Date: Sat, 9 May 2015 21:51:58 +0100
From: Sam Bam <mansambambam@gmail.com>
Subject: Angsty Alexander chapter 12

Angsty Alexander part 12


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Peter

I call Alexander before dropping the guys back at their dorm, he agrees to
get our stuff together so we can go to the house for the rest of the
weekend. He comes down quickly with a bag for each of us.

I kiss him in the car.

"You look fucking sexy, all bedraggled." Alexander says with a grin.

"Thanks, you're always fucking hot." I reply.

At the house the contractors are still there, I head upstairs with our
stuff while Alexander talks to them.

I drop our bags and collapse onto the inflatable bed, I'm soon sleeping.

Alexander wakes me gently kissing my forehead.

"Lets order some food and get on with our paper. If you're not too sleepy."
Alexander says.

"Great idea. Did you eat breakfast?" I ask.

"No, I was super full from last night. Honest." Alexander replies.

"Did the food make you sick? Mamma Cat was worried it would be too rich
after not eating properly." I say.

"I was fine. I spent some time with Jay sorting the interview then I went
to sleep." Alexander said.

"Okay." I say.

We eat and study at the big kitchen table, the only furniture in the place.

"This table is beautiful." I say.

"Its the only thing I kept from my family home. My Mom hated it so we only
used it in Seattle." Alexander explains.

Alexander eats without issue and I relax, we get our paper done, we'd both
done the research already and it was a breeze to put together. I love
working with Alexander, everyone at school is smart but he's one of the few
that remembers that, so many others think they're the smartest in the room
and are closed off to anyone's ideas.

"I can't wait to live here full time and cook normal food and just be."
Alexander says.

"Can you cook?" I ask.

"Kind of, I got by last year. I can't keep this body on take-out and crap."
Alexander says.

"What body? Its all gone." I say, biting my tongue in regret as soon as its
out.

"I'm sorry." he says quietly.

"No, don't be sorry, we'll get you well and strong again. Muscled or skinny
you're still super sexy to me. Confident or vulnerable I love you both
ways." I say, not realizing I've admitted it out loud for a moment.

"Thank-you. I'm sorry I'm not boyfriend material right now, if I was I
would be with you, you know that right. But please don't wait for me like I
did with Jay." Alexander says earnestly.

I ruffle his hair and kiss him.

"I'm hardly waiting around, you should have seen me last night, I was into
everyone." I say with a laugh.

"I so want to hear about everything." says Alexander.

"Everyone hates Jay's Ben, I'm not just saying that to make you feel
better. They think he's a dick." I say.

"Jay asked me to have a threeway with him and Ben last night." Alexander
says, absolutely shocking me.

"Shit, seriously?" I say.

"I told him to go to hell. But I think maybe things are not okay in Jays
bedroom." Alexander speculates.

"What do you want to do next?" I ask.

"Make out." Alexander says with a grin.

I laugh.

"Actually I need to go furniture shopping tomorrow, now this place is about
done. Lets look online for ideas and so I can budget." Alexander says
surprising me.

"Sounds a bit old married." I say with a grin.

Alexander punches my arm.

"You'll be living here too, you should at least choose things for your
room." Alexander says.

"I would love to. Do we need to ask Eric too?" I ask.

"Just us would be nice." says Alexander making my heart soar.

We go upstairs and look at ideas and Alexander shows me his bed design.

We put the laptop and tablet away and snuggle a little.

"Why don't you tell me all about last night and I make you feel
good. Advance reward for helping me shop." says Alexander.

"I hate not reciprocating, but you are asking nicely, and you smell so good
you're getting me excited." I say honestly.

We kiss and snuggle and Alexander explores me, and I don't stop him. I tell
him about all the guys and I enjoy what he's offering, just once.


Alexander

Peter turns out to be a really good shopping companion. We order up a
storm, visiting store after store, ordering appliances and gym equipment
along with furnishing, bedding and cooking equipment. I feel like my credit
card is melting.

"Holy shit we spent loads." Peter says as we sit having a well deserved
steak dinner.

"Yes, well I knew it was coming. I'll call Mart later so he doesn't have a
fit over all the charges." I say.

