Date: Thu, 23 May 2002 20:12:36 +0000
From: N D <pytn18@hotmail.com>
Subject: nick and ashley/all i need is you-10

DISCLAIMER: O-town, Backstreet Boys and N'Sync are all bands that I don't
know. I am not implying anything here. This is strictly created in my
fantasies. I wish it was actually happening but I highly doubt it. I am in
no way affiliated with Jive or J records, MTV or any other way with these
bands. If homosexual content offends you or is illegal for you to read then
please leave.

The only thing I have remotely in common with these guys is that Ashley
Parker Angel and I were born on the same exact day-August 1, 1981.

FIRST THINGS FIRST: I got a lot of good complements regarding the last
chapter. A lot of people liked the idea of Ashley having a twin out
there. I think it gave a real good edge to the story and I am trying to
continue to throw down the ideas that randomly come into my head. If you
haven't noticed, I haven't been all there lately and have not been my usual
self. I want to thank all my wonderful fans who came back to me and told me
how much they missed me and how much they loved my work. Those are the fans
that I truly admire and could not go on without.

I visited the chat room attached to this directory's website yesterday and
was greeted by a very good friend (CJ) and she told me that there was a
certain person named Mark looking for me but was too shy to email me. I
just want him and everyone else to know that I always pride myself on being
very personable and if anyone wants to email me please feel free. I respond
to every single person that emails me.

This chapter is dedicated to Armand. He truly is the man and he's one of
those fans that never left my side.


OTHER GREAT READS:
"Encountering Nick" by Kdawg (Nick Carter story)
"Josh's Heart" by me (ND) (my other story that features Josh Hartnett and 
Justin
Timberlake)
"Fame, Love and Reality" by Alejandro my good buddy. (Backstreet Boys story-
Nick/Kevin/Brian)
"Time Stood Still" and "Conversation on the Stairs" by Roguewolf
"Encounter in the Sand" by Jeremy


http://jcv.5u.com/all/worldofslash/ --Jayson Vascardi's website that
features my story and many other slash fiction stories. Go check it out.

Pytn18@hotmail.com for suggestions and comments.

All I Need Is You- Chapter Ten

Ashley and Randy walked out of the hospital and into the nearby park that
was attached to it. They had just done blood tests and DNA tests all
afternoon and the information that the doctor presented to them had a
bittersweet taste to it. Everything that Randy said was true.

Ashley sat down on a bench and just looked out into nothing. He felt like
he was lied to his whole life. He felt as if everything he had ever done
and been was done with wool over his eyes. He just wasn't sure how to feel.

He felt a hand on his shoulder and knew who it was that sat down next to 
him.

"Ash, I know this is hard for you. I went through the same thing a few
weeks ago when I found out. I just want you to know that I'm here for you."
Randy said.

"I feel betrayed." Ashley said.

"You gotta remember that it was a rough situation when we were born. Our 
parents
weren't exactly in the best state of mind and they felt that this was best 
for us. We both
grew up in a healthy environment and had a decent life for ourselves." Randy 
said.

"I want you to meet somebody." Ashley said with a look that seemed to hold 
hope and
despair all at the same time.


Justin Timberlake was the one place that he felt truly comfortable in life, 
the basketball court. He had one attached to the house that he bought 
himself on the outskirts of Orlando once Nsync made it real big. He felt 
like he was in total control on the court and nothing was out of whack.

A lot of things in his life felt like they were running away from him. His 
relationship with Britney was not doing well, he just wasn't feeling the 
same things he used to for her. Actually, since the day he met Ashley for 
the first time in that Applebee's a while back and saw how good of a couple 
him and Nick made was when he first started losing touch with Britney.

He never hid the fact that he liked guys but Britney was so hot to pass up 
and besides she was a good friend. He tried to push back what he was feeling 
until he saw Lance and Trevor and now after meeting all of the O-town guys 
and seeing how happy they are in relationships with some of the BSB guys 
among others it was hard for Justin to just push to the back of his head.

He was completely lost in his thoughts as he drained a three pointer from 
way back and barely noticed a figure standing there watching him.

"Still haven't lost that touch huh?" JC said startling Justin a bit.

"Hey Jayce. How long have you been there?" Justin asked.

"Long enough to see you staring out into space like you're possessed or 
something." JC said.

"Just thinking about some stuff." Justin said.

"Oh yeah? What kind of stuff?" JC asked

Justin took a deep breath and put up one of the ugliest shots he's ever 
seen. He sighed and looked down not sure how to go about this. He just 
wasn't sure anymore.

JC went over to his friend and put his arm around him.

"What's wrong Just?" JC asked

Justin looked up and his eyes met his friend's. Both men just staring into 
each other's worlds. Justin wasn't sure what pulled him in but JC's face was 
too close to deny his feelings. He knew he liked JC, he always had but it 
was too dangerous to try something that would break up an amazing 
friendship. There was nothing he could do now though. He was moving in and 
it seemed like JC was doing the same. It all happened in slow motion as both 
their lips touched, ever so slightly, but enough to let both men enjoy the 
feeling.

