Date: Tue, 18 May 1999 18:10:36 PDT From: MoonTux J <moontuxj@hotmail.com> Subject: Celeb 4 Celeb. By Jesty Authors Notes at end 11. I slid against the wall and onto the floor letting go of the phone reciever. I could hear Caryn shouting over the other end, but I didn't care. Tears began to swell up in my eyes and I slowly picked my self up. "Caryn," I said calmly, "I have to go," I hung up the phone without waiting for a reply and left. I didn't know where to go. I drove for a long time and at sundown I ended up in front of Brandi's apartment. I knocked on the door quietly once and then louder the second time. She answered the door in a night shirt and some slippers. "Oh, Adam! I hadn't expected you! I could have made myself more decent," she said turning red. "Eh," I said grumbling to myself tears still rolling down my cheeks. "Are you okay? Whats wrong? And why did you and Brian jet at the party last night?" She said ushering me inside her apartment quickly. I had never been inside it before and it was beatiful. Everything was arranged so nicely on the walls and everything matched. It was perfect. "My mom hired a decorator," she laughed, "If I had my way this would just be a big pile of dirty clothes," I smiled up at her, "Can I talk to you?" "About what?" "Everything," I let out a long, pathetic, sigh. She sat down on her peach couch and pat the seat next to her. I sat down beside her and put my head on her shoulder. "Whats wrong? Tell me everything," she ran her fingers through my hair. "Well I cheated on Carson," I whimpered out first. "With who?" she asked. "Brian," I didn't look up. "And now I just got news that Carson was in an accident and I don't know what to do! I want to go home, but I can't! I just want everything to go back to normal," I cried out wiping my eyes. "Oh, you poor thing!" she kissed my forehead. I hadn't noticed her other hand before and I didn't until I had felt something pushing on my crotch, "What are you doing?" "Clearing your mind of it's troubles," she undid my pants and slipped her hand down my boxers. I got up quickly and buttoned back my pants, "Whats your problem?! I'm going insane here and you want a quick fuck!?" "No, Adam.. It's not like that," "Shut up! SHUT UP YOU STUPID BITCH!" I ran out the door and got in my car and drove off. I was crying harder now and there was only one place left for me to go. I pulled up in front of the Hyatt and managed to force myself out the car and into the elevator. I got off and began to walk towards Kevin's room, but before I could I was stopped. "Hey sexy," I turned to face Brian, "You keep the fuck away from me," I knocked on Kevin's door. "Look, you kept playing along! You knew what I was going to do!" Brian smirked at me. "Fuck You, Okay? Fuck You!" I knocked on Kevin's door, "Dammit Kevin! Open up!" By this time everyone else was out in the hall and was wondering what all the comotion was about. "You want me. Don't deny it," Brian grinned at me. "GOD DAMMIT!" I turned around and punched him hard in the face, "get away from me!" The three boys rushed to his side and Kevin finally answered the door. "What?" he moaned, "Oh shit! What happend here?" "Kevin, I need to talk. Now." I began to push him into the room. "But Brian is," he protested. "Fuck Brian!" I yelled slamming the door and locking it behind me. "Woah, calm down. Whats wrong?" Kevin put his hands up as to gaurd himself from an attack. "I need a ticket to New York. I need it now. I know you can get me one," I panted shaking my hand out. "Yeah, hold on," he picked up the phone and dialed a number, "Yeah.. One ticket to New York. Yes, first-class. Yes, a private flight. Yes, tommorow morning. Okay," he hung up, "Your flight leaves tommorow at 8:00 AM." I ran up to him and wrapped my arms around him, "Thank you! I love you!" He sighed and wrapped him arm around me. I felt his warm body against mine and closed my eyes. My cock began to stir in my pants. "I better go," I let go of Kevin. "Why not stay here? I'll drive you tommorow. It's closer here. Go get your stuff," he smiled at me. I gathered my stuff from my trashed hotel room, checked out, and went back to Kevin's room. It was rather late when I got there and Kevin was asleep. I stood in the doorway of the room watching Kevin's chest rise and fall as it glistened in the moonlight coming through the window. I walked over and closed the door behind me. I kissed Kevin on his