Date: Sat, 16 Feb 2002 19:11:13 -0800 (PST)
From: slpwriter <slpwriter@yahoo.com>
Subject: Nick Lachey: My Everything-38

Hey all, I'm back and still writing the story. it's
getting harder and harder to write and make sense out
of it considering some of the choices I've made in the
story.

Oh, and I'm going to try to write it with different
scenes in each chapter so we can all see what's going
on with the other characters, rather then from Sean's
point of view.


First of all, let me just say that this is my first
time writing any kind of fiction like this.

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not
meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick
and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this
story.

If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality
offends you, then please don't continue any further
and leave.

Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are.

"Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche.
"69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt
"Nick Lachey" by Ken.
"98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night
"The Reunion" by RinSong.
"Loving Nick Lachey" by Jordan

and finally:
"This Gift" by Sprout.

Now, I"ll let you get on with the story.

Enjoy.

Previously on "My Everything".....


BACK AT THE CRASH SITE..................

Nick was still knelt down at the spot where the crash
happened. he was still speaking.

"Sean, our relationship has survived so much." Nick
said to thin air. "My treatment of you back in New
York when I found out you were gay. Finding out you
had been raped and were at risk at getting STD's. My
anger at you when you turned down my marriage
proposal. and of course, my affair with Matt
Sheffield."

Nick smiled when he came to the best part.

"But then you forgave me and we got back together. Our
love was stronger than ever." Nick gushed. "At that
time, I didn't think that anything could ever separate
us again........

Nick stopped, his emotions starting to come back from
what he had to say to finish his sentence.

"Until tonight." Nick finished, tearing up again.
"Tonight when you said you made a mistake marrying me,
after I was such a jerk before. That hurt me so
terribly that I threw you out of the house without any
regard to your feelings."

Nick's tears gave way to sobs, but he continued.

"I will regret that." He sobbed. "Until the day I die
because I was so selfish! I let my anger and hurt
cloud my judgement, and because of that, I've lost you
for good! And I have no one to blame but myself!"

Nick looked up again through his tears at the sky and
continued through his sobs.

"I'm going to miss you so much, Baby." Nick sobbed. "I
wish I could have said goodbye."

Nick could not say anything more and sank down to the
ground and cried his heart out.

A few minutes later, Nick felt someone's hand on his
shoulder, squeezing it gently.

Nick looked up through his tears to see who it was.
When he did, his eyes widened.

"You?!"

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CHAPTER 38
***********

Nick stood up, his eyes wide, and stared at the person
who was standing in front of him.

"Oh my god!" Nick exclaimed. "Sean?

Nick grabbed me in a hug and held me tight, the
emotions overwhelming him.

He held me for at least 5 minutes, neither of us
moving or speaking. Then Nick released me and looked
at me up and down.

"I can't believe this!" Nick gushed. "Look at you!
You're here! you're ok!"

I nodded and smiled.

I'm fine." I said, standing before Nick in the clothes
I was wearing before the accident.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Nick asked me. "Why didn't
you come to me?"

I shrugged.

"Would it have mattered?" I asked him, with a sad look
on my face.

"Yes. Yes, of course." Nick replied to me. Then he
wondered something.

"Where have you been?" Nick asked me.

"Not far." I said to him. I saw his eyes drop down for
a minute.

"You seemed so angry and hurt that I didn't know what
to do or say to make you understand that I didn't mean
what I said at the time." I said, with a hurt look on
my face, as I walked past him and took a few steps
away.

"You're angry." Nick said, his face filling with
confusion.

"I forgave you for it, Nick." I said, my back still to
him.

Nick's face took on a look of content when he heard
those words.

"You have?" Nick asked, then said "Oh, baby, you have
to know that I'd give anything for a second chance
with you."

I turned and looked at him, then nodded.

"That's what I want too." I said to him. "But.....

I didn't get to finish, because Nick walked over to me
and pulled me into his arms and kissed me,
passionately. I returned the kiss, tears coming to my
eyes.

it only lasted for a few seconds before I pushed him
away.

"But Nick, getting back together is impossible." I
said to him.

"Impossible?" Nick asked me, confused. "No. Nothing is
impossible. You're here. You're alive."

I looked at him for a second then said.

"I'm not here, Nick." I told him, and walked past him.
He looked after me, confused.

After about 10 steps, I turned back to him and pointed
up towards the sky.

"I'm up there." I said, looking at him, sadly.

Nick shook his head. "No." He said.

I looked at him, feeling sorry for him.

"This is just a dream, Nicholas." I told him.

"No. No!" Nick said, tears coming to his eyes.

