Date: Sun, 10 Dec 2000 02:17:39 EST
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: celebrity/boybands/the lost

Disclaimer: I don't know the BSB nor do I own them or anything like that.
This is just a story that's inside of my mind. It's making it's first
appearance in this story. It's not real in any way shape or form. By the
way *** these mean a character change. This is my second story and I'm
doing this one without a editor. So it may not be easy to read but all
words are spelled correctly. At least to my knowledge that is. As for
people wondering about my first story The Sryin. I'm sorry there is a delay
on that story. I have it some what finished, but the great and kind Kentria
who was editing my story was in a really bad accident. So until Kentria's
all better I won't be able to post more. I love any feed back so please to
E-mail me.

E-mail: Angel36745@aol.com

   I looked out my window trying to find a reason to stay. As the plane
took off I knew I would never return. I had a new life to live and a new
job. I would soon be working for a band I didn't really care for. Their
music was half way good. My little sister loved them with all her heart.
The tears started to fall again after thinking of my sister. She hated me
now along with the rest of my family. My heart was broken and so was my
mind. I thought that they could understand me. I had thought they would
love no matter what I chose to do with my life. I was quickly proven wrong
by there word's and the look on their faces. I would never make the same
mistake again. I put my seat back lightly and allowed myself to slip into a
dreamless sleep. I had to let my problem's go and move on with my life.

   When I awoke we were still in the air getting ready to land. I wiped my
cheek's off knowing I had most likely been crying. I made myself not think
about it I pushed the thought's away. The plane shook slightly as we
touched down. I hated flying anywhere I truly had a fear of heights. I was
doing my best to over come my fears. It was also the reason I had taken
this job. Since I would mostly be on a bus a good amount of the time. I had
to spend most of my time with the group. I was their PR agent I couldn't
believe I had gotten the job. I was only twenty and just getting started in
the business. My boss was so impressed with my work he put in a few good
words for me. At first I wasn't going to take the job. Then I was thrown
out of my family if that can really happen. I didn't hide the fact I was
gay from them once I was sure. I thought it would be ok I was mistaken. I
told my parents first and that's where the storm started. It went to
everyone in my family like it was a wildfire.

   I was a strong man and thought I could take what came next. I had played
everything out in my mind the night before. All the thing's that could
happen from best to worst case. I didn't think I would be thrown out of the
family. I could have understood certain people not talking to me for a
while. I would have waited until it all cooled down. I didn't know my
sister would turn her back on me. I didn't think she would ever say what
she had. I called everyone in my family for three days. They either hung up
on me or would yell and tell me was no longer in there family. I dealt with
it the best way I could I left them a note. Then I got on a plane and left
hoping to leave it all behind. I wasn't having much luck everything was
still playing in my mind. I had only taken the clothes I could fit in my
suite case. I pulled all my money from the bank and closed the account. I
walked off the plane and looked for the sign had my name on it. I found a
nice looking man with the sign I was looking for. I picked up my suite case
and walked toward him. "I'm Tom Jets sir I believe your looking for me" I
told him. He looked me up and down and frowned. "Do you have any I.D on
you? I'm sorry but you kind of young." I nodded and handed him my I.D from
my wallet.

   He smiled and took my bag and started walking away. I was about to club
him for taking my bag. As I caught up to him I saw where he was walking. I
guess I couldn't hide the shock on my face. There was a limo waiting for me
just outside the doors. I took a deep breath and followed the man to the
limo. He but my bag in the back and opened my door. I stepped in and he
handed my I.D back. He closed the door and walked to the front. Once he was
in we took off he drove like a wild man. When we got to the hotel I was
shaking slightly. I was in to much shock to look at the city I was in. I
knew where I was but still didn't really get a chance to look around. My
door opened so I stepped out. I looked at the hotel and my jaw dropped. It
was huge and beautiful I had never seen a place like it before. I was from
Kentucky we didn't have that many places like this. I even lived in was
called the hot spot of the city. I knew I was way out of my league. I
walked toward the front door's only to be stopped by the door man.

