Date: Mon, 28 Jul 2003 00:37:04 -0700 (PDT)
From: slpwriter <slpwriter@yahoo.com>
Subject: Nick Lachey: My Everything-52

Hey guys, I'm back!

I'm writing again, but don't expect the chapters to be
out soon. I've reached a very difficult area in the
story and in order to keep it going, I need to make
sure that it makes sense this time around.

 Now on with the story.


First of all, let me just say that this is my first
time writing any kind of fiction like this.

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not
meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick
and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this
story.

If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality
offends you, then please don't continue any further
and leave.

NEWSFLASH: To those of you who don't already know,
Nick Lachey and Jessica Simpson, in real life, have
reconciled and are now husband and wife. I wish them
all the best with their marriage and hope they live a
long and happy life together.

If you want details about their wedding, check out the
98 Degrees Official Website at www.98degrees.com.


Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are.

"Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche.
"69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt
"Nick Lachey" by Ken.
"98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night
"The Reunion" by RinSong.
"Loving Nick Lachey" by Jordan
"Playing Doctor with 98 Degrees" by Brian

and finally:
"This Gift" by Sprout



Now, I"ll let you get on with the story.

Enjoy.


Previously on "My Everything".....


I looked at the letter, wondering when Nick had left
it.

I opened it and started reading it.

*******************************************************
Dear Sean,

This is one of the hardest letters that I've ever had
to write to you. If you want to destroy this letter
rather than read it, I wouldn't blame you. But if you
haven't destroyed it yet, please read it. You need to
know what's going on with me. I couldn't talk to
anyone else, so I decided to write to you instead.

I'm such a mess now, more than ever, Sean. I thought I
was happy. I thought I had everything that I could
ever want: An amazing wife, A beautiful little girl,
and a career that I've loved ever since our first
debut. I realized this morning that even though I have
everything that I could ever want, that something was
missing.

And that something, or should I say, someone, is you.

When I walked in on you and Drew, going at it in my
room last night, it caught me so off guard. I took a
walk to clear my head and then went back to my room
later. By then you and Drew were in his room, asleep.

I couldn't sleep at all last night. Every time I would
fall asleep, I'd see you and Drew going at it in my
dreams and I'd wake up again in a cold sweat.

And when you came to me this morning and wanted to
talk, I was so rude to you. And then, when you told me
that you and Drew made love last night, I just lost it
and accused you of using my brother to get back at me
for cheating on you with Matt. And when I kissed you
and told you that it was for the last time, that was a
lie.

It wasn't until you left the room that I broke down,
knowing that you could never love me again and that
I'd destroyed any chance we had of becoming friends
again.

 I still love Jessica very much, but I love you more
now than I ever have, and a part of me wishes that I
could just take you in my arms and never let you go
again. But I know that that can never happen again.
The other part of me wants to do what's right and
rebuild what I have with Jessica, and to make sure
that my daughter, Nikki, grows up in a loving home
with two parents under the same roof, who love each
other.

One thing that I am sure of is of my love for Nikki. I
am willing to do whatever I can to make her happy,
even if that means trying to rebuild my relationship
with her mother, which I'm unable to do right now. And
I can't handle seeing you and Drew together right now,
either. I need to take time to sort out my life and
once that's done, figure out where I go from there.
That's why I'm leaving town.

I don't know where I'm going to go or when I will be
back. But just know that there will be a thousand
times a day that I'll be thinking of you and that
there will be a thousand times a day that I'll be
thinking about, what we could be doing together.

Please don't try to find me. And don't show this
letter to anyone. I have a feeling that things will
get very ugly with me gone and I couldn't bear it if
you are blamed for my disappearance.

I wish you all the best with my brother and I hope
that you two are very happy. that's all I've ever
wanted is for you to be happy. And since it can't be
me, I can't think of a better guy who deserves love
more than Drew. I believe you will be good for him and
that you two will work out.

If that is not the case, then I've truly destroyed
everything I ever truly cared about. I never meant to
hurt anyone, but I had no choice but to leave.

I wish you nothing but the best and I hope I see you
again, someday.

All my love,

Nick

*******************************************************
When I'd finished reading, I realized that there were
wet spots on the paper, which meant that Nick had been
crying while he had been writing it. I noticed that I
too was crying when I felt the tears on my cheeks.

Nick's letter had really touched me. I was very
worried about him. I knew that this letter didn't
change anything between us, but that didn't mean that
I didn't care. I still cared for Nick a great deal and
I realized now that Nick needed my friendship more
than ever.


