Date: Tue, 1 Jun 2004 18:36:57 -0700 (PDT)
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Subject: Trial by Tears Chapter 3

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Trial By Tears: Chapter 3

>From Josh's point of view

Finally the funeral was over.  Two days after the funeral and Don was still
rushing around the house taking care of everyone but himself.  Donny was
being cared for, Justin and Brian was being cared for.  Liz, Don's sister
was being cared for.  The last of the relatives were dropped off at the
airport and were safely home.  In fact everyone was taken care of with one
exception.  That one exception was Don.  He was still on this ," I have to
take care of everyone and everything before I can take care of myself."
And quite frankly I have had enough.  But the question was how was I going
to make him realize that he had to take time to morn the passing of his
mother.

"Josh?" Don's voice interupted my thoughts.  I jerked my head up and looked
up at him.  His red rimmed eyes gazed down at me.  I could see that he was
so tired.  My heart ached for him.  I wanted to take him in my arms and
make it all better for him.  But I knew that wasn't going to happen yet.
"When are you heading back?"  Note, he said you heading back, not we.  I
frowned as I stood up and walked up to him and wrapped my arms around him
and kissed him lightly on the lips.

"Don't you mean we?" I asked in a mildly scolding voice.

"I still have a lot of stuff that has to be done around here," Don said
looking around the victorian style house.  "The house goes on the market in
a couple of days and I have to get it empty."

"Than I am not leaving until you are ready to come home," I said bluntly.
He opened his mouth to argue but I wouldn't let him.  "No Don," I said
sternly.  "I'm staying here and helping.  You need me, and Donny needs me.
Not to mention the fact that you shouldn't be doing this all alone.  Like
it or not you are stuck with me."  I could tell that he was not happy about
me hanging around.  That disturbed me.  We were supposed to be lovers and
ready to handle anything.

"But your cd you just released," Don continued to argue with me.

"Fuck the cd!" I snapped at him.  "I love you dammit!  You need me right
now!"  Don nodded quietly and allowed me to hug him again but I could tell
that his heart wasn't in it.  Something wasn't right.  Don was withdrawing
from me.  I had to stop him from withdrawing further but the problem was
how was I going to do that?

"Ummm I have to meet with the realitor," Don mumbled.

"I'll stay here with Donny," I offered.  He just nodded as he rushed out of
the house.  I heard the car start up and pull out of the drive way.  I
turned to see Justin standing there with a concerned look on his face.  "I
don't know how long he can go on like this."

"My advice to you is this," Justin said sadly.  "Let him crash.  Just make
sure that he is in your arms when he does crash.  I would love to stay and
help but Brian has to get back to the studio and I have to get ready to
start work on my next cd."

"Thanks for staying as long as you did," I said smiling softly.  "Make sure
you say good bye to Donny before going."

"Of course!" Justin said grinning.  "I have to say see you later to my
little buddy!"  With that he turned and left the room leaving me alone in
the large living room.  I sat down in a stiff back arm chair and sighed.  I
heard someone walk in and saw that it was Danny.

"Is Don around?" he asked looking around.

"He just left to meet with the realitor," I replied.  "I don't when to
expect him back."

"I need him," Danny said sadly.  For some reason that made me angry.

"Doesn't everyone!" I snapped.  "Everyone needs Don everyone but himself.
Tell me something Danny.  Just how long do you think he can go on
pretending that nothing is wrong and keep taking care of everyone but
himself before he cracks?"

"And don't you think I have tried to get him to open up and let himself
morn the death of mom?" Danny snapped right back at me.

"I don't know what the hell to think!" I snapped back.  "All I know is
this!  Don is not letting anything out!  He has turned into this really
strange person that I don't even know and I don't know what to do about
it!"

"You have to give him time," Danny said softly.  "He was this way when Dad
passed away.  At some point he will crash and than he will mourn.  You just
have to be patient and let him do it on his own time."

"So I am supposed to just sit here and wait until he snaps?" I asked still
upset.  "I can't do that."

"If you try and force him to morn the death of mom he will resent you for
it," Danny warned me.  "Now if you will excuse me I have to catch the next
plain back to Florida.  Chris gets out of the hospital today and I have to
pick up Trixy and Spot at the kennel tonight."

"Fine," I muttered.  "Don and Donny and I will catch you later."  I vaguely
remembered hearing the door shut and soon I was alone in this huge old
victorian style home.  Well not actually alone.  Donny was still here.
Speaking of which I should go and find him.  I found him in Don's old room
playing with a model plane.  I guess it was Don's when he was a teen ager.

"Hey," I said softly to Donny.  He jerked his head up in a guilty
expression.  I guess he thought that maybe he shouldn't be here playing
with Don's models.  "Having fun?"  Donny shrugged his shoulders and looked
down.  I sat down on the bed and patted it.  Donny shuffled over to it and
sat next to me.  He still had the model plane in his hand.  "How you doing
buddy?"

