Date: Fri, 23 Jul 1999 19:30:40 +0700
From: TonnY <aspire34@go.com>
Subject: When U Say Nothing At All

Notes:
Here...you go...another story of NSYNC. Hopefully, you've never tired to
read their stories. This is my first story of its kind (actually I've
never written a story before), and I would really appreciate it, if
you would please send comments and suggestions (bad or good is
welcomed) regarding this story to TonnY at aspire34@go.com .
Btw..Thanks for my special friends: Andy, Rick, and Keith...for such a
support to push me to send this story.

Disclaimer -
This story contains gay relationships between Justin Randall
Timberlake and a fictional character.  This story in no way implies
that him or any members of N'Sync is gay.  If you are under the legal
age to read such material in your area please leave immediately.  The
author takes no responsibility for anyone's actions based upon this
work of fiction.

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WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL


CHAPTER ONE: A New Beginning

Here I am, sitting all alone on my bed again, in my small apartment.
It's 3 am already and I still can't close my eyes. A lot of things
happened to me lately, especially for the past 2 days. Since I took
them to the airport, I am thinking what just happened.
I'm thinking and thinking again 'what's wrong with me?!'. The
past 2 days were the best days in my entire life. I had a chance to
meet them, and a great opportunity to open their concert here, 'yeah,
it was once in a lifetime experience happening to me'.

~ Back to the past ~
	Now I'm thinking how everything has started on me. Well I
used to be 'a pub singer' well it was a great job and surely paid
my bills since I was still studying in college and far away from my
parents. I met Pete at the pub, he's sort of kinda a local producer,
after the show, he told me that I had a great voice and a great
chance to be a real singer. First though 'yeah right, being a
singer, I have never been so serious with singing and never thinking
that singing as my career'. Then Pete asked me if I was interested
in recording a music. At first, I had to reject it, but he insisted
that I should come to give it a try. He gave his card. The next day,
I met him in his studio and I did it. I recorded 3 songs in 4
days. Pete looked satisfied on the result, and asked me to sign his
contract. I told him about my though about singing as a career,
therefore I was not sure to sign the contract. However he explained
that without signing the contract, he couldn't producing my first
single. Well thinking what I've done for the past few days, I
agreed to sign it but I asked for short term contract, and Pete was
fine with that. After couple of weeks, the single of my songs was
out. It wasn't so pleased, however, some local radios tried to play
it once in a while. It was great to know that the radios tried helping
out a new and independent local artist. I was also so surprised that
Pete seemed cool with it, he was not even bother that the single
wasn't successfully in the market as he expected.

	Two months later, Pete called me, and he sounded in rush or
something. He said that I had an opportunity to open a tour in here,
in Perth, for a group from states, in two days. I was so surprised,
and I said why? Why? And why me?. He explained that the opening
tour supposed to be by 'Human Nature' (it's a very famous Australian
group), since two of the members were sick therefore they could not
perform for the show, and Pete also couldn't found anyone to replace their
performance in short notice. Then Pete kept begging me to do it.
Actually I didn't like the idea of people throwing eggs or tomatoes
at me, but Pete told me that 'I'll be fine' since some people seemed
liked my songs lately. Then I said 'yes' to him, and Pete was so
pleased about it, he was so happy like he won a lottery or something.
He told me that I had to sings three songs. I was so surprised when I
found out that the group was N'SYNC. What I know about the group is
that they are so famous in Asia, Europe, and US but they're new to
Australian's audiences (surely their songs sit on the TOP 20 ARIA
charts, not like my song). Well, nothing to loose, so I gave it my
best shot. Then I had to prepare myself for the show in two days.