**********
CHAPTER 52
**********

"Mom, what are you talking about?" Drew asked, the
fear evident in his voice. "What do you meean that
Nick isn't in L.A. anymore?"

Drew looked up at Jeff and Danny who were standing
before him, and he noticed that they were worried as
well about Nick.

"Jessica called me." Mrs. Lachey told him. "She was
very upset and wanted to know if we had seen or heard
from Nick since he left their house. I told her that
we didn't even know that he was back in town, and that
we hadn't heard from him since then, either."

"Mom, hold on a second." Drew said, suddenly.

He put his hand over the mouthpiece and pulled the
phone away from his ear. He looked up at Jeff and
Danny.

"You two, go and get Justin and Kandi and tell them to
call the bellmen and have them take our luggage down
to load into the limo." Drew instructed them. "Then
have them come over here. After I'm finished with this
phone call, we are going to the airport immediately."

"We're on it, buddy." Jeff said. "Come on, Danny."

"I'm right behind you, Jeff." Danny replied.

He and Jeff left the room, leaving Drew alone to
finish his phone conversation with his mother.

"Ok, Mom, I'm back." Drew said. "Did Jessica mention
anything about how Nick was when she saw him?"

"Not much, honey." Mrs. Lachey. "Just that he was not
his usual self. You should give Jessica a call on your
way to the airport. I'm sure she'd appreciate hearing
from you."

"I would rather wait until we're back in Los Angeles
first and then we'll deal with it from there." Drew
said. "We've got to go now, Mom."

"Alright, sweetie." Mrs. Lachey said. "Take care and
be safe. I love you."

"I will." Drew replied back. "And I love you too, Mom.
"I'll see you later this evening."

"Ok." She said. "Bye, hon."

Drew hung up the phone, just as someone knocked on the
door. He walked over and opened it, revealing Jeff and
Danny, standing there, with Justin and Kandi right
behind them.

"Ok, you guys, let's head downstairs and get into the
limo." Drew said. "We'll talk about what's happened
with Nick in there."

The others turned and started walking towards the
elevator doors. Drew joined them, after locking his
hotel room door. They got into the elevator and rode
it down to the lobby.

The guys and Kandi gave Drew their keycards so he
could turn them in, since they were checking out of
the hotel. They walked out to the limo and got in,
waiting for Drew to join them.

After a few minutes, Drew got everything taken care of
at the hotel's front desk and soon joined everyone
else in the limo.

After giving the driver their destination, Drew pushed
the button to close the tinted glass window between
them and the driver, to give them some privacy since
they had alot to talk about.

*******************************************************

BACK AT SEAN'S APARTMENT........

I stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel to
wrap around myself. After doing that, I walked into my
bedroom and sat down on the bed. That shower had
really felt good.

As I sat there, I looked outside at the ocean and
watched the waves crashing on the shore. Of course I
couldn't watch long or I'd get sleepy eyed.

I unwrapped the towel from my waist, leaving me in the
complete nude stage, and towel-dried my hair. After
that, I wrapped the towel around my head and let it
soak up the rest of the dampness for a while, while I
got dressed.

I grabbed a clean pair of underwear out of a drawer
and put them on. Then I grabbed a pair of socks and
put them on as well, along with a pair of relaxed fit
jeans and a tank top. I was finally fully dressed.

Just at that moment, I heard my doorbell ring. I
walked out of my room, through the hall and into the
living room. I got to the door and opened it to see
Jake standing there.

"Hey, Sean." Jake greeted me.

"Hi, Jake." I greeted him in return. "What brings you
here?"

"I wanted to talk to you about what happened last
night." He said. "May I come in?"

"Sure." I said, stepping aside to let him in.

He walked in and entered the living room, as I closed
the door. I turned back to face him.

"So, buddy, what's on your mind?" I asked him.

Jake just stood there with a huge grin on his face.

"So, you got some ass last night, didn't you?" He
said, bluntly.

"Excuse me?" I asked, in shock.

"Come on, Sean." Jake pressed. "I know you did,
because I saw you walking a little funny just a minute
ago. Also, I came over this morning to ask you if you
wanted to go swimming with me and Michelle, but you
weren't home and your car was gone. Which means you
never came home last night."

I rolled my eyes and caved. I decided to let Jake know
what he wanted to know.

"Alright, buddy, if you must know, I did spend the
night with someone." I said to him.

Not wanting to tell him any more, I walked into the
kitchen to get myself a drink.

