Date: Mon, 22 Nov 1999 22:09:37 +0700
From: Tonny <aspire34@go.com>
Subject: When U Say Nothing At All #20

Author notes:

Hi All...Awww man I had a really great feedback from last chapters, I met a lot
of new friends by now. Okay let's play the list of Thank You to:
Yuli [it's the new Tonny in here]; James [AAAAAA you just turned 22]; Tim [I
couldn't believe that you tricked me on 'From out of the ashes']; Gene [YES SIR!
Hahaha 'Surprise'! Surprise!]; Myriddian [hopefully this chapter is not darker
than the last one]; Clive [OOO Man I'm glad that you sent your feedback, we are
getting a long very quick, aren't we?]; Adam ['test of friendship' hmmm great!];
M. North [happy in this chapter? Hmmm]; Kamisha [Thank You for the flower,
that's mean a lot to me :)]; Joanne [Wow thanks for your nice comment, it's
still WUSNAA]; Kris [Tony ain't dead in this chapter :)]; D Man ['best story'
wow I'm flattered, thanks man :)]; Bart [what peanut gallery? Love your
suggestion, mate :)]; Jason 'Firesong' [Thanks for understanding Justin :)
MORE!!!! Hahaha]; Angel {how is your cold? Getting better yet?]; Mark [Sorry to
make you cry man when you were reading this story :)]; Jason ['Justin and
Jason'...at least Justin is pretty lucky in your version]; Alain
[Al...I...I...I...never mind! Hahahaha]; David [Thanks for the space in Nifty];
and all of you who still
read this story but forget/shy to send your feedback.

All feedback/comment to : Tonny at aspire34@go.com

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WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL
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Previously on 'When you say nothing at all:

"Howie! You get the car.  We will take him to the hospital!" AJ took charge.
"Kevin, quick put your clothes on!  We don't have much time," Kevin nodded as
Nick took me from his arms.  Nick carried me in his arms and ran as quickly as
possible with AJ's help.  AJ sat on the front seat. Howie was driving the car,
and Kevin joined Nick in the backseat.  Nick put my head on his lap as he
stopped the bleeding wrapping a T-shirt around my wrist.  Kevin put my legs on
his lap.  Kevin stared at me with tears in his eyes.  Howie was driving the car
like it was a formula-1 racer.


##### FLORIDA HOSPITAL #####

The guys waited outside the room as the medical teams worked on me.  Kevin was
still crying and kept blaming himself.  AJ, Howie, and Nick really felt sorry
for Kevin.  They tried to calm him down.  Then a doctor came out of the room.
The four of them stood up, waiting for the news.

"I'm sorry..." the doctor said.



CHAPTER 20: I'LL SAIL THIS SHIP ALONE


"I'm sorry, we can't do much to help him.  We have a big problem," The doctor
continued.

"What? Please do something, I beg you," Kevin spoke up.

"What's the problem, doc?" Nick asked.

"He lost a lot of blood, and we don't have any supply of his blood type," The
doctor explained.

"But you have to do something!" Howie raised his voice.

"Unless I can find a donor with his blood type to give him blood..."

"Tell us what type!" AJ impatiently questioning.

"AB," the doctor looked at the guys.

"WHAT?!?" The four of them said in unison and surprised.  Then Nick, Howie, and
AJ looked at Kevin.

"Mine is AB, too!" Kevin jumped out to the doctor, "Please take mine! Save him!"
Kevin grabbed the doctor and shook him lightly.

"Great! Come with me!  Quickly!" He took Kevin into the room while AJ, Howie,
and Nick waited outside.


After one hour or so, I slowly opened my eyes.  I saw Nick, Howie, and AJ
standing around my bed.  Then, I looked to the side and saw Kevin lying down on
the bed.  His right hand was attached to a long, thin tube that had a dark red
color.  I traced the tube, which ended up in my hand.  Kevin looked at me
happily as I opened my eyes.

