Date: Tue, 11 May 1999 22:50:31 EDT
From: LouisdPdL@aol.com
Subject: Angel & Demon,... A Love Story Chapter 11

DISCLAIMER:
This is an original work of fiction, all characters
created by the author. This work had not been beta'd so
any mistakes are purely my fault.

WARNING: NC-17 m/m
This story has been rated NC-17 due to adult content
and consensual m/m sexual situations. If you are not of
legal age, or if you find such material offensive,
please do not read any further.

RESPONSE:
Comments and critiques welcome by Scorpio
(LouisdPdL@aol.com) I would like to take the
opportunity to apologize for the length of time it took
me to get this chapter posted.


ANGEL & DEMON. A LOVE STORY
by Scorpio

Chapter 11
CONFESSIONS

Joey silently stood near the edge of the shallow creek
watching the sun prepare to set behind a grove of
trees. He truly loved to watch this most common of
miracles play out before his amazed eyes. The sky was
currently a brilliant shade of blue turquoise and the
angle of the sun painted the bottom of the clouds
electric tangerine, while the tops were etched a cool
mysterious lavender. It was overwhelmingly beautiful
and it touched something deep inside of him.

The soft sound of a beer can tab being slowly pulled
back broke Joey from his silent contemplation of the
deepening sky.


"Here."

Without turning his face away from the awe inspiring
view, Joey reached out and took the offered beer from
Billy. He raised it to his lips and swallowed almost
half of the golden liquid.

Joey didn't need to see Billy's face to know the blonde
wad giving him an odd, questioning look. He could feel
Billys stare from here. Without any real curiosity,
Joey noted that they had both been out-of-sorts ever
since they had left Delta Kappa House. Joey had spent
the afternoon drinking beer like a man possessed,
actually keeping pace with Billy (a first for anyone as
far as Joey knew). Billy had been obvious in his desire
to say something important to Joey, and just as obvious
in his inability to figure out how to say it. While
Joey was well aware of both of these facts, he felt it
better not to examine the underlying cause too closely.
His whole attitude was one of avoidance. However, he
also knew that as soon as Billy was drunk enough, or
rather, as soon as Billy figured *he* was drunk enough,
the blonde would push the issue. Joey felt himself
caught between icy dread of what he knew was to come
and an odd, almost desperate desire to get it over
with.

Joey finished his beer and quietly watched the sky turn
cobalt and the clouds deepen to blood red. The shadows
lengthened and gathered substance everywhere around the
park. Joey could feel, more than hear, Billy walk up
close beside him. His friend placed a large hand
against his shoulder and squeezed. The heat of Billys
hand soaked through his T-shirt and sent pleasant
vibrations through him. Joey was suddenly caught
between two conflicting urges. He felt as if he should
pull away from Billy and the small comfort he offered
and yet, at the same time he wanted to lean into him,
pulling even more gentle affection from his friend. So,
locked in indecision, he did nothing.

Joey went to take another drink from his beer, only to
find the can empty. With a deep sigh, the big red-head
crushed the can into a crumpled pile of aluminum.
Flinging it backward over his head in the general
direction of the almost empty case, Joey sighed again.

"Want to talk about it?" Billys voice was soft and
gentle.

Joey felt his stomach knot up in sudden anxiety. He
knew what was coming, he knew it would be hard to face,
but he also knew he had no choice. Not because of
Billy, but because of himself. Even still, he
instinctively delayed by playing dumb.

"Talk about what?" he asked just as quietly.

"You ... and Angel." Billy barely whispered.

Joey swallowed hard. A hundred thoughts rushed through
his mind at once, confusing him, making him feel lost
within himself. After a long pause, he sighed again,
sadly, almost wistfully.

"We're best friends. Have been for years. You know
that." As the words left his mouth, they sounded
forced, even to himself.

Billy shifted his weight a little, his feet rustling
the grass. It was startlingly loud in the quiet of the
early evening. The blonde squeezed his shoulder again,
sending another wave of warm comfort through his tense
body.

