Date: Thu, 22 Jul 1999 16:54:48 EDT From: BrwyMilo@aol.com Subject: Nick and Justin part 11 Hi again! This is part 11. Again, I want to thank everyone who has supported me with this story and given me such positive feedback, especially with the last part. I never expected such a response. It was a difficult part for me to write as I know a lot of people who've gone through that. So I thank everyone who has taken the time to write to me and make my day a little brighter. Also, much thanks to everyone who nominated this series for so many awards! Wow! It was more than I ever expected, especially with all the GREAT stories there are in this section. Let's hope I get a couple of votes! :o) Please send comments, etc to Mike at BrwyMilo@aol.com. Oh, the legal stuff!! This is a work of fiction and not meant to imply anything about the sexuality or life of anybody involved. It's only fiction! Unfortunately.... Enjoy the story! *************************** Nick walked Justin through the arena. Justin would occasionally let a tear fall down his cheek as he remembered his talk with his mother. Nick tried to support him as best he could, holding onto his forearm and keeping one arm around his waist. This got a few stares from the crew, but when they saw Justin's face, they knew something was wrong with him. Nick walked him straight to his dressing room. As they approached it, Nick began to see that Justin's legs were bobbling. He picked him up and carried him the rest of the way. He entered the room and quietly laid Justin down on the couch. Justin cried openly and clutched Nick for security. Nick kept his arms around Justin and tried to calm him. "I miss them," Justin whispered close to Nick's ear. "I'm here for you Justin. Just relax, I'll be right back." Nick started to rise, but Justin grabbed his arm. "I'll get JC to stay with you. I'll only be gone a minute." Justin nodded slowly and released his grip. Nick felt helpless as he looked down at Justin. He quickly walked to the door and yelled JC's name. He watched as both Brian and JC approached. He sighed and then lightly pulled JC into the room. "JC, please stay with Justin for a couple of minutes. I need to go talk with Fatima for a minute. I don't want to leave him alone right now though. He's too upset. I'll explain everything to you later. Please though, don't ask him to talk about it." JC looked over at Justin and slowly nodded his head. He walked over and hugged Justin tightly. Justin lay limp in his arms. Brian stood at the doorway and watched. He felt a little jealous as he watched JC hold Justin, but he quickly shook this thought from his head. Nick glanced at Brian and sighed heavily. Brian looked back at Nick and smiled lightly. Then he too walked over and hugged Justin. Nick watched as they laid Justin back on the couch, JC holding his hand lightly. Nick exited the room and began to run towards where the dancers were warming up. He scanned the group and quickly found Fatima. He walked through the mass of stretching bodies and sat down next to her. "Fatima, can I talk to you a minute." Nick began to stretch as she did. She watched as he mimicked her movements and laughed slightly. "Sure babe. What's on your mind?" "Look, Justin isn't feeling well today. We know that the rehearsals are really important to the tour and we know how much of a work horse you are..." He paused and looked at her. "Would you please go easy on him today?" Fatima looked at him and saw the pain in his eyes. "Can he work at all?" Nick paused. "I don't know. He'll be up there and I know he'll try...but he can't take too much. Just, go easy." "I'll go easy on him Nick. But don't make a habit of this." She smiled warmly and then resumed stretching. Nick quickly got up and ran back to the dressing room. As he entered, he saw Brian and JC rise. "You guys can go get ready. We have a while before we start. I'm gonna stay with Justin." Brian and JC nodded and headed off. Nick walked back to where Justin was laying. "Feeling any better?" Justin sat up and smiled weakly. "I just feel so alone. I mean, I love my mom. I need her to accept me." He held back his tears and let Nick wrap his arms around him. "And somehow I don't think things are ever going to be the same between us." Justin laid his head down on Nick's shoulder. "Justin, your mom will get over this. Trust me, OK. Everything will be alright. Do you trust me?" "Yes," Justin whispered. He did the best he could to compose himself then pulled back. "Well, I guess I should get ready for this practice then." He stood up and walked towards the door. He stopped and looked back at Nick. "Would you come with me?" Nick smiled at him and followed him