Date: Sun, 25 Nov 2001 03:14:12 +0000
From: "})({ Priscy G })({" <luv_hugs_chocolate@hotmail.com>
Subject: Thank you for loving me - part 6

Hey!

This should have been out sooner but I have been way too busy for words.
Sorry.

Thanks to my three muskeeters. Love you guys :) Thanks to all my friends and
to all the people who have been sending me feedback :)

Disclaimer: I'm not any of them, I don't know them, I don't know anyone
related to them, I don't know what side their doors swing. If you shouldn't
be reading this, then you shouldn't be reading this and you know it so it's
not my responsibility if you're caught. If you're not comfortable with two
men in a relationship, get the hell out of here.

Hope you enjoy this one too :)
Luv!
Fallen ^A^ngel

~*~Kevin~*~

I got home and it was all a blur. I dropped my keys somewhere and stood in
the foyer trying to gather some sense of direction. I tried breathing but it
was like the air just wouldn't go inside my lungs.

"Kev? Baby, is that you?" I heard from a distance and then I went in the
direction of the staircase.

"I'm going to my room, k?" I said and I hoped I had made some sense when I
saw Keera's face but I didn't stop. I just went up the stairs and to my
bedroom, throwing myself face down on the bed. Why? This wasn't fair... it
just wasn't fair...

"Kev? What happened?" I barely heard Keera ask through my sobs. She forced
me on my back and then I sit up and threw myself in her arms. Why me? "Tell
me what happened..." she whispered while stroking my head.

"He kissed me." I tried to say through the sobs and then she pulled me away
from her a little to look me in the eyes.

"What did you say?"

"He kissed me!!!" I nearly yelled as I stood up and started pacing "He
fucking kissed me!!!"

"And what is so wrong with that?" she asked.

"What isn't?!" I turned to glare at her "I hate him for that! I wish I had
never done that damn party! I wouldn't have met him and this wouldn't have
happened!" I replied angrily as I resumed my pacing, not failing to notice
Keith standing by the door.

"Keera is right, you know?"

"And there you go too. Always agreeing with her." I pointed my finger at
him.

"Pushing him away before taking the risk of him pushing you away doesn't
solve anything," he replied.

"Did you tell him anything?" Keera asked softly, keeping me from yelling
more at Keith.

"Oh! Sure, I did!" I laughed bitterly "Hey, Josh, guess what? I'm
HIV-positive! Still want me?" I said, barely managed to finish the sentence
before the sobs started again and I just had time to feel Keith's arms
around me before I fell down to my knees "I hate him..." I whispered in
Keith's chest as I felt Keera hugging me from behind "I hate him..."


~*~JC~*~

"And just how was the date with blonde bombshell?" Joey asked as soon as I
entered the suite. He was sprawled on the couch, while Justin sat on the
floor, playing some video game stuff.

"Oh! Just great!" I replied sarcastically as I plopped down on an armchair.
This caused Justin to pause his game and turn to me.

"What happened?" he asked.

"I kissed him."

"And?" Joey asked "I find it hard to believe that he could kiss so badly
that it would make you that moody."

"He pulled away. And then ran away from me before I could even get the word
'wait' out of my mouth." I sighed "I screwed up once more." I rubbed my face
before resting my head back against the back of the couch.

"He just ran away?" Justin asked "That wasn't very nice of him." he
completed and I chuckled.

"I scared him away, Jus. Apparently *I* am the bad kisser one. Or maybe I
just read the wrong signs. I've done it once, why wouldn't it happen again,
right?"

TBC...

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That's it!
As you have noticed, this story deals with a sort of touchy subject... I
hope this won't keep you guys from reading it...