Date: Mon, 05 Jun 2000 13:11:36 EDT From: Frnces O'Rtg <frnceso@hotmail.com> Subject: Rude Awakening Chapters 21 & 22 Rude Awakening Chapters 21&22 Copyright 2000 By Francis O'Ratigan. All rights reserved. With the exceptions of short excerpts for critical reviews, no part of this work may be reproduced in any manner whatsoever without permission in writing from the Author. This story is complete fiction. This story in no way implies the ACTUAL sexual orientation or beliefs of Actual living people. In other words FICTION!! Is any one still reading this story? Any comments are welcome. Good or bad. Feel free to e-mail me at frnceso@hotmail.com Rude Awakening Chapter 21 The room is dark, and a small crowd of people are gathered around a bed. The bed holds a small weak child. His breathing stops and the monitor sounds out the long solid beep. A man falls to his knees burying his head in the chest of the dead child sobbing as if it was his life that was cut short. He lifts his head and glares up at the heavens. "JOHNNY!" Kevin screams, "Don't leave me!" He sits up in bed covered in sweat. He franticaly throws off the blankets and runs out of the master bedroom and into the hall. He stops at the bedroom door and looks in. He breathes a sigh of relief as he spots him lying in bed. He walks into the room and falls to his knees and reaches out and strokes the boys forehead. He allows the tears of relief to stream down his face. A hand touches his shoulder and he looks up and smiles and reaches up and places his hand on the hand that touched him. "Same dream Babe?" asks a sleepy voice. Kevin nodds and stands up. "He is alive Kevin. He is alive and well and he isn't going any where." Kevin nodds again and falls into the arms of his husband Jason. Jason gently strokes Kevin's back whispering, "I love you babe." They take another look at their foster son sleeping. Scrappy is laying at the foot of the bed sleeping too. Johnny has his arms wrapped around a large teddy bear that Justin had got him when he came home from the hospital. "He is a great kid," commented Jason as he guides his sleepy husband back to their room. Once there they Kevin heads into the bathroom and closes the door. Jason heads into the sitting room and gets a bottle of water from the mini fridge and opens the bottle and drinks from it. He stares out the huge bay window/french doors that looks out over the back yard. He relishes the ice cold liquid as it cascades down his throat. It is the early morning of the 21 of May. Johnny had been home now for almost a month and a half. A smile broke his face as he recalled the day before. (Flash back) "Johnathan Jason Richardson!" bellowed Kevin as he came charging out of the bathroom covered in blue dye. It had appeared that young Johnny had been taking lessons from AJ. He had put blue dye in his Foster Fathers shampoo. Jason looked up from his coffee and tried to act natural. "Oh Good Morning Babe," he said in a deadpan voice. "Feeling a little blue this morning?" Kevin glares at Jason with a glare of death. Poor Jason couldn't hold back any more. He busted up laughing and after a few moments of trying not to laugh Kevin gave in too. "You have to admit things are rather lively around here," Jason said as he got up and crossed the kitchen and grabbed his lover in an embrace and pressed his lips to Kevin's. Kevin let out a moan and graced Jason's lips with his tongue gently probing to gain entry into Jason's mouth. Jason opened his mouth and slid his tongue into Kevin's mouth. The two lovers continue their kissing for a few moments. "EWWWWW Yucki!" exclaimed a child's voice. Kevin broke apart and looked down at his mischiveous son. "Do you want to explain your self?" Kevin asked. Johnny just giggled and hid behind Jason. "Uh uh little guy," Jason laughed as he stepped away leaving poor Johnny in range of his blue foster father. "Well um AJ said you would like it," Johnny explained trying hard not to laugh. Kevin just shook his head and picked Johnny up and ran back up stairs. From the laughing and squeeling that was taking place Jason assumed that Johnny's punishment was another attack from the tickle monster, namely Kevin. "Jas?" asked a voice startling Jason out of his daydream. He looked up and saw his lover standing in the doorway in all his nakedness. Jason's breath caught in his throat and started getting light headed. It always happened when he laid eyes on Kevin. "You might want to breathe Jason. Oxygen to the brain is vital to ones survival." He sat down next to Jason his eyes twinkling with laughter. Jason laid his head on Kevin's shoulder and allowed his hand to travel to Kevin's limp cock. He gently stroked it as he admired how it slowly started grow in size. Soon it was fully erect. "Umm Jas," Kevin said in a squeaky voice. "We're about to have a little mess here." "Oh well we certainly can't have that now can we," purred Jason as he laid down in Kevin's lap and engulfed his cock. Soon Jason was doing what he loved most. Giving his husband pleasure. Kevin's hips began to slowly thrust upwards to meet Jason's onslaught. His moans and heavy breathing told Jason that Kevin was enjoying the gift of love that he had to offer. Jason enjoyed the feel and taste of Kevin's cock in his mouth. He always enjoyed this part of love making the most. It was his special way to show that he loved