Date: Wed, 10 Nov 1999 23:59:59 EST
From: Papito6187@aol.com
Subject: Rob & Lance 32

Wow! I've actually had a chance to write, and look! The next installment's
out in less than a week (I think)! Thank the wonderful gods of time! So,
I'll let you get to reading, ON WITH THE SHOW!

				    XXX

I woke up to the sound of ringing, it sounded like a fax machine. I looked
around Lance's room to find the infernal ringing and make it stop. I looked
by the window and saw it. I climbed out of bed trying not to wake Lance up;
I was successful. I tore the page off the machine and found out it was for
me.

"Whoa, it's for me!" I whispered a little too loudly.

"What is?" Lance said groggily.

"I'm sorry! I woke you!"

"No you didn't, the fax did."

"You sure?"

"Yeah, now what does it say?"

"Hold on..." I said while reading it over, "Oh cool!"

"What?"

"Hold on!" I said going back to reading it, "Yeah man!"

"WHAT?!?"

"Would you calm down? I'm gonna tell you!"

"Then tell me!"

"They're setting up a chat room for me in Cyber Venue and work on my
web-site is finished and should be up by Monday."

"Cool"

"There's more."

"What?"

"My video is debuting on MTV on Friday. The single is at number 5 on this
week's charts, and is expected to climb to number one with the release of
the video."

"Alright! Congratulations!"

"Thank you! Oh, but here's the downfall."

"Let me guess, a lot of promo stuff that has you going everywhere?"

"Yup!"

"How did I know?"

"Well, they said they're gonna send over my schedule in a couple of
minutes." Not two seconds after I said that, the fax was coming through,
"There it is!"

"Bring it over here."

"Hold on."

"Ok."

"Ok, well, Monday I gotta go into the studio and work with my back-up
singers for half of the day, then the other half will be working with my
dancers. Tuesday I have some meetings about touring in the late morning,
then around 3 I'm gonna do an interview at some Orlando radio
station. Wednesday and Thursday I'm in the studio all day. Friday I have a
photo-shoot and interview with Teen People."

"Looks like you're gonna be busy this week."

"Yup."

"Well, before everybody wakes up and we have to go get ready, come here!"

I walked over to him on the bed and he put his hand on my shoulder and
pulled me in for a kiss.

"Ooooh!" I said after we parted, "Goose bumps!"

"I'll show you goose bumps!" He said while pulling my boxers down and
proceeded to stroke my semi hard cock while kissing down my happy trail.

"Oh yeah... that'll... um.. yeah." I said drowning in the pleasure.

As soon as I was rock hard, he started to tease the head of my cock with
his tongue.  When he finally did put his mouth down on it I let out a soft
but intense moan.

<KNOCK><KNOCK><KNOCK>

"Rob! Rob! I REALLY need to talk to you!! Open up!" Melissa said through
the door.

"Can it wait about a half-hour?" I asked looking down at Lance who motioned
with his hand for more time, "An hour I mean?" he gave me a sign that that
was a good time.

"Damn it! Fine!"

"I LOVE YOU!"

"Tell Lance not to choke!"

"SHUT UUUUUUHHHH" I wasn't able to finish my sentence cause Lance had
grabbed my balls and started to play with them while sucking harder on my
cock.

That was just to get my attention. Once he had it, he put his hand on my
ass and started kneading at my cheeks.


Justin was walking through the suite and on his way to Lance's room. He was
about to knock on the door when Melissa said,

"Don't bother, they're `busy'! They're not gonna open the door."

"Shit! I needed to talk to Rob!"

"Me too! Join the club!"

"It's really important too!"

"Mine too!"

"Where's Josh?"

"In the shower."

"What? Is it about him?"

"Yeah.."

"Aaah.."

"Yours about Jay?"

"Yeah.."

"Aaah.."

"How bout you talk to me about yours and I'll talk to you about mine?"

"I'll show you mine if you show me yours!" She said while laughing.

"Ok! That was...."

"Sit down Justin."

"Ok."


As Lance increased his pace on my ever so needing dick, I couldn't help but
start to moan and I grabbed the back of his head and started fucking his
mouth.

"Oh god! YES!" I yelled, but low enough not to be heard outside.

