Date: Sat, 23 Feb 2002 21:07:26 +0800
From: pseud0nym <pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph>
Subject: What I See 6/?

*Disclaimer*

If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read
on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please
don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate
relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and
contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or in simpler terms, it's not
true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC, a real, successful American
singing group, and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is
fictional... again, it's not true. If there are instances that it is
similar to what happened in the real world, it doesn't mean that it's
really true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I
and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay
(but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of
speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know
NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! But don't we all hope that it's
true... hehehehe...

*First Words*

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section of the Nifty
Archives. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas
for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was
born *giggle*. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but
Crossed Paths is in its "season break" and Reformation is still there. But
I'll really try my best to update all my stories. Remember, I love
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Mail me at pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph!!!


What I See Chapter 6

I don't know why but when I look at JC, I feel this warm fuzzy feeling
inside of me. My body clock seemed to be uninformed that I have vacation
today coz I was already wide-awake around 7:00am. Good thing that my brain
was already working and I didn't think much of work but only the guy whom
I'm with. I think it's been 30 minutes already. 30 minutes of just getting
lost with Josh's beauty.

I must say that JC is one of the most magnificent persons I have ever met
if not the most magnificent. I mean he is drop dead gorgeous, very talented
and very loving and caring. I think everything that I am looking for a guy
is in him already. But there's a certain part of me that is very
hesitant. We are talking about JC Chasez here! One of the members of a
top-selling music group who spends his year traveling almost
everywhere. Can I bear a relationship that strenuous?

It was the central issue in this relationship, distance. I don't know if
the two of us can cope being away from each other and just hope that the
strength of our relationship can salvage it. Let's be realistic. Long
distance relationships are hard! Add a homosexual component to that, it's
harder. And, to top it, your boyfriend is a famous pop star, making it a
very difficult situation. And I'm part of it.

I know that Josh was right last night. I think we should just try it out
and let fate run its course. If we are not meant for each other, then we
experience a relationship but if we are really meant for each other, then I
guess we should thank destiny for letting us meet.

I could feel Josh's hand rubbing my bare chest. When I stared at his face,
his eyes were already open with a smile. His smile is so cute. I mean this
is different from most of his smiles in pictures that I have seen (trust me
I have lots). It is more real and more sincere but I can't explain why I
feel this way, it's just how I see it. "Good morning, Kyle." JC greeted me.

"Mornin'." I said giving him a peck. "You slept well?" I asked him as I
nuzzled closer to him, our skin touching more. Yeah, we slept in our
underwear but nothing happened.

"The best sleep I ever had." JC declared. I 100% agree with him. It was
really comfortable and it's like you feel that no one is gonna harm you and
you found your other half.

"Come on, take a bath first while I prepare breakfast. We don't want you to
be late again for rehearsals." I told him as I tried to stand up from this
very soft and comfortable bed. I wish I can just lay down here on this bed
with JC, but well, he has his responsibilities to keep.

"Do I have to?" JC whined like a child.

"I dunno. You're the one who's gonna go in rehearsal." I told him. Josh
just groaned and sat up. His hair was tangled and very unorganized that
made him look like a child. "You look so cute with your hair like that." I
cooed. I guess he got a little self-conscious coz he tried to control the
hair that was sticking up in almost all directions.

I left him in the room knowing that he can find his way around. I went to
the kitchen and thought of something that can be cooked the quickest. Like
I said, I don't wanna make him late. I'll just fry some bacon and eggs,
that's quick enough. Pookie decided to make her presence known with her
high-pitched barks. "I guess you're hungry now?" I said to the dog. I
placed some dog food in her plate and she ate happily with her tail wagging
like crazy.

It didn't really take a long time for me to cook everything and in no time
I was done and so was JC. He walked in the kitchen with his hair properly
combed wearing a plain shirt and some sweat pants. Too normal for him.

