Date: Thu, 29 Jul 1999 19:41:40 EDT
From: BrwyMilo@aol.com
Subject: "Nick and Justin" part 14
Hellooooo!!! Well, greetings. First off, I'd like to thank everyone who
sent me all the mail and ims about part 13. I really enjoyed it. As always
I tried to respond to all the e-mails, but if I haven't responded to yours
yet, don't worry, I will! Also, I'd like to say thanks to everyone who has
read "Lost and Found", the other series I'm working on. It is a bit
different, but definitely worth a look-see. :o) Special thanks to RJ and
Ron for all their help. If you have any comments, suggestions, criticisms,
etc, please send them to Mike at BrwyMilo@aol.com. I love mail!
This story is not meant to imply anything about the sexuality of anyone
involved. It is purely a work of fiction. That said, enjoy the story!
*****
Justin watched as the sun set through the stain glass windows of the
chapel. Candles were lit everywhere and organ music was playing lightly.
The walls were covered with flowers and silk buntings were spread around.
The scent of incense drifted lightly in the air. He looked at all the other
people present in the chapel and smiled happily. He could see both of his
parents and his step-mom. His mother had tears in her eyes as she watched
him. He looked carefully at relatives he hadn't seen for years. Glancing at
the other side, he saw all of Nick's family present. Everyone was sharply
dressed and were smiling warmly. He sighed happily and then turned his
attention back to the duty at hand.
"Do you, Justin Timberlake, take this man, Nicholas Carter, to be your
husband?"
"I do," Justin said happily. He could feel his heart flutter in his
chest as he held hands with the man he loved.
"And do you, Nicholas Carter, take this man, Justin Timberlake, to be
your husband?"
Nick stood where he was and said nothing. Justin looked over at him and
frowned. "Nick, did you forget your line or something," Justin said with a
laugh. Nick didn't look at him. "Nick, say something..."
"My dad was right," he said suddenly. Justin could feel Nick's grip on
his hands releasing slowly.
"What," was all that Justin could mutter. "What do you mean your dad was
right?"
"He was right. You're the reason I'm gay." Nick looked around. He
dropped Justin's hands quickly and laughed. "I don't want this. And I don't
want you," he yelled angrily. Nick spun around and stormed towards the door,
leaving Justin standing at the altar.
Justin felt his knees get weak as he fell to the ground. He looked up
and saw Robert Carter's face laughing at him.
******
Justin leapt up from his sleep and gave a yell. He breathed heavily
wiped some of the sweat from off of his face. He felt his heart pounding in
his chest as he lay back down. "Just a dream," he whispered to himself over
and over again. He looked over at Nick who was sleeping close to him. "He
loves me. He told me so." Justin tried to slow his racing heart, but the
more he thought about the dream, the more tears began to come to his eyes.
He tried to calm down, but found he couldn't stop them from coming. He
pulled his pillow over his face and began to cry into it. Nick sighed
lightly and pulled Justin in close to him. Justin tried to stop his shaking,
but noticed Nick starting to stir. Nick yawned loudly and stretched his arms
out. He looked at the clock at the side of the bed and saw that it was 3:00
am. He looked over at Justin and saw him under a pillow.
"What's wrong baby," Nick asked groggily as he propped himself up on an
elbow. Justin shook his head from under the pillow and gripped it firmly.
"Justin, you're going to suffocate. Give me the pillow," Nick said as he
grabbed for it. Justin released his grip a little and allowed Nick to take
it. Justin quickly turned over onto his stomach to keep Nick from seeing him
crying. "Justin look at me," Nick said as he rubbed his back. He heard
Justin's sniffling calm down a bit. He put his head down right next to
Justin and tried to see his face. "Calm on baby, look at me," Nick pleaded.
Finally Justin turned his head so Nick could see him. Nick instantly wrapped
his arms around Justin and pulled him close. "Now please tell me what wrong."
"I had a nightmare," Justin said quietly.
"It must have been some nightmare to get you this upset," Nick said as he
cradled Justin in his arms.
"It was bad," was all that Justin could say.
"Tell me what it was about," Nick said softly. He began to stroke
Justin's hair softly and kiss his tears away.