Kevin fully. Kevin was concerned that Jason swallowing his seed was not healthy due to his cancer. But Jason was stubborn and wanted it so Kevin gave up arguing a long time ago. "OOHH God Jas!" Kevin moaned out as he placed his hands on Jason's shoulder and continued to gently thrust in and out. Jason met each thrust with eagerness. "I'm close babe!" he gasped out. Jason just looked up at Kevin and winked at him which sent Kevin over the edge and he plunged in one last time spewing his load into the mouth of his lover. Jason eagerly swallowed every drop. After he was done he gently licked Kevin's cock clean and than snuggled up to Kevin. He put his hand on Kevin's chest and felt the pounding of his heart. He smiled up at Kevin and Kevin smiled down at him. "My favorite music is playing," Jason said as he laid his head on Kevin's chest. In a few minutes he was asleep. Kevin picked him up and and carried him to bed. He laid him down and covered him up. The sun started peeking in the window. It was still early but Kevin had given up sleeping along time ago. After Johnny's close call in the hospital Kevin was plagued with night mares. Every one was the same. Johnny dies and than he sees him walking through an open door way filled with a gentle light. Kevin calls to him with no avail. Kevin shakes his head and slides on a pair of boxers and sweats and heads down stairs to the home gym. Maybe a good workout is just what he needs. On his way down he runs into Justin. Justin was taking a break from his tour and was spending time with Johnny. Wich made Johnny very happy. Ben was there too which made Justin very happy too. Kevin was still disturbed about Justin's realationship with his former husband. "Morning Kevin," Justin said with a grin. "Morning Justin," Kevin answered back with a yawn. Justin frowned at Kevin concerned. "You need to take care of yourself Kev," he said shaking his head. "I'm here so why don't you let me handle the load for a couple of days?" Kevin shook his head no. "Kevin," Justin started ready to argue. Kevin stopped him with a glare. "Remember the last time you took Jason in for his Radiation treatment?" he asked Justin. Justin looked down at his feet and blushed. They had to work the next few days getting Justin calmed down. The treatments were very hard on Jason. Justin hated to see Jason in that much pain. It still gave him night mares. "I will take him in for his chemo and raditaion treatments than I promise that I will take a small break," Kevin said relenting a little. Justin seemed sastified with that and went happily on his way. He heard the thundering of small feet and looked up in time to see Johnny and Scrappy charging down the hall towards him. He barely had time to duck out of the way. "Morning Justin!" shouted Johnny as he raced by poor Justin. Scrappy barked his greeting at Justin and continued on his mission. Justin slowly counted off the seconds. "One, Two, Thre--." "Walk!" bellowed Kevin followed by his laugh. Justin grinned as he headed towards Jason's room. He peaked in and smiled when he saw Jason sitting in the sitting room. "Morning Jas," Justin said with one of his trade mark grins. Jason's face lit up with a grin. Justin frowned at how thin Jason was he also noticed the dark circles around his eyes. Jason was not doing well. Justin couldn't remember him eating since he had showed up. And that was almost a week ago. Jason caught the frown and looked away. "You're not taking care of yourself." It was a statement not a question. "Come on Jason, we are worried about you." He sat next to him and put his arm around him. Jason tried to shrug him off but Justin pulled him close. He felt his small body shake. He looked down at Jason and saw tears flowing down his face. "Want to tell me what is wrong?" "I'm tired Justin," Jason wept out. "I'm so fucking tired of being sick all the time. I just want to be well. Is that to much to ask? I mean do you know the last time I felt good?" he asked Justin. Justin shook his head no. "The day of the Bone Marrow Drive. And even that day wasn't the greatest," Jason said bitterly. Justin looked around for Kevin but there wasn't any sign of him. Jason was falling into a depression again even though the Doctor said his cancer was getting better. It had been three months since he was struck with the disease. Justin just held his friend as he cried himself to sleep. Once he was asleep he laid him down on the couch and covered him up. "Oh Jason," he said sadly. "What I wouldn't give to trade places with you for one day." "Don't we all wish that," said a voice behind him. Justin turned around and smiled brightly. Ben came walking in the door and wrapped his arms around Justin and pulled him close for a kiss. "Hi sweety!" Justin said brightly. Ben laughed at Justin bright and cheerful responce. "We need to talk to Kevin about Jason," Justin said returning to his sober self. Ben nodded quietly. The two walked out of the bedroom. That was the only room that Jason spent any amount of time in any more. Justin and Ben walked into the gym. They spotted Kevin running on the treadmill. He was concentrating on his running that he didn't even see them walk in. Justin walked up to one side of him and Ben on the other side. "Kev?" Justin spoke up. Kevin hit the power down button and stepped off the treadmill. "We need to talk to you about