Date: Wed, 20 Dec 2000 02:38:39 EST
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: celebrity/boybands/the lost7

Disclaimer: I don't know the BSB or Nsync. I have on the other hand met
Nsync for a very short amount of time at an after party. I will not go into
that I will also be using Britney Spears a lot I don't know her either. I
have not ever met the BSB I pray someday I do. Also I will add this. This
is not a Justin friendly story in anyway. As for the rest of Nsync it is
since their nice.

Authors note: These *** mean a character change in the story. A name will
follow the *** that is the character that is in charge. The main character
that I'll be using will be Kevin, Tom, and Sarah. I'll try not to jump
around a lot. I would like to thank all the people that wrote me. Your
words have meant a lot to me more than you know. So thank you so very much.
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****Kevin****

  It had been two week's now I didn't know if I could go on. I had fallen
to sleep a few time's since then. I would always wake up with a start
looking around. My dreams were filled with memories of Tom. Sometimes I
would wake up crying trying to pull the memories back. I was now laying
beside Tom holding his hand. I could tell his body was getting weaker. He
had lost most of the tan he use to have. The guys were doing there best to
keep management off my back. We had already missed seven shows but I didn't
care any more. "Tommy I'm right here beside you I promise I won't leave
you. Please wake up I need you so much." I felt his hand tighten around
mine for a second. Then it went back to a lifeless state. "Come on baby
wake up I'm right here I won't leave you." His hand moved again this time a
little stronger. "Kevin why don't you love me anymore?" I was shocked that
he would ask a question like that. "I do love you Tom I really do please
open your eyes." His eye's opened slowly and he looked at me. I could see
the tears hanging on his lids. I pulled him into my arms and held him there
while I cried.

*******Tom

  I had regained my memories it had taken a while. But I understood why I
had been alone. It was all a dream world that I had made up. I knew where I
was and who I was with. I could tell that Kevin was holding me but my arms
felt so tired. I had to wonder how long I had been asleep. "Kev how long
have I been here?" I looked around the room and out the window. The sun was
starting to rise and I could feel the heat. I had missed that feeling a
lot. It took a few days but I was back on my feet. I learned that Justin
was still in jail. I knew I had to drop any of the charges that I could. It
was time to heal and let thing's go. The time I had spent in my mind had
helped a great deal. While I sat in all that darkness I really saw what was
bothering me. I didn't know how to brake it to Kevin but I would find a
way. I loved him with all my heart and soul. I just couldn't go on like
that anymore. I couldn't hide it unless I ended it I was already trying to
put the word's together. I was back at my apartment talking to my sister
about everything. "I knew this would happen sooner or later. Are you sure
you can't try a little longer?" I was really listening to her I just
couldn't answer.

  I looked into her eye's and asked myself how she got so smart. "I can't
it just hurts so much. I wish I could go on but theirs just so much. I'm
going to talk to Brit and end our little game. I have to or I'll go nuts."
She just sat there and nodded the whole time. "You know I'm here for you no
matter what, do what you have to do." I nodded and moved toward the door
picking my keys up on the way. I walked out the door and down the
stairs. Once I was in my car I started it and went to the hotel. I pushed
into the hotel trying not to get mobbed in doing so. I went to the front
desk and asked for the key to the boys room. After I showed her my ID and
gave her the secret word I was given the key. On the way up to the room I
had to keep telling myself it was for the best. As I walked into the room I
was greeted by Nick. "Have you seen Kev I need to talk to him." I didn't
try to hide the pain in my voice. Nick nodded and pointed to a room not
that far off. I knocked on the door and waited for an answer. Kevin opened
the door smiling, his smile faded when he looked into my eyes.

  I walked into the room and took a seat on his bed. Kevin walked to the
table and took seat on top of it. "This is really hard for me to say so
please just listen first. I love you so much it hurts when I'm not with
you. But I can't do that anymore, I can't keep going on like that. I wish I
could and I've thought about how to say this. There is no easy way so I'm
just going to say it. I'm done with the heartache and pain all of the
hiding it's over. I'm sorry I had to hurt you I just can't do this
anymore." I could feel the tears sliding down my cheeks. I waited for the
anger that should be coming but it didn't. "I'll quit the band and tell the
world I love you. Just don't do this please don't end it." I looked up into
his eyes I couldn't stand the pain that I saw. "No, you can't you'll hate
me for it later I know you will. I've seen you when you walk on stage, it's
your life. I didn't come here to get you to quit I came here to here to end
it. That way you can move on maybe find someone better. Someone that can
live this life I can't. I hope that someday you'll understand. I'm quitting
as the PR agent for you guys. It'll make it easier on all of us, trust me I
know. I'm sorry I love you, good bye." I ran out of the room and to the
elevator. I watched the door's close as Kevin came running after me.

