Date: Tue, 6 Apr 1999 00:53:12 +0100
From: Dean Lidster <dean@deans-domain.nu>
Subject: The Exchange - part EIGHT

                                                T H E   E X C H A N G E
                                                        by Dean Lidster
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                                PART EIGHT
                   (Chapters thirty-two to thirty-four)

DISCLAIMER
~~~~~~~~~~

This story contains sexual acts between boys. If this is not to your
tastes, then why in God's name are you reading this in the first place,
huh? If you're curious, then that's fine by me - just remember: an open
mind and an open heart is the secret to a good and happy life. If you
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Cheers,
Dean




               Dedicated to Lee - I will love you forever.


                   Chapter Thirty-Two

  Spen  woke  with  a start, sitting bolt upright, then  gently  lying
down  again  as  he  remembered where he was and the  wonderful  offer
Taylor had made. Damn that guy was so nice...
  He  smiled  to himself and rolled over, expecting his  arm  to  come
across his sleeping lover, but instead he simply found an empty,  cold
sleeping  bag.  Once again he sat up with a start, looking  round  for
Mack  and, when he couldn't immediately see him, wriggled out  of  his
sleeping  bag  and  turned on the lights. In  the  mess  of  the  blue
sleeping bags, a scrap white paper stood out like a sore thumb. Almost
afraid to do so, Spen picked it up, unfolded it and began to read  the
scrawl that was unmistakably Mack's.

  Dear Spen,
  I've  gone  to  try to talk to my dad one last time -  if  he  won't
listen  to  me now then I promise I'll never go back there again,  and
I'll be with you forever.
  Love you,
  Mackie.

  Spen  looked  at his watch. 2:04am. When did he leave?! Not  wanting
to  take  any chances, Spen leapt up the stairs and ran towards  Tay's
room.

  To  say  Spen surprised us was a bit of an understatement:  to  have
someone  leaping  into  your room at two in the  morning  yelling  and
babbling   ant  a  completely  incomprehensible  rate  is   a   little
disconcerting to say the least, and by the time we had  woken  up  and
managed  to calm him down assorted other people in the house  came  to
see what all the fuss was about.
  Tay  and  I  related  to  Walker  what  had  happened  earlier  that
afternoon,  and  it was decided we would go to Mack's  house  straight
away to make sure he was OK.
  We  all  pulled the clothes that were nearest to hand on  and  leapt
into  the  car, an obviously concerned Diane ushering the  other  lads
back into the house.
  Walker  gripped the steering wheel with a kind of grim determination
as  we  sped along the freeway to the other side of Tulsa,  Spen  just
hugging on to us both as if we were life itself. We did our very  best
to  comfort  him but for some reason we both had this feeling  at  the
back  of our minds that something bad had happened. How, I don't know,
but  there  seemed something peculiar about the whole scenario  -  the
whole  night  felt uneasy to me. I looked over at Tay who  was  gently
rocking with Spen in his arms and saw the same look of apprehension in
his eyes as I felt.
  That  apprehension  was  confirmed as we turned  into  Mack's  road,
flashes of blue from the police and MediVac vehicles streaking  across
our  faces  as we approached. Spen half moaned, half cried out  as  he
opened  his  eyes and saw the scene painted before him, a  sound  that
embodied the feeling of having a part of you forcibly ripped away.
  Even  before  the  car had stopped, Spen leapt  from  his  seat  and
jumped out of the car, barely managing to stay upright as he madly ran
for  the door of the house. Just before he made it, he was fielded  by
Mack's mother who hugged him tightly to her, sobbing uncontrollably.
  "I'm  so sorry," she wept, holding on to the last living remnant  of
her son.
  Spen  tried to pull away and enter the house again, but she held  on
to him. "Please, don't go in there... Remember Mackie as he was..."
  "Bu...  But I want to s... see him," sobbed Spen, locking eyes  with
her.
  Just  then, there was a metallic clank as the wheels from a  medical
stretcher dropped into place. On it was a black, zip-up bag.
  Spen  could do nothing but watch in horror as the body of  his  best
friend  was  wheeled  to the back of the MediVac  and  unceremoniously
loaded as if he were a consignment of meat for the butcher's.
  The  police's timing couldn't have been worse for Mack's dad  as  it
was  at this moment they escorted him, handcuffed, from the house. All
the  emotion  that  was  running through Spen  immediately  manifested
itself as pure rage, his soul purpose in life to do to him what he had
done to Mack.
  Tay  and  I raced over to him, but he had already charged at  Mack's
dad  and  with  a  cry  that reverberated off the surrounding  houses,
delivered  a  punch  that carried the force  of  all  his  weight  and
momentum to the man's genitals.
  He  fell  to  his,  muscles tensing as he tried to cup  the  bruised
organs  with his shackled hands. We grabbed Spen, doing our utmost  to
prevent  him from killing the guy but the strength that is present  in
someone  as  emotionally  driven as Spen  was  then  is  never  to  be
underestimated.  Even with all our might, he managed  to  deliver  two
further  frighteningly  accurate kicks to  his  face,  the  first  one
dislocating  his jaw, the second one sending his nose to a  forty-five
degree angle to the front of his face.