Just as the kiss was getting a little heavier, JC thought of Josh. He 
thought of how happy he was when he was with him. He thought of the time 
that Josh took to take care of him. He thought of those green eyes and how 
they would be utterly disappointed if he found out about this.

"I'm sorry Justin I can't" JC said

"Why not Jayce?" Justin asked

"I just can't" JC said starting to walk away wondering how his visit here to 
tell him about Josh turned into something so crazy.

"I've always had feelings for you." Justin said stopping JC in his tracks. 
He looked down at the ground still facing the opposite direction of him.

"I'm sorry Curly." JC said.

"Tell me that wasn't the best feeling you've ever had in the world. Tell me 
it didn't feel so right that you could stay like that forever." Justin 
screamed out with tears in his eyes.

JC turned around to show that he was also crying now.

"I'm sorry." JC said one last time as he walked away.

Justin watched as JC got in his car and sped off. He wasn't sure how to feel 
but it was a mixture of anger, despair and disappointment. He ran in the 
house and up to his room. He wasn't sure why he couldn't shake the feeling 
of the kiss. He couldn't help but crying, maybe it was because it felt so 
good, better than any kiss he's ever experienced before. He couldn't take it 
anymore. He collapsed on his bed and just cried. He cried until he had no 
more tears. All of his thoughts and the excitement of what just happened 
took so much out of him that eventually he drifted off to sleep.

It might have been minutes or it might have been hours but Justin jumped up 
from his sleep. He wasn't sure what had woken him up but as he heard a 
pounding at the door he had a few guesses. He stumbled down the stairs and 
over to the front door. He opened it to see Ashley and another guy that he 
didn't recognize.

"Timberlake, thank god you're home." Ashley said.

"Parker?" Justin asked still trying to rub the sleep out of his eyes 
wondering if this was a dream.

"Yes?" Randy answered not knowing of the nicknames that were used among the 
two.

Justin looked over at Ashley with a questioning glance.

"I'll explain later. I'm looking for Nick. He took off and I can't get a 
hold of him. I think he might be upset. Would you have any idea where he is? 
I can't find him." Ashley said.

Justin thought about it for a second.

"I don't know, we used to go to this one place when the two of us were 
upset. We found it a little while after we started touring and stuff." 
Justin said.

"It's worth a shot. Can you take us to it?" Ashley asked with a plead in his 
voice.

"Yeah sure let me get my keys." Justin said forgetting about his troubles 
for a few minutes to help out a friend.

Justin pulled up to a secluded beach with very few people on it. Ashley 
pulled up and parked next to him. Everyone got out of the cars and looked 
around.

"This place is beautiful" Randy said still not familiar with Florida.

"Me and Carter always came here whenever we wanted to get away from it all." 
Justin said walking along the beach. He came upon the place on the rocks 
that he and Nick used to sit at trying to forget about life. As if guided by 
some divine hand, Justin was right. Nick was sitting on the rocks looking 
out over the ocean, the wind pushing through his blond hair.

"Randy, stay here and tell Timberlake what's going on. I'll be right back." 
Ashley said as he ran off.

Ashley slowed his run to a jog and then eventually to a walk, not wanting to 
startle Nick, especially since he was upset. It was a tough situation to 
deal with and especially because he and Nick were supposed to go look for 
adoption agencies that day when all of this started.

He walked up next to his husband and sat down on the rocks beside him. Nick 
didn't flinch as if he knew Ashley would find him somehow.

"This place is beautiful." Ashley said looking out over the rocks.

"Justin?" Nick asked a one-word question.

"Yeah he said you guys come here to get away." Ashley said

"I haven't been here in over a year." Nick said referring to the last year 
or so he spent with Ashley.

"Nicky, I'm sorry that all of this happened, especially now when we're 
trying to put our lives back together but this is very hard for me and I 
need you. I need your help to push me through this. I don't think I can do 
it without you." Ashley said as he watched the waves crash against the 
rocks.

Nick put his arm around Ashley's shoulder and pulled him in. Ashley 
cherished the warmth that Nick's body provided. He knew that he couldn't 
live his life without him let alone handle something this heavy in his life.

"I came with good news." Ashley said.

Ashley explained the story that Randy had told him. He told him everything 
from them being twins to Randy's family dying to him having a kid to him 
having AIDS.

"Sounds like he's had it rough. Where was the good news in all of that?" 
Nick questioned

"He wants to give me the kid so that I can take care of him." Ashley said 
with a smile

Nick looked up quickly into Ashley's eyes. He knew what Ashley was thinking 
and Nick saw the chance for their life to get a little better.

"Are you thinking what I am Ash?" Nick asked with a smile.

"Let's adopt Johnny. It would be much less of a hassle than an agency and 
we'd be doing something good for someone...my family even." Ashley said.

"The Odyssey tour is over. That means we've got a week to figure this out 
before each of us go back on tour. We'll have to find a person to take care 
of him during the times that we're on tour, we probably have a thousand 
papers to fill out and we've gotta see what we can do to help Randy. It's a 
lot of work Ash." Nick said trying to be somewhat of a voice of reason

Ashley put a finger over his lips.

