Date: Wed, 2 Feb 2000 17:06:18 -0800
From: K_Magic@Prodigy.Net
Subject: Unseen Moments - Chapter Five (Continuance of Not Meant to Be)

Author's Note:

Hey to all...
I have no clue on the time line for events of past few months
involving NSYNC.  So just go with the flow.  If you have any
comments or suggestions, I would love to hear them, so write
damn it.


Send them to me at K_Magic@Prodigy.Net


Disclaimer...
This is a fictional story between a fictional character and Members
of NSYNC.  This in no way implies anything about the sexuality or any
thing else of the members of NSYNC.  This is all fiction.


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Chapter Five
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I decided to watch the concert from the side of the stage, just
off the stage.  I had never seen them in concert before and was
amazed at the energy these guys had.  They were all about my age,
give or take a few years.  But I don't think I could put so much
energy into a show, especailly like JC.  He was like a little
kid on a sugar high, running all over the place.  You could tell
they loved what they were doing.

I enjoyed the show and spent most of my time watching Lance.  He
wasn't the most graceful of people, but he had moves and he looked
sexy doing them.  He kept looking my way with this smirk on his face.
It threw off his timing a few times, but he covered it up.

After the concert, the other guys went out while Lance and I headed
back to the hotel.  As soon as we got into the room, I pulled him
into a kiss.

"You looked so sexy out there, man I threw a bone just watching you."

"You're such a perv Jay...Hey I'm going to take a shower, want to
join me."

"Umm Lance...how about we have some fun, then we can take a shower."

"Jay, I feel really sticky and I don't smell all that great right now."

"Hey, I'm not complaining....I just like to know what the man I love
really smells like...It can be kinda a turn on...ya know what I mean."

"Nope."

"I mean hot...sweaty...sticky...stinkin'...sex."

He just kind of gave me a half smile.  "Ok..what ever turns you on..."

He rolled his eyes as I hugged him tight and lifted him over to the
bed.  I threw him down on the bed and crawled over him, straddling
his waist.  I lifted his shirt up and over his head and made him keep
his hands above his head.  I removed my shirt and leaned down and
kissed him on the lips, then moved down and kissed him on his neck.
I breathed in Lance's scent, actually he didn't smell at all bad. I
moved my mouth up to his ear.

"You, Mr Bass, are one sexy smelling man." I whispered into his ear.
I returned to kissing his neck and then moved to his right nipple.  I
flicked my tongue over it until it started to harden, then I moved to
the left.  I started to kiss my way back up to his neck and then went
to kiss him on the lip again....But when I looked up, his eyes were
closed and his breathing was steady.

"Lance....Lance hun....."

There was no reply.  I carefully got off of him and covered him with
a blanket.  I looked down at his peaceful face and smiled.  I shook my
head and threw back on my shirt.  I wasn't at all tired, so I went to
the hotel gym to work off my built up energy.  I spent about one hour
in the gym then headed up.  As the elevator doors opened, the guys had
just gotten back and were going into their rooms.  Josh was the only
one left in the hallway and waited for me to catch up with him.

"So Sexy...How was your night on the town?"

"The usual...pandamonia...We went to a club and were there for about
2 minutes before word got around and we were surrounded.  We spent the
night on the dance floor surrounded, not being able to move...just wall
to wall girls...They had a fun, but I was kinda bored.  Where did you
go?  I thought you and Lance would be in the room exhausted by now."

Well...Lance was exhausted...He kind of fell asleep before we started.
It's no biggie though...I understand."

"No he didn't....Man I'm going to have to talk to that boy."

"Don't say anything to him, I'm totally cool with it...I just don't
understand how you can still be functional...Dude you are one crazy
guy...I mean the energy you put into the show and then go out on the
town...you make me feel old."

"Hey, Jay...are you tired...do you want to come in and talk for a
while...you know...get to know each other better."

"I would love to Josh...but from what Lance tells me, we are so much
alike...we should know each other already."

He laughed a little as we entered his room.  We sat on his bed just
talking.  We ended up laying diagally accross the bed facing each
other as we talked about our pasts, our goal, our lives...about
everything and nothing.  Lance was right, we were so similar.  As
we talked, I kept looking into his eyes.  The were so amazing, I kept
getting lost in those deep blue eyes..they were so hypnotic.  But I
think we both realized that there could be nothing between us besides
friendship...there was just nothing there.

