Date: Fri, 12 Jan 2001 09:54:33 -0800 (PST)
From: Reid <saboteur_98155@yahoo.com>
Subject: Took For Granted- Chapter 2 (gay male/celebrity/soulmating)

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|| DISCLAIMER  ||
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This story is meant to imply nothing about the
sexuality of the real people involved. Anything
mentioned from this point on is purely fictional and
not meant in any way but the highest regard.

The lyrics used within are not meant to imply anything
about the individual preferences, practices, or
lifestyle choices any of the musical artists mentioned.
The lyrics are not used for any personal monetary
profit...

If you have any objections to my writing, then why in
the name of Jesus are you reading this? I know some of
you might like Hanson but I don't buy the whole
"I didn't know it was a GAY STORY!" defense. So shut
up and don't send me any more hate mail you stupid,
obesessed little Christian girls.

As always.... Comments, Suggestions, and Criticisms
can be sent to saboteur_98155@yahoo.com

I'm trying hard to stay away from the "sophomore
letdown" with my second story. I hope you're all
liking it and eagerly anticipating further chapters.
Or you can just enjoy it and that's fine too.

WARNING!!! My stories contain mature themes and
may project images or scenarios that are
inappropriate for younger or sensative readers.

I can be reached on ICQ at 70639912...
Or on AIM at Reid00005992...

Enjoy!

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||  Took For Granted- Chapter 2                     ||
||  By Reid                                         ||
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Try as I might, there was no way I could understand the whole TV
phenomenon. God knows, I'd watched more than 10x my share of it and I'd be
like a coke whore in withdrawal if I had to go more than a day without it.
But there was just something about it that I didn't understand. There was
just something about the "rules" that never really made any sense. If
there were any rules, that is. It would be like trying to find a needle in
a haystack if you wanted to actually see a written copy of these "rules"
that the TV networks seemed to operate by.

It didn't make much sense that good, quality shows like Oh Grow Up and My
So Called Life got canceled and kicked to the curb while shows like The
Facts of Life lasted nine years. Nine years. NINE years. At least that's
what the E! Special said. It was supposedly a "Behind The Laughter"
special but I always thought you needed actual laughter to go behind. But
I was in no position to judge as I sat there, staring at the TV that
Taylor had propped up in the doorway to his bedroom. We had staked out
that spot and sat in the hallway in lawnchairs, with myself closest to
Zac's room to listen for when he came out from under the sedatives.

Dr. Bailey, and as much as I hated myself for it, I was starting to like
him, had given Zac a powerful tranquilizer while his body recovered from
the surgery. He was barely able to walk on his own. Zac had been sent home
from the hospital right after the surgery because all he had to do was
rest and they felt it would be better if he did his resting at home. When
it came time for the post-op care instructions, I was still a little
surprised when I was so willingly elected for the task. Promptly, the
nurse handed me several sheets of care and cleaning guidelines that needed
to be followed to the letter.

According to one of the sheets, I was supposed to gradually remove the
gauze as the feeling returned to his hands. The whole process was expected
to take about two days to complete and once the bandages were gone, Zac's
hands needed to be washed and the stitches needed to be cleaned
thoroughly. Then reapply a light layer of gauze and go on about our
business until the stitches came out on their own. It sounded fairly
simple.

They had also prescribed him Percocet which I had my share of experience
with over the years. He had been given the first dosage at the hospital
and as soon as we had gotten back to the house, all the moving around had
gotten him nauseated. I felt like a parent when I held his hair back as he
bent over the toilet and it gave me a rush, knowing that he needed me and
knowing that I was helping him. He needed to lean on me as I gently guided
him into his bedroom and tucked him in, watching as he curled into a ball
and passed out into a medicated sleep.

When I was safely secure that he was asleep, my body seemed to be hit with
all the fatigue and stress that I'd been sort of blocking out for the past
few days. The joints in my knees ached as I squatted there and eventually,
they gave way and I fell back into a sitting position on the floor. As
tired and worn out as I was, my body still felt a great sense of relief
and I knew that, somehow, everything would work out. Worse people than Zac
had recovered from more.

That was hours ago. Now it was early evening and I was sitting in the
hallway of a large house watching TV. I shifted in the lawnchair and the
nylon crosshatched straps creaked and protested underneath me. The plastic
arms had been digging into my elbows for quite some time and only now, did
I take some sort of step to correct it. The show went to commercial and
out of the corner of my eye, I saw Taylor put down the coffee cup.

"Hey... I just want to ask you something. If it pisses you off or offends
you, I'm sorry."

I braced myself and turned to him, "Go ahead."

"I know that Zac didn't meet you over the internet."

Internally, I flinched and tried to cover my tracks but I realized it
wasn't going to work, "Yeah... you're right."

"You don't have to tell me because it isn't really my business but how did
you guys really meet?"

I knew exactly what he was talking about. Zac had told his family that he
and I had been corresponding via email for the few months prior to our
meeting and that we'd met up and fell in love like some story. It had
worked with his parents and everyone else but I now knew that Taylor had
figured it out, some how. I took a deep breath and rubbed my hands
together, trying not to feel backed into a corner.

"Reid, I'm not pissed and I'm not worried. It's pretty obvious that you're
cool. I know that Zac couldn't have met you over the computer because he
knows not to do that kind of thing. And I know that you didn't talk much
to Zac before we met you because it took you some time to remember names
and stuff. I'm just... I want to know what really happened." He said it with
such respect that my defenses didn't fly up like they usually would.

"It's an ugly story at first."

"I think I'm mature enough to handle it."

I rubbed my nose and thought about where to start, "All right. Zac and I
first met in person on July 23rd and that was the night before you guys
performed in Seattle. Earlier that day, I had found out that my dad had
taken all my money away and left me poor. I used my last cash to take a
bus to see my boss downtown but she couldn't help me and I was screwed
pretty bad."

"Wow." Taylor said and I could tell he felt bad.

 I left her office with nothing, basically. My apartment was a rattrap and
I didn't have anything left so I'm walking down the sidewalk. I went past
the theater and this was where you guys were performing but I didn't know
that at the time. In the little garage type place next to it, there was
tour bus and I jimmied the door open and went inside. I didn't know what I
was going to do but I guess I had thought I was going to steal something
or try and find money."

"Did you take anything?"

"No. I took about two steps inside and realized what a pathetic loser I
was being. And I remember standing there and just realizing how wrong and
how stupid it was for me to do that. So I turn around and walk out and as
soon as my feet hit the pavement, I look up and Zac is standing there."

Taylor nodded, and it was easy to explain to someone with an IQ over 30,
"Then what happened?"

"I told him that I didn't take anything and I was just going to leave.
When I turned to go, he asked me to wait and started asking about where I
was going and if I was going to be OK. I didn't know what he wanted me to
say and I kept just saying 'whatever' and trying to leave until he offered
to get me something to eat. I knew there wasn't going to be any food
waiting for me elsewhere so I went with him to this pizza place and we
talked and we went back to your hotel and talked some more and then I left
that night."

"I must not have seen you. That was when I had a sinus infection."

"Yeah. I came back the next day and a couple hours before the concert, we
kissed. He got all quiet and told me he didn't want 'it' to end and I said
it didn't have to and... stuff happened. He convinced me to come back after
the concert which I did and he asked me to come with you guys."

Taylor smiled, "I was there when he asked if it was OK. Mom and dad told
him no and he almost had a stroke. The way he talked about you was so
serious that there really wasn't anything they could do but say yes."

I realized that I wasn't going to be arrested or thrown out, "He made up
the internet story to make it seem less 'harsh'. At least that's what he
told me. Anyway, the day you guys left Seattle, he told me to wait in the
hotel lobby and the next thing I knew, I was in the tour bus. It was like
a dream."

We were both silent for a while as we thought about my confession. My only
concern was that I'd cast some sort of suspicion on myself in Taylor's
case but he didn't seem to look at me with anything like that. The silence
was quite comfortable as the show came back on and I took a drink of
water. My throat had gotten that gummy feeling again but it wasn't so bad.
Eventually, the silence was interrupted by one of the littlest ones,
whichever one that always wore the Teletubbies pajamas, who ran up and
gave Taylor a loud, wet kiss on the cheek. It made me smile.

"Are we cool?" I asked and watched as he wiped his cheek off.

"Yeah. We're cool. I just have one more thing."

"Hmm?"

"Were you ever going to leave today? I mean, did it ever really almost
come to that?"

"I thought about it. I thought about it several times. Even as I was going
in there to see him, I thought about it and for a split second, I could
see myself walking out the door and going back to where I came from. But
then I realized how stupid that would be. Everything that means anything
to me is here. I know that might sound corny but it's true."

"That doesn't sound corny at all."

