Date: Mon, 26 Aug 2002 11:02:12 -0700
From: Steve Thomas <s4d@hotmail.com>
Subject: Chris-Crossed - 8

I have been informed that it would be a good idea to state a few warning
comments.  There may be graphic sexual scenes between men in this story, so
please, if this offends you, or it is illegal or you are underaged to read
such, stop here and hit your "back" button.  If it is okay with you, read on
and enjoy.

He came in huge quantities down my throat and into my mouth.  I swallowed
most of it.  In his excitement - he was pretty much out of his head - he
grabbed me, pulled me up and kissed me hard on the mouth.  I looked up past
his head at the bathroom door.  There was my little brother, standing with
his mouth wide open.  I locked the door to the hall, but had forgotten the
bathroom door!  I was all at once panicked!  I looked at Craig.  He was
oblivious in his stupor.  I looked back and Seth was gone!

So ended Chapter 7.  Well, a hot and suspenseful place to leave us, huh?
Let's see where this may take our boy!

Chapter 8

I woke up the next morning before Craig did.  He was breathing shallow and
slow.  I may have slept longer except for the hand gently shaking my
shoulder.

"Chris." Seth whispered.  "Chris, are you awake?"

I gave him the `duh!' look and then put my finger to my lips.  My arm was
asleep from being under Craig.  His face was buried in my neck.  I don't
know how I was able to extricate myself without waking him, but Seth and I
tip-toed to the den, and in a low whisper, he said, "Man, Chris, I have
never had any desire to be with another guy, but last night, I heard noises
coming from your room, and when I got there - well, what I saw blew me
away!"

"I'm so sorry you had to see that, little brother!  I am so sorry!"

"Why?  It was so hot!  I -"

"Seth, I want to tell you something."

Seth looked up at me with waiting eyes.  I know he could read the concern in
my voice, but he did not know what was coming next.  "What, Chris?"

"Seth, I gotta tell you, first of all, that was the first time - I ever -
well it's the first time I ever enjoyed doing that.  I was raped earlier
this year by another roommate, and it was not that - - - good.  It was
painful and - somehow it was still pretty hot, but I did not like it.  But
it did give me a hunger for more, in a better circumstance.  But then just
knowing you were there watching makes me sick!  I am so sorry you had to see
that!"

"But Christy," he said, looking a little hurt, "I liked it!  Hee hee, I went
back and had a good wank because of it!"

"Okay.  You are only two years younger than I am, but in those two years you
will do a lot of growing and maturing.   What I want to say is - please -
PLEASE - don't let this -"  DAMN!  I just was at a loss as to what to tell
him! "Please don't let this make you think you're - gay.  You and I have
always been the best of buds, and that's why you are the only one I have
told about my - myself.  You have not shown any signs of being - uh - this
way.  I'm pretty sure I am gay.  I have really never been sexually attracted
to girls.  But you have - er - haven't you?"

"Yeah, man!  I love sex with - er -"

"You've already had sex with a girl?"  I'm sure it sounded much stronger
than I wanted it to.

"Just once."  He said, his lower lip protruding a little.  I decided to take
a different tack

"Really?!"  I said, with a smile and convincing excitement in my voice.
"You've actually had sexual intercourse with a girl?"

He immediatedly perked up.  He held his chest out and said, "Yup!  Becky
Trowther!  It was great!"

"Really!" I said. "I've never even done that with a guy!  How did it feel to
cum inside a nice warm - er - place?"

"Uh, I didn't exactly do that."

"What?  What do you mean?"

"I didn't cum."

"Wh - Oh!  Well!  That's pretty interesting, bud.  How did that happen?"

"Well, you know Becky.  She's pretty - uh -"

"Slutty?"

"Yeah.  Well, she's the one that - she got me all worked up and she was the
one who did most of it."  He looked embarrassed and almost sad.

"So?  That was your first time.  So why didn't you cum?"

"I - uh - I didn't have on a condom.  I was afraid of some kind of disease.
I was afraid of getting her pregnant."  he said.

I was appalled!  "Little brother!  Oh my God!  What did they teach you in
that stupid sex education class?  Don't you know that - Shit, Seth!"

There were tears in Seth's eyes by now.  He looked crushed - like I just
called him stupid.  I felt so bad.

"What - why, Chris?"

"Okay.  First of all, pulling out before you cum is no guarantee that she
can't get pregnant.  You know how you get wet before you - before you cum?"

