Date: Sat, 19 May 2001 20:19:41
From: Jeff Langdon <jeff_langdon@hotmail.com>
Subject: Westlife Romance - Chapter 38

This story is pure fiction and involves the members of Westlife.  I am in no
way implying anything about the sexuality of any of their members.  This is
purely a fictional story.  Enjoy!

I would really, really appreciate some feedback on the story...so please
send any comments and/or suggestions to jeff_langdon@hotmail.com.  I would
love to hear from you!!

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Westlife Romance - Part 38

Kian wiped the tears from his eyes as he struggled to his feet.  He had
struggled through another day of interviews and photo shoots.  Just getting
through the day was difficult for Kian.  Nicky was becoming harsher and
harsher on Bryan and the others and Kian knew this was all his doing.
Because of him, Nicky was driving everyone away.  The group struggled to
keep itself together.  Bryan and Kian could hardly work together and Nicky
couldn't work with anyone.  Shane and Mark struggled to maintain some sense
of order but it was obvious that the crisis was taking its toll on the two
lads.  He remembered how earlier in the day, Nicky inflicted his latest
verbal assault on Bryan.  He remembered it so vividly...

~ Flashback ~

"Nicky, don't shut yourself out.  I hate seeing you like this, Nix," Bryan
pleaded.

"That's just too bad, Bryan.  Things don't always go your way," Nicky
answered sarcastically.  "One of these days you have to grow up and quit
being the spoiled brat that you've been all your life!!"

Shane stepped up to Nicky and they stared at each other.  Shane was fuming
and everyone could see it.  "Don't you ever talk like that to Bryan again,
Nicky.  You're way over the line!!"

"Awww, is Shane upset for little Bryan?" Nicky taunted.  "Well, maybe you
can go fuck him then, since he's so desperate for a fuck buddy."

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY?" Shane fumed.  Mark and Kian had to
restrain Shane as he exploded.  "SAY IT AGAIN AND I'LL KILL YOU, BYRNE!!"

Nicky stood there and smiled, bemused at how angry Shane was.  "Fine, Filan.
  I'll tell you again.  I said, why don't you and Bryan go and fuck each
other, 'cause he is so desperate for a fuck buddy."  Turning to Bryan, "And
Bryan.  Know when to give up.  I'll never love you.  I'm way out of your
league."

On hearing that, Shane freed himself from his restraints and lunged at
Nicky, his fists catching Nicky in the abs.  The two men began to brawl in
the corridor and there was little that either Mark or Kian could do to stop
it.  Finally, they managed to pull Shane off of Nicky, who by now was
sporting a few noticeable bruises.  In all this commotion, none of them
noticed that Bryan had left the hotel.

~ Flashback Ends ~

Staring at Derek, he couldn't believe how cold-hearted this young man was.
He couldn't understand how he could have fallen in love with Derek at all.
"Tell me, Derek.  Did you ever love me at all?" he asked again.  Even though
he had asked that question many times before, he still couldn't accept the
answer that he got.

Derek snickered and walked over to Kian.  Grabbing his hair roughly, he
shoved Kian against the wall.  "You've got one thick skull, don't you,
Kian?" he said menacingly.  "Let me tell you one last time, Kian.  I never
loved you.  I don't love you.  And I never will love you.  Face it, Kian,
you were just my plaything all along."

Kian tried to look away from Derek, not believing how blind he could have
been.  "Why...then why did you lead me on?  Why did you cause me to cheat on
Nicky?"

Derek laughed again at Kian's questions.  "Why, you ask?  Did you ever ask
that question when you led all those innocent young men on?  Using them for
sex and then throwing them away.  Did you ever ask how they felt?"

Despite his hatred for Derek, he knew that he was right.  The fact was, he
had led on many innocent young men.  He craved sex.  He craved the power
that he felt when he used men to satisfy his sexual hunger.  But what Derek
didn't know was that Nicky changed all that.  He made Kian see what true
love was for the first time in his life.  Nicky made him a new man.  Yes,
Kian only had himself to blame for everything.  From the day Kian met Nicky,
he vowed to himself that he will remain faithful to his lover forever.  And
for a while, he accomplished that.  But even before Derek showed up, things
had begun to change.  He still loved Nicky, but he was no longer totally
faithful.  It all happened one night in London, when Kian had sex with one
of the lads who worked at the hotel.  From there, Kian's sexual appetite
grew, as did his unfaithfulness.  All in all, Kian couldn't blame Derek for
making him cheat on Nicky.  The fact was that Kian was unfaithful even
before Derek appeared in his life.  But this was the first time that Kian
admitted this to himself.  Only now did he see how disgusting his own
behaviour had been.  These thoughts brought Kian to his knees in despair.
He hated himself.  He hated everything about himself.