My head rested back and I looked up at the ceiling, feeling more relaxed
than I had in a long time. I felt self-sufficient. I was alive and I was
dealing with my responsibilities and taking care of them. Tell that to my
ass that's being molded by this lawnchair. And my poor elbows being
tenderized by this plastic. Those were all trivial complaints, really.

"Reid..."

My mind didn't immediately realize that someone was saying my name until
Taylor elbowed me. When my head fell forward and I looked around, he
nodded his head towards Zac's room and without delay, I was out of the
chair and on my way. The door had been cracked open just a bit and the
room was getting darker as the evening began to take over the sky.
Stepping carefully around the array of shirts and boots on the floor, I
knelt down next to the bed.

He had rolled over and I could only imagine how restless he must have
felt. The first few minutes after a drugged up sleep were always just a
bit uncomfortable. He groaned softly and tried to arrange himself securely
in the bed. All I could do was help and make sure his hands weren't being
stressed too much.  I could hear the sound of him squirming against the
covers as he grunted again and settled back, shaking his foot briskly
trying to get the pins and needles out.

"How do you feel?" I asked and gently moved a stray wisp of hair out of
his face.

Zac sighed and looked at me, "I'm itchy."

"Awww... we can't have that." I said and lay down next to him on the
mattress.

"My knee is itchypoo." He said softly in his pouty voice.

I reached down and gently scratched the knee he was indicating. He showed
his gratitude with a dramatic shiver and a soft kiss on my chin. My hand
slowly went up to the exposed strip of skin between his boxers and the
dark blue tanktop he was wearing. His warm skin rose and fell under my
hand and his breathing was slow and still a little medically subdued.
There wasn't much else I could do for him except lay there and hold him
and I could tell we were both looking at his hands.

"You OK?" I asked and rested my cheek against his shoulder.

"Yeah but... my hands don't work."

It took me a second before I realized and tickled him gently, making him
squirm and giggle softly. The whole situation was tough because there
really wasn't any guidelines or prior experience that either of us could
go on. He didn't know what was going to happen and neither did I. The only
certain thing was that his hands were, at least for the time being,
unusable. I could tell he was nervous... I was nervous too... but this wasn't
about me. My inner-trance when I felt Zac set down one of his bandaged
hands down on mine which was still on his stomach.

"Plop." He said.

"Can you feel anything yet?" I turned my hand over and held his gingerly.

"My fingertips are kinda numb." Zac lifted up his other hand and set it
down on his stomach.

I leaned down and kissed his index fingertip, "Can you feel that?"

He smiled, "Oh yeah."

"Hungry?"

"Fucking starving. I'd eat the ass out of a dead rhinoceros."

For a second, I didn't register it but when I did, my body shuddered and I
gagged softly. He giggled again and kissed the top of my head. The kid was
only a few hours into his handless existence and he was already
functioning romantically without them. I knew that as long as he knew he
could gross me out, he'd be OK. My nose caught the scent of cooking coming
from the kitchen and I could tell Zac smelled it too, and it couldn't have
been helping his appetite. But when I tried to get up, he held onto me and
I knew he wanted me to stay there a little longer... and that was just fine
with me.

*      *      *      *      *

"Where's the other knife?" I asked, poking through the drawers in the
kitchen.

"Second drawer to your right." Mrs. Hanson said as she filled a sipper cup
with juice.

"Yes, ma'am." I said and pulled the small cutting knife out of the drawer
and set it on the plate.

"Reid, you can call me Diana."

I looked up, "Have I earned that honor?"

She laughed, "Yes, you have. You're taking care of my third born."

It took some more searching, but I finally found the salt and gave the
food a light sprinkling. She had been careful to not make anything that
would assault Zac's stomach too heavily. Chicken, carrots, mashed
potatoes, and salad. A nice, easily digestible home cooked dinner. Better
than anything the hospital could have served. I had fixed a plate for Zac
and hadn't even thought of what I was going to eat. I'd just finish off
what Zac left behind, and that was unlikely as anything I'd ever heard in
my life.

"So is this going to help our awkwardness?" I asked, not looking up.

"It already has." She said and looked for a utensil.

"I know you aren't all that thrilled with me."

"No, it's not that," She stopped and looked at me, "I do honestly believe
that you and Zac truly do love each other and that he means what he says
and that you mean what you say. I don't have any problems with you guys
after what I've seen. But I do realize that it's an imperfect world we
live in and that you and Zac face a lot of adversity, now more so than
ever."

"I know that. Believe me, I know that." I put down the salt shaker and
paused.

"I know you do. There's the part of me that sees in you guys what I felt
when I met Walker. And then there's the other part that doesn't want my
son to get hurt. At first, I didn't know what to think of you but I'm
getting a pretty good idea now." She smiled. She was a very pretty woman,
her protectiveness and caring nature was very calming and reassuring.

"All I can do is keep going." It wasn't prose but it got my message
across.

"Better take that up. Zac might be gnawing on the wall by now."

The scary thing was that if I didn't go up there real soon, he probably
would be doing just that. After one last check to make sure everything was
prepared nicely, I grabbed a Dr. Pepper from the fridge and went back up
the stairs. The house wasn't quiet but whatever noise there was, was
respectfully mild and non-obtrusive. The wildness had been confined to the
first floor and once I got up the stairs, it was quiet. Taylor had moved
the chairs and taken the TV back into his room, clearing the hallway and
as I walked down, I noticed the soft creaking of the floorboards, which
made me smile a little.

Once I had backed into the room, Zac looked ready to pounce on me as I sat
down and held the plate over my lap. It was a process we'd both need to
get used to. Zac knew that for the time being, he couldn't have any real
shame about being helped with things. He whined impatiently as I got out
the fork and knife and sliced the chicken into small bite size pieces and
I knew he wouldn't wait for me to slice anything else. The eager look on
his face was adorable.

I gently fed him bites of the chicken, not saying anything and not wanting
him to feel any indignity about what we were doing. He didn't seem to have
any problem with it and for someone expressive like Zac, it would be
pretty easy to tell if he had a problem. Well, the only real problem was
that I couldn't get the food to his mouth fast enough. He seemed ready to
bury his face in the plate but thankfully, I managed to feed him enough.

After making sure he was satisfied, I took a moment to open the Dr. Pepper
and arrange a straw for him to drink out of. As he drank almost half the
can, I took a few bites off the chicken bone. As I ate, I watched him and
he seemed to already be operating quite well. It was like on those talk
shows where they showed the people without any hands and how well they
lived their lives. Zac already looked like he was adapting famously.

"Ready for more?"

"Yup." He settled back down and waited for the fork.

Carefully, I loaded the fork with carrots and when he opened his mouth, I
let him eat it off the fork. It was such an amazing feeling. He needed me
to be doing exactly what I was doing. Even though he was kind of mussed up
and he still looked just a little drugged, he was beautiful and my heart
was full of love for him. Then the love was slowly joined by a feeling of
amazement that he could do this so well. I knew that this was only the
beginning and there was still a lot to come, Zac's positive attitude was
welcome and it gave me quite a bit of confidence.

*      *      *      *      *

It was much later that night. The room was dark but the night had gotten
quite warm and humid, leaving Zac and I covered only by one of his light
blue bedsheets. My T-shirt had begun to cling to my body with sweat before
I'd stripped it off and the same thing had happened with my underwear,
leading to the same result. Zac was used to the Midwest summers and didn't
need to be stripped naked. Even stripped naked, I wasn't sure how I was
going to fall asleep because I was mopping my forehead every half a minute
with either the sheet or Zac's ponytail.

The clock said it was 1:29 in the morning. From the look of the window,
the humidity in the bedroom had to be at least 107% and the temperature
couldn't be much lower. Ahhh... it was OK. Weather isn't something that can
be changed by complaining or kvetching constantly when all you can do is
deal with it. Zac shifted against me and even though I knew that if I
moved him off me, the heat wouldn't be so bad, I didn't move him. Cuddling
with a teddybear like him was worth the added heat it brought. Everytime
my mind conjured up that image, it made me smile and gave me the urge to
kiss him, which I did on the top of his head.

"Brrr..." Zac muttered softly.

"You cold?"

"Oh yeah... let's get another blanket. My balls aren't quite touching my
toes yet."

I laughed quietly and kissed him on his damp forehead. He still had his
sense of humor, which was definitely a good thing. After a second, I
laughed again at the image and kissed him again. He shook slightly as he
laughed too as we both imagined what he'd look like. His hands were laying
across his stomach and in the darkness, I could see the ethereal white of
the gauze. Before bed, we'd removed the first couple layers and more of
his fingers had started poking out. His fingertips were still receptive to
touch and stimulation which was a good sign and we were also encouraged by
the lack of aching or soreness.