  I looked at him like he was crazy the driver walked up to him. "He's the
new PR guy for the Backstreet Boy's." The guy told him watching my every
move. The door man nodded and moved out of the way. I walked in and to the
front desk where a woman was waiting. "Room for Tom Jets please?" I was
always nice if I could be. She handed me a card key without even looking
up. I turned around to look for the driver he was no where to be seen. I
walked into the elevator and pushed the button to the floor I was going
to. Nothing happened so I pushed it again still nothing. Then I saw what
looked like slit I put my card in. Then the door's closed and I was on my
way up. When the door's opened I walked to my room. Slid my card in it
again and then entered. My bag was sitting on my bed so I looked around my
room. I didn't know how they could have gotten it there so quickly.

   There was a knock on my door I walked back and opened it up. There stood
a short woman with a lot of papers in her hand. She looked up and smiled at
me then walked right in. I was starting to think that one in this place had
any manners. "Hi I'm Rachel your new boss. I have some papers for you to
sign and look over. I'm sorry about being a bit rude but I'm in a big
rush." She said handing me the papers. I nodded taking the papers looking
them over. I was a bit confused at first reading the part that nothing I
saw went past me. I was ok with it my old boss said I would have to sign
something like this. After I finished reading the papers I signed them and
handed them back. She smiled and hugged me when she pulled away I gave her
the weirdest look. "Welcome to the tour you'll meet the guy's in an
hour. Until then relax and unpack." She said leaving the room.

  After unpacking I changed into some trunks. I walked to the small gym
that the hotel had. Once inside I went to the pool and jumped in. I loved
to swim as much as I could. I started my lap's and didn't notice someone
working out on the weights. I got out of the pool and walked to the
treadmills. I programed one and started running trying to cool down a
bit. After about ten minutes I switched to walking so I could really cool
down. I was still in just my trunks when the guy walked toward me. He had
very dark hair and intense eyes. He was just as tall as I was but he had a
better build than I did. He looked up at me and smiled. "I'm Kevin and I
thought that I had this placed rented out. How'd you get in here?" He asked
still smiling. "I was told I could unpack and relax I didn't know I
couldn't come here. Oh, I'm sorry my name is Tom Jets." I held my hand out
to shake his. He shook my hand and gave me a strange look. I heard the
beeping on the treadmill it slowed to a stop. I stepped off and looked back
toward Kevin. "I'm sorry that I bothered you I'll leave." I told him
walking out and back toward my room. I knew that I had seen him somewhere
before. I just couldn't put my finger on it. I looked at my watch and saw I
had five minutes till I met the guys.

   I rushed to my room and jumped into the shower. Once done I ran around
room picking up everything. I got dressed and fixed my hair and brushed my
teeth. I heard a knock on my door so I went to answer it. There stood
Rachel smiling but she was alone. I looked around her to see if they were
coming. I moved out of the way to let her walk in. She did and took a seat
on my bed. "Ok first I have to tell you a few thing's before you meet the
guys. It was the main reason I had you sign those papers." She was looking
like she was going to drop a bomb shell. " For one what I'm about to tell
you doesn't leave here. If it does you will be sued and most likely be put
in jail. I'm not trying to upset you I'm just trying to be honest." I took
a few deep breaths waiting for this bomb shell. I had this feeling she was
going to tell one of the guy's was dying.

  Rachel stood up and walked toward placing her hand on my shoulder. "Are
you ok you just got a little pale?" I smiled I couldn't help myself. "I'm
fine but are the guys, there not dying are they?" I asked getting a shocked
look on her face. "No, is that what had you so worried?" I nodded and took
a seat at the desk. "You know I had worries about someone so young taking
the job. I'm not worried anymore not in the least. That concern you just
showed, proved to me that your right for the job." She said walking back to
the bed sitting down again. "What I am about to tell is very important. I
just hope you take it well. Ok first on the list is the that Brian and Nick
are a couple. Which does in fact mean their gay. Secondly Kevin and AJ are
Bi. Howie is the only straight guy in the group. Your job is to keep it
under wraps it isn't that hard the guy's do most of the work." I was a
little shocked but had no problem what so ever. I nodded and decided I
might like this group after all.