"NOOO!" I screamed, "Let me go! Let me die!" I screamed even louder, hysterical.
Then I pulled out the tube from my hand.  The blood began spilling out on to the
bed.  Kevin was surprised to see me react like that.  He jumped up from his bed
and tried to help the guys calm me down.  Nick held my right hand, AJ held my
legs, and Howie held my left hand.

"Pleaseeeee, let me die, I don't want to live anymoreeee," I cried as I tried to
free myself from them.

"You can't die...I love you.  I'm so sorry," Kevin held my face so I could see
him.

Then some nurses and a doctor came into the room.  One of the nurses injected me
with a sedative.  The drug ran very fast through my system, and soon I was back
to sleep.

"I don't think we need this anymore," the doctor said to Kevin as he took the
transfusion tube from his hand.  "Don't worry about him, he'll be fine, he's
just sleeping," Kevin nodded sadly.

"Looks like he is in a pretty unstable emotional state.  You all will have to
try to understand him, to help him," the doctor advised as he and his staff left
the room.

"It's all my fault," Kevin blamed himself again as he looked at me.

"Kevin, I think, you need to go home, get a change and some rest.  Howie will
take you home. Let me and Nick wait here," AJ said to Kevin.

"NO! I'll stay here, I won't go anywhere," Kevin said sternly as he took a seat
on the chair next to my bed.

"But Kev..." Howie said but cut off.

"NO!" Kevin yelled at Howie. "I'm sorry, guys, if you wanna help me, you can go
home and get some of my clothes. You all need a rest," Kevin replied softly.

"Okay, Howie and I are going home.  Nick, you stay here with Kevin," AJ said,
and Nick nodded.

"Thanks guys," Kevin smiled to his 'brothers'.


3 hours later, AJ and Howie were back at the hospital.  They brought some
clothes for Kevin.  Nick tried to persuade Kevin to eat, while Kevin just stared
at me.  His face was full of shame, confusion, guilt, and fear.  After awhile,
it was Nick's turn to go home, as AJ and Howie were watching out for Kevin and
me.

"Guys, do you mind if I take a walk for awhile?" Kevin asked AJ and Howie, "I
need to freshen my mind,"

"Do you need company?" Howie asked.

"No, I'm fine but please look out for him." Kevin held my hands. "Please call me
if he wakes up.  Don't worry about me, it won't be long." Kevin replied.

"Okay," AJ said to him.

Kevin kissed me on my cheek before he left.  He exited the room and kept walking
out of the hospital.  He did a lot of thinking as he was waiting for a taxi.
Two hours later, Nick came back with some flowers in his hand.

"Hey! Nick," AJ called him up.

"How is he?" Nick asked as he put the flowers on the table next to my bed.

"Still sleeping, no change." AJ replied and Nick sighed.

"Where's Kevin?" Nick asked again.

"He told us that he needed to take a walk for awhile, but it's been 2 hours
already," Howie explained.

"Do you think he is going to..." Nick wanted to say something, but Kevin entered
the room. "Kev! Where have you been?"

"I'm fine, Nick.  Any news yet?" Kevin asked as he put another flower next to my
bed.  The guys didn't reply, they were just silent. Kevin sighed as he took a
seat next to my bed.  Then I tried to open my eyes slowly, and Nick was the
first one who shouted.

"Ton! You're awake!" Nick cheered.  "Quick, call a doctor!" Howie ran out for a
doctor. AJ greeted me with his smile, while Kevin let out tears of joy.
Before too long, a doctor came into the room.  He smiled at me, then checked me
over.

"Yes, he's getting better now, but we need to keep him in the hospital for
another day, just to make sure," the doctor said to Kevin, then he looked at me.
"You should thank him, he saved you." The doctor smiled at me as he referred to
Kevin, then he left.

"Ton...I'm sorry. I don't know what happened to me that night," Kevin cried, but
I didn't reply. And he knew that I was ignoring him.