  I  eventually managed to tackle Spen to the ground whilst  Tay  held
his  upper  body in an arm lock so severe I thought he had broken  his
arm. The police took their cue and dragged the injured man to the back
of  the  patrol  vehicle and sped off into the night, sirens  blaring,
leisurely followed by the MediVac.

                 ______________________


  "Is  he  still out there?" asked Zac, not looking up from  the  huge
sketchpad he was busily scribbling on.
  "Yeah,"  sighed  Gareth, his breath fogging the cold kitchen  window
as  he  stared aimlessly through it into the garden. "Been  there  for
almost four hours now, poor lad."
  "How  does shit like that happen?" asked Zac, putting the  pad  down
on  the table, his pencil rolling across the table and bouncing softly
on the carpet beneath.
  "I  dunno," he replied, focusing his gaze on the still form of  Spen
sitting  by himself on the bench in the garden. Zac stood up and  went
and sat by Gareth.
  "I  dunno  what I'd do if anything happened to you,"  he  said,  the
sincere  sound  of his voice shocking himself as well  as  Gareth.  He
really  meant that. Gareth smiled and gave Zac a peck on the lips  and
held his hand.
  "Nothing's gonna happen."

                 ______________________


  I  had  never seen Tay so distracted. He was pacing up and down  the
garage like a caged tiger.
  "Tay? TAYLOR!"
  "Hmm?"
  I  shuffled to the edge of the beanbag I was lounging on and  patted
the freshly vacated section of material.
  He  smiled weakly and came and sat by me, gently pushing his  golden
hair back behind his ears.
  "I  feel  so guilty, ya know?" he said, quickly turning his head  to
look at me.
  "Tay, it wasn't your fault! There was nothing we coulda..."
  "Not about that as such... More about us..."
  "Eh? In what way?"
  "Boy  is  gay. Boy comes out to parents. Parents still love  boy  as
much  as  they  have ever done. Boy meets stunningly gorgeous  British
boy. Boy falls in love with boy. Boy finds boy's parents ALSO love him
even  though  he is gay. Boy and boy live happily ever after.  I  have
everything, Dean: You, my parents, YOUR parents, a wonderful family...
Spen's  got  nothing now - the one and only thing  he  did  have  just
decided he wasn't worth the time of day and topped himself... This  is
one fucked-up world, man..."
  "OK, so we'll un-fuck it."
  "What?" asked Tay, a hint of a laugh entering his voice as his  mind
visualised the bizarre concept of something being un-fucked. "How?"
  "Well,  we could start by putting Mack's arsehole of a father behind
bars for as long as we can."

                 ______________________


  "Dad?"
  "Not now, Taylor, I'm on the phone..."
  Tay  stood  obediently in the doorway, feeling slightly  guilty  for
asking  his  obliging  father for yet another favor,  this  one  being
somewhat larger than the previous ones. He looked over his shoulder at
me  and I smiled back to reassure him, then decided that wasn't enough
and hugged him from behind, kissing his neck.
  Walker had the same frustrated look on his face as Tay had had,  and
was even walking up and down the room in the same manner obviously not
hearing  what he wanted to hear from the guy on the other end  of  the
line.  As  he turned for his umpteenth stride back down the  room,  he
caught sight of us in the doorway and stopped in his tracks.
  "PETER! CAN IT!" he yelled into the phone. "I want that asshole  put
away  for as long as you can swing it, you hear me? No, this  is  non-
negotiable... THEN MAKE A BETTER CASE AGAINST HIM!" and with  that  he
hit the hang-up button and chucked the cordless phone onto the sofa.
  Tay  and  I  just  stood there, frozen to the spot. I'd  never  seen
Walker  angry before and from the way Tay had tensed as I hugged  him,
it wasn't a sight he was accustomed to either.
  He  dropped  down  onto the couch and promptly swore  as  he  lifted
himself up slightly and hurled the phone across the room.
  Tay turned round and motioned for me to leave Walker in peace for  a
while to let him cool off.
  "Hey guys, c'mere a second..."
  Walker  was rubbing his face and then allowed his hands to  continue
upwards, running his fingers through his hair.
  We  tentatively stood in front of him, side by side, not quite  sure
what to expect.
  "You two really love each other, huh?" he smiled.
  I  looked  at  Tay  just as he looked at me and we both  nodded  our
heads vigorously, smiling.
  He  shuffled  to one end of the sofa, and asked us to sit  with  him
for  a  moment.  Tay sat down nearest his Father and  I  plopped  down
beside  him,  subconsciously putting my  arm  around  him.  I  quickly
realised  what  I'd  done, and pulled my hand  back  as  if  I'd  been
scalded, which made Walker laugh.
  "Don't  worry about it, Dean," he smiled. "Listen, I wanna tell  you
something.  Tay, when you told me you were gay it... well,  it  didn't
quite  'register'  with me, ya know? Don't as me why  but  I  guess  I
thought  it  was some kinda stunt to get my attention,  and  I  didn't
think  you  were  serious serious about it. But when I  see  you  guys
together...  Oh  man..." he threw his head back and laughed  slightly.
