Date: Fri, 15 Mar 2002 21:30:57 +0000
From: N D <pytn18@hotmail.com>
Subject: nick and ashley-all i need is you 3

DISCLAIMER: O-town, Backstreet Boys and N'Sync are all bands that I don't
know. I am not implying anything here. This is strictly created in my
fantasies. I wish it was actually happening but I highly doubt it. I am in
no way affiliated with Jive or J records, MTV or any other way with these
bands. If homosexual content offends you or is illegal for you to read then
please leave.

The only thing I have remotely in common with these guys is that Ashley
Parker Angel and I were born on the same exact day-August 1, 1981.

FIRST THINGS FIRST: I've been home for Spring Break all week, that's why
the updates have been coming so quickly but it hasn't come without a
price. I've been sick pretty much since the day I got home and for some
reason I just can't seem to shake it.  I've been fighting through it so I
can put out some new chapters, which was the goal but please understand if
I can't. I'm home until Sunday and so far I've done 3 chapters and a
sideline for "Encountering Nick" while I've been home so I hope I can put
out some more.

I'm kinda running out of ideas lately though. Kdawg threw a bunch my way a
few days ago and I am very appreciative of it but he's the only one. A lot
of people email me and tell me that they love the story and all that but
I'm asking you, my readers now for some ideas. Once I get started on one or
two I should be ok to keep going but throw a few my way. Pytn18@hotmail.com

Make sure everyone checks out "Making the Band" every Saturday night at 9pm
on MTV.

Other great reads:
"Encountering Nick" by Kdawg (Nick Carter story)
"Fame, Love and Reality" by Alejandro my good buddy. (Backstreet Boys story-
Nick/Kevin/Brian)
"Never guess who ran into me today" by SquallThrawn (Lance Bass story)
"Encounter in the Sand" by Jeremy (Justin Timberlake story)


http://jcv.5u.com/all/worldofslash/ --Jayson Vascardi's website that
features my story and many other slash fiction stories. Go check it out.

Pytn18@hotmail.com for suggestions and comments.

All I Need Is You-Chapter Three

"What can I get ya sir?" the man asked from behind the bar.

He had heard that question asked to him so many times before that it became
a repetitive
echo drowning out his head. He used to hear it every night, after concerts,
before rehearsals, any time that he could possibly get in there to ease the
pain of life.

It has been so long since he had felt that pain, so long since life was
unbearable for him. For AJ, life had been good lately. They had remained
successful through the year, his friends were always there for him and he
had met Jacob.

"Jake" AJ let out with a sigh.

A phone call with him was the reason he was sitting at this bar, a forbidden
place for him. He had never felt so far away from him after those few words
he spoke with him. He loved him, he truly did. No one had ever made him feel
that way before. None of his ex-girlfriends, including Amanda Latona of
Innocence, who he got pretty serious with, had ever given him the power he
feels when he was with Jacob.

After that phone call though, where he told him that Dan and Devon's
marriage wouldn't be supported by management, a nerve had struck his
boyfriend. Jacob questioned his love asking about their marriage someday.
That was a step that AJ wasn't sure he was ready to take. His life had
changed so much in the past year or two.

He could remember a time where it was just him and the guys. There were no
boyfriends, girlfriends or anything. Nothing could get between them. Life
had changed since then and AJ went on without them. They were still very
close, but the novelty of it all seemed to fade after a while. Brian and
Kevin got married and everyone kinda drifted. AJ needed a friend and alcohol
was always there for him.

That eventually turned into a bad addiction and he realized he needed help.
The same people who he thought turned their backs on him were there to help
him through that rough time. He saw those same 4 guys that he started all of
this with. When he got out of rehab, it was a time for celebration, the
prodigal son had returned home and everyone welcomed him with open arms.
They were about to start a new tour with this new boy-band out of Orlando
and everything was exciting again.

Then came New Year's Eve. Everyone was partying and celebrating, AJ with his
glass of water of course. He noticed someone from across the room stealing
glances at him. It was Jacob, one of the O-town kids. AJ, at this time, was
just starting to come to terms with the fact that he was gay. A girl came
over to him and without even realizing it gave her a simple kiss on the lips
for New Year's. He looked back to see his watcher and noticed he wasn't
there.