I picked up the pace on fucking his mouth, and he started to finger my ass
with one hand while rubbing my ass cheek with the other. I kept going
faster and faster until,

"UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHH!" I moaned, as I let loose all the
sexual frustration I had since the last time I saw him.

He tried to swallow as much as he could, but wasn't able to get it
all. Some of it dripped out of his mouth and fell on the bed. Spent and
weak, I collapsed on the bed.

"Shower?" Lance asked.

"Yeah, but I think all I can do is shower! I don't have energy for anything
else!"

"Ok, come on, let's go!"



"So you two are in love?!?" Justin asked excitedly.

"Yeah...." Melissa said blushing.

"Oh my god! I'm so happy for you! Congratulations!"

"Thank you!"

"Give me a hug!"

They hugged each other and Melissa asked,

"So what's up with you?"

"Well, I just wanted to ask Rob to convince Jay that he should tell his
parents about him.  Just him now, then later tell them about us."

"Well, don't you think that that's Jay's decision?"

"Yeah, but he's been really stressing about it."

"How?"

"He's been wondering how they would take it. He's really scared and nervous
about it."

"Well, it's not easy!"

"I know.. I know! IT was hell getting the balls to tell my mom!"

"How did your dad take it?"

"Well.. I kinda haven't told him yet.."

"Why not?"

"Well, telling my mom was easy. well, easier than telling my daddy would
be. My mom and I have always had this relationship where I could always
tell her anything and she wouldn't judge me. She would let her feelings be
known about it, but she wouldn't judge me about anything. So even though I
was scared about telling her, I knew she would be ok with it. She even said
that she already knew."

"Then don't you think your father already knows?"

"Well, he probably does, but he's probably trying to convince himself that
because I have all these girls fawning over me that I would change. Some
bullshit like that."

"Well, you really should tell him."

"I know... And once Jay tells his parents, I'll tell my daddy."

"Then you gotta talk to Rob and Jay about this, cause I'm sure they could
give you much better advice, at least Rob could, than I could ever. He's
been through it and he was lucky that his parents and brother were very
understanding. Or talk to Lance. I'm sure he went through the same thing."

"I will, but hey! You've given me great advice!"

"I'm sure Rob or Lance would be better at this situation."

"They'd probably just say the same thing or something similar. Thank
you.. really! I'm glad that I can talk to you. I'm also glad that Josh has
someone as caring and beautiful as you!"

"If you weren't gay, I'd think you were hitting on my girlfriend Curly!" JC
said coming into the living room.

"Hey Joshy! Congrats man!"

"Thanks!"

"Congrats on what?" I asked walking out of Lance's room.

"Well, look who's alive! Did Lance wear you out?!?" Melissa said as I
slowly walked out of the bathroom.

"Shut up! And don't you laugh Curly! Don't make me tell them about
yesterday!"

"What?! I didn't say anything!" Justin said in defense.

"Just making sure!"

"So where's loverboy?" Melissa asked.

"Doin his hair. He wouldn't let me watch. And besides, you said you wanted
to talk to me."

"Oh yeah, it's ok. It can wait till later!"

"You sure?"

"Yeah!"

"Oh no! You dragged me out of there on my day off, so you're gonna come in
this room right now and tell me!"

"Psh... Who are you!??"

"I'm Rob!"

"So?"

"Don't make me...."

"What?"

"Do this!" I said as I grabbed her up of the couch and threw her over my
shoulder.

"AAAHH!! PUT ME DOWN! JOSH HELP ME!"

"You touch her, and you won't have a cute blonde bass in your group
anymore!"

"Sorry babe... we kind of need Lance.." JC said backing away and laughing.

"Oh! OK!! I see how you are! Don't worry, you'll get yours later!"

"That a promise?"

"Oh yeah!"

"I'd be scared if I were you!" I said.

"Oh, I am! I am!"

I carried her into the room and threw her on the bed.

"Ok, now what?"

"That was fun! Let's do it again!"

"Idiot! Now what's up?"

"Hee hee hee!!"

"Ok, you're giddy. Oh my god!"

"Uh huh!"

"Oh my god!"

"Yup!"

"When?"

"Last night?!?"

"Who said it first?"

"He did!"

"Oh my god!"

"I KNOW!!"

"What happened?!?"

She told me what happened and I was going crazy. Lance walked in halfway
through the conversation and just decided that he'd missed something, so he
went into the living room, where Josh was telling Justin what happened.

