Date: Thu, 10 May 2007 17:34:01 -0700 (PDT)
From: Janus Em <oxomoco@yahoo.com>
Subject: Knights of the Old Republic: Carth Loves Revan part 1

Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic belongs to
George Lucas' Star Wars universe. This is only fiction
and not any indication of the sexual leanings of the
characters involved. Avoid the story if you are not
interested in love and sex between men, or if you are
not 18 or older.

Note:  This story takes place just as Revan and the
others escape Darth Malak's war ship Leviathan aboard
the Ebon Hawk.

Carth Loves Revan part 1
by
Janus Em

The Ebon Hawk shook with a thunderous jolt as Malak's
war ship managed to get in one last hit before it
burst into light speed.  Stars and other celestial
bodies zoomed past the windows in the cockpit of the
swift maneuverable ship.  Carth Onasi, decorated pilot
of the Republic made a last check to see that they
were headed in the right direction before sitting back
from the helm.  The Cathar woman beside him in the
co-pilot's seat swiveled in her chair giving him a
nod.  He leaned back closing his eyes.  His head ached
as wave after wave of emotions swept over him. The
chaos of recent events blinded him with conflicting
emotions.  The confrontation with Malak, Bastila's
capture, their narrow escape from the Leviathan, the
thought of finding the son he presumed was dead, and
of course the horrible secret Saul revealed to him
moments before his death, all coursed in and out of
his mind.  He could focus in on none, not could he
push any away.  He trembled, trying to terms with each
thought, but like a single voice rising out of a
chorus, the revealed deception stood out.

It was unlike him to be this affected by any of the
recent events that sent them to search out the star
maps.  He was a veteran of the Mandolorian Wars,
fought, killed, and witnessed death and destruction
over and over.  Yet, he never felt the pain and
confusion he felt now, never had he put so much faith
into someone, to see it come crashing down upon him.
He remained at the helm waiting for the man to return
to him in the cockpit from the ship's canon.  Now, as
they coursed through space successfully eluding their
captors, the man whom he had so recently come to care
so deeply for would return to the cockpit to check
their status.
As the man entered the cockpit, Carth saw that as
usual he seemed controlled, and collected, yet this
time with more than just a hint of anxiety.  The man
kept his eyes locked on Carth's as he spoke to his
fellow Jedi.  The female got up from the co-pilot's
chair, and slinked with her cat-like grace behind the
man.  She was clearly agitated, fighting to keep her
emotions suppressed.  Yet, the anger making its way
into her voice as she spoke to the man.

"What will we do about Bastila..." She hesitated, about
to use the name by which they all knew the man, but
stopped.  Anger burned inside her, anger at the man's
deception, the secret revealed, and the capture of
Bastila.  She knew she had to let it flow through her,
not let it consume her.  "We have to try and rescue
her..." Then vehemently she spat out "...Revan."

The man finally took his eyes away from Carth to face
her.  "There is little we can do, Juhani."  He took a
step closer placing a hand tenderly on her elbow.
"Bastila did what she had to, that which neither of us
were ready to do.  Now, we must do what we have to do.
 Find the last star map."

Juhani peered at him with all the insight of her Jedi
training reaching out to man in front her.  She sensed
nothing but sincerity, but that frightened her all the
same, for she knew that with the abilities of one like
Revan, any hint of further deception or upcoming
betrayal could easily be cloaked.  She had no choice
but to trust him, and above all else, she wanted to
believe that she could trust him.  That this was still
the man who brought her back from the edge of the dark
side, the man who allowed her to travel with him now
in a valiant pursuit of Malak, further maintaining her
own pledge to the light.

"You are right."  She finally conceded.

"Plot a course for Korriban."  He asked turning his
eyes back to Carth who remained silently seated at the
helm of the Ebon Hawk staring at the man.

