Date: Sun, 17 Dec 2000 16:44:36 +0100
From: Martin Andersson <martin_silver83@hotmail.com>
Subject: chapter 4 of Lonely one

Hey everyone! Here's chapter 4 of Lonely one. I only recieved responses from
one person and I hope that my story is read by more than just him. It would
be nice if you could send me your thoughts. He who send the mail know who he
is! :) I love your story! His story is 'Loneliness knows me by name' and
check it out. It's really good.
I'm also starring in that story too as well. I have added a person to the
plot. He isn't too involved right now but will be in the next chapter or the
chapter after that.
Happy reading!

Disclaimer:  If you are not at least 18 or of legal age to
view sexual content please leave now. If you are offended
by homosexual experiences or acts this story is not for you.
This story is pure fiction. I don't know if anyone in *Nsync is gay or
bisexual. All the charachters in the story except for the guys in Nsync, me
and Cody are fiction and doesn't exist. That leaves out only Jennifer.
(She's the only fictional character yet)

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*Lance's hotelroom*

We slept all night. I woke up around seven in the morning. We were still in
the same position as we fell asleep in. My hand had slipped down a bit and
was now over his stomach. I felt his hand on my butt. I looked up at him and
he was still asleep. He had a huge smile on his face as he slept. I raised
my hand up to his lips and stroked over them. He stirred some and let out a
moan. I needed to go to the bathroom so I slipped out of bed. I put the
covers up to his chin and walked towards the bathroom. I turned around and
looked at him when I reached the door. He is so beatiful, I thought. I went
in and did my business. I sat down afterwards on the chair in front of the
sink. I looked at myself in the mirror. I raised my hand and touched my own
reflection. I just slept with a guy, I thought. No, I just slept with the
man I love. I smiled at that thought. I washed my face and walked back out
into the bedroom. Lance had moved so he was now lying on his stomach. I
walked to the window. It was still dark outside. Even the city was pretty
dark, it was too early yet. I sat down next to the window and stared out
over Stockholm. I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my chin on them.
I looked over briefly at Lance. He was sound asleep. I couldn't help but
smile at him. He was wonderful. I continued to look out at the city, slowly
waking up from the sleep of millions of people. The sun rising on the
horizone just as it had done since the beginning of the earth. I shifted and
looked at Lance. I sat there watching him sleep. His every breath. It was
like an eternity. I knew then that I could wake up to that sight every
morning, never growing tired of it. Lance was all that was missing in my
life. He was the last piece wich completed me. He shifted in his sleep. He
turned his head and opened his eyebrows. He saw me sitting there, watching
him. He propped his head up on one of his arms.

-"Good Morning." He said with an even deeper voice than usual.

-"Morning to you too." I answered after a few secunds of waiting.

-"Have you been awake for long?" He asked me.

-"I woke before the sun came up."

-"And I thought I woke up early."

-"You do" I said and walked over to the bed. I sat down beside him and he
immidietly put his arms around my waist and layed is head down on my thigh.
I stroked my hands through his hair. He was always so warm. It felt like he
had fever. It felt nice and he was always so gentlewith me. Like I would
break if he pulled at me too hard.

-"I need to take a shower." I said to him.

-"Can I shower with you?" He asked looking up at me with his pleading, puppy
dog eyes.

-"How can I resist." I replied with a huge smile. We rose from the bed and
went to the shower. We walked right in because we didn't wear any underwear.
We slept in the nude all night not bothering to put on anything after we had
sex. Lance turned the handle to the shower and adjusted the temperature. It
was hot, but not too hot. I reached around him with my arms from behind and
pulled him close to me. I kissed him on his neck and he leaned his head
backwards. I caressed his stomach with one hand and went up to his neck with
the other. I took his chin in my hand and kissed the side of his neck. He
intertwined his fingers with mine on his stomach and he reched up with his
other. He took my other hand in his and moved it up to his mouth. He started
to kiss on my fingers and gently sucking on them. I felt my cock hardening
and pressing up against his ass. I looked down and saw that he was fully
erect too. He turned slightly in my arms and we started to kiss. Tounges
caressing each other. He took my neck in both his hands and turned around
completely. I put both my hands on his ass, massaging it. I pulled him
closer and our cocks pressed against each other between our stomachs. Steam
filled the room as the hot water sprayed on us. It was a thick fog in the
shower room now. Lance pulled away slightly and stared right into my eyes.
We pressed our foreheads against each other and we continued staring at each
other.