"I understand that you are mad at me now, but I'm so sorry, Ton.  I really do
love you.  Please, forgive me," he cried and pleaded with me, and I still kept
my silence.  Nick, AJ, and Howie watched this sadly.

"Ton, please say something? Tell me what to do? Please forgive me, I love you."
Kevin stood up from his chair and looked directly to me as I let out a single
tear.

"Ton? I did a lot of thinking after what just happened," Kevin stopped and wiped
his tears, then took a small box from his pocket. "I decided to," he opened the
box, "marry you."

It was a gold ring.  I looked at the ring, then back to his eyes, which were
full of hope.  Nick, AJ, and Howie froze as they heard what Kevin had said, then
started to smile for both of us.  I was still silent.

"Would you marry me?" Kevin got down to his knee and waited for my answer.  The
guys held their breath, also waiting for my answer.  I still didn't say
anything, just cried more tears.  Kevin was still on his knee and held the ring
up to me and sang...

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All the passion unfolding
Your hands brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
For the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
For the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do


Kevin tried to hold the tears in his eyes while singing that song for me.  Nick
and Howie also cried while watching this.  AJ covered his mouth to hide his
overwhelming feelings about Kevin's actions.

"No, I can't," I said softly, all of them stunned at hearing my answer.  "I
can't marry you at the moment," I continued.

"Why? Why not?" Kevin demanded an explanation. "Please, I love you." I shook my
head no.

"You want to marry me because you feel guilty after you...you did that to me," I
wiped my tears as I remembered what happened that night.

"But I really love you.  I promise I will do anything for you," Kevin begged me
in tears.

I looked at him, "I know you love me, but believe me, I can't forgive you for
what you did to me.  Never.  And I know you're so sorry, but I can't marry you
now, because you want to marry me because you feel sorry."

"So tell me what to do." he asked me.

"I don't know, Kev, I don't know.  Only time will tell," I replied sadly.

"Do you hate me now?" he asked me again, his voice trembling.

"It's hard for me to hate you, Kev.  You're a good guy." I tried to give him a
smile.

"I love you, Ton.  If you think you can't accept me now, please keep this ring
with you," he took my hand, "and tell me when you're ready to wear it. Please?"
he pleaded.

After a moment of thinking, I nodded to him and took the box in my hand.  Kevin
smiled at me as he the tears fell from his eyes.  Nick was the first one to come
to me and hug me.

"Promise me I'll be your best man, okay?" Nick cheered, and I giggled hearing
his remark.

"Yeah! Get in line, Blondie!" Howie mocked Nick as he pulled him away from me,
"because I'm sure that you're going to pick me, right!"

"Hey! Give the man a break would you?" AJ said to Howie and Nick, then he looked
at me. "You have to pick me, Ton!" I let out a small laugh at seeing them act
like kids.  Kevin saw me happy as I had a smile back on my face.


##### 3 DAYS LATER #####

I was getting better by now but I still had my bandage around my wrist.  That
first night after returning from the hospital, I really couldn't look at my bed
as it brought back awful memories.  Kevin noticed this and decided to sleep
outside on the couch.  I stopped him, and, instead, I asked Nick, Howie, and AJ
to join us in our room.  It was like a slumber party.

Today, Nick and the gang went out shopping, while Kevin stayed at home with me.
Kevin did some laundry in the laundry room.  Then I heard a knock at
the front door.  I opened the door and in front of me stood a beautiful
brunette with long hair and a lot of suitcases in her hands.

"Yeah can I help you?" I asked her.

"Hi! Is Kevin there?" she asked me back.

"Yeah, he's doing some laundry.  May I know who you are?" I asked her again.

"I'm Melissa, his girlfriend," she smiled at me.  I was stunned for a minute
after hearing what she said to me.

"Oh yeah, please come in!" I asked her to come in as I helped her with her
suitcases.

"Ton, who's there?" Kevin came to the living room.  He stopped in his tracks
when he saw Melissa.

