Date: Fri, 24 Mar 2000 17:05:56 GMT
From: JaDe <melsleepy@hotmail.com>
Subject: boyband submission-mirror mirror

Title  : Mirror mirror
Author : JaDe
E-mail : melsleepy@hotmail.com

	BeeP! First timer alert! Hehe..just letting off some tension from
this..=)

Anyway...all feedback (not too harsh!) to melsleepy@hotmail.com. I will try
to reply all e-mails but the be reminded that it will take time coz I only
go online once or twice a week. I am not sure whether will this story be a
one timer or a series for a couple of reasons.
1. I am a senior this year and with it comes all the exams!
2. I am not sure whether will this story get the support of readers. This is
my first time letting my writings be read by other people than myself!

Standard Disclaimer
This story does not have any connection the real people of those boybands.
It is just a figment of my imagination


Mirror mirror

	He gazed into the waves, dropping the cellular phone on the sand next to
him. He sighed once as he gave in to the thoughts of what had happened the
night before.

" I am Rick and this is R102Z. Here's a dedication to a Mr. JRT from JL
saying that this is the only way he can express his feelings of what had
happened. Here's the song, 'Mirror mirror' by M2M."

	Justin's head perked up as he heard his initials spoken. He turned the
volume knob up and his tears rolled down his cheeks as he hears the lyrics.

Why don't I like the guy I see,
The one who's standing right in front of me,
Why don't I think before I speak
I shouldn't have listen to the voice inside of me

I must be stupid
Must be crazy
Must be outta my mind
To say the things I say last night

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who is the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror lie to me
Bring back my baby, bring back my baby to me

Mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see

Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do is say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
When you were here
At the moment I was too vain

I must be stupid
Must be crazy
Must be outta my mind
And now in the cold of the day
I realize

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who is the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror lie to me
Bring back my baby, bring back my baby to me

And if wishes could be dreams and all my dreams could come true,
There will be two of us standing in front of you
If u could show me someone I used to be
Oh bring back my baby, my baby to me, my baby to me...

Justin switched the radio off, cutting the song off. He knew the meaning of
the message that is put across but then he can still feel the pain was all
too real to forgive Lance just yet. He fell into a dream filled sleep as
soon as he laid his head down on the pillow.