"Do you know how much you two remind me of me and Diane? I suppose  we
were  about the same age as you two when we met in highschool. It  may
have  been a crush at the time, but I swore then and there I was gonna
spend  the rest of my life with her. I just see so much of us in you,"
he  smiled,  but  the  smile gradually drifted from  his  face,  being
replaced by a frown.
  "I  want you to know that I will never, EVER let anything happen  to
you  like it has to poor Spen and Mack. I love you both more than  you
can realise, even if I didn't know it first... I promise you guys that
if  I  can stop something hurting you, I will. I... I'm sorry I didn't
say that sooner..."
  "Oh  dad," smiled Tay, leaping into his father's lap and hugging him
tightly, tears rolling down his cheeks. "Thankyou,"
  Walker  hugged his son tighter than he could ever remember and  felt
a closeness more vivid than he ever had done before. I felt honored to
be  able  to  witness  that  and, although it  sounds  corny,  it  was
beautiful.  It was the way things should be. Taylor was right,  we  do
have everything.
  They  broke  the hug and Walker immediately hugged me  tightly  too.
"You're family now, Dean - remember that. I'm here as much for you  as
I am for Taylor."
  "Who was that you were on the phone to, dad?"
  Walker  sighed.  "I called Mack's mom this morning  and  offered  to
help  in any way I could: Jesus Tay she's in a mess... I swear at  one
stage  she  sounded as if she was going to follow Mack's example.  She
said  she  was sorry for ever marrying 'that asshole' - apparently  he
was  real  unkind to her when Mack wasn't around and he threatened  if
she ever let on to anyone she'd get it..."
  "Sooo... What are you doing? To help I mean..."
  "I'm  gonna  try  to  keep that shit in prison for  as  long  as  we
possibly  can...  The  lawyer was trying  to  coax  me  out  of  being
involved,  but  the  family  was already  mixed  up  in  it,  so  what
difference does it make?"
  "What can we do about Spen?" I asked. "He's just... Existing at  the
moment..."
  "Just  be  a  friend, Dean: He sure as needs as many as he  can  get
right  now. He'll pull through eventually, but he needs guys like  you
to look after him right now... How long are you with us, Dean?"
  "Uh,  until  the  end  of  next week," I said,  a  kind  of  reality
storming into my disoriented mind with all the subtlety of a Rhino  in
heat.
  "OK...  Go see if you can make contact with Spen, but don't push  it
- he has to take it at his own pace."
  Tay and I thanked Walker and left him in the Den, thinking.

                 ______________________


  We  pulled  on our coats, walked into the garden and saw Spen  still
sitting, motionless, on the bench. We walked over to him and sat down,
me nearest him.
  "Listen, Spen - if you ever want to talk, man..."
  The  unbelievable noise of absolute silence surrounded us for  three
or four very long minutes, all three of us now sat staring vacantly at
the  dark  green hedge at the bottom of the yard, thinking about  what
had happened.
  Then  I  noticed that Spen was crying: Not sobbing, but  tears  were
rolling  down  his  cheeks. Taking a gamble, I put my  arm  round  his
shoulders  and  almost immediately he collapsed into  me,  his  crying
muffled by my fleece.
  "Why?" he sobbed, not daring to move from me.
  That  flawed me. I really didn't know why he'd done it, or at  least
could   never  really  understand  how  someone  could  possibly   get
themselves into that state of mind.
  "I should've told him I loved him more..."
  "Spen,  listen  to  me - you did everything you possibly  could  for
Mack:  I  saw  you two together - he was genuinely happy when  he  was
around  you. You made everything worth while - you were what he  lived
for."
  "S... So why did he do it?"
  "When people are upset, they do crazy things, Spen... Mack's dad  is
an  arsehole. I don't know what he said to him or what he had done  to
him, but whatever it was I can guarantee that it wasn't true. The  guy
is narrow-minded and can't accept anything outside what HE believes to
be  right, never mind the rest of the world... Remember that Mack knew
his dad for a lot longer than he knew you, AND he was his father...  I
know it sounds harsh, but even though you might know your dad is lying
to  you  or  saying things about you that deep down you  knew  weren't
true,  because he's your dad you may believe for a while that what  he
said was Gospel..."
  "But why did his dad say that shit?"
  "I  don't  know, Spen... There are some evil people in  this  world:
That bastard's one of 'em."
  The  conversation seemed to leap all over the place as  it  followed
the  random  emotions and thoughts that were streaming through  Spen's
distraught mind. He was perpetually blaming himself: What if I,  if  I
had  said,  if  I  had done... It was a long haul,  but  we  gradually
managed to convince him that he hadn't done anything wrong - hell,  he
had  probably  been  the  best thing that  could  have  ever  possibly
happened to Mack: He had the same love for Mack as Tay and I  did  for
each  other. Spen was his guiding light - the one thing that kept  him
on  the  straight  and narrow. Mack had lived for  Spen,  and  it  was
because he had been blindfolded from Spen's absolute devotion  to  him
for  that short period of time by his arsehole of a father that he had
done what he had done.
  "But  what if I had been there with him? I could have told him  that
I still loved him..."