to the door. ************** Leigh Anne walked quickly into the restaurant. She approached the hostess and smiled warmly. "Hello, I'm meeting a gentleman here. I was wondering if he's here yet." "Of course, ma'am. He's right this way." She walked through the tables and into a very secluded corner. As the gentleman at the table saw them approaching, he stood up and smiled widely at Leigh Anne. When she got to the table, she gently shook his hand and then sat down. "Hello Robert," She said as she placed her purse in her lap. "Hello Ms. Wallace. I just have to tell you, I was very intrigued by your phone call." "I was hoping you would be," Leigh Anne said to herself. "I just thought that this would be some interesting news that the public should know." "Well, let me tell you. If this story is for real, then believe me, it will make headlines." He removed a pad and pen from his suit jacket pocket and placed them on the table. "Now, what did you mean exactly when you said that JC from N'Sync is gay?" ***************** "Lance, are you trying to give me a heart attack," Fatima laughed as Lance tripped slightly over his feet. Lance giggled slightly and then pretended to fall over his feet. He fell to the ground and rolled towards Fatima. "I'm sorry," he said with a smile. She laughed a little then pointed back to his spot. "Now, let's try this again." She watched each one carefully as they performed the dance steps to "You're All I Ever Wanted". She looked over at Justin every now and again, and though he wasn't performing like he usually did, he was doing alright. "Good job Justin," she yelled. Justin smiled slightly and then kept going best he could. Nick watched from off the side of the stage. "Thank God he's alright out there," Nick whispered to himself. He walked over to where the Backstreet Boys were singing and going over their harmonies. He entered the sound room and heard the intro to "I Want it That Way." He quickly jumped in when his solo section came on, singing in perfect pitch with the music. They ran the entire song without a problem and then decided to take a break. "God that one harmony is high," Nick complained. "Yea, puberty finally set in, huh Nick," AJ laughed. Nick punched him in the arm. "More than you know little man." They all laughed and then headed to the stage where Fatima was finishing up with N'Sync. Nick walked over to where Justin was sitting and sat down next to him. "So, how was practice." Justin laughed a little. "It was...special as always. I fucked up a little, but I'll be fine for the tour." "Of course you will be." Nick grabbed his hand and held in under his leg so no one would see. Justin smiled. "I only want to see you like that," Nick joked. Justin gave his hand a squeeze. "I love you," he mouthed. Nick watched as his lips formed the words sensuously. Nick squeezed his hands and mouthed them back. "Guys," Kevin said as he approached. They looked up slowly. "Justin, you have to go to the sound room and do some singing. Nick, you gotta go over some choreography with Fatima." He knelt down and kind of spread his arms out a bit. "Give him a kiss real quick. No one will see." Nick and Justin both laughed hysterically as Kevin tried to cover them from site with his arms. Nick lent in and felt a jolt as his lips met with Justin's. Kevin tried to keep his head away but couldn't help but watch. "Um, guys...I said a quick kiss...guys....guys....." Finally, he bent his knee towards Nick and hit him best he could. They pulled away from each other and smiled up at Kevin. "Don't you breathe!" "Thanks Kevin. I mean that," Justin said with a smile. He got up quickly and ran over to the sound room. "Kevin, you're the greatest," Nick said as he gave him a hug. Kevin kept his hands down, but slowly hugged him back. "Anytime Nick," he said as they released each other. He watched as Nick ran over to where the rest of the guys were and shook his head. He looked around for Britney and saw her working in one of the other sound rooms. He was surprised she had taken the news of Justin so well, but he was happy just the same. He just wished he could trust Leigh Anne as much as he did Britney. *************** "So, Kevin, what time do we have to be on the buses by tomorrow," Howie asked as he rubbed his temples. "Be ready to leave for Miami at around nine or so. Oh! We have a meeting when we get back to the hotel. So, just head over to the main conference room." The guys all groaned and then headed into their separate limos. "Any idea what the meeting is about," Brian asked as they drove towards the hotel. He had JC's arms wrapped around his shoulder. Nick had placed his arm around Justin's shoulder and allowed