All this did not elicit any sympathy from Derek.  "What's this?" he sneered.
  "Is Kian finally sorry for all the harm that he has caused?  Well, you are
certainly a slow learner."

"Why?  Why did I have to hurt Nicky?" Kian mumbled to no one in particular.
"I'm so sorry, Nicky..."

"A little late for that now, Kian," Derek continued.  "You should've thought
of that before you fucked James."

Kian looked up at the towering Derek.  "James?" he asked with a confused
look.

"Oh right, you would never have remembered him, since you've fucked so many
men," Derek answered coldly.  "Let me refresh your memories.  James was my
younger brother.  You met him in Dublin last winter.  You brought him back
to your hotel, told him that you loved him.  Then you proceeded to take his
virginity and his innocence.  And even before the sun rose, you told him
that he meant nothing to you.  That he was just a toy for you!!"

As Derek spoke, Kian's memories were revived.  He remembered James.  He
remembered how distraught the young man was.  He remembered how he begged
Kian not to throw him out.  He remembered how James had confessed his love
to him.  He remembered how he cold-heartedly kicked him out, only to proceed
to fuck another lad later in the day.

"James...he was your brother?"

"Yes, Kian.  He was my brother," Derek answered in a hostile tone.  "And
because of you, because of what you did to him, he was never the same again.
  You are the one who took him away from me!!!"

"I'm so sorry..." Kian whispered.  He indeed was sorry.  He wished he could
turn the clock back.  He would do everything differently if he could.  He
would never have cheated on Nicky if he had a second chance.

"Sorry?  That's all you can say?  You killed James, Kian.  You killed him!!"
Derek shouted.

Kian looked at Derek in shock.  "James...James is dead???"

"After a month of emotional trauma, he couldn't take it anymore and he
committed suicide.  Before he died, he wrote in his diary that he killed
himself because the one person that he loved deserted him.  And this person
was you!!!"

"Oh God!!" Kian cried as he realized what he had caused.  "I never meant to
hurt him, Derek.  I'm so sorry," he cried as he crawled over to Derek.  "I
never knew it would end up like this..."

"Well it's too late now," Derek answered coldly.  "That's why I joined this
crew.  I needed to make you pay for what you did.  And what better way to
avenge James than to make you destroy the most precious thing in your life.
What better way than to make the one person that you loved suffer at your
own hands!!" Derek laughed menacingly again, causing Kian to shiver at the
pure evil that Derek represented.

"Don't hurt Nicky," Kian pleaded.  "He's innocent!!!"

"Fuck off, Kian," Derek ordered.  "James was innocent too.  And who was
there to speak for him??  Poor Nicky.  He'll just have to blame himself for
being your true love.  Nothing personal against him," Derek shrugged with an
evil smile.  "Come to think of it, he's probably the only person in the
world stupid enough to fall head over heels for you.  After all, even I can
see that he deserves someone way better than you."

"Don't hurt him!!" Kian demanded forcefully.  "You hurt him and..."

Before Kian could finish, Derek struck Kian's face forcefully.  Kian didn't
see it coming and couldn't defend himself.  "Don't you dare talk to me that
way, boy!  I'll have to teach you some manners."  And Derek proceeded to
strike Kian with his hands and feet, taking his anger out on the young,
blond singer.  Kian did little to defend himself, partly because he was too
weak to do so, but mainly because he somehow felt like he owed it to James
to let Derek abuse him.

By the time Derek was done, Kian sported cuts on his face and a bruised eye.
  His ribs were sore and entire body ached.  "That'll do for tonight, I
suppose.  Now crawl out of my sight!!"  With that, Derek threw Kian out of
his room.  Not wanting anyone to see the state that he was in, Kian took the
stairs back to his floor.  He tripped every few steps and had to struggle
back to his feet every time.  After what seemed like eternity, he finally
made it back to his floor.  As he pushed the door open, he could see the
long corridor that he still had to travel before arriving at his room.  He
took a deep breath and began his long struggle to his room.  No matter how
hard he tried, he couldn't walk a few steps without crashing to the floor
again.  After falling to the floor for the umpteenth time, he tried to get
up again, except this time, he saw someone standing in front of him.  As he
tried to get back on his feet again, he felt a pair of hands helping him.
Looking up, he saw a familiar pair of blue-grey eyes looking at him.  The
last thing he remembered was hearing Nicky whisper his name before
everything went black.

...to be continued....

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