lips, softly, and began to undress. As I pulled off my shirt my hands knocked over a pile of papers and the photos of the boys jerking off fell out. I picked them up and began to look them over. Most of them were Brian and Nick doing things. Mainly jerking , but there were some oral pictures as well. "Wha-," Kevin woke up and looked over at me. "Hey," he said, "What are you looking at?" "Nothing," I said quickly putting down the pictures. "No, let me see," he said rubbing his eyes. I handed him the pictures and he smiled at me, "I bet your wondering what this is all about?" "Well.. Yeah," I said blushing. "We do these things everyonce in a while. We have to. We're always on the road and never have time for stuff like this. Alone, that is. So we do it together and one night I happened to take some pictures. No big deal," he smiled at me putting the photos down. He laid back onto the bed and let out a sigh, "You ran out on me last night. I wasn't going to do anything. I'm not like Brian," "I know. I was scared," I turned and smiled at him. I laid back and put my head on his chest, "Everything's falling apart right now. I didn't need that on my shoulders too," He put his arms around me and sang me to sleep, I wasn't sure what the song was. I woke up the next day and Kevin was already up and taking a shower in the bathroom. Man, I hadn't had one of those in a long time. He came out, his lower part wrapped in a towel, and I stared at his awesome chest. God how I longed for Carson. I sighed and told Kevin I was gonna take a quick shower. After I took my shower we headed out the door to the airport. It was about an hours drive and when we got there Kevin gave me a hug and told me to call him when I got back to New York. The plane ride was fine, I mean, it was a plane ride sheesh. I got back to New York at about twelve and headed to Carson's apartment. I threw my stuff down and called Caryn. "Hello?" she picked up a bit groggy, don't ask why. "Hey Caryn. It's me. Where's Carson at?" I asked rushed. "Adam? Adam! I'm so glad you called back! Where are you?" "I'm at Carson's apartment. Caryn where is he!" "I'll drive you. Just wait for me to get over there." "Fine," I sighed, "Bye." I hung up the phone and walked into Carson's room. I picked up a photo of Carson and Love, she needed to know about this. I had to tell her. I walked back into the main room and picked up the phone and looked at the speed dial. She was number 1, of course. I took in a deep breath and pressed 1 waiting for the phone to ring. "Hello?" a high ditzy voice answerd the phone. "Hi, is Jennifer home?" I said begining to wrap the phone cord in my hands. "This is her. Who is this?" she asked confused. "This is Adam. Carson's boyfriend," I started slowly. "Yeah? What do you want?" she said very forcefully over the phone. "Carson was in an accident. He was driving to his work and was hit by a bus. I thought you should know about this because," I stopped as I heard sobs over the phone. "Oh my god! Is he okay? Tell him I'll be over there as soon as possible," she hung up the phone and tears began to roll down my cheeks as well. Caryn drove up just then and I walked out of Carson's appartment to greet her. She gave me a strong hug and then we left for the hospital. "There he is. Right in there," Caryn stood and pointed to the room 533, "He should be awake." I walked into the room and the lights were off. He wasn't awake. I walked over to the side of his bed and kissed his head. "I love you," I whispered and sat down in the chair next to him grasping his hand. Tears slowly rolled down my cheek and I looked at him sleeping peacefully. Carson's eyes slowly opened, "Adam?" "Hey," I smiled at him, "I came right when I heard the news," "I love you too," "Oh," I blushed, "So you heard me." "Yeah," he began to cry, "Luckily only my left leg is broken. I'll be out of here in like a week." "I called Jennifer for you," "What did she have to say?" "She's coming down." "Oh," he said. I stood up and leaned over the bed again running my fingers through his hair and leaning in to kiss him on his forehead. "I'll go now. You need sleep," I walked slowly out the door closing it behind me. 12. I sat outside Carson's room all night slowly falling asleep every once in a while. At about eight the next day I went in to see Carson again, but he was still sleeping. Suddenly there were footsteps racing across the marble floor of the