Justin paused and debated whether telling Nick he had had an dream about
them getting married was a good thing. "Well..." he started. He looked into
Nick's eyes and saw only compassion. "I had this dream we were getting
married," Justin said slowly. He saw a grin creep across Nick's face and
sighed. "So, we're getting married and well...you kind of left me at the
altar. And then your dad was laughing at me, and...." Justin started crying
again as Nick held him closer.
"Justin, when we get married I will not be walking out on you," Nick
said. Justin's eyes flew open when he heard what Nick said.
"Did you just say...when...we get married?"
Nick stopped and released Justin a little so he could look into his eyes.
"Well, I mean, I...would that be so bad," Nick asked as he looked down.
Justin smiled happily. "Of course it wouldn't be bad!"
Nick looked up and smiled back. "I mean, I know we're not ready now, but
it's just that I really love you a lot, and I love this," he said, as he
pulled Justin in closer. "I would just love to know that I could spend my
life with you."
Justin melted into Nick's arms. "Nick, you say the most wonderful things
sometimes. I love you," Justin whispered. Justin gripped Nick firmly and
let his tears dry up.
Nick grinned and whispered back, "Can I keep you," quoting the famous
line from Casper.
"Are you trying to make me cry," Justin said.
Nick smiled and pulled Justin back down with him. "Nah, but if you do,
I'm here to kiss your tears away." Nick gently kissed Justin on the cheek
and smiled.
Justin put his head down on Nick's chest and sighed heavily. "You always
know how to make me happy."
Nick ran his fingers through Justin's hair and smiled. "I love you,"
Nick said with a smile.
"I love you too," Justin said as he peacefully drifted back to sleep.
*****
Lance stood in the middle of a huge room. The candles were gone and the
only light entering the room came from a full moon shining brightly outside
the window. On the bed, a figure was writhing under a black silk sheet. As
he approached the bed, he saw that there were two figures. He pulled back
the sheet slowly and saw Justin with his arms wrapped tightly around Nick.
Justin moaned loudly as Nick gently sucked on his neck.
Lance stumbled back and found himself leaning against the wall as he
watched Nick and Justin making love. He found his mouth had gone dry.
"Justin," he was finally able to whisper. He felt anger within him rise as
he approached the bed again. "Justin! I told you I loved you! Why are you
doing this!"
Justin seemed to be deaf to Lance's cries. He continued to make love to
Nick. They moaned as their bodies rubbed together. Lance could feel tears
escape his eyes.
Lance saw movement in the corner of the room. "Who's there," he called.
He watched as a figure emerged from the shadows. "Don?"
Don smiled and nodded. He put his arms around Lance and pulled him into
a kiss. Lance quickly pulled away. "I can't do this," he yelled suddenly at
Don. "I love Justin! I can't be with you and love him!"
Don turned Lance's head to face Nick and Justin, who were how fast asleep
and holding onto each other tightly.
"You see you tightly they're holding each other? You can't come between
that. You need to learn to let him go. I know it's hard Lance. But you
need to accept the fact that Justin is Nick's." Lance cried lightly. Don
hugged him close. "You'll find someone Lance. Trust me. You won't be alone
for long. I promise." Lance cried lightly on Don's shoulder.
The figures on his bed disappeared and Don gently laid Lance down. "Get
some sleep." With the Don walked back into the corner. Lance pulled the
sheet round him and drifted off.
*****
As Lance fell asleep in his dream, he awoke to reality. His eyes opened
slowly. He rolled over in the bed as he heard the door to the room close.
His eyes opened all the way and he began to sit up. "Don," he whispered. He
sat up all the way and looked around the room. There was no sign of him
anywhere. He got up and walked into the bathroom. He squinted his eyes as
he turned the light on. All of Don's clothes were gone. Lance quickly
walked to the door to the room and looked outside. No one was around.
Lance felt his heart catch in his throat as he walked back into the room.
He sat down at the edge of the bed and allowed a few tears to fall from his
eyes. He sighed heavily and the stood up. "I couldn't have expected this to
amount to anything," he said to himself. "I met him while getting drunk at a
bar. What the hell was I thinking?" He pulled his pants on and pulled his
shirt on over his head. He knew he hadn't told any of the guys where he was
going, and they would be worried if he wasn't there when they woke up. He
took one last look around the room and sighed. "Goodnight Don."