	In two days, I had to make rehearsal for the show at PEC (Perth
Entertainment Center). It is a big place in the heart of Perth, most
of basketball games and big shows are held over there. As I started
my rehearsal and Pete was watching me seriously how I performed.
After finishing my last song, he was so pleased, then we heard hands
clapped from side of the stage. When I turned to see who they were, I
saw 5 people at the right of the stage. Oh my god, it was them,
N'SYNC even Pete surprised to see them. They came to us, and
introduced their self, start with JC, Lance, Chris, Joey, and Justin,
the last one. Then Pete introduced himself and me. They told me that
my songs were great, as a matter of fact, it was different kind of
music from them. I was blushing a couple of times, but I had to keep
myself cool, I didn't want to look idiot in front of them.
	We were chatting for a while before they practiced for their
rehearsal. I didn't know why but I seem comfortable around them. They
are really friendly, I always though that they could be arrogant or
something since they're really famous. I guessed, I was wrong,
they even started playing jokes on me, mainly from Chris and Joey. We
really had a good time with them. They started asking about me, just about
everything when I said everything means really really everything
from A-Z, it was kinda like interviews instead of just simple
chatting. However I just answered in simple, not too much details.
Basically, they were so surprised that I'm not an Australian. I just
told them that I came to Australia for study, so I'm an overseas
student and also they just could not believe that singing is just a
hobby for me.
In the evening, the concert began right on time as planned, it started from my
songs, and the audiences seem enjoyed so much, they even gave me some
applause and singing a long with me (it was surprising me
that they remembered all the words from my songs). After finishing my
last song, it was dark, then the laser started playing at the
background, making a word "N'SYNC" then the background sound "I want
you back" was playing and one by one, the guys all came out.
They were really good, not to forget the dancing (I wish I could
dance like that), all of their fans kept screaming and some of them
fainted. I just watched them from the side of the stage. They
finished their song with "You drive me Crazy" then they thanks the
fans for coming. Out of now where, Justin called my name to come out,
and asked the fans to give cheers for my performance. I did not what
to do I was just freeze where I was standing, then Justin took my
hand and dragged me out, all the fans cheers me out and the other
guys were laughing to see what Justin did to me. Finally we all took
a bow to the fans. When we were all the backstage, I thanked them
all, especially for Justin who dragged me out, and they were just
kept laughing. Since it was their last concert in Australia and my
job was finished, then timed to say good bye and I thanked them again
for the opportunity. When I just wanted to leave, Justin asked me
whether I was interested having dinner with them, well it was  kinda
late so I turned down his offer then the guys just kept begging me
to come with them, even Chris started to drag me to go with them
(since it was 5 against 1, I couldn't possibly win it) then I said yes, they
all were very excited, especially Justin.
	Then we all were heading to their limo, before getting to the
car, they were stopped by some fans, asking for some autograph of
course, well the guys were so generous that night, so I had to wait
for a couple of minutes until 'the autograph session' finished. Since
it was pretty late, the guys decided to have their dinner at the
hotel. They were staying at Burstwood (it's the best hotel and casino
in town). It only took 20 minutes from the venue to the hotel.
Arriving at the hotel, we all were heading to JC's room, and it was
spacious room with great view of the city, swan river, and the golf
course (Perth is certainly nice at night, peaceful and quite). They
ordered pizzas since we were all very starving. We were still talking
about the concert (they seem really enjoyed their time in Australia),
and once awhile Joey and Chris were starting with some jokes.
Then I realised, it was nearly mid-night, I told them that I had to
leave since all of them were pretty tired, now they let me go. I told
them that I could catch a cab however Justin insisted to take me back
home with their limo but I assured him that it was safe in
here to take a cab at night and again now all the guys insisted (again
the battle which I've never won), so I decided to take their offer.
Each of them gave me a hug and said good bye. Since Justin was not
pretty tired, he came with me ( I had a 'funny' feeling about the
whole thing), he told me that he wanted to see the view of the city at night
while heading back to myself, for the excused. In the limo, I just
kept staring outside, and I could see the reflection from the window
that Justin kept staring at me (well I guessed he wanted to see
the view of the city from my site).
	After 30 minutes rode, we were at my place. Justin was so
surprised that my apartment is so small, and I explained to him that
I'm living alone and beside I'm just a student. He asked me whether
he could had a look of my place for a while, I said surely do.