"That's it?" Jake asked, following me into the
kitchen. "That's all you're going to tell me?"

"Well, if you'd like, I can give you a little taste of
what it's like to fuck a guy." I joked. "How about I
take you to my room and show you what it's all about?"

Jake got such a funny look of disgust on his face,
that I couldn't help but burst with laughter.

"Hell no, Sean." Jake said, throwing his hands up.
"Are you insane?"

Seeing me, do nothing but laugh, his face broke into a
grin too and he started laughing along with me.

"I'm just playing around with you, buddy." I told him.
"There's no way I'd try anything with you."

"You'd better not." He laughed. "Michelle would kick
your ass six ways to Sunday."

"Trust me, man, I never want to find that out." I
chuckled. "Now, how about we go for that swim right
now?"

"That can wait. Right now, I want to know who the
lucky guy is who scored with you last night."

I squinted at him, yet a small smile on my face,
letting him know that I wasn't angry, but at the same
time, that I wasn't going to make it easy for him. He
was going to have to guess who it was.

"Well if you want to know so bad, you're just going to
have to guess, buddy." I told him, with an evil smirk.

"Can I at least have one hint?" He asked.

"Ok." I said. "He's someone famous."

"Oh really?" He asked, intruiged. "Well this should be
interesting."

He frowned a moment, thinking it over who I might be
involved with.

"Is it Brad Pitt?"

I had to admit that I was surprised that that was his
first guess.

"Please, don't I wish?" I said, sarcastically.
"Although I have to admit, for a straight guy, you do
have great taste in men."

"Hey!" Jake said, playfully punching my shoulder.
"Just because I'm straight doesn't mean that I don't
know an attractive guy when I see one."

"If you say so." I giggled, teasing him a little. "But
no, It's not Brad. Although he is a good choice. Try
again."

"Matt Damon?" He tried again.

As soon, as Matt Damon's name came up, I gasped in
horror as my mind flashed back to my wedding reception
two years ago.

I realized that I'd never once thought about Ben
Affleck or Matt Damon ever since that devastating day
that I'd left California. I'd never once contacted
them. They had been my friends and I'd really let them
down by not staying in touch. I just hoped that I
could still get in touch with them.

"Sean, are you ok?" Jake's voice broke through my
thoughts.

"What?" I asked him, not sure I heard him.

"I asked if you're alright?" He repeated. "You looked
like you'd seen a ghost when I mentioned Matt Damon's
name. Is he the guy?"

"Oh no, Jake, it's not him." I told him. "But when you
mentioned him just now, I just realized that I haven't
contacted him and Ben ever since I left California two
years ago."

"Wait a minute! Back up!" Jake said, in shock. "Are
you saying that you know those two?"

"Oh, yeah." I said. "I know Ben and Matt really
well.....

Here I cut off and looked down at the floor, feeling
really guilty now that I'd let down two friends who
had really been there for me and look how I'd repaid
them. By not even giving them a single thought, much
less a phone call even to just let them know that I'd
moved. But now when I thought about it, I wasn't in
the best of shape, emotionally to think about anyone
else at that time.

"Or at least I used to." I finished.

"You used to? Jake asked, frowning slightly. "What
happened? Did you guys have a fight or something?"

"No, Jake." I replied. "When I left California two
years ago, I never got back in touch with them to let
them know where I was and I'm sure that they've tried
to get in touch with  me during all this time, but
they couldn't because I'd changed my cellphone number
after I moved here a week after I left Los Angeles."

"Wow." Jake said "I'm sure that they were probably
worried to death about you."

"They probably still are." I said. "Unless of course
they no longer remember me."

"Well, you'll never know if you don't try to get in
touch with them." Jake said. "Why don't you give them
a call right now?"

I thought about that for a moment. "How would Ben and
Matt react when they heard my voice for the first time
in two years? Would they be happy? sad? angry? bitter?

I guess I would just have to find out. Even if I did
get rejected, I thought that I should at least give it
a shot

"I think I'll do that." I said, grabbing my cordless
phone from it's console. I looked back up at Jake.

"Would you mind if I had a little privacy?" I asked
him.

"Of course." He said, then asked. "Are you still up
for that swim with me and Michelle?"

"Yes." I said. "Why don't you head back over to your
place and I call you when I'm done, alright?"

"Alright." Jake said, turning towards the door. "I'll
see you later."

"Bye, buddy." I said, as Jake closed the door behind
him.