******
JC sat uncomfortably in the chair at the press conference. Beads of
sweat formed on his brow, which he quickly wiped away. He rolled up his
shirtsleeves and waited for the onslaught to begin.
"Mr. Chasez, so it is true that you are gay then," one reporter yelled at
him.
"Um, I have no comment to that question," he replied nervously as he
grabbed for his water.
"Come on now, we've seen the pictures. We have the witnesses. How can
you deny it," the reporter replied.
"I said I have no comment," he said a little angrier.
"You might as well tell them JC," Leigh Anne said suddenly appearing out
of nowhere. "They already know."
"Leigh Anne, stop it. Not now," JC said, trying to get her to keep her
mouth shut.
"JC, the entire world knows you're gay. Just give it up already!"
JC sat there as the reporters began to laugh. Pictures were snapped
quickly. Soon Leigh Anne was laughing as well. She walked over to where
Brian was sitting and sat down right on his lap. "You didn't think he'd stay
with you, did you," she asked with a laugh. "He's mine." JC felt totally
helpless as the reporters continued to laugh and snap pictures. Soon Brian
was laughing too as he wrapped his arms around Leigh Anne and kissed her
lightly. JC felt the tears roll down his face.
"Please stop," were the only words he could get out.
*****
"JC! JC wake up," Brian said as he shook him. JC's eyes shot opened as
he breathed heavily. He saw Brian lying next to him and threw his arms
around him, hugging him tightly. "What's wrong?"
"I had a dream," JC said slowly. "I dreamt that it got out that I was
gay, and everyone was laughing at me. And Leigh Anne was there, and she was
all over you, and it was not good at all."
Brian sighed heavily and held JC firmly in his arms. "JC, first off, no
one is going to find out that you're gay. No one! Secondly, Leigh Anne
means nothing to me anymore. Not even as a friend. She ruined it. I only
want you." He hugged him tightly and did the best he could to make him feel
better.
"Brian, there's something I have to tell you," JC said slowly. Brian
released him and looked deep into his eyes.
"What is it?"
"While you were in the shower before...I got a phone call. Now I don't
know who it was, but they said something. They told me they knew I was gay
and that soon everyone else would too." He looked at Brian and tried to
analyze the look on his face.
"It has to be one of the guys," Brian said quickly. "They're the only
ones who know."
"That's what I think too, but what if it's not," JC asked a bit nervously.
"Then we'll deal with it. No one is going to find out anything JC."
Brian kissed JC gently on the cheek and smiled. "Now let's get some sleep
before I look like shit in the morning," Brian laughed. JC giggled and put
his head back down on his pillow, his thoughts whizzing around in his head.
He closed his eyes, and tried to salvage a good nights sleep.
*******
Kevin sat in his hotel room and watched as the sunlight came streaming in
through the open curtains. He sighed as he looked at the three carts that
were filled with breakfast foods. He also looked around the room and saw not
one person sitting there eating.
"Where the hell are they," he muttered to himself. There was a knock at
the door. He sighed loudly and opened it.
"Hey Kevin," Britney said as she plodded into the room wearing big looney
toons slippers and a pink nightgown.
"Hey Britney. How was your date with AJ yesterday?"
Britney laughed loudly and plopped down on the bed. "It was wonderful,"
she exclaimed gleefully. "He was so sweet!"
Kevin laughed and pushed a cart closer to her. "That's really great. Do
I see a future here?"
"Maybe," she smiled as she grabbed a plate.
"You start eating. I'm gonna start pounding on doors now," Kevin said as
he left the room. As he reached Howie's he saw the door open and Howie and
AJ step out together. "Whoa!"
Howie laughed and said, "Dude, calm down. We were just talking in here
before we got to your room. You don't have another Nick and Justin on your
hands." AJ burst out laughing behind him.
"Although you may have an AJ and Britney coming up," AJ said happily.
Kevin rolled his eyes.
"Go grab some breakfast from my room. Britney's already in there AJ," he
said with a smile.
"Really! Cool," AJ yelled as he ran to Kevin's room. Howie merely
rolled his eyes and followed after him.
