Date: Wed, 29 Jun 2005 20:29:25 -0700 (PDT)
From: Jason Calme <jasoncalme@yahoo.com>
Subject: Snow Day 4

This story is about male/male relationships and contains
graphic descriptions of sex.

You should not read this story if it is in any way illegal
due to your age or residence.

This is a work of pure fiction. It mixes fictional
characters and events with real people. However any real
person mentioned in this work is purely an actor playing a
part. This story in no way is meant to imply anything about
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person.

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Snow Day - Chapter 4

I slept badly, waking several times, finding it difficult
to go back to sleep and feeling miserable. I finally fell
asleep around dawn, and was awoken just after 9 by my Mother
standing over me.

"I brought you coffee," she said softly. "I know how you
need it to function," she smiled.

"Thanks," I grunted.

My mother stood there and I figured there was more. She
pointed to the bed, and I shifted over a bit and she sat
down.

"How are you?" she asked.

"Okay," I said evenly.

"You want to talk about last night?"

"No."

"I'm sorry about..." she paused, seemingly unsure what to
say. "I probably shouldn't have just pushed my way into
things last night..."

"Uh..."

"I know," she smiled. "You're old enough to solve your own
problems. I didn't mean to embarrass you by butting in and
playing mother. It was just Howie was..." she paused.
"Very upset, and you were obviously upset, and I was
worried. I guess I imagined all kinds of things."

"It's okay Mom," I said thoughtfully.

"Well, I'm sorry."

"No Mom. It's okay. I really don't mind."

"Okay," she nodded, and patted my arm.

There was a long uncomfortable silence.

"So I'm going to take Howie down to try and find his car."

"Okay," I nodded.

"Then he wants me to take him to a motel."

I sat there thinking about it. So he was leaving. Well
that was okay, wasn't it? Probably for the best. Yet why
did I feel so miserable?

"Are you going to come?" she asked.

I shook my head.

"Okay," she said.

There was a long pause.

"He wants to talk to you," she said quietly.

"Mom, I can't"

"He would have been down here already but I told him not
to...I thought it would be best to give you a chance to
wake up."

"I don't want too..."

"Don't you think you should give him a chance to apologize
before he goes?"

I sighed.

"What did he tell you?" I asked.

Mom sat there for a moment. "Do you want me telling him
what you tell me?" she asked.

I shook me head. At the same time I figured that meant he
had told her something. Either that or made up some weird
story. Suddenly I was intrigued. He'd told my Mother
something, but what? And why was she on his side; trying
to get me to talk to him? If she were upset with him she
would have seen him out the door in a flash.

"No," I said.

"So what do I tell him?" she asked.

"Tell him...I don't know...I just don't want to talk to
him."

"Okay," she said, and then she got up. "I just don't want
you having any regrets later on," she said, and then she
walked out.

I sighed. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I was more confused than ever,
and I didn't know what to do. So I just lay back down and
closed my eyes.

Five minutes later I heard a thump, thump, thump, as
someone came walking down the hall. I could tell it wasn't
my mother.

There was a tentative knock on the door. The door was
open, but he didn't come in.

"What do you want?" I asked, not opening my eyes.

"Can I come in?" Howie asked timidly.

I wanted to tell him to go away. I was still angry and
confused. And now I was mad that my mother hadn't kept him
from me. Part of me suspected that she might have even
sent him.

"Yeah," I said.

I opened my eyes and watched as he came in and kind of
hovered in the center of the room. There was a long
silence and I kept expecting him to say something, but
instead, there was just...silence.

Finally I decided to say something. "So you're going to
get your car?"

"Yeah."

Another silence.

"Mom said you're going to go and stay at a motel."

"Yeah...uh...thought it was probably for the best."

I nodded.

Another long silence.

"I'm sorry Sam. I'm really sorry," Howie almost whispered.

I didn't know what to say, so I said nothing. I just lay
there, trying to think of what to say, but nothing came.

There was another long silence.