"I miss her," Donny said with his little lips forming a small frown.

"I know you do Donny," I said as I wrapped my arm around his small
shoulders.  He snuggled closer to me.  "Do you want to talk about it?"  He
shrugged his shoulders again.  "Well I'm here if you need to talk about
it."

"I don't like it when people die," Donny muttered.  I smiled softly at him.
"Well I don't!" he repeated with a frown on his face.  "Nobody had better
die anymore!"

"Well I hope that nobody dies anymore," I said softly kissing the top of
his head.  "But whether someone dies or not is up for us to decide."

"I know," Donny said in a small voice.  "But I still don't like it!"

"I know you don't sweetie," I smiled down at his messed up hair.  "So what
do you want to do?"

"Where is daddy?" Donny asked loooking up at me with those incredible eyes
of his.

"Your daddy had to go talk to a man about selling your grand ma's house," I
replied.  I heard the door slam and I jumped at the sudden sound.  That
meant only one thing.  Don was home.  "Your daddy is home." That was all I
needed to say.  Donny was out the door and running through the house
looking for Don.  I sighed and got up and followed the hyper four year old.
I walked into the living room and spotted Don looking out the window.  "Hey
sexy," I said softly.  "Did it go well at the realitors?"

"The house is already sold," he sighed.

"Really?" I asked.  This was good news.  That meant that nothing held us
here anymore.  We could go home.  "Did you get what you wanted out of it?"

"More than what I was asking for it.  Almost twice as much," he looked at
me with an accusing look in his eyes.  "I have to wonder."

"Wonder what?" I asked looking confused.

"Did you buy the house?" Don asked frowning.

"Why would I buy this house?" I asked really confused now.  "I have enough
property and I don't need any more."

"You would've bought to get me to come home with you," Don replied bluntly.

"The thought never crossed my mind.  But it is a good idea now that you
mentioned it," I replied with some anger in my voice.  "But for your
information I didn't buy this house.  It is not my style and I don't need
another house.  Now why don't you tell me what is really wrong with you."

"Nothing is wrong with me!" Don snapped glaring at me.

"Fine," I muttered as I stood up and stomped out of the room.  I was hoping
beyond hope that he would call me back.  But he didn't.  He just started to
pack.  And that was the way it was for the next three days.  He didn't talk
to me much.  Hell he didn't even talk to Donny much.  He just kept real
quiet and packed.  I was so relieved when we boarded the plane and even
more relieved when we walked back into our house.  Trixy and Spot were
jumping all over Donny and it was so good to hear Donny's giggles and the
pups barks and whimpers.  Don was still quiet but I could tell he was glad
to be home.

"I'm ummm going to ummm go check in with Justin," Don stammered as he made
a hasty retreat into his office.  I shook my head and stomped off to my
office too.  I picked up my cell phone and quickly called Justin.

"Justin here," Justin's cheerful voice came over the phone.

"Hey Justin," I sighed.

"Hey," Justin replied.  "You guys get back?"

"Yea we just got in," I replied.  "Ummmm Don is getting ready to call you."

"If I know him he wants to get back to work," Justin sighed.  "Well what do
you want me to do?"

"Stall him!" I whispered loudly.  "Justin he is not ready to go back to
work.  He is exhausted!  He hasn't taken any time for himself.  Not to
mention the fact that he hasn't shed one tear for his mother!"

"Ok," Justin replied.  "I'll stall him.  I'm on my way over now.  When I
say go you take Don to a hotel and work on him."

"Work on him?" I yelped back confused as hell.  "What is that supposed to
mean?"

"You know something Josh?" Justin said with a sigh.  "You can really dense
some times.  What it means is that you take Don to a really nice plush
hotel and spoil him rotten and don't leave that hotel until he has started
to come to grips with his mother's death."

"What about Donny?" I asked.

"I'll take care of Donny," Justin sighed again.  "You just get ready to
take Don to that hotel!"

>From Danny's point of view.

"Hey," I said looking at Chris.  Chris was out of the hospital now that all
of his tests were done.  I hated leaving him all alone but he insisted that
I go to mom's funeral.  He was sitting behind his desk at work and he
looked so hot.  "I missed you."

"I missed you too," Chris replied.  "You doing anything tonight?"

"Spending it with you I hope," I replied hopefully.

"Sounds really good," Chris replied with that really shy and sexy grin of
his.  "How was your mother's funeral?"

"It was nice," I replied feeling the tears start to flow again.  Chris
wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him.  "I thought I was
done with this," I sniffled.

"No sweetie," Chris said softly as he kissed me lightly on the lips.  "It's
going to take some time.  How is Don doing?"