"You can eat ahead, I'll just take a bath." I told JC as I laid the food on
top of the table. Josh sat on one of the chairs and began eating quietly. I
went upstairs and did my morning routine. After 10 minutes, I was done and
returned to the kitchen finding JC still eating but I think his pace was
slow coz there are still lots of food there.

I sat beside him and placed some of the bacon and eggs on my plate. "That
was quick." JC commented as he took more food from the serving platter. I
guess he still waited for me. So sweet of him!

"It's just a thing that stick with me back in college. I tried to get more
sleep but I cut the time in bathing. Sleep is something I cherish the
most." I said to him.

"So do I!" JC told me enthusiastically. "With the whacked schedule we have
in tour, sleeping is really something I love to do. I mean I can sleep
anywhere."

"Me too!" I said to him. "One time, I was waiting in line for registration
but Dee had an opening the night before. I slept while standing on the
line." I laughed. I was really sleepy and tired that day. If no one nudged
me, I guess I didn't register to any subject that day.

Josh made his sexy laugh. I can't believe that I even find his laughter
sexy. Am I insane already? The two of exchanged some more past
experiences. Some were the embarrassing ones and some were the times when
we were so proud of ourselves. When I looked at the watch, it was 8:15
already. "I think I should bring you to your rehearsals now." I said to him
pointing at the clock.

"I think you're right. Wade made me run 10 laps yesterday then we went
straight to a new dance sequence." JC told me. The two of us walked to my
Benz and we drove off to the compound where they were rehearsing. We
reached the placed with a few more minutes to spear. "Do you wanna stay?"
JC asked hesitantly.

"Do they know?" I asked back.

"They know that I have someone that I'm seeing but they don't know that
it's you." JC said somewhat ashamed. I think he's a little ashamed of not
telling the others that I am his boyfriend. Well, it's just two days since
we talked about having a committed relationship.

"It's okay Josh." I said caressing his cheek. "If you want, I can stay
in. I don't have work remember?" I told him. JC nodded happily and I parked
my car in the parking lot. There were only two cars in the lot so I assumed
that the others are not yet here. The two of us walked to the sorta
warehouse-built establishment.

"Don't be nervous." JC took my hand and held it as we walked along the
corridors. I could see framed posters of other artists posted along the
walls. Well, Josh was right. I was really nervous. This is actually the
first time I'm gonna meet them as JC's boyfriend. The last time we met,
except Justin was in Dee's club.

"Well, it's hard not to be." I answered him. JC then opened a door and we
entered. The room was filled with mirrors and I could hear music blaring
from the stereo. I recognized Lance dancing with a tall blond guy who I
think is Wade. I think I've seen him in a magazine or something like that.

"I see that you learned your lesson." Wade said with a smug look. He just
reminds me so much of Justin. A little smug. Lance was looking at me
quizzically prolly thinking when he saw me last.

JC was blushing a little bit. "I did." JC said with a grin. "Wade, Lance
this is Kyle, my boyfriend." He said to the two guys. Wade eyed me from
head to toe. I hated that.

"I think I've met you from before." Lance said scratching his head.

"I'm Dee's brother. You know, Buzzed." I reminded him. A look of
recognition passed his face and he smiled at me warmly.

"So you're the guy that stole JC's heart?" Lance said to me that made me
blush. "Aaw, isn't that cute?" He added.

"Stop doing that with my boyfriend." JC said embracing protectively. Now,
that's what I call a good boyfriend. "The others are not here yet?" JC
asked still holding unto me.

"They just try to be late." Wade said folding his arms. The two of us sat
on the floor in a corner as we waited for the remaining members of NSYNC to
arrive. Wade was checking his watch frequently as he stood patiently by the
door. Lance was trying to figure out the new choreography that Wade taught
them yesterday.

"Lance is surely a persevering guy." I stated my observation to JC.

"Yeah. Dancing isn't really his thing so he tends to work more than the
rest of us." JC said to me. As I looked at Lance, I could say that he was
dancing a little awkward and kept on stumbling in some parts leaving him a
little upset. After a few more minutes, the door opened and the noise that
was coming from Joey, Chris and Justin suddenly died down once they've seen
Wade glaring at them.