"Jay...How did you know?"

"Know what?"

"Know that you are gay..."

"I don't know...I guess I've always known...ever since I can remember,
I've alway been attracted to guys...I never really noticed girls.  My
mom thinks it has to do with not having a male role model in my life...
My father took off when I was one and I have never seen him."

"I'm sorry..."

"Don't be...I have no feeling for the man...I have no father, I have
my mom and that's all I've ever needed.  But I came to the realization
that I was gay probably when I was about 12.  You know, watching all
those guys just hitting puberty, getting undressed in gym class.

"Wow...12 huh...So your mom knows...does everyone else in your life
know?"

"Yeah...my whole family knows, I really only have one close friend back
home.  He was the first one I came out to.  He helped me through all
the tough times.  He was even there when I told my mom."

"He sounds like a great guy."

"Kyle, yeah he is...I've always wished he was gay too, I've had a
secret crush on him since we were young."

"Really, I can relate..."

"Ok, spill it...who has your eye Josh..."

His face turned completely red and he turned away from me.

"It's Ok Josh...you don't have to say."

"It's....Lance."

"Get out....Lance.  That is sooo funny, have you ever told him?"

"No way...have you ever told your friend."

I smiled and shook my head. "I get your point.  Even though
Lance is gay and Kyle is not, I understand where you are coming
from."

"Promise you will never say anything...Promise Jay."

"I promise...God, it pisses me off that Lance was right."

"About what?"

"That you and I are so much alike."

He smiled at me and then I saw the clock.

"Damn, it's 3:45am...I got to get going."

"Ok Jay...it was great talking to you, I never really get a chance to
talk to anyone like this...it was fun."

"Anytime Josh."

I got up and stretched and started to walk to the door.

"Hey Jay...I really hope you and Lance stay together...you are good
for each other...you make each other happy...you complete each other."

I walked back to him and pulled him into a hug and kissed him on the
cheek."

"Thank you, Josh...you don't know how much it means to me to hear that
from you."

I broke the hug and started to walk to the door.

"Good night Jay."

"Good night Sexy...and don't worry, we will find someone for you,
someone to make you happy and make you complete."

His face turned red and his eyes rolled back into his head.

"Don't worry, I have excellent taste in men.  I will find you the
perfect guy."

I winked at him and walked out the door.  I quietly entered the room
and Lance was still asleep.  I went into the bathroom and started the
shower, stripped and got in.  I was letting the hot water run over my
head when I heard the shower door open and a pair of arms wrap around
my waist.

"I thought you wanted sweaty, sticky, stinkin' sex with me."

I turn around and face Lance and wrapped my arms around him.

"I did, but a cetain someone fell asleep before we could begin."

"I'm sorry, can I make it up to you now?"

"Anytime Mr Bass, anytime."

"Turn around".

As I turned, Lance reached over.  He poured some shampoo in his hand
and started to work it into my hair.  The only other person to do this
in my life was my mom...I was enjoying Lance a whole lot better.  He
massaged my scalp and lightly pushed my head under the water and rinsed
my hair.  Then he got the hand towel and soaped it up.  He washed my
body from head to toe.  I rinsed.

"My turn" I said turning around and stepping behind him.  I repeated
everything he did to me.  When he finished rinsing the soap off his
body, I started to kiss his neck.  I reached around in front of him
and took his cock into my hand and started to stroke it.  It grew
immediately as did mine.  I started to thrust my hips and my cock
worked up and down in Lance's crack.  Lance started to moan and he
threw his head back against my shoulder.

"Mmmmm Do it Jay....Fuck me...Please..."

With my other hand, I grabbed the soap and lathered up my hard-on
and dropped the soap.  I grabbed my cock and probed for Lance's hole.
Once I found it, I slowly pushed my cock into him.  He threw his head
back hard against my shoulder and started taking deep hard breathes.
I felt his hand move back around to my hips and pulled me fast into
him.

"God....do it Jay...faster...please Jay...faster..."

I started to withdrawl then pushed back in.  Our rhythm got faster
and faster and my hand worked his cock faster and faster.

