Date: Mon, 25 Nov 2002 02:19:36 +0000
From: RiCkY !!~!~ <ricky_g_14@hotmail.com>
Subject: obsession chapter 3

Disclaimer- In no way am I saying Aaron Carter is gay. With that said,
Enjoy =)

We waited in the room for about 15 minutes in complete silence. We wanted to
say something to each other...anything. But it was too big of a shock for
everyone. After a little while longer Ryan, didn't come back to the room. I
decided to go out and look for him. Aaron offered to come with me, but I
figured it would be best if he stayed in the room.... Don't want to be
caught by fans... Right? Before I could close the door behind me, Aaron
blocked the door, and gave me a warm, passionate kiss. I didn't want to
break away from this position, although it felt amazing, I needed to know
what my best friends must be going through. I gave Aaron one last smile as I
rushed out the door.

I searched for Ryan for almost 20 minutes, but I had no luck. I looked high
and low, but there was no sign of him. I wanted to give up and go back to
the room, when I suddenly recognized a familiar person sitting on a bench
infront of a pop machine. It was Ryan all right, and he looked very
confused. Almost sad, if I read his facial expressions right. I took a deep
breath and walked up to him. He didn't turn to pay any attention to me at
all. He just kept his attention to the floor and kept silent. I wasn't
really sure what to do at that point. Should I try and talk him? Or should I
just leave him alone, and wait until he's ready to say something to me
first? I had decided to just leave him alone and walk away; when he stopped
me.

"Sit down.." He said softly.

I did what he said and took a seat next to him, not saying a word. He didn't
say anything for about a minute, but then lifted his head slowly, and looked
at me straight in the eyes. His eyes were reddish and wet. He was crying!

"..Why didn't you tell me?" He asked.

"...I....I thought it would ruin our friendship. I didn't know how'd you
take the fact that I like guys. I didn't want to take any chances..." I
replied "I'm sorry..."

"Well.. neither did I" He answered still tearing.

"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.

"Ricky...I've known you for how long now? 4 years? Well.. that's about how
long I've been in love with you. I've always known I was gay, I just never
told anyone for the same reason you never told me" He said, and went on. "I
had no idea you were gay.. I mean, sure I had hopes..but, I never figured it
could actually be true. God Ricky.... If I only knew"

With that, he began to shed tears once again. I couldn't believe what he had
just revealed to me. I felt like bawling myself, but I wasn't sure for what
reason. Was it because I could have revealed myself to him a long time ago
and didn't? Or, because he liked me and I never had any idea?
The questions just flew through my head as I tried to regain my
consciousness.

"I.....had no idea" I replied teary eyed "You mean, you liked me?"

He looked deep into my eyes and nodded his head gently. At that moment, a
huge amount of pity went out to him. I could feel his pain in my own self;
as I watched him try, and calm himself down. He was hurt and all because of
me. Having him see me, and Aaron, kiss in the room must have shattered his
heart into millions of pieces. I didn't know what to do. I had my
best-friend
sitting here on a bench crying, and a hot new guy waiting for me somewhere
else.

"I'll be right back.." I said, as I lifted myself from the bench with the
little strength I had and walked back to Aaron.

I felt confused and almost relieved at the same time; now knowing that I
don't have to hide myself from Ryan again.

Aaron opened the door anxiously as I waited for him to let me in. He looked
at me impatiently; as I avoided looking at him and sat on the sofa, putting
my hands over my head. He slowly started towards the sofa himself with the
look of sadness, realizing that things didn't go to well.
"You found him. Didn't you?" He asked.

"Yeah...yeah I found him" I replied, with a voice you'd have to strain to
hear. Surprisingly, Aaron heard me.

"What happened?" He asked, as he pulled my hands away from my face. He held
them in his hands as he stared into my eyes, waiting for my reply.

"He.. umm.. he came out to me" I managed to say after a few seconds.

"Came out to you? Aaron looked confused. I kind of figured he wouldn't
understand.

"Yeah. It just so happens he's also gay. Go figure eh?" I muttered sadly.

As much as I tried, I wasn't able to keep eye contact with Aaron. For some
reason, looking at him made me feel worse. Almost as if he was the reason
Ryan's in emotional pain. Well, technically he was, come to think of it.

"Was he mad?" Aaron asked curiously

"I don't think he was mad. He was extremely disappointed. Ya see, he
admitted to liking me for years. After catching us kiss before, he must have
wanted to die. I know I probably would have" I said.