"Well...I'm gonna leave you alone..." Howie said finally,
but he just stood there.

"Okay," I said.

He stood there for a long moment, his shoulders sagging,
then he turned and started to walk out.

"Why?" I said to his back, and he stopped in his tracks.

He turned around, looking upset. "I...I..." he stuttered.

I'd been lying down, but figured maybe I should show a
little more interest in what he had to say. I sat up,
pulling myself partly out of the sleeping bag, but that
just seemed to upset him more, as he looked all around the
room, except at me.

"Howie?"

"I'm sorry..."

"I know," I said, getting a little annoyed. "I just...I
want to know why I miss read..."

"It's not your fault," he interrupted. "You didn't do
anything wrong. It's all my fault, I didn't mean to..I
just...I don't know..." he trailed off.

"Howie?"

He wouldn't look at me.

"Howie?"

His eyes finally fell on mine.

I pulled my legs up and patted the bed in front of me.
Howie stood there for a moment, and then he walked over
and sat down nervously.

"I'm sorry...I..." he began tentatively and then he
stopped. I just sat and waited and eventually he started
again. "When I found out you were gay I didn't care, but
then yesterday we had so much fun and...well I could tell
that you liked me and I was having fun and it just seemed
okay to go with it, you know?"

He looked at me for confirmation and I nodded.

"I guess it didn't really occur to me that I might be
leading you on," he went on. "I don't know why. Okay,
duhÉI'm a fucking shit," and he made a really cute 'dumb'
face and I almost laughed. He smiled too, and then the
smile vanished and he continued quietly.

"But then last night I was still kind of just going with
it...I wasn't intentionally leading you on..." he paused
and took a breath. "I guess I was maybe trying to see how
far it would go because it was...it was just fun up until
then..." he looked at me nervously for a reaction. I
wasn't sure what to do, so I just sat there.

"This all sounds so stupid. I'm so sorry," he said
quietly.

"Howie I..."

But he interrupted me. Clearly there was more he wanted to
get off his chest.

"And I was thinking about..." he paused and noticeably
reddened, "Uh..."

"It's okay Howie,"

"I don't know, maybe I was kind of curious I guess, you
know?" he whispered, and blushed. "But you looked so...I
knew it was more than just experimenting for you and I
knew I had to tell you...warn you...I don't know. I just
couldn't go on with you thinking it was more than it was."

I sat there trying to absorb it all. The truth was somehow
even harder to take than my imaginings.

"I'm sorry," he repeated. "I didn't mean to hurt you.
Everything had gone so..." and he trailed off.

I reached out and patted his hand. He looked at my hand
and then up into my eyes and smiled nervously.

His eyes were wet and he sniffed and wiped at his face
with the back of his hand. He stared at me with blinking
eyes and I smiled at him and he smiled back nervously.

"Well, I better get going," he said finally.

"Okay," I said.

He got up and walked to the door, stopped and turned back.
"Sam, I'm sorry I was such a shit. I really had a great
time yesterday. You're a great guy."

"Uh...thanks, Howie," I said.

He nodded sadly and then walked out.

I sat there for a moment, and then sighed. Well, fuck it.

I jumped out of bed, wrapped a blanket around my shoulders
and walked down to the kitchen. Howie and Mom were
standing there; he looked upset and she had her hand on
his shoulder. They both looked up in surprise as I walked
through.

"Morning," I said brightly, and went to the cupboard in
search of a breakfast bar. I found one and pulled it out.
Turning around, Mom and Howie were still staring at me
with a mixture of surprise and bewilderment.

"So when are we leaving?" I asked.

"To dig out the car?" my Mom asked.

"Yeah."

"Shortly."

"Okay, well I just have to get changed," I said. "Back in
a minute," and I hurried up the stairs to my room.

I was picking my jeans up off the floor when Howie came
into the room.

"Hey" he said.

"Hey," I said.

"You're...you're...it's okay?" he asked.

"No it's not okay," I said and I saw him stiffen. "I'm
totally pissed at you."