"Oh...Fuck...Fuck....Fuck me Jay...Fuck me...."

Lance's body stiffened and raised up on his toes as his cock spasmed
and he shot his load.  I felt his ass muscles tighten on my cock as I
drove it in one last time into him. My orgasm rocked my body as my
load shot into Lance.

Lance leaned up against the shower wall as I hugged him and we both
tried to catch our breath.  I slowly withdrew out of him and turned
him around and kissed him.

"I love you Mr Bass."

"I love you too, Mr Martin."

We washed each other again, stepped out of the shower and took
turns drying each other.  Then we exited the bathroom and got into bed.
I was laying on my back, with Lance snuggled up against my body with
his head resting on my shoulder.  I had my arm resting on his side
and he had on hand resting on my chest.  It was just passed 5am and
we fell asleep in that postition.

The next thing I knew, I felt Lance jump out of my arms.  My mind
finally woke and...

"Come on Lance wake up."  BANG...BANG..."Lance you're late...hurry up,
the limos waiting..."

It was Joey's voice.  I opened my eyes and looked at the clock...it
was 9:55am.  Lance was running around throwing his clothes on as he
tried to brush his teeth.

"Shit...We overslept."

"No, you overselpt...I don't have to be at my shoot until 2pm."

Lance ran into the bathroom, ran some gel thru this hair and quickly
ran the blow dryer over it.  He ran back out, grabbed his shoes and
ran out the door.  The door opened again and he ran into the room,
jumped on the bed and kissed me.

"See you later tonight...I love you."

"Love you too."  I said as he ran back out the door.

I went back to sleep for another 3 hours, then got up and got ready
for the day.  My day consisted of a meeting, a fitting and a run
through with the photographer for the ad layout I was posing for.
Lance was spending all day in a recording studio, laying tracks for
one of the songs on the new album.  He was not going to be done until
after 8pm.  I finished around 6pm and was hungry, so I stopped and
grabbed something to eat.  I went back to the hotel, changed and went
to the gym.  It was about 9pm, when I headed back up to the room.
Lance was in the room talking with two men I had never seen before.
They stopped talking as I entered the room and looked back and forth
between them.

"Jason...this is our manager Johnny Wright and our tour manager Kenny
Greer."

I walked over and shook their hands, then sat next to Lance on the
couch.  They were sitting opposite from us in two chairs.  Johnny was
the first to speak.

"Jason,  we have as situation here that I am deeply concerned with...
I understand that Lance and you are seeing each other, and I in
no way will stand in the way of the happiness of one of the guys.
But I also have to consider what is best for the group.  I know Lance
is a very responsible person and will not let his tardiness to this
mornings session be an ongoing problem.  But, in this business there
are things that need some desgression.  There are going to be times
that it will be inconvienent for Lance and yourself to be seen together
or to be sharing the same room."

Lance reached over and took my hand and lightly squeezed as I just
nodded with agreement as Johnny continued.

"Now, I have discussed the situation over with Lance and the other guys
and they've all voiced their strong disapproval at our interference.
But they also understand the business and have agreed to our proprosal.
We have agreed to let Lance and yourself spend as much time together
as you want, as long as it is out of the public's eye."

He paused, looking to me for a reaction.  I understood all he was
saying and nodded for him to continue.

"Now, any time you have to be seen with the group on the road, you
will be side by side with Kenny.  To everyone else, Kenny and you
are the couple.  You will be assigned to Kenny's hotel room.  Anytime
you are on the road with the group, you'll be on which ever bus Kenny
is on.  Anytime you are seen with the group, you will introduce Kenny
as your boyfriend.  Once in the hotel, you can move your stuff to
Lance's room.  Lance has told us you have a pager...There are going
to be times when it will also be inconvient if you are in Lance's
room.  We will use your pager to let you know when you need to leave
Lance's room and go back to Kenny's.  There are going to be times
when we have meeting and such with people that can not know about
Lance and yourself.  You will be paged with the code 600, once you
receive that page, you will grab your stuff and head down to Kenny's
room."

Johnny then pulled a paper out of his breifcase and put it on the
table in front of me.

