Date: Fri, 17 Mar 2000 13:51:44 -0800 (PST)
From: Francis O'Ratigan <frnceso@yahoo.com>
Subject: Moving Forward Chapters 9 & 10

Moving Forward Chapter 9 & 10
Copyright 2000 by Francis O'Ratigan
All rights reserved.

"Chris!" shouted a voice.  It was dark and I didn't want to open my eyes.
"Chris!" shouted the voice again.  A pair of hands was shaking me.  I
swatted the hands away.  I opened my eyes and sat up.  I looked around.  I
was in an alley.  Justin was looking down at me.  He looked scared to
death.  I went into action and jumped up and looked around.  There was the
gun man laying face down.  The other three was no where to be seen.  I went
to the gunman and rolled him over.  He was dead with a gunshot wound to the
chest.  I heard a sobbing noise and turned to see Justin standing there
crying.  "Oh God I killed him didn't I?" he asked.  I looked for the gun
and found it laying next to him.

"How did you get the gun?" I asked.

"I really didn't get it.  We fought over it and it went off," explained a
tearful Justin.  I heard sirens off in the distance.

"Don't touch anything, leave everything just the way it is," I ordered
Justin.

"But the cops are coming!" he yelled at me frantic.

"This is a crime scene Justin.  You will contaminate the evidence," I told
him.  A squad car pulled into the alley way.

"Put your hands over your heads where we can see them!" ordered a voice.  I
put my hands over my head and motioned Justin to do the same thing.  He did
the same thing although he was scared to death.

"Man my mother is going to kill me if she finds out," he said.  I almost
laughed but didn't.  Two cops approached us and frisked us.  Once sastified
that we were not armed they looked over the dead victim.

"Care to tell us what happened?" asked one of the cops.

"Well officer there were four of them and they cornered me in this alley,"
started Justin.  As Justin told his story I told the other officer mine.

"And you see officer, I was hit from behind and everything went black.  I
didn't actually see the shooting," I finished.

"You two have any I.D. on you?" he asked.  I produced my wallet and Justin
handed the other cop his.  "Let us run a check on these please stay where
we can see you," the officer instructed us.  A few moments later they came
back.

"Alright you two can go for now," said the officer handing back their I.D.
"Just make sure you stay in town for a few days.  We'll call you if we need
you."

I thanked the cops and we headed back to the hospital.  I could tell that
Justin was still shook up over it.  "You want to talk about what happened?"
I asked.  He glared at me for a moment and than smiled.

"Thanks," he said looking down.

"Thanks for what?" I asked.

"For coming to my rescue," he said.  "You didn't have to you know."

"What kind of person would I be if I allowed them to tear you up?" I asked.

"Yea but the way I treated you---," he started.

"Justin, don't worry about it, ok?" I asked him.

"I am gonna worry about it.  You saved my life," he said smiling.

"I would've done it for any body," I mumbled.

"You have a hard time taking thanks don't you?" he asked.

"Yea well you would too if you were me!" I hurled at him.  He looked hurt
when I turned on his but I didn't care.  He was a smart ass and He deserved
it.

"Hey!" he shouted back at me.  "I'm sorry if I pissed you off all right?"
he hurled back at me.

"Pissed me off?" I asked looking at him like he was nuts.  "Fuck man you
busted my God Damm rib!"  We were back at the hospital and by that time we
weren't speaking to each other any more.  But I could tell that he had a
new respect for me.  He wouldn't bother me about Brian any longer.  I made
my way to Brian's room and ran into JC who grabbed me and shoved me against
the wall.  I groaned in pain the wall hit my sore side.  The next thing I
knew Justin had grabbed JC and thrown him off of me.

"Leave him alone JC!" he shouted at him.

"What the fuck happened to you!" JC demanded looking Justin over.  Justin
swatted his hands away.

"I'm fine!  I just got into a little trouble is all and Chris here was kind
enough to bail me out," he said helping me up.  "You all right man?" he
asked concerned.

"I'm fine! Now let me go so I can get to Brian," I said swatting his hand
away.  He backed off and I walked into Brian's room.  I smiled when I saw
him.  He was standing with the help of crutches.  I went to him and gave
him a hug and kiss.  He slid his tongue into my mouth.  I groaned and and
wrapped my arms around his neck.  "I missed you," I said playing the the
cross I had given him.

"Guess what?" he said with a mischiveous grinn on his face.

"What?" I demanded.

"I get to go home tonight!" he said smiling.

"But I thought that the Doctor said he wanted to keep you one more night,"
I said.

"You want me to stay here one more night?" he asked grinning at me.

"Hell no!" I said pulling him towards the door.  "Come on let's get you
home while the getting is good."  He busted up laughing.

"Well we do have to wait until the Doctor gives me an once over.  Can we
ride home in your new car?" he asked hopefully.  I busted up laughing
because Brian acted just like a kid.