him to lay his head down on his shoulder. Lance looked at both couples and sighed. "No Brian, I have no idea," Lance said as he turned his attention to the window. Nick watched him and did feel bad for him. He continued to look at him until Lance looked his way. Then Nick gave him a weak smile. Lance sighed and nodded his head. Then he looked out the window again and watched as the world whizzed by. People stared at the limo as they passed, trying to figure out who it was behind the painted windows. He wanted to wave, but he knew no one could see. "Hey, Lance, you alright there buddy," JC asked, snapping Lance back into reality. Lance blushed and looked over at him. "Yea, I was just letting my imagination run wild I guess." The two limos sped towards the hotel. Lance continued to stare as the world around him flew by. ************************ "Guys, we have a proposal for the two groups and Britney," Richard, the PR said. "There is going to be a benefit show next month in Dallas. All you guys were invited to perform and it does fit in to your touring schedule quite nicely. But as it will be a little extra work, it would understandable if you guys turned it down. But try to remember it will be for a good cause. Children's cancer research. It would be great for public relations and-" "Richard...we can do it," Kevin said. The rest of the guys quickly echoed in agreement. "All you had to do was mention kids and we're there," Britney said. "Well that was easier than I thought it would be!" Richard sighed. He took a look at how close Justin and Nick, and JC and Brian were to each other. "One more thing guys. Management has agreed to support absolutely any relationship you want to have. You just need to make sure the public doesn't find out and it doesn't interfere with work." Nick smiled. "It's nice to know we have management behind us." "And we promise to be careful," JC added. "Well, I guess that's it guys. Get some rest tonight and we'll see you on the bus tomorrow." With that Richard left the room. "Wow, management in being really cool about you guys," AJ said. "Well why wouldn't they be? I mean as long as we get our work done and keep our image for the public, our private lives shouldn't even come into play." Nick said as he kept his arm around Justin. "Yea, I guess you're right. I thought they'd have something to say about it though." AJ got up from his chair and stretched. "Look, I'm beat. I'm gonna get some room service and get to bed." "Yea, I guess we're gonna do that too," Nick said as he looked at Justin who nodded. "We'll see you guys in the morning, right?" "Sure thing. Get some rest," Kevin said. Nick, Justin and AJ left the room and headed into the elevator. "So, what are you guys gonna do all night long," AJ asked with a grin. Nick grinned. "Order some room service, rent a movie, have mad passionate sex, maybe call my parents, get some sleep. The usual." He looked at Justin who was smiling and grinned wider. "We're just gonna get some food and relax." "Good, cause my room is right next to yours and I don't need to hear anymore moaning." He laughed as they stepped off. "See you guys in the morning." "Well, now we can relax for the night. It's been a rough day huh." Justin nodded and leaned against the wall. "I can't wait to get out of these clothes. I didn't bring a change with me and they had already brought our luggage over to the hotel." "Well don't worry honey. You can get showered and nice and clean and I'll get the food." Justin smiled and took Nick's hand as he fumbled with the key. Nick laughed. "Sometimes I'm all thumbs." Justin laughed and took the key from his hands. "Let me," he said with a laugh. He opened the door and stepped inside. He saw their bags lying by the foot of the bed. He quickly removed his shirt and lifted one of his bags onto the bed. He shivered slightly and opened it. He looked around and began yanking clothes out. He spread them out of the bed and then grabbed his other suitcase. He opened it and began looking through that one. Eventually he sat down on the bed and stared at the wall. "What is it," Nick asked as he approached. Justin didn't answer. "Justin?" "How could I forget that," Justin asked himself. Then he looked up at Nick. "I forgot the sweat suit you gave me," Justin said, his voice quivering a little. "It's OK honey. It's only a sweat suit," Nick said as he hugged him. "No it's not," Justin said, trembling slightly. "It has memories. It's the first thing you gave me. It's what I wear when I'm cold or when I'm lonely." "OK. I'll go get it then," Nick said as he got up. He removed his shirt and handed it to Justin. Then he picked up one of Justin's from the