"Kevin! How are you, sweetheart?" Melissa ran to Kevin and hugged him.  I was
pretending to be happy at seeing their reunion.

"I'm fine! Why didn't you call me first?" Kevin looked at me worriedly, then
Melissa kissed him on his lips.

"Surprised!" Melissa replied happily, "Oh yeah, who is this?" she pointed at me.

"He...he...he is..." Kevin couldn't finish his words.

"I'm just a friend, a guest here. I'm Tony," I introduced myself to her.  Kevin
was getting worried watching me.

"Oh hi, Ton, nice to meet you," she smiled at me, then she looked back at Kevin,
"Kev, I'm tired, can I have a rest in your room?"

"But Tony..." Kevin spoke up.

"OOO that's okay, let me take my stuff and put it in Nick's room, so you can
stay in Kevin's room," I smiled at her and she returned my smile.

I walked to Kevin's room to get my bag and my clothes.  When I passed Kevin, he
looked down as he couldn't look at me.  I quickly took my stuff and went to
Nick's room.

"Come on, Kev, I miss you so much," Melissa said as she dragged Kevin to his
room.

As I entered Nick's room, I closed the door.  I put my bag on the floor and sat
on the bed.  The room was a little bit messy, so I decided to tidy up for him.
Then Kevin entered the room.  I ignored him as I kept tidying up Nick's bed.

"Ton, I don't love her. She's the one that I told you about, the one that our
management tried to set up for me," he spoke up.

"And you can't tell her about me?" I looked at him.

"Ton...I...I'm..." he couldn't find the words.

"Kevin! Come on!" Melissa came in and called him with her whiny voice.  Then she
took Kevin out of the room.

I tried not to cry this time.  The curse was still on me.  I sat on Nick's bed,
'Come on, Ton, you can't be with him.  He has a life already.  Do you want to
ruin his career or what?' some part of me said.  'You don't need him anymore,
and he doesn't need you, either.' That phrase kept playing in my head.  So I
got up, took a piece of paper, and started to write on it.

Guys,

Thanks for your hospitality while I was here.  I decided to go.  Please don't
worry about me, I'll be fine.  I don't know what to say anymore except
'Goodbye'.

Take Care,

Tony

PS. Nick, keep your room neat and tidy, okay? :)

I put the letter on his table, and I pulled out the box that Kevin gave me.
I opened it and saw the gold ring shining there.  I let out a single tear, but I
wiped it off right away.  I closed the box then put it on the letter.  I took my
bag and grabbed the envelope full of my money.  I counted and found it was still
$870.

I put $70 into my own pocket and put the rest back in my bag.  I left Nick's
room.  As I passed Kevin's room, I could hear Melissa giggling in there, so I
went downstairs and left the house.  I didn't know where to go, then I decided
to go the nearest bus stop and take a bus to the main city.

It was a little bit crowded today.  I kept walking to nowhere until I stopped in
front of a travel agent.  I looked at the airfares to Singapore and Australia.
They were all above $1800 for a one way trip.  I sighed, as my money wasn't
enough, I wanted to go back so badly because I don't have anyone in this country
any more, at least I can take some pieces back when I leave this country; but it
was only a dream now.  I hadn't had my lunch yet, so I went to McDonald's then
started browsing newspapers for a job.  Afterwards, I walked around the city,
hoping that maybe I could find a vacant job immediately.


##### BACK AT KEVIN'S HOUSE #####

"TONY! KEVIIIN! We're back" Nick yelled as he held a lot of shopping bags.  AJ
and Howie were following him.

"Hi guys!" Melissa greeted them from the kitchen.  The guys were surprised to
see Melissa in the house and shot a confused look at Kevin who was standing next
to her.  Kevin just looked down.

"Kevin, may I have a word with you?" AJ called him, and Kevin walked to meet the
guys.

"Have you lost your mind?" AJ whispered to Kevin. "I can't believe this!  You're
still with her?" AJ gave him an unpleasant look.