Zac's giggles stopped and he wiped his forehead on my cheek, "It's not as
hard as I thought it would be."

"Really?" I said and I was truly interested in the experience he was going
through.

"Yeah... I mean, if my hands just felt dead, then it would be harder. But I
can still feel stuff in my fingers and I can use my arms to grab stuff. I
could have a lot worse going for me, ya know?"

His maturity caused me to falter, "That's true... you can learn to use your
feet as your hands, too."

He shuddered, "No thanks. I'm totally cool with you feeding me and washing
me and brushing my teeth and scratching my butt for me for the rest of my
life."

At that point, he was asking for one of my special "grounding" sessions
where I'd remind him that he was just like everyone else. My better
judgment took over and I knew it would be a while before I could truly
manhandle Zac. For the time being, he needed to be cared for and treated
like soap bubbles. So being a good, calm influence was what I had to be.
Aw hell, I thought and dug my fingers into his stomach, tickling him and
feeling him jerk and yelp against me. Zac arched his back and puffed,
laughing in that unique "being tickled" way.

When I was satisfied that he had learned his lesson, my fingers retracted
and let him settle back into the bed. He was breathing pretty heavy and
giggling softly between breaths. Sweat was glistening on his shoulders and
the exposed area of chest from behind the clean gray tanktop he was
wearing. My eyes traveled up to his mouth as he gasped and smiled, and his
eyes were closed as he recovered. I felt my dick begin to stiffen at the
sight but immediately, I forced it back down.

"Whew," He gasped, "I was waiting for that."

"What do you mean?" I rolled over and draped my arm across him.

"I was waiting for you to tickle me or play with me. I was starting to get
freaked out that you were gonna be all wimpy and fragile with me from now
on." He mopped his brow with his forearm and I cursed the retarded,
misinformed 'better judgment' area of my brain.

After a few seconds of silence, we began laughing again. It was so
comfortable. I think it was at that point that we both truly realized that
this couldn't be really that bad if we had each other. We could draw
strength from one another and knowing that helped a great deal. Zac could
rely on me if he needed me and I knew that if I needed to, there were
plenty of people who could spell me as the caretaker. Neither of us said
anything about the music issue but that was because we were both so
relieved. And we didn't want to spoil the moment. But I knew that Zac was
thinking about it and I knew that it would have to be dealt with. Just not
that night.

It didn't take much longer for us to relax a great deal, regardless of the
heat. The security of being together was more than enough, really. After
the giggling stopped, we kissed for a little while, our hot, sweaty lips
enjoying a life all their own Eventually we both fell asleep. The sound of
his peaceful, calm breathing worked as a natural sleeping aid for me and
as I fell asleep, the last thing on my mind was how lucky I was to have
found someone...

*      *      *      *      *

If I had known that the night before would have been actually pleasant
compared to the next day, I would have gladly accepted it. The sensation
of waking up the next morning and feeling like you're inside a microwave
isn't a nice one. When my body came out of it's slumber and the humid heat
hit me, my body shuddered. The sheet clung to me and my whole body was
damp and sticky with sweat. Zac hadn't woken up yet and his arm was lazily
draped across me, it was only adding to the heat. I shook my head and
wiped my brow with the sheet before looking over at the clock.

It was 11:29am. No one had come in to roust us or bother is all morning
and now it was nearly afternoon. I had never really been comfortable with
sleeping any time between 10am and 10pm, and even an hour and a half was
more than I could comfortable stand. After gently moving Zac's arm and
letting him flop onto his back, his hands laying unstressed at his sides,
my body lurched up and I stood on the mattress, stretching and feeling the
sweat roll down between my shoulders. The room was bright with the
sunlight and I easily found my gray T-shirt and pulled it on, then my
baggy khaki pants. It took some searching to find my sandals but
eventually they turned up and I sauntered slowly out in the hallway.

The house was actually quiet and I guessed it was because it was Saturday.
Hey, either way was fine with me. My feet shuffled down the stairs and
into the kitchen, and I could immediately tell the air conditioning had
been running. Taylor was sitting at the kitchen table and he smiled at my
sweaty, unkemptness. There was always plenty to drink at that house. Was I
ever thankful for that as I filled a glass with water and sat down at the
table.

"What the hell is this?" I griped and tried to fix my stiffened hair.

"It's summer in Oklahoma!" Taylor said gleefully.

"Nobody told me about this."

Taylor laughed and poked my arm, "We wanted to surprise ya, buddy."

"Thanks."

He smiled, "How did you guys sleep?"

"Sweaty and overheated, and we didn't have the usual fun of getting that
way," I gulped some water and wiped my already damp brow, "Where is
everybody?"

"Who cares? They aren't here." He said and took a sip of coffee, I was
surprised at the callousness with which he said it. He seemed to notice
and said, "You grow up with six siblings and you'll cherish the time they
aren't around you."

I could see where he was coming from. The strain of a large family made
you really love the time when they weren't there. You loved them and all,
but sometimes you weren't in the mood. Even though I'd slept more than
usual, the heat was immediately fatiguing my system. I didn't know how
people in Arizona did it and I didn't know how these freaky Oklahomans did
it, either. My back rested against the chair and I let my head fall back
and I looked out into the large backyard behind the house. It was a
beautiful day, regardless of the blistering heat and from inside the cool
confines of the kitchen, I was able to appreciate it.

We sat there quietly, both looking out into the backyard and marveling at
the brightness. Our silence was broken by the thunking that was the
unmistakable sound of Zac coming down the stairs. I looked over quickly,
ready to help him if he needed me. Taylor and I watched as Zac strolled
into the kitchen and sat down at the table, wasting no time in draping his
leg over my lap. I smiled a little with relief that he could still be so
aloofly relaxed. I was also relieved that he wasn't walking around naked
as he had done in the past, but I wouldn't call a tanktop and boxer shorts
exactly covering himself up.

"How do you feel?" I asked and gently moved a few stray strands of hair
off his damp forehead.

He smiled, "Tip toppity."

Taylor smiled and stood up, "I'll let you two hang out. I'll be back
later."

He then walked around the table, snuck up behind Zac, and kissed him on
the cheek. Zac hissed and jerked, acting much more disgusted by it than he
really was. I knew that it was a tolerable way for them to share affection
and for Taylor to show that he was glad Zac was something resembling OK.
Zac wiped his cheek with his forearm as Taylor left the kitchen, leaving
us alone. My hand stroked Zac's warm leg as I looked at him, still amazed
at his handsomeness.

He set his limp hands on the table, "Can we take some of the bandages off?
It feels like wet toilet paper."

I leaned forward and held his right hand gingerly, "How do you fingers
feel?"

"They feel things but I can't feel with them."

"Are they numb or anything?"

"Nope. Just useless." He pouted.

"You're not useless," I sighed and pulled the designated 'bandage removal
scissors' off the countertop.

"I know." He chirped, "I just can't let you start feeling too important."

I shook my head and carefully cut away the first layer of gauze, and I
noticed it didn't make too much of a difference in the big picture. Zac
looked at me impatiently, clearly directing me to accelerate what I was
doing. It was an honor to be doing this, I thought. I had to take care of
him. There was no way that I would do any more damage to his hands and I
took my time, slowly cutting away several thick layers of the bandaging.
The fleshy sound of Zac's bare foot slapping the floor was obviously meant
to hurry me up. The layers kept falling until there only could have been
two or three strips of gauze over his hands.

"Reid, we have more bandages, right?" He asked with an odd urgency.

"Yes... why?"

"Take the rest of it off. I want to see the cuts."

He wasn't going to take no for an answer. His mind was made up and there
really wasn't anything I could do about it. I turned both of his hands
over and peeled off the damp gauze, which had turned brown directly over
the backs of his hands. The gauze came off with a soft, moist noise and
the two gauze pads covering the stitches came up slowly. My nose caught
the slightly sour, damp skin smell that always wafted out after a Band-Aid
or brace was removed.

We both were silent. In one way, it didn't look like I had thought it
would. On the back of each of his hands was a medium sized incision in the
shape of a horizontal "T". Neither one was exceedingly swollen and the
edges of each were dark with a small bit of dried blood. When I glanced up
at Zac, he only had a look of slight curiosity on his face as he turned
his wrists as much as he could. The heat had caused the skin around the
stitches to look slightly flushed, but other than that, his hands weren't
that different.

"Whoa." Zac said softly and let his chin sink down.

"Hey, you're OK. You're young and strapping and healthy," I didn't know
what exactly I was saying, just that I was trying to pick up his spirits,
"You're doing good. This will build character. And you've got your
family..."

Zac looked up when I trailed off and I saw him smile, "I've got you."

"...Babe." I said without any thinking and seconds later, we both realized
and cracked up.