He looked down.

"It's probably gonna take me most of the day to forgive
you," I said. "But if I just...well if you go while I'm
still mad at you I'll be mad at myself for weeks."

He nodded, giving me a small smile and I just wanted to
hug him. But I resisted the urge.

"You know you don't have to..." he began.

"Don't be stupid," I interrupted him. "It'll take you all
day on your own."

"No it won't," he said. "You Mom was gonna help," and he
grinned.

Dammit, I had to smile back at him. I couldn't help
myself.

"Dork!" I said.

"Doofus!" he smiled back at me.



My Mom drove us out to find Howie's car. The idea was that
we'd find the car, dig it out, then call the garage and
they'd come and tow it in to be fixed. I just hoped we'd
find it whole, and without any damage.

I sat up front, since it was felt that I'd have a better
idea of where the car was; Howie's memory was decidedly
hazy.

As it turned out, we missed the car the first time. We
drove about a mile beyond it before I realized that I'd
seen a building that I'd passed before picking up Howie.
So Mom turned around, and back we went - rather slowly -
until we came around a corner and it felt familiar.

"I think it's up here somewhere," I said, and my Mom drove
even slower until I noticed a large mound.

"That's it!" I yelled.

My mother pulled over and we all got out and went to see
if the mound was actually Howie's car. Howie took a snow
brush and started to swat at the top of the mound. Then he
jabbed the handle in and there was a clunk. He looked at
us and grinned. After a few more seconds, a bit of the car
was visible, but it was clear we had a lot of digging and
snow clearing to do.

My mom surveyed it. "So how long do you think it will take
to dig it out?" she asked.

Neither of us had any idea.

"Maybe an hour?" I said to Howie.

He nodded. "Yeah, probably."

My Mom glanced at the car once more. "Well the cell phone
doesn't work, so I'll go call the garage. You two get to
work."

Howie and I set to work, digging just far enough apart not
to get in each other's way. We hadn't really had any time
to talk, but I think maybe Howie didn't have a whole lot
to say. I didn't really have much to say either.

After about half an hour we had most of the front of the
car cleared. Howie stopped for a moment and was leaning on
his shovel. I stopped to take a breather too.

"Almost done," Howie said quietly.

"Yeah," I nodded.

A minute or so went by without a word being said.

"Thanks for helping, Sam," Howie said shyly.

I grinned at him. "If I didn't help you'd never leave," I
said, and meant it as a joke, but Howie flinched a little
and I instantly regretted saying it.

"Well I'll be...your Mom is going to drop me off at the
motel after this."

I stared at Howie and he turned away.

"Don't be an ass," I said, but he ignored me. "Hey," I
said. Howie still wouldn't look at me. "Hey!" I said again
and finally he turned to face me. He looked miserable but
was trying to appear disinterested.

"You're welcome to stay Howie," I said.

"I don't think I should," he answered quietly.

"Why not?" I said.

Howie sighed, but didn't answer.

"Why not?" I repeated.

"Sam...I don't want to hurt you," he said, and started
back to shoveling. I stood there watching him, thinking he
might stop, but he seemed intent on ending the
conversation, so after a couple of minutes I just started
shoveling too.



We had pretty much finished - or were close enough to be
done - when my mother arrived, bringing with her hot
chocolate and apple Danish. It made me feel like a kid
again, but who's going to turn down something like that
after a cold hour of shoveling snow?

Howie and I sat in the back seat of Mom's car, eating
Danish and drinking hot chocolate, while my mother sat in
the front seat and made small talk. She'd been off
shopping and the front seat had some bags on it; which was
why I ended up in the back with Howie. Later I would
wonder whether she'd put them there intentionally.

I'd barely finished my pastry when Mom said "Here they
come," and I looked through the windshield and saw a tow
truck coming towards us. We hastily stored our cups and
got out.

The driver turned the truck around, backed in and jumped
out and had the Explorer hooked up in about a minute flat.
He then came over and had Howie sign a couple of forms,
gave a copy to Howie and jumped in the truck and was gone.
It happened so quickly it was anti-climactic.