I looked in my wallet to see if I still had that
little piece of paper that I'd written Ben and Matt's
numbers on when I'd first met them.

To my surprise, I still had it. It was in the same
place as it was before. I pulled it out and looked at
the numbers.

"Well, I'll try their house first." I said, and dailed
their house number. I waited for a response.

After about 3 rings, someone picked up.

"Hello?"

"Ben?" I asked, not sure if it was his voice. "Is that
you?"

"Yes, this is Ben." I heard him say, confusion in his
voice. "Who's this?"

I was a little shocked that he didn't remember my
voice, but I knew that it was possible he could have
forgotten what I sounded like.

"This is Sean Perry." I told him. "You remember me
don't you, Ben?"

Ben didn't say anything for a second, then recognition
dawned on him?"

"Are you the same Sean Perry who co-starred with us in
"Heart Break?"

"Yep. The one and only." I said. "I'm so sorry that I
never got back in touch with you and Matt after these
last couple of years. Will you at least give me a
chance to explain why?"

"You don't have to, Sean." Ben said. "I know all about
what happened to you."

"You know all about what?" I asked him, not sure what
he was talking about."

"About how your marriage to Nick wasn't legal, Nick
becoming a father, and Drew being in love with you,
still."

"Who told you all of that?" I asked him, although I
was already sure I knew who told him.

"Nick did." Ben told me. "He also told me about how he
and the guys disowned you too. And I have to say that
Matt and I were pissed at them for treating you that
way."

I smiled at Ben's concern. Even after two years of not
hearing from me, he still cared about me. But was he
ready to accept me back into his life?

"Ben, you have no idea what I went through." I said to
him. "I went through so much pain after I left. I
guess the reason for not contacting you and Matt
during that time was because that I was filled with so
much anger, pain, and resentment, that I couldn't
think of anyone else but myself at that time."

"I feel so bad that I wasn't there for you sooner."
Ben said. "Matt and I even tried to contact you, but
your cellphone number had been changed and we'd found
out that you weren't living with Nick and the guys
anymore, since they'd disowned you."

"I tried your old apartment in New York to see if
you'd gone back there, but new tenants had already
moved in and we even tried all over California to see
if you were at least still in the state, but we didn't
have any luck there either. Again, I feel really bad
about not being able to be there for you when you
obviously needed a friend then."

"Don't feel bad, Ben." I told him. "There wasn't
anything that you could have done for me then."

Then, I decided to try to change the subject since I
didn't feel like getting into the specifics of what I
went through over the phone.

"Hey, Ben, how is Matt doing?" I asked him.

I heard Ben sigh heavily, which didn't sound good.

"Matt and I aren't together anymore." He said, a catch
in his voice.

"What?" I asked, shocked. "What happened, Ben? You two
were happier than ever the last time I saw you."

"Yeah, we were." Ben said, sadly. "But that's over."

"When did you two break up?" I asked him. "Just
recently?"

"No." Ben said. "We broke up about a year ago. It was
right before Christmas."

"Oh my god, Ben." I whispered. "That must have killed
you."

"Where is Matt now?" I asked him. "Does he still live
with you?"

"No, he doesn't." Ben replied. "But he does crash here
every now and then since we're working on a project
together."

I was enjoying my conversation with Ben alot. It was
great that we were getting to know each other again
and that we were still friends, despite everything.

"Hey, buddy." I said to him. "Would you like to meet
up with me tonight?" I asked him. "I have alot I want
to tell you, but I can't get into it over the phone."

"Sure, Sean." Ben said, obviously sounding thrilled.
"I would really like that. I could use some company
right about now."

"And what I have to tell you, It has to be done in
person. I feel I owe you that at least. Once you've
heard my story, you'll understand what I went through
and why we lost touch." I told him.

"I'm sure I will, buddy." Ben said. "Where are you
now?"

"I live in Orlando, Florida now, Ben." I told him.
"I'm going to book a flight to Los Angeles as soon as
I finish up with you. If things go as planned, I
should be in Los Angeles by tonight."

"Cool." Ben said. "Would you like me to pick you up at
the airport?"

"Could you?" I asked him. "I would really appreciate
that. I don't really have anywhere else to stay in Los
Angeles, except for hotels."

"Well then, you can stay with me." Ben offered. "How
long will you be out here?"

I then thought about that. Today was was Thursday, so
I decided that I would stay Friday and Saturday, and
then catch a return flight back home on Sunday.