"Yeah. I do know that, but,." he turned his head to
look directly at Joey, "it's different now. Your
different,." he paused for a second, "ever since you
found out Angel was gay."

Joey stiffened as a wave of defensiveness crept over
him. "I don't know what you're talking about. I'm the
same as always." He said in a tense voice.

"It's nothing real obvious." Billy went on as softly as
before. "It's nothing you've said or done. It's more,.
well, it's more the way you look at him when no one is
watching. The way your eyes get when you hear his
name."

Joeys mind went numb as his emotions churned, his
thoughts raced and hundreds of fleeting images of Angel
flashed before his eyes. He began to tremble slightly.

"You always get this sad, sort of hurt look in your
eyes." Billy went on quietly. "almost as if your heart
was breaking."

Joey let out a small gasp. He had a sudden urge for
more alcohol, but deep down he knew he could not drink
this away, no matter how hard he tried.

"You say that you're cool with Angel being gay, but it
bothers you, doesn't it? That's why you've been odd
lately. You're still hurt by it, huh?"

Startlement and confusion splashed onto his mind like a
bucket of cold water, forcing him to react instead of
think.

With a snort of derision, he said, "No, that's not it
at all Dude! You're way off."

"Then what?"

Billy total misunderstanding of the situation combined
with all the beer and several days of confused
frustration, not to mention years of fear and self
doubt caused defensive anger to well up in him. That
sudden flash of hot anger bolstered his courage and
opened the floodgates within him. The release was
amazing. With a hard shrug of his shoulder to dislodge
Billys hand, Joey turned on his friend.

"You don't get it do you? I don't hate Angel for being
gay anymore than I hate you for being straight."

Billys shocked expression only fueled the fire in him.

"Your straight. Angel is gay. And I'm a fucking freak,
trapped somewhere in between." Joey took a step
forward, roughly poking Billy with a finger in his
chest, causing the big blonde to back up a step.

"For years I've been able to bury that inside me.
Ignoring it when I could, keeping it private when I
couldn't." Joey hissed through clenched teeth.

"I've never met any guy that ever felt *that* way
before, and then Angel come out of the closet, and
WHAM! Everything I've carefully forced aside is
suddenly thrown in my face and it's *still*
untouchable!"

Joey poked Billy in the chest, forcing him another step
back. "I'm catching myself fantasizing about him,
okay?!?! I don't know if it's because he's my best
friend and I really do care about him, or if it's
because I *know* he's gay. But either way, it's fucking
with my head and ruining my relationship with Karen!"

Joey shoved Billy hard, pushing him back against the
rough bark of a pale birch tree. "Do you have any idea
what it's like to be stuck between two worlds and not
be a part of either?!?!" Joey screamed in total
frustration.

With quiet dignity, Billy slowly reached out one hand
and placed it softly on Joeys cheek and brushed away a
single teardrop.

"Yes. I do Joey." Billy whispered.

Gently, but firmly, Billy grasped the back of Joeys
head to hold him steady as he leaned forward and placed
a soft, tentative kiss on the lips of the distraught
red-head. Joeys anger dissolved in an instant, only to
be replaced with total shock.

"Wha??."

"I'm bi too Joey." Billy said softly. "I told you that
before."

Confusion washed over Joey. He was totally clueless, he
couldn't ever remember hearing Billy say he was bi-
sexual. "I don't."

Billy slid his had to Joeys shoulder again as he spoke,
"The first time Demon spent the night with Angel. You
were in my room freaking out and I was telling you
about my sister being gay."

Joey nodded, his memory beginning to stir. He had been
*very* drunk that night and an emotional wreck to boot.
Many of the details were lost to him.

"I told you that she became friends with a group of
people who were involved in gay and lesbian student
rights at the local community college." When Joey
nodded again, Billy continued. "I also told you that I
had fooled around with some of the guys in the
organization."