"I'll get to meet him over break?" Peter asks "Feel pretty nervous."

"Ahh they'll love you. Don't worry about it." I say.

"Of course everyone loves me." says Peter laughing.

"Until they get to know you. Ahh I don't mean it. Thank-you so much for
this weekend, it felt normal. School is doing my head in. It was nice to
just be with you, no distractions." I say, meaning it.

Peter has been amazing. I hope I'm not leading him on too much, I really
enjoy kissing him and I can't exactly get that elsewhere right now. He's a
strong guy, I'm sure he'll say no when he wants to.

"How long til the house is complete?" Asks Peter.

"The main house will be finished this week, its just a couple of odd jobs
to go, cables in, utilities are all on. The Apartment will be finished by
spring break. I still need to find someone to live there." I say.

"Yeah, I don't know, just put an ad up at school. What about the main
house. Me and Jamie for the summer then Me,; you and Eric for sophomore
year. What about Jay? I assume Blondie is out the picture." Peter says.

"I don't know about Jay. I've not seen Blondie at all so he's a no. We can
always keep the downstairs room for guests like if your parents visit or
something. But I would like someone else in the upstairs room. We can talk
to Jay. I don't know how I'd cope seeing him with other guys, I think I'm
past it but I don't know." I say.

"What about Brian?" Peter asks.

"Brian wants to stay in the dorms in a single, he wants to have access to
cafeterias and be close to the libraries at all times." I laugh.

We go to the house, gather up our stuff and head back to our room. Until
the fridge arrives and real beds I think we'll be staying at school.

Its the week of Eric's show and he's got tickets for all of us. I'm so
grateful that Eric and Peter colluded to get me back out being social. I've
been to a movie with Emma and Jamie, Peter and I had dinner with Thijs and
Felix. I also met some of the playwrights I'll be working with. I feel
almost normal again.

The musical is good, Eric was adorable and I hated saying it but Ben, Jay's
boyfriend was excellent. Eric invites us all to a after party in the dorm
common room. Its all going well until I go to the bathroom, needing a
breather from all the people I take a stall and overhear Ben on the phone.

"Yes he usually goes out with total psychos, he's been utterly hopeless
with men. Just before he met me he'd finally got rid of his deranged ex who
had been pestering him for months. He was quite traumatized by it all. I
don't know how he'll cope over break seeing him again. He doesn't want to
go but can't afford to unless this guy pays his plane fare. Totally using
him but why shouldn't he use the guys obsession to his advantage. Luckily
Eric is going so he'll have help fending him off. He's ever so worried all
his friends think the guy is nuts."

I feel the tears on my cheeks, I didn't know I'd started crying. I wait
until I'm sure he's gone, wash my face and run back to my room. I grab some
clothes, my schoolwork, leave a note for Peter and head to the house.

I shut off my phone, make sure I'm not logged into any messaging apps and
sleep and work the weekend away. Its mid terms next week so I need the
study time.

On Sunday afternoon there is a knock at the door. I look out and see Peter
and Eric. I don't answer and eventually they go away. I can not face
anyone. I've no idea who has been talking about me and I just let the
numbness back in.


Peter

I'm scared shitless when Alexander runs off. I've no idea what has set him
off this time. Its frustrating as he'd had a really good week.

Eric and I go to the house on sunday but he won't come down. He must be
embarrassed about something again. We asked Jay but he claims he didn't
even see Alexander so we've no idea what happened.

I have to put him to the back of my mind as its midterms this week, on
Wednesday Alexander had a study session planned in the physics library, I
go hoping he'll show. He does. He looks like shit, he's grey, looks thinner
again even though its been just a few days. I'm terrified.

He sounds his old studious self and the group of us cover the material
planned. I'm still stunned every time I study with him, he's so efficient
and focused, making us all better. Not like other groups where there are
more breaks than studying.

The rest of the group are delighted he's not going for the internships, I
think they underestimate me too. I've made it to the interview stage though
after break.

At the end of the session I wait for him, he looks a bit strange before
getting up. I follow him as he heads towards the bathroom, I catch him as
he faints before getting there.

I help him inside and splash his face. I grab our bags and take his arm.

