Date: Mon, 08 May 2000 10:00:14 EDT
From: Frnces O'Rtg <frnceso@hotmail.com>
Subject: Rude Awakening Chapters 19&20 Path to Light,
Copyright 2000 By Francis O'Ratigan.
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This story is complete fiction. This story in no way implies the ACTUAL
sexual orientation or beliefs of Actual living people. In other words
FICTION!!
As promised I will be writing two verions of the next two chapters. It will
be up to you the readers which path the story will follow.
Any comments are welcome. Good or bad. Feel free to e-mail me at
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Rude Awakening
(A Path to Light)
Chapter 19
Johnny woke in the middle of the night. He looked around the dark hospital
room. "Dad?" he called out looking off to the side where he saw someone
sitting.
"Yes Johnny," answered a sleepy Kevin. "What is it?" Kevin shook the
remenants of sleep from his head.
"I'm cold," Johnny said shivering. Kevin got up and found another blanket
and tucked it around his foster son.
"All better?" asked Kevin as he kissed his forehead Johnny nodded and
turned over in his bed closed his eyes. The door opened a crack and Kevin
looked up. It was Justin. He had returned from taking Jason home. Kevin
had asked Justin to stay home and rest. He needed it for tomorrow they
would perform the procedure that would extract the Bone Marrow from Justin
that would hopefully save Johnny's life. "Justin?" asked Kevin. "I thought
I asked you to stay home and sleep." Kevin said sternly.
"I couldn't sleep. I am worried about Johnny," Justin said softly as he
made his way through the darkened room. He sat down on the couch. "How is
he doing?"
"He is doing much better. The fever is down and he is breathing easier,"
Kevin said as he reached over and tucked part of the blanket in around
Johnny. "I am going to get something to eat," Kevin said. "You want
something to eat or drink?" Justin shook his head no. Kevin stepped out of
the room. Justin sat next to Johnny's bedside and he took his hand. Johnny
let out a small moan and turned over facing Justin.
"Uncle Justin?" asked Johnny in a quiet voice. It was so quiet that Justin
almost didn't hear it.
"Yea Johnny," replied Justin.
"Um will you sing me a song?" he asked. Justin smiled at him and sat on the
side of the bed.
"What should I sing for you?" Justin asked as he wrapped his arm around
Johnny's shoulders. Johnny shrugged his shoulders as an answer. "What is
with that shruggen," Justin joked with Johnny. Johnny let out a giggle and
snuggled up to Justin. "Ok than I will pick one for you." After thinking
for a few moments he closed his eyes and started singing.
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
and all that surround you
are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll be your hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
was standing here all along
And I will take you in my arms
and hold you right where you belong
till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
I've loved you forever
in lifetimes before
and I promise you never
will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
and with this vow
Forever has now begun
Just close your eyes
each livin day
And know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
Justin looked down and saw that Johnny was sleeping. So he decided to wait
until morning to sing the rest of it. "Your voice will sing anyone to
sleep," Kevin's deep voice sounded through Justin's thoughts.
"I meant every word of it," Justin said as he wiped a tear from his eye. "I
don't want to loose him Kevin."
"I hope you don't have to," Kevin said as he sat down in the chair. "I
never thought it possible."
"What?" asked Justin. Kevin looked down at his coffe cup.
"I never thought that it was possible to be a father. I mean when I
realized that I was Gay I had just about given up hope of being a Dad. Than
that little heart breaker comes crashing into our lives." Kevin took a
drink from his cup. "And now the jaws of death are waiting to snatch him
from us."
"Yea but we won a major battle today," Justin said putting a hand on his
shoulder. Kevin nodded and yawned. "Looks like you can use some sleep,"
laughed Justin. "I'll take first watch." Kevin was going to argue but one
look from Justin and he stopped. So Kevin laid down on the couch and closed
his eyes.
The Next Morning.
Jason woke up looking for Kevin. He remembered that Kevin had spent the
night at the hospital with Johnny. He climbed out of bed and shuffled into
the bathroom and did his business. He wondered what chance he would have
getting a ride to the hospital. He wanted to suprise his love with
breakfast. He walked down stairs and spotted JC. "Good morning JC," Jason
said with weak smile. JC looked up from his lap top.
"Morning Jason, did you sleep well?" he asked smiling.
"Not to bad," Jason said as he sat next to him. "Whacha doin?" he asked
peeking over his shoulder.
"Just catching up on my e-mails. Chris and Joey and Lance say hi," JC said
with a grin.
"Tell them YO for me," giggled Jason. "Hey I was wondering if I could get a
favor from you," Jason said. JC looked up from his Lap Top.
"Any thing for you Jas," JC grinned.
"Can you take me to the Hospital?" Jason asked.
"Sure Jason," JC said closing his Lap Top. "I need to go the Hospital and
see Justin. Today they are extracting the Bone Marrow from him. He doesn't
do Hospitals very well. Ben and I want to be there for him. You ready to
go?" Soon Jason and JC headed out the door to go the Hospital.
At the Hospital.
Johnny woke up and looked around the room. He spotted his Foster Dad
sleeping on the couch. He was feeling better and naughty too. He wanted
attention. He looked around for something to do. He spotted his pillow and
picked it up and tossed it at Kevin. It hit Kevin in the head. Kevin woke
up with a start looking around the room. Johnny's laughing led him the way
to the culprit. Kevin smiled at the sight of his Foster son feeling
better.
