Date: Sat, 17 Feb 2001 00:49:23 EST
From: MrClean290@aol.com
Subject: The Perfect Puzzle

Title: The Perfect Puzzle
Author: Elisheva
Rating: It starts off NC17, hot stuff, but then after that, I'd say about PG
Pairing: Justin and someone, I believe that it's of better impact to wait
to find out who it is when you do.
Category: RPS.
Status:  It's a one-part deal
Summary:  Fights are always hard to get past, but it's even harder when
it's with someone you love.
Disclaimer:  Much to my dismay, I still don't know them.  This is c/o my
wonderful imagination.  This boy boy real people love so if you're not into
that you don't hafta read it.  Thanks!

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Note:  it's all dialogue, just in the case that you do get confused
Enjoy


				The Perfect Puzzle


	" I'm sorry."
	" No I am."
	" No really, I was mad, and depressed and didn't know what I was
thinking."
	" I shouldn't have said I never wanted to talk to you again."
	" You had a right to."
	" Justin, you're my everything, I fucking love you, why would I
want that?"
	" You love me?"
	" More than you know."
	" Like, you wanna hug me and kiss me and make love to me love me?"
	" Justin, please, don't make me answer that."
	" Why?"
	" Because we've had this discussion already."
	" I know.  I just wanna hear it again."
	" Then yes, I wanna take you right now, rip your clothes off and
fuck you senseless.  I wanna shove you onto the bed and shove my cock deep
inside of you and have you feel my juices run the length of your body.  Is
that what you wanted to hear?"
	" I guess, but did you have to be so visual?  Now you got me all
worked up with no one to turn to, to calm me down, if you know what I
mean."
	" Justin!  Be serious.  We just had a major fight and all you can
think about is sex?"
	" No, I just don't want to think about it."

	" Oh.  We said a lot of shit to each other Justy, stuff, that maybe
was true, but neither of us wanted to say, and stuff that maybe we were
feeling but wanted the other to feel to."
	" You're not selfish."
	" Then why did you say it."
	" I don't know."
	" Yes you do."
	" Because I wanted to make myself feel better!  Okay, for missing
you and loving you and wanting you.  Its driving me crazy and I didn't know
how to deal with it!  So I yelled at the first person to say hello."
	" And that was me."
	" I never meant for it to get so out of hand."
	" I know Justy, I know."
	" But you, you said you never wanted to talk to me again, and that
you couldn't tell me things, because I tell other people, and like, I'm off
limits or something."
	" No, I just, you mean so much to me, that maybe, I did to you,
what you did to me, though what you did, I don't know.  I want to be sorry,
I want to be able to look at you without crying or feeling bad, but I
cant."
	" Don't you think I cry too!  My god, I can cry anymore I've been
crying for the past 4 hours.  I'm supposed to be having a nice relaxing
vacation, and all I can think about is you, and how I hurt you and how
that's hurting me.  And I'm so scared."
	" Of what."
	" Of us falling to pieces like, you know when you finish a puzzle
and its perfect but then your little brother comes along and tries to pick
it and have it stay together like a painting, and he's just trying to be
helpful, but the picture ends up falling to pieces, onto the table and onto
the ground, and its just not even worth it to pick up the pieces?  That's
what I'm afraid of.  That we're the pieces and it's just not worth it to
pick us up and put them back together again."
	" Nice metaphor Justin."
	" Listen to me!  I am scared shitless that I won't ever get to hug
you or even tell you that I've been in love with you for the past five
years.  We had a fight.  Friends do that.  But, I want more than that.  And
I know you do too.  But now, I'm so scared that like the pieces that get
vacuumed up and or forgotten and lost, our puzzle will never be whole
again."
	" This is too much for me.  I mean, you knew I loved you, but too
many revelations in one night.  Justin, can't we fight like normal friends?
Why must it always end in us telling each other of our undying love that we
never act on, and forgotten about like your puzzle pieces?
	" I'm sorry."
	" No, don't start apologizing again, its gonna make me sick, I
think that maybe, we just need time.  To think about this, us, to just not
be with each other."
	" But we're not.  We're miles away from each other."
	" Don't call me Justin."
	" But James, please."
	" Don't."


A week later


	" I told you I needed time."
	" But it's Valentine's Day.  I couldn't just sit by the phone and
pretend like we just had the most amazing conversation and just leave it at
that."
	" I can't do this."
	" Can't do what?"
	" Us, this, please, if you want us to have a chance, you have to
let me be."
	" Alright.  Bye Lance."