"This is a nice place though, small but nice" Justin commented on my
apartment.

" well thanks, I don't need something big, as long as I can study
peacefully" I replied

"Do u want drink or a cuppa" I asked

"cuppa???" Justin sounds confused of the Australian's term

"a cup of tea ???" I repeated my question with a smile.

"just water please" he smiled.

Then I gave him a glass of water, He looked at my CDs collection and
he was so surprised of my collection.

"How many CD do you have here?" Justin asked

"I dunno, I've never counted before......probably around 200 something"
I replied

" wow these are a lot mannn......... let me see...hmmm Celine, Shania, Madonna,
Frank Sinatra, Cher, BSB, Dance, Rap, R&B, Rock......you love all types
of music hey..."

"Yap I collect songs and love it all, from Hanson to Marilyn
Manson...from celine to TLC... he he he he" I said, and he laughed at my
comment while kept browsing my collection

"tell the truth... I love this one...this one is great" he showing N'SYNC
Album

"oh that one surely..it is the best he he he he" we all laughed

He looked at me for awhile and he realized that I felt sleepy.

"hhhmm it's 1 am already, I should be back and let you have a rest"

"oh OK...well tell the guys ...thanks for the pizzas"

"sure...hmmm tony..can I get your phone number? Probably we can
get going somewhere tomorrow"

"tomorrow? Don't you guys have to leave to states"

"Ohhh no no no... we still have one last day off in Australia before
going back to Orlando, we have a midnight flight anyway" Justin
explained.

"Oh ok...well if guys want to go somewhere tomorrow, just give me a
call Ok...anyway I don't have a class tomorrow, here's my number" I
gave him a piece of paper with my home and mobile number on it.

"great..see ya tomorrow then...have a sweet dream"

"you too Justin, take care" I closed the door.

At that moment, I was wondering whether Justin had a feeling for me.
Oh pleasee , we just met not even more than 24 hours, I though. He could not
possibly had a feeling for ya, stupid. He is straight as an arrow. I
sighed.

The next morning around 9am, someone was knocking my apartment door,
actually I just woke up and still feeling sleepy. When I opened the
door, I saw Justin with his killer smile.

"good morning ton...hmmm did I wake you up??" Justin asked

"morning Just... well yeah... I just woke up... it was a big night last
night" I replied

"well...you look pretty tired... probably I just let you back to sleep"

"Oh no...I have enough sleep, ooh yeah come in" and I let him in, and I
looked outside, nobody else.

"Hmmm...Just where the guys????" I asked him

"They're still sleeping, There were pretty tired from the show last
night...since I woke up early...then I decided to visit you rather than
doing nothing in the hotel... and sorry not to call you first... I though
it could be a surprised for ya...hope you don't mind"

"Not at all, you can come anytime...well do you have your breakfast
yet?" I asked him while closing the front door.

"Nope"

"Do you want anything? I have cornflakes and orange juice" I offered
him

"that would be great" then I took two bowls and put cornflakes plus
milk on it and two glass of orange juice.

"thanks ton" he took one of the bowl and I turned on the TV to
channel 10 where the cartoon is shown in the morning.

"you like watching Cartoon??" he asked and laughed a bit

"sometime but I like this one 'X-Men', that's why I used to wake up
in the morning just watching cartoon" I replied then I took my
breakfast.

"hmmm I guess...Joey will miss this one...he loves superhero figures
especially..." and I cut his sentences

"Superman...right??? I can see that from his necklace"

Justin laugh, "right...he's just a Superman Fanatic"

" So what do you and the guys wanna do on your last day in here" I
asked

" I don't think the other guys wanna do something today but sleeping
all day long, but would you mind taking me tour around the city and
shopping I guess...I have to buy some presents for my brother" Justin
responded

It was a really weird request I though," No, I don't mind at all, I
can take you some good stores in here, since it's Friday, most shop
open till 9" I replied

"cool!" he said and he was really excited

"Let me take a shower and get ready, don't worry it won't be long"

"Take your time mate!" I laughed as he used an OZ's accent.