*      *      *      *      *

When Zac had suggested that we go on the computer, I didn't immediately
think of what he wanted to do. He sat on my lap, taking extra pleasure in
grinding his ass into my crotch a few times, before instructing me to log
onto the internet. As soon as he told me to enter the Hanson fans section
of a chat page, I knew what he was going to do. My objections fell on deaf
ears as Zac insisted that we find out what the latest misconceptions were
concerning him. He had made me the one concession that if I typed on the
computer for him, he'd put on a pair of real shorts and I knew that if I
didn't insist, he'd walk around in the same pair of musky boxer shorts
he'd slept in. As if the morning hadn't been gutwrenching enough.

"Screeekkk..." Zac squealed, doing a remarkably earsplitting impression of
the modem hooking up.

"OK OK... we're here. What room do I go into?"

"Ummm... maybe... something with 'Hanson' in the title, you think?"

I quieted his sarcasm with a few gentle pinches to his waist, "All right.
We'll try #HansonRulz."

Zac nodded and bopped his head in a rhythm with the rock music coming out
of the stereo in the family room. The whole family had apparently decided
to vacate the house and let Zac do some adjusting. The lack of screaming
and pitter patter of feet hitting the floor was less abrasive but in an
odd way, I really missed it. Que sera sera...

"OK, what should our name be?" I asked, shifting as much as I could with
the weight of Zac on me.

"Hmmmm..." He made an elaborate chin scratching gesture, "How 'bout
ZaccysButtPirate?"

"No, seriously." I said and I knew it got to him, considering it was one
of his favorite sayings.

"IamZac!"

"OK," I shrugged and typed it in before hitting the 'connect' button.

Seconds later, we were in #HansonRulz with nine other chatters. All with
charming names: Nicki1980, ZacsTwinkyBabe, GreenJellow, Tayzzzgrrrl,
MMMBOP86, Timbergal113, MsTayHanson, TaywifebeaterOMG, SugrtayBear. Sounds
like a group ripe for intellectual conversation, no doubt. Zac laughed at
some of the names while I simply relaxed, realizing that I was a captive
to his demented sense of humor that obviously enjoyed doing this sort of
thing. First, a suitable greeting.

IamZac> Hello.

"Oooh... that'll shake the earth." Zac said but another pinch quieted him
down.

MMMBOP86> ZAC DYED!!!!!!!
MsTayHanson> he dident hes just got some sickness
GreenJellow> Zac had a tihng with his hand that now they dont work
MMMBOP86> ZAC DYED!!!!!!!!!!
Tayzzzgrrrl> u all are sick!!!!! zac is not gay bcuz his gurlfriend is
named christy and lives in tulsa

I gave Zac a look and he shrugged before kissing me, dispelling my
suspicions.

ZacsTwinkyBabe> zac is HERE!!! we r going to the moovies 2night!!!!
TaywifebeaterOMG> TAYLR IS HOTTTTT!!
MsTayHanson> hands off him hes mine!!!! LOL!!!!!
Nicki1980> Zac is 2 gay and evryone saw him with his boyfrnd on there tour
MMMBOP86> ZAC DYED!!!!
Tayzzzgrrrl> ZAC IS NOTT GAY!!!! his girlfriend knows my friend

Zac feigned serious offense, "I think you had better set them straight."

IamZac> What if Zac were gay?
Tayzzzgrrrl> ZAC IS NOT GAY!!!! i know his girlfriend for seriousss
Nicki1980> zac is gay and they told saw on his tour that he was
IamZac> Zac just wants to be happy.
GreenJellow> u know Zac would make me happuy if he gt his hands to work
and then lost some damn weight hehehehheheh...
ZacsTwinkyBabe> oooooooooooh greenjallo you just pissed my zacbabe off and
hes mad
MMMBOP86> ZAC DYED!1!111!111111

"Oh god..." Zac groaned and rested his cheek against my forehead, "They are
so dense."

IamZac> Zac is here with me.
Tayzzzgrrrl> I know his girfriend reaaaaalyyy!!!! her naem is christy ands
shge live in tulsa
Nicki1980> zac isnt therr you loooozer!!! you wish hje was there
MMMBOP86> ZAC DYED!@!!!!!
IamZac> Zac says you are all dense.
MsTayHanson> TAYTAY IS MINE
Nicki1980> if zac were there youd problly be all OMG OMG OMG

"OK, this is lame. Can we do something else?" I asked, going limp and
straightening my legs out.

"Yeah. It's usually easier to screw with them." He sighed and heaved up
off my lap.

It took me a few minutes to successfully log off the computer and as I did
so, I heard Zac collapse onto the large couch
under the window. The chair swiveled around and I looked at him lying
there, he was flushed and perspiring, but still beautiful. The early
afternoon sun was shining through the window and it made his bare skin
glisten, causing me to falter. After not too long, Zac seemed to notice my
far off gaze and he smiled at me.

	"You OK?"

	"Yeah," I snapped out of it and stood up, "I'm fine."

	He smiled again and spread out on the couch, beckoning me over with a
flick of his chin. It felt like I was gliding as I laid down on top of him
and felt his warm bulk press into me. There was just something about him
that was so huggable and kissable. As I nuzzled his collarbone, I could
hear the dark blue fabric of his soccer shorts crinkle as he squirmed. My
tongue flicked across the skin of his neck and relished the salty flavor.
Zac giggled and draped his arms across my shoulders before kissing me on
the cheek and forehead. His lips were warm and moist, like a sloppy chunk
of chewed bubblegum.

	For a while, we laid there with my head resting on his shoulder, both
trying to ignore the oppressive heat. When I lifted my head, a large dark
sweat stain had formed in the gray fabric of his tank top. It was that
gray tank top with the black trim that I had seen in pictures, the one
that had so droolingy accentuated his chest and arms. Little droplets of
sweat were forming on the smooth, golden skin of his chest and shoulders,
shimmering in the sunlight. Even he could make sweatiness seem
unbelievably sexy. Zac had some odd sex appeal that you couldn't deny or
even hope to resist. He was unique and special and beautiful. My heart
fluttered just at the thought of him and the mere notion that I had even
though of leaving made my stomach churn.

	Zac raised his hips up and wrapped his legs around my waist just firm
enough to make me feel held. His arms were still draped over my shoulders
and he smiled, his face looking liquefyingly cute against the faded blue
corduroy couch pillow. He pursed his lips primly for a moment and
squinted, looking a little too overly analytical.

	"You ain't one of them gays, are ya?" He said in a southern accent.

	I laughed and tickled him before leaning in to kiss him again. This time,
the kiss was much different as he pressed his lips to mine and slid his
tongue deep into my mouth. An odd mew-like noise came from deep in my
throat as I jerked and felt him raise his hips up and push our groins
together. Through the fabric, it was still pretty obvious that we were
both quite excited by the kissing. Zac lifted his arms above his head and
continued to kiss me, relying on my hands for all the work. The only noise
in the room was the moist peanut butter sandwichy smacking of our lips as
we kissed and rubbed our hot, sweaty, horny bodies together. It had been
nearly two long, arduous days since we last "boned" and until that moment,
we hadn't really given in to our carnal desires.

	Something about how he had draped his arms upwards and out of the way
turned me on. Zac knew that I had a side that enjoyed being the pacesetter
in our erotic episodes and he only let me have full control on occasion.
They weren't rare exactly but they were spaced out enough so that I fully
appreciated him giving in to his hidden submissive side. Which he was
doing in full here. His body squirmed and shivered under me, and he was
letting out soft moans as we kissed and my hands slid up under the front
of his tank top. The skin of his chest felt warm and slick with sweat and
I felt his chest heave up and down excitedly.

	A thought entered my head and I suddenly tried to pull up, "Mmph... Zac... we
can't... not yet..."

	Zac groaned and pushed his lips back onto mine but against all my self
control, I pulled away again, "Zac, it's too soon. You need more time to
recover."

	He looked at me with such a look of disgust that I couldn't help but
smile. Sweat ran down off my upper lip and into my mouth, startling me
with its salty taste. Sure, I could lick Zac's sweat all day but mine made
me almost jump a foot in the air. My nerves were just on edge. Zac wasn't
too impressed with my sudden abundance of fortitude.

	"Reid... my kootchie works fine." He hissed and began kissing me again,
pulling me close to him with his forearms.

	"Zac," I said and strained against the unanticipated power of his arms,
"Zac... we just need to wait a little while longer. When you're not taking
the painkillers mayb--"

	My words were cut off when Zac applied his lips a third time and I knew
this one wasn't going to be stopped. I tried not to think about the
reasons why we shouldn't be having sex so soon but the hot, sucking of his
lips on my mouth made me forget. Every couple seconds, he would let a gush
of hot breath into my mouth and it would get me hornier every time. It was
probably his goal to do exactly that. Again, he draped his arms above my
head and let me take control again, trusting me not to have any more
annoying bouts with my pesky conscience. After a few kisses, we both
smiled as we made out and I felt his tummy, and we both knew that it
wasn't going to hurt anything to reaffirm our bond.

