much wanted to, he
just didn't want to be rejected.
	Just then Justin walked into the room and asked, "Hey Scoop, they guys are
going to go clubbing.  They wanted to know if you wanted to come?"
	"No, not this time.  Maybe some other time."
	"You ok Lance?"
	"I will be eventually."  Justin gave him and odd look, nodded and left the
room.  Lance lay back down in his bed and decided that he didn't want to
sleep, so he got up and decided to go for a walk around the hotel.  Lance
grabbed his CD player and put in a Jefferson Airplane CD.  He put on the
headphones and started his walk around the hotel.  He was listening to the
song "White Rabbit"; this song always calmed Lance down.  He was looking
down and didn't realize that Brian was walking towards him.
	Soon they collided and Lance and Brian were both on the ground.  Lance
quickly picked himself up and looked down at Brian and said, "Oh Brian, I am
sorry I didn't see you coming.  I am really sorry," Lance babbled, "here let
me help you up," Lance offered his hand and Brian took it.  Brian stood up
and said, "No, it was my fault I wasn't paying attention.  Are you ok?"
	Lance looked at him, smiled and said, "Yeah I am fine."
	Brian nodded and said, "So I see you didn't go out with the rest of the
guys."
	"Yeah I just don't feel much like partying right now."
	"Something I can help you with," Brian asked with pure kindness.
	"Not right now.  This is just something that I need to do on my own, but
thanks anyway I really mean it."
	"No problem.  Just know that if you want to talk that I'll be here."  Lance
nodded and walked back towards his room.  Brian in turn did the same thing.

***Meanwhile at the club***

	Nick came off the dance floor and sat down next to Chris who hand sat down
only a few moments before Nick.  "Hey Chris!"
	Chris looked up and smiled at Nick and replied, "Hey yourself.  Got tired
of dancing for now huh?"
	"Yeah I just wanted to get something to drink," Nick said taking the cap
off a bottle of water.  "So why aren't dancing right now?"
	"Oh, I just felt like sitting down and watching everyone else," Chris
replied looking out onto the dance floor.  Nick nodded and continued to look
at Chris.  Nick had always wanted to be close to Chris.  He always admired
him, but that wasn't all of it, Nick also had a huge crush on him.  Chris
turned back to see Nick staring at him and just smiled back.
	Chris stood up and turned to Nick; "Well I think I will be leaving.  I am
getting tired."
	"Yeah I think I will join you.  Today has been a long day, and I have
serious jet lag."  Chris nodded and walked over to J.C. and told him that he
and Nick were going back to the hotel.  J.C. nodded and continued dancing.
Chris walked back over to Nick and told him, "Well lets get going."  Nick
nodded and he and Chris walked out of the club.