"When did you last eat?" I ask

"I forget." Alexander answers.

"We're going now for some soup. You are moving back to the room or letting
me in at the house. I suppose you're running in too, on no food." I say
angrily.

 Alexander nods weakly.

I sit him at a table in the cafeteria and get 2 bowls of noodle soup and
some hot chocolate.

"Eat." I say, still angry.

He makes slow progress. I finish my bowl and go back and find some pudding,
and more hot chocolate for Alexander.

"You're looking a bit better. You scared me to death, what the fuck are you
doing to yourself? You were so much better last week." I say, still not
letting my anger go.

"I'm sorry, you shouldn't have to babysit me. I'll do better. Its just 2
more days. I just needed some quiet to study." Alexander says.

"Bullshit. You don't run out of a party without a word to me just to get
some quiet." I say.

"Let's not do this now, we need to focus on exams." Alexander says quietly.

"Okay. But I mean it, you're coming back to the room. I won't be able to
focus if I don't know where you are." I say.

"Okay. I'm sorry Peter, I'm sorry."  Alexander cries, his tears breaking my
heart.

We get through the next 2 days, I hand him bananas and powerbars whilst
he's studying and he eats them without noticing. We both actually breeze
our exams. I worry he might not have been able to concentrate earlier in
the week but he says he enjoyed all of his, the nerd.

Saturday morning we grab out bags and meet Eric and Jay and get a cab to
the airport.

We have breakfast then hang out in the lounge which is cool. Alexander is
on edge and I don't know if its because of Jay or something else. I don't
want to upset him at the start of the trip so keep quiet.

I sit next to Alexander, I try and talk to him a little but he just stares
out the window. About an hour in he turns to me.

"Thank-you for coming. I've no idea if I can trust Jay or Eric right now
but I'm pretty certain you are not the one who has been talking about me
behind my back." Alexander says calmly.

"Actually I have talked about you, with Eric and with Jamie and Emma. We've
all been worried about you, they helped me come up with the plan to come
with you this week." I say.

"Just that you worried about me? Did you talk about me stalking Jay?"
Alexander asks.

"Stalking Jay, don't be daft, you've avoided him every time something has
gone wrong. You kept out his way when he was with Felix and with me. Now
he's with Ben you've seen him what twice, both because of Eric." I say.

"I've been there every time he's had a break-up though, just in case it was
our time." Alexander says.

"Not obsessively, always as a friend first. You never jumped in when he was
vulnerable, not like me." I admit.

"Do you know if the others, Eric, Felix maybe talk about me like that. Is
Jay scared of me?" Alexander asks.

"What the fuck happened? What did you hear? What did Jay do?" I ask.

Alexander just shakes his head and turns away.

I ask Eric to swap seats for a bit.

"Jay, have you been telling people Alexander is a deranged stalker and that
you're scared of him?" I ask bluntly, unable to hide my anger.

"No!" Jay shouts back looking shocked.

"Wait, oh, maybe, just messing about with Ben, I told him Alexander always
came back, that he was a bit obsessive." Jay says, looking embarrassed.

"Could Alexander have overheard and misinterpreted, at the party?" I ask.

"No, it was ages ago, at Bens. I'd never say anything like that now, given
what Alexander is doing for me." Said jay, pretty defensive.

"Is Ben prone to exaggeration?" I ask.

"Maybe." Jay says in a small voice.

"Any chance he is a bit jealous of this trip, that maybe he had a go at
Alexander?" I push.

"I don't think so, yes he loves drama and gossip but he wouldn't have said
anything directly. He couldn't, they've never even met." Jay says, still
red faced.

I swap back, I can't be near Jay right now.

"Was it Ben you heard talking?" I ask Alexander.

He nods.

"He was exaggerating, don't pay any attention. Jay is not scared of you. He
doesn't badmouth you. Stop pushing us all away." I say, squeezing his hand.

"He said a lot of stuff, things about me, it sounded like it was common
knowledge, I was a fruitloop who stalked Jay and who Jay had only ever used
to get things." Alexander says so quietly.

"Jay loved you. I know you need to move on but don't second guess those
feelings. For whatever reason he chose not to be with you, I don't ever
think it was because he didn't love you." I say.