"This is all outlined in the confidentiality contract in front of you.
The only way we will allow you and Lance to continue your relationship
is if you sign the contract.  Lance is obligated under his contract
and must follow all our decsions regarding this type of matter.  We
will give you tonight to think about it.  Lance will bring your
decsion with him to the studio tomorrow...On time...right Lance."

Lance smiled at him..."You know it Johnny."

"It was nice meeting you and please, don't feel that we are in anyway
discouraging your relationship with Lance.  It's just in our business,
we..."

I interrupted him. "I understand, Johnny.  Lance and I will talk
tonight and you will have your answer in the morning."

"Thank you Jason."  He rose and shook my hand and walked out the door.
Kenny got up and walked over and extended his hand. He had been quiet
the whole time.

"It was nice meeting you Jason."

"Please, you're my boyfriend...call me Jay."

He smiled at me and we shook hands.

"Wow...I got a boyfriend who is a model and I didn't even have to go
on a date...I could get used to this."

We all laughed as he walked to the door.

"Good night guys...and if you get a code 600, I'm in room 322, down
the hallway on the right.  But don't expect one tonight."

Lance and I said Good night and he left.

"He's cute."

"Excuse me"

"I said my new boyfriend is cute...don't you think we make a cute
couple."

Lance punched me in the shoulder.  "No I do not think you make a cute
couple."  He folded his arms over his chest and leaned back on the
couch looking up to the ceiling.

"Come on Lance...we know there are obsticles, this is just one more
hurdle.  It will make us all the more stonger."

I leaned over to the table, took the pen and signed the contract.

"Aren't you even going to read it?"

"Nope, I know you already went through it with a fine tooth comb and
I trust that everything is what he said, or you would have spoken up."

"How do you know that?"

"Cause, my dear Mr Bass, Kyle would have done that and you are
just like Kyle."

"Hey..."

"Hey nothing...If you can sit there and tell me every ten minutes
how much I am like JC, I can tell you how much you are like Kyle."

"When do I get to meet this Kyle...He sounds like a great person."

"Great, yeah right...he is the most anal, boring...."

"Hey, I am not like that," he said as he pushed me down on the couch.

"Well, let's go ask Josh about ...."

He leaned down and started kissing me mid sentence.

"So, when do I get to meet him, so I can pull all this shit with
him that you pull with Josh."

"At the end of November, when we are in California...I'm going to
spend a day with him while we are in Sacramento."

"I can't wait...I will finally be able to gather the true dirt on
you."

He got up off me and pulled me up off the couch.

"Let's hit the shower."

I followed him into the bathroom and we showered.  It had been
a long day and we were both tired.  We got into bed and snuggled
up against each other and went to sleep.

The next two days went by fast.  Both days pretty much went by like
the first.  On the last day, we did go out to dinner with all the
guys.  I was stuck sitting next to Kenny, which wasn't so bad.  We
talked and got to know each other.  He was a good guy, funny,
attractive and not my type at all.  I could see us being friend,
but nothing more.  I could actually picture Kenny, Josh and I
getting into a lot of trouble together, but nothing sexual between
any of us.

The next thing I knew Lance and I were saying good bye to each
other...we laughed, cried and hugged until it was time for me
to leave.  I still had to go back to my hotel and check out.
I hadn't really spent anytime there.  Lance and the group
were heading to Canada for some concerts and I was heading
home.  My flight was lonely and I really didn't notice the
takeoff or landing.

The next few weeks dragged on.  I missed Lance so much.  We talked
on the phone, sent e-mails, he even sent me a bouquet of long stem
red roses...but it didn't help any.  I didn't let any of it affect
my work, but my heart just wasn't into it.  I just worked and hung
around the apartment.  Scott did his best to cheer me up...he dragged
me out a few nights, but it didn't help.  How are we going to make
this work if I can't live being separated from Lance like this.  But
as the day of Lance's return crept closer and closer, my mood got
better and better.  On the way to the airport to greet him, I was
back to my old self.  As their flight landed and everyone left the
plane, there was not sign of the guys.  Maybe they stayed on and
were leaving from the hanger...But Lance had told me to pick him
up.

I heard my name being paged to the airline desk.  I went over and
an agent led me through a back hallway into a room.  There were
the guys sitting around on couches.  The agent closed the door behind
me. They had heard the door open and Lance rose up off the couch.
I ran over to him and threw myself into his open arms.  We started
kissing.  We started talking at the same time telling each other
how much we missed each other.  We were interrupted by JC, pulling
me out of Lance's arms and pulling me into a hug.

