Date: Tue, 20 Feb 2001 23:57:23 -0500
From: Jessica Taylor <midnight_violet18@hotmail.com>
Subject: Picking Up The Pieces 11

Author's notes-- Umm this is the second chapter for you people.  Actual
notes are in chapter 10.

Disclaimer-- Not mine god damn it!!

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Chapter 11

	Who the hell is Kyle?
	Suddenly a hand clamped down on my shoulder and I almost jumped a
foot in the air.  "Chill Nick, it's just me." I heard AJ's raspy voice say.
	I turned around to see AJ, Howie and Brian all looking at me.
"What happened in there?" AJ continued.
	"I don't know.  One second I'm telling Kev how I feel, the next he
starts mumbling something about a 'Kyle' and him not wanting to hurt me
like he did him.  And then he ran away." I said as I sighed heavily and ran
a hand through my hair.
	"Did you see where he went?" Howie asked.
	"Nope.  And with the way he was running, he could be anywhere by
now."  I said as I sighed again and collapsed into an armchair.
	"We've gotta find him." Brian said urgently.  I was about to bite
back with a 'duh' but I figured that now wasn't really the place for it.
"The best thing to do would be to search the hotel and the surrounding
area."  He planned out loud.
	"Howie and I 'ill go around the area and try to find him." AJ said
as he and Howie left the suite.
	"I guess that leaves you and me to search the hotel Frack." Brian
said as I got up from the armchair.  "You search down and I'll search up."
Brian said as we both separated to try and find Kevin before he did god
knows what to himself.