We get to LA around noon and a car service is waiting for us to take us out
to Santa Monica. The hotel is pretty nice, we have 2 rooms on the same
floor, with a great view of the beach. We have lunch at a near by seafood
place. Jay actually apologizes to Alexander unprompted about Ben,
surprising all of us.

Alexander

Away from college I feel I can breathe again. Even though the hotel is
noisy and the traffic on the way to the hotel was crazy it feels great to
be away from school.

At lunch Jay apologizes about Ben. I kind of believe him but not
completely, he never was the type to slate his exes without good
reason. The only one he talks shit about is Peter and he had good reason
to. Maybe I was obsessed and scary.

"Shall we spend the afternoon on the beach?" I ask.

"Only if we can hire an umbrella."Laughs Eric.

We head back to the hotel change, slather on more sunscreen and head back
out, collecting an umbrella for Eric on the way.

Its a relaxing afternoon soaking up the sun and splashing about too.  "What
are the plans for tomorrow?" Jay asks.

"Hang out at the pool here?" I suggest.

"Sounds good, when are your meetings. My interview is Monday afternoon."
Jays says.

"I have doctors monday, studio meetings Thursday and Monday evening John
and Mart have invited us all to dinner." I say.

"Screen test wednesday afternoon, Sal suggested you come with me Jay. I
think I'm coming to the meetings thursday too." Eric says.

"I want to go to a club Thursday night, there's a night that suits me on."
Peter says.

"Going to get some pain?" Asks Eric.

Peter nods but doesn't elaborate.

"So lots of free time, that's good. We fly home friday morning." I say.

"I don't know about you guys but I'm really feeling the effects of the last
few months, lots of pool and beach time is great with me." said Peter.

"Sounds good." said Jay.

Eric and I nod.

"We should do some sight seeing too." I say.

"I don't think we're the map of the stars type." laughs Peter.

"No but we could do a cheesy bus tour or something. I just want to hang out
with you guys and have fun." Eric says.

"Are things going to be awkward? Eric you're the only one who is friends
with all of us, I don't see Jay forgiving Peter any time soon and I'm still
very wary of Jay." I say honestly.

"I don't want things to be awkward, I'll mostly keep out of Jay's way."
says Peter.

"Don't put everything on me, I can't help it if I'm the one you guys
screwed over." says Jay.

"Get the fuck over yourself. Alexander is the one who has taken the most
shit from you and Peter, yet he and Peter have been able to work through
it. You need to work on your friendship with Alexander, you owe him big
time." Said Eric.

Jay started sulking. I kissed Eric to thank him for trying. I wasn't sure
if I wanted to be friends with Jay, other than to make the trip easier.

On sunday we spend most the day at the hotel pool, sleeping, reading,
playing cards. Its incredibly relaxing. We go out for ice-cream mid
afternoon and look round the pier. We're all getting along, at least
superficially.

We decide to ride the pacific wheel, I get quite affectionate with Peter, I
love how relaxed he's become in just 2 days, I love how happy he is. I
don't love the looks Jay is giving us.

We decide to watch a movie all in one room, I lie in Peters arms
comfortable. Eric and Jay are on the other bed not touching.  I kiss Peter
gently on the neck and he hugs me closer.

"You make me sick." says Jay breaking the mood.

"Whats your problem?" Peter says.

"You two, you say you're not together yet you act like you're in the
romance of the century, Peter acting all protective. Alexander has a
complete personality transplant to make you like him. After what you did,
its fucking weird." Jay says.

"He's not had a personality transplant, he's fucking depressed. How would
you be if a guy promised you a future and then turned around and said ha
fooled you." Eric shouts "Why shouldn't he kiss a guy who actually loves
him, loves him when he's at rock bottom. Fuck me, should any of us be so
lucky."