"I don't know what to say to her, guys," Kevin replied.

"Kevin, I'm going to our room," Melissa said as she brought two cups of coffee
to Kevin's room.

"Huh? Hey, where's Tony?" Nick asked Kevin.

"He's staying in your room," Kevin replied softly.

"Ya know, you're sick, Kevin!" Nick said in anger as he passed Kevin on the way
to his bedroom.  Nick went to his room and didn't see anyone in his room.  So he
went back to confront Kevin.

"I didn't see him in my room," Nick looked at Kevin for more explanation.

"Well he said he wanted to sleep in your room.  He took his bag to your room,"
Kevin replied.  Then Nick went back to his room again.  He noticed that his room
was so neat, and he saw a small box on the table.  Then he found my note.  He
read the note and screamed.

"GUYS! Come here!" Nick called.  All of them started running to Nick's room. "He
left," Nick said sadly as he showed my letter to them.

"What?!?" Kevin took the letter from Nick's hand.

"Kev, he left you this," Nick gave me the box.  Kevin was panicking, as he
realized that I had really left him.

"This is all your fault!" AJ yelled at Kevin. "Now you're hurting him again,"
Kevin cried.

"No wonder he can't accept your love easily.  You treat him like dirt,"
Howie said to Kevin who was still in tears. "Where are you going, Nick?"

"Guys, it's getting dark, and he's out there somewhere.  He is not 100% fit,"
Nick said sadly. "I gotta find him,"

"I'll go with you," AJ and Howie said at the same time.  The three of them
looked at Kevin, who still holding the box and the letter.

"What's going on in here?" Melissa barged in.  She was confused as she saw Kevin
in tears.

"I think your boyfriend here has a lot of explaining to do," AJ said
sarcastically as he looked at Kevin.

"Well?" Melissa came forward, in front of Kevin.

Then Kevin started to tell the whole story to his 'girlfriend' Melissa looked
really angry as she found out the truth.  She cried.  When Kevin finished
his story, Melissa slapped him on the face.

"How could you? How could you do that to me? Am I your toy or something?"
Melissa cried. "I think I need to get out of here."

"Melissa, I'm so sorry, I..." Kevin spoke up.

"SHUT UP! Please just go find him.  You've already hurt enough people today,"
Melissa wipe her tears. "I'll be fine, and I'm out of here," she said as she
left the room.

"Let's go guys!" AJ said to his friends and he looked at Kevin, "Are you coming
or what?"

Kevin nodded as he put the box into his pocket, and left the house with the
guys.


##### BACK TO THE STREET #####

I was pretty tired by then, so I took a seat on the bench.  I kept watching the
street, as it was getting dark and quiet.

"I want to talk to you," someone spoke to me.  I looked, and it was Justin.  I
was so happy to see him again, standing in front of me.

"Justin," I said to him happily, "How are you?"

"I'm fine," he replied coldly. "I need to ask you something.  I tried to trust
you but ... I don't know..." he stopped.

"But what?" I asked him back.

"Please just answer yes or no," he took a deep breath. "Did you sleep with Jimmy
and Kevin?"

I sat stunned at his question.  I really didn't know what to tell him.  I mean,
technically Jimmy and Kevin did it to me, so I did sleep with them.

"Who told you that?" I asked him softly and worriedly.

"Brian!" he replied.

"Justin, I should..." I wanted to say something but he cut me off.

"YES OR NO! TELL ME THE TRUTH!" Justin yelled at me.  It took me awhile to
answer his question.  'Should I lie to him?' I asked myself.

"Yeah," I replied sadly, and he closed his eyes, "But..."

"Shut up! Just shut up! I don't wanna hear anymore." He said to me full of
anger.  Then he ran to his car and left me.

I saw his car driving away from me.  I let out the tears slip from my eyes, 'Why
can't he listen to me?' I asked myself.  Then I decided to keep walking again,
until I felt tired again.  Around 11pm, the street was really quiet as the
weather was getting colder.  I was so damn tired and couldn't walk anymore, so I
sat down in front of a Chinese grocery store.  I just sat there until I fell
asleep.