"Ok, I missed something here, now can somebody tell me?!?" Lance said loud
enough for all of us to hear him.

We all laughed and Josh sat him down and told him. While Melissa and I were
talking in the room we heard him scream "OH MY GOD!" he then ran into the
room, tackled her and gave her a really big hug. We were all laughing at
his little display of emotion.

It was around 10 and Joey and Chris were just waking up. We had already
ordered breakfast and the smell of the food had awoken them. After
breakfast, Josh and Melissa told them and they were really happy for
them. Joey was making jokes how I she wasn't happy with Josh to go and
knock on his door. To which she replied something like, why would she want
him when she could have Chris.

The guys had to be at the venue by 12. Melissa had a class at one so she
left and said she'd be back by 5 to meet me and then we would go to the
venue. I went with the guys to the venue and they showed me around, telling
me basically how my schedule would be once I went on tour. It was fun, but
hectic. I finally understood why they were so warn out by the end of the
night. Even though, I couldn't wait till I got to do it for real. They gave
them a break at around 2:30. Lance and I went to their dressing room just
to chill while the others went to the cafeteria the they had set up for
them. While me and Lance were in the room talking, there was a knock on the
door.

"Come in!" Lance said.

"Hey guys! Am I interrupting anything?" Justin asked, peeking his head
through the door.

"Nah, come on in Jus!" Lance said.

"You sure?"

"Yeah! What's up Curly?" I asked.

"Well, I kind of wanted to ask you guys something."

"Sure, pull up a chair and ask away!"

"Ok.... yeah.... what he said!" Lance said looking at me weirdly.

"I'm intruding! I'm gonna go!" Justin said.

"Would you stop?! No you're not! It was just weird the way he said that!"

"Are you sure?"

"YES!" We both said.

"Ok, ok! Well, as you know, Jay's not out to his parents. And I'm not out
to my daddy yet.  I just wanted to ask Rob if you could possibly talk him
into telling his parents. Not about us yet, just about him. I also wanted
to ask of how I could go about telling my daddy. I mean, telling my mom was
easier cause of the relationship we have, but my daddy has this vision of
me being his first born son and that I would carry on his name and all that
other macho bullshit! I.. I dunno.. does that sound weird to you?"

"How cute. his daddy!" I said, "Nah, seriously though! As far as Jay goes,
all I can do is suggest it. It's up to him to get the courage to come out
to his parents. I mean, it would probably make him think about it and
probably end up doing it, cause that's how it was with me. But, as far as
him actually doing it, it's totally up to him in the end."

"What do you mean that's how it was with you?"

"Well, ok.. this is how it went. When I finally came to the conclusion
about my sexuality, I had first told my uncle about it. He thought it was
just a phase and that it probably wouldn't last long. He meant well, but I
knew that I was what I was. He finally accepted it and he encouraged me to
tell my parents. But, I wasn't ready at the time. So, I don't know exactly
when, but there was a point where my dad was really worried about me cause
he thought that I was having all these problems, which I wasn't but
needless to say, he was worried. He had went to my uncle and asked him if
there was anything wrong with me, cause he knew that I confided in my uncle
a lot, it was then that my uncle told him that I was bi. Now, he went and
told my mom and brother and they had this big discussion about it while I
was away for the weekend at my friend's house. My brother had told my
parents that he had once found a whole bunch of gay porno pictures on the
computer. So, about a couple of months later, my brother had wanted to talk
to me. I knew that he knew, and deep down, I knew that my parents knew, I
was just not ready to tell them, mostly cause of fear. So he talked to me,
and it was funny, cause he was really nervous. He was trying to figure out
how to talk to me about it. I knew what he was trying to say, so I made it
easier on him and told him. We had this long talk and he told me about my
parents knowing, and how they found out. I wasn't mad or anything, but it
did get me thinking about everything. In the end, that conversation brought
me and my brother closer. The next day I went to my uncle's job, this was
at the time he was still living in New York, I told him that I knew he told
my parents. He then told me what had happened and why he told them. I told
him that it was ok and that I wasn't mad, cause they had a right to
know. He then said that I should just tell them and ease their worries
about everything. The very next night, I told my parents. It was funny
cause my dad took my being bi, and me being gay. He said something like,
`does that mean I'm not gonna have any grand kids?' It was really funny."