"Yes you get ride home in my new car," I giggled reaching up and kissing
him on the lips again.  There was something about his lips.  I just
couldn't get enough of them.  The doctor came in and gave Brian his
discharge instructions and we headed out the door.  Brian of course had to
pitch a fit when he found out he had to ride in a wheel chair.  But he soon
calmed down when he convinced me to push him.  (It didn't take much
convincing.)  Soon we were pulling into Brian's drive way.  I helped him
out of the car and into the house.  The rest of the gang was there too
including Nsync.  I was hoping for some time alone with Brian.  I had plans
for him and they didn't include a crowd.  It was late at night when the
last of the guests left.  Brian had already went upstairs to bed.  So I was
left downstairs to clean up.  Justin decided that he wanted to treat us all
to pizza.  We must've put away 10 large pizzas.  Finally at 11:30 I wasa
ready to go to bed.  I walked out of the kitchen and into the living room.
I glanced at the bar and it called to me.  I walked over to it and picked
up a decanter of brandy.  I looked at it for a few moments struggling with
the urge of taking a drink.

"Just one drink to help me sleep," I said trying to convince myself.  A
hand closed on the bottle and took it away from me.  I looked up to see the
loving face of Brian.  I looked into his eyes and found only love and
understanding.  There was no judgement in them.

"You know you don't need this," he said casualy as he put it down.
"Besides I wouldn't it want it to dampen your judgement," he said
seductively.  I knew at that moment that I would give myself to him and he
was right.  I didn't want the alcohol to dampen the mood.  I took his hand
and let him lead me to the sofa in front of the fire place. I sat down
first pulling him down.  He pressed his lips to mine driving his tongue
down my throat.  I let out a moan as I slid my hands under his shirt and
ran them up his well muscled back.  Brian let out a shudder at my touch.
His teeth began to lightly bight my chin and neck.  Before I knew it he had
my shirt off.  I reached for his belt and pulled it free.  Than I
unbuttoned his jeans and slid them off.  He slowly removed my pants too.
Soon we were stripped to our boxers.  I leaned back to take him in.  He was
like a God.  His body well defined in every way.  My eyes slowly travled
down his body stopping at his waist.  His erection was evident in the tent
present in his boxers.  I reached for his waistband and I heard him take a
breath in.  I grabbed his waist band and pulled them down.  I felt my heart
jump in anticipation at the sight of his reddish brown pubic hair.  As I
eased his boxers down further his cock sprang free.  I gasped in delight at
the sight of it.  I slowly reached out and touched it.  It jerked at my
touch.  Brian let out a small groan.  I started to lean forward to take him
in my mouth but Brian's gentle but firm touch stopped me.  He looked into
my eyes and I was shocked at the wild and reckless look he had in them.
But overshadowing that look was love.

"Not yet my love," he whispered huskily.  He leaned forward and graced my
lips with his.  than he attacked my nipples with his lips and teeth lightly
bitting them.  I let out a groan and arched my back to give him better
access to them.  Big mistake, it was at that moment that my ribs decided to
remind me that one of them was cracked.  I let out a groan of pain.  Brian
knew the difference right away.  "What's wrong babe?" he asked his voice
full of concern.

"Just my ribs.  I have to be careful how I move," I said clenching my teeth
to cover the pain.

"We should wait until you are better," said Brian.  I was disapointed but
knew he was right.  We seperated and looked at eachother.  Brian's erection
had disapeared.

"I'm so sorry," I whimpered reaching out and touching him on the chest
feeling the strong and steady beat of his heart.

"You've done nothing wrong babe," he whispered as he leaned forward and
kissed me on the lips.  "We have our whole lives ahead of us.  We don't
need to rush this."

"But I wanted to give myself to you," I said quietly.  I heard Brian take a
sudden breath in. Than there was silence.  I felt something wet and warm
grace my face.  I looked up to see him looking at the ceiling with tears
streaming down his face.

"I don't deserve you," he sobbed out.

"Please don't say that," I pleaded.  He looked at me with such sorrow and
shame in his face.  "I am the one who doesn't deserve you," I whispered
wiping his tears away.  "I want you to be my first true love.  Brian I want
you to take my virginity from me."  Brian looked confused.  "The other time
with the priest wasn't love.  It wasn't sex.  It was evil and a crime.
When I give myself to someone it will be out of love.  And Brian I want
that to be you," I said with such emotion that I too had tears flowing down
my face.

"God what did I do to ever find you," he breathed.

"Well you see uhh your car kinda fell apart on the side of the road and
than I came along and picked you mmmmppph!"  I was stopped by a pair of
lips.  I looked into his eyes and saw them twinkling with laughter.  We
broke apart and he extended his hand and I took it and we climbed the
stairs.  He leaned against me for support.  I stripped out of the rest of
my clothes and climped into bed with him and he wrapped his arms around me
and pulled me close.  "I love you Brian," I mumbled sleepily

"I love you too Chris," he whispered to me.  The last thought I had was
that I was the luckiest man on this earth .  Maybe there was a God after
all.