Jason." Kevin grabbed his bottle of water and towel and headed outside. Justin and Ben of course followed him out. "Well I am listening," Kevin said taking a drink of his water. "He isn't eating," Justin said. Kevin noticed that it wasn't a question. He nodded. "He is depressed too," Justin added. "Tell me something I don't know Just," Kevin said a little impatient. He didn't need Justin to remind him that his husband was falling down hill fast. "I mean what do you want me to do about it. Hold him down and force him to eat, force him to be happy?" Kevin shouted at poor Justin. Kevin threw the bottle of water across the yard in a fit of rage. "Jesus Christ Justin he is slowly dying and there is not a fucking thing I can do about it!" Tears were streaming down Kevin's face. He sank to his knees staring at the ground. "There is something you can do about it," Justin said sternly. He got down so that he was looking Kevin in the eyes. Kevin tried to look away but Justin stopped him. "You have to admit him." "NO!" Kevin shouted. "He is dying!" Justin shouted back at Kevin. Tears were flowing down both of their faces. Ben just stood there looking down at the two of the people he loved the most in this world. "Please Kevin, you have to admit him," Justin whimpered. Kevin nodded and slowly got up and walked into the house. Justin and Ben followed him upstairs and into the bedroom. Jason was still on the couch sleeping. He looked down at his lover and saw how thin he was. He was barely even breathing. Kevin knelt down lightly kissed his cheek and whispered in Jason's ear. Jason opened his eyes and smiled at Kevin. "Hi sweetie," Kevin said as he ran the back of his hand along Jason's face. "How are you feeling?" Jason looked around the room and saw Justin and Ben standing behind Kevin. He got this scared look in his face. "What is going on?" he asked in weak voice. Kevin looked down fighting back the tears. "Jason, I'm going to take you to the hospital," he said. "No, please Kevin," Jason argued with Kevin. Kevin shook his head no. "I want to stay home. Please don't make me go," he whimpered. Kevin looked back at Justin. Justin knelt down and took Jason's hand. "You are dying baby," Kevin sobbed out. "You are not eating, and you are depressed. I have to take you in." Jason was silent as he looked down. He knew that Kevin was right. Kevin stood up and called the ambulance service. Justin sat on the couch with Jason and held his hand. "Were only doing what is best for you Jas," Justin said rubbing Jason's arm. Jason nodded quietly. They heard a noise in the hall. Justin looked up and saw Johnny standing there with his arm wrapped around Scrappy's neck. "Justin can you do me a favor?" Jason asked. "Sure, just name it," Justin smiled at Jason. "Can you make sure that Johnny gets to Church this morning?" Jason asked. Justin nodded understanding. Jason wanted Johnny out of the house before the Ambulance showed up. Kevin caught on to and asked for a delay. "Come On Johnny let's get you showered and dressed. You have to go to Church," Justin said grinning down at the boy. "Are you going to?" Johnny asked Justin. "Sure I am," Justin said as he messed up Johnny's hair. Johnny swatted Justin's hand away and took off running down the hall. Kevin almost bellowed for him to walk but decided against that. He went back to Jason's side and sat down and laid Jason's head in his lap. Jason looked away from Kevin. It tore Kevin's heart in two. "Please Jason don't be mad at me," he said as a tear fell from his eye and onto Jason's face. Jason looked up and started crying to. "I just want you well again." Jason nodded and closed his eyes. On the Way to Church "Uncle Justin?" Johnny asked. Justin looked down at Johnny. "Are you Catholic too?" "No Johnny, I'm Baptist," Justin answered. Johnny scrunched up his nose. "What's a Baptist?" he asked. Justin rolled his eyes and laughed a little. He had no idea that being a Uncle would be such hard work. The rest of the way to Church was spent with Justin trying to explain to Johnny why Catholics were different than Baptists. He was relieved when they arrived at the Catholic Church. Than he had to listen to Johnny explain all about the statues and Stations of the Cross and the tabernacle. Justin listen very patiently as young Johnny explained in great detail all about the Catholic Church. Justin noticed that he was getting a few stares from the members of the congergation. He leaned down. "We might want to continue the lesson until after Church little buddy," he whispered in Johnny's ear. The ambulance pulls up the Emergency room door. Kevin climbed out first and helped the paramedic unload the stretcher. After spending the next half hour they finally got Jason settled in a room. Jason was quiet throughout all of this. He only answered questions when asked. After the Doctor wrote some notes he left. Kevin took Jason's hand and kissed it. Jason smiled at Kevin to let him know that he wasn't mad anymore. The door opened and a nurse came in with a tray. "What are you doing now?" Kevin asked when he saw the long rubber tube. He was afraid that Jason was going to resist this. "The Doctor has ordered a Feeding tube," the nurse said flatly. Jason opened his eyes and glared at Kevin. The Nurse caught it too. "You're not eating Jason, since your not eating and your not willing to eat