	Zac arched his back again and directed my hands down to the throbbing
tent in his shorts. I reached down and gave it a firm squeeze, drawing out
a throaty groan and a full body shudder. His breath sped up as I continued
to massage the precious lump and as the kissing and fondling continued,
began to exude more and more of it's musky spirit. An odd groan caught
both our ears and we stopped kissing and looked at each other. The groan
came again and I realized it was Zac's bare heel digging into the worn
fabric of the couch, making us both laugh again. He did it several more
times and soon we were laughing in between kisses. He made me feel so
alive. He was just so much FUN to be with in just about every way
possible.

	"Hello..." A merry voice called from the front hallway.

	Great timing, just great, I thought. Zac went limp under me and he
groaned softly with frustration and I shifted up off of him and into a
sitting position on the couch. He sat up next to me and draped his leg
over mine, and I was used to it. It was how he showed me affection. I
mopped the sweat from my brow and Zac did the same on my shoulder before
flinging his hair back in one majestic, golden wave. My mouth still
lingered with the sweet taste of his tongue as we fixed ourselves up.

	Mrs. Hanson... err, Diana came into the foyer with the two littlest sisters
in tow. As I tried to remember their names, she looked over and saw us,
and we both smiled like good, well behaved boys. She stood silently for a
second and a knowing smile came onto her face as he shifted the bags of
groceries in her arms and she stood there, looking she was tempted to say
"awww" or some other overly sentimental saying. I looked away guiltily and
knew that she knew. And I'm sure she knew that I knew that she knew.

	"Ewww!" One of the girls said, scrunching up her face and tearing off up
the stairs, "They're kissing! They're kissing!" She sang as she ran away
and her voice got fainter.

	"Which one was that?" I whispered to Zac.

	"Avie." He said and laughed, lying back on the couch.

	"Reid... Give me a hand with his, could you?" She said and motioned for me
with her arm.

	"Haw haw," Zac said softly and stuck out his tongue, "You gotta hel-lp."

	Another tickling to his stomach quieted him right down and I walked into
the kitchen, treasuring the first feeling of the air conditioning. Diana...
yeah... had started putting canned good away in the cupboard and when I
walked in, she smiled at me. The more time I spent with her, the more I
felt comfortable around her. I think she was starting to really like me...
or at least doing a good job of faking it. She tossed me a roll of paper
towels and for a second, I didn't know what they were meant for.

	"For your face. You look a little damp." She said.

	"Oh! Yeah..." I mopped my face with a few sheets of it.

	"How are you guys doing?" She asked casually and began putting frozen
foods into the large stainless steel fridge.

	"We're fine. Why?" I said and felt my defenses begin to go up.

	"Zac is my son. Even though you are his nurse, I'm still a bit interested
in how he's doing."

	I calmed a bit and began putting away boxes of lime Jello, "He's doing
all right. It's the first full day of him adjusting but I'd say he's doing
all right. This heat has been kind of making him kind of itchy but that
isn't abnormal."

	Diana had turned her back to me and she was still putting food away in
the freezer, "What did you guys do all morning?"

	"We had breakfast and fooled around on the computer. Nothing too
exciting." I winced immediately at my choice of words.

	She laughed and closed the freezer, "Reid, you're a saint. I knew that
even before now."

	"So this is what God calls saints?!" Zac said in a offended tone as he
ambled into the room.

	We both smiled as I wrapped my arm around Zac's neck and playfully
headlocked him. He cried out in extreme pain and unspeakable agony,
overplaying it and making his mom laugh loudly. Zac had an uncanny ability
to make both his mom and his youngest brother laugh like complete dimwits.
It was like just the sound of his voice sometimes was enough to set them
off. Coming from a family where kids were often belted with "shut the hell
up" in response to nearly everything, it was a nice change to say the
least. The theatrics stopped as Zac went limp against me and looked up,
his eyes were calm and expectant.

	He looked at his mom, "Did you get any more Honey Comb?"

	She opened the freezer door, "You guys go sit out on the patio and I'll
make you some ice cream cones."

With a poetic quickness, Zac was out from under me and out through the
sliding glass doors quicker than I could imagine. The promise of ice cream
was more than enough to light a fire under his ass. For a few seconds, I
shook my head and followed him out the door, laughing at the site of him
trying to get a drink off the sprinkler. Then I watched as he amused
himself with a soccer ball for several minutes, kicking it back and forth
and taunting me. Nothing was wrong with his legs, obviously.

	*      *      *      *      *

	"Hey... hey! At least wait for me to sit down!" I said, laughing almost in
amazement.

I held the ice cream cones away as Zac was already trying to eat them
before I'd even sat down next to him. We had chosen to sit on the wooden
steps that led down from the patio onto the back lawn. It wasn't really
fair to call the national park that was the Hanson backyard a "lawn", but
it was nice anyway. The backyard was huge. It even had a barn for
Christssakes. And it opened up into a forest! A damn forest! And it was
their backyard. The first time I'd seen it had been at sunset the night
we'd gotten back and I had been awestruck. It was that cool.

Once I was comfortably seated, Zac tried to dive for the ice cream, which
was already melting at an alarmingly rapid pace. I held his cone in front
of him and he leaned in, licking it and slurping at it like a puppy. The
sun was beating down almost fiercely and it made me grimace before
starting in on my mocha flavored cone. After a few licks, I looked over at
Zac and nearly burst out laughing. His lips and chin were coated with
melted chocolate ice cream and several light brown trails were dribbling
down his neck and into the creased opening of his tanktop.

"Hey! It's melting!" He said and fidgeted as I held the cone back up,
feeling soupy streams of choclately goodness ooze down over my knuckles.

Both waffle cones began to feel pliable in my hands as I struggled to eat
my own disintegrating ice cream, feeling it fall apart in my hand. All at
once, the cone fell apart in my hand and I was left holding a handful of
half-melted mocha nut swirl ice cream. I shivered and turned my attention
to it, not thinking about the other ice cream cone. I managed to lick off
most of the ice cream but not saving my pants from getting a hearty
soaking in the melted goo. My lips and chin were coated in it and
instantly, I was thankful that I hadn't laughed at Zac when it happened to
him.

"Reid!" Zac exclaimed.

My eyes shot over to Zac and I felt the other waffle cone turn to mush in
my right hand, collapsing and sending the ice cream right down into the
crotch of Zac's shorts. On it's way down, it left a nice creamy line down
the front of his chest and the gray material of his tanktop. Zac had been
caught in mid lick of the ice cream on his chin and he tensed, his eyes
closed and a shocked half smile on his face. I flinched and bit my lip as
his body tensed and he shook slightly.

"Oh fuck," He gasped, "That... is fucking cold."

"Sorry, Zac." I said and tossed the pottage that had once been a cone into
the bushes.

The grimace didn't leave my face as I quickly scooped the ice cream off
his lap and prepared to throw it in the bushes along with the remains of
the cone. Zac jerked and made a panicked whimper as he put his arm on my
shoulder and stopped me, an urgent look in his eyes.

"What are you doing?!"

"I'm throwing it away. It's got crotch on it."

"I want to eat it! That's good ice cream."

Shake your head... sometimes that's all you can do. I sighed and held my
hand out, letting him drink the rest of the ice cream out of my hand. It
was like feeding a bird or an animal at the petting zoo. The look of
unadulterated happiness on his face as he did it was adorable. As the last
of the ice cream was licked up by his long pink tongue, he closed his eyes
and pretended, or maybe not, to be a little too "into" what he was doing.
All too soon, my hand was clean and the almost reptilian tongue was
retracted and we were left hot and sticky sitting in the sun.

Zac looked at me, squinting, "You wanna go inside?"

"Nah... let's sit out here and roast like fried chicken."

It honestly felt like I'd be grilled alive if I didn't get out of the sun.
We both stood up and for the first time, I noticed that we were both messy
beyond all immediate recourse. Zac looked at me and started laughing so
hard he fell down on the ground and had to hold his stomach. As terribly
hurt as I was, I did look pretty funny with the large splotches on my
shirt and pants and from Zac's near breathless pointing, my hair was
actually containing some of it too.

"Yeah, well... it's not like you can laugh." I said and shook my head.

