Date: Tue, 22 Aug 2000 02:06:04 GMT From: chris lerman <chris_lerman@hotmail.com> Subject: My Broadway Romance Chapter One Disclaimer: This story is pure fiction. The sexual preference of the characters male or female is unknown. If you are below the age of 18 please leave if not then enjoy My Broadway Romance. This is my very first attempt at writing so be kind, and I love feed back and getting e mail so please email me at chris_lerman@hotmail.com it will be appreciated greatly. With that on with the story, also keep in mind there will be Play reading also to relay certain conversations and events between characters. Enjoy the story. My Broadway Romance by Chris Lerman Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Christopher Davidson -Chris- for short by my close friends and family. I am 24 years old and I was born and raised in Long Island New York but have lived the last 3 years in the city. People tell me I am the spitting image of my mom (whom I shall talk about a little bit later) while my 2 other brothers take after my father. I am about 5'8 and weigh about 155 LBS -being an actor on Broadway I have to work out a lot) I have brown hair and baby blue eyes, cute as a button and I am also gay. If being an Actor/Singer/Dancer on Broadway does not say anything then I don't know what does. I was the middle child of a family of 4. My father walked out after my baby brother Josh was born my older brother Travis who is now 27 is married and living with his wife Angela in Washington D.C. Travis and I were only 2 years apart but I was only 20 years old when Josh was born. When my dad walked out on us it was me who raised Josh while mom worked 2 jobs to support us -not to say mom was never there she was in point of fact. She loved and spent as much time as she could with us. I was Joshy's Father/Big Brother all rolled into one. He was my life. We are very close. I am openly gay to my mom, Travis, Angela, and the one true friend in my life not to mention in my family my first cousin Cathy. The only person who does not know is Josh. He's only 4 but I want to tell him but think it is good to wait for the right moment. Cathy is my mom's sister's my aunt Helen's Daughter. Cathy is the same age as I am so we have grown up together. They live across the street from us so that was a big plus in my life. Cathy is blond, vivacious, has a keen sence of facts and also has been able to set me up with the 2 right special guys of my life. I can talk to Cathy about anything, it was Cathy who I first came out to but I think she knew it before I did. She also was the one who got me an agent after we got our Acting Degree at N.Y.U. As for mom. What can be said for someone who raised 3 boys alone after my father left took off. Mom is 45, blond like me and as I said the spitting image of myself. Mom's name is Gloria and it was mom who first took me to the theatre. I was 5 years old and the show was "Pippin". I was hooked ever since. It was mom who convinced me and Cathy to go to N.Y.U. to get our Acting Degree. Mom supported me all along in my life and the fact that her son is gay does not even bother her. She is the most loving person I know and I thank God for having her in my life She never married again because she has us in her life plus she worked 2 jobs to support all 3 of us. When Travis left I was the one who was a part of Josh's life as I said. Leaving for N.Y.U. was one of the hardest things in my life to do. But in order to branch out and learn if I had any talent to make it out there. Leaving for school and a new life also meant leaving Josh and Mom behind. I'd see them on weekends and on family events but I have never been away from Joshy before. I did everything with him put him to bed, played with him, read to him, we both loved Disney so I always made time to watch anything Disney related with Josh. The day I left with Cathy was very emotional and crazy with running aroung and getting things ready and I am going to relive that experience with you all right now : Mom : Chris...Cathy is here are you ready to leave ? Chris: Not yet Mom...hi Cathy be right down. Cathy : Hey sweetie wow hope we have room in the car for all this stuff Chris : If we don't we can pick it up next weekend when we see Josh. Mom : Ahem... and your Mother also. Now do you have enough cash, clothing, all the stuff you need ? Chris: Yes Mom we'll be ok right slugger ? -I always called Cathy Slugger since we were kids- Cathy : You betcha! I can't wait to go and set up our new apartment ! Chris : Mom, where is Josh ? Mom : Up in his room dear I know he is upset and he will miss you Chris. Chris: I know mom I'll miss him very very much but I'll be seeing him every weekend. He'll be with us so that helps I'll go up and say good-bye wait here Cathy. - As I walked up to Josh's room I stifled a tear in my eye I loved my baby brother so much how can I be away from him for a whole week let alone 4 years of my life. Well I better do this and get it over with as I knocked on his door- Chris : Joshy, may I come in ? Josh : Yeah- C-Chris pwease don't go away I love you and I'll be a big boy and be good if you stay. Chris: Joshy, it is not a matter of you being a good boy. Do you want me to be happy ? To be in a Broadway show that you can go see and say that is my big brother up there ? In order to do that Joshy I need to go to School with Cathy and I will see you every single weekend I promise you that. So can you give me a famous Joshy smile...I know you can. -I start to tickle Josh and he is laughing and gives me a warm and a very big kiss and hug good-bye as I carry him downstairs I feel better as I watch Cathy swing Josh around in a circle and hugs him warmly.- Cathy : Hey Cutie, I will miss you but we will see you on the weekend ok ? Josh : Ok Cathy I love you both so much...