  "His  father would have shouted you down, Spen... The man  was  full
of  hate  and because of who he was, Mack would have listened  to  him
first... You mustn't blame yourself..."
  We   carried  on  talking  and  eventually  managed  to  steer   the
conversation  round to the good times he and Mack had  shared  in  the
past. He remembered sitting in one of the Cafes in the Tulsa mall  and
wolf-whistling  at  any  cute  boys who walked  past,  and  then  just
pretending  to  be talking to each other as the lad looked  round  for
whoever it was whistling at them.
  He  remembered the time that they arranged for Mack to sleep over at
his house while his mother was in hospital for a couple of days for  a
check-up:  They  had  managed to 'obtain' a few bottles  of  beer  and
decided  to stay up all night watching TV. They had ordered pizza  and
he remembered how Mack, being slightly drunk, managed to embarrass the
hell  out  of  the pizza delivery lad by making a couple of  very  un-
subtle passes at him...
  Then  there  was  the  hour  they had spent  before  coming  to  the
Hanson's  house  carefully  painting their  message  on  each  others'
buttocks before getting rather more excited than they had planned  to,
nearly missing their bus in the process...
  Spen  sighed  and  rubbed his red-ringed eyes  and  smiled  a  feint
smile.  "I'll  miss  him," he breathed, just  managing  to  utter  the
sentence before he cried once more.

                 ______________________


  Spen  had  asked  to be taken back home that evening,  so  naturally
Walker  obliged.  We offered to go with him, but  he  said  that  we'd
already  done more than enough. He smiled genuinely, thanked  us  once
again and gave us both a peck on the cheek before following Walker out
to the car.
  Tay and I meandered back down to the garage.
  "D'you think he'll be OK?"
  "I  hope so," replied Tay. "I told him to call whenever he needs  to
talk, even if it sounds really dumb..."
  "It's usually the dumb things that are the most important,"
  "Yeah..."
  Tay  sat  himself down infront of his Kurzweil keyboard and  flicked
the  power switch, a soft thud emanating from the monitor speakers  on
the floor infront of him.
  The  instant I heard the first chord, I knew what he was playing and
it practically made me burst into tears there and then, Taylor himself
having a hard job fighting them back.

     "If I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry
   And if I'm gone when you wake up, it's not goodbye.
Don't look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress
                Remember me, remember me,
     'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams, woah..
                    I'll be with you.

     If I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry
    And if I'm gone when you wake up, don't ask why.
Don't look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress
                Remember me, remember me,
         'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams

                Don't cry, I'm with you,
              Don't cry, I'm by your side,
                Don't cry, I'm with you,
           Don't cry, 'cause I'm by your side:
         And though my flesh is gone, wow-woah,
           I'm still be with you at all times
          And though my body's gone, wow-woah,
      I'm gonna be there to comfort you at all ti."

  Tay's  voice failed him, the reverb applied to the keyboard's  sound
echoing  earily away as he stopped playing. I rushed over to  him  and
sat facing him in his lap, hugging him to me.
  "Dean,  you  must  promise  me something: Promise  you'll  never  do
anything like that, no matter what happens to you, me or to us..."  he
sobbed, pulling my shirt into bunches with his shaking hands.
  "Only as long as you promise that too," I whispered.
  We  relaxed  the embrace slightly and made that infinite eye-contact
that  allowed  us to communicate without words, seeing that  we  truly
meant what the other said.
  "I  promise," we both said in unison, then sealed the  pact  with  a
kiss.





                  Chapter Thirty-Three

  "Hi, could I speak to David Lidster, please,"
  "Speaking,"
  "Oh hi, David - it's Walker Hanson here, Taylor's father,"
  "Hello, Walker, good to speak to you at last! Is Dean OK?" asked  my
dad,  immediately  assuming  that  the  only  reasons  warranting   an
international phone call would be something terrible happening to  me,
or me doing something terrible. Terrible? Moi?
  "Yeah,  he's  fine - I don't think I've ever seen Taylor  so  happy!
Don't those two look just great together?"
  "You're  right  -  they act just like Fran and I did  when  we  were
their age."
  "You  too? Man - I only just told them that I thought they were like
Diane  and myself! Thing is, I'd like to do anything I can to keep  it
that way: I've seen teenage crushes before and this seems a whole  lot
deeper than that, ya know?"
  "I've  thought the same... Four thousand four-hundred and forty-five
miles is a long way, though..."
  "Four thousand four-hundred and forty-five?" chuckled Walker.
  "Dean's  corrected  me  on the distance so  many  times  I've  kinda
remembered it..."
  "I see... Dean tells me you're in computers, right?"
  "Yeah  - I'm in what you could call a dead-end job right now -  over
here  you can only move sideways within a company - not up - if you're
anything to do with I.T. I'm giving serious thought to going freelance
before I'm too old to break out of the loop..."
  "Really? Well in that case I have a proposal for you..."

                 ______________________


  "Zac WATCH OUT FOR..." yelled Gareth as Zac leapt. Too late.
