Date: Fri, 31 Aug 2001 20:34:36 -0500
From: thumper1561@hotmail.com
Subject: Whispering Your Name Chapter Two (Gay) Joey/Justin/JC

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This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true
sexuality of the celebrities mentioned or any personal knowledge about
their private lives.

I do not know the true sexuality of any members of Nsync.  If you are not
at least 18 years old, or are offended by homosexual material, then, this
story isn't for you. And what are you doing here in the first place!

'Whispering Your Name' Music & Lyrics by Jules Shearer, Vocal Recording by
Allison Moyet

Chapter Two  (Joey)
Whispering Your Name

'He once told me how he felt
Did it just so I wouldn't hear it from someone else
There was a note he wouldn't know
But he still hoped that you would grow
And when you didn't he was brought to me, in pain

But he keeps whispering your name
He keeps on whispering your name
Like he's just waiting...'


        It is a beautiful sunny morning in New York. The hotel coffee shop
is mostly empty as Joey surveys the scene. It is early, too early for JC to
be up and around. Joey checks his watch and takes a deep breath. He walks
over to the booth where JC is sitting and plops down across from him. JC
looks like crap he thinks. Unshaven, sunken eyes, Joey wonders what Justin
could possibly see in this guy. Joey orders coffee from the waitress and JC
then sends her away. He blows into his coffee, hoping to cool it.
        "You summoned me?", Joey begins sarcastically.
        JC narrows his eyes. "You know why we're here."
        "Yea, I know."
        Both look down at the table.
        Joey remembered the first time he saw JC and Justin together off of
TV. At that club in Orlando, where Chris had brought them to talk about
forming a singing group. He remembered the way Justin's eyes had lit up
when they were introduced. He had smiled at the young blond and sat next to
him all night. He knew JC had tried to keep him out of the group in the
beginning. It had always been subtle, nothing ever clearly expressed but an
attitude of we could do better. But Joey knew Justin wanted him in and
surprisingly Chris had been emphatic about his joining. JC had backed
off. Joey guessed that JC had a thing for Justin but he was sure it would
never happen. JC was too uptight. Justin responded to Joey's flirting
eagerly.  Joey was confident that he and Justin would get together but he
wanted the timing to be right.  He had a lot of living to do.
        Joey had figured out he was bisexual in high school. He liked and
dated several girls but also had a couple of secret relationships with guys
on the side. He was still experimenting to find out what he really
wanted. Orlando's theme parks had turned out to be great big smorgasboard
of sex. Guys, girls, all threw themselves at his feet. He sampled the wares
and enjoyed it all until he joined the group.
        Those early days had been the best. There hadn't been much money
around but they had a great time together. Every day was a new
adventure. Their first trip to Europe, their first fans, first autographs,
the travel. It had all seemed to be a fantasy come true. They all hung out
together and Joey was with Justin constantly. Justin finally came out to
Joey when they were in South Africa. He told him that he was in love with
him. Joey was stunned and unsure about what to do but Justin overpowered
him. The setting was perfect. The beautiful beach and ocean and glamorous
hotel all but screamed romance. Justin pulled Joey into his bed and made
love to him. He let Joey inside him and at that moment Joey found love. The
two became inseparable.
        Nothing had been the same after that. Joey and Justin decided to
tell their bandmates about the relationship but agreed to keep it quiet for
the sake of their careers. Lance and Chris took it in stride but JC had
looked sick. Joey couldn't help feeling slightly triumphant.  JC was always
putting him down. Now he had what JC most wanted. But Joey wasn't really
ready to settle down. Within a year, he was fooling around with both men
and women again, but Justin always forgave him and took him back. Joey
figured it would always be that way. He knew Justin was the love of his
life, and he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him. There just were
so many other good-looking guys and gals around. All were available to a
sexy pop star. Inside he knew that if Justin ever did what he did, he would
kill him, but he found he could live with the double standard quite nicely
since Justin never pressed the issue.
         JC's suddenly wild lifestyle bemused even Joey. He and Justin
would talk about it sometimes late at night and Justin would worry about
AIDS and other dangers for JC. He couldn't understand why JC had never told
him he was gay after Justin had confided so much in him over the years. It
hurt but Justin didn't let it stop him from being concerned for JC. He just
couldn't understand what was driving JC, but Joey did.
         The merry-go-round went on for a few years. The success became
greater and greater.  America fell to the boys charm and upbeat
dance-pop. Flush with money and fame, the great salves of celebrities'
pain, they partied at clubs and dreamed of even greater things. The need to
stick together was greater than the tensions pulling at their insides. Who