I woke to the singing of an angel.  I groaned and sat up in bed and looked
around.  The sun was beaming in through the windows.  Brian had gotten up
and was in the shower singing very loudly.  Alittle off key but I didn't
care.  I grinned evily and crept into the bathroom and slipped into the
shower.  There was my God standing in the middle of the shower stall with
his head tilted back letting the water hit him square in the face.  His
eyes were closed and he had no idea that I was in the shower with him.  My
eyes traveled down the length of his body stopping at his cock.  It was
limp hanging low between his legs.  I licked my lips in anticipation. I
silently dropped to my knees to pay him homage.  Opening my mouth I slowly
engulfed his cock.  Almost instantly he stopped singing and looked down at
me in wonderment.  His cock started to fill with blood and soon it grew to
it's full eight inches.

"OOOOHHH God Chris!" he groaned out running his hands through my hair.  I
slowly started to bob up and down on his cock.  Precome leacked out onto my
tongue which I eagerly swallowed.  He started to slowly thrust in and out.
I looked up at his rigid six pack and rock hard pecs as they heaved in and
out.  He looked down at me with that same wild and reckless look he wore
the night before.  "MMMMM yes that feels so good.  God Chris I'm almost
there!" he yelled out.  He started thrusting in and out faster and faster.
His eyes wide with excitment and his mouth open in a soundless scream.
Suddenly his body went rigid as he rammed in one final time.  His cock head
swelled to it's full glory and his flood gates opened and spewed forth his
seed.  I eagerly swallowed as much as I could.  What I didn't catch I
allowed to flow down my neck and onto my chest.  Finaly the flood stopped
and he helped me up.

"Now that was nice way to wake up," he said smiling down at me.

"Well I wanted to see if you wanted to play," I giggled at him.  He got
this serious look on his face and he leaned forward and pressed his lips to
mine giving me the most passionate kiss I had ever had.  I just stood there
in his arms and allowed him to ravage my mouth.  When he was done he looked
at me and smiled.

"Wow!!" I breathed out.  I felt a little dizzy.  He smiled at me and
stepped out of the shower.  I finished my shower and stepped out to.  I
followed him into the bedroom to find that he was almost dressed.  He
pointed at the bed and I smiled at the choice he had picked out for me.
After getting dressed I began the task of hunting down Brian.  I found him
in the kitchen cooking breakfast.  "Can I help?" I asked looking over his
shoulder.

"Out! Out!" he ordered pushing me out the door.  "I want to fix breakfast
for you," he said grinning.  I pouted and walked out of the kitchen and out
onto the deck.  It was a nice morning.  I sat down in one of the lawn
chairs and laid back and closed my eyes.  In no time at all I had drifted
off to sleep.  After a few minutes of sleeping soundly I felt some one's
lips grace mine.  His tongue was probing my mouth to get in.  I knew it was
him so I decided to play hard to get.  Clenching my jaws shut so he could
not get in.  I opened one eye and looked at him.  We both busted up
laughing.  He sat back on another chair.

"So do you want to eat?" he asked.  We headed back into the house.

I sat down and looked at the simple breakfast spread before me.  Two slices
of bacon scrambled eggs, glass of OJ and a slice of toast.  I picked up a
peice of bacon and bit off a piece.  "You like?" he asked hopefully.  I
nodded as I picked up a glass and drank from it.  "I was wondering if we
could go--," he started only to be interupted by the telephone.  He picked
it up.  "This had better be really important!" he shouted into the phone.
I let out a giggle and he glared at me.

"Brian!" shouted Kevin.  He was frantic.  "Let me talk to Chris!"

"Yea sure Kevin," replied Brian looking concerned.  "What's wrong?"

"It's Nick," sobbed Kevin.  " He's locked himself in the bathroom and wont
let me in."  Brian handed me the phone.

"Yea Kevin, it's me Chris," I said worried into the phone.  I could hear
someone screaming in the back ground.  It sounded like Nick but I couldn't
be sure.

"I need you to come over," begged a frantic sounding Kevin.  "Nick is
acting crazy.  He has locked himself in the bathroom and wont let me in."

"Ok Kev," I said into the phone.  "First things first.  Did he have
anything to drink?"

"No I don't think so," replied Kevin.  "God I am so worried about him.
What is wrong with him?" he sobbed into the phone.

"He is going through DTs," I told him.  "Try and stay calm and reassure him
that it is going to allright.  Just don't let him hurt himself.  I am on my
way over," I said slamming down the phone.  "Come on Brian we have to go to
Kevin's."

"Why? what is wrong with Nick?" asked Brian.

"Nick is an alcoholic.  He going through what we call the DTs, withdraw
from the alcohol.  It sounds silly but it's not.  It can be really scary
for the person going through them." I explained to him on our way out the
door.