  I  opened  my  eyes  to  see a lump of junior Hanson  flying  at  an
alarming  speed directly over the back of the couch, his arse  heading
straight for my and Tay's mid-sections.
  Give  him his due, he did try his best to alter his trajectory,  but
Newton's laws were not to be argued with. He landed on us with all his
weight, producing a combined "umph!" from both of us.
  "Morning guys," he grinned.
  Tay  pulled a cushion over his head and groaned. "Zac, can't you  go
fuck Gareth for a half hour or sommat?"
  "Or what?"
  "Huh?"
  "You said 'sommat'... Hahahah Tay's even talking like Dean now!"
  "I never said 'sommat',"
  "Did too,"
  "Did not!"
  "Did  freakin'  too!"  bounced Zac. Tay brought  his  right  leg  up
sharply  behind  Zac's back, levering him abruptly  from  his  sitting
position and onto his feet.
  "Did too," I whispered into his ear. "But I think it sounded cute."
  "Yeah,  well,  as long as I don't start talking like Ringo  Starr  -
just ask Ike about that one!"
  "Huh?"
  "He's  just  got  something" said Tay, shooting  a  glance  at  Zac,
"about Ringo right now."
  "And Puff Daddy,"
  "Yeah, and Puff Daddy..."
  "Anyweih,"  I  said,  putting on the broadest  Derbyshire  accent  I
could, "ahm teachin' Tay the speak proper,"
  "Oh,  that's good - we can sing 'Bloke from Burminum' and  'I'll  be
wiv yer when yer kippin''..."
  "Just  coz you're upset you ain't got English as eloquent as  wot  I
got."
  "So," said Tay, butting in to diffuse the mad 'kill Zac' session  he
could see rapidly approaching, "what are we gonna do today?"
  "How about we go trawling?"
  Now  this  had  me  confused. Was my geography so naff  as  to  have
misclassified  the  state  of  Oklahoma  as  non-coastal?  And   going
trawling?
  "Hey yeah! We haven't tried that for ages,"
  Tay  hauled  himself off the couch and slumped himself in  front  of
the  PC  that was presumably buried within the mixing console.  A  few
mouse clicks later, the oh-so-familiar sounds of a modem warbling  and
chirruping to some distant computer over the phone.
  "Trawling?"
  "Yeah  - for stuff about us! Some of the shit the fans come up  with
is  seriously funny... I mean the stuff they write about:  It's  so...
well, intense; so real to them it's almost as if it really happened!"
  Tay  surfed over to Yahoo and did a search for Hanson. A few moments
later,  yahoo spat back a page full of links, declaring it  had  found
about thirty thousand matches.
  Tay  raised  his eyebrows and flicked through the first five  or  so
pages,  then  clicked on a link at random. Again after a  short  pause
(quite  horribly unlike the Internet I loved to hate) the  screen  was
filled  with  mini-windows full of the advertising  blurb  that  seems
intrinsic  to the "free" web hosts. After the standard ritual  of  "X"
clicking, Tay eventually managed to unearth a half-decent site.
  The  page began with a large banner declaring that its owner was the
ultimate  Hanson affectionado and, as such, knew everything there  was
to   know  about  Hanson.  Surprisingly,  the  page  did  seem  rather
levelheaded  about  Tay  and  his  brothers  and  after  the   initial
skepticism we all held, we decided it was actually a very good site.
  "It's  a  pity Hansonline can't come up with some stuff like  this,"
said  Zac. "The best they seem to be able to do is tell everyone where
we happen to be in the globe, as if people need to know..."
  "The  fact  that  the guy who runs it hates our  guts  doesn't  help
matters," grinned Tay.
  "Huh?"
  "The  Hansonline Web Master - the guy freakin' hates us! Of  course,
he'd  never say that to our faces - he's too weak-willed -  but  we've
heard enough from our 'moles' to know the truth. I dread to think what
would happen if he actually wrote the page,"
  "You mean he doesn't?"
  "He'd  have problems writing his own name! No, he sub-contracts  all
the work out to a few web design outfits..."
  "That's so cheap!"
  "Thing  is,  for some reason Mercury seem to think he  does  a  good
job! You win some..."
  We  clicked  our way through the site and ended up on a links  page,
listing  another  twenty-odd pages that the author thought  worthy  of
being her site. Instead of leaping off to another site from that links
page, Tay clicked on the e-mail link and typed a short message to her.
  "How will she know it was from you?"
  "She  won't  -  but she'll enjoy the concept that it might  possibly
be..."
  Tay  sent  the  message and went back to Yahoo, this  time  doing  a
search for "Gay Hanson". A few moments later, a whole new set of links
were  presented to us, Tay clicking on another one at random. We  were
whisked away to a completely different style of site: This one  seemed
'tatty'  in comparison with the previous site, but something about  it
caught  Tay's attention. It was run by a lad about our age  in  Canada
and,  as we read a little, found he was very gay, very out and  had  a
very  big crush on Taylor. Just below his 'mission statement' was  his
picture: He was also very cute!
  Tay  scrolled  down the page slightly and clicked a  link,  a  smile
appearing on his face as we were presented with "Taylor and  me"  -  a
story that this guy was in the process of writing.
  "Fancy a storytime?" asked Tay?