Juhani activated the ship's navigational system.
Within the field of stars on the screen, the orange
brown planet stood out.  Korriban, planet of the Sith
was the last planet they needed to search for the
remaining star map.  She let the fear sweep through
her, leaving only her resilience. Korriban, planet of
the Sith. Both her and Revan's pledge to the light
would no doubt be tested there.  She turned back to
him.
"The course has already been plotted, master."

"Thank you Juhani."  Revan said, his eyes turning back
to Carth.  Juhani nodded then quietly moved out of the
ship's cockpit.  Revan followed as far at the end and
pressed a button.  With a quick rush of air, the metal
door came down and sealed Carth and himself from the
rest of the crew.  Revan sat down at his seat next to
Carth.  The men remained there for a moment in silence
until Revan finally spoke.

"Say something."

Carth slowly moved his head from side to side saying
nothing.

"Please..." Revan begged.

Carth opened his mouth to speak, but his voice only
cracked.  He collected himself before speaking.  Revan
could see tears forming in his eyes, but as Carth
finally began to speak, he realized the tears were an
amalgamation of grief and rage.

"You're Revan!"  He yelled in his husky voice.
"You're a stranger to me.  A man known to me only by
the atrocities he committed during The Jedi Civil
War!"  Carth rushed from his seat and in a fit of rage
grabbed Revan by the chest and pulled him up by his
Jedi robes.

"You betrayed us all! Heroes of the Mandolorian Wars!"
 Carth pulled Revan in closer tightening his grip.
Revan let his body go limp knowing that Carth would do
nothing to hurt him.  He could feel Carth's angry
breath.  Carth grunted in frustration, pushing him
away but still holding onto him.

"How could you?" He screamed squeezing Revan's tunic
even tighter.  Finally he released Revan from his
grasp, falling back against the machinery of the ship.
 Revan stumbled back looking at the tears fall from
Carth's eyes.

"Revan..." Carth paused, letting the intense anger
within him subside. "I trusted you.  Against all my
instincts telling me to never trust again, I trusted
you.  I let you in."

Revan remained silent wanting to speak, but not
knowing what to say.

"You're a monster." Carth quietly managed to let out.

"Carth.  Please listen to me."

Revan thought carefully, knowing that he had to be
completely honest with Carth, tell him everything, and
it would be in him to forgive.  He kept his eye on
Carth using the Force to sense the pain he caused,
although the pain was clearly visible on his face.
Carth moved in a daze backing up to the hatch that led
to the ship's corridor.  He turned his back on Revan
and hit the switch to open the door, but nothing
happened.  He winced.  The pain and anguish were
taking their toll on the strong man.  He still
suffered from the injuries endured during their escape
from the Leviathan.  He felt the blood still on his
brow from blaster fire from the last sentry robot he
destroyed before their encounter with Saul.  He wanted
to rest, let his mind find a peaceful moment.

"Let me go."  He managed to ask as he let his head
rest against the thick metal of the hatch.

Revan made no response, only the sounds of the ship's
mechanisms echoed around them.  Carth winced again,
the physical and emotional pain were overwhelming.  He
needed to leave, but couldn't muster the courage to
face Revan again, to face the man who could still be
deceiving him.

"Let me go... Revan."

"Please, listen to me."

Carth slowly turned around still leaning against the
closed hatch.

"I don't know what to say."  Revan began. "I'm not
that man anymore.  I have only vague memories of my
life before meeting you.  I don't remember what
happened to me, how I let myself be consumed by the
dark side.  You've seen me these past months, I've
done nothing to indicate that I'm that same person.
We've worked so close together on every planet.
You've been my constant companion.  How many times did
I ever give in to the dark side or let my actions be
dictated by anger or revenge?"

Revan exhaled, "I'm not that monster.  That's not me!
I was just as surprised, and sickened as you were to
hear the truth.  I don't remember being that Revan, of
waging war and killing innocent people.  I can't
imagine what led me down such a path of evil.  I can't
remember what happened to me that I would attack my
own people."
Revan paused.