"How do you know about that?" asked Brian.

"Because I went through them two years ago.  I almost killed myself," I
answered shuddering at the memory.  I was messed back then.  I honestly
thought that my hands were rotting off and I tried to cut them off.  Thank
God I had a friend in the Corps that was there for me.  Brian looked down
at the scars on my wrist and shuddered.  "Yea Brian, they can seem very
real.  Nick is going through a turning point in his life.  Here is where we
can save or loose him for good.  You had better hang on because the ride
gets real rough here on out."  Brian nodded silently wiping a tear from his
eye.

Chapter 10

I squeeled to a stop and was out of the car before it stopped rolling.  AJ
held the door open for us.  "Where is Nick?" I asked.  He pointed to the
top of the stairs.  He was real quiet and his lips were pressed really
thin, I knew that he was scared.  I pulled him into a hug.  "It is going to
all right AJ," I promised him.  I ran up the stairs and found Kevin sittin
on the floor with his head pressed to the door.

"I love you Nick," he said in suprising calm voice.  "Please let me in
baby."

"No!!" screamed Nick.  "Get the fuck away from me you creep!!"  I heard
something crash against the door.  Kevin jerked back sobbing as he did.  I
rushed to him and put my hand on his shoulder.

"Let me take over from here Kevin," I instructed.  Kevin nodded and stepped
aside.  I knocked on the door.  "Nick?" I asked softly.  Silence from the
other side.  "Nick, it's me Chris."

"Chris?" he asked in a child like voice.

"Yes Nick," I said calmly.  "It's me Chris, hey buddy what are you doing up
here alone?"

"I'm scared Chris," sobbed Nick.  "He is out there and he going to get me."

"Nick, why don't you let me in to talk to you?" I asked.

"Is he with you?" he asked.  I bit my lip and forced out a lie.  "No Nick I
sent him away."  I looked around to see that Kevin had indeed left.  The
lock clicked and he opened the door and I stepped in.

"Hey Buddy," I said smiling at him.  He looked down at his feet.  He was a
mess.  His eyes were all wild and his clothes were tore.  He had dark
circles under his eyes.  "You want to go to your room and lay down for a
while?"  He nodded and I put my arm around his shoulder and led him to his
room and laid him down on the bed.  After covering him up I got up to
leave.  He grabbed me not wanting to let go.

"Please don't go," he begged.  "Hold me please?"  I looked out the door and
saw Brian.  He nodded and I climbed into the bed with Nick and pulled him
close.  He hung on to me like a life line.  Not wanting to let go.  I felt
the bed sag and an arm suround me too.  I look up and saw Brian sitting on
the side of the bed.

"It is going to be all right Nick.  It will get better I promise," I
whispered into his ear.  It took Nick about 30 minutes to fall asleep.
When we were sure he was asleep we quietly left the room.  Walking down
stairs we could hear Kevin and AJ arguing.  I picked up my pace.  Running
into the living room we caught AJ standing over Kevin shaking his fist at
him.

"All those months you've used Nick as a punching bag!  No wonder he is
drinking himself to death!" yelled AJ.

"It's not my fault Nick can't hold his liquor!" Kevin shouted back pushing
AJ away.  I stepped in between the two of them.  "Stay out of this Chris
this is not your concern!"

"Bullshit Kevin!" I shouted at him.  "You called me and asked for my help
so it is my concern!"  Brian managed to get AJ off to a corner and I sat
down with Kevin on the couch.

"How is Nick?" Kevin asked.

"He is sleeping now.  But Kevin, this isn't over.  Nick still has a long
road to hall.  You need to come to grips with Nick's problem," I said to
him.  He jumped up and stormed off.

"Oh brother here we go again with that Alcoholism is a disease crap!" he
hurled at me.  I got mad, I know I shouldn't have done it but I punched
Kevin in the face.  He fell to the floor holding his nose.  Blood was
flowing freely.  "What was that for?" he demanded.

"You are an ass!" I hurled at him.  "Brian go up stairs and get Nick.  We
are taking him out of this hell whole!"  I stormed out of the house with
Kevin and AJ hot on my tale.  I got to the car and started to open the door
when I felt a hand on my shoulder.  I turned to find Kevin standing there.
"What!" I demanded.

"You're not going to take Nick away from me!" he hurled at me.  I could see
the anger in his eyes.

"Until you realize that Nick DOES have a legitimate problem you are not
going to spend another day with him!" I hurled at him.  The front door
opened and out walked Brian and Nick.

"Please don't leave me Nick," pleaded Kevin going up to him.  Nick backed
away from him like he was poison.  Kevin backed up as well.  "Don't do this
Brian," he stood in Brian's path.  Brian just kept on walking forcing Kevin
to move out of the way.  "Fuck all of you!" he shouted at us storming back
into the house.