"You're late." Wade stated a little bit annoyed. The three just looked so
guilty like they were caught red-handed by their mother in mischief. "Start
stretching and give me 10 laps around the compound afterwards." Wade turned
his back from the three and walked away. I saw Justin looking at me. He
hasn't changed that much since the last time I saw him. Actually, he looked
more normal coz of the plain shirt and shorts he was wearing.

JC tugged my hand and we walked towards the three. "Guys, this is Kyle, my
boyfriend." JC said to them. I smiled meekly but when my eyes met Justin's,
it was like he was tearing up. He spun around and walked out of the room.

"Now what?!" Wade said. "Where on earth is Justin going?" Wade asked
addressed to, um, I guess to everyone. We all shrugged not knowing the
answer. "He's in deep shit." Wade mumbled as he followed Justin out of the
room.

"What's with Justin?" JC asked Joey and Chris who again shrugged.

"So you're the guy that JC has been talking about non-stop." Joey said
closing in to me. Talking about non-stop? I looked at JC who just blushed a
deep crimson red.

"It wasn't that bad." JC said.

"Oh yes it is." Chris nodded his head. "The first time was okay. The second
time was still okay but when you've reached the 10th time of telling us
what a wonderful guy Kyle is, it becomes a little irritating and tiring."
Chris said with a grin. I can't help but to chuckle from what he said. I
never thought that JC was talking about me to the guys.

"Don't worry, he's been telling us all your embarrassing tales." Joey said
dropping his arm over my shoulder. My eyes went straight to JC shocked.

"I did not!" JC ejaculated.

"Don't worry Kyle. He's been telling us good stuff about you. Nothing to
worry about." Lance said walking to us. "Come on, let's start stretching or
Wade will surely be mad." Lance told the three who just nodded. Um, where
do I go?

"Kyle, you can sit there for awhile. I hate to drag you to this boring
rehearsal but I just want to share this to you. I mean this is my life." JC
continued rambling.

"I understand Josh. And I wanna stay. I've been to more boring events than
what you say this is." I told JC with a smile.

"So we are in a 'Josh' basis already?" Joey half-stated, half-asked as he
was laying down stretching his leg. I just smiled weakly and walked to the
seat in the corner. After a few minutes, Wade barged into the room once
more with a frown.

"You two, start with your laps." Wade pointed at Chris and Joey who just
groaned but complied as they walked out of the room starting in a slow
jog. "I want you here in 15 minutes. Lonnie will count the laps you're
doing so no cheating." Wade shouted as the two closed the door. "For you
two, let's start with Up Against the Wall." Wade said to JC and Lance and
played the track in the stereo.

From where I was seated, I observed keenly how the two danced. I must say
that JC is really a great dancer, no question about that. And Lance is
coping but you don't see the full energy that JC was showing. It was like
JC was giving his final dance in his life, it was filled with vigor and
confidence. The music ended and the two tried to catch their breaths.

"JC, that was a good one." Wade said to JC. "Lance, add more life to
it. And bend your knees a little, you look like a stick there." Wade
noted. Lance just hung his head low. I mean that was a cruel thing to say
but I don't wanna speak and gnash with Wade's ways. Joey, Chris and Justin
entered the room trying to catch their breath. "Now you're here, let's do
Pop." Wade told the three newcomers.

I think Justin and JC are the greatest dancers in the group. Joey was a
little bit slow, maybe the fact that he's getting a little fat is the
reason. Chris seemed to be tired already and was slowing down a bit. Still,
Lance was managing but a little awkward. I tried to observe their every
motion as the music blared from the speakers. It was a tricky dance routine
and a little fast.

I caught Justin glancing at me but he immediately shifted his eyes but it
made him lose a step. Wade reprimanded him with that. I don't know what's
the deal with Justin. Is this gonna be a problem between the two of us?
Well, it looks a little awkward coz I dated him a night and the next night,
I hit it off with his best friend. It sounds like I am a player but I am
not.