"Ohhh Wise Guy huh?" Kevin laughed getting up and creeping towards him.
Johnny giggled louder and tossed another pillow at Kevin. Kevin caught it
and tossed it back. He reached the bed and wrapped his arms around the
giggling squirming child. "So we are feeling better this morning?" Kevin
asked.
"I wanna go home!" Johnny said jumping up and down on the bed. "Please
Daddy? Can I go home?" Kevin looked at his foster son and sat down next to
him.
"I'm sorry son, but the Doctors want to make sure that you are well enough
to go home. Plus they want to do that Bone Marrow Transplant," Kevin said
bending down and kissing his forehead.
"Where is Uncle Justin?" Johnny asked looking around.
"Uncle Justin is giving the doctor some of his Bone Marrow for you," Kevin
explained to him
"Than I can go home right?" he asked excitedly.
"Than we all can go home Buddy," laughed Kevin. He heard the door open and
looked up and saw the man that he loved standing there. "Morning Babe!" he
said excited getting up and walking towards him and grabbing him in a hug.
"Did you sleep good Babe?"
Jason laid his head on Kevin's chest. "Not as well," Jason whimpered. "I
missed you something terrible." He reached up and pulled Kevin's head down
to him and pressed his lips to his and slid his tongue into his mouth.
"EWWWWWW Yucki!" exclaimed Johnny laughing his head off. Jason broke away
from Kevin laughing.
"You know Dad?" Jason asked. "I think he needs to be kissed by his father."
Kevin raised his eyebrows and started walking towards Johnny. Johnny
pulled the covers over his head and started squeeling. Kevin slid under the
covers making monster noices. Johnny kept laughing and squirming. Soon the
entire room was up in laughter. They didn't see the door open and the
doctor step into the room. He watched the activity in ammusement. Finally
Kevin came up for air. His hair was a mess and Johnny's arms were wrapped
around his neck.
"Well Johnny, I am glad to see that you are feeling much better this
morning. Do you think you are up to some tests?" asked the Doctor.
"Do you have to take some blood from me?" he asked worried.
"Yes a little blood but not much," the doctor asnwered honestly. Kevin
could see the tears form in Johnny's eyes and it filled his heart with pain.
"It's going to hurt isn't it?" Johnny whimpered. Kevin wrapped his arms
around the small child. "I don't want too," he said stubbornly.
"Son you have too have the tests done," Kevin said in a soothing voice.
"You want to get better don't you?" Johnny nodded and sniffled looking up at
Kevin with those eyes. "Than you will have the tests done for me?" Kevin
asked.
"OK Dad," Johnny said bravely. "I'll have the tests done for you."
"That is a brave boy," Kevin said leaning down and kissing him on the cheek.
"But I still don't like it!" grumbled Johnny sticking out his bottom lip in
a pout. Kevin laughed softly. "Well I don't!" he shouted at his Foster
Dad.
"I know Johnny," Kevin said grinning. "You don't have to like it."
In another room.
Justin was sleeping in a bed. The procedure was extremely painful and he
was alone he was thankful that it was done. He was still groggy from the
procedure. He was trying to sleep. He felt someones hand stroke his face.
He leaned into the touch.
"Hey sexy," a voice said. Justin smiled and opened his eyes and looked up
into the eyes of Ben.
"Hi," he mumbled sleepily. He looked around the room and spotted a worried
looking JC. "Yo JC," he said grinning holding his hand out to him. "See I
am still alive," he joked a little.
"When can you leave this place?" asked JC grinning.
"I gotta stay here for a while longer," Justin said grabbing Ben's hand and
kissing it. "Any one know how Johnny is doing?"
"When I dropped Jason off I caught him throwing pillows at Kevin," giggled
JC. Justin laughed softly. "So I think it is safe to assume that Johnny is
on the mend."
I want to see him before we head out," Justin said pushing a botton and
raising the head of his bed up. "We'll be performing when when he gets his
transplant," Justin said sadly. He wanted to be with Johnny when he got the
transplant. But he knew that his career couldn't be put on hold for ever.
"Maybe we can do something special for him the day of the transplant," JC
said reaching up and ruffling Justin's head. Justin glared at him and than
spent the next few minutes trying to fix his hair. They waited patiently
for the doctor to discharge Justin. When he finally was let go he went by
the gift store and baught Johnny some things and than headed back up to the
ward. He approached the room when he heard Johnny crying. He quickly
opened the door and discovered that they were only drawing blood from him.
Kevin was stitting beside him whispering in his ear. Johnny nodded as he
sniffled. Justin smiled at the interaction between the two. He waited
until the lab tech was done. Than he made his presence known. "Yo Johnny!"
he said excitedly.
Johnny looked up at Justin and smiled broadly. "Uncle Justin!" he shouted
with glee. "You're back!" Justin handed him the bag and reached down and
hugged him.
"Why the tears buddy?" Justin asked stroking Johnny's face.
"They had to draw some blood," Johnny said. He looked into the bag and
pulled out a new game. He looked confused and looked back up at Justin.
"It's electronic Battleship the star wars eddition," Justin explained. "You
and I can play some time if you want."
