Date: Tue, 18 Jul 2000 02:21:22 CDT
From: Jo Beth Hill <dchicagurl@hotmail.com>
Subject: Say My Name-Chapter 2

DISCLAIMER:  I do not know the sexuality of ANY of the Backstreet boys!
This is an entirely fictional story, so deal with it!

PARTNER IN CRIME:  This is a joint story written by myself and Colleen.  Her
website for her stories is http://www.geocities.com/reader_colleen.  My new
site is officially up and running, and is located at
http://community.webtv.net/dchicagurl/JoeysFanFictionWith so check it out!

E-MAIL:  You can e-mail either me (dchicagurl@hotmail.com) or Colleen
(reader_colleen@hotmail.com)  Have a nice day!

Chapter 2-Seduction

     Another restless night, just like the one's before.  Kevin lay on in
bed, alone, tossing and turning.  It was past 3 a.m. and still he hadn't
returned.  What was his lover doing so late?  Somewhere deep inside Kevin
knew why, he just didn't want to face reality.  He finally gave up on sleep
and got out of their, no, his bed lately.  He turned on all the lights in
the apartment.  Kevin heard a crash of thunder and looked out the window.
Raindrops fell gently on the glass.  Mournfully, Kevin began to think of the
days when their relationship was perfect.  He'd always be there for him
whenever Kev was upset.  He'd hold him every night and they'd always be able
to talk about anything and everything.  Kevin sighed deeply.  Those happy
days were long gone.
    He turned the radio to a country station.  The room filled with a very
true song at the moment.  Kevin listened to the lyrics as Garth Brooks voice
filled the empty void of the room.

Three thirty in the morning
Not a soul in sight
The city's looking like a ghost town
On a moonless summer night
Raindrops on the windshield
There's a storm moving in
He's heading back from somewhere
That he never should have been
And the thunder rolls

Every light is burning
In a house across town
She's pacin' by the telephone
In her faded flannel gown
Askin' for a miracle
Hoping she's not right
Prayin' it's the weather
That's kept him out all night
And the thunder rolls
And the thunder rolls

The thunder rolls
And the lightnin' strikes
Another love grows cold
On a sleepless night
As the storm blows on
Out of control
Deep in her heart
The thunder rolls

     Kevin switched the station, not wanting to hear the rest of the song.
Tears flooded his eyes as he knew that his lover was the one in the song and
he was, quite embarrassingly, the housewife.
     The handle to the front door turned and his lover finally was home.  He
didn't even look at Kevin as he made his way to the bathroom.  He threw his
damp overcoat on the sofa and pulled his shirt over his head.  As he walked
by, Kevin sure enough could smell a strange cologne.  Kevin's tears seemed
to multiply after he had smelled it.  Then Kevin's attention fell on his
lover's jacket.  Sticking out of one of the pockets was a package.  Kevin's
breath caught in his throat as he timidly pulled the package out of the
pocket.  He stared in horror as he realized what it was:  a condom.  Not
just one, but it was a pack of three; and one was missing.  Suddenly,
instead of hurt, anger filled Kevin's heart as he now had proof to his
lover's wrongs.  Just as he thought this, his lover stepped from the
bathroom.  Kevin gave him a cold stare.
     "Where were you?"  Kevin asked coldly.  His lover acted like he didn't
hear.
     "I said, where were you?"  Kevin repeated in a louder voice.
     "I had car trouble."  He stated simply.
     Kevin could not control his actions.  He walked over to his lover,
gripped his shoulders, and pressed him against the wall.
     "What the fuck is wrong with you, Kev?!"  Nick yelled, trying to break
free of Kevin's suffocating grip.
     "JUST TELL ME WHERE THE FUCK YOU WERE, NICK!!"  Kevin yelled at him.
     "I told you!"  Nick yelled back.
     "You're lying I found this in your pocket."  Kevin stated, pulling up
the package of condoms to Nick's face.  Nick started to laugh.
     "I got those from a friend.  He gets some too, you know.  I was kind of
hoping you would be in a good mood so I can put these to use."  Nick softly
replied, kissing Kevin softly.  Kevin reluctantly released Nick and deepened
the kiss.  Nick walked him over to the bed, never breaking the kiss.  They
fell down, kissing with urgency.  Nick started to pull off Kevin's shirt.
Kevin was soon lost in his own world of ecstasy as Nick started to unbuckle
his pants.  He knew that he would give in, because he loved Nick.  'Maybe I
was wrong'  Kevin thought to himself.

     The next morning, Kevin lay in bed, alone.  Kevin soon remembered what
had happened the night before and got angry at himself for letting Nick lie
and even more for giving in to him.  Kevin pulled out his journal.

***
     Another morning, another lonely day.  He came home last night, and I
found him with condoms.  I knew he had done it, I had even gathered the
strength to tell him off.  But that's when my only vulnerability shined:
Nick.  It is so hard to resist him.  It's not that I don't want to, it's
just that when he touched me, it's right.  When I'm near him, it's right.
But I still know what he's doing is not right, but I don't have the strength
to let him go.  I can only wait for the day either I get strength or he
breaks it off.  I can only wait.

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That's it!  Next chapter is Colleen's.  Stay tuned!!