"He is not morning mom's death yet.  He is still in his "I have to help
everyone" mood," I replied.  "I'm starting to get worried about him."

"Is Josh with him?" Chris asked still holding me.  I had to admit that it
felt really good being held by him.

"Yea Josh is starting to get worried too.  I'm worried that he is going to
try something to get Don to cry for mom," I replied.

"Maybe that is what he needs," Chris replied.  "When Dad died I didn't morn
his death for almost a month.  Than when I was in school one day it hit me.
It was close to graduation and I realized that Dad wasn't going to be
there.  I lost it in government class.  Thankfully the class was real
understanding about it.  I was a mess for the rest of the week."

"I whish I had known you back then," I said wistfully.  "I hate the thought
of you crying."

"Well it happens sweetie," Chris said with a small sad smile.  "A lot more
now."

"I know," I replied as I placed my fore head on his.  "I want to make all
of your pain go away."  He leaned forward and kissed me on the lips.  I
whimpered softly and allowed my self to be drawn in by his skillful lips.
Finally after a few minutes of intense kissing we reluctantly broke away.
It was the need for air.  Damn the air!  I wanted to stay attatched to him
forever.  He smiled shyly and looked down.  "So you want to umm go home
now?" I asked.  I was really looking forward to spending the night with
Chris.  I wanted to cook him dinner and spoil the heck out of him.  "I
wanna cook dinner for you."

"You can cook?" Chris asked grinning at me.

"You bet I can!" I beamed eagerly at him.

"So umm what do you want to cook?" Chris asked as he started to shut down
his computer.

"Uh uhh," I giggled at him.

"What?" he asked trying to act all innocent.

"It's a secret!" I said giving him my naughty look.

"Eww I love secrets!" he snickered.  "Come on let's go."  I took his hand
and together we walked out of his office.  This was going to be great
night.

>From Don's point of view.

I missed mom so much that it threatened to over whelm me.  I knew that I
needed to let it out.  But I didn't dare let it out in front of Josh.  He
was so strong and so together.  I didn't want him to think I was nuts when
I finally did loose it.  But earlier, three days ago when Josh took me in
his arms I almost lost it.  The love and concern that he felt for me almost
sent me over the edge.  I knew that I needed to morn her death.  But not
infront of Josh.  "Don?" Josh's voice startled me.  I glanced up.  "Ummm
Justin is here."

"Good," I said putting up my brave front.  "Maybe I can get back to work."
I walked out of my office and into the living room.  I smiled as I heard
the laughter of Donny and Justin.  I walked in the room in time to see
Justin putting Donny back down on the floor.  Donny's face was all flushed
with laughter.  "Hey Boss," I said with a bright smile.  Justin frowned at
me.  I realized that I may be able to fool Josh but not Justin.

"Umm we have to talk," Justin said still wearing that frown of his.  "It's
about you returning to work."

"Yea I want to get started as soon as possible," I added to him.

"Not possible," Justin replied bluntly.  "To put as simply as possible Don,
you're exhausted.  You've been going non stop for almost two weeks.  You're
sleeping habits are all messed up.  "You've lost your mother and like or
not you need to take time off to deal with that.  And there is no way in
hell that I am letting you back to work when you are not one hundred
percent."

"I've been dealing," I muttered as I sat down on the sofa.

"Really?" Justin asked as he pushed his point home.  "Buy taking care of
everyone else but yourself?"  I looked around for Josh and didn't see him.
"Don't go looking for Josh, cause he is not here.  This conversation is
about you.  And how you are refusing to take care of yourself."

"I'm fine," I muttered getting up to leave.

"No you're not fine," Justin replied sternly.  "Now sit back down."  I sat
down glaring at him.  "You're going to take the next two weeks off."

"I'm going to go nuts!" I blurted out.  "I have to work!"

"Tough," Justin shot back.  "I'm giving you two weeks off so you can deal
with your mother's death.  You've got people who love you very much.  Donny
is one of them.  I haven't seen you spend hardly any time with him.  And
there is Josh.  When was the last time you two made love?"

"That is none of you--," I started.

"Spare me the none of my business remark," Justin said as he shook his
head.  "Josh is my friend.  Hell! he is my brother.  Therefore that makes
it my business."

"Why are you doing this to me?" I asked glaring hard at Justin.  "Why won't
you just leave me alone?"

"Because I love you," Justin replied.  "And like it or not we are doing
this for your own good."

"We?" I asked.  That was when I felt Josh's hand land on my shoulder.

"Josh," Justin said with a sad smile.  "It is time."

"Time for what?" I blurted out.  Josh took my hand and pulled me up.  "Josh
what are you doing?"

"We're going out," Josh replied sadly.  "We're going to be gone for a few
days."

"What about Donny?" I asked looking around for my son.