***Back at the hotel***

	Lance got back into his hotel room and turned on the TV.  He turned on MTV
and saw a rerun of 'Nsync's Favorite Videos.  He signed and sat back on the
couch and hoped he would just fall asleep watching TV.  In no time, he had
dozed off.  He was awoken a short time later by a knock at the door.  Lance
groaned and got up from the couch.  He walked over to the door and opened
it.  There stood Brian standing at his door with a saddened look on his
face.  "Brian what's wrong?"
	"Lance, Chris and Nick are in the hospital."
	"What," Lance asked in shock, "what happened?"
	"They were in a car accident."
	"Oh my God, are they alright?"
	"I am not sure I just got a call from management.  They were notified by
the hospital, they than called me because they couldn't get a hold of anyone
else.  They sent someone to the club to get everyone else."
	"Well what are we waiting here for lets go to the hospital."  Brian nodded
and followed Lance down to the parking garage where they were met by a limo
driver.  Lance told him where to go and they were off.  Lance looked at
Brian and asked, "Did management tell you how bad they were hurt?"
	"All they told me was that Nick was having surgery done on his leg and
Chris was recovering in ICU."
	"Oh, no."
	"Yeah they told me to come get you so I did."  About ten minutes later they
pulled up to the hospital.  They both ran in and quickly asked the nurse
where Chris and Nick were.  She told them to wait in the lobby and a doctor
would be with them shortly.  The both reluctantly sat down and waited.
About 20 minutes later the reaming band members rushed into the lobby.
Lance noticed them and hollered for them to come over.  Lance explained that
the doctor would be out soon and talk to them about Nick and Chris.
	Less than 10 minutes after the rest had arrived the doctor came out and
talked to them.  "Good evening I am Dr. Carlisle, I have been supervising
the car of your friends.  I am going to tell you now that they were very
lucky.  From what I got from the officer that when they were brought in that
it was the limo drivers skills that kept them from being injured even worse
than they were."
	"Mr. Carter was the most severely injured of the three, although it isn't
life threatening, he has broken his leg in two different places.  He also
cracked a couple ribs.  He won't be doing any dancing for at lease 3 months.
  Mr. Kilpatrick only received a cracked rib and a sprained right foot.  He
should be able to return to his usual daily activities within a couple
weeks.  If you want you can see them now.  They have been moved to the 2nd
floor."
	Everyone thanked the doctor and were off to the elevators.  The members of
Nsync went and saw Chris while the Backstreet boys went to see Nick.  In
Nick's room, Brian and Kevin approached the bed while A.J. and Howie stood
back so they could talk with Nick.  They talked for a few minutes about the
accident.  Howie and A.J. excused themselves and said they would come by
tomorrow after they recovered from their hangovers.  Brian and Kevin said
they would stay until Nick fell asleep, and continued to chat with him.
	In Chris' room, it wasn't that different from the scenes in Nick's room.
All left the room except for J.C. who stayed to talk with Chris.  "So Chris,
the doctor told me that if all the tests turned out ok, they would release
you tomorrow or the next day."
	Chris nodded and asked, "How is Nick?  The nurse wouldn't tell me
anything."
	"He isn't in the best shape, but on the other hand he isn't in the worst.
He broke his leg and he cracked a couple ribs.  They said he wouldn't be
able to go back to the usual routine of the performances for about 3
months."  Chris sighed and turned over and looked out of the window.  J.C.
saw that Chris wanted to be alone so he told Chris he would come by tomorrow
to check on him.
	Back in Nick's room, Nick had finally dosed off and the two remaining Boys
left the room.  A few minutes later the door to Nick's room opened and Chris
came in the room supported by a wheelchair.  He pulled up next to Nick's bed
and began talking, "Man, I am so sorry Nick.  This is all my fault.  If I
would have stayed at the club with the rest of them, this whole thing
wouldn't have happened.  I am really sorry."  Chris reached forward and
touch the sleeping man's cheek.  He then moved down and took Nick's hand in
his own.  He held on for a few minutes and then felt Nick's body stir.
	Nick looked up and saw that Chris was smiling at him.  "Hey, man," Nick
said in a groggy voice.
	"Hey.  How are you feeling?"
	"As fine as I can, under the circumstances that is."
	Chris nodded and replied, "I am sorry Nick.  I shouldn't have suggested we
leave.  This is all my fault.  I am so-."  Nick cut him off by leaning
forward and kissing Chris on the lips.  The stayed in the kiss for a minute
and then Chris finally pulled away.
	"Wow," was all that Chris could come back with.  Chris leaned back down and
gave Nick a brief kiss before pulling away and saying, "I will see you
tomorrow, ok?  You need to get some sleep."  Nick nodded and closed his
eyes.  Before Nick fell back asleep he mumbled, "I love you."
	Chris smiled and replied, "And I you."

To be continued...

	*Well there it is.  I hoped you enjoyed it.  I enjoyed writing this story.
Please send your comments to warcraft2master@hotmail.com.  They will be
greatly appreciated.  I am not sure when I am going to have the next part
out.  But rest assured I have already started the second part so it
shouldn't take to long*