Kevin walked further down the hall and stopped in front on Nick and
Justin's room. He knocked on the door softly and waited for a response.
None came. He knocked a bit louder and finally heard someone coming. Nick
opened the door sleepily.
"Hi Kevin," he yawned.
"Let's go loverboys. Time for breakfast," Kevin said as he entered the
room. He saw Justin still fast asleep on the bed.
"Isn't he cute like that," Nick said from behind him.
"Yes, he's adorable, but wake him up," Kevin said quickly. "We can't
hang around here all day. We have rehearsal to get to in a bit." Nick
groaned and sat down on the bed next to Justin.
"Time to wake up honey," he said as he gently shook Justin's shoulder.
Justin moaned a little in his sleep but kept his eyes closed. "Justin, come
on baby."
Justin yawned and stretched widely. His eyes blinked open and he looked
up at Nick's smiling face. "It's the east, and Nicholas is the sun," he
muttered, quoting Shakespeare.
"You cornball," Nick said as he kissed him lightly on the lips. Justin
put his arm behind Nick's back and pulled him down for a more passionate
kiss. Kevin quickly cleared his throat to get their attention. Justin
pulled away quickly and saw Kevin laughing at them.
"Justin, get up," he laughed. "No pun intended."
Justin laughed and threw a pillow at him. "We'll be in your room in a
second. Just let me get a little more dressed."
Kevin laughed again and left the room. He walked down the hall a little
more and saw JC and Brian leaving their room. He took one look at JC and
stopped. "Christ JC, you feeling alright? You look like shit!"
"Way to make me feel better, Kevin," JC laughed. "Yea, I'm fine. I just
didn't get a lot of sleep last night."
"OK, well grab some breakfast...and a pot of coffee. It's all in my
room." Kevin got everyone else out of their rooms before heading back. When
he entered he closed the door behind him and locked it. He saw Justin
sitting on Nick's lap feeding him a piece of bacon. Britney was leaning
against AJ and laughing loudly. Brian was gently rubbing JC's shoulders. He
scanned the rest of the crowd and saw someone missing.
"Hey, guys, where's Lance," Kevin said quickly.
Joey and Chris looked at each other and shrugged. "I haven't seen him
this morning," Joey said as he shoved a slice of toast in his mouth. Kevin
sighed heavily and walked back to the door when he heard a knock. Everyone
looked up expecting it to be Robert.
"Uh, who is it," Kevin asked quickly.
"It's Lance," the voice said.
Kevin sighed and opened the door. Lance stood on the other side, dressed
as he was the night before and looking slightly out of breath. "Where were
you?"
"I went for a walk. No big deal," he said as he sat down. He had deep
bags under his eyes. He threw a glance over at Justin, who was still sitting
on Nick's lap and sighed. He walked over and grabbed a plate, placing some
sausage and eggs on it.
"OK guys, here's the deal. Get dressed as soon as you can. We've got a
long rehearsal ahead of us today, so um...WAKE UP!" Breakfast was quickly
finished and everyone headed back to their rooms to get ready.
******
Robert stepped out of the shower and quickly dried off. He was staying
on the floor below the bands. He stepped out of the bathroom, leaving the
towel inside. He opened one of the dresser drawers and pulled out a pair of
black briefs, slipping them on quickly. He pulled on a pair of black suit
pants and a light blue silk shirt. He looked in the mirror and ran his
fingers through his hair to straighten it out. When he was satisfied he
walked back to the bed and looked over the notes he had made from the day
before.
"Why don't I think Leigh Anne told me the whole story," he asked himself
with a laugh. He had known Leigh Anne for some time and had only known her
to do things which benefited herself in the long run. He picked up his
camera and hung it around his neck. He whistled lightly as he left his room
and walked down to the awaiting limo.
******
"OK guys, that's an hour break," Fatima yelled. "Dancers, don't go
anywhere. You're a mess today!"
The guys grabbed their towels and workout bags and walked into one of the
large recreation rooms. Justin walked over quickly and grabbed a plate.
There were numerous trays of food set up for the guy's lunch. "Oh thank
God," Justin said happily. He started piling chicken and pasta onto his
plate.
Nick looked at the growing mound on Justin's plate and laughed. "Hey,
don't get fat on me there Curly," he laughed out.