"Cool!" Johnny said wrapping his arms around Justin. Justin closed his eyes
to the touch his eyes filling with tears.
"Uhh Johnny," Justin said softly.
"Yea Uncle Justin," Johnny answered with a very serious face.
"I have to go back to work," Justin said sadly. Johnny nodded sadly. "I'll
be thinking of you all the time and I'll call every day."
"Promise?" Johnny asked. He knew that when he asked a grown up to promise
that the grown up would not break his promise.
"You know I will," Justin said grinning. Jusitn got up and went to Kevin
and pulled him in a hug too. "You take care of my Nephew," he said wiping a
tear from his eye. "He is very important to me."
"He is very important to me to Justin," Kevin said wiping a tear from
Justin's face. "You need to promise to take care of yourself too."
"I will," Justin sniffled. He than turned to Jason. He frowned when he saw
how tired Jason looked. "You need to take better care of yourself Jas," he
said wrapping his arms around Jason. "I don't want to loose you."
"I promise that I'll take care of myself," Jason said kissing Justin on the
cheek. Johnny held out his arms and Justin picked him up and sat him on his
lap. Kevin quietly ushered the rest of the guys out of the room to give the
two friends some privacy.
"Ben is cool," Johnny said smiling up at Justin. Justin nodded and grinned.
He knew that in Johnny's limited way he had just told Justin that he
approved of his choice.
"Thank you Johnny," he whispered. "He loves you too." Johnny nodded.
"Um will you hold me for a while?" Johnny asked and yawning at the same
time. Justin laid back on the bed and Johnny snuggled up to his uncle and
wrapped his arms around Justin and closed his eyes. "I love you," he
mumbled just before he went to sleep.
"I love you to Johnny," Justin whispered back.
Two hours later.
JC walked up the aisle and sat next to his brooding friend. "Hey Justin,"
he asked softly. "Whacha doing?" They were on a plane headed to New York.
"Just thinking," Justin said quietly looking out the window.
"About?" pressed JC. Justin looked over at JC.
"About my life," Justin said. "How lucky I had it. As a child and now."
JC nodded understanding. "I'm just scared right now JC." JC put his arm
around his best friend. "I don't want to loose Johnny."
"Your not going to loose him Just," JC said softly. Justin shook his head
and pulled away from JC.
"You don't know that. What if the Bone Marrow doesn't take. There is a
chance that he would reject it," Justin said softly his eyes watering up.
"We just have to pray real hard that the Bone Marrow takes. I can't believe
that there is a God that would so cruel that he would dangle a cure infront
of us and than snatch it away," JC said kissing the top of Justin's head.
"Now why don't you try and get some sleep before we land. Cause once we do
it is off to the Oscars." Justin nodded and closed his eyes.
Back at the Hospital.
Kevin led Johnny by the hand into a conference room. Jason was already
there sitting at the table. The medical team assigned to Johnny's case
wanted to discus the transplant that would take place the next morning.
"Good Morning Johnny," spoke a kind Doctor. "Are you feeling better?"
"Um Yes sir," Johnny said quietly. "Are you going to do the transplant?" he
asked hopefully.
"That is why we are all here today. We are going to talk about the
transplant. And in answer to your question, yes we are planning on doing
the Transplant Tomorrow morning," the Doctor said smiling. "You remember
the class you took? " Johnny nodded his had sadly. "So you understand that
when you have the transplant you are going to be in isolation for a while?"
Again Johnny nodded.
"I wont be able to see anyone?" he asked scrunching up his nose. The Doctor
chuckled a little.
"No, you will get to see them. You can't have any contact with them. You
will be behind a plastic tent. And they will have to wear special gowns so
you wont get sick. It is very important that we keep you in a germ free
enviroment," the nurse spoke up. Johnny did not look pleased at all. He
loved contact with people. He was a hugger and he wanted hugs too.
"Son?" asked Kevin. Johnny looked at him with those trusting eyes. "I will
be with you every step of the way. You might not beable to touch me but I
will be there. You will hear my vioce. And Jason will be here too."
"And I am going to bring in a phone with a speaker so that you can hear
Justin when he calls," Jason spoke up. Johnny nodded silently.
"Umm I'm kind of tired. Can I go back to my room?" he said in a low voice.
Kevin looked at the Doctor and he nodded his head.
"Sure son, we can go back now," Kevin said sighing. He had a feeling that
it was going to be a long day.
Later in the hospital room.
"Kevin Babe?" asked Jason.
"Yea Babe," Kevin spoke up.
"You're tired, and you need sleep. Why don't you go home for a few hours
and sleep?" Jason sudgested rubbing Kevin's shoulders. Kevin looked over at
his sleeping Foster Son. "I know you don't want to leave him alone. But it
will only be for a few hours. We both need our rest Kev," Jason gently
urged him.
"I don't want to leave him alone," Kevin said looking back at Johnny. He
was asleep now. But he could wake up anytime and need him.
"You have a whole hosptial full of staff that can be there for him. Baby
you need your rest. You haven't slept right in 24 hours. Please come home
with me and get some rest," Jason pleaded. Kevin shook his head no and
Jason swore under his breath. Kevin glared at him for a few seconds. "You
will be no good to him if you are sick yourself!" Jason whispered harshly at
him. The harsh tone shocked Kevin. "Stay here if you want but I am going
home to get some sleep. If you want to get your self sick fine but I wont
watch you do it!" Jason stomped out of the room. Kevin swore and took off
after Jason.