"I'm sorry." I apologized to him. "I miss you too."

Those last words, echoed as my image disappeared from
Nick's view.

"No! No!." Nick said, running towards where Sean's
image had been. "NO! DON'T GO, SEAN, NO!! NO!! SEAN?!
SEAN?!

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BACK AT NICK'S CAR..............

"Nick, wake up!" Drew was shaking him, trying to wake
him up. The guys were standing nearby.

"No!, Don't go, Sean! No! No! NO!!!!!!" Nick was
saying, tears streaming down his face, as he was still
sleeping from his dream.

"Nick!!" Drew yelled. "It's Drew! Please, wake up,
man!"

Nick's eyes opened and he jerked upright in his seat.

"Drew?" Nick said, sobbing. "Sean was here! He was
here! then he disappeared! We have to find him, Drew."

"Nick, you were dreaming." Drew told him, sadly. "Sean
is dead. Remember?"

The look on Nick's face made Drew regret his words,
because then Nick's lower lip trembled, and his eyes
showed anger and despair.

"How can you say that, Drew?!" Nick screamed, opening
the door and getting out, slamming his car door behind
him. "I saw him! He was here!"

"Nick, calm down." Jeff said.

"No!" Nick yelled. "I know he was here and if you guys
don't believe me, then to hell with you!"

Nick started to run across the road, before anyone
could could take action.

He never noticed the car that was coming.

HONK! HONK!

"Nick, watch out!!!" Drew screamed.

Nick stopped in his tracks, right in the middle of the
road and looked towards the car which was coming at
him. The car's driver didn't even hit his brakes.

Before Nick could react, the car hit him head on and
Nick's body went into the windshield, then rolled off
the other side of the car, into the ditch and was
still.

"Nick! NO!!!" Drew screamed, running over to Nick and
cradling his brother's bloodied and bruised body in
his arms.

"Guys, go after that fucking car!" Drew screamed,
tears streaming down his face.

But before the guys could react, They heard a gunshot
ring out and then heard an explosion.

They turned to see that Drew's car's front tire had
been shot and it was now flat.

Someone in the car must have shot the car tire out,
knowing that the guys would have tried to come after
them and stayed one step ahead of the guys.

The car sped off and the guys ran over to Drew, who
was crying hysterically and holding Nick's body in his
arms.

"Call 911!" Drew screamed, as his EMT skills came into
play. "Nick needs to get to a hospital and fast!"

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MINUTES LATER THAT NIGHT............

The ambulance rushed to the lobby doors and the
orderlys and nurses rushed out to help the  paramedics
with the gurney that Nick's battered and bruised form
was in.

Drew and the guys were right behind them as they
rushed Nick's gurney through the hospital hallways.

A male doctor appeared, took one look at Nick, his
face serious.

"Get this patient to OR stat." He said.

The nurses started to wheel Nick's body towards the
operating room. Drew was following them, until the
doctor stopped him.

I'm sorry, sir, but you can't go with them." He said.

"Why not?" Drew asked, started to get angry, from how
scared he was. "He's my brother."

"That may be true." The doctor said to him. "But your
brother may possibly need to be operated on. Just stay
down here and I'll let you know when you can see him."

Drew sighed heavily, but reluctantly agreed with the
doctor.

"Alright, but please don't let my brother die." Drew
begged, his tears returning. "Please?"

The doctor nodded. "We're going to do everything we
can for your brother, sir. "What is your name?"

I'm Drew Lachey." Drew said, extending out his hand to
the doctor. The doctor took it and they shook hands,
briefly.

"My brother's name is Nick Lachey." Drew told him, so
he knew his name.

The doctor frowned. "Drew and Nick Lachey?" He asked.
"Where have I heard those names before?" He wondered.
Drew then decided to answer his question.

"We're musicians." Drew told him. "You've heard of 98
Degrees haven't you?"

Realization dawned on the young doctor's face when he
realized who Drew and Nick were.

"That's right!" he exclaimed then smiled. "My daughter
is a huge fan of yours. She has almost every cd and
poster of you guys." As a matter of fact, she left one
in my office. Do you think you guys could all
autograph it later?"

"Drew nodded. "Sure. I'm sure your daughter would love
that."

"Thank you very much." The doctor said, then looked
serious. "I'm just sorry that we had to meet under
these circumstances."

"Drew nodded as he started to tear up again.

"I'm going to go and get to work on Nick." The doctor
said. "I'll let you know how things are going as
information comes up. Then I'll let you know when you
all can see him."

"Thank you, Doctor." Drew said, then asked. "In the
meantime, what can I do?"