pile of the bed. "Here, this is a substitute. I'll be back really quickly." Justin smiled a little and quickly put on Nick's shirt. Nick looked back at him. "I want to see you smiling when I get back here. Oh, and order some food. I'm starving!" Nick bent down and kissed Justin on the cheek. He ran his hand down his cheek and smiled. "You're beautiful." Justin blushed. "And you're my hero." Nick smiled widely and then ran out of the room. Nick ran down to the lobby and hailed a cab. He gave him the address and within minutes they were pulling up to Justin's house. "Please wait here," Nick instructed the driver. Then he hopped out of the car and ran up to the front porch. He rang the bell and waited. He heard someone approaching and stepped back a little as Lynn opened the door. "Nick," she said slightly surprised. "Hi Lynn. Justin asked me to pick something up for him." Lynn stepped back and invited him in. "What do you have to get," she asked as she followed Nick up the stairs. "It's a sweat suit I gave him one night. He says it means a lot to him." Nick entered his room and began to look around. "Why did you give him a sweat suit," Lynn asked as she helped him look. "Well, he was shivering. It was the warmest thing I owned so I put it on him and then wrapped all the blankets around him and held him." He stopped and looked up at Lynn. "Sorry." Lynn just smiled back. "I used to do that when he was younger and got sick." She stopped and looked at Nick. "This is so hard. I know I love him. Why can't I just accept this part of him?" "It's a hard thing to accept. You go for years believing something and then suddenly it's changed. I still don't know what my parents will say, but I hope they can learn to accept us." Lynn paused. "You haven't told them yet?" "No I haven't. I'm gonna tell then in person. I didn't think I should do it over the phone." "So I was the lucky first person to find out. Why me?" Nick looked up at her and blushed. "You kind of found us, remember?" Lynn laughed a little and nodded. "Oh yea, I guess I kind of blocked that out." She looked in the corner and saw something. "Say, is that it over there?" Nick saw where she was looking and sure enough saw the sweat suit that Justin loved so much. He smiled widely and picked it up. "Thank God. And Lynn, thanks for everything." Lynn just nodded and followed Nick downs the stairs. "Goodnight," she called out as he ran back into the waiting cab. He waved back at her. She sighed heavily and then closed the door behind her. The cab sped back towards the hotel. When it reached its destination, Nick pulled out his wallet and gave him a huge tip. "Thanks for waiting," he said as he climbed out of the car. He jogged through the lobby and into the elevator. As soon as the elevator reached his floor, he began jogging again towards his and Justin's room. "Hi honey," he called as he stepped in. He saw a cart of food in the corner. It was piled high with food, everything from pizza, to chicken, to cheeseburgers. He looked around for Justin and then heard water running. "The shower," he said with a laugh. He tiptoed towards the bathroom and slowly opened the door. He looked at the shower curtain and was thankful that it wasn't see-through. He walked over to the counter and saw the clothes that Justin had laid out for himself. They consisted of the shirt Nick had given him before he left and a pair of blue basketball shorts. Nick picked them up and placed the sweat suit where the were. Then he slipped out without Justin ever noticing he was there. He walked back into the room and began placing the food and trays down on the floor. He laid down on the bed and waited for Justin to finish up. He heard the water finish and Justin start to hum "I Need You Tonight". Nick smiled and sat up. He heard the shower curtain being opened and then a small gasp, followed by slight laughter. He waited another minute and Justin walked out of the bathroom with a huge smile on his face. He was wearing the sweat suit Nick had placed in the bathroom for him and he had his arms wrapped around himself. He walked over to Nick, threw his arms around him and squeezed tightly. Nick hugged him back and smiled. "I love you," Justin said. "I love you too." "Is it stupid that I have this as my so-called security blanket," Justin asked as he looked into Nick's eyes. "Not at all. Hey, I still sleep with the clothes you gave me don't I? I think it's romantic." Nick bent down to smell Justin's hair. "You smell very nice tonight," Nick said. "As opposed to all those times when I smell bad," Justin said with a laugh. "Nah, you never smell bad. Just a little sweaty sometimes," Nick said, smiling. Justin looked