we are going to have to put a feeding tube down you." "I don't want a tube down me!" Jason yelled at the nurse. Kevin lost it. "Fuck it!" he yelled. Both Jason and the Nurse jumped. "You can either lie here and die or you can live. I don't care anymore!" With that said he stormed out. Fifteen minutes later the Nurse came out of the room. "Well did it work?" Kevin asked. "Yep, worked like a charm. I got the feeding tube down and he is resting," the nurse said with a grin on her face. "Can I go in and see him?" Kevin asked. She nodded and Kevin walked in. His heart broke in two when he saw the tube running out of Jason's nose. Jason was asleep so Kevin sat on the couch and watched his lover sleep. He heard a light knock on the door and the door cracked open. Justin peeked his head in. Kevin waved him in. Justin and Johnny came walking in the door. Johnny had his Teddy Bear in his arms and he marched right up to Jason and placed the teddy bear in his arms. Kevin raised his eyebrows. "He made me feel better so I'm letting Jason borrow him," Johnny explained. Kevin chuckled when Jason arm surrounded the stuffed annimal. "So how was church?" Kevin asked. "It was great! They had a Cardinal there. And do you know that Justin is a Baptist and I had to explain every thing to him and--," Johnny continued to fill his foster dad in on the happenings at church. Kevin listened as his son babbled on and on about Church. It was a nice distraction from what was weighing on Kevin's mind. Justin noticed that Kevin was tired. He thought about how he was going to get Kevin home and in bed to rest. He noticed that Johnny was yawning too. "You tired Johnny?" he asked. Johnny of course being a kid and afraid that the mean old Grownups would make him take a nap quickly shook his head no. Kevin of course caught on. "You know something Johnny?" he asked. I'm kinda tired so why don't I take you home and we will both take a nap?" Johnny looked at Justin. "You and your dad go on home and rest. I will stay here with Jason for awhile," Justin said with a smile. Johnny took his foster fathers hand and they walked out of the room. Justin sat back to begin his vigil at Jason's bedside. Jason let out a small moan and opened his eyes. He reached for the feeding tube to try and pull it out. Justin was quick as he reached and grabbed Jason's hand. "No Jason!" he said sternly. "You need that!" Jason glared at him and closed his eyes with out saying anything. "He is going to resist treatment at first," said a voice. Justin looked up and saw a Doctor standing in the doorway. "I'm Doctor Jackson. I will be treating Jason for his depression. You must be Jason's friend Justin," he said as he stepped forward and shook Justin's hands. "Why is he resisting?" Justin asked confused. "He is depressed. And he is convinced that the treatments are not going to work and most importantly he has lost his will to live," Dr. Jackson answered. "Are they working?" Justin asked. "Yes they are," the Doctor answered. "From the test results we recieved today we are winning this battle. Jason, whether he knows it or not is on the road to recovery. Our job is to convince him of that. It will be diffilcult because we," he said indicating Justin as well. "We have become the enemy. He thinks we will say anything to keep him from killing himself." "He is right you know," Justin said. "I will say anything to keep him alive." "It will be a struggle. But we have to focus on the positive things in his life. Such as his husband and foster child and your friendship," Dr. Jackson added. Justin nodded. "I will do any thing to help Dr.," Justin added. "Good, because we will need all the help we can get," Dr. Jackson said as he attatched some restraints to Jason's wrists. "These are for his safety," Dr. Jackson said catching the look of horror on Justin's face. "Do we really need to do that?" Justin asked. "Yes we do," Dr. Jackson said shortly. "Even though he is on a around the clock watch there is still the chance that he might try something. Justin nodded quietly. Kevin was going to have a fit about this. The doctor had left by now. No sooner did he leave than Jason's eyes open and looked around. He tried to raise his hand and found that he couldn't. "They had to restrain you," Justin said as he got up and walked over to his bedside. "They don't want you to hurt yourself. "I just want the pain to stop," Jason sobbed out as he tried to fight against the restraints. "Why are they treating me like this? Why can't they just leave me alone in peace?" "And you think that killing yourself is going to help?" Justin asked getting a little angry. Jason didn't answer him. "Well the Jason I know would never give up like this!" Justin yelled at him. "Oh and you think you could go through something like this?" Jason hurled back at him. "Look at me Justin! I am a sick and ugly person. I hate what I have become. I don't even know why Kevin stays with me!" Justin walked over to the window and looked out. He was mad, mad at Jason for giving up. He took several deep breaths to calm himself. Turning back to Jason, "You are not ugly Jason," he said slowly. "You are the greatest man I know! And you are a beautiful person too. Why do you think Kevin fell in love with you?" Jason shook his head not believing in what Justin was trying to tell him. "Are you always this fucking stubborn?" Justin