hospital. I looked up and rubbed my eyes to see what the hurry was and then took a second glance. "Jennifer!" I shot up out of my seat and stopped her from going any farther. "Are you..?" she looked at me and stammered. "Yes," I said looking down at her. "Is her okay? Is he hurt?" she yelled at me. "Yeah, he's fine. Just his legs are broken," I moved as she rushed past me. I closed the door behind her and tried not to listen to their conversation. "What happened? Are you okay?" Love shouted. "What? I'm okay.." Carson grumbled, "Who told you I was here?" "Your boyfriend, Adamm" she said. "Oh thats right. I remember now. Did you like him? Was he nice," "Yeah... uhm.. So.." "So? I'm okay. You have nothing to worry about. You can go home now," "Carson, I came here because I love you. I still love you. Your just going to blow me off?" "I-I don't l-love you anym-more," Carson stumbled on his words. I heard a whimper and then Love walked out of the room her face pale and tears rolling down her cheek. "I hope your happy," she yelled at me walking slowly out of the hospital. "Jennifer," I called back at her, "I didn't want to hurt you," She turned around and glared at me, "Fuck you Okay? Fuck you," Then I realized something. I understood how she felt. To love somebody then have someone take them away from me or someone trying to take me away from them. I got up and ran towards Love. "I understand it all Jennifer. I know how you feel," I said grabbing her arm. "Let go of me! You can't understand! You..you..you bitch!" She threw a punch and hit me in my cheek. I screamed out in pain as I grabbed my face and colapsed onto the floor. My mind was reeling about what to do and then it came to me. I couldn't go on living like this it wasn't for me. Tears, they were oh so familiar by now, began rolling down my cheeks as I picked myself up in the empty hospital and walked back over to Carson's room. I knocked on the door and opened it slowly. "I heard what happened," Carson said looking at me, "I'm sorry." "Well It won't happen again. Carson, she loves you. A lot more than I do," I turned my back to him, "I don't even know if I do love you or if it's just a crush. Like one of those stupid girls." "Adam..no," Carson called out to me. "Bye Carson. My stuff will be gone by the time your out of the hospital," I sighed and walked out of the room. "Adam! No," Carson wailed out for me but I kept walking. I broke into a run to my car and just sat inside it. I replayed the events over and over in my head and even though my heart hurt madly I knew I had made the right choice. He didn't love me either. He loved her and that was it. I was just an expearament. I wiped my eyes and pulled out of the parking lot and drove back to Carson's apartment to pack up my stuff. I finsihed packing at about noon when suddenly the phone rang. I mouthed the word Carson and picked up the phone. "Hello?" I let out a deep sigh over the phone. "Hey Adam. It's me. Kevin...what's wrong?" "Oh! Kevin," I perked up, "Sorry, thought you were someone else." "Yeah.. I just wanted to make sure you made it back okay," "Uh huh. I'm fine," I lied. "Brian's pretty upset that you left," Kevin laughed, "I think he'll get over it in a week or so. By the way, was there anything you know... between us?" I didn't say anything and created an awkword silence over the phone. "Hello?" Kevin asked afraid I hung up. "Kevin, I've got to go," I sighed and hung up. I got in my car and drove to Caryn's house to tell her about what I had done. "You can't go! Adam!" Caryn yelled at me. "Caryn, Carson doesn't love me. He loves her," "No! He loves you!" "But do I love him? Do I really love him back?" "Adam, you know you do. You know you can make this work!" Tears began to stream down my cheek and I wiped them away with my sleve, "Caryn. I don't know what to do. I've screwed up so many people's lives and on to pof that I couldn't even remain truthful to Carson for a week!" Caryn shot me a crude glare, "What?!" "Caryn... it's not lik-," "You cheated on him?! How could you do that!?" her face was a bright crimson. "Caryn it wasn't my fault. Not totally. Iwas drugged. Iwas half.... and then I...." I finally let it all out and collapsed into her arms. Caryn ran her hand through my hair and then finally got up and left me alone on the couch. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but it was impossible. Tears streaming down my face I sat up. Someone was in the room. I wiped my eyes and looked up. "Adam, I love you." "No. No!" Carson stood before me on crutches looking at me with his eyes full of tears, "How did you get them to let you out of the hospital?" "I forced them. For you. What you said back there, about us, you didn't mean it did you?" he slowly sat down on the couch beside me. I layed my head on his shoulder, "I don't know. I don't know anything anymore." "It's okay. I'm out of the hospital. I'm here for you now," "Carson. When I was in Florida. I wasn't exactly loyal," "I know," he brushed the tears off my cheek with th eback of his hand, "Caryn told me. It's okay. I understand." "How can you?" "Trust me. I do." I looked into Carson's bright blue eyes and smiled. I leaned in to his face and grabbed the sides of his head with my hands. Finally our lips met and, for once, we kissed a kiss s o full of pasion. So full of love. And for the brief second it lasted, I was in heaven. Carson suddenly grabbed my hand, "Let's go do something." I looked at him with my teary eyes, "What?" "Let's go somewhere." "Where?" "I don't know. Into the sunset." I wrapped my arms around Carson, "Lets." -One Month Later- "It's never going to get better if you keep walking on it, stupid," I laughed strattling Carson's lap as he sat down on the couch back in his apartment. "Well it's only a broken leg," Carson pulled me close, "and it's been a month! It should have healed by now." I kissed Carson softly on his lips, "I think," I kissed him again, "You need to go back to the hospital." "But I won't get to see you if I go back," Carson whined. "I won't get to do you if your legs not better," I gave him an evil grin. Carson ran his hand through my hair and I frowned. "Fine," Carson dropped his hands to his sides, "I'll go back to the Hospital tommorow." "I'll go with you," I smilled at him. I leaned in and kissed Carson softly on his lips and he wrapped his arms around my shoulders. I kissed him again and forced my tounge inside his mouth. He moved his arms up my back and then through my hair. I pulled away from the kiss just as he thrust his crotch into my stomach. I quickly got down off of Carson making sure not to touch his leg and unbuttoned his pants. He spred his legs and I got between them while I grabbed his cock in my right hand. I jerked it for a while getting it as hard as it would. I slowly licked the pulsing head and right after took in the entire cock. Carson moaned as I ran my tounge around his pole and bobbed my head up and down. He ran his hands through my hair forcing more of his massive cock down my throat. I licked the shaft of his cock one final time before Carson let out a loud cry and began to cum. I quickly put my mouth back over the entire cock and took in all four strands of his steamy liquid. I licked my lips when he finished and got up to kiss him. Our lips met and our tounges danced inside each others mouth. "I need that," Carson panted breaking the kiss and buttoning back his pants. "You still taste as good as ever. Even after all this time," I sighed and got back up on the couch with him again. I leaned over and put my head in his lap and he began to run his hands through my hair. "I love you," I smiled up at him. "After all we've.. Or maybe you've.. Been through," Carson smiled back at me. "I think we were made for each other," I closed my eyes. Carson laughed to himself as I finished his thought, "Night," he said as he kissed my forehead. 13. I woke up a while before Carson and slowly moved away from him trying not to make too much of a scene. I ran a hand through my hair and recolected the events that had occured over the past three months. I went over to the medicine cabnit in the bathroom and got out some Tylonol and took two pills. I then drug myself over to the phone, picked it up, and dialed numbers. "Hello?" the voice on the other end answered. "Hey, Kevin," I said a bit groggy. "Are you alive?" "Yeah, I just woke up," I laughed into the phone. "You know, you never answered my question," "About?" "About us. You know... us," I clenched the phone in my hand, "I-I I don't ...." "I don't want you to think that I just wanted to get a quick fuck out of you. That wasn't it at all. I just thought that you were lonely and you might have needed someone. Or something. I don't know," Kevin laughed fakely. "Kevin, I wish we could have been together. I do. Your so awesome. In the little time I