knows how long it might have gone on if it hadn't been for one night. Kelly
confronted Joey and informed him that she was pregnant. He had known her
for years and they had had an off and on relationship he had kept from
Justin. Joey was always careful with his partners because he never wanted
to bring anything home to harm Justin. He was tested regularly but
accidents happen.  Kelly was insistent that it was his baby. She intended
to keep it and she wanted him to marry her as well. Joey refused to maary
her but agreed to support her and the baby. Kelly had always hated
Justin. He had the talent and the fame and Joey too. Her jealousy led her
to force Joey to tell Justin about the baby or she would tell him
herself. Joey tried to keep juggling his increasingly complicated life but
ultimately he knew Justin would have to know. He believed he could make it
right, that Justin would forgive him and accept the baby in their lives.
After all, they had talked about surrogacy or adoption before.
         He was wrong. He had never seen Justin look so devastated in his
life. In that moment, he would have given anything to have never cheated on
Justin even once.  Nothing was worth the pain he was causing. Justin fled
into the rain. Joey tried to chase after him but lost him. He called
Justin's home repeatedly trying to reach him but got no answer. When Chris
called and told him about Justin's suicide attempt, Joey wanted to kill
himself. He needed to talk to Justin.  He needed to make it right but JC
wouldn't let him in. Joey threatened to smash the house apart but it was
too late. JC was in control. There was a smug look in JC's eyes that burned
in Joey's soul. He was sure he could get Justin back but he would have to
bide his time.
         There was a new album to record and a tour to plan. Their careers
couldn't be stopped just because of a personal crisis. It was arranged that
Joey not be in the studio at the same time as JC or Justin. Meanwhile, his
baby was born and little Brianna instantly melted her daddy's heart. Joey
wanted little to do with Kelly but the contact was forced because he loved
his new daughter so much. His parents were happy that he had 'straightened'
out although both his brother and sister saw the pain behind the doting
eyes of the new father. Justin refused to see him or the baby. Joey was
growing discouraged about being able to find his way back into Justin's
heart. Maybe he had finally gone too far. He was lonely and had no one to
talk to. Even Chris and Lance, as supportive as they tried to be, were
appalled by his behavior to Justin and the consequences that had
resulted. Joey thought about quitting but was determined to stick it out.
         Tour rehearsals were the beginning of the end. Justin, though a
pro, had always been a terror during rehearsals. Filled with self-doubt and
expecting the worst, he got tense and irritable, and the only one who could
calm him was Joey. Joey had a trick of coming up behind Justin and wrapping
him in his arms and whispering to him. You could visibly see Justin tense
and then watch it wash out of his body until he was relaxed and ready to
move on. After a couple of days, it was clear JC wasn't capable of doing
the same thing. His own perfectionism drove Justin further into self-doubt
and chronic sniping. Joey stood silently as Justin's rages and mood swings
escalated. Johnny pressured him to help get Justin under control but Joey
knew that he had caused the problem and that he couldn't fix it. JC's rages
against Justin caused Joey to clench his fists but he remained on the
sidelines. Everyone was feeling the tension when the stage malfunctioned
and Joey's leg was trapped. A bolt shot through it and cut him to the bone.
Justin ran to Joey's side and held him in his arms until an ambulance
arrived. Justin followed Joey into the ambulance. Joey had a vague
awareness of JC watching as they drove away.  rode to the hospital with him
as JC watched with arms folded.
         At the hospital, Joey was wheeled into the emergency room in
agony.  All he wanted was Justin by his side but Justin wasn't allowed in
the emergency room. The procedure was completed quickly and his leg was
stapled together. In the recovery room, Joey's mom and dad came to him
first. When he asked for Justin, they told him he had left with JC. They
brought Kelly in and when Joey was moved to a private room, he was able to
be with his daughter.  Joey feared that Justin's reaction to his injury had
been an instinctive one and that he really was finished with him. Joey
vowed to give up on Justin and to let him go with his life in peace. He had
screwed his own life up and he couldn't fix that. All he could do now was
try to be a great dad for Brianna and hope Justin could find a new
happiness on his own. Everyone welcomed him back except for JC when the
tour began in earnest. Joey performed professionally and gave the audience
his best. Still, anyone could see that the loose camaraderie of the early
days of the band was gone. A stiffness and discomfort pervaded everything
they did.
         In bed alone, Joey found himself dreaming of a house in Florida
with Brianna in her swimming pool and Justin playing with her. He always
woke up when Justin would turn to him and smile and say, "Daddy's home."


To be Continued..

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