With that taken care of we started back. Howie and I were
still in the back, still not talking. I noticed my Mom
glancing at us in the rear view mirror every few minutes.

"Did you give them our phone number Howie?" my mother
asked.

"I gave them my cell," Howie said evenly. He glanced at me
and then turned away.

I knew he thought he was doing the right thing, but it
felt like I was being punished, and I hated it. Fuck it!
He knew I was gay. He knew I liked him.

Okay, I was embarrassed in the beginning, but now I'd had
time to get over it. Despite everything I'd rather spend
more time with him - any kind of time - than have him just
disappear.

But I didn't know how to say it without it sounding wrong,
and I realized it probably was wrong. Only a fool persists
in chasing someone that doesn't want to be chased. But if
I could be love's fool, I was more than willing to sign up
right here and now.

"So what are you two going to do this afternoon?" my
Mother asked.

I looked over at Howie, but he didn't look at me. Instead,
he leaned a little forward to better talk to my mother.

"Can you give me a ride down to the motel? You've been
really kind to me but I've over stayed my welcome and I
think it'd be better if I stayed there. I just need help
to get my stuff there," he said. Then he added, "If it's
too much trouble I can get a cab."

I seethed. I felt like he was abandoning me without so
much as a second thought. And then to ask my Mom to take
him down there instead of me! After I'd helped him out and
even come and dug out his fucking car! Hurt and
indignation turned to anger, but instead of saying
anything I just sat back in the car and looked out the
window. Okay, if he could ignore me, then I could ignore
him too. Fuck him! That was my new motto.

"Howie," my Mom said. "You haven't overstayed your welcome
at all. You've been a very polite guest and I know Sam and
I both will be disappointed if you don't stay with us
until your car is fixed."

'Yeah, sure,' I thought to myself, but I didn't say it, I
just stared out the window. I wasn't going to give him the
satisfaction of knowing how much he was hurting me all
over again.

There was a long pause. Howie glanced at me.

"Uh...I don't know..." he finally said.

"Well," my Mom said. "You can figure it out once we get
home."

I looked over at Howie and he turned away and stared out
the window. Fuck!


Neither of us said another word the rest of the trip.

As we walked in the door, my Mom said, "I have some work
to do," then she turned and fixed us both with a stare.

"Now you two, go figure out what you're going to do; I
don't want to see either of you until you've worked things
out." And then she turned and walked off to her office.

I looked at Howie and he looked at me and I think we both
felt foolish.

There was a long moment of silence. Finally I decided to
try and break it.

"Look, Howie..."

"I better go pack my bags," he interrupted, and he stood
there for a moment, and I was just staring back at him
with my mouth open and he turned and walked upstairs.

As I watched him go, I just got madder at him. That was
his idea of working things out? Shit! Well fuck it! If he
was going to solve his problems by just ignoring them,
then fuck it, I could do that too!

And I was just about to storm upstairs and show him how
well I could ignore him, when the doorbell rang. Great!

I thought about letting Mom get it, but she was working.
So being a good son - and since I was five feet from the
door - I turned around and opened it.

And what did I get for my well meaning action? Louise in
my face. Fuck! Could this day get any worse?

"Hi Sam!" she said with fake enthusiasm.

"Hey," I said.

"How are you?"

Her interest in my health made me wonder; 'Why is she
asking how I am?' She wants something.

"Okay," I admitted begrudgingly.

She glanced in the door.

"Is Howie around?"

Ah! Should have known it! Of course she was here to ambush
Howie and drag him away to her mountain lair where she
could pray on him at her pleasure. For a second I imagined
her dining on his entrails, but it was a poorly
unsatisfying vision.

"Yeah," I said and turned and yelled up the stairs.

"Howie!"

Nothing.

"Howie!"

"Sam!" my mother called from her office. "Do you have to
scream?"

I was about to point out that she was yelling at me - I
was really in a bitch of a mood - when Howie appeared at
the top of the stairs.