   Thirty minutes later I heard another knock on the door. Rachel went to
answer it while I sat on the bed looking over all the information I was
given. I heard voices at the door but couldn't hear what was said. I kept
on reading while a few people walked into the room. I looked up and smiled
and went back to what I was doing. I was in the middle of a paragraph and
didn't want to lose my spot. Once I was done I looked back up to see five
men with an amazed look on their faces. I stood and shook each of their
hands once I got to Kevin I froze. "Well, we meet again" I said to him
causing the guy's to at Kevin. I was happy with myself for making him
blush. "I'm just guessing here but you knew who I was didn't you?" I asked
him sweetly. He smiled a smile I could fall in love with. No wonder they
had so many fans. He looked at me and slowly nodded. "You mean you didn't
know who we were." A blond haired guy asked me. I looked at him and knew he
couldn't be that much older than I was. "Sorry no, I'm into a different
kind of music that has a little more power behind it." I told him slowly to
see if he understood. He gave a very confused look and looked to Kevin.

  I liked him already even if he made all blondes look dumb. I was going to
have to help him on that. I myself was a blond and I did my best to help
the dumb ones. I laughed at him "I like the opera myself sorry." I smiled
shaking my head lightly. Rachel walked up beside me and started pointing
the guys out. "That's Brian and that's Nick. Over there is Howie and AJ and
you've already met Kevin." I did my best to remember all the names and
faces. I smiled warmly which I had been doing a lot since I got here. I
nodded and moved back to my bed. "Well, I know your secrets so I guess I
should share mine." I said getting a confused look from Rachel. I knew what
I was about to say could cost me my job. I had to chance it I wanted to be
as open I could around them. In turn I hoped they would be open with me. I
took a few deep breaths before I started to speak. "I know this could cost
me my job but I have to let you know. First off I'm gay secondly no one but
my family knows. I'm no longer a member of that family. No worries coming
from there so now that you know do I still have a job?" I asked hoping to
get a good answer.

  Rachel walked up and put her arm around my shoulder. "As far as I'm
concerned yes but it's not just my choice." She said looking to the other
guys. I looked to each of them watching carefully. Kevin pulled the guy's
away and talked in hushed tones. I watched and waited this little talk
lasted about ten minutes. Then Kevin walked up and held his hand
out. "Welcome to the tour hope we all get along." He said as I shook his
hand smiling. After about fifteen minutes all the guy's but Kevin left the
room. I laid back on my bed and looked at him. "I was wondering why you
said you were no longer apart of your family?" I looked at him and tried to
decide if I should bring up those memories. "They no longer want anything
to do with me. I was told I was no longer apart of their family. So I left
and here I am" I told him sitting up. I was doing better good at keeping my
front up. He looked a little pained by what I had told him. "So what would
have happened if we didn't decide to keep you?" I looked at him thinking
for a short time before I answered. "I would have lived on the streets I
guess" I told him with normal voice. His eyes did this widening thing that
didn't suite him. "Why didn't you say something before we wouldn't have had
to talk." I looked up into his eyes and rased an eye brow. "I don't want
someone to pity me. I don't like pity if I did I wouldn't be here. If I had
said something it would have been using that. I don't want a job like that
I want the job because I can do it. Not because someone feel's sorry for
me." I told him as nicely as I could which wasn't hard.

   He smiled at me and nodded taking a deep breath. I laid back on my bed
and looked upward. I had to control myself I knew I was going to cry
soon. I didn't want his pity I don't think it would be wise. I took in a
deep breath and sat back up smiling. "Well, I'm a little tired from my
trip. I hate to be rude but could I go to sleep now?" I asked smiling as
sweetly as I could. He nodded while he walked to the door. The door locked
on it's own as he left. Once he was gone I cried my eyes out until I fell
into a deep sleep. My mind was filled with nightmares of my family. I woke
up with someone shaking me. I open my eye's to see Kevin looking down at
me. I looked around the room and wiped my eye's. "You were having a bad
dream I'm sorry came in here without your permission." He said pulling me
up and into his arms. I could have stayed in his arms forever I felt so
safe. I pulled back regaining myself. "It's ok I'm glad you woke me" I told
him pulling back further. I looked out my window to see that it was still
night. "I'm sorry I must have woken you." I said looking back into his
eyes. "I really wasn't sleeping anyway. I was walking by your room when you
cried out. I have a key to everyone's room since I kinda watch over
everyone." I was nodding and smiling the whole time