  I ran out of the hotel and jumped into my car and took off. I don't know
where I stopped but it wasn't far from the hotel. I was trying to regain
some kind of control over myself. I didn't think it would hurt so much. I
knew that it would hurt but just not so much. Once I could see clearly I
started driving again. This time I was heading for the apartment that
Britney was staying at. I had to end everything today or I wouldn't end it
at all. I pulled up and walked up to the door. I knocked softly at first
then a little harder. I heard someone on the other side unlocking the
door. When Britney opened the door she smiled and pulled me in. I guess I
hadn't really gained any control over myself. Since I started crying once
the door closed. I told Britney everything between sobs I even told her I
had to stop what we were doing. "Tommy I knew that it had to end sooner or
later I'm not mad. But I am a little pissed that you broke up with Kev. I
really thought you two would make it, I kinda looked up to you in that
way. I had thought that you and him would prove that love did exist. But I
do understand why you did it so I'm not going to bitch about it anymore." I
looked into her eyes and found that I really was a lucky guy to have a
friend like that.

  After a while I left and headed home to get some rest. As I walked into
the house I saw that Brian was waiting for me. "Ok I'm not here to bitch I
just wanted to see if you were ok." I walked to the couch and laid down
looking up at the ceiling. "I'm about as ok as I can be Bri. I just broke
the heart of the only person I've ever loved, in turn my heart is braking."
I looked up at him slowly to see if he understood. He nodded and pulled a
chair into the room. "I'm not going to say I'm happy about your choice, but
I'll respect it." I looked around the room now was not a time for me to
cry. So I tired my hardest not to do so, so I didn't move or speak. I felt
the tears and tried to hide my face with my hands. I almost started
laughing at myself while I sobbed at the same time. Brian tried to help but
I pushed him away. "I'm sorry I can't, I have to get some sleep. I'm sorry
Bri but I have to ask you to leave." I left the room and walked into my
own. I heard the door open and close as I laid down. I pulled my pillow to
my chest and held on for dear life.

**********Kevin

  I looked out the window trying to stop myself from crying. I couldn't
seem to stop myself from shaking. I had tried sleeping but it didn't
work. I had talked to management telling them to set up the next spot. I
had to start working or I would lose my mind. I knew that this day was
coming. I just had hoped I could stop it from happening. I had faced the
guy's long enough to tell them we would be leaving in the morning. I had
called Rachel hoping she could help me out. She didn't know what to tell me
or do. She told me she would try to talk some sense into Tom. I asked her
not to that he was right until I could settle down it wouldn't work. I just
hoped that when I could stop that he would still be around. I knew that was
unlikely but I could hope couldn't I? I got into my bed pulling the
pillow's to my chest. I had to make myself imagine it was Tom I was holding
before I fell to sleep. My dreams were filled with his last words to me. I
felt so alone I didn't know what to do. The next morning I moved around
like a robot. I turned on the new to find out that Britney and Tom had
broken up. Britney had faked some tears and that was it. The reporters were
looking for Tom to ask him what had happened.

  I had turned the TV off and woke the guys up. Once they were up we left
the hotel. As I got onto the plane I said my own good byes. When the plane
was off the ground I started to cry. I couldn't believe that it really was
over. I held my head in my hands as since the tears wouldn't stop. I would
have to get over Tom and move on. It shouldn't be that hard I could find
someone else someday. I could have sworn that I had heard his voice. I
looked around trying to find him hoping against hope. Then I saw a man
talking on a cell phone. His voice almost sounded like Tom's. I knew that I
would have to push all the memories of Tom out of my mind. I took a few
sleeping pill's and drifted off into a peaceful sleep. I knew I couldn't
look back even for a second. I now knew that dreams did come to an end. I
just prayed that time would wash away the pain.