After 20 minutes, I was ready, wearing khaki pants and white shirt.
When I went to the living room, Justin was listening to one of my CD,
and I was surprised that he cleaned all the bowls and glass. I told
him that he didn't have to do that, but he though... it wasn't a big
deal, at least that the only thing, he could do for offering him
breakfast. Then we were heading outside to start our journey, and I
was surprised that the Limo was waiting for us

"What?" Justin looked at me wondering

"I don't expect to travel around town using that" I was pointing to
the Limo

"So do you want me to arrange another car?"

"Well I can rent a car though, can you ask the driver to take us to
the nearest car rental?" I asked him

"Sure..no problemo" Justin said with spanigh accent then Justin talked to the
driver to take us to the nearest
car rental.

We went to the Hertz car rental, and I picked Silver Volkswagen Golf
Cabriolet. Justin was pleased with my decision, he insisted to pay
for it but I handed my Visa one step ahead of him. He looked unhappy
about it, but I cheered him up with stick my tongue out. Now he kept
begging me to drive the car.

"Why can I drive this car" He asked

"Well you're only 17 and I know the street better than you"

"okay..okay.." he smiled.

We were heading to Subiaco. I took him to Colonade, where all of
famous and expensive branded stores line up. I showed him some of
Australian designers, from SABA to Morrissey. He sure, a big spender,
He spent more than $1000 Australian dollar in less than 20 minutes
for some clothes.

"don't u want buy anything?" he asked while kept browsing all of the
SABA's clothing.

"Nah...It's all too expensive for me and I have enough clothing in my
wardrobe"

"come on...just pick some...and I can pay for it" he looked at me

"Thanks for the offer but nope............ thanks anyway" I replied

After paying another $600 of clothing, We started out tour around the
blocks and looked some markets. By the way, I had to help him with
some of his shopping bags. We stopped at Baskin & Robins Ice cream
and rested for a while, we continued our chats about everything. Then
we were heading to the city, and I asked him whether he wanted to
watch a movie, he was agree. We watched 'H20' in Greater Union Cinema
City since me and Justin haven't seen it. It was a stupid movie but
scared me quite sometimes, and Justin just kept squeezed my hand when
he got scared. Thanks god the movie ended soon if not, I think,
some of my fingers would be broken by Justin's squeezed. By now, it
was 2pm, and we were starving so I took him to the Carillon food
court. I ordered Japanese food, while Justin went for the burger of
Hungry Jack (they called 'Burger King' in states, somehow they
changed the name in Australia).

After an hour, we started wondering around the city. Since shopping
the only thing in his brain, then I took him to some big department
store (Myer and Aherns), and some other stores like 'Live',
'Billabong', 'Houndoug', to 'Foot Locker'. I don't know why but He
must buy something from every stores. People were staring at us, how
we handled all of the shopping bags. Surprising, not many people
noticed me or Justin, but sometime we had to stop to sign some
autograph. It was 20:30 and most stores prepared to close, then we
decided to go back to his hotel, since they had to be in the airport
by 11pm for the flight to Orlando.

At the hotel, we went to JC's room and we were struggling to keep all
the bags in our hands. And seems all of them were in JC's room. Joey
and Chris were playing with playstation and Lance read some
magazines. When JC opened the door............

"Oh my god...What is that?" JC asked with a shocked expression

"Hi JC!!!" I said

"Can you give me a hand Josh?" Justin asked

"Sure..." JC said while grabbing some of the bags from Justin's hands

Suddenly, the other guys just stopped whatever they did. They looked
me and Justin plus all of the bags, with unbelievable looks.

"Hi guys..." I greeted them

"Hi..." Lance, Joey and Chris said in unison and still watching all the
bags in awesome.

"Oh great! you had a good time with Tony and we stuck in here" Chris
said with annoying tone.

"Dooh sorry guys, you all looked wasted this morning, so I though to
let you get more sleep while I'm doing a bit shopping with Tony"
Justin said in calm.