Aaron looked at me for a couple seconds, then turned to face the floor. He
sighed and then slowly turned to me again.

"....Do you have feelings for him?"
I started to daze off for a moment, thinking about how I felt. I love Ryan,
but just as a friend. I've never felt anything more for him than that.
Honestly, not that he's a bad guy or anything, but I'd much rather stay
simply as friends.

I looked into his sexy eyes and shook my head;, indicating my true feelings
for Ryan. He seemed to brighten up, and a slight smile was trying to peak
through that gorgeous face of his. I realized then, that it has to be

the best day of my life. But also, the most confusing and saddening at the
same time. Although he seemed all happy, I still felt like crap.

"Aww common man... cheer up!" Aaron insisted.

I flashed him a weak smile and went back to thinking. But he wouldn't take
that. He pushed my back into the sofa, and started tickling my sides.

Everyone who knows me, knows that tickling is my all time weakness, and this
guy seemed to figure it out fast. I tried hard not to laugh, but it was too
hard. I giggled uncontrollably, as he continued ticking all my most ticklish
areas. I called out for him to stop, but it was no use; All that was clearly
heard was my laughter. I some-how managed to push him off and sit back on
the sofa. This time though, I had a smile on my face and it felt good. I was
about to go back to Ryan and see how he was doing, when Aaron stood in my
way. I glanced at him for a second, wondering what he had in mind. It didn't
take a rocket scientist to figure it out. He leaned in close to me and
pressed his perfect lips against mine. Part of me felt guilty, but the other
part just wanted Aaron, and that part conquered all.

As we kissed, I slowly unbuttoned his white shirt; revealing his amazing
chest. I worked my hands around his great chest, as I headed closer and
closer to his jean zipper. Pulling down on the zipper, I revealed his
impressive 6 inch cock. I played with it for a little, until I decided to
place it in my hungry mouth. He moaned softly as I accelerated speed. He
grabbed on to my head as he pushed my mouth deeper on to his dick. When his
moans began to get louder, I knew he was close. Before long, he squirt his
juices in my mouth, and I tried to swallow every ounce of it. Trembling, he
fell on to the sofa and tried to catch his breath. I couldn't believe it. I
had just sucked Aaron Carter, and made him cum. If I didn't see him sitting
there, smiling at me, I would have thought I had just imagined it all.

"Your turn" He announced, getting ready to take me.

"I...I don't really feel like it right now. It was great doing you, but I'm
not exactly in the mood to get off myself" I said.

"I understand, it's cool" He assured me. As he zipped his pants back up, he
checked the clock. The show was going to start in an hour and he had to get
ready, fast! "Listen dude, I gotta go get ready. I'll meet up with you after
the show"

"Alright...break a leg" I said, smiling as I kissed him and walked out the
door.

I went back to the same spot I found Ryan before, and thankfully, he was
still there. This time though, he looked alot better emotionally. He seemed
as though he had calmed down a bit and was just looking into space. I sat
down next to him and put my arm on his shoulder. He slowly turned to face me
and actually flashed me a smile. I got to admit, that was the cutest smile
I've ever seen on Ryan's face.

"Aaron still in the room?" He asked curiously.

"No. He went to get ready" I replied, and then asked, "How you feelin?"

"Better, I guess" He said "Hey Ricky... tell me the truth, alright. Do you
and Aaron have something goin' on together or was that just a..."

"No, no" I interrupted "There's nothing goin on'. It was just....well...it
didn't mean anything" I lied.

Kissing Aaron meant the world to me, but I couldn't tell Ryan that. Well,
maybe I could have told him. I mean, why not? It was the truth, right? But I
didn't want to break his heart more than it already was. Before he was able
to ask anymore of his questions, I told him the show was going to start soon
and that we should go find our seats. He agreed and we headed back without
talking to each-other. I hated the silence between us, but there wasn't much
I could do. I felt uncomfortable saying something to him, because I was
worried he might get wrong impressions, or something. When we matched our
tickets to our appropriate seats, we sat down and waited. It was only a 20
minute wait, but not talking to each-other made it feel much longer.
Finally, saving me from going mental, the gorgeous blonde kid came on stage.
The crowd went wild;
girls yelling and cheering for their favourite celebrity. As I watched the
show, I noticed Aaron winking at me from time to time. 'Aaron likes me' I
thought happily, as I watched his concert for the first time in real life. I
got to be the luckiest kid in the world...but how long will it last? *sigh*



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