A light went on in Joeys head. He remembered Billy
saying that, but he had been so caught up in what was
happening in his own head, not to mention what was
happening in Angels bed, that if hadn't registered. The
real meaning of what Billy had told him had slipped
past him and became lost in a haze of alcohol fumes and
a ton of confused emotions. He suddenly felt like an
idiot.

"Oh, I didn't realize. I,. I guess you do know what I'm
going through, huh?" he said sheepishly.

Billy grinned, "Yeah, I do."

Joeys head was spinning and not only from the beer. He
had not only told his deep dark secret, but had found a
kindred soul as well. He was not merely accepted, but
understood. He didn't know if he should laugh, cry, or
simply pass out. He was overwhelmed.

Suddenly, Billy leaned in and kissed him again. It was
soft, gentle and unexpected. Joey tensed in shock for a
few heartbeats, then he let go of his fear and self-
doubt and kissed Billy back.

It was sensual, electrifying, and exciting. Joey gave
into his desire slowly at first, then gradually with
more and more passion as years of repressed feelings
and urges flowed to the surface.

Billy opened his mouth, inviting Joey in, and he
plunged his tongue into the hot wet cavern. Tasting,
exploring, experiencing. It was wild and new.

Joey had kissed his girlfriend in highschool, his
girlfriend from last year, not to mention his current
girlfriend Karen, many times, but kissing Billy was
different. No doubt Billy was great at it, that wasn't
it. It was every bit as good as kissing Karen, just
very different. Karen was soft, petite, and very
feminine. Her sensuality was fluid and velvety. Billy
was big, strong, and aggressive. He was sending out
masculine vibes full of controlled power and raw lust.
It was an amazing turn-on for Joey and his stiffening
cock began straining against his jeans.

Joeys passion soared and all thoughts evaporated from
his mind. His desire took control and he ran his large
hands all over Billys body. The feel of strong muscle
over large bones was silent proof of the strength and
power in the young man leaning against the tree. Billys
thick arms lead to his broad shoulders. Solid pecs
flowed into his flat stomach and his narrow waist lead
to even more exciting treasures below. Joey reached
around Billy to grab his firm ass, pulling the blonde
in tight. Their bodies came firmly together, and they
both grinded into the other. Billy broke off the kiss
and moaned.

Joey felt Billys arms around his neck shift as Billy
grabbed a handful of Joeys shirt. Using his fingers,
Billy pulled the material of Joeys shirt up his back
inch by inch, until he could grab the edge and slide it
up and forward over his head. Joey reluctantly let go
of the wonderful double handful of firm ass as Billy
gave a sharp tug, pulling the shirt down and off his
arms. Quickly, Billy peeled off his own shirt,
revealing his beautiful chest in the last of the golden
sunlight.

            *          *         *

Billy watched the lust build inside of Joey until his
eyes burned with desire. A shiver raced down his spine
as Joey reached out and slowly ran his fingertips in a
gentle path down his chest and over the soft blonde
treasure trail. Almost tenderly, the big red-head slid
his thick fingers down between the rough denim of
Billys jeans and the taunt hot skin of his abs. Billy
pulled the muscles of his stomach in tight, making as
much room for Joeys exploration as possible. When Joeys
warm hand brushed against his hard cock, Billy moaned
low in his throat, and pressed against his friend.

Billy felt a huge smile grow on his face, and for a
crazy second, he hoped it didn't look to much like a
smirk. He had been hot for his red-headed friend since
Joey had rushed Delta Kappa, but he never thought he
would actually get to carry out his fantasies. And now
Joey had his hand down the front of Billys jeans,
caressing the length of his stiff shaft. Billy could
feel his cock begin to leak pre-cum.

Hands shaking with excitement and an almost desperate
need, Billy reached out and fumbled the top button of
Joeys shorts open. He pulled his friends zipper down
and quickly reached for the throbbing cotton covered
cock. Joey moaned and Billy found the quiet noise to be
incredibly sexy.