"Yeah?"

"That's precum.  It contains sperm just like the more -  thick - stuff which
comes out when you cum.  And just because you stopped early does not prevent
a disease.  Seth, not using a condom, you may as well have had unprotected
sex with half the guys in this town!"  I was getting way more emotional than
I wanted to, but I loved this little brother so much - and I was worried.
Seth had big tears coursing down his face.  I'm sure that they taught that
in his class, but he may have been absent the day they mentioned it, or
maybe daydreaming or something.  What I knew was that they taught so much
about how to "do it" and very little about how to prevent disease and stuff.
  Oh, they taught it, but - it was not the priority.

"What," he swallowed hard.  He didn't want me to know he was crying.  "What
should I do now?"  He was trying to act  so "grown up"!

"The safest thing to do is to get yourself tested."

"Do I have to tell dad?"

"I - I  -"  I stammered.  "no you don't."  I had to at least be honest.
"There are clinics where you can go and get yourself tested, and no one but
you knows.  But if I were you," (easy enough for me to say!) "If I were you,
I would tell dad.  That way he will make sure everything is done right.  You
know he loves you.  He may be disappointed, but you aren't the first boy to
fuck up!"

"What about Becky?  What if she's pregnant?"  At 16, he didn't seem nearly
as worried about that as I would have been.  But he was a lot more immature
than I was at 16.

"I think that she prolly has been on birth control pills for a long time.
If she's pregnant, then she just is.  And if she is, it may not even be
yours.  Again, a simple blood test can tell that.  But I really doubt there
is even a slight chance she's pregnant.  Don't worry about it unless you
hear more."  I had to get back to Craig and me.  "Now, back to last night."
I said.

"Yeah, that was hot!"

"Seth, it - it WAS hot. But I don't want you even THINKING of trying it.
You are too young to make a determination if your gay or not.  Most guys
feel attracted in some degree to other guys, and most don't admit it.  Do
you feel attracted to guys?"

"Well, no, but -"

"But nothing!  You are not a little boy any more.  Please tell me you will
not mess with guys until you're older, and at least - at least feel somewhat
attracted to them.  K?"

"What about Craig?"

"What about him?"

"Is he gay?"

"I - I don't - uh, know.  But  -"

"Does he think he is?"  Seth was trying to make a case.

"Seth, in the first place I can't answer that because I don't know." (I lied
a little!) "In the second place he is 19, and you are 16!"

His lip came out again.  He was such a little boy in so many ways.  I hated
myself for exposing him to that!  "But why don't you want me to -"

"Because, Dammit!  I have had to deal with this - for a long time.  If you
are straight - or even if you are bi - straight is just easier!  I love you
so much, little man!  I don't want you to have to go through all the shit I
have had to.  And hardly anyone even knows about me!  If they know it would
be so much worse!"

"But I don't see why I can't at least try -"

"You know what little brother?  I'm glad you didn't cum with Becky!  That
experience is a great one, and it will be so much better if you experience
it with someone you love.  Hasn't Dad talked to you?"

"About what?"

"Uncle Jack.  Uncle Jack was very experienced when he got married - sexually
experienced, that is.  He was very good looking and very popular and from
the ninth grade on, he could fuck any girl he wanted.  Then he fell in love
with Auntie Wilma.  Guess what?  She is like a dead fish in bed.  Well, I
have to hand it to Uncle Jack.  At least as far as we know, he doesn't fool
around.  But ever since he was married, he has not had a decent fuck!"

"So what's you point?"

"I'm not finished!   Dad, on the other hand has not made love to anyone
except Mom.  If she is a fish or a real hottie doesn't matter.  She is the
best sex he has ever had!"

"Hrmph!  But how about Christy?  You -"

"I realize I'm not the poster-child for this concept, but it makes all kinds
of sense.  Especially now that I have had some experience.  My other room
mate and Craig are the only ones, since I have been older.  Please at least
tell me you will try to hold out, K?"

"K."  It didn't sound very convincing.

"Hey!  What's all the whispering?"  Dad surprised us at the door.

"Uh, we - uh,"  I stammered, "We just didn't want to wake anyone up."  I
said.  "Seth has something he wants to discuss with you."  Seth looked like
I just stabbed him in the back.  I just gave him an "I'm sorry" look, then
left the room.