"Jason please stop?" he pleaded. Jason stopped but didn't turn around.
"Please turn around?" Jason sighed and turned around. Kevin saw tears
streaming down his face. "If the invitation to come home with you is still
open I accept." Jason held out his hand and Kevin took and they walked out
of the hospital and into the car. Kevin leaned against Jason and laid his
head on his shoulder. Jason leaned down and kissed his forehead. He
wrinkled his nose. "I know I need a shower Babe," Kevin said grinning.
"You want to join me?" he asked winking at Jason. Jason smiled and took his
hand away from his crotch. Kevin looked disapointed.
"You are going home to rest mister!" Jason scolded him.
"Meanie!" grumbled Kevin. Jason giggled as he leaned forward and kissed
Kevnin on the lips. Kevin reached over and pushed the privacy shield and
it slid up. He barely caught the ammused grin of the driver. Jason reached
for his belt buckle and undid his pants. In about three seconds later he
had Kevin's cock out in down his throat. "OOOHH God Baby!" rasped Kevin as
he bucked his hips to meet Jason's onslaught. Jason grinned as he bobbed up
and down on Kevin's cock. He greedily sucked up the precum that leaked out
of the tip. Kevin let out a groan and continued to thrust his cock in and
out of Jason's mouth. He looked down at Jason and saw complete contentment
on Jason's face. His lover was the happiest pleasuring Kevin. Kevin could
feel his orgasm building. It wouldn't be long. Jason must have suspected
too because he picked up the tempo. "Ohh Jesus Jason," groaned Kevin.
"I'm real close babe." Jason let out a giggle and continued his assault.
Jason felt Kevin's body spasmed one last time. The first blast hit him in
the back of the throat. He drove his mouth down to the hilt. The next few
blasts shot down Jason's eager throat. Jason eagerly swallowed the gift
that Kevin offered him. Soon the flow stopped and Jason gently licked
Kevin's cock clean. He than fixed Kevin's clothes and snuggled up to him.
"All better?" he asked grinning up at Kevin. Kevin just rolled his eyes and
laughed softly. "What?" Jason asked Innocently.
"You are so mean!" Kevin laughed. "But yes in answer to your question I am
better." He looked sad and looked over at Jason. "I want to make love to
you babe so bad," he wimpered. "I am so tired of this love thing being one
sided. I miss the way you taste. I miss the way your cock feels when it
erupts in my mouth. I miss your little whimpers when I tease you. Dammit I
miss you babe," Kevin said with tears in his eyes. Jason pulled him down in
an embrace.
"I know you miss me Kevin. I miss not being able to give myself fully to
you. But it is not one sided. I enjoy giving you pleasure so much," Jason
said softly. "And I love it when you make love to me," Jason said
seductively. "Will you?" he asked. Kevin got a twinkle in his eye.
"Will I what?" he asked innocently. Jason slugged him in the shoulder.
Kevin smiled sweetly down at Jason and kissed him. "Of course I will babe."
Jason hit the button and the shield slid down.
"Driver!" ordered Jason.
"Sir?" asked the Driver grinning from ear to ear.
"Step on it!" Jason laughed.
"You in a rush dear?" teased Kevin. Jason looked down at Kevin's crotch and
licked his lips. "You are so bad Jason!" Kevin laughed.
Kevin dropped Jason on the bed and started tearing off his clothes. Jason
reached up and helped Kevin out of his clothes. Once Kevin was naked he lay
on top of Jason and started kissing with such passion that it scared Jason a
little. Kevin reached for Jason's shirt button and when it wouldn't come
undone he ripped it off. "That was my favorite shirt," giggled Jason.
"I'll buy you a new one babe," Kevin said as he attacked Jason's neck
sucking hard on it. Jason ground his crotch into Kevin's. Kevin paused and
reached over on the bedstand to retreive a condom. With the upmost care he
slid it over Jason's cock and than engulfed Jason's cock. Jason threw back
his head and groaned. Kevin let out a giggle. Unknown to Jason he had
gotten flavored Condoms. Jason was enjoying the blow job that Kevin was
giving him. Kevin still missed the natural flavor of Jason's cock and it's
juices. But he was happy that he was able to pleasure Jason as Jason did
him. When he got Jason all excited he got off of Jason's cock and laid back
and lifted his ankles and uged Jason on with a look. Jason did not need to
be asked twice. He took Kevin's ankles and laid them on his shoulders. He
than placed his cock at Kevin's entrance. Kevin smiled and winked at
Jason's to urge him on. Jason eased into Kevin. Kevin let out a small
whimper of pain. Jason stopped and looked down at his lover. "Pleas go on
Babe," Kevin begged. Jason slid in all the way. His body was assaulted
with the incredible feeling of being inclosed in a soft but firm glove. He
pulled out and slammed into Kevin again. Kevin groaned in pleasure. Jason
started pulling in and out of Kevin. He enjoyed watching Kevin's body react
to the pleasure he was causing. He could feel his orgasm building. He thew
his weight into the last few thrust shot his load into the comdom. Kevin
watched is lover as he felt the cock swell in him. As soon as his orgasm
subided he withdrew quickly. He didn't want to burn Kevin with his bodily
fluids. He slid the condom off and threw it in the trash. He looked down
at his lovers sweaty body. He felt himself getting aroused again. He
extended his hand and took Kevin's.