-"Martin?" He asked.

-"What is it?" I asked back. He put his mouth against my ear and whispered
with his deepest and sexiest voice.

-"I want to make love to you."

I pulled him back and stared at him.

-"I want to make love to you too." I said slowly. A big smile spread across
his face.

-"I'll be right back!" He said happily and went out of the shower. He
returned only secunds later with both condom and lube. He must have noticed
the insecurity in my face so he said that I would fuck him. I felt more
relaxed immidietly. I took the condom from his hand and tore the package. I
put on the condom and lubed it up. Lance layed himself on the floor of the
big shower and I followed him. I started to kiss his nipples and massage his
chest. He stroked his hands through my hair. I went down to his cock and
sucked gently on it. I lifted my head up and looked at him.

-"Are you ready?" I asked.

-"I am ready." He answered.

-"I love you. Tell me if I hurt you."

-"I love you too. I will tell you."

-"Also tell me if I do something wrong. I'm new at this you know."

-"I will. Let me guide you." With that said raised he his legs up on my
shoulders. I grabbed hold of his legs and moved closer.

-"Push in." He said and I moved closer with my cock. I started to push at
his hole and I slowly got in with my head. I paused then and looked up at
Lance.

-"You can push further." He said as if he knew what I was thinking. I did as
he said and I pushed further. Soon was my whole cock inside him. I rested it
there for some time as I kissed Lance. We kissed passionatly and I started
to pull out of him slowly. I stopped when my cockhead was all that was left
in Lance and started to push in again. I did it faster the next time and the
next after that. We continued to kiss as I fucked him. I reached down with
my hand and grabbed his cock and begun to stroke it. We found a rythm and
Lance started to moan. I started to moan aswell. We broke our kissing and he
put his both hands against the floor, steadying us. I picked up speed I
could feel the orgasm coming. I could feel his coming to as his ass got
tighter.

-"Ohh Martin! Ohh Martin! MARTIN!!!" He screamed out.

-"Lance! Ohh Lance! I'm cuming!" I screamed too. I felt the orgasm take over
and the condom beeing filled with cum. Lance's cock shoot violently and his
cum landed on his stomach and chest. I felt my cock starting to get limp so
I withdrawed it from inside Lance.

-"It feels so empty now." He said with the hugest smile.

-"This was awesome!" I said and kissed him on his lips. I sat up and took of
my condom and throwed it in the thrashbin. I pulled Lance up so he was
sitting on the shower floor and sat down myself infront of him. I put my
legs around his back and he put his around mine. We held each other and
kissed for many minutes. The hot water spraying down on us and the steam
filling the room.

-"Maybe we should shower now." I said.

-"I think you're right." He said and started to get up. He helped me up and
took the showergel. He took some and began to lather up my hair. I held my
hands around his waist as he cleaned my chest and stomach. He turned me
around and washed my back, massaging it at the same time. He cleaned my butt
and my legs. He turned me around again and cleaned my cock. He kissed it
softly as he had rinsed it off. I took the showergel from him and did the
same to him. I gave him two kisses on his cock though.

-"Hey! I only got to kiss your once." He said and pouted with his lips.

-"You get my lips instead." I said to him and silenced him with a kiss.

-"Fair enough." He answered when I broke the kiss. We turned off the shower
and headed out to dry ourselves. Lance grabbed a towel and dried me off and
I dried him off afterwards. We walked out into the bedroom and it was all
steamy. I went over to my clothes to put them on but Lance stopped me.

-"You can borrow some of mine. You don't have to wear the same clothes as
yesterday." He said and went over to the closet.

-"Thanks." I said and walked over to where he was standing. We got dressed
and he had given me blue jeans and a red t-shirt. It had the name 'Britney
Spears' written in white letters over the chest.

-"Very nice." He said and laughed.

-"I look like a complete jerk now." I said and laughed too.

-"No, you don't. You look gorgeous. Like always."

-"Same to you. Despite the pink t-shirt."

-"It's not pink! It's purple." He answered defensively.

-"I know." I replied and kissed him.

-"I..." Lance started but was cut off by a knock on the door.

-"Who's there?" Lance screamed.

-"It's us! Let us in." JC screamed on the other side. Lance went to the door
and opened.