I went back to my room.  Craig was still asleep, and by the smile on his
face, he must have been having a nice dream.  He heard my footsteps.  "Hi!"

"Hi, sleepyhead."

"When did you get up?

"About an hour ago"

"Boy that was some sleeping pill you gave me!"

"Are you still okay with it?"

"Well, I'm not ready to say I'm gay, but - I can't imagine any girl doing
that for me!"

"Girls do that all the time!"

"Not the nice ones."

"Well, I wouldn't know about that."

"I would!  Where did you learn that - that thing up my ass?"

"I swear I have never done that before.  I have read about it, and it was
easy to find."

"Damn, man, it felt like a continual orgasm!  And when I came - I hope I
didn't hurt you!  How could you take it all down your throat!  I mean I'm
not all that big -"

"You're not all that small!"

"Didn't it hurt?  Didn't you gag?!"

"It did hurt - a lot!  And I did gag a little, but Gunt raped me for
blackmail, and I sort of learned how to - do it.  It did hurt, but I don't
care.  It was nothing short of spectacular and wonderful, getting you so -
so hot!"

"I WAS hot.  I was, like, out of my body hot!"

"I could tell.  That's what made it so good for me!   I loved giving you
such intense pleasure.  It wold have been better, but,"  I paused.

"What?  But what!?"

"At the very end, I looked up and -"

"What!?"

"My brother was standing in the bathroom door.  He saw us."

"SHIT!  Fuck NO!  You're lying to me!"

"I'm not!  He saw it all - well at least the end part."

"It was because I was making so much noise!  I hate myself!  Your little
brother is such a cool litlle boy!"

"He's sixteen!"

"I know, but - damn, I never wanted to - SHIT!"

"I know!  I feel the same.  But it's not your fault.  I was really into it
myself near the end."

"I'm so damned sorry, Chris!  What can I do to -"

"Nothing.  I have talked with him.  It's probably not all bad.  When I
talked to him, I found out he had unprotected sex with one of this towns
biggest sluts.  I have been able to give him some advice and also told him
to talk with dad.  I kind of told dad, in Seth's presence, that he wanted to
talk to him."

"OOO!  He probably hates you right now!"

"Probably.  But I don't want anything bad to happen to him.  Dad can get him
the proper medical attention."

"What if he tells you dad about - ?"

"He won't!  He knows how important it is to me to keep it a secret at this
time."

"But if he is pissed at you -"

"He won't.  I know my little brother.  I love him and he loves me - he
won't!"

"K.  So, when are we gonna try that again?"

"Well not here!"

"Duh!" he said.  "How about San Diego?"

"Huh?"

"You said we might go to San Diego and swim in the winter.  I'd love to
write home and gloat about that!"

"OH!  Yeah!  Well after Christmas, we have until after New Years to get back
to Berkeley.  I was thinking of calling Rob, to see if he wanted to go with
us."

"NO!"

"Huh?"

HE can't go with us!"

"Why not it would be -"

"I want some quality 'private time' with you!"

"Oh!  That!  Yeah, it's for sure we can't be doing any of that with Rob
around!"

"Maybe we can go to San Diego without him, then see if he wants to caravan
back with us."

"That's right!  He will be driving his own car.  Shoot!  That won't be as
much fun for him, with us in a separate car."

"Okay, why don't we invite him to go to San Diego with us but drive home by
ourselves.  Only this time we will take a motel!  No more sleeping in the
sand!"

"Hey, don't sell the sleeping-in-the-sand experience short.  If not for
that, we may have never done what we did - last night!"

"You're right!"

"Boy, you're surely excited about this - for a straight boy!"  I couldn't
resist!

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!

I opened the door.  "Are you guys up yet?" My mom said.

"Morning Mom!  Yeah, I've been up for awhile.  Sleepy-head here is just
getting up!"

"I am fixing breakfast.  I wasn't going to, but with all the extra company,"

"Oh, Mrs. Gary!  Please don't make a big deal just because I am here!"

"It's not just you, dear.  My daughter and her family weren't supposed to be
here until tonight.  So I am very pleasantly surprised!  First with Chris -
and you!  Then Chris's sister's family."

"Well, don't go out of your way for me!"

"Too late!  Chris's dad is already at the store picking up a few things I
needed!  It's okay!  You're all worth it!  I don't know you well, but if
Chris loves you, then so do I!"