"I'll take care of him," Justin replied.  I felt like I was being herded
out of my house.  The urge to fight was fading.  Josh was walking beside me
and the feelings of safety and love was overwhelming.  "You go with Josh
and rest.  When you come back than we can talk about your job."

"I'm not ready," I said softly as the tears threatened to spill out.  "Not
now."

"Yes sweetie," Josh replied with tears flowing down his angelic face.  "It
is time."

"For what?" I asked my bottom lip trembling.

"To cry for your mom," Josh said simply.

"No!" I said stubbornly.  "I'm not ready!"

"Well than get ready," Josh said simply as he helped me into the car.  I
got mad because I didn't want to do this.  I wasn't going to break down in
front of Josh.  I sat in silence during the entire ride to the hotel.  When
Josh signed us in we rode up in the elevator I was remained silent.  Josh
seemed content to allow me to give him the silent treatment.  As soon as we
got upstairs I noticed that it was a suite.  I walked into the nearest
bedroom and closed the door and locked it.

>From Josh's point of view.

"Don open the door!" I shouted as I pounded on it.

"Go away!" Don shouted back.  "I don't want to do this right now.  I'm not
ready!"

"Fine!" I shouted back as I stomped over to the couch and sat down.  "Two
can play this game!" I grumbled to myself.  Silence racked the suite as I
sat and wondered how I was going to make this work.  Finally I heard the
door open.  I looked up and saw him standing there.  "I thought you wanted
to be alone?" I asked.

"I wanted to ummm well umm--," he started.  Than it happened.  His voice
started to tremble and the first tear flowed down his angelic face.  It
wasn't long before he was in my arms sobbing into my chest.  I started to
cry too.  I cried for his pain and for Donny's and mine.  I really don't
remember just how long it was that we stood there in eachother's arms.  But
finally he looked up at me.  I could see the hurt pain sorrow and fear in
his eyes.

"I want to make it better for you love," I whispered kissing his forehead.
"Will you let me?"

"I don't know where to begin," he said softly laying his forehead against
mine.  "I'm so lost with out her."

"She was your one constant in your life?" I asked.  He nodded and sniffled
loudly.

"From the moment I was born, actually from the moment I was concieved she
was my one constant.  I always had her with me.  I could always go to her
and I knew she would always be there," he said as he sat down pulling me
with him.  "Now she is gone."  He sounded so lost that my heart went out ot
him.

"Can I be your constant?" I asked as I brushed some damp hair away from his
face.  He looked up at me and for the first time I saw a real smile cross
his angelic face.  "What?" I asked grinning innocently.  "I'm being
serious."

"I know you are sweetie," Don replied laying his head on my shoulder.  "And
yes," he said looking up at me again.

"Yes to what?" I asked.

"Yes you can be my constant," he replied.  I noticed that a far away look
crossed his eyes.

"Whacha thinking about?" I asked as I kissed his lips again.

"How far we have gone to get to where we are," he replied.  "I love you."
I nodded and was shocked to see his tears again.  "I'm so sorry," he
whimpered as he clung to me.

"Sorry for what love?" I asked holding him tighter.

"For the way I've been acting," he sniffled.  "I've been a horrible boy
friend."  More tears flowed down his face.  I gently and lovingly wiped
them free.

"No you haven't," I smiled lovingly down at him.  "You were just hurting
and didn't know how to deal with it."

"You forgive me?" he asked looking up at me with those incredible eyes of
his.

"Of course I forgive you sweetie," I said as I pressed my lips to his
again.  Only problem was that he yawned widely.  He blushed and looked
down.

"Sorry," he mumbled.

"No need to be sorry love," I smiled down at him.  "You're tired and right
now I am going to put you to bed."

"Will you ummm come too?" Don asked suddenly shy.

"Of course I will," I said.  "I have to call Justin first.  He is so
worried about you."

"I'm so sorry for causing all of this trouble," he said as new tears flowed
down his tried face.

"No more apologising," I whispered.  "Now get in that room and take off all
of your clothes."

"Sex?" Don asked grinning.

"No sweetie," I replied.  "I want to hold you naked.  I don't want anything
between us when we go to sleep."  Don blushed when I gazed down at him with
a look of pure lust.  Yea I wanted to make love to him but I knew he was
tired and needed sleep.  But I did promise myself to make love to him later
this evening.  I watched him walk into the bedroom again and leave the door
open.  I laughed when I saw the flurry of activity as pieces of clothes
flew around the room.  I picked up my cell and dialed the house.

"Justin here!" a cheerful voice sounded.  I could hear Donny's high pitch
giggles in the back ground.

"Hey," I said grinning.

"JC!" Justin exclaimed.  I could hear Donny winning to talk to me.  "Hold
on some one wants to talk to you.