*The day before*
	"Justin, you gotta tell me what is going on. Did something happen between
you and Britney? Is that why you are acting this way?" JC puts his hand on
Justin's arm to get his attention. "What do you mean?" Justin shrugs off JC
hand, not knowing that JC felt hurt from his actions.
	"You had been skipping our practice sessions, screw up in our concerts and
even the fans are beginning to notice it!"
	"It is nothing concerning you! I can take care of my own business," Justin
yelled and walked out of the room. All the other 'N Syncers just stared at
the JC, astonished because JC and Justin almost never argue. Lance stood
there for a minute before making a decision to run after Justin. JC just sat
down on the sofa, shaking his head.
	"Just! Wait up!" Lance yelled when he saw Justin walking up ahead. Justin
ignored Lance and began to walk faster. Lance ran and caught Justin by the
arm.
"What's wrong? You know that I am always around here for you,"
"Leave me alone okay,"
"What is it, Justin? You know as well as me that I won't leave just like
that,"
Justin stubbornly kept his mouth shut.
"Does it have anything to do with girls? Did you break up with Britney?"
"NO! I DIDN'T BREAK UP WITH BRITNEY! I am not even in love with her!" Justin
yelled attracting the attention of the people around them. "Come, we have to
talk somewhere else,"Lance guided Justin to a nearby park. Lance breathed
out a sigh of relief that there were not teenagers around or else they will
have to endure a riot of screaming girls.The park was deserted because it
was school hours.
Lance looked at Justin as he waited for Justin to tell him what is wrong.
Justin just stared ahead, ignoring Lance's presence. After what seemed like
hours, Justin finally spoke.
"Lance, do you remember the time that we were at the photo shoot in the
swimming pool?"
"Yeah, that was the time when you all forced me to take my top off!"
"Did I ever tell you how hot you looked at that time and how much I wanted
to kiss you?" Justin murmured out softly. Lance couldn't believe his ears.
"What? You mean you are a..a.."
"Yes, I am gay,"
"Oh, I...erm.."
"Please don't reject me, Scoop. Your opinion is really important to me. I
really loved you and have done so since we first teamed up as 'N Sync,"
"But you couldn't be gay. I mean you are Britney's boyfriend for goodness
sake!"
"Britney knew about me. She is just my cover,"
"So all this time the one you loved is me?"
"Yes,"
"I don't know what to say. I am flattered.."
Justin leaned forward and kissed Lance on the lips, effectively shutting
Lance up. At first Lance resisted but he soon gave in to the feeling of the
soft yet firm lips kissing him. Then Lance thought about what his parents
and his friends might say if they knew that he is a gay? 'This can't be
right!'his mind screamed out. "I can't do this!" Lance pushed Justin off and
take off running.
Justin called out Lance's name but Lance just continued running away, away
from Justin. He blinked back the tears that are threatening to escape from
his eyes. He will not cry, he will not. He was startled when he felt
someone's hand on his shoulder. He turned and it was JC. When Justin saw the
kindness in JC's eyes, his well kept tears started flowing. JC hugged
Justin, letting him cry his heart out.
"So I guess you all know about me now,"
"Curly, we knew from the beginning. We just wanted you to tell us in your
time,"
"You mean all of you knew? How?"
"Not all, Lance didn't know. How couldn't I know? I saw the way good-looking
guys get your attention instead of the really really hot girls! And also
that incident in the bus,"
Justin blushed. "What incident?"
"The one where you were having a wet dream and all the 'OH LANCE. HARDER
HARDER!' didn't help. Luckily Lance is a heavy sleeper or else!"
"Oh. But now it is no use. Lance doesn't like gays," and with that his tears
flowed once again. JC wiped off the tears with a gentle caress. "I don't
think Lance is like that. He just needs time to think about it," JC and
Justin walked back to the studio.
"He really hurt my feelings when he pushed me off,"
"I think you startled him, just give him some more time,"
"Sniff.. I think I will do that,"
"Common, I'll race you to the studio,"
"HEY no FAIR!! Wait up!" Justin tried to catch up with JC. Once back in the
studio, the remaining two guys looked at them expectedly. "Erm, guys, I have
a confession to make. I am... gay," Justin said uncertainly. He knew that JC
still accepted him and no matter how much JC says about Joey and Chris
having no problem about it, he was just not sure. "WooHOO!! Curly finally
admitted. Join the club," Joey gave Justin a hug. "Join the club?" Justin
was confused. Who else is a gay? "Yep, JC is bi and that makes him a little
gay hehe and I am a...ahem bi too..now we can gossip about the really hot
looking people around" Joey smiled widely. Justin looked at Chris.
"Don't look at me! I am as straight as a stick,"
"Yeah right! We saw you looking at one of the management guys sooooooooo
many times!"Joey rebutted.
"No I didn't!"
"Yes you did,"
"No I didn't!"
"Yes you did,"
Chris stucked his tongue out at Joey and sat down on the corner. "Erm, how
about Lance?" Justin asked hesitantly. "That one we don't know. He never
looks at girls and guys. Who knows?" Joey answered. At that moment, Lance
entered the room with his head down. "Scoop! Where did you go for so long? I
thought you were supposed to be looking for Just here?" Chris asked. Lance
glanced at Justin's direction and quickly turn his head back at Chris. "It
is none of your business!" Lance retorted, walking into the music booth
where they are supposed to be recording their newest single, 'No Strings
Attached'.
Chris was surprised. Lance never talked to anyone so rudely before, not that
he knew of that is. Lance is always the good Southern boy. When Chris wanted
to ask about Lance's sudden bad mood, he was quickly stopped by JC who
nodded his head at the tearing Justin.
The recording was a disaster, with both Lance and Justin moody and Lance who
didn't bother to even pretend that he is avoiding Justin. The rest of the
guys didn't know what to do and JC wished he could bash Lance in the head
for his insensitive attitude towards Justin. At one time Justin who is
standing nearby Lance accidentally bumped into Lance because Joey pushed
into him, Lance jumped back as if he had caught AIDS and then tried to stay
as far away from Justin as possible. At that, Justin ran out of the room.
"What is your problem?!" JC yelled at Lance once there were only four of
them left in the studio.
"What do you mean?"
"Don't you act dumb. You really hurt Curly by what you had done. Are you
such a hypocrite that you go against everything that you preach to us about
how every human is equal and we must accept them for who they are and not
avoid them just because they are sick, bi, gay or les?"
"I am not a HYPOCRITE! I am confused okay? I don't do this on purpose. I
just don't know how to face Justin anymore,"
"He is still your best friend even if he is gay,"Chris said to Lance
sternly.
"It is not because he is gay that I avoid him! I think I am also...in love
with him," Lance's voice almost fades into nothingness.
"WHAT? If yes then why are you doing this to him?"Joey butted.
"Do you know what it is like to be a Southern and a Catholic at that? It is
against my religion and I don't know what am I going to tell my family when
they know their son doesn't like girls but guys.."
"If you really love Justin, nothing else should matter. Everything else can
be handled in time," JC cut in. Then he asked Chris and Joey to leave with
him, hoping that everything that was said will sink into Lance's head.
It was nearly midnight when Lance finally left the studio. He had played the
piano set up in the studio for almost three hours, trying to think of what
to do and to decide what did he feel.
As he was driving back to his house, he passed the beach. It was like the
sea is beckoning to him to come and let out his worries. He parked his car
nearby and sat down on the sand. As he gazed into the surf, it reminded him
of the time when he went surfing with Justin. The memory made a smile on his
face. Then all the memories of them together came flooding in. It was then
that he knew that he had also loved Justin for all these years and had been
denying it because he fears rejection not only from Justin but also from
society.
It was 1.15 am. He picked up his cellular phone and dialed the local radio
station network that he knew Justin always listen to.

~~~~ThE eNd oR tHe bEgiNnInG oF sOmeThiNg NeW?~~~~