"I'm very grateful that Alexander forgave me for everything, I was a
fucking idiot last year and I am so ashamed for all the pain I caused all
of you. I love Alexander, I am very much in love with him. Right now he
isn't in the right place to be in a relationship and I respect that and I
would never push him for more than he can cope with. Sure maybe it would be
healthier for both of us to cut out the affection but we both know where we
stand. We actually communicate. Alexander has told me not to wait for
him. He isn't promising anything and I've taken him at his word. I go out
with other guys. Maybe I'm just having hookups and not looking for anything
more as I have hope that things will work with Alexander but that is my
choice. He accepts that I'm with other guys, he doesn't judge me for it or
throw jealous hissyfits. I know he loves me as a friend right now and he
wants to make me feel good, just as I want to make him feel secure and
loved. I don't get where you get off judging us" Peter says slowly, making
me and Eric tear up.

"You're right, you are both scum and deserve each other. None of this is my
fault, you two fucked up first." says Jay.

Eric sighs and is about to go off on one.

"No Jay it is not your fault. If I had been brave enough to tell you I
loved you sooner, if I hadn't cheated on you we would likely be together
and happy. But those things happened and however hard I worked to right
them it was never enough. You dangled our future then snatched it away and
I couldn't cope. Not just what you did but it coming on top of all that had
come before, losing my Dad, adjusting to school, losing all of you guys
when I cheated on you, losing Blondie as my closest friend, I didn't deal
with any of it along the way, it all built up and its imploding." I say,
feeling exhausted.

"But the thing is, you are here as my guest and you are being impossibly
rude. Take some responsibility for your role in all of this. When we spoke
before winter break I really thought you'd taken on how your choices
affected me just as much as mine affected you but you are just as selfish
as ever. I'm glad you didn't take me back. You don't deserve me. Your
boyfriend was probably speaking the truth, you are scared of me, scared
I'll expose you for the shit you are. The user you are. I hate you so much
and I've no idea why I'm helping you. Other than if you are in California
for the summer you'll be a long way away from Eric, Peter and I." I finish
and leave the room.

I get ready for bed, sad I've ruined yet another break but somewhat at
peace.

Peter walks in.

"I'm so proud of you." Peter says.

"Thanks, I'm sorry for ruining things." I say.

"You didn't ruin anything. Eric has been biting his tongue with Jay for
weeks, he's delighted you let him have it. He and Jay are clearing the air
right now. Now lets get some sleep, big day tomorrow." Peter says.


Peter

That night there's no question of us sleeping separately, we cling to each
other, neither of us sleeps well, we wake and try burying ourselves in the
other. When eventually give up on sleep, shower and have breakfast
together.

A car service arrives to take us to the doctors office. I hold Alexander's
hand tightly. I speak to the receptionist and the doctor is ready for
Alexander straight away.

"I'm coming in, just for a second." I say.

I introduce myself to the doctor as Alexander's friend.

"Don't worry I'm not staying, no need to worry about
confidentiality. Alexander has been depressed, he's sleeping a lot more
than usual, he's not eating, to the point he has dizzy spells and has
fainted at least once and his dick doesn't work." I say in a rush.

I walk straight out again, sit down in reception and burst into tears. I'm
still crying 20 minutes later when the receptionist tells me to go back in.

"Peter, I've been Alexander primary doctor for many years, it may ease your
guilt if I tell you we've been here before, this is serious but I'm sure
we'll have things under control shortly. Thank you for being so candid and
for looking after him these last months, you've been a great friend." The
doctor says gently.

"Thank-you."

I Smile and Alexander squeezes my hand.

"Here is my card. If you think Alexander is slipping into bad habits call."
The doctor says.

"I will." I say.

"I'm going to be fine." says Alexander.

We leave together.

"I have to see a therapist this afternoon, and get my prescription filled."
Alexander says "Sorry to ruin your day."

"There is nothing that could make my day better. Getting you well is my
primary reason for being out here." I say honestly.

"Let's go to the pharmacy then go to a coffee shop or something, my
appointment is at 4. We need to be at Mart and John's for 6, can you meet
the others and get them there if I give you the address? I'll meet you
there." Alexander says.

"Sure, I'll ride with you to the therapists then go get the guys while you
are in there." I say.

We get the pills then find a coffee place and order. We sit and relax and
chat and start to feel normal again.  "That's the worst over with." Says
Alexander.

"What?" I ask.

"Telling Doctor Roberts that I've not been eating and I stopped taking my
meds a year ago." Alexander says looking a little ashamed.