************Tom

  It had been close to a year since I had last seen Kevin. I had talked to
the guys a lot over that time. I knew that we were drifting apart further
than we already had. I knew that I would always be able to talk to
Howie. My sister had moved in with him a month ago. They were talking about
getting married in June. I had thrown myself into my job and never looked
back. I still cried every night when I went to bed. I still missed Kevin
with everything that I was. I never asked the guys about him I didn't need
that pain. In return they never asked me certain questions. I was doing
well with my job since I showed up before the place was open. I left well
after everyone else was gone. I had found that some days I just didn't have
any work to do. I hated those days it caused me to think about stuff that
didn't involve work. I had talked to Rachel a lot but never the forbidden
topic. I just couldn't deal with it, I knew that I never would. I just
worked until I couldn't then I would work out or eat. I never stopped
moving from the time I got till the time I fell in my bed. I sometimes
tired to stay up days at a time. Then I wouldn't feel that emptiness beside
me.

  I knew that I was going to see Kevin soon. June was getting closer and
closer. I was going to fly to Florida for it. I wasn't the best men but I
was giving my sister away. I hated that thought more than anything. I liked
Howie I would even say I did love him. But he was taking my sister away
forever. I knew she was already gone but this made it final. I had gone out
and got myself a nice suit to wear. I found that I had more money that I
use to. I hadn't really been shopping in a while close to a year. I still
went with Britney to the mall but I never got anything. I didn't have a
reason to look good any more. I even let my hair grow out, it was down to
my shoulders. I still shaved and did all that junk I'm not nuts. My phone
was ringing off the hook waking me from my daze. "Hello Tom Jets speaking
how can I help you?" I didn't hear anything for a minute. I was about to
hang up with the voice came on the phone. "Tom this is Nick would you turn
you TV to MTV real quick?" I was a little confused but did what was
asked. It was TRL and Kevin was on the stage. "Nick I think it's really
mean of you do this." I hung up on his and was about to turn the TV
off. But I stopped in my tracks as I looked at Kevin. He wasn't looking to
good. He had dark circles under his eyes and he looked almost dead tired.

  I turned the TV up a bit listening to Kevin talk."Welcome to the show
Kevin. We were a bit stunned when you called us. What is it you wanted to
tell the world?" Carson asked him. I fell into my chair and watched
carefully as Kevin cleared his throat. I was taking deep breaths trying
calm myself down. If he did what I thought it was going to do I was going
to kill him. "Well, it's not just me I've got the guys back stage." I
watched as Nick and Brian walked out on the stage. My heart was beating so
hard I couldn't see straight. Nick waved his cell phone on the screen. I
was tempted to call him back just then. Then all at once Kevin, Brian, and
Nick said. "We're gay" I just froze I couldn't breath I almost passed
out. "Wow that's weird since two of you are married would you care to share
a little more?" I could have killed Carson just then in fact I was planing
on it. "For one both of our marriages are fake. I've been with Nick since
we were younger. And Kev over here came out to try and win his lover back."
Ok I now had my next target set up. "Tommy I hope your watching this. For
the last year I haven't been able to sleep a whole night without crying. I
miss you so much I can't think straight." Kevin had tears falling down his
face.

  I couldn't stop my own tears as I watched him continue. "Every night I
look out at the crowd searching for you. Every time someone walks by I turn
still searching. You told me that you couldn't take hiding it
anymore. Well, I'm not hiding anymore I can't. I know this may not even
work out in the end. But I love you and I can't live without you
anymore. So I'm begging you please come back to me. I would give up
anything if you would just say yes. Nick has his cell phone on please
call. Even if it's no I have to know please." The crowd was cheering
wildly, screaming for me to call. I picked up the phone and dialed the
number. It was like time stopped when I heard his voice on the other
line. "Yes, I want you, I need you, I love you." It was all I could say
before I started crying again. I looked back at the TV to see Kevin smiling
and crying. "He said yes" Kevin shouted sending the crowd into a frenzy. I
held the phone to my chest and cried. I head someone talking into my chest
so I put the phone back to my ear. "Tommy are you there?" Nick asked slowly
thinking I must have hung up again. "I'm here and I'm so sorry for hanging
up on you." I couldn't thank Nick enough for calling.