"That's what you called 'a bit of shopping'? I think you just bought
all the stuff in the city hey" Joey tried to embarrass Justin

"Why don't you call us Ton? We were bored in here...ya know..." JC
looked at me
"Well, I am so sorry guys, as Justin told me... you all need some rest"
I tried to explain and felt guilty about it.

"shuuu... don't apologize to them, they're just too old for having
fun... not like us" Justin tried to defend me and I was giggling on his
comment

"TOO OLD???" JC, Lance, Joey and Chris said in unison. Then suddenly
they all tried to tickle Justin. Justin couldn't help but kept
laughing. I also laughed on their action and watched them making a fool on
Justin.

"Ok guys...don't you have to be in the airport in 2 hours" I tried to
stop them tickling Justin. Then they stopped the action.

"Well I packed all my stuff already" JC said

"done two hours ago" Lance comment

"me too" Joey said

"me three" Chris followed and started giggling

"OO NO! I haven't packing yet!" Justin stood up and panicking

"Now who's the 'old' one again ..." JC tried to make a fool of Justin

"I can give you a hand if you want to Just..." I offered my help

"Please.... come on ...quick.....Packing? Taking shower?..." Justin was
panicking and quickly gripped all of his bag.

"calm down...Just...Ok guys...gonna help this 'baby' do his packing...see ya
later" I said to others and they all laugh.

Me and Justin were heading to his room. I asked him to take a shower
while I did his packing 'stuff', he agreed and thanked me. He surely
had a lot of stuff, and plus all of the shopping bags, I didn't know
how to put all his stuff in his one large suitcase. So I just put his
personal and important stuff in his suitcase and some of the shopping
bags. Suddenly Justin went out from the bathroom with just towel
around his waist. I saw a glimpse of Justin figures (wow he's hot for
seventeen year old), but I tried to concentrate to all of his bag
than him. Actually he forgot to bring his clothes, then he rushed
back to the bathroom. After 30 minutes, he showed up from the
bathroom, and he looks great than before.

"Just...I don't think all of the bags fit in your suitcase" I started
the conversation.

"uuhhh...ooh geee..I like to bring them all. Do you have any idea ton?"
he asked me. I was thinking for a while

"Well, you can send it by FedEx if you want it"

"Fantastic idea and good one ton!"

"Let me call the front desk to arrange this stuff OK..."

"Thanks ton, I owe you" he started to wear his shoes, while I called
the Hotel front office.

"Ok that's settled...let's go to the lobby...you should leave in 15
minutes" I looked at my watch

"Ok let's go, they all are waiting for us"

We were heading down to the lobby hotel, and the other guys were
waiting for Justin.

"Here... they're...How is the 'baby' doing ton?" JC started the jokes on
Justin again and we all laughed except for Justin.

"He's yours now" I stoped laughing.

"Well that's it guys, have a nice trip back home" I started the
farewell.

"We've gonna missed you ton" JC said

"you should come to states ton, and do the opening again for us"
Lance stated.

"yeah...right, concert in USA, probably it's only happened in my dream"
I told him

"you're great ton! I know it, you should try the USA market" Joey
comment on my last words.

"Thanks guys for the offer but it's a lot of to think about" I
replied.

"We should go now guys, or we'll be late for the flight" Chris said

And all of them nodded, one by one, they all gave me a hug. The last
one was Justin, he looked very sad that he had to leave me. He still
hugged me for more than 2 minutes or so, but I had to break it, and
told him, he's gonna late for the flight.

"Can you come with us to the airport?" Justin asked me. And the guys
surprised on Justin's request.

"Pleasee..ton" Justin said with a puppy looks. How I could turn down
his offer with those looks.

"Yeah ton, can you come with us? We don't want to get lost or
something on our way to the airport" Chris said with a bit laugh on
his joke

"Ok OK I'll follow your Limo..." I told them and I can see the smile
back on Justin's face.

"Yesss, I'll go with ya" Justin cut of my sentences and the other
guys looked at him suspiciously

"You're sure??? There's a lot of space you know in the Limo" I said
and started to make a joke.