"Come on Brian," I said opening the door.  "Let's get Nick home."  Brian
helped Get Nick in Nick's car because mine had only two seats.  Brian drove
Nick's car following me back to the house.  Once we got back to the house
we got Nick settled in the guest room.  Brian and I removed all of the
breakable items from the room.  I told Brian that it would be a good idea
if we did that.  I finally headed downstairs and sat on the couch in the
living room.  Brian sat next to me wrapping his arms around me pressing his
lips to mine and grinding his crotch against mine.  I reached for his belt
but he stopped me.

"Not here Babe," he whispered in my ear lightly bitting it.  He grabbed my
hand and led me up the stairs and into his room.  I just let him control
the whole situation.  I wanted to give myself to him and I wanted it
bad. He laid me down on the bed and started to remove my clothes.  He
started with my shirt.  Slipping it over my head and leaving it there so
that it cover my eyes.  He grabbed my wrists and held them over my head
too.  His mouth came crashing over mine driving his tongue deep into mine.
I felt his tongue travel over each of my teeth and then he tickled the roof
of my mouth with his tongue.  Finally he left my mouth and traveld to my
chin lightly bitting it as he made his way down to my neck and adams apple.
Once there he humed on it driving me nuts.  I let out a groan and thrashed
around.  I was still blinded by my shirt and soon I found my wrists were
tied to the bedpost.  I was a little nervous about that but let it go.  He
continued to torture me with his mouth.  Than he stopped.  I could hear him
stripping off his clothes.  Than he laid on top of me kissing me again
grinding his cock up against mine.  Mine was still confined to my jeans and
it was aching for release.  I let out small wimper and he let out small
laugh.  "All in good time Lover," he whispered in my ear.  Finally he
grabbed my belt and pulled it free.  Than with his teeth he undid my pants
and pulled them down.

"God Brian," I wimpered out.  He giggled and started to kiss my legs.
First one than the other working toward my crotch.  Taking the waist band
in his teeth he pulled my boxers down and freed my cock.  I heard him take
a sharp breath in.

"God you are beautiful," he wispered as if in awe.  He than graced the tip
of my cock with a light kiss.  I was in heaven.  Now remember I still
couldn't see and my hands were restrained.  Needless to say I was going
nuts with pleasure.  He than started to cover my cock with soft kisses I
was groaning and moaning almost non stop now and thrashing all over the
bed.  He just slowly continued to pleasure me.

"Pleeeasse Brian!" I groaned out arching my hips up.  He let out another
giggle and this time I growled in frusturation.  Finally he took pity on me
and engulfed my cock all the way to the hilt.  His nose buried deep in my
pupic hair.  "OOOOOHHH God!!" I screamed out.  He just started bobing up an
down on my cock gently massaging my balls with his hand.  I could feel the
orgasm building.  White spots appeared in front of my eyes as I clenched
every muscle I had to prolong the orgasm.  Of course he would not denied.
Reaching under me he rammed his finger up my ass.  I screamed and shot
volley after volley of my cum down his throat.  I could tell by his throat
muscles that he was swallowing as fast as he could.  I think I blacked out
for a couple of seconds cause the next thing I knew I could see again and
my hands were free and he was smiling down at me.  He still had some of my
cum on the side of his chin.  He bent down and kissed me.  I greedily
grabbed the last drop of my cum from his chin.  He laughed softly and
pulled me into his warm and safe embrace.  "Wow!!" I whispered as I looked
up at him.

"Did you enjoy it?" he asked in that soft Kentucky voice.  I nodded as I
snuggled closer to him.  He too snuggled closer to me our bodies meshing
together.  "Wait until tonight babe," he whispered to me.

"Why? what's happening tonight?" I asked.  All though at this point I would
walk through fire for this sex God.

"I will take you somewhere you have never been," he said kissing me on the
forehead.  "That is if you want me to."

"You can take me any time any where Brian," I whispered back to him.  I was
tired and laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes.  He kissed my lips
again and I mumbled something and drifted off to sleep.  I knew that
tonight I would give my self to him.  I would loose my virginity to this
God of Love and I would do it willingly and without reservation.

(From Brian's point of view.)

I held Chris in my arms.  We both lay naked on the bed.  He was tired out
from my little assault on him.  I smiled at the memory of what had just
happened.  I knew that I could have any man I wanted but I didn't want
anyone I wanted Chris.  He let out a small grunt and he turned over facing
me.  I bent down and kissed his fore head.  He snuggled up closer to me.  I
rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.  The door knocked. I
rolled my eyes and climbed out of bed and slipped on a pair of boxers and
slid the sheet over Chris.

I opened the door and saw Nick standing there.  I stepped out into the hall
to let Chris sleep for a while.  Nick looked terrible "Hey Nick," I said
with a small smile.

"Hey," he croaked back.  "Can I talk to you for a second?" he asked.