A month later


	" Hello?"
	" Hi."
	" Uh, hi.  How are you?  How's the movie coming along?  Joe called
yesterday and told me lots of technical shit that I really didn't care
about, but he said it was nice to be back to acting, how is it for you?"
	" Its fun.  I mean, the kissing scenes are agitating, but the movie
is fun."
	" That's great Lance, I'm really happy for you."
	" Yeah.  So what have you been up to?"
	" Me?  Not much.  Working.  Me and Brit are gonna record together.
It's a tight song man, you should hear it.  Um, me and Josh have been
spending loads of time together.  I start to feel like we're livin'
together again.  Which is kinda funny, cuz we were thinking about buying a
place together, good investment or not?"
	" Uh, whatever, I'm not a realtor."
	" Yah.  I know.  Well, I've been talking to Momma and Bit Bit about
it, they think it's a good idea.  Momma cuz then she can use my room as a
guestroom, and Bits so I can stop complaining to her about not havin' my
own place.  She's funny you know.  All cute and stuff, for a girl.  Like
the sister, I never had.  I told her that that she is the sister, the best
friend sister thing that I never had.  She cried, but she's sappy like
that.

Josh almost expects us to make one of the rooms all girlie for her for when
she gets all huffy about still living with Lynn and the Fam.  I don't blame
her!  If I had to stay with Lynn for more than a month, I'd go crazy.  You
know I love her, but I only need one Lynn as a mom thank you!

Anyway.  Chris came by and we did fanmail this week.  They all think we be
going back on tour.  Lordie!  The album's not even close to being done, and
we each are in our own world that I don't think we could deal with touring
again.

Guess who I saw the other day?  Yup, Howie.  He and the boys are doing
well, though he swears if we ever let on that he has lunch with us every
week, he'll kill us!  He's crazy sometimes!

What else?  Josh and Bobbie are thinking about marriage, heavy shit huh?
But they belong together, so it's cool.  But she's so caught us with the
magazine in Cali, that it wouldn't be for a awhile, and they don't even
live together yet, and they don't want that step, but someday.  But I think
you should live with a person before taking that leap into commitment,
don't you think?

Lance, you listening?  Hey Lance, you there?  Shit, did I press the off
button again?"
	" No, I'm here."
	" You didn't say anything got all worried you went and fell asleep
on me."
	" Although your voice does soothe and calm me, no, I wasn't
sleeping'."
	" Good, so man, I just filled you in on my life.  What's with
yours?"
	" I, uh, I'm being called back to shoot, it was nice hearing from
you.  Bye Justin."


The next day

	" Haylo!"
	" Hello Justin."
	" Joe, why the sadness in the voice?"
	" Its Lance, he's in the hospital."
	" What, why?"
	" Car accident, please, just hurry."


	" You cant up and die on me James!  Not after everything, we've
been through.  I know, we said some shit, and well, it sounded like I moved
on, but it was a mask.  I'm moving in with Josh and Brit so I don't get all
depressed.  We can't fall apart like this.  We can't be those puzzle
pieces.  I have too much faith in destiny, and in you and in me and in us."
	" I'm sorry."
	" Lancey?  James?  Oh God!"
	" I'm sorry."
	" No, you have nothing to be sorry over."
	" Can you send Joey in?"
	" Joey?"
	" Yeah."
	" Oh, okay."


	" He wants you Joe."
	" Sure."
	" Joe, are and he, are you his, Joe, do I still have a chance?"
	" That's not up to me Jus, it never has been and it never will be."
	" But you two, are you, like, together."
	" I guess you could say that.  Why aren't you and Josh?"
	" What?  No, Jesus no!"
	" Oh, that's why he came to me.  Wires crossed I guess.  Oh well.
What can be done now.  Sorry Jus.  Its time to move on I guess."
	" Move on?  I don't know how to go anywhere without him by my
side."
	" Learn."


	" You didn't have to say that shit to him Joe."
	" Did you want me to?"
	" I want to see if he still loved me, and not just cuz I'm in a
bed.  But for real.  Damn it Joe, I could have lost him forever."
	" Sometimes, you gotta lose something to realize how much you need
it.  He needs this time.  Trust me."
	" Trust you?  My world is crumbling and you want me to trust you?"
	" Lance, it'll work out in the long run."
	" I'm glad you have faith.  Because as of this moment it's lost on
me."
	" Don't say that."
	" Joe, leave me alone now, I need to be alone."


	"It was a set up?  You honestly though I had stopped loving you?
Maybe you didn't know me at all."
	" No, I just, I don't know what I was thinking, I wasn't."
	" Yeah."
	" Are we, is there a chance for us?"
	" I don't know, I don't know anything anymore."
	" Justin?  I cant pretend to understand where we went wrong.  But
I'd like to pick up the pieces and make that pretty picture again."
	" Really?"
	" Really."
	" I'll look under the rug, you take the vacuum."
	" It's a deal."
	" What if pieces are lost?"
	" We'll find them, or we'll buy new ones, or make new ones."
	" Okay, sounds like a plan."
	" Yeah, a plan, and yet, the perfect puzzle, wouldn't you say so
Justin?"
	" Yeah I would James."
	" Okay, get to it, there's dust under that rug, and I don't want
you to miss a spot, so get to it."
	" Okay, I get the hint.  Rest up."
	" I will."
	" I love you James."
	" I love you too Justin."

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Thats all folks.  Let me know what you think k?  thanks
More of Everyday I Love You More soon
~Elisheva