Once the song ended, Joey dropped to the floor trying to catch his
breath. "Can we have a break?" Joey said through gasps.

"5 minutes." Wade said and walked away leaving the five hurrying up to get
bottles of water. Well, the cooler was actually beside me so they were
crowding me. With many 'I got this first' fighting for water. But there are
lots of them. I think my last count was 30.

"You bored yet?" JC asked then drank at his bottle.

"Nah, I'm actually very amused. When you see it in concert, it looks so
perfect but behind the scenes, I can see all the flaws." I told him. JC sat
on my lap. "Hey! You're kinda heavy you know." I told him.

"But you weren't complaining last night." JC said with a grin. I just
rolled me eyes with his comment but it made me look at Justin. When I saw
Justin, he looked like he was so sad with what he was seeing and with the
'last night' comment, I think that added something to it. Justin caught me
looking at him and he just averted his gaze and drank from his bottle.

"Come on!" Wade bellowed. "Anything you wanna see Kyle?" Wade asked me
gently. Wow, I never thought that he could possibly do it. Maybe it was
just the fact that he was doing his job and he is also a sweet person.

I thought for a minute what I would like to see. "The Two of Us?" I
answered hesitantly that made the others groan.

"Perfect choice." Wade grinned at the 5 guys. I really liked this song off
of their Celebrity album but I guess that fact that it's a fast song flew
out of my mind. All I have to do was smile at them sheepishly and be
entertained with their act. The guys continued dancing over and over
again. I guess it gets to be too much when you hear the same song 3 times
because of some mistake that Lance was getting. I can see that Wade was
losing his patience already and I feel sorry for Lance. He's been
practicing like hell and I can see that he's taking it badly.

I looked at my watch and it read 10:30am. I can't believe that I've been
here for just 2 hours. I thought that I was stuck on this chair for 5 hours
already. I guess JC is right. This is really boring. "Take 5!" Wade said
when Lance tripped with his foot.

JC walked to me with a tired smile on his face. "Tired?" I asked as I
handed a bottle of water to him. He just nodded and drank the water. I
guess dancing for 2 hours does this to someone. "I'm gonna go out for a
while to buy y'all lunch. Anything you want?"

"You don't have to." JC smiled at me.

"But I insist." I told him. It's not solely because I want to buy them
food, I also wanted to get out of the room and get some fresh air. It was
getting stuffy for me already. "Guys, what do you want for lunch? I'm going
out." I told the others giving JC no place to rebut. I was bombarded with
lots of orders. Actually, they were mixed. Chris wanted McDs. Joey called
for Mexican food. Wade and Lance wanted some Japanese food. I guess I'll
have to make lots of trip.

"Is it really okay?" JC asked. I just nodded at him. "I want some Chinese."
Josh told me. I took note of their order and noticed that Justin didn't say
anything.

"Justin, what do you want?" I asked him with a smile trying to hide the
awkward feeling that was coursing around my body. I can't believe that I'm
talking to the guy I told that I don't feel anything about him. It was like
I dumped him. Justin just shrugged. "Fine, I'll just get you some Chinese
as well." I said then walked away.

"Can you change that to McD's." I heard Justin say. I looked back and
smiled at him warmly.

It was a refreshing feeling finally getting out of that rehearsal room. The
first few minutes was very interesting coz it was like I was having my very
own mini-concert from NSYNC. But when they repeated Pop again. And repeated
it again. It just tends to be too much. The process of buying all the
different food that the guys wanted was tedious but I am not
complaining. More time spent outside, less time spent in there.

I looked at my watch and it read 12:05pm. I looked back at the backseat
where all the food are placed. I guess all of it is there. I drove back to
the compound to bring the lunch to the guys and back to hear the same songs
over and over again. With all the different bags from different food
establishments at my hands, I entered the rehearsal room and saw them
dancing to The Game is Over. When Wade noticed that I have arrived, he
turned the radio off and walked to me. "I am hungry." Wade said and helped
me carry with the bags and inspecting where his was. Soon, the others
crowded over me and Wade and took their own.

