Date: Fri, 22 Jan 1999 12:19:05 -0800 (PST)
From: CJ <magik77_1998@yahoo.com>
Subject: My Night With Howie D. Part 7 & 8

***Hey everybody, heres the latest installment, hope you enjoy it as
much as the others.  Between school and work, its taking a little
longer to write this, but I am doing it, so please be patient.  Thanks
for all the emails!!  There is nothing like hearing from ya'll (good
and bad), it lets me know what to do and not to do.  I also got a lot
of responses about Jesse and requests for a story about him, not too
sure about that but he will be here for the next few.  
***Oh yeah, this is fictional and is not meant to imply that Howie,
Brian, and AJ are gay.  Also, if homosexual relationship and sex
offend you or go against some strange law in your town, THEN DON"T
READ THIS!

My Night With Howie D
Part 7
By Craig

  After the night I had, I couldn't believe it when I woke and the
clock said it was only eight o'clock.  Howie was still asleep and
during the night his arms had stayed wrapped around me.  I just lay
there looking at him until he woke up.  He looked at me and smiled.

"Mmm, good morning." he said.

  I responded with a kiss, which on my end was meant to be innocent,
but Howie pulled me closer and went deep. I could feel his cock poking
me in the leg.  While kissing I reached down and started to stroke his
cock. I broke away from the kiss and went under the blanket and
started to suck his cock.  In a matter of minutes I felt his body
tense as he got closer to climax.  Instead of pulling away, I stayed
on him and when he started to shoot his load, I swallowed it all.  I
came out from under the blanket and he looked at me with love in his
eyes.  We kissed again as someone knocked on the door.  

"What?!?!" I yelled.
"Its me, Mom wants to know what you guys want for breakfast?" Sel asked.

  I turned to Howie and he shrugged.
"Tell her to make whatever she feels like."
"Okay."she said.
"Well, it looks like we are getting out of bed now." I told Howie.
"I suppose, you up for breakfast?" he asked.
"Meaning the 'inquisition'?  Yeah, I'll just tell them that I am a
paranoid delusional and it decided to manifest itself in my dreams." I
said sarcastically.
"Craig thats not funny, don't joke about it and put yourself down. 
Its okay to be scared.  Everyone gets that way." he said as he got out
the bed.

  I said nothing and just stood at the window.  I felt him come up
behind me and his breath on my neck.  He started rubbing my shoulders.

"Now, after the 'inquisition', what are the plans?" he asked.
"Whatever you want to do babe."
"Welll...that would be staying with you in this bed all day and I
don't think that will work out too well."

   I laughed and turned and kissed him.  I couldn't get enough of
those lips.  If I had to spend eternity doing one thing, it would be
to service all of Howie's needs. We eventually got dressed and went
down to the kitchen.  I was able to tell them what happened in as
little detail as possible and avoided the questions regardless of the
looks they all (including Howie) gave me.  Jess was due back to work
and Mom was busy with work (interior design) so that left me and Howie
with Sel.  She decided that she wanted to take us out and play 'look
who I know'.  We decided to go for it.  Now let me explain something. 
I grew up in Tucson and could not wait to get out.  My contract for
'Guys' started right after my graduation and I have only come back on
holidays when I had a chance.  Other than yesterday I had never come
back to see my friends and if it wasn't for e-mail we would never
communicate.  

   So going out and about would be interesting.  We took the 'Stang
and me and Howie wore caps and shades.  We went to this cafe Sel and
her friends hung out at and we had a good time, other than the initial
reactions of shock and squeals, everyone was real kewl. After that we
showed Howie our lovely town.  After that thrilling day we went home
and watched movies til we went to bed.  
   The next day I took Howie out myself and showed Howie our house and
my old room (which my mom kept the exact way I had left it).  He
seemed to like hearing about my family and seeing all of it.  Any
other guy would have been bored out of his mind,  but he hung on my
every word.  We got back to the cabin and packed up and went back to
the house so the cabin could be closed up.  Howie made a comment about
it that stuck.  He was joking around about how we had two houses to
choose from and all of us had fancy cars.  Joking he insisted, but I
took it badly.  I have always hated being called a snob.  I don't act
like one and don't flaunt it.  So when we arrived at the house Howie
was wondering why I hadn't spoke to him the whole way.  Instead of
responding, I just brought my stuff in the house.  Once in I went to
my room and slammed the door.  Howie came knocking and I told him to
go away.  After pleading with me for twenty minutes , my mom came and
brought him to the living room.  I stayed in my room acting like the
brat I was insisting I wasn't.  When he came back later, I told him
through tears just to take his stuff to the guest room and leave me
alone.  I waited for  him to argue, but when he didn't and I heard him
walk away, it tore up my heart, but my foolish pride stopped me from
calling him back.  Miserable,with myself to blame, I cranked my stereo
with Spice World. Then Sel popped the lock on my door and stormed in.