##### BACK TO THE GUYS #####

"Come on, Ton, where are you?" Kevin said as the four of them searched for me
from their car.

"I think we should go back guys," Howie said.

"NO! Keep looking!" Kevin raised his voice. "He is out there."

"Yeah, he doesn't have anyone else to turn to here," Nick added as he kept
browsing the street corner.

"I understand, guys, but it's been 5 hours already, and we're still searching
for him.  We need rest, guys.  I'm sure Tony will be fine.  He is a smart guy,
and he can take care himself for tonight," AJ explained.

"AJ's right, we should call off the search, and we'll continue in the morning,"
Howie said.

Nick and Kevin didn't say anything, but they both nodded in the end. So they
went back to Kevin's house.

"I'm sorry, Ton." Kevin said softly as the car headed back to home.


##### NEXT MORNING ON THE STREET #####

I woke up as someone threw water on my face.

"WAKE UP! Get out of here! I need to open my store," a Chinese guy yelled at me.

"I'm sorry," I said as I stood up, then I felt something wrong, "Where's my
bag?" I asked the Chinese guy.

"What bag? Get away! I have a lot of work to do!" He pushed me away from his
store.

I walked slowly away.  I looked around me, confused and crying.  I stopped in an
empty alley.  I sat down on the ground and cried harder.  Someone stole my bag.
It wasn't just my clothes that were gone, but also my $800 in the envelope.

"GREAT! WHAT NEXT, GOD?!?! HUH?" I screamed in tears.

"You can't let me die, but you keep giving me these ordeals," I continued.

That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good


After half an hour, I managed to calm myself.  I stood up and noticed that I
still had $55 in my pocket.  I walked out of the alley, looking for some cheap
food for breakfast.

The street was just getting crowded with people.  I kept walking with the flow.
I looked up and saw someone that looked like Justin.  I came up to him and
called his name.

"Justin!" I called to him, and he turned around.

"Excuse me! Do I know you?" he was not Justin, but his hair and body really
looked like Justin.

"I'm sorry, I thought you were someone else," I replied sadly, then I turned
around to leave him.  He grabbed my shoulder and stopped me.

"Wait! Can I help you? You look lost," he smiled at me.  I looked down at
myself.  Yeah, I looked like a mess.

"I'm fine, thank you.  Sorry for the misunderstanding," I apologized.

"That's cool," he smiled again as he looked at me like a homeless person, "Do
you want to have breakfast with me? My treat!"

"That's all right, I..."

"Come on! I'm a tourist.  Maybe we can chat for a bit while we have breakfast. I
saw a French Café over there.  Come on," he took my hand, and I nodded.

"Oh yeah, what's your name? I'm Ryan," he offered me his hand.

"I'm Tony," I shook his hand, "and, yeah, I know you. Ryan Phillippe." He looked
at me surprised.

"You know me?" he asked me.

"Yeah, I've watched your movies.  54 and Cruel Intention," I replied.

"You know me, and you didn't scream," he asked me back.

"Ha? Should I?" I asked as we both walked to the café.

"No, I meant that, when people know me, they start acting like fans, ya know!"
he explained.

"Yeah, I know what you mean," I replied with smile.  Finally we arrived at the
café.

"Let sit outside.  Lovely weather, eh?" he took a seat.

"Yeah," I took a seat in front of him, then we browsed the menu.

A waiter came to us to take our orders.  It seemed that he'd just arrived in the
US or something, because he tried to speak English with his French accent.  Ryan
looked confused, as it was hard to understand his English.  The waiter noticed
this and looked worried.  I just smiled at him.

"Vous etes francais?" I asked him whether he's French.  Ryan looked me,
surprised that I spoke French.

"Oui [=yes]," he replied happily. "Vous?"