"Come on babe," he smiled weakly. "Lets take a shower." Kevin grinned and
took his hand and pulled himself up.
Three hours later the phone rang and the two lovers groaned and sat up in
bed. Kevin reached for the phone. "Hello," he said into it. There was
silence on the other end. "Hello, any one there?" he asked again.
"Tic toc tic toc," said a chilling familar voice. "You remember me don't
you?"
"Luke!" breathed Kevin. Jason was up in a heart beat. "What do you want?"
"Oh nothing, I was just standing outside room 316 at the hospital and
thought I would give you a call. Tic toc Tic toc," he laughed into the
phone and hung up. Kevin hand shook as he hung up the phone.
"I have to get to the Hospital," he mumbled as he climbed out of bed.
"What does Luke want?" Jason asked.
"I don't know but he said he was outside Room 316," Kevin said as he threw
on some clothes.
"That is Johnny's room!" Jason exclaimed as he climbed out of bed too. "I'm
going with you."
"Jas I don't think that it is a good idea--," Kevin started.
"No arguments!" Jason shouted. Kevin jumped at the shouting. "Dammit
Kevin! Johnny is part of my family to. If he is in danger I want to--, No I
need to be there!" So Kevin reluctantly agreed to let Jason come. Soon the
two were racing off to the hospital. Once there they raced up to the room.
They got in hearing distance of the room and heard Johnny's laughter. Some
one was in the room with him. Kevin reached to door first and swung it
open. Luke was sitting on the edge of the bed. Kevin's first instinct was
to go off on Luke. But he restrained himself for Johnny's sake.
"Hi Dad!" exclaimed Johnny grinning when he caught sight of Kevin.
"Hi Johnny," Kevin said as he leaned down and gave him a quick hug. He
looked out of the corner of his eye and saw Luke pull his jackett aside and
saw that he had a gun. Jason saw it too but Luke didn't see Jason. Jason
snuck back outside to contact security. Kevin stood up and walked over to
Luke. "Hi Luke," he said cheerfully. "When did you get back in town?"
Johnny bought it. He thought that Kevin was warming up to an old friend.
"Hey Luke why don't you and I step out for a moment so that Johnny can get
some rest?"
"Sure Kevin," Luke said glaring at him. He wanted control of the situation
and Kevin wasn't giving it to him. He would have to take control of the
situation real soon. On the way out he spotted Jason by the nurses station.
He headed towards him but Kevin grabbed his arm.
"Uh uh Luke," said Kevin in a deadly quiet voice. "I don't know what the
fuck your game is but you are not dragging my family in it. This is between
you and me!" Kevin heard the elevator doors open. Luke saw the security
gaurds step out of the elevator. Kevin saw Lukes hand reach into his jacket
and that was when Kevin made his move. He tackled Luke and sent him
crashing against the against the nurses station. Luke crawled back to his
feet taking the gun from his jacket. Kevin backed up keeping Jason behind
him. The security gaurds had surrounded Luke by now.
"Drop the gun!" ordered one of the gaurds. Luke looked franticaly from one
gaurd to another. "I said drop the gun!" shouted the Gaurd again. "Last
warning sir!" Luke looked like he was going to drop it than he smiled and
pointed the gun in his mouth.
"God Luke don't!" screamed Kevin. But the warning came to late. The
trigger was pulled, the shot rang out through the ward. Lukes head jerked
back, still wearing the same insane grin. Women screamed and Kevin turned
and buried his head in Jason's shoulder.
Dead silence filled the hospital hall way. Kevin looked down at his former
lover. Than he heard a child's voice crying. He looked up and saw Johnny
standing in the doorway staring through his tears looking down at Luke.
Jason sprung into action and went to Johnny and guided him back into the
hospital room. Kevin backed against the wall and slid down and brought his
knees to his chest.
Jason carried a frightened Johnny back to his bed. Johnny was sobbing
quietly now. "I wanna go home," he whimpered clinging to Jason. "Please
take me home," he cried into Jason's shoulder.
"You have to stay here Johnny," Jason said soothingly.
"I'm scared," he whimpered again. Jason fought back tears as he looked down
at the frightened little boy. He pulled Johnny in a tight embrace and kept
whispering in his ear. "It will be all right, I'm not going any where."
Finally the crying stopped and Jason discovered that Johnny had fallen
asleep. He laid the child down in bed and stepped outside and went up to
Kevin. Kevin was a wreck. He had tears streaming down his face.
"I hate him!" he shouted at Jason. "Why did he have to do that?" Jason
hugged Kevin and allowed Kevin to cry into his shoulder. "I hate him!" he
sobbed again.
"Johnny is sleeping," Jason said softly. Kevin looked up and sniffled and
kissed Jason on the cheek.
"How is he?" Kevin said wiping his face.
"He is scared, he wants to go home," Jason answered. Kevin slammed his fist
into the wall.