"I don't know what the hell you are doing, but if you don't stop it
right now, you'll be ruining the best thing that EVER happened to
you." she yelled.
"Whatever."
  She whirled me around and slapped me.
"Howie is trying to get his flight change Craig.  He doesn't know what
he did but he says it obvious that you don't want him here so HE'S
LEAVING!!"
"WHAT!"
"Yeah you ass, get in there and apologize."

  I ran from my room and found Howie in the guest room on the phone. 
I yanked it out of his hand and hung it up.

"What the hell was that for, I was just calling a cab so I could get
out of here." he said angrily.
"Howie, no, you can't go."
"Why?  Tell me why I shouldn't Craig.  I don't know what happened but
I apologize for my part in it, but I don't deserve to be treated like
this."
"Your right.  Look, I over reacted.  I had no right to be mad, in fact
you have every right to be pissed.  Here go ahead." I said and picked
the phone up and handed it to him.

   He looked at the phone and then looked at me.  I could feel the
tears streaming down my face.  He took the phone from me and I turned
away.  Then I heard the click as he put it back in the receiver.  Then
he put his hand on my shoulder.

"Craig, what happened?"
"Its stupid Howie.  You made a joke about our lifestlye and I snapped.
 I'm sorry, I had no right to.  Its just, I hate it.  Do you know what
its like to have everything handed to you.  Oh sure, we had to do
chores and stuff, but we never had to work.  And people look at what
we have and automatically assume that we're snobs.  I don't like being
judged and I guess I took it  that way and then went off on you.  I am
sorry and if you want to, you can go.  I deserve it."

   He took his hand off my shoulder and there was silence.  Then he
started to sing.

"I don't care WHO you are, WHERE your from, WHAT you did, as long as
you love me."

  I turned and he was on his knee singing to me.  I went over and
pulled him up and started kissing him.  We fell onto the floor and
tore each others clothes off.  Our desires were urgent and Howie tore
my pants down to my ankles and thrust his cock into my ass.  He
started slamming away until he shot his hot load into my ass.  Then he
flipped me over and straddle my cock and rode me until I blew in his. 
Then, panting, we lay there.  I kissed him and started laughing.

"What?" he asked.
"Nothing, but  I would have to say that that was the most intense sex
I have EVER had.  Maybe we should fight more often."

   In response to that he grabbed my still hard cock and squeezed.

"Okay, okay.  We don't have to argue we can still have intense sex
though."

   We got off the floor and got dressed.  I picked up his bags and
started to head for my room.  We got into it and hit the bed.  I laid
with my head on his chest and fell asleep listening to his heartbeat. 
I awoke in the morning to find that during the night he had undressed
us both and not waken me up.  Then I realized it was our last day in
Tucson and I got out of bed without waking Howie and  hopped in the
shower and then went down to the kitchen.  My mom and sister were
there already eating.  I sat down with them and we talked I realized
that I hadn't spent all that much time with them.  My mom told me that
Jess had called earlier and that me and Howie were invited to a party
that night.  Sort of a early New Years Bash, since we would be leaving
the next day for New York.  I went and woke Howie up.  I laid there
with him and told him the plans.  Then he kissed me and told me I
needed to shave.  I laughed and told him he needed to also.  Then he
got this gleam in his eye.

"C'mon, lets go shave." he said.
"What?"
"Just follow me."

  We went into my bathroom and he grabbed his kit and told me to sit
on the toilet.  I did but was very unsure about what was happening. 
He put the shaving cream on my face and the started to shave my face. 
It was kinda kewl and if not for the fact that I was afraid he would
slip, I was enjoying it.  Then he finished.  I stood up and told him
to sit.

"Umm nah, I'll do it." he said.
"No way babe, you did me now I do you.  Thats the way it goes."

   I pushed him down and lathered his face up.  But I took it a step
further and sat on his legs.  He wrapped his arms around my waist to
keep me steady and i started.  He looked directly into my eyes and I
kept my hand steady and shaved his face.  Finishing, I kissed him.  He
started rubbing my ass, and I moaned.  But then he stood up with me
and sat me on the counter.  Then he turned and hopped into the shower.