"Well now you can go and tell your therapist why. I know we can't just tie
everything in a bow but it sounds like you're going to be okay." I say.

"I will."Alexander says smiling.

"I'm missed you." I say truthfully, "I like a bit of ice-man."

Dinner with Mart and John is hilarious, the four of us put aside the issues
from the night before and are on our best behavior. Its clear the 2 men
adore Alexander.

"So how long have you been together?" I ask.

"We met one summer after college, we were both backpacking in South
America, we were in the same dorm, in Cusco in Peru, with 8 other guys and
our eyes met and boom! That was it, we traveled together the rest of the
trip, no more big dorms. We were lucky that we were both headed back to
California, Mart to law school at UCLA and me to do my MBA at Pepperdine."
John explained.

"It was a tough 2 years, we were both studying like hell and making time to
see each other was hard, no skype or facetime back then. We'd study with
the phone to our ears just to hear the other breathing." Mart reminisced.

"Then John moved to LA for my final year in law school and started working
at a small investment firm. A few guys we'd been in school with were
starting to get their breaks and trusted John. John was leaning on me for
legal advice too. It was clear the clients wanted a one stop shop away from
their agencies and in time that is what we set up." said Mart.

"We met absolutely by chance and we're the luckiest guys in the world."
John says leaning in to kiss Mart.

"And I'm lucky my Mom chose you guys to look after my money and
legalities. Mart was a pitbull suing everyone after Mom, I swear Dad and I
had more money from that than from Movies." Alexander says, a rare insight
into his early life.

"Your Mom was the pitbull. I'm glad you've made your peace with how she
treated you, she was one hell of a woman and too damn right I sued everyone
after she was gone, she deserved fighting for." Mart says.

We eat and learn more about the business. As much as I hate Jay right now I
can see he'd easily fit into their world.

Tuesday we're all free other than Alexander's therapy. He has an early
appointment so once he's back we buy sightseeing bus tickets and spend the
day going round loads of attractions and enjoying everything. I buy the 3
day pass so I have something to do when the others are busy. Now that
Alexander is getting treatment I'm feeling so much better.

Jay gets the call on wednesday that he has the job. He's to accompany Eric
to his screen test, and Blair asks him and Eric to go and see him that
morning leaving Alexander and myself free to spend the day together.

We walk hand in hand on the beach, playing silly games, kissing, just
enjoying being with each other. We have lunch at a seafood place and lie
around the pool until its time for Alexander to go to therapy.

I go up to the room and pleasure myself before checking out the details of
what I'm doing thursday night, excited and scared.

We celebrate Eric's screen test and Jay's job that night at the hotel
restaurant and then with champagne from Sal in Eric's room.

I look at Jay and Eric, feeling a little tipsy..  "You two have roomed
together a while now, what have you done together?" I ask.

"We've hardly ever been single, so nothing much." says Eric.

"I've jerked off to Eric fucking Brian." Jay admits "But they didn't want
me to join in."

"We're usually pretty private." Says Eric.

I burst out laughing.

"That was not what it looked like on your birthday." I say.

"That was a one off. Though we're looking to do more group stuff." Eric
admits.

"What about you two." Jay asks.

"Everything." grins Alexander.

"Really?" asks Jay.

"Sure, we've enjoyed each others bodies to the fullest. We're fucking hot,
why wouldn't we." Alexander says shocking me with his openness.

"Have you fucked Alexander?" Jay asks me.

"Sure, back before you and I got together." I say, thinking that was well
known.

"Ah yes then he freaked out." says Jay, I don't know what angle he's
pushing.

"Yes I did, not because Peter topped me but because I found it hard having
just sex with a friend. It was easy when it was a random for me but that
day was weird. I'm past it now and we easily fell into a casual thing at
the start of the year. It was fucking awesome." Says Alexander.

I grin.

"So its just Eric you havn't had." says Jay.

"No, Eric and I have been together, you know that." I say confused. "are
you trying to show what a slut I am or something?"

"No. I don't know. I just want to remind Alexander what kind of guy you
are." Jay says.

"Jay, you have no say who I am with. I don't know why you need to keep
punishing me. I think you want me to be single and pining for you forever."
Alexander bursts out.

