Date: Wed, 2 Jul 2014 16:26:46 -0700
From: "e_bacrot@yahoo.com" <e_bacrot@yahoo.com>
Subject: Freshman Justin 14

    Like I said this will be the last installment.  I thought I would make
it long, but I won't.  I really can't write about us anymore, sorry, but I
will wrap it up the best I can.  Its getting way too personal and emotional
to sit and write our story.  Sorry.


The summer was almost here, and we were packing stuff up.  I had said my
goodbyes to most people and was ready to graduate.  Justin and I had
different views of what was happening.  I told him, after 4 years, it was
enough.  I loved him and living with him, but I didn't enjoy living in a
dank cement dorm anymore, I was ready for home and the real world.  He had
just started his experience in college and was looking forward to the next
year.  I told him he had plenty of time to get sick of college like I did
haha.

Justin: You really don't like this situation?

Me: No I like our situation, I don't like where it takes place.  If we
could have this somewhere nice I might feel different.

Justin: Your last summer off huh, then off to work.

Me: Summer off?  Wow, you don't know my father that well I guess.  I'll be
working more this summer than I will when I find a job in my field, believe
me.

Justin: I know I know, I mean last summer off before life begins for you.

Me: Yea, I guess your right.

Justin: alright, well, I'm gonna make a first trip home with some stuff,
I'll be back later this afternoon.

Me: Ok, drive safe.

Justin left and I finished packing.  I kinda had a practical joke going
with him that he wasn't aware of.  My dad had called and asked when to come
down for the graduation and I told him I wasn't doing the cap and gown
thing, they were gonna mail my degree.  He thought I failed out or
something, but I said I just wasn't into that kinda thing.  In high school
when I graduated I knew everyone and it made sense to share it together, in
college, I knew maybe 30 people out of the 1000's graduating, just not my
scene.  But, I had told Justin the time and date and he was excited to see
me graduate and walk up the stage.  Graduation day arrived and Justin was
in the crowd watching.  I could see him from where I was, but he couldn't
see me.  They called my name, knowing I wouldn't be there, and went on the
the next person.  Justin was looking around for me, and had a weird look on
his face.  I snuck up behind him and said "hi" in his ear.  He jumped up
and punched me in the stomach.

Justin: What the fuck?  God you asshole haha.

Me: Yea, I am.  This isn't my thing, I'm glad you came though.

Justin: So you could complete your prank....

Me: Yep :)

Justin: I started to get suspicious when I didn't see your parents
anywhere.

Our celebration was one last night in our suite room together.  All we had
left was one bed with sheets, everything else was moved out.  It was long,
sweaty, and emotional.  We probably went for 4 hours, just everything
involved, pouring our emotion into everything, enjoying our last time
together in our room; our room that had given us both pain and pleasure,
happiness and sorrow.  I guess our last time there was all mixed together,
it was the perfect send off.  I won't go into details, you can make it up
in your head, and if you have read the whole story I think you can figure
out what happened.  We got up, kissed and went our seperate ways heading
home.  I cried on the way home a little, I have no doubt that he did as
well (never asked him).  End of something great, but with every end comes a
new beginning with the potential of being just as great.

Well that was it for me.  College was officially over for my undergrad
shit.  It was also tough because it would be the last time I saw Justin for
almost 2 weeks.  We had the concert coming up in a month, and we had made
plans to hang out before then, but you know how things work in college.
They kinda fade away, people find new challenges and experiences that
become more important than the old ones.  I'm not saying we didn't hang out
during the summer and after his next school year started, and I'm not
saying the concert wasn't great (and what happened after).  But as the
summer rolled on, it was once a week at first, then maybe twice a month,
then by the end of his sophmore year he had found a girl and I only visited
once every few months.  I didn't mind it at all, I was just happy he had
adjusted and didn't need my help anymore.  Well I say I don't mind it now,
but at the time I did of course.  I had met a girl as well, and we both had
our other things going.  But even if we weren't "together", we were
together forever I guess you could say.  Justin was/is the sweetest most
caring person I ever met.  He has a pure heart and trusts people from the
start, only to be let down sometimes, but I admire that about him.  He will
give you the shirt off his back to help you, he will listen to you if you
need an ear to listen to your problems.  He is the biggest, smallest guy I
ever knew.  Feared nothing when someone he loved was in harm to protect
them, but at the same time still needs reassuring from people he loves.
Strong mind and a strong voice, still looks like he is 18 in my opinion
haha.  I might have embelished some of the parts of the story for my own
pleasure, but as I wanted to remember them, they are how they happend.
Anyway things came full circle now that we are a little older, we hang out
after work 3 times a week....its weird how things work out sometimes.  Both
of us are married and have young kids, but I still see the look in his eye
every now and then.  Our wives will never know the connection that we have
together, ever.  And thats not a slight to my wife or Justin's wife, but I
think you know what I mean.  I still give him shit to this day and he gives
it back.  Still, brown cropped hair, little glasses, big brown eyes, too
smart for his own good sometimes.  None of that has changed.  Little fucker
haha, love you buddy, my little glasses wearing freshman kid :).  Thanks
for reading.