They laughed and I continued,

"I think.. I know that he kind of felt a little hurt that it wasn't as big
of a deal for me as it was for them. I told them that I was ok with
everything and that I had accepted it and there was no problem. He kept
asking me if I wanted to go seek therapy so I could talk to somebody about
it. My mom, who was quiet through most of the whole thing, was like `Pero
Robert, he said he's fine!'. It was a kind of load off my mind, but it
wasn't that big of a deal, only cause I knew that they already knew. That
whole episode wound up bringing my family closer; especially me and my
brother. I mean, it was weird for them when I brought Lance home, even
though they didn't show it much. But they've gotten used to everything. It
just takes time."

"So, you think that maybe he already knows cause my mom told him?"

"Possibly, you should ask her."

"How was it with you again Lance?"

"Me? Well, I told my sister first. Well, she kind of actually found
out. When I was in high school, I used to fool around with this guy from
church. One day while nobody was home, we were at my house fooling around,
just making out and stuff like that. We didn't hear her come in through the
front door cause we had some music on. She walked into my room and saw
us. She didn't say anything, she just closed the door and left. We didn't
even notice. Later that week, every time me and her would talk, she would
get this strange look on her face like there was something she wanted to
tell me, but couldn't find the words. I finally got her to tell what she
wanted to say. I was shocked and really embarrassed, but most of all scared
out of my mind. She was really understanding about it, I guess from her
being older, and even though there weren't and still aren't that many
screamingly out people, she had some friends who were gay. I told her that
I still liked girls though, and that I was bi. She was really cool about
it. Whenever she would bring a guy home, when he left, she would
immediately ask me what I thought of him. When I told my parents, it was a
totally different story! It was REALLY scary! My mom took it better than my
dad did, but they were still shocked. If Stacy wasn't there with me, I
would've died. They were a little mad, my dad was furious. He was saying
that there was no way that his son was a fag. My mom was crying and praying
that I wouldn't go to hell.  Stacy was great. She saw that I was starting
to cry so she put her arm around me and yelled, `Look at what you're doing
to him! He's your son for Christ's sake! What difference does it make if
he's gay, straight or bi?!? Who the hell are you to judge him?!  What does
it matter as long as he's happy?! You're his parents! You're supposed to
support him and love him no matter what!' My dad couldn't believe that she
was talking to them like that, but it did make them think about it. My dad
started to cry too. They apologized and we all talked about it. Things were
still pretty awkward but in the end, they started to accept it. I remember
going into a relationship with a girl soon after that cause I wanted them
to realize that I was bi and not gay. That was the relationship that I told
you about. Then, I got called for `N Sync. It's still taken them some time
to get used to Rob, but as you know they've accepted it. My mom loves him
and my dad and sister can't wait to meet him."

"So he could flip out about it?"

"Yeah, but he could also be ok with it." I said.

"And it's not like he's never suspected. My mom finally admitted to me a
little bit after I had told them, that she somehow always knew. She could
tell. My dad too, although she told me that too." Lance said.

"Yeah, my parents and brother the same thing. Even before my uncle told
them, they kind of always knew."

"So, he might already know even if my mom didn't tell him?" Justin asked.

"Yeah." We both said.

"Well, let me ask you something." I said.

"Sure." Justin replied.

"Who did you come out to first? Them, or the guys?"

"The guys! Well, JC first. He said that he kind of always knew since the
days of MMC.  Then Lance, and you already know what happened. Then, with
them in my corner, I told Chris and Joey. They were a little weird about it
first, but got used to it."

"How did you come out to your mom?"

"Lance encouraged me back when we were fooling around. He said that she had
the right to know."

"Well, how did you go about it?"

"I just sat her and dad down in the living room and told them that I wanted
to tell them something."

"Wait.. I thought you said your dad didn't know!"

"No! My real dad doesn't, my step-dad does!"

"He calls his real dad `daddy' and his step-dad `dad'." Lance said.

"Oh... ok.. continue."

"So, I was all nervous and couldn't figure a way to tell them. Luckily for
me, Josh decided to come home at that exact moment."

"Yeah, it's always easier to tell someone when you have an ally." I said.