"Daddy Josh!" Donny's voice shouted in my ear.  "I miss you!"

"We've only been gone for a little while buddy," I giggled.

"I still miss you!" Donny said.  I could almost see the pout on his face.

"We'll be home in a few days.  Let me talk to Justin," I said softly.

"So how is he?" Justin's concerned voice sounded in my ear.

"He is finally crying," I said as a tear flowed down my face.

"Thank God," Justin breathed.  "What are you two doing now?"

"Right now we are going to take a nice long nap," I said.

"Good," Justin replied.  "Give me a call if you two need anything."

"I will," I said.  "And Justin?"

"Yea yea I know," Justin said.  I could almost see the blush on his face.
"You two are very important to me."

"Gotta go," I said as tears threatened to over come me again.  I clicked
off the phone and laid it down on the table and walked into the room.
There he was laying on the bed with out a stitch on.  He was nestled in bed
with his head on the pillow.  His entire body exposed for me to see.  His
soft snores made me smile.  I quickly disrobed and slid into bed and pulled
the sheets and comforters over our naked frames.  The minute my flesh came
in contact with his he clung to me.  He whimpered softly in his sleep as he
wrapped himself around me.  I kissed his forehead and closed my eyes and
allowed sleep to finally creep over me.

>From Danny's point of view.

"Dinner's served!" I called out.  I shivered with desire as I watched him
walk into the kitchen.  "Hey beautiful," I whispered softly.

"Hey," he replied blushing.

"I hope you like pasta," I said pointing at the two steaming plates.  "I
also found some garlic bread and some stuff for a salad too."

"It looks delicious," Chris sighed as he sat down.

"Well looks and tastes are completely different," I replied.  Chris rose a
fork to his lips and took a bite.

"Delicious," he said nodding his approval.  Once I had his approval I too
dug into my plate and soon we were enjoying a quiet evening together eating
our dinner together.  After dinner was done and dishes washed and dried we
found ourselves snuggled up on the couch watching the fire place.

"I missed you," I said softly as I planted a soft kiss on his cheek.  He
leaned into my touch and shivered with delight.

"I was so worried about you," Chris mumbled as he snuggled closer to me.
"I know what it is like to loose your mother."

"It was so sudden," I said sadly.  "I'm more worried about Don."

"Why?" Chris asked looking at me with his eyes full of love and concern.

"Because Don is taking mom's death the hardest.  And he is not letting it
show," I sighed.  "When he finally opens up and finally morns mom's death I
hope that Josh is with him."

"Can you help him?" Chris asked.  He was still looking up at me with those
incredible blue eyes of his.  I could feel the love from him.

"I want to," I replied.  "Just that he doesn't open up to well with me."

"How about Josh?" Chris asked.

"Oh he is being stubborn about him.  He doesn't want to show any weakness
towards Josh," I grumbled.  "I mean Josh is his lover.  Josh would do
anything for him.  Don is just being stubborn.  He should let Josh help
him."  We lapsed into a nice quiet period.  Every once in a while Chris
would lean down and kiss me on the lips.  I was getting really horny but I
knew I couldn't do anything about.

"You're hard," Chris whispered as he felt my crotch.

"I'll be fine," I whispered back.

"Let me take care of you?" Chris asked licking his lips.

"But what about--," I started only to have his finger press up against my
lips.

"You would be surprised what I can do," Chris replied with a very naughty
glint in his eyes.  Oh yea Chris could do naughty very well.  I vaguely
remembered my zipper being lowered.  That was the last sane thought I had
for the remainder of the night.

Later from Don's point of view.

I woke to find that I was surrounded by this feeling of warmth and complete
comfort.  I looked around to find myself surrounded by comforters and a
very attractive lightly tanned Josh in bed with me.  He was wrapped around
me sleeping soundly.  I snuggled closer to him and laid my head on his
chest and listened to his slow and steady beat of his heart.  I was still
sad about mom dying but atleast I didn't have this over whelming desire to
keep everything in.  I kissed Josh lightly on the chest and was so tempted
to slip his nipple into my mouth.  But I knew he needed his sleep.  Josh
was so worried about me.  I also noticed that a certain part of his anatomy
was poking me.  I looked under the comforter and silk sheets and saw that
he was rock hard.  I wanted to relieve him so bad.  I looked up at his
angelic features as he slept.  Sighing heavily I slid from his grasp and
padded out into the living room.  I choose to go naked.  It felt good not
having anything on me.  I saw the huge over stuffed sofa and I walked over
to it and sank into it.  It was so comfortable.  I pulled the throw on the
back so that it covered my waist.  I laid back against the over stuff
pillows and soon sound myself drifting off to sleep again.  "Don?" a sleepy
voice startled me back awake.  I opened my eyes and saw him standing there.
"I woke and found you gone," Josh said.  "I was worried about you."