**********

	Brian was down on the 30th floor, where the gym and pool were
located thinking that Kevin might have ran into the gym.  Frequently Kevin
was known for running into the gym and working into exhaustion when he had
a problem.  But Kevin wasn't in either the gym or the pool area.
	As Brian walked over to the elevator, he passed the door for the
stairwell.  He aimlessly looked through the little window that was in the
door, and could swear that he thought he saw what looked like the Kevin
hunched over in the landing.  Quietly opening the door, he saw that it was
in fact Kevin.
	Kevin was sitting down in the corner of the landing, tucked into
himself like a ball.  His long legs were enclosed by his arms, and his head
was bowed down.  As Brian stood there for a few minutes, he noticed that
Kevin was constantly rocking back and forth.
	"Kev?" Brian asked finally, breaking the deafening silence in the
stairwell. But Kevin gave no response.
	Brian slowly walked over to Kevin's crouched form and tried to talk
to his cousin again.  "Kevin?" he asked as he put his hand gently on
Kevin's shoulder.  Kevin continued to rock.
	Brian sat right in front of Kevin.  As he sat down and got closer
to Kevin, he heard Kevin muttering continuously "I'm sorry Kyle... I'm
sorry...  I'm sorry Kyle..."
	Brian just sat there watching his cousin.  He couldn't believe that
this was the same man who was known as the rock of the Backstreet Boys.
Right now he looked so fragile that Brian was afraid that if he touched him
the wrong way or too hard he would shatter into a million pieces and
scatter all over the place.
	Brian took a deep breath and tried to reach his cousin again.
"Kevin, come on, say somethin'." He said as he slightly shook his cousin's
shoulder.
	"Bri?  Is that you?" Kevin said softly, almost too soft for Brian
to hear.
	"Yeah." Brian said.
	Kevin slowly rose his head.  It was a good thing that Brian was
already sitting on the ground; otherwise he would have been knocked down by
Kevin's physical appearance at that moment.  Kevin's eyes were bloodshot
from crying, in fact there were still tears brimming in his eyes.  He had
tear tracks down his face, but the worst part for Brian was to see the look
of helplessness that was clearly present in his cousin's eyes at that
moment.
	"Geez Kev." Brian said, shocked.  "Come on, let's get you back to
the suite.  We don't want to have anyone we don't want to know about this
see you right now." He said as he grabbed Kevin's upper arm and helped him
up.
	Kevin stayed standing just outside the doorframe while Brian made
sure that no one was going in or out of the halls.  Even though the guys
loved their fans, there were certain times that they didn't want to be seen
by them, and this was definitely one of them in Brian's book.
	Brian took Kevin's hand as he ran to the elevator.  Luckily they
didn't have to wait very long for the elevator to reach the 30th floor.
The two Kentucky cousins entered the elevator, and Brian pressed the
emergency stop button, to have some form of privacy while he called the
guys.  Brian took out his cell phone and pressed the second memory button,
calling Howie's cell phone.  "Come on Howie, pick up... pick up..." he
muttered to himself as the phone rang.
	"This is Howie speakin'." Howie's smooth voice came in over the
phone.
	"D?  It's Bri.  I found him." Brian said into the phone.
	"You found Kev?  Is he alright?" Howie asked frantically.  As soon
as Howie had finished his statement Brian heard AJ's muffled voice, and
what was obviously the two of them wrestling over D's cell phone.
	"How's Train?" AJ asked, gaining control of the phone.
	"He's alive.  But otherwise, not so hot." Brian said as he stared
at Kevin's back.  'Whoever this Kyle was, he must have had some big impact
on Kevin.' Brian thought as he saw Kevin standing there, shoulders slumped
surrounded by an air of misery.
	"Yeow."
	"You two just get back to the hotel and the suite." Brian said.
	"Already on our way." AJ said as there was a pause, and Brian
guessed AJ was giving the phone back to Howie.
	"See you in a few Rok." Howie said as he hung up his phone.
	Brian took a deep breath as he pressed the first memory button,
Nick's cell.  "Pick up Frack."
	"Hello?" Nick's slightly frantic voice greeted Brian's.
	"I found him." Brian said.
	Nick let out a large sigh of relief over the phone.  "How is he?"
	Looking into the reflective doors of the elevator, Brian saw Kevin
staring down at the ground looking utterly defeated.  As Brian sighed yet
again at how small and helpless his cousin looked at that moment, he told
Nick, "About to have a mental breakdown I think sums it up pretty well.
Whoever this Kyle is or was, has left a pretty big impact on Kev's psyche."
	As he finished his statement, Brian heard a door open, which was
most likely Nick opening the door to take the stairs up to the suite.  "I'm
coming." He said as Brian heard the faint call of footfalls on concrete.
	As Brian pushed the button to cancel the emergency stop and restart
the elevator's ascent, he told Nick, "Just get your ass back to the suite."
	"Already being done Bri." Nick said quickly.
	"Okay." Brian said as he shut off his phone and placed it in his
pocket.
	Seconds later, the elevator's bell dinged signifying that the
elevator was at the penthouse. Brian sighed, "Come on Kev." He said as he
put his arm around Kevin's shoulders and led an almost catatonic Kevin to
the suite.
	Opening up the door to the suite with the key card, Brian let Kevin
in first, and Kevin mindlessly sat down on the couch.  After he closed the
door, Brian went to sit on the couch right next to his cousin.  He could
still hear Kevin muttering softly, "I'm sorry."
	"Who was Kyle, Train?" Brian asked, but Kevin never heard him.
	A few minutes later, Nick barged into the room, out of breath and
frantically looking for Kevin and Brian. "Frick?  Kev?"
	"Right here Nick." Brian said, his eyes still trained on his
cousin.
	Nick tracked Brian's voice to the couch, and finding the two
cousins sitting there, he ran over, sitting on the other side of Kevin and
immediately hugging him, bringing Kevin's head to rest against Nick's
chest.  Kevin didn't resist Nick's hug at all, letting Nick even start
running his fingers soothingly through Kevin's hair.  "Has he said anything
Bri?" Nick asked as he continued to hold onto Kevin.
	"Nope.  The only thing he does is continue to mutter about Kyle."
	"Damn who was this guy?" Nick whispered softly.
	"Wish I knew Frack, I really wish I did." Brian said as the door
opened violently yet again as AJ and Howie barged in.  They both sat down
in the two chairs in the room, not saying anything but eagerly looking at
their three bandmates on the couch waiting to find out what was going on.
	Nick decided to take the initiative and ask Kevin who this 'Kyle'
person was.  "Kevin?" he said as he gently shook Kevin's shoulder.  "Talk
to me bro."
	For some reason, Nick gently prodding brought Kevin out of his
catatonic state. Kevin looked up into Nick's face as he said, "Yeah?"
	The four other faces in the room let out huge sighs of relief.
"Kevin... who's Kyle?" Nick asked gently as he allowed Kevin to sit up.
	Kevin didn't say anything for a few moments, calming down slightly.
"Kyle Roberts."
	"But that's your alias Kevin.  That's not a real person." AJ
stated.
	"Yes he was." Kevin whispered as he swallowed the large lump in his
throat and continued, "He was the first person I ever loved... and I killed
him."

Dun dun dun.... uh oh what'd she do now?  Oh well you're just gonna have to
wait and see.  Muwahahaha...

--Jess, skipping off into the sunset