"Someone here to see you," I said.

He came down a couple of steps, but paused when he saw who
was standing behind me. I saw the hesitation, but he
recovered well and continued down the stairs.

He walked up to us and said "Hi," to Louise.

They were staring at each other in an unreadable way, and
I was feeling nauseous.

"Are you feeling better?" Louise asked.

"I'll leave you two alone," I said before he could reply,
and quickly walked into the kitchen.

Things were going from bad to worse. If he was going to go
out with her then I was glad he was going to stay at a
motel. I couldn't stand much more of this.

I could hear them talking softly, and I knew I shouldn't
eavesdrop. But of course I was listening as closely as
possible. Only snippets floated into the kitchen and I
couldn't figure out what they were talking about.

Fuck this! Hanging out in the kitchen was just getting me
more frustrated. Slamming the door of the fridge closed in
frustration I decided to go back up to my room. I could
hang out there until Howie came to get his stuff.

I went back out into the hallway, intending to go up to my
room without listening to too much they were saying.

"Sam!" Louise almost yelled at me, stopping me in my
tracks.

"What?" I asked.

"I invited Howie to the movies, but he won't go unless you
come."

I looked at Howie. What was this about? Was it a ruse to
get out of going to the movie, or did he really want me to
go? Or did he just feel guilty?

"Ahh..."

"You don't want to come do you?" she asked, in a tone that
suggested there was no reason why I should.

"Ahh..." I stared at Howie, but his face was impassive.

Louise was looking back and forth between the two of us.

"Oh my God!" she said.

"What?" I asked, turning back to face her.

"Are you two..." and she pointed her finger back and forth
between us quickly, then she turned to face Howie. "Are
you gay?" she demanded.

"Howie's not gay," I snapped, but Howie just looked at
Louise and shrugged.

"What's wrong with being gay?" he said in a voice that was
almost too casual.

"There's nothing wrong with..." I began.

"I'm just trying to figure you out," she said accusingly.

He grinned. "Well now you've figured me out. Sorry," he
shrugged.

"He's not sorry, He doesn't have to be sorry," I said, but
it seemed that neither of them were listening to me.

"So you're dating...him?" she continued.

I didn't like the way she said 'him,' at all.

"No, he's not!" I said, as if either of them paid the
slightest attention to what I was saying. It was like I
was some inanimate object they were arguing over. Oh My
God! Had I become the cuddly bear? Was I now going to be
torn apart by them?

Howie shrugged, seemingly unable to define what exactly
our relationship was.

"I don't believe you," she said. "You two are up to
something."

Howie rolled his eyes. "Well...duh!" he said.

"We are not dating," I repeated, but Louise wasn't
listening to me.

"Prove it!" she said.

"Prove what?" asked Howie innocently.

"Kiss him!" she said, pointing to me.

I think my mouth just about hit the floor. Did she just
tell Howie to kiss me?

"What's that going to prove?" Howie half laughed.

"See? You won't!"

"You're not going to tell me too..."

"Do it! Go on."

Howie shrugged.

"This is stupid," I snapped, and started towards the
stairs, but Howie grabbed me, pulled me to him and gave me
a quick, chaste kiss on the lips. It was over before I'd
really registered that it had started.

He released me and I spluttered. "What the!"

"You call that a kiss?" Louise hooted. "My grandmother
kisses better than that."

I was trying to think which grandmother she was referring
too, but that went nowhere before Howie was in my face
again. This time I had a little warning, and could
actually brace myself for it. His lips went over mine and
I opened my mouth as he opened his and his tongue rubbed
against mine and it tasted sweet. He tasted like candy. Oh
yeah, the Apple Danish. His arms were around me now and he
was actually pulling me into him and I wasn't resisting.
Now my arms were around him and it seemed like his tongue
was half way down my throat, and I was getting a boner.