"I was awake and didn't want to wake you," I said as I stretched.  I
watched as he strolled across the room and sat next to me and laid his head
on my shoulder.  I looked down to see that he was still hard.

"You're hard," I said softly as I took hold of it.  I shivered with lust as
I wrapped my hands around his rock hard cock.  He moaned softly.  "I missed
this," I whispered as I stroked it a few times until I got a whimper from
him.  "You know what I else I missed?"

"Umm I'm sure you're going to tell me," Josh gasped out.

"This," I said as I engulfed the head of his cock.  The feeling of his rock
hard cock slid into my mouth sent waves of pleasure through me.  The taste
of him brought back so many memories.  I closed my eyes and allowed his
entire eight inches to fill my mouth and throat.  I moaned around him and
relished the taste of his precome as it coated the inside of my mouth.

"Don," Josh gasped out.

"Yes love?" I asked giving him my naughty grin.

"Don't tease me," he whimpered.

"Ok," I giggled softly.  "I won't."  I was true to my word as I worked so
hard to bring to the brink.  Josh stopped me after about fifteen minutes.
I looked up at him pouting.

"I want to be in you," he said huskily.  I turned over on my back and
spread my legs.  I felt him slid into me and I whimpered from the pain.  It
had been so long since he had last made love to me.  His face clouded over
with concern.  "I'm hurting you."

"Don't pull out," I ordered him.  "The pain will pass."  He laid down on
top of me and captured my lips in his.  I allowed him to kiss me breathless
as you usually did.  It felt so good to be in his arms again with him in
complete control of my body.  Finally I was ready.  I moaned softly and
moved just enough to give him the message. I was finally where I needed to
be.  Making love to Josh.  I was his and his alone.  Maybe just maybe we
could get through this period in our lives.

Later

"So you feeling better?" Josh asked with a smile on his face.  I groaned as
I pushed a plate away.  "Did you eat to much?"

"Yea I think I did," I groaned again.  "Why didn't you stop me?" I asked
with a small pout.

"You looked like you were enjoying yourself," Josh giggled.  "And besides I
love to see you smile."

"Thank you," I said as my eyes got misty.

"For what?" Josh asked taking a hold of my hand.  I shivered with delight
at his gentle touch.  He brought my hand to his lips and graced it with
another gentle kiss.

"For making me do this," I replied.  "I know now that I needed to do this."

"I was so worried about you," Josh said wiht worry lines on his brow.
"Don't do that again."

"Do what again?" I asked confused.

"Try to take on the world all by yourself," Josh replied with a pout of his
own.  "I love you and we are supposed to be a team."

"I didn't want you to see me like this," I whispered looking down and
blushing with shame.

"Why?" Josh asked.  I looked up and shuddered with desire when I saw the
love and devotion pouring out of his eyes.  "Don't you know by now that I
love you Donny Smith?"

"I love you too," I replied grabbing on to his hand.  "I'm sorry I didn't
have the strength to be do this."

"I'll forgive you this time," Josh replied.  At this time the phone rang.
We both jumped and laughed.  "Let me get that," Josh said as he picked up
the reciever.  "Josh here," he said softly.

"Daddy Josh!" Donny's voice exclaimed.  Josh cringed from the loudness of
it.  "I wanna talk to daddy!"

"Ok buddy," Josh laughed as he handed off the phone to me.

"Hey kiddo!" I said cheerfully into the reciever.

"Daddy!" Donny's voice exclaimed at me too.  "I miss you!"

"I miss you too," I replied grinning.  "Are you being a good boy?"

"Uncle Justin took me shopping!" Donny said in his usual hyper voice.  "We
got new clothes!"

"Oh really?" I asked raising my eyebrows.  "And what is wrong with the
clothes you have now?"

"They're not cool!" Donny said matter of factly.  "Uncle Justin says I'm
fly now!"  By now I was laughing.  Josh looked at me confused.  "When are
you coming home?"  I could almost see the pout on his face.

"In a day or so," I replied.  "Can you put Justin on the phone for me?"

"Ok Daddy!  I love you Daddy," Donny shouted as he handed the phone to
Justin.

"Hey," Justin's voice sounded over the reciever.

"So my son is now fly?" I asked winking at Josh.  Josh caught on and
started to giggle.

"Yea I umm got him some new clothes and stuff," Justin said.  "I hope you
don't mind."

"No Justin I don't mind at all," I said shaking my head.  My son was going
to become a fasion bug if Justin had anything to do with it.  "How much did
you spend on him?"

"Ummm you don't want to know," Justin said softly.  I could almost see the
cringe on his face.

"Juuustinnnnn?" I prodded.

"Well he looked so cute in them!" Justin deffended himself.

"How much?" I demanded.

"Three grand," Justin squeaked out.