shouted at Jason. Jason looked at him shocked. He couldn't remember the last time he had heard Justin swear like that. "Don't swear Justin," he scolded before he thought. "Don't tell me what to do! I'm not a kid any more. And I will fucking swear if I fucking want to!" Justin shouted back at Jason. Jason just glared at him for a moment and than looked away. Justin sat next to Jason and took his hand. "I'm sorry I yelled at you," he mumbled. Jason lets out a giggle. "Hey I made you laugh!" smiles Justin. "Yea well at least your good for something," teases Jason. Justin looks down at Jason. There is still alot of saddness in Jason's eyes. But there is a sparkle of that old humor in his eyes. Jason lets out a yawn. "Why don't you try and get some sleep Jas?" Justin asked. "What are you going to do?" Jason asked. "I'm not going anywhere for a while. So I guess I will just keep you company for a while," Justin said with his trade mark smile. "So in other words your going to make sure I don't hurt myself," Jason hurled bitterly at him. Justin looked hurt and stood up and walked away. Jason looked away not wanting to see him hurt. He was sorry he said it but he couldn't take back the words. "Kevin is right!" Justin yelled at Jason in anger. Jason glares up at Justin. "OH please! Like that is going to stop me from saying what I have to say." Jason looked away mentally turning off his ears to what Justin was going to say. But Justin wouldn't have any of that. He scrambed over to the other side of Jason and grabbed his chin and jerked his head up so that he was glaring in his eyes. Jason tried to jerk away but Justin was too strong. "You're going to hear what I have to say! Kevin is right! You have got to be the most stubborn jack ass in the world. I don't know why we even bother with you. I'm outta here!" With that said Justin stormed out of the room. Jason glared at the ceiling for a while tears streaming down his face. They were tears of anger. He was tired of this disease. This disease was beating him and there was nothing he could do to stop it. "You know that is not true," a voice said. Jason turned towards the door and spoted Ben standing there. Jason looked away not wanting to talk to him. "That wont work Jason. I'm still here and I am not going anywhere until you hear what I have to say." Ben walked over to him and sat in the chair next to Justin's bed. "This disease doesn't have to beat you. You are stronger than this thing." "Yea right like you would know!" Jason yelled at Ben. Ben tried not to laugh but failed. "What is so fucking funny?" demanded Jason glaring at Ben. "Helllooooo!"Ben shouted at Jason. "I had cancer before. I've been in your shoes! And yes I felt like giving up too. I didn't have the support you have. You are a Jackass! You are closing every door you have available to you. You've shut out Kevin and---," he shouted at Jason. "Shut up!" Jason interupted Ben. "No I will not shut up! Not until you listen to what I have to say you stubborn jack ass!" Ben shouted back at Jason. Jason glared at him some more but Ben kept right on talking. "You've shut out Kevin, your husband, the one person that you swore you would never do that to. You've shut out your son, and Justin, Me, just about everyone who cares for you. All you want to do wallow in your own selfish grief. Well we wont let you! Dammit Jason we love you and we will not let you crawl off in your own private hell and die!" Ben sat back down and listen to the sudden silence in the room. It was so loud that Ben couldn't stand it any longer. "Well what do you have to say for yourself." Jason looked up at him with tears in his eyes. "I don't want to die," he sobbed out. "But I am so tired." "You're not going to die. You have to believe that you will beat this thing. Man you are over half way there. You are winning this battle, the battle is not winning you. Please Jason don't shut us out any more. Let us help you," Ben pleaded with Jason. Jason looked around for a phone. "What are you doing?" Ben asked. "I need to call Kevin," Jason said through his tears. Ben laughed softly and wrapped his arms around Jason and pulled him close. "Kevin went home to get some rest. He will be back this afternoon," Ben said. "But what about Justin? he is so mad at me right now," Jason said with fresh tears in his eyes. "I have to apologies to him." The door closed and Justin came walking back in. Jason looked at him with tears flowing down his face. "Justin I am so---," he started. Justin gently laid his finger on Jason's lips. "You have done nothing to be sorry for Jas," Justin said as he wiped Jason's tears from his face. "You just need to understand that we don't see a sick person. We see You, Kevin's husband, Johnny's father, my friend. You are sick but that is not what we see. We love you and we want you well. Please don't shut us out any more. Cause if you do, I'll have to beat the crap out of you," Justin said laughing. This brought a smile to Jason's face. "Yea right like you could hurt a fly," Jason giggled. Justin laughed too and hugged Jason close to him. "You need to get some rest Jason," Justin lightly scolded him. Jason nodded and closed his eyes. Justin watched Jason as he fell asleep. When Justin was sure that Jason was all right he left the room with Ben to spend some quality time with his lover. Chapter 22 (At South