  "Yeah! Storwy!" grinned Zac as he pulled Gareth to him in a hug.

                 ______________________


  Spen  smiled weakly back at his mum as she thanked him for  the  cup
of coffee he'd just made for her.
  "You're a good boy, Eugene - I don't know what I'd do without you."
  Spen  did  his level best to keep the smile on his face as  memories
of  Mack surged to the forefront of his mind once more. What would  he
do  without him? It would've been bad enough for him to have moved  or
something   but  this...  It  was  so  ultimate  -  no  comeback,   no
negotiation: Mac was gone. Forever.
  "Eugene, I... I'm sorry about what happened to Macaulay. I  know  he
was a very dear friend to you."
  Spen  looked up through teary eyes, a transparent prism forming from
one  of  them,  hanging precariously from the end of his  nose  before
falling gracefully, twinkling as it fell.
  "Mom  I  have  to tell you something... You remember I  told  you  I
thought I may be gay?"
  Mrs.  Spencer  smiled reassuringly back at her son.  Life  was  hard
enough for teenagers nowadays without the added agro of having to deal
with  their  sexuality. She cared not a jot if Spen  was  gay,  bi  or
whatever else there was to be. He was her little boy, and she wouldn't
hear a single word against him.
  "Yes, dear,"
  "Well,  I... I guess..." damn this was hard... "I guess Mac  was  my
boyfriend," he sniffed.
  The  realisation of why Spen was so upset suddenly  became  all  too
clear to her - Spen wasn't just fond of Mac - he had... no - did  love
him!  He  had  lost  the  love of his life  and,  all  too  well,  she
understood what that meant.
  She  put  the cup of coffee down on the table next to her chair  and
spread  her arms to her baby who was hurting so much and embraced  him
as tightly as she could.
  She  just hoped that her cancer would hold off long enough  for  him
to  come  to terms with his loss slightly more before she  had  to  be
taken back into hospital...

                 ______________________


  "He can be charged with what?"
  "Pre-meditated murder," confirmed Walker's lawyer.
  "But  he  didn't  kill  him as such... What  evidence  do  you  have
against him?"
  "We  have  the testimony of the mother, and the phone was  left  off
the hook after the boy dialed 911 - the whole thing is on tape."
  "Peter,  you're a star! That is wonderful! So there's no  chance  of
him getting off lightly?"
  "None  -  in  a case this severe the judge will, in all  likelihood,
sentence  him straight off without a trial and revoke all applications
for  parole.  He'll  never see the light of day again.  No  one  takes
crimes against minors lightly. It may be a while before the case comes
to court, but that shouldn't be cause for concern."

                 ______________________

  "How  often  do  you do this?" I asked as Tay connected  to  an  IRC
server.
  "Quite  often - unless we want to make people think it's us,  no-one
has  any  idea  who  I am on IRC... But I fancy some  fun  today,"  he
grinned.
  PiRCH  informed  him  that he was connected to the  server  and  Tay
started typing.

  /nick JordanTH
  /join #HansonChat
  NOTE: JordanTH (Taylor@hansonline.com) has joined #HansonChat

  JordanTH  Hi guys! What's up?
  TAYLOvR   Don't be so _SAD_!!!
  JordanTH  Who?
  TAYLOvR  YOU!! I wish people would quit pretending to be Tay...
  JordanTH  Who said I was pretending?
  ^Denver^  Yeah, right!
  JordanTH  Finger me
  TAYLOvR   I'd rather not
  NOTE:  JordanTH  bashes  his head against  a  brick  wall  that  has
miraculously appeared in just the right place.

  "Have you ever managed to get anyone to believe it's you?"
  "Nah - but it's always fun trying!"

  NOTE: DCC Request from ^Denver^ (sublime@prodigy.com)

  Tay  clicked  'accept' and opened a private chat  window  with  this
Denver bloke.

  JordanTH  Hi.
  ^Denver^  Err - hi Taylor...
  JordanTH  So why do you believe it's me? :-P
  ^Denver^   Well,  I  checked  your  IP  address  and  it  came  from
HansonLine, so I guess it really is you!
  ^Denver^  I really don't know what to say!
  JordanTH   Well, as long as you don't start yelling  "I  LOVE  YOU!"
all over the channel we'll get along fine!
  ^Denver^  LOL! I think I can curb that desire...
  JordanTH  So, stats and location, please :-)
  ^Denver^  16/m 5'10" alburn hair (:P) and I live in Colorado.
  JordanTH  Denver, right?
  ^Denver^  How did you guess? :)
  ^Denver^   Is  Dean with you? I saw you guys on TV -  it  was  soooo
cool the way you handled that!
  ^Denver^ is proud :)
  JordanTH  Be who you wanna be, say what you wanna say... :-)
  ^Denver^   Yeah! Listen, I got to go because my mom's got the  lunch
ready...  Cool talking to you, Taylor! Send my best to  Ike,  Zac  and
Dean...
  JordanTH  Will do: Take care man... See ya!
  NOTE: DCC session closed.

  Just  then,  Walker came rattling down the stairs  into  the  garage
with  a  rather large grin over his kind face. Tay immediately  smiled
back and raised his eyebrows in anticipation.