  I talked to Kevin the next five hours without hanging up. He was on his
way to LA while we were talking. For some odd reason the Cell phone never
went out or anything. It was like someone was watching over us. "Ok the
plane is landing so I'm going to get off of here and I'll see you in a
few." I didn't want to say good bye I didn't want to hang up. "Ok I'll see
you then please hurry." We said good bye and I hung up the phone. I started
running around the apartment picking everything up. I was moving at warp
speed trying to clean the place up. I was in my bathroom fixing my hair and
everything. I wanted to look perfect for Kevin. I pulled my hair into a
pony tail and brushed my teeth again. I heard someone knocking on my
door. I washed my mouth out and almost killed myself getting to the door. I
opened it up smiling seeing Kevin standing there. I jumped into his arm's
and kissed him. After that everything was a blur as we moved to the
couch. After an hour of making out he pulled away. "I need to ask you one
more thing?" I looked up a little worried at first. He stood up and moved a
little bit away so I could sit up. He then knelt down on one knee and
pulled a box out of his pocket.

  I couldn't move or speak I felt like I had been setup. I wasn't minding
it one little bit I was in a very good mood. "Tom will you marry me?" I
screamed like a school girl and jumped into his arms. "Yes, I'll marry you"
I shouted pulling him in for another kiss. For the first time in mouths I
was hyper and happy. Kevin wasn't much he was as bad as I was. I noticed
that he really did have an accent I hadn't heard before. We were all over
the place then we stopped to make some phone call's. I was talking to Sarah
while Kevin called Brian. Sarah told me that she couldn't wait for the
wedding then she had an idea. I listened carefully as she filled me in on
her idea for a double wedding. After that I said my good byes and called
Britney. She was crying her eyes out but not in the bad way. She was so
happy for me that when I asked to the wedding she screamed the answer. I
think I might have lost a little of my hearing after that. When I saw that
Kevin was off his phone told Brit I would call her back. "Kev, Sarah wants
to have a double wedding. I think it's a great idea but if you want to wait
a little while I'll understand." I didn't want to rush anything or screw it
up. "I think it'll be a great idea but we have a small problem." I held my
breath trying to find the problem myself. I couldn't think of what the
problem could be. "I kinda promised Brian we would have a double wedding
with him and Nick." Did I tell you I could scream like a school girl?

  I picked up the phone and dialed my sisters number again. "I'm sorry but
we can't have a double wedding with you." I heard a few words I will not
repeat once she calmed down enough I continued. "I know your upset but the
reason why is simple. We're going to have a triple wedding so a double
won't work." I didn't hear anything on the other line for a few
seconds. "Ok I love that idea, and don't you ever do that again Tommy. So
Brian and Nick's getting married to I'm so happy. That means you have to
come here sooner. I'm not planning this all alone so you get you ass down
here. Bring Nicky with you while your at it. I also think that were going
to need a bigger place to do this. I'll fill you in once you get here but
until then why don't you and Kev have some fun. Bye big brother don't do
anything I wouldn't." I didn't even have time to reply she just hung up. I
looked at Kevin and shrugged it was a good idea after all.

  The next few week's went by in a flash of time. I had been in Florida for
the last two weeks. We had the wedding planned down to the last detail. My
sister had called Britney without my knowing and invited her. I thought
that was sweet since I had already done it. Then my sister surprised us
both by asking her to be the maid of honor. Everything was setup and I
would be a married man in a few days. I spent every waking moment with
Kevin I hadn't really left his side for more than an hour. Kevin and Brian
had already gotten the divorce. Since it was nothing more than a contract
it was easy. Then the day came and I wasn't allowed to see Kevin until the
wedding started. I jumped all over my sister for little idea. I wasn't
wearing a dress I wasn't a bride damn it but Kevin tought it was cute. Then
I heard the music start and I couldn't stop the tears. I was so happy it
hurt but I liked it. I found out that day that dreams come true and love
always wins in the end. The moment I said I do was the happiest of my
life. I kissed Kevin and looked to the future. I let my mind wonder back to
the dream I had so long ago. This time I wouldn't be alone as I walked up
those stairs. This time I would live my life out in his arms. I looked
forward to moving to the country and star gazing till the end of time.

				  The End
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Ok ending's are not my strong suite in any way shape or form. I hope you
all like the ending write me and tell me what you think. I'm sorry if it
wasn't the best ending but I tried my best thank you for reading.

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