Fork) Kevin opened his eyes and looked around. He felt someone laying next to him. He sat up and discovered that Johnny was sleeping next to him. Kevin smiled down at the small child. He quietly slipped out of bed and headed down stairs. Walking into the living room he spotted Justin and Ben kissing on the couch. He rolled his eyes and sat next to them. Justin broke apart and looked up at Kevin. Kevin looked better than he did this morning. "You look better," Justin commented. "I feel better," Kevin replied smiling. "How is Jason doing?" "They had to restrain him," Justin said quietly. "What the hell did they do that for?" shouted Kevin standing up. Justin stood up and took Kevin's hand and gently pulled him back down. "Kev, they had to," Justin said. "He woke up and tried to remove his feeding tube." "How did he take it?" Kevin asked worried. "He's fighting it," Justin said sadly. He looked over at Kevin and saw tears in his eyes. "This is tearing you up isn't it?" Kevin nodded and stood up and walked to the window. "But he was doing better when we left him. We had this huge fight well argument really. Between Ben and Me I think we convinced him that we really want to help him." "He wanted to call you but I told him you would stop by this afternoon," Ben spoke up. Kevin looked up and saw that it was just now Noon. He grabbed his jackett and started to head out. Justin stopped him. "Kevin you need to eat lunch," Justin said quietly. "I'll get something on the way," Kevin retorted. "No you wont! If I know you, you will go straight to the hospital and not eat or anything. Kevin you need to take care of yourself!" Justin demanded. Kevin knew he was fighting a loosing battle so he turned and headed into the kitchen and started fixing lunch for Johnny and him. Justin went back to snuggling with Ben. "Hey sexy!" Ben giggled as Justin started nibbling on Ben's ear. "You know what happens when you do that!" he scolded Justin. "mmmhmmm," moaned Justin as he started to lightly suck on Ben's neck. Ben knew what Justin was doing. Justin was trying to give him a hickey. He knew that Ben hated that. "Justinnn," whined Ben. Justin let out a giggle and pulled away. "There all done!" Justin exclaimed with pride as he inspected his handy work up close. Ben rolled his eyes. "You look so sexy like that," Justin said with the widest smile. Ben threw himself on Justin and pressed his lips to Justin's. Justin moaned as he opened his mouth to allow Ben's tongue in. Ben started to slowly grind his crotch into Justin's. From the reaction to Justin he could tell that he was exciting Justin. "Make love to me?" Justin pleaded. Ben stood up and took Justin's hand and led him up stairs. Once in side the room Ben started to remove Justin's clothes. He still marveled at the beauty of Justin's body. He was perfect in every way. He finally had Justin naked and he sat back to admire him. Justin blushed from the attention he was getting. "God you are so beautiful!" Ben breathed. He bent down and lightly kissed Justin on the lips. Justin's hands found their way to Ben's shirt and he pulled it up. Ben let loose of Justin's lips long enough for Justin to remove Ben's shirt. Justin allowed his hands to travel down Ben's well sculpted chest and down his abs and to the waist band of his jeans. With the quickest of moves he had the jeans undone and removed. Than he removed Ben's boxers and took hold of Ben's cock and licked the head. "OOOHHH GOD Justin!" Ben moaned out. A huge drop of Precome leaked out and Justin gobbled it up. Than he slowly engulfed Ben's cock. Slowly taking in one inch at a time. He opened his mouth as wide as he could and closed his eyes and kept going down. He stopped when he felt the gentle tickle of Ben's pubic hair. Than he bobbed up and down on it a few times to get it good and lubed. Than he took his mouth off and laid down and spread his legs and looked up Ben with Lust glazed eyes. "Take me now," he begged with his voice trembling with excitement. Ben grinned down at him and guided his cock to Justin's entrance. He pushed until the cock head slipped passed the ring. Justin let out a sudden breath. Ben stopped and looked down at Justin for signs of discomfort. Justin urged him on with the movement of his hips. Ben continued to ease in until he was completely buried inside of Justin. Justin enjoyed the sensation of having Ben inside of him. Ben eased out and than slammed back in racking Justin with waves of pleasure. Ben continued to ease out and than slamm back in. Each time he slammed in he could feel the head of his cock hit Justin's Prostrate gland. This would send Justin into waves of pleasure/agony. Ben looked down at Justin's cock. It was huge. And it looked like it was ready to explode any second. And niether of them had touched it. "OOH God Ben," moaned Justin. "You feel so good." Ben smiled down at Justin and leaned forward and pressed his lips to Justin's as he continued to slam into Justin. Justin moaned into Ben's mouth driving Ben nuts. Ben could tell that he was close so he backed off because he wanted to time his orgasm with Justin's. By the sound of Justin he was getting close. Justin let out a whimper when Ben slowed down so Ben picked up his pace again. Justin let out a loud groan and shot his load between the two of them. This sent Ben over the edge and he blasted his load deep into