(giggles) Chris : We love you to Joshy, bye Mom we will call when we get into the new place and Joshy we will see you on the weekend. Mom and Josh : Bye Chris, Bye Cathy we love you both. Cathy : Aunt Gloria call my mom and tell her I'll call when we get in also. Mom : I will dear. Well Cathy and I did do very well at N.Y.U. and in the 2nd year I was introduced to Matt by my fun loving cousin. Me and Matt fell in love on the spot. We were together for the last 2 years of school and also the first year on our own in the city. We all shared an apartment and it was so much fun. I also never knew that Matt's cousin happened to be none other then J.C. from a group I vaguely heard of called NSYNC. Matt also knew something I did not know. Matt had Leukemia and he was dying at a rate the doctors could not even know and let alone matt wanted to know. He told J.C. who I even though he was straight had gotten to like and care for as a part of my family but J.C let it slip that Matt was dying and I was devestated but J.C. was helping me to deal with it and the stress involved. Cathy also knew from J.C. a guy from the group named Justin and Justin was gay also J.C. who was straight knew that Justin needed someone to love him for who he really was and because J.C. and Justin were such good friends J.C. hoped Justin would find happiness in the very near future. Matt and I were so deep in love with one another that I did not care what happened to me in my life I put my happiness aside for Matt's Happiness. Matt was so great with Joshy he loved him as much as I did. Matt and I had talked about getting married when we were ready and moving into our own house together and raising a family of our own when Matt got better but for now we lived the 3 of us like I said. Me, Matt, and Cathy. Cathy knew as I did that Matt was not going to get better but I hoped and prayed that he would. Matt made his decision to die at home with me there to take care of him and for me to be there with him when the end did come, I was so out of it the next couple of weeks that I was a mess and neither Cathy or J.C. and not even Josh who was my baby brother could pull me out of the state I was in. I was loosing the one true love of my life the man I came to know and love and laugh and cried with. I loved matt with all my heart and soul but knew when the time came I'd have to say goodbye to him. A few weeks later I had gotten a call from my agent asking me if I wanted to be in the new revival of "The Music Man" I loved that show and loved the film version of it so I jumped at the chance, knowing full well I can juggle both taking care of Matt and going to rehearsels Cathy said she would help take care of Matt which made it bearable for me. I got a call a week later saying I had gotten the part and it was on pure talent that I earned it and not by sleeping with anyone. Matt was so happy for me as sick as he was and then the very next night after I had gotten the call I was home with Matt late at night when the worst thing that ever happened to me at this point in my life I lost the one true love of my life but in time as I found out there was to be someone in my life who I would love as deeply as I had Matt his name was Justin. Matt was in my arms as we had our very last conversation ever together : Chris : Are you comfortable Sweetie ? Can I do anything for you ? Matt : N-no hun, you have done so much for me...I'm so sorry love. Chris : For what ? Matt : Leaving you so soon in our new life together, sorry for not seeing Joshy grow up and become like his big brother, and for not getting married sooner. I am glad to see that J.C. warmed up to you and Chris...sweetie he can help you. Chris : How ? What are you talking about hun ? Matt : Shh, you'll find out in time. Baby do me this one thing. Promise me you'll move on and learn to love again. Always love me and remember me but do not mourn me forever, know that I will always be inside your heart for always...promise me this Chris please ? Chris : I-I will Matt. I love you Forever even if the right one does come along. Matt what do I do ? Do you want me to call J.C. and let him know what is going on and what to do ? Matt : Yes hun, and I love you and when you open in the show a month from now I'll be watching you and I will be so proud of you and please know I will always be proud of you always forever and a day... Chris...I have to go now...re-remember I'll always be with you forever and I love you very very much sweetie...good-bye......... -I did not know what to do I was scared and I was alone I just screamed out- Chris : Matt....MATT DON'T GO! I NEED YOU ! -just then I heard Cathy come in with the groceries and she saw what was happening and dropped everything and ran to me where I was screaming and crying and I was still holding onto Matt trying to get him to come back to me and then Cathy gave me a great big hug and rocked me back and forth and tried to calm me down but I was not even myself at that point. I lost my love of my life I was scared and did not know where to go and what to do I let out a great big scream which was building inside of me. Chris : Cathy...WHY ? MATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! Cathy : Shh Baby let it out I am here and I will call J.C. for you and let him know, and I know there will be someone who can love you just the way that Matt loved you I promise you Chris...I promise you sweetie. Chris : Me ? Love again I guess you are right in the meantime I'm going to go and call mom and Josh and let them know about Matt and then I am going for a walk why not come with me I will wait while you call J.C. Cathy : I really need to call J.C. and see what is to be done about the arrangements and all you take your time sweetie and we will talk soon when you get home and I love you Chris very much I know you can love again it will happen you have to trust me. As I walked out of the room and out the door I thought I heard her say "God Justin I hope you can love him in time he really needs you as much as you need him" ... T.B.C. -I hoped you liked it I know it was long but I had a great time developing and getting to know my characters and I will have romantic stuff but no sex will be involved in my stories. I hope you e mail me at Chris_Lerman@hotmail.com, I love getting e mail and I will respnd to you in due time.