He quickly scanned the room and saw that the balcony door was just swinging
closed. He decided to go see what was up, at least making a friend out of
it. It was on that balcony, over a cigarette that Jacob declared that he had
feelings for him and the two stayed up all night talking about it. They
decided to give it a shot. That had been so long ago, almost a year in fact
and so many events had happened since then. Events that brought them
together, such as the Lou and Shellie situation and watching Nick and Ashley
get married, and things that tried to split them apart such as the Howie
deal.

AJ wouldn't trade it in for all the money in the world. Every moment of his
time with Jacob was special to him, but things have changed all of the
sudden and the tables have turned. Nick and Ashley were supported together
and Dan and Devon wanted the same thing but weren't for some reason. This
went straight to Jacob's head and scared him, obviously thinking about their
marriage before.

"Excuse me sir, is there anything I can get you?" the bartender asked again
breaking AJ's daze.

"Scotch and water." AJ said coldly.

The bartender fixed the drink and set it down in front of him and walked
away, leaving AJ alone at the bar. AJ brought the glass to his face and
inhaled the deep odor. It flooded his head with memories, good ones and bad
ones. He was about to take the first sip he's had in close to a year when he
was interrupted.

"You sure you wanna do that?" an eerily familiar voice asked from his right.

AJ quickly glanced over and was shocked to see himself sitting next to,
well, himself.

"What the, who are you? And why do you look so much like me?" AJ asked.

"Because I am you genius. Well you about two years ago." The other man said.

"That's not possible." AJ said as he turned back forward.

"Are you sure?" the other AJ asked from his left now.

"How the fuck did you do that?" AJ asked

"Nevermind, that's not the reason I'm here." He said

"Oh man I haven't even started drinking yet and I'm already seeing things.
Alright man, then why are you here?" AJ asked

"To stop you from being stupid again." He said

"Whatever man, life was good for about a year or so then it went to shit
again." AJ said in his low, raspy voice.

"Are you sure about that?" he asked

"You're me, that means you heard the conversation I had with him tonight."
AJ said

"I heard a confused boyfriend, one that you love very much, who needs your
help. And now you're gonna sit here and cop out on him by breaking your
trust with him and breaking it with yourself." He said.

The words echoed through AJ's head. He was right. This wasn't the answer.
Jacob was the answer. They needed each other.

"Yeah you're right. I guess," AJ looked over and the other guy was gone.

'Man, that was weird.' AJ thought to himself while getting up. He left the
money for the drink and walked out of the bar. He was about to reach the
elevators when they opened with Nick inside of them.

"There you are, I went to your room to talk to you and you weren't there.
What were you doing down here?" Nick asked

"Just talking to myself" AJ said with a smile

"Huh? Is everything ok?" Nick asked

"Yeah Nicky, everything is great." AJ said walking with his friend into the
elevator.


Dan and Ashley sat in Ashley's hotel room, a pizza box almost empty in the
middle of the bed as the two men were on either side of it. Dan had come to
Ashley to just talk about everything that was going on.

"I just don't know Ash. I was just shocked when they said they wouldn't
support it." Dan said

"Danny, you know that me and Nick are behind you 100% on this." Ashley said
while taking a bite of his slice of pizza.

"I know you guys are. You guys always are. You're two of the closest friends
we have but the way Clive said it was so weird." Dan said

"What do you mean?" Ashley asked

"He said it like he had a frown on his face. It was like it hurt him to tell
me this news." Dan said

"Clive is like a father to us Dan. I bet it did hurt him." Ashley said.

"This is just so frustrating." Dan said as he laid fully on his back on the
bed.

"How did all of this get so far?" Ashley asked

"All of what?" Dan asked

"Everything, it seems like yesterday that I ran into the room with news that
we were touring with the Backstreet Boys. Now I'm married to one of them and
you're engaged to a heartthrob actor. When did life get so deep?" Ashley
asked with a laugh.

"We finally made it Ash. Tell me one thing though, what does it feel like to
wear that ring?" Dan asked.

"This one?" Ashley lifted up his left ring finger revealing the beautiful
gold wedding band.

"No, that decoder ring you got in your cereal this morning. Yes, that one!"
Dan said with a laugh.

Ashley hit him with a pillow then settled down to answer the question.