was with you it was just, great, "I chuckled to myself thinking about it, "But it's just I met Carson. And I really do think I was meant for him. Truthfully. And if I ever get blown off or change my mind. Then. I'm gonna come right to you." "So, there's no chance.. We could ever?" Kevin asked quietly over the phone. "Carson's waking up. I need to go," I hung up the phone quietly so Carson wouldn't hear. I walked over and planted a kiss on his cheek, "Hey babe. Whats up?" "Me," he laughed, "What time is it?" he rubbed his eyes. "About 10," I rubbed his hair messing it up. I plopped myself down on to his old couch and rubbed my hand across his face, "Geez. When was the last time you shaved?" "You don't like my manly beard?" he laughed sticking his tounge out at me. "Shut up. Your such a dork.. You.. Dork," I laughed before quickly kissing him. I got up and walked over to his kitchen, well, stove , "What do ya want?" "Can you cook?" "I can try," I smiled at him. "How about pancakes with bacon eggs on the side?" he let out a loud yawn. "You want some lobster and wine with that sir?" I played with him sarcasticly. "Really?!" he perked up. "No," I said flatly. "Your too mean," I got some pancake mix out of the cuppord along with some all the other crap I needed. This couldn't be that hard. I made about 5 medium sized pancakes while mixing eggs and finally finished with the bacon. In the end I was pretty proud of myself. "Are these supposed to be black?" Carson asked me as I set his plate down. "I tried," I whimpered. He slowly picked up his fork and picked up some of the eggs. He put it in his mouth and chewed, oh, a half a second before he spit it out. "Thanks for the compliment," I hit him on his head. "Sorry, but it's nasty!" he laughed. "Watch it or I'll beat you up," I grinned at him. "You wouldn't hurt your poor handicapped boyfriend would you?" I kissed the top of his head, "Of course not. I'm gonna order pizza. What do you want?" "Thank god! Large pan with peperoni and sausage," he yelled at me. "Okay," I quickly went into the other room and ordered the pizza, "I told them to put it on MTV's tab." Carson burst out laughing, "Thanks for getting me fired," "Speaking of getting fired, I DO have to go to work," I walked over and kissed him on his nose, "When the pizza comes.. I guess.. Just yell for him to come in or something," I laughed and walked out the door to my car. Caryn was at the studio when I got there. She waved as I drove up and I smiled at her. "Whats up?" I asked giving her a hug. "Your parents called me earlier today, I told them you would call," she said as we broke the hug. "Crap! I'd forgotton about them! I feel so bad!" I could my face turning red. "You should be!" she laughed walking away, "Later!" "Bye!" I moaned out walking inside. Lucille met me at the door and told me that the president wanted to see me. I tensed up and asked her what it was about. She said they didn't say. I thanked her and headed upstairs to their room. I knocked twice before a gruff voice said, "Come in." "Uhm.... Mr.. Mr..," I shot a glance at his desk, "Mr. Thomas. You wanted to see me?" "Yes, come in, sit down." I walked into the room, which was covered in MTV memoribelia, and took a seat in the wooden chair parallel from the desk. "You know about Carson's accident with his legs right?" he set his hands up on the desk. "Yes sir," "Well, we've been thinking," he leaned closer to me. "Yes?" "Well, maybe it's time Carson... you know... retired as a VJ," "What?!" I yelled out a bit too loud. "Calm down!" he chuckled, "We wanted to offer you his job. You'd get to host TRL and all the specials. What do you think?" "What about his contract?" "We'll find a hole somewhere," "I-I.. I'll get back to you. Can I be excused?" "Sure, bye," I quickly left and leaned up against the door catching my breath outside. Carson fired?! Me take his job?! I went back downstairs and tried to do my work. It was impossible though. I kept getting lost in thought all day. When I came home Carson was sprawled on the floor, dead. Well, not really, but thats how he looked. I kicked him softly and he woke up. "Hey," he said wiping the pizza sause smeared all over his face. "Tell me why I love you again?" "Because I'm so adorible?" he sat up. "Uhm, no," I laughed. "The pizza man would come I nso I had to crawl to the door," he said trying to stand up. I rushed over to him helping him, "Really?!" I