"Well, why don't you go to the nurse's station and
give them your brother's name and medical information?
That way we can get started as soon as possible in
case Nick needs to be operated on. We won't know until
we take X-rays of his body to find out if there's any
major damage to his body."

"Alright. But please let me know everything that's
going on. Even if the news is not good." I want to
know everything." Drew insisted.

"I will let you know. The doctor told him. "I have to
go. I'll see you all later."

With that, the doctor walked off towards the operating
room.

Drew sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. Then
he turned and walked over to the nurse's station to
give Nick's name insurance information. After he was
done with that, he turned and walked into the waiting
room, where Justin and Kandi were sitting there,
holding each other close. Danny and Jeff were nowhere
to be seen.

"Where are Jeff and Danny?" Drew asked them.

"They went to get us all some food and cappaucinos."
Justin told Drew. "I've got a feeling that we may be
here awhile."

Drew nodded, tearstains evident on his face. "Yeah,
probably. But I'm not very hungry right now."

Justin and Kandi both gave Drew a worried look.

"You should at least try to eat something. You have to
keep your strength up." Kandi said to him.

"I'll try." Drew said. He sat down beside Kandi and
sank down in his chair and put his head in his hands.

"I can't believe this is happening." Drew said. "First
we lose Sean to an explosion and now Nick gets run
down by a speeding car. and all in the same night."

"Drew, Nick is NOT going to die." Justin said, trying
to give Drew some hope.

"We don't know that, Justin." Drew said, sharply. "We
didn't think it would happen to Sean and it did."

"That was different, Drew." Kandi said. "Sean was
stuck in the car and couldn't get out. Nick's
situation is totally different."

Drew shook his head, like he couldn't believe her.

"I don't want to talk about this anymore." He said.
Then his eyes widened. "Oh shit!"

"What, Drew? What is it?" Kandi asked, with a
frightened look on her face.

"We're supposed to be back on tour in a few days. Plus
I haven't let management know what has happened to
Nick." Drew replied.

I already took care of that, Drew." Justin said. I
told management everything that happened tonight with
Sean's death and now with Nick's accident. They're
going to postpone the tour until we know what Nick's
health status is. They're sending out an official
statement to the media, as we speak."

Drew sighed in relief. "Thanks, Justin. I was in no
shape to handle that."

"What are friends for, man?" Justin asked with a small
smile.

Hey guys, we're back." A familiar voice called out.

Drew, Kandi, and Justin looked up to see that Danny
and Jeff were back with food and hot cappaucinos for
everyone.

"Great. Let's eat. I'm starving." Justin said.
grabbing his bag of food.

Danny handed Kandi and Drew their bags of food and
then sat down across from the guys to start on their
own.

Drew opened up his bag, which had a small container of
chili in it, along with a Chicken sandwhich, some
garlic mashed potatoes, and a bread roll.

The guys ate their food until they were full. Even
Drew.

"Wow. I can't believe how hungry I really was." Drew
said, after he'd finished his food.

"That makes four of us." Justin said, with a slight
laugh.

Drew sipped his mocha cappaucino and then yawned. "Now
I feel tired." He murmured.

"So are we, Drew." Justin said. "But we need to wait
until the doctor comes back to give us some news on
Nick's prognosis."

"Well I hope he get's back here soon." Drew said. "Or
I'm going to go crazy wondering if Nick is alright."

As if on cue, the doctor appeared and the guys all
stood up.

"I have some news." The doctor said, his face all
serious. "Nick's seems to be pulling through this just
fine. We know so far that he's suffered a dislocated
shoulder, as well as minor cuts and bruises, but all
of his wounds have now been bandaged." But other than
that, Nick was very, very lucky."

The guys all sighed in relief. They were so relieved
that Nick had survived this latest ordeal.

"Can we see him, Dr?" Justin asked.

"Yes, but I want to check on him first before you guys
go in to see him." The Doctor said with a strange look
on his face.

The guys didn't really catch on to it, but Danny felt
that something wasn't right.

"Dr. You did say Nick SEEMS to be pulling through
alright.=?" He pointed out. "Is there something else
you're not telling us?"

"Actually yes." The doctor said. "Nick's still
unconcious yet, but what's going on is something I was
hoping that I wouldn't have to bring up. But now I
feel you guys should be prepared in case something may
go wrong."

"Dr. what are you talking about?" Drew asked, starting
to panic.

The doctor looked at him, and continued.

"Well as you know, Nick did hit his head pretty hard
when the car hit him and we've taken X-rays of Nick's
skull to find out if there's been any swelling to the
brain. The results haven't come back yet."

"Oh god." Kandi said, putting her hand to her mouth in
horror. "If Nick's brain does show swelling, what will
it mean for him?"