"You tease!!" I yelled.

  He laughed as the water cascaded around him.  But then I flushed the
toilet and he screamed.  Laughing I left the bathroom and got dressed.
 He came out and snapped me with his towel.  After he got dressed we
went down to the living room and played N-64 with Sel until it was
time to leave.  I thought we were going to a friends house but Sel was
taking us to this club called the Third Base.  We walked in and the
sight that greeted me was ALL my friends from high school!  Turns out
that Jess and Sel had worked on this before I got here and planned it.
 Aaron was there and he was definetly a great guy.  He was fine as
hell and had a great personality.  We talked and I knew we could be
friends  It was great the music was thumping and we were all having a
good time.  There was no alcohol  since most of us were minors, but we
were still having fun.  Then the DJ put on our old song,"The Boys Are
Back In Town."  Now it definetly was our song, as we all had left and
returned and we all got up and danced.  It was kewl because all night
I could dance with Howie and not worry because all my friends knew
about me.  Howie was received well and my friends thought it was great
that we were together.  They played a couple of Backstreet Boys songs
and Howie led everyone dancing in 'Everybody'.   At midnight we all
did the kiss and the party didn't wind down until three.  We got home
and went to bed exhausted.  
   The next morning my mom woke us up at seven and we ate breakfast. 
Our flight was scheduled for ten so we were at the airport in plenty
of time. We all sat up in the lounge and chatted.  My family had
really taken a liking to Howie and they all got together and ribbed
me. I promised my mom that I would be back the weekend of my birthday
and she made Howie promise that he would make sure I did.  Then our
flight was announced so we said out goodbyes.  We got on the plane and
were on our way to New York. As soon as we lifted off, I started to
miss them already, but Howie took my hand and squeezed it
reassuringly. The layover in Dallas wasn't too bad and next thing I
knew we were landing.  The flight went by fast since Howie was there. 
And the guys were waiting for us as we got off the plane.  They came
up and greeted us with hugs.

"SO how was the honeymoon?" AJ asked with a grin.
"It was unbelievable, I'm not going to be able to sit for a week,"
Howie said and they all busted up.
"Well, I hope everyone enjoyed their vacations, cause its back to work
now." Kevin said.
"Yeah, but this isn't really work Kev, it will be fun." I said and
eveyone laughed and agreed.

  We went and got into the limo and headed for the MTV studio.  The
setup was that we would host with the veejays.  There would be
countdowns and best ofs and then  we would start the party and wait
for the ball to drop.  I was set to host with Jennifer for videos
40-30 of the top 100.  And then I would be in with Brian and a veejay
during the party.  Kind of sucked that I couldn't be with Howie, but
we knew we had to do our work.  We arrived at the studio and there was
a large buffet set up and we all chowed down and mingled with the
others.  Green Day, Backstreet Boys, Janet Jackson, Hole and quite a
few others were there as musical acts.  Jennifer, myself, Leonardo
DiCaprio, Kate Winslet, Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore and otehrs
were hosting.  So there was a great crowd and we were all having fun.
Howie, me, Jennifer and Nick stayed together while the others went off
and mingled. Then it was my turn to do the videos so we went off. 
When I came back I  couldn't find Howie, but I saw AJ and I went over
to him.  We hung and went around meeting the celebs and spent an hour
talking to Janet and gushing about the Velvet Rope.  She comlimented
me on Cruel Summer and I was shocked.  Then she winked and said,"I
think your boyfriend is looking for you."

   I turned and saw that Howie was looking for me.  I turned back and
asked her how she knew.  She smiled and told me that it was obvious
when we were on the couch.  Also she said not to worry because half
the people hee were bi or bi-curious and no one would talk.  She gave
me a hug and I went to Howie.  I gave him a hug and a quick peck and
we went back to the couch where Jennifer and Nick were getting close. 
Then the party was ready to start and I went off to where I was
supposed to be and found Ananda, but didn't see Brian.  Ananda told me
we were supposed to be up the tower and he'd meet us there, so we went
ahead with our cameraman following.  After about fifteen minutes Brian
came stumbling up drunk.  Ananda cued the camera to go off and we went
over to him.  He was soo drunk that he couldn't stand.

"Craig, I am REALLY FUCKED UP.  PLEASE DON'T TELL ANYONE!!" he said
and stumbled toward me.  

