Date: Sat, 24 Nov 2001 22:35:57 -0800 (PST)
From: lost <txdman2000@yahoo.com>
Subject: when-it-costs-too-much-03

lost again. ok?  oh, and before i forget, i kinda wrote the wrong e-mail
at the bottom of my last posting, so if you wrote and didn't hear back,
that might be why (sorry).

i blame the lateness of this posting on the rain (gotta blame it on
something, right?)

as for stories to keep you occupied whilst awaiting my next posting, my
recommendations (excluding the aforementioned 'this gift' and 'kevin and
justin') today are: 'forever' (which hopefully'll get update soon too),
'brian and me' and 'lance in shining armour' (please note the canadian
spelling).

oh, and if you're looking for other stuff to read (outside the web),
harry potter is really good :).

disclaimer:
this isn't real. it's not meant to imply anything about the real world
people who may bare similarities to those depicted within. (i.e. it's
like the difference between breakfast tacos and breakfast burritos)
if you're too young, you aren't supposed to read this, so please don't.
if you're easily offended, get over it or don't read and go away.

and without further ado (since this almost has nothing to have
much ado about)...


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Chapter 03:
Surfacing
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I was early.  I didn't know why, really, just that I was.  Really early,
in fact.

As I flipped through my borrowed Life -- the best section of the
Express-News, our local paper -- I tried to fathom why this was, while
at the same time restraining from doing the crossword puzzle -- the
bailiff would get mad at me if I did.

I hadn't left the pool any earlier.  Sure practices were getting shorter,
due to the end of the season nearing and all, but that shouldn't have
caused all this free time.

Maybe my drive into downtown and the courthouse... traffic hadn't
been too bad... maybe that was why?  And the line at the cafeteria
hadn't been long, either.  I'd even managed to already eat my chorizo
and egg, and potato and egg tacos.  And still it wasn't time for the grand
jury to convene.

So I'd asked the bailiff for her Life section, and after vowing not to
tamper with the crossword, it was loaned to me.  I really needed to
bring my own, but as I'd left the house at 5:30 a.m. to get in the water
on time, the paper, as usual, hadn't arrived yet.  Lazy paperboy?
Perhaps.

Since I'd left the house before its arrival, and as it was Monday, I not
only didn't have today's Life section, which was just sitting at home, but
I also didn't have the previous day's either.  At least if it was
Wednesday, I could've brought Tuesday's in.  But no, not the case for
Monday - Sunday's crossword was just too hard.

(For those of you who don't know, the New York Times crossword
puzzle (syndicated nationally, and carried locally) gets harder as the
week progresses, culminating in the renowned Sunday edition.  As I'm
not much of a crossword connoisseur, I don't often attempt Sunday.
I've been able to handle themes, and can do all right through
Wednesday and sometimes Thursday, but I don't attempt Sunday -- I'm
not ready for it.  Beside, Mom likes to do it, so I let her have it.
Occasionally, I'll tag in to help with the theme -- not her forte --
but mostly I steer clear.)

So, where was I?  Oh, yeah, I had no "Life" of my own and too much
time to burn, and luckily the bailiff was nice enough to loan me hers.
I read the comics -- yet another reason for the value of the section --
to pass the time.

Once done with reading Fox Trot, Mother Goose and Grimm, Broom
Hilda, and my other favorites, I flipped to the entertainment briefs, after
checking out my horoscope: all isn't as it seems... but all answers won't
necessarily be forthcoming soon.

Janet Jackson's name caught my eye.  Ever since she'd been through
town the year before, I'd:  a) regretted not going to the Velvet Rope
show (though I did catch part of it on HBO), and b) had been digesting
whatever news I happened to stumble across about her.  However,
today's mention was just a name dropping.

The snippet went on about how Ms. Jackson's former opening act,
identified as the ex-Mouseketeer-led N Sync, would be returning to
the Dome on Wednesday, this time headlining...  not really my thing.
Sure, I'd fallen victim to the Backstreet Boys -- they are actually good
-- and then to Britney Spears, then Christina, and most recently 98
Degrees, but my slide into semi-pathetic musical tastes hadn't hit the
rock-bottom that N Sync represented.  Not that they were necessarily
terrible, mind you, just that I didn't like them at the moment; it's weird
enough being a grad student and liking some aspects of "teen" pop,
let alone all of it - maybe I was trying to avoid a total fall?  Not that
that would last forever (it didn't), but for the moment, I couldn't really
stand to hear them.