the bowles of Justin. The two lovers broke apart breathing heavily. The smell of their lovemaking was thick in the air. Ben looked over at Justin and smiled. "Wow!" was all Justin could say. Ben nodded as he swung his legs over the side of the bed and picked up Justin and carried him into the bathroom. He set him in the shower stall and turned on the water and climbed in himself. "Thank you so much babe," Justin said as he buried his head in Ben's chest. "You're welcome Justin," Ben said weakly. Justin picked up the sponge and put some body soab on it and started to give his lover a bath. Ben looked on in amusement as Justin took his task very seriously. Soon it was Justin's turn. Ben took the sponge and started cleaning Justin. He stopped at his cock. It was erect again. Ben smiled and nuzzled it with his lips. Justin let out a groan. "I think Jr. wants some attention," Ben said as he slipped Justin's cock in his mouth. Justin threw back his head and grabbed onto Ben's shoulders for support. "Fuck me in the face babe," Ben urged with his mouth full of Justin's cock. Justin started to thrust in and out of Ben's mouth. Ben enjoyed the sensation of being fucked in the face. >From the moans and groans from Justin he was enjoying it too. He savored the feel of Justin's heavy balls slapping him in the chin. But soon the balls were pulling themselves close to Justin's body. Ben knew that the young singer would not last long. He looked up at Justin's rock hard body. Justin had tensed up just about every muscle in his body. He was hot! The sight almost made Ben cum too. Finally Justin's cock head swelled and blasted the first of many shots of his cum down Ben's throat. Ben eagerly swallowed the first few shots and than removed Justin's shooting cock from his mouth and allowed Justin to shoot the remainder of his load on his face. After Justin was finally done Ben gently licked his cock clean and than stood up and kissed Justin on the lips. Justin than licked Ben's face clean. Fifteen minutes later they were cleaned and headed back downstairs. They had to dodge Johnny and Scrappy as the two raced down stairs. "Man it is so good to see him healthy again," Justin said smiling. They headed into the kitchen and joined Kevin & Johnny for lunch. Half way through lunch the door bell rang. Kevin rolled his eyes and stood and went to get it. Justin put his hand on Kevin's arm. "I'll get it Kevin. You sit and have lunch with Johnny." Justin headed to the front door and opened it. There on the door step was a young couple. The man looked about 25. The girl looked to be about 24 or less. "Yes can I help you?" Justin asked. "Yes, I'm Johnathan Nicholson and this is my wife Rachel, can we come in?" Johnathan asked. Justin frowned as he thought about the last name. Than it dawned on him. Johnny's last name was Nicholson. "Umm yea, please come in," Justin mumbled as he stepped aside. "Um why don't you have a seat in the living room and I will get Kevin." Justin raced into the kitchen. He walked up to Kevin and whispered in his ear. Kevin choked on the water he was drinking and grabbed a napkin and wiped his mouth and followed Justin out of the kitchen. Ben and Johnny looked at each other and shrugged and Johnny grabbed another sandwich. "What can I do for you?" Kevin asked in a neutral but cold voice. Johnathan looked up and stood up and offered his hand. Kevin made no move to take it. "Um I guess you figured out who we are," commented Johnathan. "Well I take it you are relatives of Johnny's," Kevin said. "Actually we are his biological parents," Rachael spoke up. Kevin took a sudden breath in. "Please Mr. Richardson, calm down, we're not here to cause trouble. We just want to know how he is, and if he is happy," Rachael said in a soothing voice. "He is in complete remission and he is happy," Kevin said. Rachael let out shaky sigh and sat down and retrieved a tissue from her purse and wiped here eyes. "I know this is asking a lot but can we see him?" Kevin stood up and walked to the window and looked out onto the front lawn of South Fork. He spotted a beat up ford escort. He turned and looked at them closely. It was obvious that they were poor people. He also noticed that she carried a Rosary in her hand. "He was baptized into the Church when we thought we might loose him," he said as he turned back to the window. After about five minutes of silence Justin cleared his voice softly. Kevin turns around and heads back to his chair. "Why?" he asked suddenly. His sudden demand startled the Nicholson's. "Why did you come back?" Johnathan looked at Rachael, Rachael nodded and Johnathan looked over at Kevin. "We had to make sure that our boy was well. And we had to make sure that he was in a good home!" Johnathan said bluntly. "There is another thing--," "John no!" Rachael shouted at him. "Rachael! I have to!" Johnathan said forcefully. "You promised that you wouldn't!" Rachael pleaded. "I don't like the idea of my son being raised by a couple of faggots!" he hurled at Rachael. Kevin stood up and took a couple of steps towards him. Justin stood up and put himself between the two men. "Don't Kevin," Justin warned. Rachael looked over at Kevin in an apologetic way. "Mr. Nicholson," Kevin said stiffly. "I really don't think that my sexual orientaion should have anything to do with Johnny. He is a good kid dispite the fact