   He caught me off balance and the railing behind us gave way and we
were falling. Ananda screamed and tried to grab us but only caught
Brian's shirt almost making her fall. We were on the second floor and
the ground wasn't that far down and there were alot of people that
tried to catch me or break my fall.  The last thing I remember before
blacking out was falling on top of someone and hearing a sharp crack
in my leg.  Then my head hit the floor and I was out.  Hazy whiteness,
the feeling of floating and familiar voices calling to me.  I tried to
stand but I all I could do was float.  Then there were bright red
light and loud noise and I went back to the darkness and slept.  


Part 8

"Craig, Craig, can you hear me?  Oh god, please be alright.  Show me
you hear me please!!"
"Mr. Dorough, he's not responding.  And the doctor needs to look at
him.  Please go out to the waiting room, we'll call you back when
we're finished."

   Howie went out to the waiting room where his fellow BackstreetBoys
were waiting with Jennifer Love Hewitt.  Well, almost ALL the
Backstreet Boys.  Brian was in the bathroom clearing his stomach while
Kevin kept his head out of the toilet.  

"How is he?" AJ asked.
"They are looking at him, but he's just laying there guys.  You saw
it, he hit his head  and he hasn't come to since the ambulance, and
even then it was something about floating and he wouldn't let go of my
hand!!" Howie said and started to cry.

  AJ went over and gave him a hug.   Meanwhile in the corner Jennifer
and Nick were discussing Brian.

"All I am saying is, Ananda told me that Brian is what caused it,
Nick." 
"No.   We can't tell Howie.  He'll kill Brian.  I want to kill Brian. 
But we shouldn't make things worse right now."
"But what about when Craig comes to and tells him?"
   
   He just sat there with that.  Then Brian came in and slumped in the
chair.  Jennifer glared at him, while Nick went over to him.

"Oh god Nick!  I did it, I pushed him over the side.  Howie is going
to kill me!"
"Shh, Brian, calm down." Nick said putting his arm around Brian.
"No. this is MY fault!!" he screamed attracting everyones attention.
"What's your fault Brian?" Howie asked as they came over.
"Howie, I was drunk and i went to the balcony where they were.  I
stumbled in and Craig tried to catch me and our weight broke the
railing.  The only reason I didn't fall was because Ananda grabbed my
shirt."
  Howie lunged for him and AJ and Kevin had to hold him back as he
started screaming at Brian.  Then the doctor came in and Howie calmed
down a bit.

"Mr. Dorough, have you contacted Mr. Bingham's family yet?" he asked.
"Yes, but his mom is in Arizona so she told me to relay what happens
to her." Howie told him.
"Well, other than his ankle, nothing seems to be broken.  But, he hit
his head and that has made him lose concsiousness.  We took x-rays and
there seems to be no problems, but we won't find out until he wakes
up." the doctor responded
"Doctor, can I see him?" 
"Well, only familly is supposed to be able to."
"Doctor, this is his boyfriend and since all his family is out of
state, don't you think that  he should be admitted." Kevin said.
"Well, I didn't know that before, by all means yes he can go in.  Your
presence may bring him to." the doctor said.

   Howie followed the doctor into the room and came to the bed.  The
doctor left and he sat next to the bed.  He grabbed my hand and a tear
escaped his eye.

"Craig, I don't know if you can hear me, but please come back to me. 
Don't leave me.  I just found you and I can't bear to lose you." he
said kissed me on the lips.

  His tears dripped onto my face and still there was no response.  

"Come on Craig, you have too much going to give up.  You have nephews
on the way, a kick ass career, a loving family.  And well, you have
me, a man who loves you with all his heart.  And also a man who's
heart will break if you don't come back to him."

  I was in the darkness and I heard this, vaguely.  He started talking
more and with every word I started to come to.

"I can't bear to live my life without you Craig.  I want to spend
every moment I have with you.  Oh god please don't do this to me." he
said sobbing and threw his head onto my chest.

  When his head hit my chest I snapped out of the darknes and hit the
light.  I opened my eyes and saw Howie sobbing.  I reached for him,
but the movement caused me pain and I gasped.

"Craig!  Oh my god your awake!" he cried.

"y-yeah, but oh god Howie it hurts!" I rasped as my body throbbed in
pain.

   He hit the call button and poured me water which I took and
thirstily guzzled down.  The doctor came in with a nurse and smiled. 
They came over and started checking me.