"We can do it." Ashley said.

Nick just responded with a smile.

"I want you to meet him." Ashley said as he and Nick got up and walked over 
to Randy and Justin.

Nick walked up to Justin and gave him a hug as a way of saying thank you and 
then extended his hand to Randy.

"I'm sorry that I walked out before on you guys but I got very weirded out 
by the whole situation but Ashley explained everything to me and I'm not 
sure whether I want to tell you I'm sorry, thank you or welcome home." Nick 
said confusing himself.

"A simple handshake will do." Randy said as he shook his hand.

"Randy, this is Nick Carter, my husband." Ashley said.

"Very impressive Ash." Randy said.

"That's what people tell me." Ashley started trying to lighten the mood. "I 
wanted you to meet Johnny's other new dad." Ashley said with a proud look on 
his face.

"Awesome, I can bring you guys to go see Johnny right now if you want. He's 
back at a hotel with a friend of mine taking care of him."

"Let's go" Nick said getting excited.

All four men just looked at each other with smiles, each having a feeling 
that life would be a little better from now on.


"AJ, we gotta talk open up." Jacob said as he knocked on AJ's new hotel room 
door.

The door opened slowly and he saw AJ walking back to lay on the bed.

"Alex look we gotta figure this out. I've been hearing rumors like crazy go 
around here and I just want the truth from you. Is it true that people saw 
you leaving with Janie?" Jacob asked with a confused tone in his voice.

"Yeah so what if it is true? I heard you found plenty of comfort in Howie." 
AJ said harshly.

"He invited me in to talk." Jacob said.

"Is that what they call it these days?" AJ said

"Whatever, you walked out on me. I needed to talk to someone. The point is 
what the hell were you doing with my ex-girlfriend?" Jacob asked with a 
raised tone.

"Better question. Why didn't she ever know about us? She came up to me 
wanting an autograph." AJ said

"I didn't think she needed to know." Jacob said plainly.

"Yeah right. Look Jake just get out of here. This is just too much bullshit 
for me to deal with." AJ said.

"Alex..." Jacob said just wanting all of this to end.

"Just go!...Please" AJ said starting with a yell but then with a plead in 
his voice.

Jacob walked out slamming the door behind him and running back towards his 
room.


Randy took out his key and stuck in it the lock of a local hotel room. He 
opened the door and walked in with the guys in tow.

"Donna, you in here?" Randy yelled out.

A woman walked out of the bathroom holding a small child not even two years 
old with the blondest hair and the bluest eyes. A smile came to his face as 
he saw his daddy. He immediately started to kick his legs and arms out 
trying to get towards his father.

"There's my boy." Randy said as he took hold of his son.

"He's beautiful." Ashley said as he cooed the little boy.

"Johnny these are gonna be your new parents buddy. I'm gonna have to leave 
you." Randy began to say goodbye.

The child seemed to look confused and started to hold on to Randy's neck to 
try and hold him back from leaving.

"Goodbye son. I'll always remember you." Randy said as he hugged his son and 
kissed him on the forehead. Nick and Ashley simply stood back and gave him 
as much time as he needed. They knew this was hard but for the best.

"Ok guys he's all yours" Randy said with a tear in his eyes.

Nick stepped over to him and took Johnny into his arms as Randy let go of 
him, for good this time. Nick walked back over towards Ashley and held 
Johnny in his arms near his husband.

"I told you it would happen one day Ash. Look, we're a family now." Nick 
said.

"Words can't express how I feel right now Nicky." Ashley said.

"Donna, we have a proposition for you. We're gonna need someone to take care 
of Johnny when we're on tour and when we're busy with our lives. We're 
offering you a job to continue to take care of him. You can stay at our 
house in Tampa to be with him after we set up his room for him. What do you 
say?" Nick offered

"I'd be honored." Donna said.

Ashley looked at his newly adopted son and saw the smile on his face as Nick 
played with his nose. It truly was a beautiful site. It wasn't without a 
price though.

Ashley turned back around and saw small tears in Randy's eyes. This had to 
be the hardest thing he's ever done in his already difficult life. Ashley 
walked over to him and both brothers just looked at each other.

Two twin brothers separated at birth robbed of their childhood together. 
They saw themselves in each other's eyes. They were supposed to be together 
but were kept apart for their whole lives. It took a lot but Randy finally 
found his brother and now gave him an amazing gift that no one else could.

Ashley couldn't help but grab Randy and embrace him in a hug. It was the 
first time the two actually came close to one another. Both were finally 
accepting their fate and actually got the chance to share it with each 
other.

"Thank you...brother." Ashley said as everyone had tears in their eyes.

TO BE CONTINUED...

<<<< Pytn18@hotmail.com for comments and suggestions. This chapter kind of 
hit a soft spot on me due to the fact that I was supposed to be a twin when 
I was born but the other one died in the womb. I also had a rough childhood, 
one like Randy and Ashley's. I hope this chapter touched a few people. >>>>

---ND---