  "Guess what, guys?"
  "Your  beard's  been  eventually classified as a wildlife  reserve?"
Quipped  Zac. Walker grabbed Zac, flipped him upside-down  and  draped
him over his shoulder provoking screams of mock outrage from him.
  "Peter  reckons  that getting Mack's dad behind  bars  is  almost  a
hundred percent certain - he can be had for murder one!"
  "Does  Spen  know?"  asked Tay, torn between the  good  feelings  of
'revenge' against Mack's dad and the horrible emptiness created by the
recollection of his suicide that he had temporarily forgotten about.
  "Not  yet... Peter needs to have a proper talk with him and possibly
even use him as a witness to the way Mack's father acted around him to
prove that the whole thing was pre-meditated malice. I'm going to give
him a call now..."
  "Perhaps it'd be better if we called him," volunteered Tay.
  "Yeah, probably... Tell me what he says, OK?"
  "Sure dad, thanks,"
  Walker  smiled  and  turned  and walked  back  towards  the  stairs,
chucking Zac onto the sofa as he did so.





                   Chapter Thirty-Four

  "He's offered you what?"
  "A job."
  "Doing what, exactly?"
  My  mum  was  being her usual cautious self as my dad recounted  the
contents of Walker Hanson's second phone call to him.
  "Well,  he  says he wants to take his oil company into  the  twenty-
first  century  technology-wise: He has one of his  employees  running
their  computer systems at the moment and, good though he  is,  Walker
needs him to do just his job, not that of an IT manager too."
  "And he's going to fly us over and give us a house and a car?"
  "Yes."
  "Just like that?"
  "No,  not  just like that. I suppose it's Dean we have to thank  for
this."
  The  thinking  behind  Walker's  seemingly  bizarre  choice  for   a
computer guy suddenly made sense: My mum reasoned that if she  had  as
good  as unlimited funds available to her, she'd do anything she could
to keep her son happy. He didn't want to see Taylor and I split up.
  "Well, what about the family over here?"
  "How often do we see them, Fran?"
  "I  suppose.  What could I do over there? I mean we'd have  to  sort
out all sorts of bits and pieces. Emigrating can't be done overnight!"
  "Walker  says we just have to give him the go-ahead and 'his people'
will take care of everything for us, even the packing!"
  "So, we're just going to up-sticks?"
  My dad wrapped his arms round my mum and gave her a hug.
  "Remember  twenty years ago? We used to just leap  in  the  car  and
drive  somewhere whenever we felt like it - do whatever took our fancy
whenever we wanted too. I'm stuck in a rut here, Fran - it's  a  dead-
end  job and in all realism I don't have the wherewithal to set up the
business  without re-mortgaging the house. He's giving me a break.  If
you  don't want to go, we won't go - things usually turn out  for  the
best."
  My  mum  sighed  and looked around at the old Tudor house  they  had
lived in for the last sixteen years and sighed.
  "I'll miss this place,"
  My dad smiled and kissed her. "I love you."

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  "MOM!  Zac  won't  give  me the Maple syrup!"  whined  Avie  as  the
offending  Hanson  continued to squeeze extortionate  amounts  of  the
sticky liquid onto his pancakes.
  "Zac, that's enough syrup - give it to your sister,"
  "Almost.  done."  he  replied as he tried to finish  off  the  near-
perfect geometric shape he'd been tracing with the bottle's excretion.
  "NOW  Zac!" snapped Diane, causing him to jump and send a string  of
syrup  in  completely  the wrong direction. Gareth  giggled  at  Zac's
reaction.
  "What's  so funny?" he asked defensively as he relinquished  control
of the syrup bottle to his sister.
  "You messed up," he grinned. "That looks really kack now!"
  "Yeah? Not as kack as your face," he retorted.
  "Knock  it  off,  you  two,"  smiled Walker  over  the  top  of  his
newspaper.
  I  was  completely stuffed on pancakes, my body still  not  used  to
eating more than a half-bowl of cereal for breakfast.
  "You  eating  that,"  mumbled my gorgeous boyfriend  through  sticky
lips  and  a  mouthful of pancake, motioning at the abandoned  food  I
simply could not manage.
  I  shook  my  head 'no' and watched as he deftly lifted  it  off  my
plate, timing the drips precisely so that not a single one soiled  the
tablecloth  and then proceeded to eat it. It was a simple action,  but
because it was him doing it, I was enchanted.
  He noticed me looking and froze.
  "What?"
  "Just watching you," I admitted.
  "Uh. OK," he smiled. "Why?"
  "Because I like watching beautiful things," I smiled back.
  "Oh  please!"  groaned Zac, shoving two fingers into his  mouth  and
pretending to wretch.
  Before  the  standard routine of Zac-suppression could be  deployed,
the  doorbell rang. Walker looked up from his paper again, then at his
watch and then asked me to answer the door.
  Seeing as I was the only one not eating, it seemed only fair that  I
go and see who it was calling so 'early' in the morning and ambled out
of the kitchen into the hall.