"Actually, I'll be staying until Sunday, if that's
alright with you?" I said, hoping it was alright.

"That's perfect." Ben said. "When you get here, you
and I are going to go out and have some fun."

I'm looking forward to it, buddy." I said, smiling.
"I've got to go so I can book that flight now. I'll
call you back later with my flight information."

"Alright, Sean." Ben agreed. "I'll talk to you soon."

"Bye." I said, before hanging up.

I then dialed Jake's number and waited for him to pick
up.

"Hello?" I heard Jake say.

"Hey, Jake, It's Sean." I said. "Listen, I need a
favor from you."

"Sure, buddy, what is it?" Jake asked me.

"There's been a change of plans for today." I told
him. "I can't go swimming with you and Michelle today
because I'm leaving for Los Angeles tonight."

"Really? Why?" Jake asked. "Are you going to spend
time with your new guy?"

"No." I replied. "Actually, I'm going to spend the
weekend with Ben Affleck and chill with him at his
place. Maybe go out to some of the clubs and party."

"No way!" Jake said, sounding excited, yet a bit
jealous. "You are going to have so much fun. I sure
wish I could go."

"Maybe next time you can." I told him. "That is, once
Ben and I get things settled and see where things
stand with us as friends."

"I'm sure things will be cool, Sean." Jake said.

"I am too, Jake." I said, smiling. "Oh, and about that
favor I asked of you. I want to know if you can watch
my place for me while I'm gone."

"Of course I will." Jake said. "Would you like me to
take you to the airport as well?"

"You don't have to." I told him. "I can take a cab."

"Sean, you don't need to." Jake insisted. "I'm more
than happy to drive you to the airport. In fact, I
insist."

Knowing that he wasn't going to take no for an answer,
I gave up and caved.

"Ok, Jake, you can drive me." I told him. "And
Thanks."

"No, problem." Jake said. "Go head and start booking
your flight and I'll be over in a few minutes to help
you pack."

"Ok, buddy." I told him. "And let yourself in because
I'll leave the door unlocked for you so you can just
come on in."

"Alright." Jake said. "See you in a few."

"Bye." I said.


As I hung up with Jake, my mind suddenly flashed back
to Drew. I was wondering how he was doing since I'd
left the hotel earlier this morning. I was sure that
he and the guys were on a plane back home right now.

I just hoped that Drew was doing alright.

*******************************************************
ON THE PLANE..................


"Ladies and Gentlemen," The announcer said. "We will
be beginning our descent into Los Angeles. Please make
sure your seat belts are fastened."

Jeff, Danny, Drew, Justin, and Kandi all sat back and
buckled their seat belts.

"I hope we get some answers about Nick when we get
home." Jeff said. "I'm really worried about him."

"I think we will, Jeff." Danny, who was beside Jeff,
said. "Once we talk to Jessica, we'll have a better
idea of what Nick's state of mind was when he left."

"So, Drew, where do you think Nick could have gone?"
Justin asked, looking over at Drew. Drew didn't seem
to hear Justin's question.

He had a far away look in his eyes, which meant
something was weighing heavily on his mind.

"Hello?" Kandi voiced. "Earth to Drew?"

Drew snapped out of his reverie and looked up at
Kandi.

"I'm sorry, Kandi, did you say something?" He said,
not sure he had heard her.

"No, actually, Justin did." Kandi said to him. "He
asked you where you think Nick could have gone?"

"I don't know." Drew said. "I'll have to wait until I
talk to Jessica and then I'll see if Nick left any
clues as to where he could have gone."

"By the way, Drew." Jeff said. "You looked like you
had alot on your mind."

"I do." Drew said. "I was thinking about Sean just a
minute ago."

"Speaking of Sean, you never did tell us why he left
earlier." Danny pointed out.

"Well, after Sean decked Jeff earlier, he and I talked
about our relationship and I gave him an ultimatum. If
He wants to be with me, he was going to have to find
some way to get along with all of you. And if not, we
were going to agree to go our separate ways and not
contact each other again."

"What did you both decide?" Kandi asked, curiously.
"Will Sean be a part of our lives again or won't he?"

Drew looked away from them and sighed.

"Oh my god, he won't be, will he? Danny asked, a sad
look on his face.

Drew looked back at everyone, his face void of
emotion.


"No, we wont..........."



TBC............?

Well that's all for this installment. Sorry it's taken
so long to get this one out.

"Are Drew and Sean really over?"

"Will Ben and Sean rediscover their friendship?"

Stay tuned to find out.


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