   He looked at me with a frown on his face. "It still gets to you doesn't
it? What your family did, it haunts you." He said looking into my eye's
searching for the answer. I nodded pulling my legs to my chest. "You know
you don't have to be so brave. Your still a kid by most laws." He said
causing me to smile. "Do you want to talk about it?" I looked into his
eyes. "Promise you won't feel sorry for me" I told him sitting up. "Ok I
won't feel sorry about anything." I nodded and pulled up the fresh
memories. I told him everything I could remember which was a lot. "You mean
all this just happened a few days ago?" I nodded holding back tears I
didn't trust my voice right now. I did my best to smile but it just wasn't
happening. I felt the tears fall down my face it was like fire on my
skin. He moved to put his arms around me. I let him I just couldn't do
anything to fight it any longer. I let myself fall into his embrace. Once I
regained myself I looked up into his eyes. I pulled away slightly thinking
whoever snagged him would be lucky. I leaned back hitting my head on the
head bord. I laughed at myself looking back at Kevin.

   We sat and talked for the rest of the night I was getting sleepy
again. So I laid back still keeping my eye's on him. I started to drift
again I then felt a blanket being pulled over my skin. Then I felt someone
lay down beside me. I woke up two hour's later to a phone all. I picked up
the phone "hello?" I was still drifting in and out of sleep. "Hello this is
your wake up call. Have a nice day" then click they hung up. I looked
around my room and saw a sleeping form laying beside me. I looked at him
smiling he was so sweet. I got out of bed silently and walked to the
shower. I jumped in and washed off thinking about the night before. I got
out of the shower and started brushing my teeth. I then fixed my hair and
walked back into the room. I sat down on the side of the bed placed my hand
on Kevin's shoulder. I shook him gently causing him to moan and sit
up. "Time to wake up Kevin the shower is free." I told him walking toward
my clothes I dropped my towel and started searching. "Your not all that shy
are you?" I looked over my shoulder and smiled. "Why would you ask such a
silly question?" I said smiling while I picked up a pair of boxers. I
slipped them on and looked for my pants. I was dressed in five minutes and
noticed that Kevin was still watching me.

   I walked toward him smiling "Do you see something you like?" I said
sitting down beside him. He shook himself bringing himself back to the real
world. I laughed at him standing back up walking to the door. I something
hit me in the back of the head. It was soft so it didn't hurt. I turned
around before the next pillow hit me. I picked the pillow's up and walked
back to the bed. I looked at Kevin doing my best to look mad. I dived on
his holding his hand's over his head. My leg's wrapped around his waste and
sat back on his legs. I smiled looking down at him I held his hand's with
my left hand. I started tickling him on his sides. He started laughing
loudly and trashing about. I had a huge smirk on my face. I felt something
start to harden under me. I took a breath and jumped off the bed. I was
good at this game I had played it many time's with my sister. I knew how to
jump and run at the same time. Kevin was busy catching his breath as I ran
into the restroom. I locked the door and slid down to the floor.

   Kevin was knocking on the door softly. "If you think I'm going to give
you the chace to get even, your wrong." I stated opening the door a crack
to look out. He stood there smiling with something behind his back. I heard
someone knocking on the door to the room. "Come on let me in, if they see
me in here their going to think something that's not true." He said
pleading with me. I opened the door and walked to the room door. I looked
out the pep hole to see Nick standing there. "Can I help you Mr. Carter?" I
asked him without opening the door. I looked behind me to see that Kevin
had gone to hide in the restroom. "Yea could I come in for minute please?"
I thought about for a second and opened the door. He walked in and went
straight to the bed sitting down. I looked at him trying to see if he was
upset. He looked fine to me as he looked around the room.

   I took a seat on the floor across from Nick. "What can I do for you
Mr. Carter?" I said smiling trying to sit up straight. "It's Nick please
I'm not my father. I was looking for Kevin he isn't in his room. I was
kinda worried about him since it's not like him to just take off. So I
thought he may have left word with you or Rachel. I already talked to
Rachel and she had no clue where he was." I looked up into his eyes trying
to think up a good lie. "I talked to Kevin an hour ago he went for a
jog. He should be getting back soon so don't worry." I said standing up
moving toward the desk. I looked over more of the papers I was given. I was
never really a good liar but I could pull it off every now and then. I
looked back at Nick thinking he may have moved to leave. He hadn't in fact
he was laying back on the bed. I walked back over and looked down at him.