I heard Louise mutter "Jesus!" and Howie suddenly released
me and stepped back. I felt like sagging to the floor, but
somehow managed to stay on my feet. Howie looked a little
dazed too, and I tried to remember what it was I was doing
before I got dragged into this.

Oh yeah, I was going upstairs to sulk.

Howie looked at Louise and raised an eyebrow.

Louise shrugged. "Boys don't know how to kiss," she
huffed.

I beg to differ.

"Okay, well I gotta get going," Louise said.

There was silence.

"Oh, okay," I said.

"See ya," I heard Howie say, and he turned and ran up the
stairs.

I followed Louise to the door. She stopped, and turned to
face me.

She stared at me for a moment, and I stared back,
wondering what bitter comment she was going to make.

"That was the first time he kissed you, wasn't it?" she
whispered.

"Huh..."

"I thought so," she smiled. "You so owe me for that,
cousin," and she smirked and started out the door.

"Wait! You...I thought you wanted him?"

She shrugged. "If I can't have him, might as well keep him
in the family," and she walked down the driveway.

I watched her go, stunned by everything that had happened
in the last ten minutes. Clearly the world was no longer
operating by rules that I understood. Cute boys were
making out with me, and my evil cousin was helping set me
up with them. Had a pig flown out of the sky and delivered
a singing telegram, I probably would not have been more
surprised.

I closed the door and started to go up the stairs when I
glanced down the hallway and saw my Mom standing there, a
curious expression on her face.

"What?" I asked her.

She shrugged. "So I take it Howie's staying?" she said, a
huge smile on her face.

"Ah...uh..." I stammered. "I don't know."

"Okay," she said. "Well I was just going to tell you that
there's things in the freezer, or soup in the fridge for
lunch."

"Okay," I said.

"You might see if Howie wants to eat...something else for
lunch," she said. Then she turned and walked back to her
office, and I wasn't sure if I didn't hear her laughing to
herself.



The bedroom was empty. There was no sign of Howie. On the
other hand, his bags were still on the floor in disarray,
so he hadn't fled or done anything to pack. But where was
he?

I went down the hall and found the door to the bathroom
closed. I wondered if he was throwing up or something. I
was half trying to listen, half gathering the nerve to
knock, when the door opened and there was Howie standing
in front of me. We both shot back a little in surprise,
and then I smelt the cigarette smoke.

"If Mom catches you doing that she'll have a fit," I
pointed out.

He blushed.

"Well at least leave the fan on to try and clear the air,"
I said.

"I had the window open," he said.

"That's why it's so cold," I observed, hitting the switch
for the fan. "Why didn't you go outside?"

"It's fucking freezing, and I really needed it," he said.

"It makes your breath stink," I said, and I remembered the
kiss and the taste of him, and wondered whether he'd taste
bad now.

He shrugged. "I've got mouth wash," he grinned at me.

"You want lunch?" I asked, changing the subject.

"Uh..I was going to finish packing," he answered.

Was this where I was supposed to coyly say that he didn't
have to go? He knew I wanted him to stay. It was too
demeaning to keep asking him.

I idly wondered why neither of us had said anything about
the kiss. It was all so complicated.

So I just said "Okay," and stared at him.

He held my stare for a moment and then turned away, his
eyes not really focusing on anything. "I guess if it's
okay with you..." he said quietly, and then his eyes came
back to mine.

"It's okay with me," I replied, and though he didn't
exactly smile, he gave me a small nod. "You want soup or
something else?" I asked.

"What kind of soup?"

"I dunno. Let's go see," and with that I turned around and
Howie followed me down to the kitchen.


Neither of us liked the look of the soup, so we made
sandwiches. I got out the bread and found a couple of tins
of tuna. I gave Howie the cans and the can opener, while I
got the other things out of the refrigerator. When I came
back Howie had finished opening the first can, and was
having trouble getting the can opener detached from the
can.

He glanced at me, a look of embarrassment on his face.

"I do know how to use a can opener," he said, shaking it.

"Yeah, it's one of those European things. Nobody can
figure it out. We like to give it to visitors, and then we
laugh at them."