Justin looked at his plate and started putting food back with a frown.
Nick leapt up from his chair and grabbed Justin's hand as he picked up the
serving spoon. "Don't you dare put anything back. As far as your mother and
I are concerned, you're already too thin. Here," Nick said as he took the
spoon. He piled on some more chicken and smiled. "We can share." Justin
smiled happily and walked over to the couch.
"I think it's nice when kids share," Robert said as he stepped out of the
shadows.
Justin almost dropped the plate when he heard his voice. Nick swirled
around and stared Robert in the face. "Christ Robert, you scared the hell
out of me!"
"Us too," Kevin said seriously as he stepped forward. "What's up?"
"Oh nothing, I was just getting some food. And by the way Justin, I
think you're too thin too."
Justin smiled weakly, but felt his stomach churning. Howie quickly
stepped forward. "Yea, we're all trying to get Curly to eat a little more.
Here," he said as he grabbed another plate. He put some vegetables and
French-fries on a plate. "We can share this." Howie looked up at Robert and
winked. "You want some Rob?"
"No, thanks," Rob said quickly. "I ate before you got here."
"Suit yourself," Howie replied as he grabbed a piece of chicken off
Justin's plate.
Nick was sitting with his back to Robert and facing Howie. "Thank you,"
he mouthed slowly. Howie nodded slowly and continued to eat off of Justin's
plate. Nick glanced quickly over at Justin and saw he was still a bit shaken
up. He wanted to comfort him but he knew it was hard. Then he smiled. He
took his fork, waved it in front of Justin a little and then traced the words
"I love you" in the pasta. Justin laughed and continued eating.
"So Robert, how long will you be on this tour with us," Kevin asked
quickly.
"Well as of now, I'm signed on through Denver. After that, it depends on
how much footage I have. I will definitely be at the tour finale though."
He smiled widely and grabbed a can of soda.
"Oh, that's nice," JC said, trying to conceal his disappointment.
"Yea, I'm planning on making quite a video," he said with a grin.
"We're sure you are," Brian replied quickly.
The rest of the guys sat close to Justin and Nick, bringing over a few
more plates of food. They all ate off the same plates, trying to keep up the
facade they had set up for Robert. Robert laughed a little on the inside.
He watched as the guys continued to eat and chatter. He snapped a few
pictures and then asked them if they could pose for him. Chris jumped on top
of Joey and grabbed a plate. Robert laughed and continued to take pictures.
"Nick, Justin, can I get a few of the two of you?"
Nick looked at Justin and shrugged. Justin stood up nervously and stood
next to Nick. Robert snapped a few pictures, asking them to get into various
poses. "Thanks a lot," he said with a smile. "Well it was nice spending
some time with you guys. I'm gonna go check with Fatima and the dancers
now." He left the room quickly and shut the door behind him. Justin lowered
himself to the floor and sighed heavily.
"I don't want him around anymore," he said, frustrated.
"Kevin, something isn't right here," Howie said. "What exactly do we
know about this guy?"
Kevin shrugged his shoulders. "I got a chance to look over his resume.
It seemed pretty authentic to me. Management said he came highly
recommended."
"Do you think we can get a little more information on him," JC spoke up
quickly.
"I'll work on it," Kevin said sharply.
Justin sighed and rubbed his hand across Nick's. Nick smiled and kissed
him lightly on the cheek. "I love you," he whispered in his ear.
"I love you too," Justin whispered back. He leaned back against the
couch and glanced over at Lance, who once again was sitting in the corner by
himself. Justin stared at him and squinted. Lance merely shook his head and
mouthed the words "long story". Justin nodded and smiled weakly. Lance
sighed and nodded.
'I don't think I can take much more of this,' Lance thought to himself as
he saw Justin slowly lean in and kiss Nick.
*****
"Yes, is Leigh Anne there? It's Robert. OK, well, tell her to page me
please. Tell her it's an emergency, alright? Thanks." Robert clicked the
end button on his cell phone and smiled. "There is definitely more to
this..."
*****
Well, I hope you liked this installment. If you have any questions or
comments, don't hesitate to send them in to Mike at BrwyMilo@aol.com. I love
mail! That said, I'll see you soon!