  He smiled at me sweetly sitting back up. I took a seat beside him
giggling to myself. "You know I find it so hard to believe that your just a
little bit older than I am."  I told him getting a confused look from
him. I smiled and laid back on my bed only to be attacked. He had my arm's
above my head and his legs held me down. He then started to tickle me I was
laughing so hard my face was turning red. He stopped for a second and
looked into my eyes. "Now what did you mean about the older joke." I looked
up at him and smiled my brightest smile. "From the way you act I thought
you were younger than I was." I said flipping him on his back trading
places. "Hey that wasn't fair I didn't even see that coming." I smiled at
him evilly. "Didn't anyone tell you. Life isn't fair nothing is" I said
before I started tickling him. I let him go and stood up looking at him
again. He was a bit out of breath but he was smiling. "I think I'm going to
like you Tom" He said moving for the door. Once he was gone I heard Kevin
sigh from the restroom. "All's clear Kevin it's safe to come out." I said
moving toward the door. "I'm going to order room service have fun in the
shower." I left the room and walked toward Rachel's. I knocked hoping I had
the right room. The door opened and she was walking back toward her bed.

   I walked into her room taking a seat in a chair. "I was thinking about
ordering room service. I just wanted to tell you so you could send me the
bill." I told standing back moving toward the door. "You won't have to pay
the bill Tom. The guy's have breakfast every morning. Kevin normally orders
it when he gets up. So if you don't mind waiting everything will be taken
care of." She said not even looking up once. I nodded and left the room to
return to mine. I opened the door and walked in on a very interesting
site. Kevin was standing in the middle of the room naked. I had to smile I
liked what I saw so I moved forward making a bit of nose. He looked at me
and wrapped a towel around himself. "A bit shy are we?" I asked getting a
laugh from him. "I was told that you order breakfast every morning. That I
should wait until you were awake." I said walking toward my bed. "I'd love
to order some food I just have one problem. I don't have any clean clothes
to put on. There in my room which you can't go to. If you do you'll most
likely run into the guys. I've seen enough movies to know this." He said
sitting down on my bed.

   I decided to be a smart ass and grab my bag. I threw out a shirt and
some shorts. "There now you can order food I hunger" I said smiling. He put
on my clothes while I turned my back. As he walked by he kissed me on my
cheek. "Your a saint" I stood frozen for a few minutes. When I pulled my
head down from the clouds. I saw that he was gone leaving the door slightly
open. I took a few deep breaths and left the room. I walked to Kevin's room
and knocked lightly. AJ opened the door smiling with sun glasses on. I
thought this small fact was really weird. Nick and Brian were sitting side
by side. I smiled they did look cute together I looked around for Howie. He
was sitting by himself near a window. I walked into the room and stood near
the door way. When the door opened it hit me hard in the back of the
head. I fell to the ground soon passing out.  ****************Kevin

  I heard Rachel yell for help from the doorway. I turned around to see Tom
laying on the floor. I ran over to him dropping the phone while I ran. I
turned him over slowly and looked to see if he was awake yet. I had my hand
on the back of his head. My hand was getting wet and sticky. I pulled my
hand away to see it covered with blood. "Call an ambulance he's bleeding
bad" I shouted out orders. Howie had the phone in his hand already dialing
the number. AJ was holding Rachel trying to calm her down. "I didn't mean
to hurt him I just walked in." She was saying to herself more than anyone
else. It took fifteen minutes for the ambulance to arrive and I refused to
let him go. I had lost a friend like this before the memories were already
filling my mind. Only it was my fault that he died I had been to slow to
help him. I was not about to let that happen again. I helped the EMT put
Tom on the stretcher. I walked with them as we went to the elevator and
stayed by his side the whole time. I was being asked a million questions
every second. I didn't know any of the answers. I sat beside him the whole
way to the hospital I held his hand. It just felt so right when I was near
him.