-"Hi guys. Why are you up so early?" He asked as we all walked to the
livingroom and sat down at the couches.

-"It's not early. It's noon." Joey said.

-"Besides, someone woke us up last night." Chris said.

-"Ohh Martin! Ohh Martin! does it sound familiar?" Justin imitated. Both I
and Lance turned red.

-"We didn't thought about it." I said to try and explain.

-"Then someone woke us up again this morning. The same thing could be heard.
Only twice as high!" JC said grinning too. I was speechles and so was Lance.
The others looked at each other and began laughing.

-"What's so funny!?" Lance asked them almost screaming.

-"Nothing. Who of you lost your virginity in there?" Justin asked between
laughs.

-"That's none of your business!" Lance shoot back.

-"You must have had really hot sex in here!" JC said and waved in the steam.
This sent everyone laughing except Lance.

-"That was the shower." He answered plainly.

-"He's telling the truth." I said.

-"Are we eating breakfast in here today?" Joey asked and felt on his
stomach.

-"I order." Lance said and got up. He walked over to the phone and all the
other guys started laughing again. Lance turned around with a confused look
on his face. He looked at me for an answer but I couldn't answer.

-"I think we all know now who was banging who!" Chris succeded with getting
out between laughs.

-"How are you Lance? You walk funny." Justin said and everyone began to
laugh again. JC rolled of the chair he was sitting in and fell to the floor
still laughing. I saw a small smile spreading across Lance's face. I rose
from my chair and walked over to him. I kissed him on his cheek and he put
his arms around me.

-"I'm just happy that I lost it to Martin and not to any of you guys!" Lance
said out loud and everyone heard it.

-"We didn't mean to hurt you. We were only joking." JC said and sat on the
chair again.

-"Just remember how you were when I lost mine!" Justin said.

-"I know. It's ok." Lance said and gave me a quick kiss.

-"So what do you want?" He asked. We got our food and and we sat around and
talked to each other while eating. I talked to Justin most of the time and
we talked about his prior relationship. He used to be together with a guy
named Cody back in Orlando. They had been together for one year and broke up
only four months ago. I could tell by his voice that he wasn't over him yet.
I didn't want to intrude on any personal stuff so I changed the subject and
asked about tour life.

-"It's pretty hectic and confusing." He answered and felt relieved.

-"How do you mean confusing?" I asked back.

-"Well, we travel alot by bus and if we maybe are in Amsterdam when we go to
bed then would we be in a city very far away when we wake up."

-"I see. That could be confusing."

-"I am so happy for you and Lance." He said changing subject.

-"I like him very much." I said and looked over to Lance. He turned and
looked at me too as he was speaking to Chris.

-"Hey! I was talking to you." Justin said and snapped his fingers in front
of my face.

-"Sorry. What were you saying?" I asked and felt a bit stupid.

-"I wondered about the girl that was your company during the awards?"

-"Ohh. Well, she is my girlfriend..." I started but was cut off.

-"Your girlfriend?" He said surprised.

-"I am going to speak to her today or tomorrow about just that."

-"What do you mean?"

-"I mean that I'm leaving her. I thought I knew love before I met Lance."

-"Ok. I know what you mean." He said and patted me on my shoulder. We all
ate up and the others got back to their rooms. I walked over to Lance who
was sitting on the couch. I sat down on my knees on the floor in front of
him and put my head down on his lap. I circled my arms around his waist. He
stroked my hair backwards making it stand even more than before.

-"We need to talk." I said and looked up at Lance.

-"About?" He asked without moving his face.

-"About Jennifer."

-"What about her?"

-"I am calling her today and I will tell her about us."

-"You are?"

-"Yes. I'm sure of my feelings. I love you."

-"I love you too." He replied and pulled me up and kissed me. I put my head
on his chest and he rocked me back and forth.

-"We have a group meeting today." He said after a good fifteen minutes.

-"Then will I call Jennifer." I said.

-"You do so. I love you."

-"I love you too." We made out for maybe a half an hour and then went Lance
to Joey's room for the meeting. I sat on the couch thinking about me and
Jennifer. What I will tell her and how she will react. Then I picked up the
phone and called her home.

-"Jennifer." The voice on the other end said-

-"Hi Jennifer. It's me Martin." I said and greeted her.

-"Hi hun!"