Now had it been Backstreet playing the Dome, I might've considered
going.  Even BBMak, if they ever managed to actually reschedule their
British booties here - they'd had a date scheduled, but cancelled at the
last minute because Christian, or someone, got food poisoning the night
before.  (I think that's his name.)

Anyways, I wasn't much interested in seeing or even reading about
N Sync, but my instincts told me to at least glance at the photo
accompanying the short write-up.  A picture accompanied the tidbit,
and when I looked at the five young lads, one in particular caught my
attention.  I wasn't exactly sure why "J.C." looked familiar;  and I
wouldn't realize why until later, a little bit after this day's stint on the
grand jury ended.

For as I began to contemplate why he looked familiar -- I used to watch
the Mickey Mouse Club, but that was like 20 years ago; he didn't look
that old -- the foreman called us to order, pulling me out of my reverie,
and once again we started our twice-weekly, four-hour shift of handing
out indictments.  Luckily, one's stint only lasts two months...

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Josh wasn't sure where they were... just that it was way too late at night
to still be so hot.  Somewhere in Texas... maybe.  Yeah, that seemed
right.  He'd ask Chris in the morning, or rather later that afternoon, after
he'd slept...



Where are we?  Texas?  No place else would still be that hot at 3:00 in
the morning.  And the whole glasses-fogging-up-upon-getting-off-the-
bus...  Ah, but no worries, back in the A.C. again.  This couch is kinda
comfy too; just right for a nap.  I just hope I don't get jumped on when
the guys get here.

Speaking of which, where are they?  Chris should know where we are;
just gotta ask him when he gets here...



"And I sing to you like the chorus to the verse, drop another line like a
co-DAOOOOH--"

"Whatcha singing?"

"--with a curse.  Jeez Chris!" Impact on legs;  weight mainly on chest,
now.  Legs not broken, just feel like that.  "3-E-B... Where are we?"

"San Antonio.  Chris, off."

Wait, that was over by the door, and sounded like...

"Laaaaaaaaannnnnnnccccee, can't I stay just a little longer?"

"No."

"Please?"

"No."

"No."

"But I don't know who 3-E-B is."

"And staying atop JC will help you figure that out?"

"Yes."

"I somehow doubt it."

Aaaaaahhhhh, weight gone.  Eyes can open now.

"San Antonio, you say?"

"Yes, Chris.  Josh, are you ok?"

"Yeah, Lance, just a little pain," -- ah, there's Chris -- "but otherwise
ok."

"Are you sure we're not in Houston?  I could've sworn we were in
Houston tonight."

"I could tape it up on the wall, if it'll help you remember?"

"Could you, Lance, that'll help.  Maybe right over here, like on the
curtain, or..."

"Why is he in charge?"

"He's the oldest."

"I don't think that qualification is as valid as it used to be."

"We'll overthrow him soon."

"Who you guys gonna overthrow?"

"Justin."

"Joey."

"Yeah, Joey."

"Sure, whatever you say, Lance."

"So you'll go get them, Chris?"

"WHAT?  No."

"You said 'Whatever you say, Lance.'  I'm Lance, right JC?"

"I believe so."

"But..."

"There's not another Lance in the room, is there?"

"I don't think so, wouldn't you agree, Chris?"

"But... ah, man.  Fine!"

Josh watched as Chris stomped out of the room, ranting as he departed.
His gaze then returned to Lance, who had sat down on a part of the
couch he was no longer sprawled out on.  It was then that he noticed
Lance had something in his hand.

"Whatcha got there, Lance?"

"Oh, some envelope that was left in the dressing room. We're not
exactly sure.  It look familiar?"