Immediately, his laughter stopped and Zac pretended to have a violent
seizure on the grass. When it became clear that I wasn't all that
entertained, he went limp and shielded his eyes with his forearm and stuck
his tongue out at me. I looked down at him, breathing heavily and soon we
were both laughing again. He rolled to his feet and we casually walked
towards the patio door, and as we walked, I felt Zac slide his hand into
mine. I smiled and held his limp hand gently as he laid his head on my
shoulder and graced me with some lines of his own alien language.

We stepped trepedatiously into the kitchen, on the lookout for any
possible parental anger. We made it inside just in time for Zac to see his
mom walking into the kitchen carrying a basket of laundry. She took one
look at us and began laughing like it was the funniest thing she'd ever
seen. Zac rolled his eyes and tried to wipe some of the glaze from his
chest, and not doing too good a job. I looked over and noticed that the
ends of his hair were clinging together from the ice cream and he looked
just so edible.

"Well," She managed to get out between laughs, "You two need a shower."

"I want a bath!" Zac piped up.

"Oh jeez..." I muttered, "You're supposed to be all bullheaded and wanting
to do things for yourself!"

Zac pouted dramatically, "I just want a bath."

Diana was looking at me with an amused smile and I knew that there was no
way I could get out of it. This wasn't the normal world. Oh no. This was
some weird alternate universe where I didn't stand a chance. I was playing
by their rules now and there would be no debating. Never in my life had I
been so happy to be defeated.

Minutes later, we were in the first floor bathroom. Several times, I had
asked Zac if he wanted a Percocet but he had said that the pain wasn't bad
enough. And he meant it. Once we had arrived in the bathroom, Zac had
stood with his arms sticking straight above his head, looking at me
patiently. It took a beat before I remembered that I was needed to undress
him. Off came his sticky tanktop and as I pulled it up over his head, he
leaned his face in and pecked me on the lips. The remaining taste of the
chocolate ice cream was on his lips and after he pulled back, I leaned in
and kissed him again, enjoying the taste.

He giggled as I ran my hands down his bare torso and stroked his waist. He
laid his arms on my shoulders as I pulled his shorts down and felt the
warm skin of his legs brush the heels of my hands. The small room was
practically misty with our sexual energy and I knew we wanted nothing more
than to get naked and screw. But he needed a bath and it was too soon. Too
soon I told myself. Just the sight of him naked made me turn my head away,
lest I fill my pants with my own semen. After a few brisk head shakes, I
bent over the sink and rubbed some water into my hair, loosening up the
stickiness so I'd have time to wash Zac before I took my own shower.

Suddenly, I felt Zac's warm knee press against my crotch and my body
tensed as he embraced me from behind. His lips tickled my ear lobe and in
the low yellow light of the bathroom, it was almost like a porn. He rubbed
his knee back and forth and squeezed me with his arms, blowing warm air
onto the back of my neck.

"I'm so horny." He said breathily.

I smiled and took a deep breath, feeling his arms squeezing my upper body,
"So am I."

"You want me?" He began to grind his crotch against my ass.

My hands slid around and held his, "Zac, please wait a little longer. For
me?"

His grip relaxed and he laid his head against the back of my shoulder. I
could feel him smile, "OK... but just don't go blaming me when I'm thrashing
around and moaning like a wild animal and my cum is shooting out of me
dick like it's a firehose and my balls are swinging all over--"

"All right! That's enough of that." I untangled myself from him and turned
around, but he stayed on me and kissed my neck and suckled on the
underside of my jaw.

"Zachary," I said in my best warning tone, "It's time for your bath."

Instantly, he looked down and said, "Yes, sir."

I laughed and kissed the top of his head and started the bathwater and
when I bent over, I knew Zac was resisting temptation. The water started
to fill the tub and I adjusted it to a humane temperature and moved out of
the way as Zac carefully lowered himself down into the tub and relaxed
back against the inflatable pillow. As I took my shirt off, my bare skin
shivered at being in the open air and goosebumps stood up on my skin. We
were in the bathroom that was next to the garage and the room was quite
cool and pleasant.

I sat down on the side of the bathtub and squeezed some of the body wash
into a bath flower. Zac smiled and rested one of his feet on the rim of
the tub, letting the water completely cover his lower regions. I soaked
the flower and watched as he flicked the warm water lazily and made it
squirt out of his belly button with a gratifying squishy noise. The sound
of his soft giggle was like a melody in the closed in bathroom and the
sweet smell of the soap was incredibly pleasant.

Zac leaned back as I began to scrub him with the flower, spreading the wet
white suds over his chest and stomach. The water level had begun to rise
as I scrubbed his arms and shoulders, still marveling in how muscled and
built his torso was. Inevitably, it caused something to stiffen up in my
pants and I took a deep, shaking breath trying not to pass out cold. When
the flower brushed over his nipples, Zac made a soft noise of pleasure and
soon, he too was stiff. My eyes were drawn to the meaty erection poking
out of the sudsy water. All I heard was the gurgling of the water as it
gushed out of the faucet.

Don't make eye contact with him, I told myself, if you do, you're going to
do something... My head swam as I reached down and carefully peeled the
bandages off his hands. The white gauze had gotten its share of his ice
cream and once his hands were unwrapped, he lowered them into the warm
water. I could tell that it felt good to soak them and he moved them back
and forth under the water, letting them be cleaned. He looked at me and I
reached down and gently curled his hands into fists.

Dr. Bailey's instructions had told me that in order to properly clean the
stitches, he had to squeeze them taught so the dried blood would come
loose and any pooled blood would be pushed out. I held both his hands
under the water and momentarily, our erections were forgotten, as I
squeezed his hands and he whimpered, expecting it to hurt. As I swathed
them gently with the flower, I looked down and saw the flecks of blood
wash away from the stitches and very little new blood come out. His hands
were as tight as they could be. I released them and he lifted them out of
the water, looking at the sideways T's on the backs of his hands. They
looked pink and clean.

He left his hands drop back into the water and he looked up at me again,
smiling. I wrung the flower out under the water and began to gently scrub
it over his back when he graciously leaned forward. After he had rested
back, I moved down and scrubbed each leg with it. In the cool air of the
bathroom, his legs steamed from the hot water and glistened magnificently.
The flower moved fluidly up and down the muscles in his legs and my
fingers felt the hot skin. It wasn't so much that I was turned on... more
like I was caught up in the beauty of his form. Part of the awe was that
he was letting me take care of him.

When I let his leg sink back into the sudsy water, Zac said dreamily, "Do
you know how much I'm in love right now?"

I blushed, "No. Why don't you tell me?"

"I'm so in love that if you asked me, I'd say that my life is perfect."

I smiled and squeezed some of the tearless shampoo into my hands and
rubbed it into his hair. He closed his eyes and let me wash his hair,
massaging the shampoo into his scalp and cleaning it thoroughly. The ice
cream had come out easily and after being doused with warm, clean water,
it was golden and shiny. Zac spit the water out of his mouth and looked
down at his toes, which were bobbing just above the surface of the water.
I looked at his chest, wet and glossy, the water clinging to the baby fine
fuzz that had started to dust itself over his pecs. My arm wobbled forward
and my hand badly wanted to touch his chest.

Zac looked up and smiled, "Wanna touch me?"

I nodded and felt new sweat roll down my face and onto my shoulders. My
knees fell forward and I knelt by the side of the bathtub, hypnotized at
the sight of Zac's wet body. Not that our other times were shabby or
anything, but there was just something about this time that had me more
excited than ever. The scent of the soap and shampoo tickled my nose and
made my head feel like it was filled with bubbles. Filled with suds. My
hands rested on the edge of the bathtub and again, I saw Zac's hard cock
peeking out and a trail of precum ran down the shaft and into the water
like an oil slick.

It happened again.

"Zac... We can't."

He hissed and kicked the bathtub under the water, and I could feel his
frustration. My forehead pressed against the cold ivory of the bathtub, a
sense of odd shame hitting me like a baseball bat. I heard the water
ripple and felt a wet hand lay across the back of my head. The water
rippled again and I felt Zac rest his forehead against mine. This
shouldn't have been happening. This situation wasn't about my stupid
little hang-ups.

My head came up slowly and I saw that Zac was only an inch away from me,
the heat from his skin hit me. This shouldn't be happening, I kept telling
myself. My eyes closed before Zac kissed me gently between the eyes,
showing me all the non-verbal understanding possible. I felt one of his
arms reach out of the water and he draped it across my back and sent a
gale of warm, soapy water down my back. Zac hugged me and my cheek rested
against his wet shoulder.

I pulled back and we looked into each other's eyes. Zac was sending me a
silent message, urging me to realize that he was OK. His look was so
intent and so penetrating that it reached deep inside me... to my soul. I
felt our lips being pulled together as we kissed again, a soft gentle kiss
before he leaned back.