"I'll say! It was a hell of a lot easier with Josh there! At first my mom
thought that Josh and I were fooling around, but I told her no. I didn't
tell her that me and Lance had something going on till a few days later."

"Wait. I thought you said that no one knew about you and Justin fooling
around."

"My mom and Josh were the only ones who knew. I figured that my mom would
feel more at ease if she knew that I was with somebody she trusted, and JC
found out by accident."

"Yeah.. He kinda walked in on us." Lance said starting to blush.

"We all felt that we shouldn't tell Chris and Joey cause they'd feel even
more awkward about the whole thing than they already did."

"But don't you think that it was wrong of you to keep it from them all this
time and them still not knowing?"

"Who says that they don't know?"

"Huh?" Lance and I said at the same time.

"Well, Joey found out, but never said anything until way after we were
over. And Chris, well.... when Chris and I became closer, even though it
was a little weird, I told him..  everything."

"Why didn't you ever tell me? And how come they never said anything!?"
Lance said getting a little angry.

"Well.. I dunno. I just felt that since it was in the past, why bother to
bring it up. And they kinda felt the same way. They knew that at that
point, it would've made things really awkward cause we were just starting
out and still getting to know each other as a family.  It's ok
Lance.. nobody held anything against anybody else."

"You still should've told me. I had a right to know!"

"Ok, baby.. Calm down! It's over and there's nothing you can do about
it. Besides, what does that matter when you have me now?" I said.

"True.. I just would've like to have known.. that's all."

"And now you do. Anyway, continue Jus."

"So that was really it."

"Well, all I can say is that the next time you see your dad, I mean.. your
daddy, tell him. If you want, you know that the 7 of us are here for you if
you need us. You've got a lot of people in your corner, don't be afraid to
ask them to help."

"I've got more than 7, believe me!"

"Good! Then use them!"

"Thanks guys, you've really helped me!"

"And I'll talk to Jay about it next time we speak."

"Thanks! You're the greatest!"

He gave each of us a hug and was just about to leave the dressing room when
Josh walked in.

"There you are!!" He said looking a little angry, "I've been lookin for you
guys everywhere!"

"Why? We've been here the whole time!" Lance said.

"Why?!? Do you KNOW what time it is?!"

"Uh..."

"It's four o'clock!"

"OH SHIT!!" We all said.

"YEAH! Come on! You two better get your asses on that stage now! And YOU!
You better get back to Mel's apartment so you can meet her!"

"SIR YES SIR!" We all said standing at attention.

"Got me stressin out! Shit... why should you be on stage? I mean, we only
have a concert to do tonight!"

"Alright Josh!" Justin said.

"I'll see y'all before the show! Oh wait! Where do I get my tickets and
passes?" I said.

"Mel has them." JC said.

"Ok. I'll see you then!"

"Later!" Justin and Josh said on their way to the stage.

"I'll walk you out." Lance said.

"Oh no you won't! You got work to do!" I said.

"Fine.. But don't say that I'm too busy with work to spend time with you!"

"Never!"

"See you later!" He said giving me a kiss.

"Love you!"

"Love you too!"

I got back to Melissa's place by a quarter to 5. She had just got in
herself and was in the shower. I went into the bathroom and said,

"Hey, I'm here!"

"Oh hey! I was wondering when you would get here!"

"Sorry, me, Lance and Justin had a long talk!"

"Oh, about Jay?"

"Yes and no..." I said hopping up on the bathroom sink.

"What do you mean?"

"Jay came up in the conversation, but it was mostly our tales of how we
came out to our parents. Justin was confused as to how to tell his dad... I
mean.. daddy!"

"He already knows."

"No, Paul already knows, but his real father doesn't."

"Yes he does. Josh told me that Lynn told him."

"What?!?"

"Yup! His dad suspected it and asked Lynn. She was uneasy about telling
him, and he sensed it, so she really didn't have to tell him."

"And Josh knows?"

"Yeah.. he was there when the phone call took place."

"Oooooh, Justin's gonna be a little pissed when he finds that out!"

"You can't tell him! He has to find out on his own!" She said sticking her
head out of the shower.

"I know! I'm not!"

"Good! I'm not even supposed to know!"

"It's ok.. I won't say anything. Justin's gonna talk to his mom anyway and
see if she told his daddy."

"Hand me my towel!"

"Here!"