"Sure Nick just let me through some clothes on.  I'll meet you in the
living room."  I turned and headed back into the room to get dressed.

"Whacha doing?" asked a sleepy voice.  I turned to see Chris sitting up in
bed rubbing the sleep out of his eye.

"Nick wants to talk to me.  Why don't you go back to sleep.  I'll get you
after we are done talking."  He nodded and plopped back in the bed.  I
headed out of the bedroom and padded down the stairs.  I could hear Nick
sobbing in the living room so I picked up my pace and ran into the living
room.  I found him standing near the bar.  He had his head buried in his
hands sobbing.  I went to him and pulled him in a hug.  "It will be all
right Nick," I soothed him.

"I want a drink so bad," he whimpered reaching out for the decanter full of
brandy.  I took his hand and guided to the water bottles instead.  He latch
onto one like a life line and picked it up and headed back to the couch and
sat down.  He tried to open the bottle but couldn't because his hands were
shaking so bad.  I took pity on him and opened the bottle for him.  He took
it back and drank heavily from it.  "What am I going to do?" he asked.
"I'm getting to the point where I can't even perform," he said looking at
me for help.

"Nick maybe it's time you take a Leave of Absence from the band," I
offered.  He shook his head no.

"The fans--," he started but I put my hand on his shoulder.

"They will understand Nick," I said softly.

"I've never missed a performance," he sobbed out.  "I don't want to start."
He looked up at me with pleading eyes.  I pulled him into a hug and held
him.

"You have got to start thinking about yourself for a change." I whispered
in his ear.  "You need a rest so you can take care of yourself.  Please
Nick we're all worried about you including Kevin."

"Hah!" he laughed bitterly.  "All he wants is a punching bag.  He doesn't
love me!"

"Nick?" I asked hoping that he would look at me.  He didn't.  "Nick! Look
at me!" I said loudly.  He jerked his head up and glared at me.  "He does
love you.  And he is very worried about you!" I insisted.

"Well he has a funny way of showing it.  The only time he shows any
affection to me is when he has his dick in my mouth or up my ass.  I'm
tired of him hitting me all the time."

"Kevin needs help too and I am going to make sure he gets it," I promised
him.

"How do I start?" he whispered.

"You've already started Nick," said a voice from the doorway.  We looked up
and saw Chris standing there.  He had on a pair of sweats and a wife
beater.

"Babe, what are you doing up?" I asked going to him.

"I missed you," he said leaning in for a quick kiss.  He took my hand and
led me back to the couch.  Turning to Nick, "when you said you were an
alcoholic you took a huge step towards recovery."

"I can't do this alone," he said staring at the floor.  Chris put his hand
on Nick's shoulder.

"Nick you will never be alone.  We will be with you supporting you every
step of the way," Chris said with such emotion.  "Nick," he said.  Nick
kept staring at the floor.  "Nick, please look at me?" he pleaded.  Nick
looked up at Chris.  "You are not alone in this battle," he said looking
into Nick's eyes.

"How do I start?" he asked.

"Well Nick there are several methods.  You could check yourself into a
clinic," I suggested.  Nick looked scared at this.

"It is not as scary as it sounds," Chris spoke up.  "It actually could work
in your situation."

"How?" he asked.

"Well with your situation with Kevin for one.  He is going to resist this
in a major way.  If you are in a clinic he can't get to you.  You get to
decide who can visit you or not.  You are in control of a major part of the
situation," Chris said.

"How do you know all this?" asked Nick.

"Well you see Nick I was in a situation much like yours.  I finally checked
myself into the base hospital and got the help I needed," Chris told him
holding up his wrists to show him the scars.  Nick took a deep breath in.

"God what happened to you?" he whispered.

"I'll tell you sometime.  But for now let's just say that I hit a major low
point in my life and almost died because of it." Chris said shuddering at
some deep distant memory that he had tried to suppress long ago.  I reached
out and touched his shoulder.  He smiled at me to let me know that he would
be all right.  I nodded.  "So how do you want to do this?" Chris asked.
About that time the doorbell rang.  I got up to get it.

>From Chris's point of view.

"I guess I'll check myself into a clinic.  Do you know any good ones?" he
asked.  I heard a crash and I took off into the hallway leading to the
front door.  Brian was laying on the floor just getting up.  Kevin was
climbing over him.

"Kevin, what the hell are you doing," I asked.

"I'm here to get Nick!" he shouted at me.  "You can't keep him here!"

"Why don't you go home and calm down and come back in the morning?" I
suggested calmly.  Nick stepped into the hall way and stopped once he saw
Kevin.

"Nick Baby," pleaded Kevin.  "Please come home with me."  Nick shook his
head no and walked back into the living room.  Kevin went to follow him but
I stopped him.

"Kevin," I said calmly.  "Nick has made his choice please honor it by
leaving him alone."  He shrugged me off and kept going.  Nick stopped me
with a look.