They all thanked me, even Justin, and we all ate heartily exchanging
stories to each other. But I can't help notice that Justin was still
avoiding me. When I would comment with what he said, he would just remain
quiet and he didn't even dare to comment on mine. And the fact that Josh
was almost throwing himself to me there was not helping the situation. I
dunno why but JC was extra playful.

Once everyone was finished eating, Wade called them once again and they
began to rehearse again. I threw away all the things that was left over on
the table because I really can't stand seeing things unattended. Like I
said, I am a very domesticated person and a clean freak. Sometimes, it even
frightens Dee and Paul coz they're both slobs.

I tried to shut out the songs that kept on repeating and repeating and
concentrated on the guys dancing trying to know them more in their
dancing. I even don't know if it's possible but with what I'm seeing, I
guess I'm getting to know them; the real guys of NSYNC and not the poster
boys of NSYNC. Like I said, Lance is a very persistent guy. Even if most of
the times they repeat the dance because of him, I can see the persistence
and determination in his face. I think it's overly done that it's causing
him to trip or something like that.

Joey and Chris keeps on playing around but the two have their own serious
moments. When it was time for them to work, they just change into this new
person that is very serious and focused. But when the songs end or Wade
calls a break, the two begins their antics even if they're so tired that is
traced in their faces already. And Justin, well, I must say that he's a
graceful and natural dancer. When he dances, it was so natural to him like
he is part of the music. But he was also reserved like he was trying to
hide something but I don't get that.

And JC. There's a thousand things that I can say about Josh. I must say
that JC is also a natural dancer and there's no bias in that. Sometimes, he
would wink at me and still get the steps right like it was part of
him. Well, what can I do but blush a little and smile at him. Am I falling
for Josh already? I think that this is the best time I was having in a
relationship. With the guys that my siblings and friends set up with me, I
feel so distant with them like I am just forced to be with them but when
I'm JC, I feel so comfortable. I guess that fact that the two of us
remained friends first was a good thing coz I already know lots of things
about him and he knows lots about me as well making us comfortable with
each other.

But the question remains, am I falling for him? I think I am and I'm damn
happy about it.

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End of Chapter

I can't believe that it's chapter SIX already. Time does fly some fast. I
guess, there's nothing much in this chapter except more lovey-dovey stuff
from JC and Kyle. I just wanna put something there that won't be heavy coz
with the train of thought in my mind, JC and Kyle are gonna have a bumpy
ride.

Thanks to ALL of you who have taken the time and MAILED me! I truly
appreciate it very much. A big shout to my Danish pals, Chris and Danny, I
hope you always be in love forever. :-)

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A big 'HI' to the people in the Nifty Boyband Chatroom! They are so nice,
especially Wes, Dru, CJ, Duckie, Strat, Clive, Jayson... and the list goes
on. Wanna say hi to my friends Byron who have helped me with their support
and their friendship! Stay strong in your relationship! Finally, a big big
'thank you' to David who maintains the Nifty archives, without him, we
won't be reading any of the best slash fics in the world!

Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that
influenced me in my craft. 
 + Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)
 + The One (Brian/Justin)
 + Jamie's Romance (Justin)
 + Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)
 + Josh and Just (JC/Justin)
 + Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)
 + My New Life (Lance)
 + Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)
 + Double Take (Brian/Nick)
 + Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)
 + Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)
 + My Surprise Romance (Lance)
 + Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)
 + Life with Justin (Justin)
 + Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)
 + French Kiss Me (Brian)
 + Millennium Love (Brian)
 + Forever (Kevin)
 + JC's Hitchhiker (JC)
 + Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)
 + Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)
 + Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)
 + Lance's Search (Lance/JC)
 + Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)
 + JC Dreams (JC)
 + On the Streets (Kevin)
 + Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)
 + Insecurities (Nick)
 + Chance Meeting (Justin)
 + My Soulmate JC (JC)