I looked at Craig.  He was blushing.  Could she possibly know?  Or was it
just an innocent remark?

"Anyway, Chris, honey, will you please set the table for me?  I was going to
ask your brother, but he is sleeping like the dead.  I could swear I heard
him talking earlier with your dad.  Oh well, could you do that?"

"Sure Mom!  I'll be there in a minute."  She closed the door.  I went and
locked it.  then I went into the bathroom and locked it too, just in case.
I then went to the bed and offered my hand.  "Come on, sleepy-boy!'  He took
my hand and I pulled him out of bed and into a close hug. We were nose to
nose, and I said, "So did you really mean that kiss you gave me last night?"

"Did I kiss you?!"

"Did you ever!"

"Damn!  I don't even remember!"

"Can I remind you?"  I didn't wait for an answer.  I put my mouth on his.
He tensed up at first, and then he opened his mouth and as soon as my tongue
touched his lips, he thrust his back into my mouth, and closed his eyes.  He
immediately sprang a big one, not any faster that mine, though! "No your not
gay - not at all!  Get dressed, and I'll see you in the kitchen!"  He
grabbed my ass while I was walking out.  I could tell this was going to be a
fun week!


Christmas Eve dinner was nice.  Mom made Mexican Tortilla soup.  It was
really good.  We had been having it ever since we spent Christmas Eve with
some Mexican friends a few years back.  It was a home made chicken soup base
with hominy, and then there were all kinds of things we could add ourselves.
  Like a build-your-own-soup bar.  There were chives, fresh cut tomatoes,
chopped onions, cut up limes, chopped radishes, shredded pepper jack and
cheddar cheeses, and a few other things I can't remember.  OH!  and
tortillas!  I learned from our Mexican friends that I could use loads of
Tobacso Sauce, if I used lots of fresh squeezed lime juice.  It took the
bite out of the Tobasco, but when you are half into the soup, you are
sweating like a pig!

After dinner we opened our gifts. Ever since we were old enough to
understand about Santa, we were opening our stuff on Christmas Eve.  Craig
and I saved our own gifts for a more private time.  When we got to my
bedroom, I opened mine first.  It was a pair of socks with "You're Sooooo
Coool!" on the top band.  I thanked him then gave him his present.  He
opened it excruciatingly slowly.  I commented on that.  "It's a very small
box!  It deserves a big opening!"

When he opened the box he was stunned!  I bought him a sterling silver whale
tail pendant on a fine leather thong.  He immediately got tears in his eyes,
looking completely humiliated.  "This is not fair!"  he said."  I didn't
know - I mean, I didn't get you -"

"Craig!  I love my socks!  We didn't talk over any kind of limit - we didn't
even talk over the idea of buying each other anything!  Don't worry about
it.  We both just bought from our hearts!"

"Well, yeah, but apparently your heart is a lot bigger than mine!"

"Shut up!  I told you I love mine!"

"I am gong to make it up to you!"

"You already have! Last night!"

"ME!"  It was you that - !"

"Craig, will you STOP?"  I implored!  "If you think you have to repay me -
well then my gift is worth nothing!  I did not give it - either this OR last
night - with any intention of getting something for it.  Please just accept
it.  You deserve it - and more!"

"Chris, your mom was right!"

"What?"

"You really do love me, don't you?"  He eyes started to get wet again.

"How - how do you feel about me?"

"I - I - don't know!"  (hard swallow) "This is all so new to me!  I really
liked what we did last night.  I have loved being with you.  I am so
confused!  I -"

"Slow down a little, guy!  I don't know what to think either.  Let's just
take this a little at a time, k?"

(Hugh sigh!)  "Yeah, okay."

I unlocked the outer door to the bathroom, but remembered to lock the one
into my room this time.  We went to bed again in my little twin bed.  We
were both very tired from a long day.  We held each other and fell asleep,
looking into each others' eyes.

The next morning I called Rob.  Downey was only a half hour away from
Cerritos taking the 605 freeway.   Rob was of course surprised to hear from
me.  He was very excited to go to San Diego with us.

Notes:  Well, are Chris and Craig in love!  Are you as in love with them As
I am?  Is big, cute, hot Rob going to join them, making it a threesome?  I
know!  But you don't!  Haha!  Well it's one of the few things I do know!
Please feel free to comment.  Please include "Chris" in the subject line.
Love, Steve - S4d@hotmail.com