"Reid, when you make love to me... it's like that's the best thing," He said
softly, rubbing my cheek with his wet forearm, "It's like it's the
greatest thing I've ever done with another person. When you do that and
when you make me feel so loved, it's not like I couldn't ever handle it.
It's just... I love you. I know that making love you can only be good for
me."

Zac shrugged and settled back in the water, "I don't know, whatever. I
guess I just wanted you to know that because I want you to know that I'll
never be too sick or tired or too hurt to love you. I know that it's gonna
be tough but I have you and I want you to make love to me. And I know
it'll be OK... I just want to feel you again... it's been so hard to not have
you."

For once, my brain didn't take forever and a day to register what I'd just
heard. My legs straightened and I stood up, looking down at Zac, who gazed
up at me and a sense realization crept onto his face. He smiled and leaned
on the edge of the bathtub, pushing himself into a kneeling position. I
felt his wet face nuzzle the front of my pants and kiss the growing bulge
contained inside. My hands rested on top of his wet head, running down and
feeling the firm muscle of his shoulders. I jumped with surprise when I
felt him pull my zipper down with his teeth, and then I nearly came when I
felt his tongue peek inside and flick over my hard shaft.

The only thing I could be compared to was jello. After pulling down and
off my pants and underwear, I stepped back over in front of the tub and
let Zac continue. His lips kissed their way up my legs, making a trail of
warm saliva as he dragged the tip of his tongue over my skin. I was in
heaven as I felt him slowly engulf my blazing cock with his mouth. He
hungrily sucked and drew his tongue up and down, running it under the
bottom of the head and licking up into the slit, sending jolts of pure
pleasure straight to my nervous system.

It had been soooo long and there had been soooo much stress. The hunger
that we'd felt so much all day long was nearly consuming me, swallowing me
whole and sending me careening towards ecstasy. A groan came out of my
mouth and I gently pushed Zac backwards, knowing that if he kept going, I
would cum too soon. Zac smiled and blew me a kiss, and somehow I knew to
lower myself down. My breath started to speed up and I lowered myself into
the bathtub on top of him, feeling the hot soapy water cover us both. Our
wet bodies pressed together under the water and Zac began kissing me
passionately.

The sensation of the water closing around me sent chills down my spine.
The only thing on my mind really was that we couldn't make too big of a
mess on the floor... I really wasn't worrying that much about it. My feet
slid against the bottom of the bathtub and I struggled to get something
not entirely unlike concrete footing. Zac was arching his back and forcing
his wet body against me, all the while kissing me with an almost animal
intensity. Under the water, my hands found his hips and slid up his body
onto his chest, where I squeezed the muscles and felt him shake. He jerked
and splashed under me, sending several floods of bathwater onto the floor.

Suddenly, he began to writhe under me, making me worry that something had
gone wrong. My worrying only lasted for a second, as I immediately knew
what he wanted. I pushed myself up and let him roll over onto his stomach
and he thrusted his ass up out of the water. Sitting back on my knees, I
looked down at him and nearly came at the sight. His ass was just barely
sticking out of the sudsy water and the only other part of him that was
visible was the back of his head. Holding himself up on his forearms, very
resourceful I thought.

Zac groaned and urged himself back, making waves in the water, and nearly
spellbinding me with his water soaked mating dance. My hands slid up out
of the water and slowly spread his asscheeks apart, revealing his tight
pink hole squirming and winking at me. A few handfuls of the water seemed
to send a new shiver through him as the water coated and trailed down his
crack. I looked up and saw his face buried in the bath pillow and I could
hear a soft, steady pleasured whimpering. Crawling forward on my knees
through the water, I leaned down and pulled him up onto all fours,
bringing his back above the surface. I heard him moan as I kissed the
small of his back and down towards his tailbone, nibbling it gently. Being
nibbled drove him crazy with lust.

The water continued to churn as my kisses traveled lower, tickling the
tight crease of his buttocks. My chin brushed the water as I pulled his
cheeks apart and just barely dragged the tip of my tongue up his crevice.
When the tip brushed the tight muscle of his rosebud, I could feel his
body jerk and I heard him yelp into the pillow. My only goal was to bring
him as much pleasure as humanly possible. Gradually, my licking became
harder and firmer as I brought my tongue up and down in long licks over
his hole, sending rippling spasms of pleasure through hid body. The only
thing I could taste was the soap and a slight hint of his sweat, and I
could tell he enjoyed it immeasurably.

>From the sound of Zac's moaning, he was getting close to the edge but I
didn't want him to go over it too soon. In the yellow light of the room,
his hole looked like a pink starfish, contracting and flexing. Knowing
that my actions were causing it only turned me on more. I took a deep
breath and stabbed my tongue directly at it, only feeling a moment of
resistance before it opened up and allowed me to slide in easily. Having a
long, nose length tongue did me good as I was able to penetrate him
deeply, nearly brushing the hard chunk of his prostate with it. It slid in
and out easily, preparing him for my finger, which thanks to the soap,
water, and saliva, went in with nearly no pressure. Zac jerked and cried
out, biting the pillow so hard I was worried he'd pop it, before I added a
second finger and slid them in and out easily.

There wasn't any way I could wait much longer. I licked my lips and crept
up, holding his cheeks apart as I mounted him from behind. From the shiver
that ran through him, I could tell that he was ready. Our bodies cemented
together and my dick slid against his hole with a breathtaking ease. My
arms wrapped around his waist and I felt him press back against me, not
making any noise except for his heavy breathing. The room had filled with
steam and the condensation clung to the walls and the mirrors, and it
filled my lungs with every breath I took.

Sweat rolled down my face as I slowly eased myself forward, pressing my
aching cockhead against the gummy ring of his hot gulf. His breath caught
and he began to push himself back, the tight ring expanding and sucking me
in willingly. From that point on, once I was inside, he was mine. The
sensation of him pulling me in and submitting made my deeply hidden lust
begin to take over and my thrust sped up. Quickly, my dick slid inside
him, filling him with every inch and as it got deeper and deeper inside, a
rising gasp caught in his throat. His warm, tender insides massaged my
cock exquisitely, holding it when my thrust stopped and sliding it along
when they started again.

Every few seconds, Zac would cry out and his ass would squeeze my cock as
my hands found their way to the underwater bounty of his excited genitals.
My right hand slid up and down on his cock as my left hand fondled his
balls lovingly. The liquid encasement helped my hand travel at a much
smoother pace and I felt him throb and get even harder in my hand. More
and more of the water slopped out onto the floor, but neither of us cared
much. My cockhead probed him, passing over his prostate on each thrust and
drawing another excited cry from Zac.

Slowly licking and nibbling his shoulder blades sent him even further into
his hazy sexual frenzy as I continued to slide myself in out in deep, slow
plunges. Mixing up my stroking, I squeezed and massaged the base of his
cock with one hand while I pinched and tugged at his foreskin with the
other, rubbing it and sliding it easily over his throbbing cockhead. My
actions were clearly taking him to new heights as his almost panicked
moans reached a new intensity. My stabs deep into him began to speed up as
the wonderful intense feelings began to take control of me as well.
Splashing sounds came as the water hit the floor, sending it over us both
as I rode Zac, speeding up until I was deep dicking at a pace we'd only
reached on rare occasions.

With one last blissed out holler, Zac's cock jumped in my hand and his ass
cinched around my cock and held it captive. He emptied his balls under the
water, and even as my own cum filled him, my eyes looked down and I smiled
at the sight of the white clumps of his jizz as they bopped up above the
surface. To my surprise, as soon as the first orgasm subsided and my cum
flowed back out in a hot gush, another much more powerful climax hit me. I
cried out and my eyes clenched shut and I buried myself deep inside Zac,
and he let out a startled but excited groan. My arms constricted around
around his waist and I shuddered violently, amazed and a little frightened
at the sheer power of it. Several more thick globs of my cum rocketed into
him. It felt as if I was falling with only Zac there to break my fall.

The sensation was so pleasurable that I could barely move. My body was
held taught and my muscles strained as the incredible sensation of
pleasure jolted down my body and out my toes. Zac braced his body back
against me and held my cock safely inside him as the tension began to
dissipate. All at once, my body relaxed and the dead weight sent Zac
forward back into the water. A large splash went up over the bathtub wall
again, making an even bigger mess than before. My chest heaved and I
shifted to a position where instead of lying on top of Zac, I was laying
beside him. Don't want to drown the poor boy.

After we had both caught or breath, he said softly, "How was that?"

I could only murmur. Like Lurch from The Addams Family.

Zac giggled and rolled over to face me, both our heads resting on the wet
bath pillow. He leaned in and kissed me again, a much sweeter kiss that
was meant for nothing more than to show love. I returned it and ran my
fingers through his spongy hair, and the scent of his shampoo caught my
nose. Zac was gazing at me, his eyes only half open and his cheeks
flushed, a few strands of wet hair hanging down in his face. I reached
over and moved them away, and he babykissed my hand a few times. We just
laid there peacefully... relaxing in the water made hot again by our bodies.