laughed, "What did they say?" "Something about how people are so weird now-a-days," "Were you on the floor all day?" "Yeah, it's pretty comfortable. Hint hint," he laughed poking me. "Not tonight. Now you sleep," I sighed, "I'm gonna break my back doing this again," He laughed, "I can TRY and walk, but I'm soooooo weak." "Shut up you wimp," I quickly reached underneath him and picked him up in my arms. I slowly made my way to Carson's bed and set him down, "And sleep! No sex `till your better." "None?" "Not even a kiss," I laughed leaving the room. I walked over to the counter and picked up the phone and quickly dialed my parents number. "I'm better!" Carson called from the other room. "Go to sleep!" I yelled back at him. "Hello?" a gruff voice answered the phone. "Hey Dad, it's me. Adam," I answered a bit startled. "Adam?! Where are you?! Your supposed to be back here getting ready for college!" he yelled into the phone. "I'm sorry Dad, but I sort of got tied up In things down here. I met the most wonderful person and I got offered a really cool job! I want to stay here! I don't want to go off to college! Maybe later, but not now," "Adam. I really would like to talk this over with you-," "Hello? Adam," my mom picked up the phone. "Mom?" "Yeah, what's wrong honey?" "He wants to stay and New York because he got offered a `cool' job," my dad said annoyed. "I don't see a problem with it, goodnight dear," my mom hung up and I did too. I leaned up against the wall knowing that my parents would be going into an argument over this. I sighed and moved onto the couch in the living room. I plopped myself down on it and went to sleep. Tomorrow I had to tell Carson about "it". I woke up with a pain in my back. I turned over and Carson was on top of me. I laughed and pushed him a bit to try and wake him up. "Eh?" He blinked his eyes and then smiled at me. "It was so lonely in there by myself. Plus you looked cold," he kissed me and stood up. "Hey! You can stand!" I yelped out. "Yeah, they don't hurt as much anymore. Just a bit. Now I can go to work today," he smiled at me. I cringed at the fact of him at work, "Oh. That's great. You sure you shouldn't rest for a bit more?" "Yeah I'm fine," he took a step forward and then was suddenly in my arms. I gave him a nasty glare, "You lied to me!" "Well at least I can stand," he gave me a goofy grin. "Ugh," I helped him up and told him to rest. "So who were you on the phone with last night?" Carson asked me as I brought him some cereal. "My parents," "What about?" "About me staying here, forever," Carson didn't need to know that I wasn't planning on going to college. "Oh, what'd they say?" he took a bite. "They said I could. Or at least my mom did," He looked up at me, "You sure?" "Yeah everything's fine," I sat down beside him. "Carson," I said a putting my leg on his thigh. "Yes?" he asked suspiciously. "I had a talk with the president of MTV yesterday," "And?" Authors Notes : --- http://www.carsondaly.com -Carson Daly Info(hehe) http://www.nsync.com - *Nsync Info http://www.backstreetboys.com - Backstreet Boys Info --- E-mail me : moontuxj@hotmail.com AOL IM : CarsonsBoy ICQ # : 10672023 -- Note about story -- Of course this story is COMPLETELY FICTION even though I wish it weren't.., but eh. who cares if it's real or not.. Lol.. oh well... e-mail me at moontuxj@hotmail.com if you want to get in touch or if you actually liked the story.. Hehe or if you hate it.. E-mail me and tell me why.. Inquiring minds wish to know.. ;p -- Next : the next part the "cliffhanger" LOL.. Will be resolved and it will be over with. That's it.. Finito.. Unless someone wants me to do more, but of course who would want me to do that? =) -- Sorry : Sorry for the lack of sex in the last two parts, but the story's plot really didn't call for it. I'm sorry! I promise there will be a really really REALLY long sex scene in the next part! I promise! -- Dedicated to anyone who's sent me mail about my story. I've kept a list. Here goes: BGSMITH3 (billy boy....heheheh), LabRatt99, RedrumBstd (crazy 16 year old cow molester *g*), Nifty (of course), Buzz (Get well soon!), Boogart7, SCDBS, CJ, bjones39, Peter Benson, Kyle Gordon, THE1Cicero, Shagbark Lorax, Eric Gustafon, JaG212, orgypez (hverphonic), mer boy, Matthew Prim, GADawg4242, Dr45RZE, and last but not least Hat5070. And if I forgot anyone then I'm sorry! I used my e-mail to get these names.. *smile* luv ya all