"You could have warned me," Howie growled, obviously
frustrated.

"You push this," I said, leaning over and pushing a knob
on the front and the can dropped free. Howie was watching
what I did closely, and then he looked up, there was a wry
smile on his face.

"That really sucks," he laughed.

"Yeah," I laughed too, and as I did my hands moved back
and touched his and we both startled a little.

I stepped back, and Howie busied himself with the can
opener.

"I'll...um...I'm gonna get a bowl to put the tuna in," I
said.

"Okay," he nodded, picking up the second can.

I grabbed a bowl and put that on the counter and poured
the contents of the first can into the bowl.

Howie came over and put the second can down beside the
bowl.

"Thanks." I said.

"I figured it out," he joked.

"I knew you would," I looked up and smiled at him. "I knew
you were a smart one."

Howie grinned and I turned back to the bowl.

"So you...you never said anything about earlier..." he
said quietly.

"Earlier?" I asked, acting dense, though I knew he was
talking about 'it.' I just needed time to think about what
I was going to say.

"The kiss," he said.

"There was two as I recall..." I said.

"Okay..."

I stopped and turned to face him and he was staring at me
pensively.

"Uh...The second one was better," I continued.

"It was okay?"

I pretended to be thinking. "Yeah, it was really pretty
good."

"No, I mean...it was okay that I...kissed you."

"Oh. Yeah. I liked it," I said, trying to act unconcerned.
I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"It didn't weird you out or anything? I didn't mean to do
that if I did," he said shyly.

"Ehh...why would it?" I asked. "It was a good kiss."

"Well, because of what happened before, I just thought..."

"It's okay, Howie. I know you were pulling a prank on
Louise."

Howie frowned.

I shrugged. "Well, it wasn't bad, whatever the reason you
did it."

"You liked?" he said, grinning.

"Of course I liked."

We both grinned at each other, and then Howie suddenly
looked very embarrassed.

"I'm sorry," he said, looking away.

"Why are you sorry?" I asked him.

"I'm leading you on again," he said, finally turning to
face me.

"Howie, I like you as a friend."

"I like you as a friend too," he parroted back to me, but
he didn't look very happy.

"Okay, so we're just friends, right? And we'll leave it at
that," and I nudged his shoulder with mine and a small
grin appeared.

"Yeah, we're juuuust friends," he said, and he nudged me
back.

And we went back to making the lunch.


We were sitting side-by-side at the counter, eating our
lunch, when Mom came in, smiled at us and looked at the
plate we'd set out for her.

"This looks nice," she said. "Can I join you, or do you
two want to be alone?"

"Mom," I groaned.

"Oh, we definitely want to be left alone," Howie said with
a huge grin on his face.

I bumped him with my knee. "Dork," I said. Damn, he could
make me laugh, even when I was confused with him.

"Doofus" Howie sing-songed back to me, and nudged me with
his knee, and he left it there. We were touching now, just
part of our legs, but I was suddenly feeling very warm. I
pushed very gently against him and he pushed back. I
casually tried to pick up my pickle but my hand was
shaking and I dropped it on the floor and Howie snorted.

I made a face at him and got off the stool and picked up
the pickle. I tossed it into the sink, then sat back down
and Howie moved his leg against mine again.

I looked up to see my mother staring at us with a smile on
her face.

"So Howie, you're staying then?"

"Uh..." Howie glanced at me and I stared back at him to
see what he was going to say. "Yeah, if it's not too much
trouble," he said.

"That's fine, isn't it Sam?" my mother said.

"Yeah."

"Thanks," Howie said, looking at me, and grinning.

"You're welcome," my mother said, and Howie glanced back
at her to acknowledge her, but then turned back to look at
me.

We smiled at each other and I nudged his knee and he
nudged mine back. I was still confused about where this
was heading, but it was a whole lot of fun and I was gonna
just go with it as far as I could.

A tiny little voice in my head said stop, but one smile
from Howie and I shut that out.


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to be continued