-"How are you?"

-"I'm fine. How are you?"

-"I'm doing fine."

-"So you've finally got the guts to call and say we're through?" She asked
somewhat coldly.

-"What? How...did you know?" I asked back in complete shock.

-"You didn't think I noticed?"

-"No...I didn't think you noticed." I said and looked down at the floor.

-"I'm not mad at you. This is for the better." She said as if she could se
me. A single tear escaped my eye.

-"You know I love you. I have just met someone else I love too."

-"We're better off as friends. The invitation for Christmas is still there
and I expect you to come with me." She almost demanded.

-"You want me to come?"

-"We're still friends and you promised you would spend Christmas togheter
with me and my family."

-"Of course. I don't break promises." I said and we changed the subject and
talked about school and her finals. I was still talking to Jennifer when
Lance came back from the group meeting.

-"I'm back now!" He shouted when he got in through the door.

-"Who is that?" Jennifer asked.

-"That's James." I said as I didn't want to give away that it was Lance of
Nsync I was dating.

-"So it's him you love?"

-"Yes. It's him."

-"I didn't thought you were gay?"

-"Not me either." Lance came over and sat next to me on the couch.

-"Well, I've got to go now. You're still coming with me for Christmas and
give my best to Lance."

-"How do you know about all this?"

-"I just know. Female intuition.." She answered.

-"Are you ok with all this?" I asked with concern.

-"Yes. I'm fine. Now please hung up the phone because I need to go." She
said and laughed.

-"Bye then."

-"Bye." She said and hung up. I hung up to and just sat there staring at the
table infront of the couch. Lance took the phone from my hands and put it on
the table. He leaned his head on my shoulder. I put my arm around Lance's
shoulders and we sat there for a long time. Just thinking. The Lance broke
the Silence.

-"How did she know?"

-"I don't know." I answered thruthfully.

-"How is she?"

-"She's fine. Atleast she said so." I said and Lance snuggled up closer to
me and put his hand on my chest. I kissed him on his forehead and smelled
his hair.

-"As you know are we leaving soon." He asked me still laying on my chest.

-"I know." I said.

-"Can't you come with us? Can't you come home with me for Christmas?"

-"I'm sorry. I can't. I have promised Jennifer that I would spend my
Christmas with her and her parents."

-"But you've broken up?"

-"We're still friends and she demanded that I still would come along with
her."

-"Ohh. Ok." He said with a sad tone.

-"Don't be sad. I promise I will spend the next Christmas with you."

-"You will?" He looked up at me with a huge smile on his face.

-"I promise."

-"I love you!" He said and kissed me. Our tounges danced around and we
entangled ourselves in each others arms. Lance parted and looked at me with
his big, green eyes.

-"Do you have any plans for New Years Eve?" He asked.

-"Yes." I stated firmly.

-"Ohh." He said dissapointed and looked down. I grabbed his chin with my
hand and pulled it up so he was again looking into my eyes.

-"I am spending New Years Eve with you. That's my plan." Lance threw his
arms around me and we hugged like there was no tomorrow. We made out on the
couch and he told me afterwards that I would fly to his hometown first and
meet his parents. He came out to them for many years ago and they are cool
with him beeing gay. He had already told them about me and him and they
wanted to meet me. After we've visited his parents would we fly to NYC to
attend the New Years Eve's party held in the MTV building. Then was there a
knock on the door and Chris yelled from outside that they were leaving for
the studio in five minutes. I tagged along this time too and we all had
lunch there after they were done. We all went out clubbing that night and we
got back around 5am very drunk. I and Lance went directly for the bed and
collapsed on top of each other. We started to kiss and stripped each other
down to complete nudity. I started to suck on his dick and he moaned in
pleasure. He came in my mouth and then went he down on my dick. I soon came
in his mouth too. I pulled him up to me and kissed him. I could feel the
taste of my cum in his mouth.

-"I love you." He said to me.

-"I love you too." I said and then we both went to sleep.
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Again, if you want to say something and if you want to maybe influence the
story a bit, then email me at
Martin_silver83@hotmail.com.  I hope you like it. :)

I might be able to post some chapters this Christmas since there's no
school. So stay tuned and see how faith rears it's head for those guys. Will
things stay for the better or will the happines take a nose-dive into
despair. No one knows but me. ;)

See ya!

//Archon