"Definitely sure, I want to ride the cabriolet one more time" he said
with his killer smile, and I can see all the guys cocked an eyebrow
on Justin statement

"Anyone want to come with us? 2 seats left ha ha ha" I offered them
with laughed. Then Justin looked at the guys with 'no one can come with
us' looks.

"No thanks" the guys said with suspicious looks on Justin expression.

"Ok, let's go then guys" I felt uncomfortable by the looked from the
rest of the group.

At the Perth International Airport 00:15

"Guys...the flight is on the schedule, boarding in 45 minutes and all
of the luggage has been taken care of. Now we have to pass the
immigration" their manager explained

"Ok guys here we are again, Have a nice trip guys and good luck" I
said. I gave a hug again to JC, Lance, Chris, and Joey. When I just
started to hug Justin...

"Oh crab! I left my sunglasses in your car ton...why don't you guys go
ahead, I'll be right back in a minute" Justin said

"sure? we can wait for ya Just" Lance sounded suspicious again on
Justin's words

"yeah, it doesn't take long anyway. Come on ton!" Justin said clearly
and he took my hand, dragged me along.

I rushed to get to my car, I didn't want him to be late for his
flight. I opened my driver door, while Justin opened the passenger
door. And I started looking around for his sunglasses

"Just, I can not find your glasses here, are you sure you left it in the
car?" I questioned him and still kept looking around the dashboard.

"It's in my backpack" Justin said and kept looking at me then he
closed his door

"What??? It's in your..." before I finished my sentenced, he cut me off

"I just want to talk to you, privately"

"Ohhh what is it then???" now I was starting felt uncomfortable with the
whole 'set up' situation.

"I don't know why but since we've met, I've becoming comfortable
around you...and I've never felt this way before... not even with
the guys......ummm I LOVE YOU Ton" he sounded scared to tell this. I just
lost my mind for a couple of second 'he said what'

"As a best friend right?" I asked him slowly

"No... more than that...I LIKE YOU Ton.. I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU" he
stated sternly, then he popped the question
"Do you like me Ton?" he looked at me and I looked to his eyes

"I..I... don't know Just...I...I've never falling in love before...I really
really don't..." before finishing my sentence, Justin put his lips on
mine, like a minute or so, I didn't reply his kiss, I just stunned.

"You don't like me, do you?" tears felt from his eyes

"Just, I like you a lot, I just confuse. At the moment I like you as a
friend but... if you expected more...I really don't know...We just met
Justin...not even more than two days and this is new to me. I really
don't know what to say" I tried to hold my tears, but I couldn't. I
cleaned Justin's face from his tears with my hands.

"Just say it Ton!" he definitely want the answer from me

"I.I..hmmmm you have to board in 15 minutes Just...I think, you should..."
before finishing my words, tears dropped from his eyes again, then he
opened the door and run away toward the main airport.

"Justin!...Justin!... wait!" I tried to catch him but it was too late, he
passed the immigration gate already. I just stand there while the
gate was closed.

~ Now ~

It's 4 am and I'm still crying, remembering what just happened few
hours ago. 'I Love you Justin, I Like you Justin, I am so sorry' He
probably hates me by now. I was stupid. 'I'm so sorry Justin'. I Played
one of the cd, sometimes it helps me to sleep.

'....Now I toss and turn....Cause I'm without you.....How I'm missing you
so bad....Where was my head.....Where was my heart...Now I cried alone in
the dark...I was such a fool....I couldn't see it...Just how good
you were to me....You confessed your love....Undying devotion...And now
I'm left...With all this pain....Lonely got myself to blame....Why
didn't I Know it...How much I love you baby.....Why couldn't show
it...If I had only told you...When I had the chance.....I lay
awake....I drive myself crazy.....thinking of you....made a
mistake...when I let you go baby..'

TBC


OK...that's all for the first chapter. Should I go ahead after
this? I'm waiting your response guys at aspire34@go.com