"For fucks sake stop the fighting. Jay, Peter has changed, get over
it. Stop being such a bitch, I thought we had this out already." says Eric.

"Jay, can you please just leave me alone. I brought you on this trip to
help you, I wasn't trying to buy your friendship. I'm sorry if something in
your life is making you lash out at us but we do not deserve these
attacks. If you can't be nice go home, I'll happily get your ticket
changed." Alexander says.

"I'm sorry. I really worry for you. You seem to have forgotten just how
evil Peter can be." Jay says

Alexander walks out and I follow him we go to bed not really speaking. I
don't know if I need to defend myself or not.

He runs his hand over my face "I love you Peter." Kisses me and falls
asleep.

I sleep late, the others have all gone to their meetings, I guess Blair has
Jay tagging along too.

I go on the bus tour again, hopping off to take pictures and behaving like
a total tourist.  Alexander messages me to say they'll be late as they're
having dinner at the office.

That's good for me. I get dressed, and get a cab to the area near the
club. I'm scared. I go in the restaurant across the street and get a window
seat. I order and take my time. Not sure if I'll go in or not.

A hot guy comes in dressed in a suit, looks like he's had a long day. Wow
he is hot, I can't stop starring.  He joins me, sitting across the table
and orders a drink.

"Too scared to go in?" He motions across the road.

I shrug.

We talk casually for a bit, he tells me he's a lawyer, I ask if he's heard
of Mart's firm, he has. I say I'm a student.

He stares at me hard.

"What are you really after?" He asks.

"Right now I need someone to put me in my place, tan my hide and fuck me
into next week." I say quite honestly, shocked at myself for telling a
stranger my desires.

He stands up and moves to sit next to me and whispers in my ear in a voice
of steel.

"What makes you think you deserve such a treat?"

My cock is pulsing.

"Stand up, let me see that butt." He says in the same steel voice.

I obey.

He runs his hands over my ass, and gropes at my cock through my pants.

"Okay lets go."

I blindly follow him out.

The next morning he drops me off on his way to work.

I creep into the room, sore and bruised and utterly satisfied.

Alexander wakes as I come in, he looks at me, stands and undresses me,
takes me into the shower and washes me gently, not saying a word. I've no
idea how mad he is. I know I did a risky thing.

Back in the room he dries me off then starts putting arnica cream on my
bruises, I direct him to areas that are tender.

"What kind of stupid idiot are you, not calling, not letting me know where
you were."Alexander says coldly.

"I just didn't think. I didn't go in to the club, I went to this guys
place." I start to explain.

"You went to a strangers place without letting anyone know where you were
going. You idiot fuck." Alexander continues.  The whole time he is berating
me he's tenderly caring for my sore body, its the most erotic thing
ever. He's making me feel so ashamed and so loved. My cock is fully erect,
he ignores it and continues what he's doing.

"You know how fucking dangerous what you've done is. You're a disgrace."
Alexander continues and I let out a whimper.

"Don't ever go off like that again." He finally says putting the cream
away.

I'm stood there, humiliated staring at the floor.

In my ear he says, cold as ice.

"Finish yourself off, get dressed we're going to breakfast, you can sleep
on the plane."

In two strokes I'm finished. I clean up and get dressed. As I'm dressing
Alexander is packing the rest of my stuff.

Alexander

Back at school we're soon back into the swing of things. Peter and I
haven't yet spoken of his night out. I want to tell him I understand, that
I've put myself in risky situations too but I'm not strong enough yet to
face just how worried I was that night.

I continue therapy via video conference twice a week and push for it to be
reduced as I'm busy at school. My weight is doing okay and I'm allowed to
work out again.

 I begin rehearsals for the one act plays. I'm enjoying the work and
suggested Eric for one of the pieces so we'll get to see each other at
least once a week.

About 2 weeks after spring break I wake up really early with a huge
boner. I pull on some shorts and go to the bathroom.  I'm a rock again by
the time I'm back in the room.

I look at Peter, he's sleeping facing the wall. I slip into his bed and
nuzzle against him, my hard on against his crack, I lightly kiss his neck
and squeeze him close.