"But let me tell you what I do remember," he
continued.  "I remember waking up on Taris, hurt,
scared, feeling extremely vulnerable.  Unsure of where
I was or how I got there, but comforted because I
wasn't alone.  I saw you standing over me.  You took
me to safety, watched over me.  I couldn't think
straight or remember anything, just images that I
couldn't understand, a person I couldn't remember
being, images from my old life.  But you were there.
Your kind words, your strength, your wisdom made me
fell safe, that we could do anything we had to do to
get off that planet."

He moved closer to Carth putting his hands on his
arms, "You kept me grounded, guided me as we made our
way to Bastila.  Reminded me of what was right, what
was wrong.  Even when you weren't around, I did things
the way I knew you would, then pleased to see you
again, knowing that I did what was right.  Carth, as
long as you are by my side, I know I'll never turn to
the dark side again.  I want to be the man you fell in
love with, the man you believed I was."

Carth looked deeply in Revan's eyes leery about
believing in him, wanting to believe in him.  Revan
moved in closer, looked up at the wound at Carth's
brow.  He closed his eyes giving Carth a soft kiss.
With his eyes still closed, he let his forehead rest
against Carth's.  Faintly at first, Revan's skin
luminesced into a brilliant, quick flash.  Carth could
feel the energy of the Force flow through him,
illuminating his own skin.  Instantly he felt better,
less dazed, his energy and strength returning.  After
a second flash, he felt strong, even rested with no
hint of the pain that only moments ago weighed heavily
on him.  Even the clotted blood at his brow blew away
with the wave of light, his wound completely healed.


Carth took in a deep breath. His feelings for Revan
were rekindled, and he knew that he was right to let
his guard down, to let this man into his life.  He
pulled Revan in closer by placing his hands at the
sides of his head kissing him repeatedly.  They
embraced tightly pulling in the other.  Carth could
smell the blaster fire lingering in Revan's hair as he
kissed his way to his neck.  The power of the Force
emanated from the Jedi.  Carth could feel the light
moving in and around Revan as they continued their
kisses.  Revan, fueled by desire, let his passion
consume him.  It was the last of all the emotions he
allowed to take over him.  He loved Carth and still
felt the very human need of expressing it through the
carnal lust he shared with him.

Carth fell to his knees and hurriedly fumbled with the
belt of Revan's Jedi robes.  It opened exposing
Revan's finely chiseled torso.  Carth kissed the other
man's navel and chest, taking in the manly scent of
him.  He continued his kisses up and down Revan's
smooth chest, inhaling deeply, savoring him.  He
licked at Revan's nipple, playfully taking bites at
it.  In a smooth, gliding movement, he moved his
tongue down Revan's stomach to his crotch continuing
his playful bites through Revan's trousers onto his
erect penis.

Revan let his tunic fall to floor, closing his eyes
letting his head fall back.  He ran his fingers
through Carth's hair massaging it before moving his
hand to waist where he unhooked his belt letting his
lightsaber gently fall onto the ground.  Within
moments he could feel the air on his erect penis as
Carth exposed it. The rush of air was replaced with a
warm wetness as Carth took his penis into his mouth.
Revan winced, blindly delighted at the mixture of
pleasure and excitement consuming him.  Carth expertly
tickeled the head of his penis with his tongue then
took in the entire length of it moving his mouth on
the base of it to the soft patch of his pubic hair.
Carth repeatedly brought his mouth to the end of
Revan's penis, circled the head with his tongue then
swallowed it down again onto his pubes.  Carth's
movements gained in their quickness and intensity.
Revan's body held on as long as it could, but finally
jerked as he released his orgasm into Carth's mouth.


Carth could feel the power of the force flowing
through him as Revan released everything into him.  He
gladly took it, took anything and everything this man
had to give him.  There was still so much to think of,
but at that moment, he let only the thoughts of Revan
and his love for him into his mind. He slowly stood up
and embraced the half naked man in front of him.

His lips gently touched caressed Revan's ear as he
whispered into it, "I love you.  I love you, Revan."


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