"It's honestly one of the best feelings in the world. When there's some
bullshit going on somewhere, it doesn't matter because you look down at it
and it reminds you that there's always something you can fall back on.
There's always love waiting for you somewhere. It's a great feeling
especially with the two stud boyfriends we've got." Ashley said with a
laugh.

"Amen to that, I remember when you told me about Nick I got so jealous. That
boy is fine." Dan said with a smile.

"Dude, have you taken a look at what you go to bed with every night? I don't
even wanna hear about it." Ashley said as the two men laughed the night
away.

It was a simple sign that showed so much. With all that happens, one thing
can conquer it all-friendship. Laughter truly is the shortest distance
between two people.


All of O-town's management was gathered together in an Orlando office, Clive
Davis sitting at the front of the boardroom table.

"I've called this meeting today to discuss a few things that have been on my
mind" Clive said as everyone paid attention to the owner.
"I want to talk more about Dan and Devon's engagement." Clive said

The room was filled with talking and people arguing after this was brought
up.

"Clive we talked about this the other day. There's no way we'll be able to
hide two marriages." Mike, the tour manager said

"You pay us to make these types of decisions Clive now please let us make
them." Another manager said.

"I just don't understand how we can fully support Nick and Ashley and not
give Dan and Devon the same treatment, especially when Dan and Ashley are
the two people that draw the most attention out of the whole band." Clive
said

"That's the whole point. Ashley and Dan get the most attention, therefore it
would be hard to hide the fact that both of them don't have girlfriends,
etc." Mike said

"How about the fact that Dan is so upset with us right now? What if he
decides to leave?" Clive said.

"Dan won't leave Clive, he's got too much potential with O-town." Another
manager said.

"That's exactly my point. Dan's the best dancer out of all of them, he's got
the voice that carries half of our songs and he gets good attention from the
girls. What would stop him from leaving?" Clive asked

"Look Clive there's no use in fighting about this. It was hard enough to
arrange for Nick and Ashley's wedding to be in the dark, if we let Dan and
Devon get married that means AJ and Jacob will be not so far down the line
and then Lance and Trevor, Erik and Mandy and now all of the sudden we've
got 5 married O-town members. Who would follow them then?" Mike said

"Look at Brian and Kevin from BSB. They're married and they haven't lost the
fans. We can't control their lives. Lou did that and I refuse to put these
guys through that again. They don't deserve it. I love them too much as sons
and I'll be damned if they're gonna get hurt by anything." Clive said as he
sat back down in his chair.

All men at the boardroom table just stared at each other, not sure of how
they would solve this stalemate.


Jacob sat alone in his room. He wasn't in the mood to do or see anything.
Everything around him was getting to him. Everything seemed to bother him.
This whole thing with AJ and Dan and Devon was really bothering him. It was
such a frustrating situation that seemed to bring a drag on everything. The
ring of his cell phone brought him out of his trance.

He looked at the caller ID and saw the words "Alex Cell". Jacob sighed not
sure whether or not he should pick it up. He wasn't ready for another
argument but his boyfriend deserved better than him ignoring it.

"Hello." Jacob said as he answered the phone.

"Hey babe. You feeling any better?" AJ asked

"Not really." Jacob said coldly.

"Oh that's too bad. Well Ashley called me with some good news. He wanted to
tell you but he said you were kinda keeping to yourself so I figured I would
call and let you in on it." AJ said

"What is it?" Jacob asked.

"Clive put his foot down and management is forced to support the wedding and
any other relationship or wedding that you guys feel is necessary." AJ said.

"That's good" Jacob said still being colder than usual.

"Jake, I'm sorry. I wasn't being supportive at all the other day. I do love
you, with every part of me. I was just surprised the other night when
marriage came up because we had never really talked about it. I did a lot of
thinking the other night and I do want to marry you someday, whenever the
two of us are ready. I don't care about Nick and Ashley or Dan and Devon, I
only care about you. Whenever me and you decided that we're ready, then I
will be happy with that. I'm sorry Jake, I should have been there for you
and I wasn't." AJ said.

"Finally, I can stop being mad at you." Jacob said with a laugh.

"Damn, it feels good to hear you laugh again baby." AJ said with a smile.

"I love you Alex." Jacob said.

"I love you too Jake." AJ replied with a smile on his face that was meant
only for one man.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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