"Come on Lance...Share with the rest of us."

JC kissed me on the cheek and pushed me away.

"Good to see you Jay."

"You too sexy."

Justin, Joey and Chris each walked up to me and hugged me and said
their heys.  They all looked exhausted.

"Do you guys have a ride?"

JC spoke up, "Yeah, my jeeps here, let's go guys.  See you around
Jay."

"Ok, see ya guys."  I said as they each put on their hats and sun
glasses and walked out another door.

"So it just you and Me, Jay."

We left and I drove to Lance's house.  He grabbed his luggage
and I grabbed some bags from the back.

"What's that stuff?"

"This, Mr Bass, is our dinner."

"You don't have to, we can do take out."

"Not on your life...you have been on the road and haven't
had a home cooked meal in a while, so I am cooking you
dinner."

We entered his house and I went to the kitchen.  He followed, but
I pushed him out.

"Oh no you don't...you go take a long hot bath, relax and I will
tell you when you can come eat."

He smiled at me and walked off up stairs as I turned back to
the kitchen and started cooking.  That is one thing I am proud
about, is that I am able to cook.  My mom was never at home, so it
was either learn to cook for myself or starve.  I like eating
too much to starve, so I learned to cook.

After I was done cooking, I went looking for Lance.  I went upstair,
checking in all the rooms.  I found his bedroom, but he wasn't in
there.  He had taken a bath, cause the air was humid and I could
smell the fragrance of soap.  I went to the next room and found
Lance sitting at a desk in front of a computer.  I walked into
his office and walked up behind him.  He was sitting in only a
pair of boxer staring at the screen.  I put my hands on his
shoulders and he jumped a little.

"Sorry, didn't mean to scare you."

"Not a problem..."

"Lance, what's wrong...your shoulder muscles are tight." I said
as I started to massage them.

He shut down his computer and rose out of the chair.

"Don't worry about it Jay...Wow...what ever you cooked smells
good..let's go eat, I'm starved."

He grabbed my hands and led me down the stairs.

"So what's for dinner?"  He said as he sat at the table.

I went into the kitchen and grabbed the plates I had set up and
brought them out.

"Grilled lemon Chicken breast with broccoli fettacini."

He smiled at me. "My favorite."

"Shut up and eat you geek"

We started to eat, but Lance's mind was somewhere else.  I sat there
staring at him sitting there in his boxers with a fork full of food
lifted towards his mouth but not eating it, staring out into space.

"What is wrong Lance."

My voice brought him back and he put his fork down.

"Not right now Jay...after dinner ok."

I nodded and we ate in silence.  When we were finished I pulled
him up out of his chair and dragged him up to his bedroom.  I pushed
him onto his stomach on his bed.

"Stay right there...don't you move."

I went into his bathroom and looked around.  He didn't have
what I wanted, so I grabbed the next best thing and some towels.
I laid the towels onto the bed and told him to get on top of them.
Once he was in postition, I climbed on top of him straddling his
rear.  I squirted some hand lotion onto my hands and rubbed them
together, then started massaging his shoulders.  He moaned as
I continued to massage his shoulders.

"Ok, now talk..."

He proceeded to tell me all about how their management company
had screwed them over and how they left them and signed
a new deal with another company.  And that the e-mail he was
reading when I found him was from their lawyers saying that
they were being sued for over 100 million dollars for breach
of contract.  I kept massaging him as he told me the whole
story.  As he talked, his tension eased and he started to
relax some.  I worked out all the knots in his shoulder and
back muscles.  He finished and just laid there fully relaxed.

I leaned over and whispered in his ear.  "Feel better now."

He nodded as I got off of him and he flipped over.

"Thanks Jay."

"No problem"

He came over and started to kiss me.

"I love you so much, I don't know what I would do without
you."

"You don't have to worry about that, I will always be here
for you."

He snuggled against me and started cry.  All I could do was hold
him tight and let all the emotions that was built up inside of
him come out.  He cried himself to sleep in my arms.  I covered us
both up with a blanket and went to sleep holding the man I loved
more than anything in the world.