"Craig, I am Dr. Roberts, you seemed to have had quite a fall, but
have come out with little damage.  Your left ankle is broken and
you'll have a goose egg on the back of your head along with soreness
and bruising all over your body, but you'll recover nicely with the
help of family and your boyfriend over here."

"Doctor, it hurts when I move." I told him.

"It may for a couple of days.  We are going to have to keep you here
for observation for a few days, but after the pain killers the nurse
is administering now take affect, you should feel better.  Remember
you survived a head first fall from a second story balcony.  You are
lucky that so many people were down there.  From the police report it
says that your fall was broken by a man and your rolled off him and
hit the ground, if you had hit the ground straight on you would have
suffered immensley more."

  After explaining a couple more things, and after the nurse finished,
they left me and Howie alone.  He sat onthe bed and took my hand.

"You do not know how much you scared me Craig!  Don't ever do that
again." he said.
"Well, I don't plan on it anytime in the near future so your safe."

  We laughed and he leaned in to kiss me.  He accidently bumped into
my ribs and I gasped in pain. 

"I'm sorry, I forgot ."

   I put my fingers to his lips and pulled him to me, but kept him off
me and I kissed him.  We stayed locked in that kiss  until a loud
noise from the hall made us break.  Howie looked at his watch and
laughed.

"What?" I asked.
"Its midnight!  Happy New Year babe." he said and kissed me again.

   Then the guys and Jennifer walked in.  Brian waas with but he hung
back.  They all commented on how lucky I was and I noticed major
tension between Howie and Brian.  After everyone finished and were
leaving I asked Brian to stay.  They all exchanged looks but left and
closed the door.  

"Brian, come over here.  Don't be a stranger." I said and pointed to
the chair next to the bed.  

   He sat and Howie glared at him.

"All right what the hell is going on?  Why are you giving Brian death
looks and why is Brian afraid to look at me?" I asked.

"Don't you remember what happened Craig?  I pushed you over the edge? 
Its my fault your here.  I am so sorry." he said through tears.
"What?  You think those tears are gonna make it better Brian?  He's in
major pain and all you can do is say I am sorry?  What a load of crap!
" Howie anngrily said and rose off the bed.

  I pulled him back but the movement was painful even with drugs.

"Listen, both of you.  Howie stop!  Cool down.  Listen, Bri, its not
your fault.  Yeah, you shouldn't have gotten so drunk but you couldn't
help it if the railing ggave way, don't blame yourself, because I
don't.  And as for you Howie, this is one of your best friends.  Don't
let something come between you when there is nothing to be upset
about." I said.

   It was silent and then Howie got off the bed and walked over to
Brian.  Brian looked as if Howie was goign to deck him.  But Howie put
out his hand and pulled Bri up and hugged him.  

"I can't be mad at ya B, even if I wanted to Craig would kick my 
ass." Howie said.

   We all laughed and Brian left us to be alone.  The nurses set up a
cot for Howie anndd he stayed with me for the night.   The next day
the guys were supposed to start going to the studio, but Howie stayed
behind.  He entertained me all day.  Which was good because my body
was aching all over.  Around noon, my mom called and after fussing and
crying, I reassured her I was fine and she didn't need to fly out.  I
also talked her out of my coming home to recover.  Jeff called and
told me that I was too keep him up to date on my conditon and when I
felt up to it, we could schedule the talk shows.  Rosie called and
fussed worse than my mother.  While I was here I was to forget about
the hotel and stay with her.  She insisted and would not take no for
an answer.  
  So, after three days of being in the hospital I was readyto leave. 
Howie was there as often as he could be and if not for that I would
have gone crazy.  I got out and went to Rosies and had a great time. 
I appeared on her show again and two others.  My accident had boosted
my image more and I was suddenly very popular and the talk of EVERYONE.

   On the ninth we all celebrated AJ's 20th birthday in Orlando and I
met Howie's family.  They were all very very kewl to me and I felt as
if they were my own.  We stayed in Orlando unntil the thirteenth. 
While we were there the guys did studio time and I stayed with Howie's
family.  All in all it was a good week.  On the 13 th we all flew to
Tucson because of my birthday on the fourteenth.