Josh took the manilla envelope from Lance's outstretched arm, and
opened it.  Reaching inside, he pulled out two 8x10 photos placed
face-to-face.  On the side now facing Josh, someone had written in
black marker:  "In complete darkness we are all the same.  It is only
our knowledge and our wisdom that separates us.  Don't let your
eyes deceive you."

"What's the scoop on the Janet quote?"

"Wait, it gets better, JC.  Look at the pictures."

JC flipped around the top photo, as Lance continued on, "I mean, I've
seen a lot of pictures before, and we've had some strange items left in
the dressing rooms too, but never a couple of pictures of a box."

"A box," Josh synced with Lance, as he trailed off.  "'One shot must
be of a box,'" Josh softly breathed out.

"You recognize it, J.C.?"

'If this is here, then,' "we're in San Antonio."

"Yeah, J.C.  I said that earlier."

"Oh, sorry, Lance.  It must've just reached my brain; still tired from
the nap I guess."

"So do you know something about the pictures?"  Lance asked,
almost giddy.

Josh pondered the two shots.  One too dark, one too light.  "No, I
don't think so.  Haven't seen them before.  It's an attractive box
though."

"Ah, man: strike five.  The guys are gonna be disappointed.  Guess
it'll just remain a mystery."

'One can only hope.'

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To:  kevin@bboys.com
From:  a.m.hudson@sooooonotrealemail.com
Date:  October 8, 1999
Subject:  "crazy"

well, just to completely change tracks here, now that i've introduced
myself, i'd just like to comment on something:  have you ever noticed
how there are songs with exactly the same title, yet they have
completely different emotional ranges?  i bring it up, cause i was
flipping through the radio today - cause i can't find a station that'll
play the complete variety of songs i like - when I managed to hear
'creep' by tlc, then 'creep' by stp (stone temple pilots;  'so i creep,
yeah, just keep it on the down-low, said nobody is supposed to know'
then 'take time with a wounded hand cause it likes to heal, it likes to
steal').  had i also heard the radiohead version, the little triad would've
been complete; who knows, maybe i did - it's not like i know the latter.

anyways, there's other songs that have the same title but are completely
different songs.  like "crazy".  there's the one by aerosmith, and the
one by seal, probably my personal fave 'crazy' (pre-super balladeer
days).  and then there's the definitive version;  the one penned by
willie nelson and sung by patsy cline (and just recently by leann rimes,
which should somewhat stop the comparisons between ms. rimes and
ms. cline which have followed the former since her breakthrough
performance on "blue" - good movie, btw).
     and if one fudges things just a bit, then one can include things like
"(you drive me) crazy" (the stop! remix of which i particularly like,
and is available on the soundtrack to 'drive me crazy,' which
coincidentally happens to feature a very nice remix of y'all's IWITW)
or even "(i drive myself) crazy" (but then again, i'm not certain of that
title... guess i'd need to like nsync to know).

'crazy's not the only other example of this phenomenon either.
"angel" is another good example, of which i like the aerosmith (again),
madonna,  and sarah mclachlan versions (and, just fyi, the new t.v.
show, also sharing the same title, is starting off really good);  though
sarah's definitely has it's uniqueness.  sometimes (like now) i can
completely identify with it - every single word - and at other times,
i can't fathom how i could've identified with it so.  or rather, i can
fathom, but it just makes me realize how much better i feel at the
moment - and i can't even listen to it, because of that.  usually though
i switch the radio off the station it's on, cause i don't particularly like
being reminded that i could/can identify with it so well (i try to listen to
'sweet surrender' instead, if i'm at home).

but back to the original multiple-songs-with-the-same-title deal.
i mention it to you, cause i noticed that even y'all have fallen 'victim'
(for lack of a better word) to this, with it's own interesting twist:
a song on each of your albums shares a title with a gloria estefan song
("anywhere for you" on the first, and "don't wanna lose you now"
on millennium).  i was kinda wondering if it was coincidental or a
strange/subtle homage to your fellow florida transplant (i don't think
she was born there...).

anyways, i've taken up enough of your time for now, so i'll save delving
back into the "me" stuff until later.  hope the tour goes well.

-alex


crazy are the people walking through my head
one of them's got a gun, to shoot the other one
and yet together they were friends at school

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ttfn

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