"Fucking bastard!" he shouted. Jason put a calming hand on Kevin's
shoulder. Kevin wrenched himself away from Jason. "This is his fault! He
is the one who traumatised my boy in there!" Kevin was starting to draw the
attention of the nursing staff.
"Kevin let's go somewhere where we can talk," Jason said leading him to a
waiting room. Kevin walked around the room as if he was in a daze. He kept
mumbling something over and over again. "Kevin, please talk to me babe,"
begged Jason. Kevin looked at him and walked towards him. Jason stood up
and met him half way. "This is not your fault babe," Jason said calmly.
"I should've been able to protect him from that. No child should ever have
to see that," Kevin sobbed. "All I want to do is make that little boy in
there happy." Jason nodded and kissed Kevin on the forhead.
"Tell me the words to make it better," pleaded Jason. Kevin looked into
Jason's eyes and saw saddness. He wiped the tears from Jason's face. "I
hate to see you in pain Kevin."
"I am sorry Jason, I am so sorry that I had to drag you into my fucked up
life!" Kevin sobbed balling up his fists. Jason grabbed his fists and
unclenched them.
"Kevin," he said. Kevin looked away stubbornly. "Kevin, look at me!" Jason
said with authority. Kevin looked down at his feet. "LOOK AT ME!!" Jason
shouted. Kevin glared up at Jason. "Do not dare say that again. I love
you and I wanted to be a part of your life. And don't think that you are
going to get rid of me. I love you for better and for worse. Luke was the
worst. Johnny is the best. I take the good with the bad." Jason was
sobbing now. He was afraid that Kevin was going to push him away. Kevin
was his rock and he needed him as much as Kevin needed him.
"Why do you put up with me?" asked Kevin grinning sheepishly. Jason looked
at him with mild amusement.
"Because you are best looking man around mister, and I love you," he
giggled. He held out his hand and Kevin grabbed it. "Come on love, let's
go see our son." The two lovers walked out of the room and headed towards
Johnny's room. As they approached the room they heard Johnny laughing his
head off. Jason looked at Kevin and Kevin shrugged his shoulder. They
opened the door and found Johnny talking on the phone and giggling. It was
a welcome sound.
"Uncle Justin!" giggled Johnny. "That was not nice. You say you're sorry
to JC." Kevin looked at Jason and Jason shrugged his shoulders. Johnny let
out a long stream of words relating to Pokemon games and cards. The only
words that Jason understood was Picachu and ketchup and not sharing with
Ash. "Hey Uncle Justin," exclaimed Johnny looking over at his Foster Dad.
"Dad is here, you want to talk to him?" Kevin rolled his eyes and took the
phone away from Johnny. Johnny gave him a scolding look and Kevin smiled at
him.
"Hey Justin, how was the oscars?" asked Kevin.
"It was ok, I was kind of out of it. I'm sorry that Jason didn't win,"
Justin said sadly.
"Don't worry about it Curly, cause we're not," Kevin said.
"How is Johnny doing?" Justin asked. Kevin could tell by the tone of his
voice that Justin knew.
"He is scared Justin," Kevin said walking away from the bed eyeing Jason.
Jason took this as a sign to occupy Johnny. "He didn't need to see Luke
blow his brains out."
"Yea I know, he has been through so much crap right now. He didn't need
that before his transplant," Justin said.
"Where are you going to be when Johnny gets his transplant?" Kevin asked.
"I want to be there for him and you two. But I have concert in Texas
tomorrow night. I will be thinking of him," Justin said with his voice
cracking.
"Hey Curly," soothed Kevin. "He will be all right. He is a strong little
boy. And he has you to thank. Cause with out you the Bone Marrow
transplant wouldn't be happening." Kevin heard silence on the other end.
He handed the phone to Jason.
"Hey Justin?" asked Jason.
"Yea Jas?" sniffled Justin.
"He is going be all right man," Jason said.
"I just want to be there for him," Justin sniffled again.
"Are you alone?" Jason asked.
"No, JC is here with me," Justin said.
"Put him on the phone," instructed Jason. Justin sighed and handed the
phone to JC.
"Hey Jason wass up?" asked a hyper JC. Jason face lit up with a grin.
"Do me a favor JC," instructed Jason.
"Any thing for you man," JC said. Jason tried not to laugh but failed.
"Promise me you will take care of Justin for me?" Jason pleaded. "He is
really having a hard time with this not being there for Johnny. Convince
him that Johnny is in real good hands."
"You got it Jason. And Jason?" asked JC.
"Yea?" asked Jason back.
"You get some sleep," ordered JC.
"I'm fine Joshua," giggled Jason. He knew that JC hated to be called that.
"Hey I been looking up on the net about side affects of Chemotherapy. I see
those signs in you. Come on man you have to take better care of yourself,"
JC pleaded. Jason knew he was fighting a losing battle.
"Ok JC, I promise that I will take better care of myself. And I will get
plenty of sleep," Jason said in a convincing voice. "Hey JC Kevin wants
Johnny to say good bye to Justin so he can get some sleep." Jason handed
the phone back to Johnny.
"Uncle Justin?" asked a smiling Johnny.
"Hey buddy!" said Justin trying to sound cheerful. He wiped his eyes dry.
JC put his arm around Justin and Justin laid his head on his shoulder. "I'm
gonna sing a song for you tomorrow night Okay?"