    Howie and  the guys were all with me and we caused quite a
commotion at the airports.  Arriving in Tucson we went to my moms
house and after getting everyone settled we discussed what to do for
the night.  My ankle was stil broke and wrapped, but my body had quit
hurting and the bruises were faded.  The knot in the back of my head
had gone down but was still sore and tender.  The guys wanted to go
out and see the night life.  So we went out and I showed them what
Tucson had to offer.  Everywhere we went they gave us the royal
treatment and served alcohol even though some were minors.  Brian kept
a check on how much he had and no one got trashed.  We  turned in at
three and the next day I woke at noon to find the house empty.   
  Wondering what the hell was going on I showered and went down to the
kitchen.  Seeing no one still, I went to the back yard and found all
my friends and family ggathered.  What a surprise!  There was music
and food.  Everyone danced and we did the birthday cake.  After that
the presents came.  A table full of them actually.  Clothes, music,
and books.  Then Howie turned to me.

"I wanted to save mine for last." he said and came over to me.  

  Everyones eyes were on us and I felt my stomach jump when Howie got
out a small box and go down on his knee.

"Craig, I know we haven't known each other  that long.  But I know
that I love you and have never felt this way before.  When you were
unconcsious and I thought I was going to lose you, I knew my life
would end also.  You give my life meaning.  I don't want to spend a
minute without you, but I know that with our careers and scchedules
that we can't though.  So my gift is two things.  The first is this
ring.  Its a promise ring.  It symobolizes our love and  shows that we
are together.  When we are ready to take the BIG step, we will, but
til then we have this.  Will you wear my ring Craig?" he asked.

   Everyone was hushed and watching me.  Without a hesitation or doubt
I said,"Yes."  Howie put in on my finger and everyone cheered.  He
stood up and hugged me and we kissed causing them to cheer more.

   After that everyone congraulted us and then went backto the party. 
Then Jeff came up and said he had to talk to me in the kitchen.  We
went in and sat down.

"Look Craig, I know that this is your life and you are happy right
now.  And I am happy for you to, but you have to remember your career.
 If any of this gets out your through."
"Jeff, you know I respect you and eveything you say, but this time I
don't.  I don't care anymore, did you not just see what happened?  He
loves me Jeff. He was there for me the whole time in was recovering!! 
You know what?  I think that my fans CAN handle my coming out." I said.
"No!" he screamed jumping up,"They can't.  You can't go throwing a
monkey wrench into it Craig, trust me.  I am not doing this to be a
dick I am doing this because I know what will happen.  I don't care
how enlightened everyone says they are, the second you come out the
WILL turn on you.  Here, I was saving this for after your birthday,
but maybe you should see it now." he said and handed me a fax.

   I unfolded it and saw what it read:

Jeff,

  Contract negotiations are scheduled February 4.  Your client, Craig
Bingham, holds a contract which expires then.  Due to recent turn of
events we are asking for a meeting between you and Mr. Errin.  We wish
to discuss Craig future in the show.  


Sincerely,
Dina Gates

"What does this mean Jeff?" 
"It means that they may have been pushed too far with the movie.  You
are a critical character, but you have left them high and dry until
March, a month after your contract expires.  They are going to play
hardball with you because they are afraid you'll walk.  Which, with
the success of Cruel Summer you could."
"Are you saying I should Jeff?  Do you really think I should leave
'Guys' and do the movies?"
"Craig, you are hot right now, we have scripts rolling in and you have
your pick of lead roles.  Right now is the prime time for it, but if
you 'come out', then I can't predict the outcome.  Maybe the movies
will still be there or maybe the show will.  Maybe both or maybe
neither.  This business is funny and I don't want to see you get
railed.  My advice?  Lets go to this meeting, but look at the scripts
first for both the movie and the show.  Whatever you want we will do."

  Wow, this was unusual and I guess Jeff's way of saying he was there
for me.  Then Howie came in and we changed the subject and went back
out to the party. I had a great time being there with everybody and we
went way into the night.
   We all stayed in Tucson for a couple days.  The guys, except for
Howie, were flying to Orlando for a week off.  Howie was coming with
me to LA where we would see what the studio had to offer me.  We
arrived and went to my house there.  It wasn't as big as my mom's and
all the furniture was rented.  There really was nothing personal there
except for in my room and it really was just a place to crash at. The
best thing about it was the fact that it was on the beach.  We stayed
in and Howie cooked dinner for us.  He was an excellent cook and the
candlelight was romantic.  Then we went for a walk on the beach. 
There was a full moon and the beach was glowing.  No one was around so
we had complete privacy.  We held hands and strolled along talking
about nothing and everything.  We went back to the house and after
hours of making love we fell asleep in each others arms.


I hate to do this, but. . .TO BE CONTINUED

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