"Three thousand dollars!" I yelped out.  "What did you buy him?"

"Clothes and stuff," Justin mumbled out.

"What kind of stuff?" I asked.  I really didn't mind that Justin bought
Donny some stuff.  I was enjoying grilling Justin about it though.  Josh
knew it too and gave me a scolding look.

"Some new toys and shoes and styled his hair," Justin finally admitted.

"What was wrong with his hair?" I yelped out. "And please tell me you
didn't pierce his ear!"

"No I didn't do that," Justin spoke up quickly.  "He wanted to though."

"Oh really?" I asked grinning.  "Well maybe I'll take him in one day so he
can get it done."

"So you're really not mad at me?" Justin asked.

"Justin," I sighed.  "Of course I'm not mad.  I know you love him like a
uncle.  And Donny loves you like crazy too."

"Thanks Don," Justin said cheerfully.  "How are you doing?"

"I'm doing much better now," I said grinning over at Josh.  He blushed and
looked down.  I giggled loudly.

"You got laid!" Justin said in an accusing tone of voice.  I busted up
laughing.

"You say that like it is a bad thing," I snickered.

"I didn't mean it that way," Justin said sheepishly.  "I'm glad you are
doing batter."

"Thank you Justin," I said softly.

"For what?" Justin asked.  I could almost see the confusion on his face.

"For being stubborn and not letting me get swallowed up by this thing," I
said as a tear rolled down my cheek.  "You've been a huge help to me."

"You are my friend, and not to mention a huge part of Josh's life.  And one
hell of a PA," Justin replied.  "Now I gotta go and feed Donny his dinner."

"What are you feeding him?" I asked.

"I'm fixing a chicken dish," Justin said.

"Wow!" I exclaimed.  "Justin can cook?"

"Yes I can cook!" Justin retorted.  I could almost see the pout on his
face.  I laughed and Josh joined in.  "Hey! stop picking on me!"

"Ok," I snickered.  "I'm sorry.  Give Donny a big hug and kiss from his
daddies for us."

"Ok I will," Justin replied.  "Good night Don."  There was a click on the
phone and I turned it off and laid it on the table.

"Come here," Josh's voice drifted over me.  I looked over my shoulder to
see that he was laying on a pile of furs infront of the fireplace.  I also
noticed that he wasn't wearing a stitch of clothes.  He wasn't hard but he
looked very comfortable.

"What do you think you are doing?" I asked as I stood up and slid off my
robe.

"I think I am going to hold you all night long right here in front of this
fireplace.  And maybe make love to you some time tonight.  That is of
course if that is all right with you," Josh replied licking his bottom lip.

"Oh I think it is more than ok with me," I replied as I sank down into the
very soft confines of the furs.  Josh picked up a remote and pushed a
button and soft music flowed out from hidden speakers.  I leaned back and
allow Josh's arms to encircle me.

"You comfortable?" Josh asked as his lips graced my bare shoulders.

"Very," I moaned.

"Good," Josh replied very pleased with himself.  "Before tonight is over
you are going to be very very comfortable."  I could feel him getting hard
as his cock pressed up against my back.

"You're horny again," I looked up at him.  I could see the lust in his
eyes.  "So tell me something."  Josh nodded for me to continue.  "Is school
back in session and should I get ready for a lesson?"

"Oh you are so mean!" Josh laughed out.  I turned over so that I was facing
him.  His nipples looked so yummy that I couldn't resist slipping one of
them into my mouth and sucking on it.

"But I want a lesson really really bad," I said looking up at him giving
him by best puppy dog eyes.  "Please teacher?  Can I have my lesson now?"
Josh groaned loudly as he turned me over so that he was laying on top of
me.  His rock hard cock stabbed me in the abs.  "Oh my," I giggled as I
looked down at his rock hard chest and abs and his cock head pointing right
up at me.  "He looks yummy."

"Well he wants some attention," Josh purred.  "You want to give him some?"
He sat up and scooted up so that he was resting on my chest with his cock
pointing right at my mouth.  I opened my mouth and tilted my head back and
he slid his cock into my waiting mouth.  I moaned loudly and shivered as
the length of his cock filled my mouth and throat.  I swallowed as the head
slid past my gag reflex.  Soon his entire length was buried in my mouth and
down my throat.  Josh let out a whimper as a huge drop of precome flowed
down my throat.  "God that feels so good."  I growled impatiently and he
giggled down at me.  "You want something?"  I whimpered and he finally took
mercy on me and pulled out and slid back in.  He settled into a nice slow
steady rythm as he slowly made love to me.  I loved watching his abs flex
and relax.  I tuned into his moans and whimpers and his love talk as he
slowly brought himself to orgasm.  Finally he let out a series of yelps and
he pulled out and rested the head of his cock on my tongue and uloaded his
cum into my mouth.  I moaned around his very tender cock head and sucked
down the cum.  The taste of him almost sent me into orgasm myself but I
mannaged to stop myself.  I had other plans for my Josh.  Finally I
tenderly licked him clean and he laid down beside me.  "How was that for a
lesson?" he smirked down at me with his usual naughty look on his face.