the fact that he has been without parents for over eight years!" Johnathan cringed at the harsh reality. He sat back down with less air in his sails. "Jason and I love that boy! And we intend to give him the love and care that you wouldn't give him for eight years!" "You don't understand," Rachael pleaded. "We were poor and couldn't afford to take care of him. I mean I was only 16 when I had him. John was only 17. We were in no shape to raise a child. Especially one with luekemia!" "So now that he is in remission and out of diapers you want to come in and take him from the people that didn't abandon him and cared for him in his most desperate hour!" Kevin hurled at them. Rachael had tears streaming down her face. Kevin looked over at the door to see Johnny standing there. He had a scared look on his face. "Johnny I don't think that you should be here right --," Kevin started. But Rachael had already seen him and stood up and walked towards him. Johnny quickly dodged her and ran to Kevin and hopped in his lap and wrapped his arms around Kevin's neck. "Who are those people Dad?" Johnny asked. Kevin closed his eyes and shook his head in frusturation. "Kevin," Justin said softly. "Don't lie to him. He needs to know the truth." Kevin looked down at Johnny and kissed the top of his head. "Johnny these people are you biological Parents." Johnny looked at the couple closely and was real quiet for a few moments. "Um Dad?" Johnny asked with his voice quivering. "Yes Johnny?" Kevin gently prodded. "Are they going to take me away from you and Jason?" Johnny asked. Kevin struggled with the tears and anger building in him. "I don't know Johnny," Kevin answered him honestly. Johnny looked at Justin and than Kevin and than the couple. He got up and walked to Johnathan. "Are you my real father?" he asked. Johnathan nodded. "Where were you?" Johnny asked. Johnathan looked down at his feet. Johnny than walked to Rachael. "Are you my real mother?" Rachael nodded. "Where were you?" Rachael looked away. Johnny walked back to Kevin and took his hand and pulled him towards the living room door. "Come on Dad! I want to go play with my computer." Kevin stood up and walked with his foster son out of the living room and up the stairs. A half an hour later Kevin came back down stairs. Johnathan and Rachael had left. Justin was sitting in a chair staring out the window. "When did they leave?" Kevin asked with his eyes cast to the floor. "A few minutes after you and Johnny left," Justin mumbled. "How is Johnny?" "He is scared to death. He is up in his room right now praying the Rosary," Kevin said wiping a tear from his eye. "Just when his life is starting to get ---," Kevin started and than he collapsed on the couch weeping quietly. Justin went to his side and wrapped his arms around Kevin. Kevin relaxed a little allowing Justin to hold him. After a few moments he stood. "I should really get to the hospital to see how Jason is doing." "I'll stay here and keep an eye on Johnny for you," Justin said smiling. "Thanks Justin," sighed Kevin. "It is warm out today. If he wants to swim let him." Kevin headed out the door and Justin headed up stairs and peeked into Johnny's room. Sure enough there he was holding his little rosary in his hand praying. Justin crept into the room and sat next to him. Johnny looked up at his adopted Uncle. "I'm scared Justin," he said quietly. Justin patted his lap and Johnny sat in Justin lap and laid his head on Justin's chest. "I don't want to go with them." Justin took a deep breath and looked down at the little boy. "I don't want you to go either Johnny," Justin mumbled. But Justin had this filling that Johnny's way of life was threatened in a big way. "Hey how about if we go swimming?" Justin said cheerfully. Johnny shook his head no and climbed down and went to his computer and turned it on. Justin watched the little boy as he started playing one the games that he had loaded on the computer. Kevin walked into the room and spotted Jason sitting up in bed drinking a milk shake. Kevin grinned happily. "Hey Babe!" Jason looked over at him and grinned and patted the bed beside him. Kevin slid in next to him. Jason laid his head on Kevin's shoulder. "I'm sorry," Jason said in a soft voice. "I promise to be good and eat." Kevin bent down and kissed him on the nose. Jason let out a giggle. "So they took the feeding tube out?" he asked. "Yea I have a deal. If I eat at every meal time they won't put it back in," Jason said offering Kevin some of his shake. Kevin shook his head no. "So they took the restraints off too," Kevin commented as he picked up Jason's hand and kissed it. "Yea but they are keeping a close watch on me," Jason said darkly. "They just want you to get better Sweetie," Kevin said grinning at Jason. Jason looked hard at Kevin and took Kevin's hand in his. "So you want to tell me what is going on?" Jason gently prodded. Kevin looked shocked at him. "You been rubbing the bridge of you nose. You always do that when you're nervous." Jason kissed Kevin's hand. "Now spill the goods mister," he said in a scolding voice. Kevin sighed and stood up and walked to the window. "I wanted to wait until you were stronger," Kevin said. "Kevin, what is it?" Jason asked getting worried. Kevin sighed and sat back down next to Jason. "Jas," Kevin started. "Johnny biological parents showed up today."