The doctor looked at them sadly.

"Well it could mean a number of things." If his brain
shows swelling, it's possible he could be paralyzed,
or go blind. Or worse."

"Worse?" Drew asked. "As in what?

The doctor sighed heavily, regretting what he had to
tell them, but he knew they all needed to know.

"Death." The doctor said, a sad look on his face. Not
only could swelling of the brain cause paralysis or
blindness, But death also."

Everyone gasped in shock. They had to face the fact
that not only had they lost one best friend, but that
they could lose another.

"No." Drew whispered, tears streaming down his face.
"No, this can't happen. Not to my brother."

"I'm so sorry, Drew." The doctor said. Then his pager
started beeping.

"I'm sorry I have another patient to attend to." He
said. "I'll be back later."

The doctor rushed off to take care of his next
patient, leaving everone standing there in shock.

Drew sank back down into a chair and put his hands to
his head. He was scared to death at what could happen
to Nick.

"This is all my fault!" He said outloud. "I should
have stayed downstairs with him tonight, not leave him
all alone in his state of mind! My god, what kind of a
brother am I?!"

Everone looked at Drew like he was crazy. They were
all shocked to hear Drew talk that way.

"Drew, stop beating yourself up, man." Jeff said,
sitting next to him and putting his arm around him.
"Nick would have left the house sooner or later
anyway." You're a wonderful, loving brother to Nick
and he really needs you to be strong for him right
now."

Drew turned and looked into Jeff's sexy blue eyes and
then threw his arms around Jeff. Jeff returned the
hug.

"I'm trying to be strong, Jeff." Drew sobbed. "I'm
trying to keep the faith and stay positive, but it's
really, really hard."

"I know, Drew." Jeff said. "It's hard for all of us,
but we can't give up on Nick. We have to keep
fighting. And praying. That's all we can do right
now."

Jeff released Drew and Drew sat back and wiped at his
eyes, clearing the tears from his face.

"Thanks, Jeff." Drew said to him. "I needed that."

Jeff smiled, patting Drew on the shoulder. "Anytime."
he said.

Just then the doctor came back with Nick's test
results and he was smiling.

"I have good news. Nick's results, showed no swelling
of the brain."

Everyone let out a great sigh of relief. Nick was
going to be alright!"

Thank you so much, Dr." Drew said, smiling, then
asked. 'What's your name?"

"I'm sorry. I'm Dr. Kerry." the doctor said with a
smile, shaking everone's hands.

"Thanks for everything you've done for us, Dr. Kerry."
Drew said. "Can we see Nick now?"

"Sure." Dr. Kerry said. "He's in room 203. I'm going
to check on my next patient. If Nick wakes up, have
them page me immediately, ok?"

"We sure will. Thank you, Dr." Justin said.

The doctor nodded and walked off to check on his other
patients.

"Well guys, let's go up and see Nick." Danny
suggested.

Everyone agreed and headed towards the elevator. Drew
hit the "up" button and after a few seconds the
elevator doors opened. Jeff, Justin, Danny, Drew, and
Kandi all piled in and Drew hit the button for the
second floor.

The doors closed and the elevator began it's ascent to
the 2nd floor.

"Boy, this has been a night of complete hell." Danny
said sighing. "I can't wait until Nick can finally go
home and we can start helping him deal with all that's
happened."

"You can say that again." Drew agreed. "This time I'm
going to keep a closer eye on Nick from now on."

"We all will, Drew." Justin said from behind him.

The elevator finished it's ascent and the doors opened
to the second floor and the guys got out and headed to
Nick's room.

They all came to his room and Drew opened the door and
they all walked in.

They saw Nick lying in bed, unconcious. His head had a
bandage around it, and they also saw that his right
arm was in a sling, indicating that that was his
dislocated shoulder.

Drew grabbed a chair and pulled it to Nick's bedside,
where he sat down and then grabbed his brother's hand,
squeezing it."

"Nick?" Drew called out to him. "Can you hear me?"

Nick didn't respond. But Drew wasn't about to give up.

"Nick, please wake up?" Drew begged him. "Please come
back to us?"

Just then, Nick started to stir. His head moved a
little towards Drew and then he slowly opened his
eyes.

"Nick! You're awake." Drew whispered. "How are you
feeling?"

Nick's face took on a very strange look as he looked
at Drew, confusion filling his features.

"Who are you?"



TBC..........?"

Well that's it for this installment.

"Does Nick have amnesia and don't remember his own
brother as well as his friends? Will he remember Sean?
Or his career? Will it be temporary or permanent?

Stay tuned to find out what happens next.

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