"Je ne suis pas francais," I told him that I'm not French.  He nodded, happy
that I could understand French.

"Qu'est-ce que vous recommendez?" he asked what we would like to order.

"Ryan, he asked you what you would like to order?" I asked Ryan.

"Oh yeah.  Hmmm, cake and coffee please," he replied.

"Nous voudrions une gateau et une croissant," I said to the waiter, and he wrote
it down.

"Que voulez-vous boire?" he asked me what we would have to drink.

"Nous voundrions deux tasse de café," I replied, "That's it, thank you,"

The waiter giggled as I ended my French with English, and he left.  Ryan sat
amazed looking at me.

"What? Coffee and Cake right?" I asked him.

"Yeah, yeah, you speak French?" he asked me back.

"Non, I speak a little bit of French," I replied with a smile.

He then started asking me about everything.  I didn't want to tell all of my
problems to him, so I tried not to answer personal questions.  He seemed to
understand that.

Before he asked me any more questions, I asked him about his wife, Reese, and
his baby.

"So I keep telling you about me, now its your turn," he said, then sipped his
coffee.

"What do you wanna know?" I smiled at him.

"Hmmm...How did you end up living in the street? I mean, you seem like an
educated person.  It's hard for me to believe that you're homeless," he asked
bluntly.  I didn't reply to his question.  Instead, I just stared at my coffee.

"Are you okay, Ton? You don't have to answer it if it's too personal for you,"
he looked at me with concern.  Just as I wanted to say something, I saw Kevin
and the guys across the street.

"Ryan, I'm sorry, I have to go. Thanks for the meal," I stood up and ran away
from the café.

"TONY! WAIT!" Ryan shouted.  Nick heard someone calling my name and turned to
follow the voice.  He spotted me running away from the café.

"There he is!" Nick said to the guys.  Kevin looked in my direction.  He was the
first one to run, crossing the street and trying to catch me.  Then the others
were following him.

"TONY! WAIT! PLEASE! DON'T RUN!" Kevin called me.  I was so surprised that he
found me already.  I ran as fast as I could, but I fell to the ground near the
empty alley.  Finally, Kevin caught up to me as he knelt down to help me.  The
others were just watching, not far away from us.

"Tony..." Kevin stopped me from running.

"Please, Kev, just let me go, pleaseee," I cried.  "What do you want from me
now?" I looked at him sadly.  "You tried me already, what more do you want?
Please leave me alone.  Just go with her.  Your career is saved with her, just
let me go!" I said sadly as I tried to escape from his hug.

"I'm sorry, Ton.  I love you.  I told her about us, please give me another
chance.  I really love you, please don't go," he looked at me with his teary
eyes.

"Kev, I'm not the one for you.  Trust me, you can find someone much better than
me," I replied.

"No! No one is better than you.  You're the one for me.  I love you, and I'll
regret it for the rest of my life if I let you go.  I love you, please, I need
you," he said to me sternly.

"Please not me, I..." I said but stopped as Kevin kissed me on the lips.  I
pushed him away from me, and he fell backward.

"I'm sorry," I cried as I ran across the street.  Nick, Howie, and AJ just stood
there, while Kevin tried to catch me again.  As Kevin crossed the street, a car
came speeding towards him, but he didn't see it.

"KEVIN! WATCH OUT!" Nick screamed.

But Nick's warning was too late.  The car hit Kevin really hard.  I could hear
Kevin scream as the car hit him.  I turned around and saw Kevin on the ground,
full of blood.  I ran back to him.

"No! NO! Kevin! Kevin! Please wake up! I'm sorry," I cried harder as I picked
him up and put my arms around his body.  I pulled him closer to me, "Kev, please
answer me, pleaseeee!"


TBC

Okay another week of waiting, please be patient. I'll post it as soon as
possible.  The next one, it will be the BEST CHAPTER EVER!!! [Fingers cross ;)].
>From the time being, let me hear your say about this chapter. All comments are
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