"That will be so cool!" giggled Johnny. "Dad is giving me the bedtime
look." Kevin rolled his eyes and Jason let out a strangled laugh. Kevin
punched Jason in the shoulder and Jason punched him back. "Now they are
beating up on eachother!" Johnny said busting up laughing.
"Ok Johnny," said Justin sadly. "I gonna let you go. You get alout of
sleep tonight and tell your parents that I love them.
"I miss you," sniffled Johnny.
"I miss you too Nephew," Justin said his eyes watering. He pushed the off
button and handed the phone to JC. "God I hope that transplant takes."
"It will Justin, I just know it will buddy," JC said wrapping his arms
around Justin.
Chapter 20
The days past slowly for the Richardson family. It has been over a week
since the transplant has taken place. Kevin never left Johnny's side.
Jason spent most of the time at home in bed under the care of a private
nurse. He had caught a small cold and Kevin wasn't taking any chances.
With Jason taking Chemotherapy he made sure that Jason's small cold didn't
develope into an infection. Johnny was still in the isolation tent. He was
in and out of sleep most of the time. His body was fighting to maintain
control of his life. For a few days they were all deathly afraid of Johnny
rejecting the bone marrow. Justin had flown in to be at his nephews side
when they thought he might die. But Johnny kept fighting. The fevor was
down, and he woke up the last day that Justin was there. He smiled weakly
at Justin and mouthed, "I love you." Justin collasped into the arms of JC
sobbing in reliefe. Justin left to go back to his career. Kevin kept
Justin apprised of the happenings. Jason was getting better but at a very
slow rate. It had been 4 days since he had seen Kevin or Johnny. The
Hospital wouldn't let him near Johnny or Kevin for fear of spreading the
germs to Johnny. Jason had fallen into a deep depresion. Kevin wasn't
there to support him or love him. Kevin was too busy taking care of Johnny.
Of course Jason would never blame Kevin for that. Jason longed for the
days when every thing would return to normal.
Morning at South Fork.
Jason opened his eyes to sunshine. It was spring outside but inside it
still looked like winter. Jason was cold and had the electric blanket
turned all the way up. He reached for Kevin and couldn't find him. He
remembered that Kevin was at the hospital with Johnny. He forced himself to
sit up in bed and swung his legs over the edge. Scrappy came shuffling in
to say hi. "Morning Scrappy," rasped Jason. He was suprised to hear his
own voice. It had seemed an eternity since he had talked to anyone.
Scrappy licked his hand politely. Jason stood up and grabbed his walker.
Kevin insisted that he had one incase he fell. He had fallen a couple of
days ago and had a huge bruise on his right shoulder. He could still see
the tears in Kevin's eyes when he picked him up and carried him to bed.
That afternoon he brought the walker in. Jason shuddered at the memory of
the huge fight that followed. Jason being stubborn didn't want the walker.
Kevin being the sencible one insisted on it. Kevin had finally won. It
hurt Jason still because of the harsh words he had said to Kevin. Kevin had
long since forgiven him but Jason hadn't forgiven himself for the harsh
words he had said. Scrappy fall in step beside Jason. He was walking a
little better now. An hour later he was dressed and down stairs eating
breakfast.
At the hospital.
"Daddy?" asked a weak and tinny voice. Kevin jerked awake and looked over
at Johnny. He smiled at the sight of his foster son sitting in bed. He was
pale and shaking but he was sitting. "I'm hungry, can I have something to
eat please?" Tears came to Kevin's eyes and he wept with joy and reliefe.
Johnny looked confused and a little scared. Kevin came up to him and put
his hand on his shoulder. He was still in the tent so Kevin wasn't actually
touching his son.
"I don't think that he needs that tent any more," said a voice. Kevin
looked up and saw Johnny's doctor standing in the door. He walked in and
helped Kevin remove the tent. Once Johnny was free of the tent Kevin
tenderly wrapped his arms around his foster son and hugged him. Johnny let
out a small moan as he felt the arms of his Foster Father wrap around him.
Kevin just held him for a few moments enjoying the sensation of holding his
son. Than he heard a small growling sound. Johnny let out a giggle and
Kevin started laughing.
"So you're hungry," laughed Kevin. Johnny nodded. "Well Doc, can he eat
something?" Kevin asked.
"We will start him out on clear liquids for this morning and see how he does
with that," the Doctor said. "And I have some good news. From what the
test results tell us the Leukemia is in remission." Kevin just nodded. He
didn't trust himself with any words right now. He was to overcome with
emotions.
"That means I can go home right?" demanded Johnny. The Doctor let out a
small chuckle.
"Yes Johnny you can home in a few days," the Doctor said. Johnny let out a
small cheer and Kevin and the Doctor let out a small laugh. Kevin went up
to the Doctor and extended his hand.
"I can't thank you enough, you have saved my son's life," Kevin said with
tears flowing freely.
"I was honored to do it sir," the Doctor said wiping his eyes to.
"Oh God!" exclaimed Kevin as he looked for his phone. "I have to call Jason
and let him know!"
At South Fork.
Jason finished drinking his cup of tea. He had started drinking tea because
it agreed with him. The phone rang and he picked it up. "Hello?" he asked
into the phone.