	The water rippled as I elevated his left hand out of the water, letting
the fluid drain off of it and watching as it steamed in the open air. I
took in the sight of it, the scenic quality of his long fingers and the
soft tanned skin. His smooth knuckles and slightly lighter color of his
palm and the light pink of his fingernails. My eyes inevitably wandered to
the stitches, pink and as sterile as they could be, and I slowly brought
my lips down and kissed it. I gently held the back of Zac's hand against
my cheek and looked into his eyes before leaning in to kiss him.

	After the kiss, we laid there quietly, letting our feet lazily mingle
together under the lathered up water. Several times I realized that we
were just lying there in a mix of our own B.O., cum, blood, and sweat. But
it was cool. Just being with Zac made it fun. Never before in my life had
I ever enjoyed taking a bath so much, and never had I known getting clean
to be so purely enjoyable.

	Zac pursed his lips, "So... who's gonna clean up the mess?"

	"I guess Reid gets to." I said and pushed myself up out of the water.

	"You're so good at it." Zac said and slapped me playfully on the ass.

	*      *      *      *      *

	By that night, the backs of my legs were aching dully from the flexing
and tensing they did under the surface of the hot water. But it was a good
burn. A very worthwhile and mind-blowing experience from which it had been
taken from and I wasn't about to complain. The intense temperature had
cooled to a comparatively pleasant level of 87 degrees at about 9pm, it
was a welcome change. The rest of the day after the draining session in
the bathtub had consisted of Zac and I lying on his bed covered only by a
towel as we napped for several hours. We woke up around four in the
afternoon and watched The Matrix on DVD before the house filled up again
and dinner was had. There was only a moment of silence when I started
feeding Zac but it went away pretty quick.

	The sweat began to form along my hairline as I laid on Zac's bed, staring
out the window at the sunset colored sky. The room was dark and shadowy in
the dusk growing outside the window. Zac had curled up next to me and was
idly amusing himself by seeing how close he could get his big toe to the
wall at the foot of the bed. After a few tries, he relaxed and sat up,
draping his legs across my stomach. I could tell right away that he was
restless.

	"Let's do something!" He said and set his hands, complete with fresh
bandages, down on my stomach.

	"Like what?" I murmured and folded my arms behind my head, not possessing
the energy to do anything too ambitions, "You wore me out in the bathtub.
Remember?"

	Zac smiled and blushed a little, and I knew he remembered full well. At
that moment, I took a little time to reflect on how the day had gone. It
was his first day without the use of his hands and from all possible
criteria, he was doing extraordinarily well. I was worried that it hadn't
sunk in yet. Zac didn't move and using the muscles in his arms, flattened
his hands out against his knees and looked at them, curling his lips
analytically. Something just didn't seem right, however. I sat up and
moved over next to him, draping my arm around his shoulders and hugging
him a little.

	"You OK?" I asked and instantly, I knew something was wrong.

	Zac looked down and closed his eyes, "Yeah, I'm fine."

	"You sure?" I asked, the unusual meekness in his voice not selling me.

	He looked up and smiled, "I'm awesome. Let's go watch another movie."

	Zac tried to get up but I stopped him, "Zac, you don't need to pretend or
anything."

	"I'm not pretending!" He smiled and laughed, but it was hollow, "Let's
just go do something! I mean, it's cool, right?"

	I held him and tried to get him to look me in the eye, "Zac, stop."

	"What do you mean? I'm fine!" He laughed again and smiled, "Want me to
sing you song?"

	"No. I want you to talk to me."

	"I don't want to talk... I want to go... see some cows!" He laughed and tried
to get up, but I held him.

	"Zac," I said and he squirmed harder, "Zac, calm down."

	"I'm fine," He said softly but there wasn't any fake smiling, "I'm fine,
Reid. You don't have to take care of me..."

	I watched his lip shake and I could see that his eyes were starting to
tear up, "Zac, you don't have to entertain me. If you're scared or if
you're frustrated, you can tell me..."

	Immediately, his arms were around me and his face was buried in my neck.
The sound of his loud crying filled the room and I held him, trying to
soothe him but at the same time knowing that he needed to do this. I
stroked his back gently and rocked him back and forth, assuring him that I
wouldn't go anywhere. His body was shaking with the sobs. They were
shaking every inch of him and I wished I could do more than just hold him
as I felt his hot tears on my neck. Wow, I guess Zac does cry after all.

	After the crying had stopped, he wiped his eyes on the bedsheet. I
stroked his hair gently and kissed him on the cheek, patting his back
softly. He sniffled but his head laid on my shoulder, and I could feel his
breath on my neck. Taking great care, I laid him back on the bed and
stretched out next to him, petting his hair and kissing him lightly on the
cheek and forehead. He seemed to calm down quite a bit and I hoped that my
presence had given him just a bit of security.

	"I'm sorry." He said, his face looking angelic in the moonlight that
shone through the window.

	I kissed him again on the side of his nose, "You don't have anything to
be sorry for."

	"I'm scared... Really scared." He said softly, this was probably the most
vulnerable he'd ever been.

	"I know you are," I hugged him firmly but gently, "I know you're scared."

	"I feel like I let so many people down." His chest shook as he inhaled.

	I rested my forehead against his cheek, "You didn't let anybody down.
This is just something that happened. There was no way anyone could have
known or predicted or warned you about."

	Maybe it wasn't true but I was just trying to make him feel better.

	"I know... but it's just... I'm useless."

	I rolled on top of him and looked him dead in the eye, "Never say that,
Zac. Don't you ever call yourself useless. You are not and you never will
be."

	He was a little surprised by my seriousness, "OK..."

	"Do you need me to explain to you why not?"

	He fidgeted slightly and didn't say anything.

	"Zac, you're everything I have. Without you, I would either be dead or in
jail right now and that's the honest to God truth. I don't need you to
entertain me or do anything to keep me here. You don't need to repay me or
make my time that I spent helping you worthwhile. I'm not going anywhere
because you need me. And I need you. Lots of people need you. So don't
call yourself worthless."

	Zac closed his eyes and took a deep breath, "I love you."

	I smiled and kissed him gently.

	"I love you too."

	We kissed again. And I could tell he was reassured.

	*      *      *      *      *

	The next morning was something akin to deja vu. The heat was absolutely
unrelenting as I woke up and rubbed my eyes, blinking them rapidly and
regaining my site. Zac was out cold next to me, the side of his face
looking cute smushed against the pillow as he slept, breathing softly and
peacefully. Leaning up on my elbows, I looked over at the clock. It was
7am. Holy shit... Zac had told me that the last time he had gotten up that
early had been the day their bedroom had gotten infested with ants.

	I laid back down and stroked his hair gently, admiring the golden color
of his ponytail and I picked it up and let it fall limply. I got a
juvenile thrill from playing with his hair, what could I say? The room was
already on it's way to being incredibly humid and I sat up, pulling one a
white v-neck T-shirt and kneeling up-right in the bed, yawning. My skin
already felt greasy with sweat and the first thing that came to mind was
that maybe another bath was needed. I smiled and felt a shiver.

	As I retrieved my pants, my foot brushed the "on" button of the clock
radio. Thankfully, the volume was down fairly low but I still heard every
word of the message.

... As if life couldn't get worse for Hanson, after the bomb that was their
latest album, it's now been confirmed that the youngest member of the
group, Zac, he's the one with the shaggy always dirty hair, according to
Access Hollywood who has PICTURES... this kid is not only GAY but he's also
just undergone an operation that has left him without those, snicker
snicker, ever so talented hands! In the humble opinion of this radio DJ,
who gives a pork?! I guess Hanson can kiss goodbye that bright future they
once had! Ah heh heh... here's that request, from their pentuple platinum
album entitled "Heaven Is Just For You And Me" just released... The
Backstreet Boys with "Girl, You Ain't Got My Heart No More So You Best
Stop Tryin', G!"

A familiar sour sensation rose in my stomach as I hurriedly turned the
radio off and sagged back against the wall. Sweat ran down my forehead and
onto my neck and the realization had hit me. Not only was Zac left without
his musical career, he had been outed. Someone had found out. Just the
thought of those bastards snickering over what had happened to Zac made me
angry as hell. I looked over at him sleeping, his face undisturbed and
resting, and suddenly, I felt a tremendous shame. If I hadn't tried to
break into their tour bus, this wouldn't have happened. If I had lived a
cleaner life, God wouldn't have stricken down the one person closest to
me.

This whole thing was my fault... I had ruined everything... And it couldn't be
fixed.