down at the food on the floor and smiled. "A picnic?" "Yep. Nothing but the best for my baby." Nick hugged him again and then kissed him gently on the lips. Justin kissed him back and then opened his mouth and began to run his tongue over Nick's lips. Nick opened his mouth and allowed Justin's tongue to enter. He ran his tongue over Nick's, massaging it gently. Nick groaned softly as Justin ran his hands up and down Nick's back, finally settling on the small of his back. Nick ran his tongue over Justin's and finally entered into Justin's mouth, running it lightly all over. Justin shivered with excitement and Nick pulled him closer. Finally they broke apart and breathed in heavily. "That was amazing," Nick said. Justin grinned and then crawled down to the floor in front to the food. He patted a place next to him for Nick to sit down. Nick sighed and sat down with him. "You ordered a lot, didn't you," Nick said as he grabbed a cheeseburger and began eating. "Well you said you were hungry, and we couldn't have that, now could we," Justin said smiling. He grabbed a plate and put some pizza and chicken fingers on it. He took a bite out of the pizza and began to breathe heavily through his mouth. "Is that a little hot," Nick asked with a laugh. Justin nodded quickly and swallowed slowly. "Here, let me help." Nick laughed as he cut a little piece of pizza off and put it on his fork. He blew on it gently and then placed it in front of Justin's mouth. Justin laughed loudly but took the fork into his mouth. He made an "mmm" sound and nodded quickly. Nick turned and blew lightly into Justin's ear. Justin swallowed quickly and turned to Nick. He smiled warmly and then kissed him lightly on the cheek. "OK, I think I can feed myself now," Justin said, still laughing. "Suit yourself," Nick said, turning his attention back to his burger. "So, um, what did my mom say when you went to go get this," Justin asked, not looking up. Nick sighed. "Well, she wanted to know why you wanted this so badly. So I explained it to her and she actually thought it was sweet. Justin, she really is trying to get used to this. I think she just needs a little time. Then I honestly think things can go back to normal." "Maybe," Justin said still not sure. He continued to eat and reached over to turn on the television. "Is this "Halloween"?" Nick asked, getting slightly excited. "Uh-oh," Justin said as he covered his eyes. "What is it," Nick asked as he watched the screen. "Um, horror movies scare me," He said peaking slightly through his fingers. Nick laughed loudly. "They're supposed to scare you silly! Just remember it's only a movie. I'm here to protect you," Nick said. Justin scooted closer to Nick and Nick brought his arm around to Justin and pulled him close. Justin cuddled up to Nick's shoulder and put a chicken finger in his mouth. Then he reached up and put one in Nick's mouth. Nick smiled and gladly accepted. They continued to watch the movie, Justin jumping once or twice as Michael Meyers stalked Jamie Lee Curtis throughout the film. Nick would occasionally cover Justin's eyes when a scary part would come on. "Nick, come on, I'm a big boy. I'm not that scared," Justin would always say. Nick would shrug and then laugh when Justin would yell and hide his face in Nick's shoulder. When the movie was finally over, neither of them moved. Justin kept his head on Nick's shoulder and Nick kept his arm around Justin. Finally Justin sighed and stood up. "Well, I'm gonna have nightmares tonight!" "Well, you can sleep with me if you really want," Nick said with a laugh. Justin giggled and hopped into the bed. Nick crawled up next to him and pulled the covers over both of them. He pulled Justin in close and allowed Justin to rest his head on his chest. He whispered a goodnight, but noticed that Justin was already sleeping. "He's had a rough day," Nick said smiling. He bent down and kissed Justin lightly. "Goodnight baby." Nick laid his head back on his pillow and soon was fast asleep. ************** Leigh Anne laid back in her bed, resting gently. "I'm sorry Brian, but you left me no choice. You have to come to your senses and if this is what it takes, then so be it." She closed her eyes and drifted off. ***************** OK, there you have it. I hope everyone enjoyed this section. I have a few people I wish to thank, especially RJ and Seeker. I would also like to thank those who regularly send me e-mails with suggestions and comments. It means a lot to me. I hope everyone goes and votes. Best of luck to everyone who was nominated. The next section should be out soon. Oh, and sorry for the cliffhanger, but come on, you know you love them! :o) See you soon.