"Please Chris, I would like to talk to Kevin alone for a few moments," he
pleaded with me.

"I don't think it is a good idea for you to be alone with him," I warned
him.

"Yea well he doesn't care what you think!" Kevin sneered at me and slammed
the french doors in my face.  I looked back at Brian who was standing
rubbing his sore leg.

"I don't like the way this is going Brian," I whispered to him.  He nodded
and limped into the kitchen.  I followed him.

(From Nick's point of view.)

I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch.  Kevin came in and
sat down too.  He leaned over and gave me a kiss.  "I love you Nick," he
said smiling at me.

"Kevin, I have something to tell you but I don't think you are going to
take this well," I stuttered out.

"You can tell me anything Nick," he said in a nice voice.

"I'm checking myself into a clinic so I can get sober," I whispered to him.
I didn't see it coming.  He slapped me in the face hard.

"No you're not!" he shouted at me slapping me again.  This time I fell off
the couch.  "You are not sick and you are not checking yourself into a
fucking clinic!"  I got up and walked away from him.  "Don't fucking walk
away from me when I am talking to you!" he shouted at me grabbing my arm.
I wrenched it away.  "Why do you have to make me angry Nick?" he asked
glaring at me.  He slapped me again.  The pain shocked me into action.  I
pushed him away.  He stumbled back and tried to slap me again.  I had made
my mind that he wasn't going to get me with out a fight.  I swung at him
but missed.  He caught my arm and twisted it around my back.  I kicked back
with my foot and got his knee.  He dropped and grabbed his knee.  "Oh boy
now you did it!" he shouted at me and came at me again.  I backed up
looking for a weapon of any kind to use.  I found the fire place poker and
grabbed it and held it like sword.  He just looked at me and laughed.  "You
are fucking pathetic, you know that?"  He was laughing at me his lip curled
up in a evil leer.  He wasn't the kind loving Kevin that had saved me from
Brian all those years ago.  He grabbed the Poker and wrenched it away from
me and tossed it aside.

"Get out!" I shouted back at him.  He swung at me again and I ducked and he
missed and slammed his fist in the wall.  Swearing he swung at me again.
This time it conected.  I groaned and fell to the ground.  I tried to talk
but I couldn't get me mouth to move right.  I realised with dread that he
had broken my jaw.  I was getting dizzy.

"I am so fucking tired of you Nick!" he shouted at me hitting me again.
"You are nothing but a fucking drunk!"  I tried to ward off the blows but
couldn't raise my arms because he had me pinned.  The first blow hit me in
the eye.  The second one hit my nose.  Finally I lost count of the blows
and at some point I blacked out.

(From Chris's point of view.)

"I am realy worried about Nick.  He shouldn't be alone with Kevin in his
condition.  I'm going to check on him," I said getting up from the kitchen
table.  As we headed down the hall I heard a terrifying scream from Nick.

"Nick!" Brian shouted as he took off running towards the living room.  He
reached the Frenchdoors and tried to get them opened.  But Kevin had locked
them.  I came up behind Brian and tried the door to.  Swearng I kicked the
door in.  Brian ran in and stopped and sobbed at the sight.  Nick was
laying on the floor infront of the fire place.  He was out cold and Kevin
was standing over him breathing heavily.  I went nuts and grabbed Kevin and
punched him in the jaw knocking him out.

"Nick," cried Brian as he checked him out.  Tears were flowing freely down
his angelic face.  I rushed to his side and carefully took Nicks head in my
lap.

"Brian!" I shouted at him.  He looked at me shocked back to reality.  "Go
call 911 now!" I ordered him.  He ran to the phone.  I looked down at Nick
to get an idea how bad he was hurt.  "Oooh Nicki," I sobbed out.  From what
I could tell he had a broken jaw and nose.  The rest was bad bruising.  He
would live from the physical wounds but it was the emotional ones that I
was worried about.  Nick let out a moan and opened his one eye.  His other
one was swelled shut.  "Nick you need to lie still OK?" I asked wiping a
tear from his eye.  "Brian has called 911 and they will be here to help
you."

He tried to talk but the pain of his broken jaw caused him to scream in
pain.  "Please Nick," I said soothingly.  "Try not to talk.  Your jaw is
broken," he nodded understanding.  He looked over at Kevin who was just
comming to.  He tried to stand up to get away from Kevin.

"OOH God Nick!" Kevin sobbed out.  "What did I do to you?"  He tried to get
to Nick but Nick started screaming and he grabbed onto me like a lifeline.

"Get out!" I shouted at Kevin.  "Get the Fuck out of here you bastard!!"  I
was seeing red and Kevin knew I was mad.  He didn't argue he quietly left
the room.  I could hear the sirens of the ambulance and police.  "Don't go
any where ass hole!" I screamed at Kevin.  "The police are going to have a
field day with you!"  Nick grabbed my arm to get my attention.  I turned my
attention back to him.  He was shaking his head no.  It didn't take genius
to figure out what he wanted.  He didn't want to press charges.  "But God
Nick!" I shouted at him crying at the same time.  "Look what he did to
you!"