   I was still a little pissed that they wouldn't let me go back with
him. So I paced in the waiting room waiting for word. Rachel was on her way
down since she was his boss. I was still pacing when Nick tapped me on my
shoulder. I turned around so quick I almost knocked him down. Brian caught
him before he hit the ground. Nick looked up at with a hurt look on his
face. "Sorry I thought you were the doctor." I told him holding my hand
out. "So your planing on knocking him down." Brian said with a smirk on his
face. I was not going to deal with this right now. I walked to the nurses
station putting my arms down on the desk. "Is there any news on Tom Jets
yet?" I asked her smiling my brightest. "Are you family or a friend?" She
asked smiling back with the same brightness. "No but I am a very close
friend, and he's all alone in this area. His family is a few states away so
if you wouldn't mind. I'd like to know what the hell is wrong with him." I
almost shouted at the little woman. She looked down at her chart carefully
shaking her head. "I would get in contact with his family if I were you. It
doesn't look good he need's blood. Our blood bank doesn't have any of his
blood type. It's very rare and without it he'll die." She said looking up
refusing to give me any more information.

  I walked back to the other guys hoping they had a plan. Rachel walked up
to me in a grim mood. I wasn't in any higher sprits knowing Tom's family
wouldn't help if they could. I then remembered that Nick had a rare blood
type. I told them the news getting a few upset look's from Rachel. I knew
it wasn't her fault but I couldn't help but be upset with her. "Nick your
Mom once told me that you had a rare blood type. Would you mind getting
tested to see if you match, and if you do would you give him some?" I
didn't really have my hopes up I knew Nick hated needles. I would beg him
if I had to I just hoped it wouldn't come to that. "Sure Boo I'll do
anything I can to help." He said smiling up to me. I was in a bit of shock
at first it wasn't that Nick was selfish. He just really hated needles. I
walked back up to the nurses station with Nick. "We would like to see if
our blood matches with Tom's?" I looked at her pleading with her with my
eyes. She nodded looking back and forth from me to Nick. She stood and
walked toward a room we followed her.

   Twenty minutes later she came back smiling. "Well, it look's like your
friend was a match Mr. Richardson. I'm going to need to take about a
pint. That should be enough to get him to wake up." She said walking toward
Nick who had a look of horror on his face. I frowned and knew I was going
to have to be a lot nicer to him from now on. I walked back out to the
waiting room smiling. Brian was smiling knowing there was good news. I told
them that Nick was a match and that Tom would be ok. Rachel was more than a
little relieved. "I called his mother before I got here. She didn't even
know he was gone. The worst part is what she said to me. She told me that
she hoped he died and burned in hell." Rachel told us looking away. "I've
never met a woman that cold toward her own child. I hung up on her telling
she'll wish other wise soon enough." Rachel said looking a bit sick to her
stomach. I had thought that Tom had been over playing it. I just learned
that he had down played by a lot. I just shook my head and promised I'd
make him apart of my family. Brian had this total look of disgust working
it's way over his face. I must have had the same look washing over my
face. "Don't worry Kevin we'll take care of him." Rachel said moving toward
the nurses station.

  I had to believe her it was my only choice. I was in deep thought when
Nick walked back out holding his arm. I looked up to see the biggest frown
I had ever seen. I smiled to myself thinking about how many morning I'd
have to let him sleep in. I didn't understand why I was feeling so strongly
for a guy I didn't even know. I knew he was sweet and honest maybe a lot
more. He didn't look to bad either that was a fact. He had blond hair and
green eyes. His eye's were so intense and kind. Every time I looked into
his eyes I couldn't help but get lost. His voice had the same accent that
Brian had. I had learned to hide my accent years ago. It would still peak
when I was mad or hyper. I didn't get hyper that often. I looked up at the
clock and noticed I had been here all morning. I was starting to get a
little hungry but I didn't want to leave before he woke up. I was trying to
pull myself away from what I was feeling. If I could find enough reason's
to look away then I wouldn't see what I was missing. I hadn't really talked
to anyone like I had talked to Tom. I was going to have to come up with a
nickname for him.

   Tom was a nice name and all but it lacked something. I knew it wasn't
that it was just I wanted to make him mine. Even it was in the smallest
way. I didn't mean like he was mine I just wanted him to know I cared about
him. I wanted in him my family I wanted more than that. I just wasn't about
to say that yet I wanted to be more sure. The doctor walked up to Rachel
first. I saw her smiling so I took it as a good sign. I waited for her to
walk over to me but she didn't. I didn't like being left out of the loop it
wasn't who I was. So I walked up behind her and listened to the doctor's
last statements. She turned around and bumped into me. "We can go back one
at a time. I want to be last if you don't mind. So why don't you go on back
it's room 152." She said patting me on the back as she walked to the
others.


    TO BE CONTIUED