Wanting better access to Joeys manhood, Billy shifted
his jean shorts so that they slid down his strong
supple legs. He then lowered the cotton boxer-briefs
down to the red-heads mid-thigh. Joeys rock hard 7" cut
cock and low hanging balls were free at last. Soft red
hairs grew in a patch above the base of his dick and
the swollen cockhead glistened with pre-cum.

Billy swiftly ran the tip of one finger across the
weeping piss-slit, gathering up some of Joeys pre-cum.
Slowly, deliberately making sure Joey saw, Billy pulled
his finger up and placed it in his mouth.

"Mmmmm." Billy moaned with pleasure at the wonderful
sweet taste.

In the quickly fading light, Billy could see Joey smile
broadly, then the red-headed stud pulled his hand out
of Billys jeans, only to fight with his buttons. With a
soft chuckle, Billy reached down and helped. In a
moment, Billys jeans were around his knees and his hard
as steel cock was in the tight grip of Joeys strong
hands.

Joey pulled his hand toward Billys swollen cockhead
slowly, and Billy could feel all of his 9" slide
through his friends fist. A deep shudder ran down his
spine and more pre-cum oozed out, smearing Joeys hand.

Billy reached out to Joey with both of his hands. One
grabbed onto Joeys stiff shaft, the other to the back
of Joeys neck. Pulling the handsome stud into a deep,
wet, tongue thrashing kiss, Billy began to jerk Joeys
cock with slow tender movements. He loved the feel of
Joeys beautiful dick in his hand. The heat was amazing
and the skin was smooth and soft. Pre-cum flowed out of
the piss-slit and Billy ran his thumb across it with
every pass.

They kissed with passion and lust. Tongues wrestling in
hot wet mouths, each seeking dominance, both receiving
pleasure. When Joey started to lightly nibble on his
bottom lip, Billys knees almost buckled from the waves
of erotic tingles.

Joeys grip on Billys throbbing dick was tight and lubed
with pre-cum. Joeys other hand was gently fondling
Billys ballsack, rolling the orbs within. Billys ass
checks flexed as he began to fuck Joeys hand. Riding a
delicious wave of lust, he rocked and thrust his hips,
pistoning his cock in and out of Joeys fist. And as his
excitement built, he jerked Joey harder and faster.
Soon, both of the young men were moaning and breathing
heavy.

Billy ran his left hand from it's perch on Joeys neck,
around his shoulder to his chest. His fingers found the
studs left nipple on their path downward, and stopped
long enough to lightly squeeze it. Joey let out with
his sexy moan once again. Billys hand once again
traveled downwards, softly caressing the silky skin
that covered the solid muscle of Joeys flat stomach.
Billy felt as if he could touch Joey forever and still
not get enough.

Billys gentle fingertips ruffling the hairs of his
treasure trail must have excited Joey, because he began
to pull on Billys cock even faster. Not being able to
resist any longer, Billy brought tha hand on Joeys abs
down to his big beautiful balls. Gently fondling those
wonderful orbs, Billy tightened his other fist around
Joeys cock even more.

Moaning loudly, Billy felt his cum begin to rise.
Concentrating hard, Billy was barely able to hold back.
Electricity ran up and down his spine, sweat beaded up
on his forehead, and his whole body began to twitch.
Suddenly, Joey began to moan loudly, and Billy felt the
red-heads balls pull in tight, even as he felt the cock
in his hand jump and pulse.

"Aaarrghhh!!!" Joey cried out loudly, squeezing his
eyes shut.

Billy could feel Joeys hot cum splatter against his own
chest and abs. The second blast coated his blonde curly
bush and his dick. That was all it took to push
Billy over the edge. His mind went white and his
orgasim rolled through his body and out the tip of his
straining cock. He jetted his seed onto the red hair
lightly dusting Joeys flat stomach by the base of his
shooting cock. With a skill that left him breathless,
Joey gently milked his twitching shaft, pulling the cum
out of Billy. Shivers flashed throughout his body as
the last of his ball juice ran out over Joeys thick
fingers.

"Ohhhh gawwd! Joey." Billy breathed even as he leaned
in to kiss the handsome red-head with gentle passion.