  Two  silhouettes were being projected onto the frosted glass by  the
early  morning  sun  -  somehow,  they seemed  strangely  familiar.  I
dismissed the thought in my mind and opened the door.
  My  parents  spun round to face the door as I opened it  and  smiled
broadly as our eyes met.
  "Mum!  Dad! What are you doing here?" I smiled, giving them  both  a
tight hug and ushering them into the house.
  "Well,  we were looking for our house but got slightly lost," smiled
my mum.
  "Huh?"
  "David!  Frances!  Great to see you! Good flight  I  trust?"  smiled
Walker as he shook their hands vigorously.
  "Hang on a second - your house?."
  "Hi  Mrs. Lidster, Mr. Lidster," smiled Tay as he joined us  in  the
hall, hugging them both.
  "Does someone want to expla."
  "Can  I  get you anything? Coffee? Tea?" interrupted Walker, evading
my question.
  "Tea would be good,"
  "Two teas," added my dad.
  "Do  you  know  what's going on?" I asked Tay. He just shrugged  his
shoulders and smiled back.
  "Dean, I think you should congratulate your father on his new  job,"
smiled Diane.
  "Huh?"  Something strange was going on here, but by  the  smiles  on
everyone's  faces it was a good strange. Being kept in the dark  about
things  is one of my pet-hates, and I was getting more and more  wound
up by the second.
  "You  are looking at the new Director of Information Systems for  my
business," smiled Walker.
  "You  quit LanLogic? Cool!" I knew how much my dad had grown to hate
the  monotony and distinct lack of career prospects that that  company
had  provided him with, and was genuinely pleased for him.  "So  we've
moved over here? I mean, moved permanently?"
  "Well,  yes!  You  know what they say: 'A change is  as  good  as  a
rest.'"
  "But what about all our stuff? What's happening to the house?"
  This  whole  thing  seemed to be going a little  to  quickly  to  be
practical and I still couldn't quite believe that they were serious.
  "Well,  when you lot go back to school next term we'll go over  with
you  so  that  we can have time to get everything packed and  so  that
you're not left in England 'by yourself'."
  "So  we're  going  back  to  school in  England?"  asked  Zac,  eyes
lighting up like a Christmas tree.
  "Just  for  the rest of this term," affirmed Walker. "The headmaster
seemed  more than happy to have you back. Why I'm not quite sure,"  he
smiled.
  "We  do  have  seats in the house, you know," smiled  Diane  as  she
realised we were just standing round in the hallway, my parents  still
with their coats on and holding a suitcase each.

                 ______________________


  "Kiss  the boy to the left if you think you're the luckiest  lad  in
the world,"
  Tay leant up on one elbow and planted his luscious lips directly  on
mine, his hair tickling my upper chest in the way only his could.
  He  settled  back  down next to me and hugged  me,  his  hot  breath
rumbling gently in my right ear.
  "It  feels  so weird to be sleeping without Zac and Gareth,"  smiled
Tay,  the sound of his voice almost echoing around the bare room  that
we were sleeping in. Tay and I had decided to christen 'my' new house,
just across the road from his. This arrangement was given the blessing
of  the Hanson parents as it greatly relieved the congestion in  their
house now that the young'uns were back and space was at a premium.
  "What did I do to get you?"
  "Huh?"
  "I  mean  why  did  the  powers that be decide  that  we  should  be
together?"
  "You  know," said Tay, stretching his arms and allowing his left  to
come to rest over my shoulders, "the quickest way to end a miracle  is
to ask it why it is or what it wants."
  "I spose so. Taylor?"
  "Mmm?"
  "I love you."
  "Love you more."
  "Like hell you do!"
  "Do too!"
  "Do not!"
  "Too!"
  "Not!"  I  yelled, digging my fingertips into his ribs  causing  the
comforter  to fly rather ungracefully into the air as his limbs  began
to  flail around. Tay's hidden muscles very soon came into play as  he
managed to get on top of me and we rolled in a giggling heap onto  the
floor with a thump that reverberated around the all but empty house.
  We  rolled, wrestled and tickled until we were both breathing  hard,
the light but remarkable smell of our sweat making itself known to the
other's  nostrils. That universally beautiful blue-white glow  of  the
moon was the only lighting available, but it was more than enough  for
me to pick out the silhouette of Taylor's beautiful face, coated in  a
delicate  sheen of sweat. He gently lowered himself onto me, his  dick
making its presence known as it came into contact with my own.
  "I've  got  you  now," he whispered, the feintest of smiles  on  his
lips.
  "Always, forever."

  "Dean?"  asked a strange voice, one that I knew, but somehow  didn't
fit.
  "DEAN!"  the voice repeated. The room Tay and I were in  started  to
swirl into darkness and I felt myself being shaken.
  "DEAN!"  yelled my dad for the third time. My eyes slowly  began  to
open and a horrible reality began to dawn.
  "We're  here:  better get your stuff before they send  you  back  to
France!"
  I was on the EuroStar.
  I was back where I started


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This ain't the end - it's just the beginning :-)
Watch out for the next story - "Better than a Dream" coming to a
Nifty mirror site near you soon!


                                        Hope you've enjoyed it so far,
                                                                  Dean