"Jas?" Kevin asked. Jaosn knew that he had news.
"Yea Kevin Babe, what is it?" he asked. He heard Kevin draw a shaky voice.
"It's Johnny," Kevin said. His voice was cracking. Jason waited for Kevin
to get control of his emotions. "He is in remission." Jason' bowed his
head and wept silently. "Jason?" asked Kevin. "Jas, please say something."
"I'm here Babe," Jason sobbed. He looked outside and smiled through his
tears of joy. Spring had finally come to South Fork. "I'm thanking God
right now."
"Me too Jas," Kevin said. Jason heard heard Johnny laugh in the background.
He closed his eyes to the sound savoring it. "I want you here with us
right now!" Kevin pleaded.
"I'm on my way," Jason said. "Just give the word and I am on my way.
Kevin?" asked Jason.
"Yea Babe," Kevin answered.
"Did you tell Justin yet?" Jason asked.
"No I'm going to let Johnny tell him," Kevin said smiling at Johnny's look
on his face when he saw his breakfast. It wasn't what Johnny had in mind.
"Hey Jason, Johnny's breakfast just arrived. I'm going to help him eat it.
So I will see you later this morning. You are still comming right?" Kevin
pleaded.
"I wouldn't miss this for the world," Jason said grinning. "Bye Babe, I'll
see you both in a bit."
Kevin set his cell phone on bedside table and looked over at Johnny. Johnny
was inspecting his breakfast very carefully. He scrunched up his nose and
said,"Yucki!" Kevin laughed at loud and Johnny glared at him as he pushed
the tray away.
"Uh uh Buddy," Kevin said in a fatherly tone. "You have to eat that." He
pushed the tray back to Johnny. Johnny sighed and picked up his spoon and
ate some chicken broth.
Kevin sat with Johnny helping and convincing him to eat his meal. Finally
Johnny finished most of the breakfast and Kevin said that was enough. Kevin
picked up the phone and dialed a number. A sleepy voice answered the phone.
"Hi," mumbled Justin as he sat up in bed rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"Uh Justin," Kevin said. "It's me Kevin. I have some news for you."
"What is it?" Justin said panicing right away. "Is it Johnny? Is it Jason?"
Tears welled up in Justin's eyes as he feared the worst. Kevin handed the
phone to Johnny.
"Hi Uncle Justin!" Johnny exclaimed into the phone. "Guess what?" Johnny
was grinning ear to ear at the chance to tell his adopted Uncle the good
news.
"Johnny?" asked Justin shocked. The last time he had seen Johnny he wasn't
even able to hold his head up. "What's up little Buddy?"
"I'm in remission!" Johnny said excited. There was silence on the other
end. "Uncle Justin?" Johnny asked worried. He could hear Justin sobbing in
the back ground. "Please don't cry Uncle Jusitn," he pleaded with tears of
his own. Johnny didn't understand why Justin was crying. Kevin gently took
the phone from Johnny's small hand.
"Justin?" Kevin asked softly into the phone.
"God Kevin," sobbed Justin. "Is it true? Is Johnny in remission?"
"Yes Justin, Johnny is remission. He is going to all right," soothed Kevin.
"The Bone Marrow Transplant worked."
"Thank God," breathed Justin. There was a period of silence on the other
end. "Uh Kevin, can I talk to Johnny now?"
"Sure Justin, here is he," Kevin said wiping his eyes. Johnny was confused
to see his foster dad crying too.
"Uncle Justin?" he asked in a soft tone letting his worry show.
"Hey Johnny," Justin said in a bright tone. Johnny brightened up when he
heard the change of voice. "I'm on my way to see you."
"Really?" squeeled Johnny as he jumped up and down in the bed. "When are
comming?" Kevin could hear Justin laughing in the back ground.
"I'm leaving as soon as I can get a flight. Is it Ok if I bring JC with
me?" Justin asked.
"Sure!" giggled Johnny. After spending a few more moments with Justin he
started yawning. Kevin took the phone away from Johnny.
"Hey Justin?" asked Kevin. "Johnny is tired so we're going to let you go so
he can rest. We will see you when you get in?" After finishing up the last
details Kevin turned off the phone and looked over at his Foster son. He
was laying on the pillow sleeping. Kevin stretched out beside him and
pulled him close and closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep.
In Texas at a Ranch.
"In the News this morning, we have just recieved word that Johnny Nicolson
the eight year old suffering from luekemia is in remission. This happened
after Foster Parents Kevin Scott Richardson and his Gay Lover Jason
Richardson found a Bone Marrow Donor, Justin Timberlake of Nsync. No word
yet if the couple are going to adopt young Johnathan Nicolson. Now back to
your morning traffic report. We go live to Channle 6 in the sky over
Dallas."
"Honey!" bellowed a man as he switched off the TV. "We have a problem. A
couple of Faggots are trying to adopt our Son!"
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This is one possibility for the Story. The Battle over young Johnny will
begin as his real parents try to lay claim on him after eight years of
abandoment. E-mail me your vote. Should I continue with Rude Awakening (A
path to light) Or do I continue the path of Rude Awakening (The Trail of
Tears)? frncesco@hotmail.com
Please read Trail of Tears too. I want to let the Readers decide which way
to take the story.