"Someone's up early." Peter mumbles.

I push harder against him.

"Someones up." Peter says again rolling over to face me. I give him a big
grin and we kiss for a minute. He climbs over me to go to the bathroom and
I lie in his bed enjoying his scent all around me, enjoying the feel of my
body working again, I may have dozed for a moment with a big grin.

He climbs back in and lies on top of me, kissing me so passionately.

"The things I want to do to you." Peter says suggestively.

I just grin, I've no words.

I roll on top kissing him madly, he fingers my ass as we continue to make
out, I'm close to the edge, very close but I know I've got so much in the
tank that I can go all day and then some. I buck against his stomach and he
continues stretching me ready and kissing me, he rolls me onto my back and
I shoot.

"Fuck I've missed seeing that baby." Peter says leaning me off. I'm still
beaming, with no words. My dick stays hard, it's going no where now its
working again.

"I want you so bad." Peter whispers and I moan in response.

He rolls me onto my belly and spreads lube on me, continuing the work with
his fingers.

"Mmmmm" Is still all I can say.

He enters me slowly and he feels so good, there's no pain, just him,
filling me up, making me feel right.

He lies on top of me kissing the nape of my neck, I turn my head to kiss
him. I love the feel of his body against mine, I'm rubbing against the bed
and reveling of the feel of him big and deep inside me.

"Oh baby you feel so good, so good." Peter says continuing a slow rhythm.

"Only for you, baby, only for you." I say.

He begins a gradual pace increase and I cry out with pleasure, and he joins
me calling out my name, pushing deep into me, my breath quickens and he
maneuvers me onto my back, I raise my legs high so he can fill me deep.

"Need you baby." I say.

I begin to stroke myself, looking up at my man, so fucking sexy, his arm
muscles look amazing, I realize I'm moaning loudly, and he is grunting
louder with each push.

I let go and shoot again, breathless and he finishes deep inside me. He
pulls out removes the condom and rubs his dick against mine as the last of
our cum eeks out.

I look at him and smile, I can't smile any wider.

He is still kneeling above me, looking down, I feel a little vulnerable.

"Now, I'm not doing that again until you are my boyfriend." He says.

"But I don't think I can go again right now. Give me a minute." I say,
cheekily.

"Boyfriends?" Peter asks.

"Boyfriends." I say.

We kiss, not caring how messy we are. We doze for a bit wrapped up
together.

I wake again, still 30minutes before my alarm. I'm still horny, I really
need to make up for lost time.  I kiss Peter gently, running my hands all
over him, hungry for him.

"My boyfriend is horny." Peter says kissing me back.

"Your boyfriend is, very horny." I reply.

Peter lies on his back, hands behind his head giving me the invitation to
worship his body and I do. I kiss every inch of his torso, lick his
beautiful dick and balls, holding them up so I can feast on his crack.

"I've missed you down there." Peter grins.

I look up for a moment then drive my tongue into his hole. He holds his
legs apart for me.

"My boyfriend is so good." Peter says.

I continue, making him feel great then worrying about time I get ready.
Pushing in slowly I scream out in joy.

"Fuck I love this, I love you." I cry out.

I quickly build up the pace, leaning in to kiss him, he grabs my back and
wont let go, we rock together, I'm pushing in so deep and he's rising up to
meet me.  I move back to watch him. He looks amazing, his cock is so
beautiful against his body.  I push in slower and slower, aiming for his
place. He looks at me in joy as I graze it.

"There, there, THERE." he cries.

I keep going, turning him to the side to ease the aim. He's gripping the
sheets, his cock is twitching and leaking and he looks so fucking hot. I
can't go on much longer then he begins to moan louder than ever, grabbing
the sheets tighter he bucks against me and comes hard. It's fucking
beautiful. I pull out and add my cum to his all over his belly and cock.

"That was the best ever. The absolute best ever." Peter says hugging me
close.

"My first time with my boyfriend." I say, grinning like mad.

"Seriously Alexander, that was the best ever. Ever, ever." Peter says "My
boyfriend is the best."



Thanks for reading. Things are finally looking up for Alexander, he's in a
good place. No more sadness for a while, thanks for sticking with him
through the bad times.

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