"Now what about me?" I asked returning the naughty look.  He smiled as he
sat back up and strattled me.  He than reached behind him and gently but
firmly lifted my cock up and slowly impaled himself on it.  I was
surrounded by him and he was so tight and it felt so good.  I had to resist
thrusting in hard.  I watched his face as his face contorted just a little.
"Are you sure?" I asked reaching up and wiping away a tear from his face.

"I want you to make love to me," he whispered as he rose up and lowered
himself on me again.  I moaned softly from the incredible feeling.  I knew
tonight was going to be a long night.

The next morning from Josh's point of view.

I woke to the most beautiful sight in this world.  My lover snuggled in bed
next to me with the most peaceful expression on his face.  We had stayed up
for most of the night rediscovering ourselves.  We held each other, made
love to eachother, danced and listened to music.  We cried some more and
laughed and made love again.  Finally I carried him to bed and laid him on
the soft confines of the matteras and snuggled up beside him.  He clung to
me like usual and drifted off to a peaceful slumber.  I stayed awake for
another hour and watched him sleep.  I watched as he dreamed about his
mother passing.  I kissed his tears away and told him that everything would
be all right.  At some point I fell asleep as well.  Something had woke me
up.  Don whimpered softly as a tear flowed out of his closed eyes.  I wiped
it free and kissed his fore head.  "I love you," I whispered to him.  "I'm
not going any where."  That seemed to calm him down.  The knocking sounded
again.  That was what woke me up.  I swung out of bed and walked to the
door.  "Who is it?" I called out.

"Daddy Josh!" Donny's hyper voice.  I quickly pulled the door open and saw
Donny standing there with Justin.  Justin wore a very apologetic look on
his face.  "I missed you!" Donny exclaimed again as he wrapped his arms
around my leg.  "Where is daddy?"

"He is asleep buddy," I smiled down at him.  "He was up really late last
night."

"I wanna see him," Donny said as he gazed earnestly up at me.

"When he gets up you can see him," I smiled down at him as I remembered
that Don didn't have any clothes on.  "Hey Justin."

"Hey," Justin replied.  "Sorry about this but Donny can be pretty stubborn
when he makes up his mind."

"Yea he takes after his daddy," I smiled foundly down at the four year old.
That was when I noticed that Donny did indeed look different.  "Nice hair
Uncle Justin," I smirked at Justin.

"Hey!" Justin replied with a shy grin.  "Can't have my nephew looking
normal now can it?  I mean he is one hot little dude!"  I just laughed as I
showed them in.

"You guys had breakfast yet?" I asked as I fell into host mode.

"Nope," Justin said grinning at Donny as he ran around the suite looking at
everything.

"I'll order room service," I replied slipping into our bedroom.  I crept
over to Don and frowned as I saw his eyes open and the tears flowing.
"Baby?" I asked softly.

"I miss her so much Josh," he sobbed out.  "Why?"  He looked at me with
such sorrow in his eyes that it litterly tore my heart in too.  "Why did
she have to leave me?  Why does everyone I love leave me?"

"Baby," I said as a tear flowed down my face.  "I'm not going any where.  I
love you sweetie and I'm not leaving."

"I want my mom back," he sobbed.  By now he was sitting up in bed and he
fell into my arms.  I wrapped my arms around him and held him close.  I
looked up and shook my head sadly.  There in the doorway was Justin holding
Donny.  Donny was staring at us with his large frightened eyes.  He was
seeing a side of his daddy that he had never seen before.  Justin quickly
walked out of the doorway with Donny.  By now Don had stopped crying and I
realized that he was asleep.  I worked quickly to slid some boxers on him
and a pair of pajama bottoms before kissing him on the cheek.

"I love you Don," I sighed sadly as I closed the door behind me.

"Well at least he is morning the death of his mom," Justin said softly
laying a hand on my shoulder.  "I'm sorry that Donny saw that.  I tried to
stop him from going in there."

"It's all right," I mumbled softly.  "He has to understand that grown ups
cry too.  Where is he?"  Justin pointed at the couch.  Donny was sitting
there looking at the tv with tears flowing down his face.  "This is not
going to be easy is it?"

"Do it is not," Justin sighed.  "But they are very lucky to have you."

"They're lucky to have us both," I smiled at Justin as I walked over to
Donny.  The minute I sat down he was in my arms crying his heart out.
"You're right Justin," I said sadly.  "They are lucky to have us both."

TBC