"NOO!" he struggled out.  I glared at him for a few seconds and than
quietly nodded.

"Fine!" I hurled at him in a harsh whisper.  "But he had better stay away
from me.  Cause I will fucking kill him!"  I tried to get up to go the door
but Nick stopped me.

"Stay?" he pleaded.  I nodded and rubbed my hand through is hair.  He
closed his eyes to the touch.  I heard the front door slam and three
ambulance attentants came rushing in.  I slid out of the way to let them do
their job.  I walked into the hall and right into Kevin.

"Please Chris," he pleaded.  "How is he?"  I just glared at him and walked
up to Brian.  Brian took me in his arms.

"Get him out of here Please?" I begged crying into Brian's shoulder.  He
nodded and turned to Kevin.

"Kevin, can you please leave?" Brian asked.

"But Bri--," he started.  I snapped and wrenched myself out of the safe
arms of Brian. I grabbed Kevin and shoved him out the door.

"GET OUT!!!" I screamed.  He scrambled down the steps and onto the
sidewalk. He realized that I had lost it.  I kept coming at him.  I was
barely aware that the cops were coming after me.  "GET OUT!!" I screamed
again swinging at him.  My fist connected hitting him the face.  He
crumbled to the ground.  Everything moved in slow motion for me.  I jumped
on him with my fists swinging.  I barely even heard Brian pleading with me
to stop.  All I saw was Kevin beating up on poor Nick.  I know revenge was
wrong but I wanted to heap on him ten fold what he had done to Nick.  Brian
finally tackled me bringing me to the ground pulling me into a tight
restraining hug.  The cops ran passed me and grabbed Kevin and slammed him
to the ground.  I guess they finally realized that it was he that caused
this whole mess.  I watched as they wrestled with him slapping handcuffs on
him.  I watched Brian sreaming in agony as they hauled his cousin away.  I
finally closed my eyes and leaned against him.  The last thought was that
somehow I had lost Brian.  Brian would never forgive me for trying to help
Nick and destroying Kevin in the process.  I started sobbing into Brian's
chest.  I must have stayed there like that for what I thought an eternity
for I slowly became aware of my surroundings.  A hand was brushing the side
of my face and a soothing voice was whispering in my ear.  I clung to that
voice like a life line.  I smelled his cologne and I took a deep breath.
Pain seared through me and I cried out.

"What is it?" asked a worried Brian.

"My rib," I gasped out.  "It hurts."  He helped me into the house and I sat
down on the first step.  The paramedics went by us with Nick on the
stretcher.  "Nick!" I gasped out.  He turned to me.

"Chris!" he mumbled out.  They had his jaw taped shut because of the
fracture.  He looked really bad.  Tears came to Brian and me as we looked
upon him.

"We'll meet you at the hospital," promised Brian running his hand through
Nick's hair.  Nick nodded and smiled at us and gave us a thumbs up.  Soon
he was loaded into the ambulance.  Brian immediatly turned his attention to
me.

"Baby why did you attack Kevin like that?" he pleaded with me.  I started
crying again. (Seems alittle weird for an ex marine to so sobby.  Hey I'm a
sensitive guy so sue me!  Now back to the story.)  "You could have been
hurt!" he scolded me angry at me.  I sniffled and hung my head in shame.
We were silent for a few moments.  "I love you," he whispered in my ear
nibbling on it.  I smiled and kissed him.

"I love you to," I sniffled.  He pulled me tight.

"It is going to all right Chris, I promise to make it all right," he
whispered to me as he helped me up and into the car.  Brian offered to
drive and I was grateful to let him.  He was rather uncomfortable doing it
with his leg but he managed to do it with out to much complaining.

"Now what are we going to do?" I asked finally calmed down enough to talk.

"I don't know Chris, I realy don't know," sighed Brian.  "I do know this.
Kevin needs serious help.  I've never seen him like this.  He could've
easily have killed Nick."  I nodded my head silently not talking.  I was in
deep thought.  Alittle over a week ago my life was changed for what I
thought was for the better.  Maybe I was mistaken.

"Brian?" I asked looking at him.  He looked over at me and saw my
expression and his expression turned into one of fear.  "Maybe we are
making a huge mistake about us."

"Chris?" he asked with his eyes filling with tears.  "Are you planning on
leaving me?"


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Well this is it for this addition of moving forward.  Sorry it took me so
long to get it out.  But I wanted it to be perfect.  Oh and so sorry for
the cliffhanger and sorry for the violence.  At least there was some sex
this time.  But not to worry the next episodes will not have much violence
in them.  Any comments?  e-mail me at frnceso@yahoo.com