Date: Mon, 18 Sep 2000 17:49:27 GMT From: Elly Iles <uptowngurrl@hotmail.com> Subject: little white lies - 6 Hi, just a quick note to say that so far, this story has been entirely from Kevin's point of view, and as of this chapter we're gonna see some stuff that happens when Kevin's not in the room. Oooh, can you bear the anticipation?!!! Oh, and I just wanna give a big shout out to my new friend Dara Lynn, who I absolutely love. Go read No Painless Way (after you've finished this!) cos it rules! Chapter 6 "You know, you'd be able to practise a lot better if you weren't staring at Nick's butt the whole time." AJ whispered into Kevin's ear as they finished practising 'Backstreet's Back. "Hell, you might even get the dance routine right." "Bite me." Kevin answered dully. He walked away, leaving AJ standing there, smirking. "Is that an invite, Kev?" AJ called after him. Just ignore him, Kevin told himself. He'll soon get bored. "Hey Kevin." Nick bounded up to him. Kevin wondered where the kid got all his energy from. They had just been practising for two hours solid, and all Kevin wanted to do was go back to the hotel and sleep. "Yeah, Nick?" Kevin asked, irritated. "You don't have to be so rude." Nick looked put-out. Kevin sighed. That had been out of order. It wasn't Nick's fault he was feeling like this. Well, technically it was, but not really directly. "I'm sorry." Kevin looked genuinely apologetic. "I'm just a little tired." "That's okay." Nick smiled sympathetically. "I hate to see you down, Kev." "I'm not down." Kevin smiled at the youth's compassion. How can I be when I have you to look at? He asked himself secretly. "Will you be okay for the show tonight?" "Sure I will." Kevin ruffled Nick's hair. "Just give me a few hours sleep and I'll be fine, you know me." He watched as Nick straightened out his hair, mock-scowling. It isn't impossible to see why his two best friends are in love with him, Kevin decided, but it does seem impossible for him to see they're in love with him. "Yo Kev." AJ walked up to them. Kevin sighed miserably. "What now?" "Peter wants to see you. Something about your crap dance routine." "I didn't notice." Nick looked confused. "No, it only seemed to lapse in the songs where you were stood directly in front of him." AJ raised an eyebrow. "I wonder why that was?" "I don't get it." Nick exclaimed, trying to work out if there was some joke he wasn't in on. "Don't worry about it Nick." Kevin shot AJ 'the look'. "AJ's just trying to be funny." "Whatever." Nick shook his head off, before walking off to find Brian. "And who said blondes were dumb?" AJ exclaimed, laughing. "You are such a fucking asshole AJ." Kevin hissed. "I mean, we only kissed. It's not as if I owe you anything." "I don't want anything, Kevin." AJ replied. "I just think it's only fair Nicky knows that you want to fuck him." "If you dare say anything to him I swear, I will hate you forever." "Oh no." AJ held his hand to his mouth, pretending to be shocked. "Anything but that, Kevin." "And I don't want to fuck him." Kevin informed AJ. "Oh, that's right, you're attracted to him on an intellectual level." AJ laughed. "Get real, Kevin. You're not fooling anyone." He sauntered off. Kevin stared after him. "Wanna bet?" He muttered. *** "What are you doing?" Nick asked Brian as he came out from the bathroom into the bedroom that him and Brian were sharing in the hotel. Actually, it was quite apparent what Brian was doing, Nick just couldn't seem to comprehend why. "I'm moving into Kevin's room." Brian looked over apologetically. "How come?" Nick's beautiful lips parted in shock, even hurt. Don't look at him, Brian told himself. Don't look at him. "Me and Kevin haven't been spending a lot of time together recently. We had a bit of a break-through the other night, and we both thought it would do us good to share rooms on this tour. Besides, you need your privacy." "No I don't." Nick informed him. "I like sharing with you." "And I like sharing with you. But Kevin always gets left out. He's been the odd-one out ever since this band started." Brian sighed. "C'mon Nicky, don't be immature about this." It's not as if I want to move out, he added secretly. But how the hell would you react if you knew I was getting hard just seeing you in that towel? "Fine Brian." Nick walked over to the mirror and began brushing his hair. "You go and make up for a whole fucking year with Kevin that you never needed to waste in the first place." "Nick, please don't." "Brian, it's cool." Nick swallowed. Shit, he's going to cry, Brian realised. Is this really worth it? "I'll go then." Brian stood up. You asshole, he shouted inwardly at himself. Go over there and hug him or something. Don't just leave it like this. Oh yeah, his less politically-correct voice reasoned, and then just whip that towel off from round his waist and fuck him while you're at it. Like that's gonna work. "See ya." Nick answered, not once looking at him. Brian picked up his suitcase and sighed regretfully before walking out. As soon as he had closed the door he heard Nick sobbing angrily. Brian walked away before he started as well. *** "How did it go?" Kevin asked, although he didn't really need to know by the look on Brian's face. "Bad." Brian sighed. "I know I'm doing this for his own good, but I still couldn't help feeling like crap when he started crying." "He started crying?" Kevin asked, surprised. Shit, he wouldn't ever react like that if it had been me moving out, he realised. But still, you got what you wanted. Now they have no chance of getting together, at the expense of making them both miserable. I hope you're happy with yourself, jerk. "I know." Brian shook his head. "I can't stand it when he cries. I just want to kiss him, tell him everything will be okay." He laughed wryly. "I think he'd be more than a little surprised if I started to do that though." "Just a bit." Kevin tried to smile back, while feeling like he wanted to kill himself. This wasn't right. He was causing his cousin to feel unhappy unnecessarily. He should just tell him to go right back in there and make up with Nick. "Don't worry." He told Brian, going against his better judgement. "Nick will have forgotten about it tomorrow." Once again, thanks for reading, keep sending me e-mails cos I love it, and stay tuned for the next chapter. That's all folks!