"Damn girl! You gettin a tan!!"

"I know! I love it!"

"That would be funny if Josh were to walk in here now! `What the hell are
you doing watching my girlfriend take a shower for!?!' I could see the look
on his face!"

"He knows what kind of relationship we have. I told him that we've seen
each other naked a thousand times."

"He'd be jealous cause I've seen it and he hasn't!"

"Who says he hasn't?!"

"What??!?"

"You should SEE the look on your face right now!"

"If the mirror wasn't so foggy, I would! Now what the hell are you talking
about?!?"

"Nothing! I was just kidding! We haven't even discussed having sex yet! And
besides, you KNOW I'm not a virgin!"

"I know, but still! And even though I know every guy you've slept with,
this is different!"

"How?"

"Cause.. Josh is my friend."

"So?"

"I dunno.. It's just weird!"

"How?"

"Well, all your other boyfriends I met cause you introduced me. I
introduced you to Josh.  It's sort of like a kind of big brother
thing. It's just weird."

"Aww! He's worried!"

"Shut up!"

"Whatever, anyway, let's get ready! We'll grab something to eat real quick
then make our way to the concert!"

"Ok, what are you wearing?"

"I dunno... I was thinking something sexy, but not slutty!"

"That shouldn't be too hard! You always look sexy girl!"

"What should I wear?"

"Show me what you got!"

"If only Josh heard that one!"

"You know what I mean!"

We went into her room and she tried on some outfits. She finally decided
after about the third outfit on what to wear. She picked out a black tube
top and a pair of black capris pants. She braided her hair back and while
she was putting on her make-up, I went and got an outfit out of my
suitcase. I wore a white, V-neck, ribbed, crew T-shirt, with a black button
down short sleeved shirt over it, buttoned half way up, and beige cargo
pants. By the time Melissa was done with her hair and make-up, I was just
about to do my hair.  Luckily for me all I had to do was wet it, comb it to
the front and put a little gel in it. After I was done, we got a quick bite
to eat then made our way to the venue. We got there around a quarter to
7. The show started at 8 so we had a little time to sneak around backstage
to be with out men. We were let in with no trouble and escorted to their
dressing room. They had just finished hackying and were just relaxing. We
helped them get a little more relaxed (JC and Lance especially, if you know
what I mean!  <wink><wink>). We left there at 5 to 8 so we could get to our
front row center seats. It occurred to me on our way there that this was
the first time, for both of us, that we had been to one of their concerts.

"Do you realize this is the first concert of theirs we have ever been to?"
I said as we got to our seats.

"Yeah, it's weird!" she said as we sat down.

"Well, the first of many more to come!"

"Oh yeah!"

"I can't wait!"

"Me either!"

The lights went down at 8 o'clock sharp. The opening acts weren't that bad,
but we, as well as every other person there, were waiting for the guys to
come out and do their thing. Finally, just before 9, they came out. From
beginning to end, the show was off the hook. It had us up dancing and
singing our heads off. Of course throughout the whole show, we would get
the occasional glances of love from Lance and Josh and the looks of
familiar faces from the other guys. The girls surrounding us thought that
they were the ones the guys were looking at, but were eating their hearts
out when Melissa left and wound up on stage during "For the girl..", the
hated her even more when Josh grabbed Melissa's hand and kissed it. It was
so sweet, he looked so lovingly into her eyes and she was blushing and
returning the look. After the song was over and she returned to her seat,
the girls around us gave her evil death stares. Our section was getting a
lot of attention for the whole night. It was hilarious, during "Giddy up",
Melissa and I did our giddy up dance (It's hard to describe but it's during
the "Ride it, ride it, ride it" part, just use your imaginations!). We made
Justin mess up. He was saying, "Just ride it, just ride it" and he looked
over at us and he couldn't help but start to crack up. The others almost
lost it too, but managed to keep it under control.

After the kick ass show, we went backstage and were again escorted to their
dressing room. After we kissed our respected men, and congratulated the
others, we went back to the hotel.

TBC...

I hope that the issue of coming out to his parents has helped some of
you. I know how hard and frustrating it can be. When I wrote that segment,
I wrote it hoping that it would help some of you in the decision and
planning of coming out to whomever. Any questions, comments, suggestions or
anything else u wanna talk about, email me at Papito6187@aol.com.