Date: Sat, 19 May 2012 08:46:12 -0700 (PDT)
From: Jenny Tian <azulasn@yahoo.com>
Subject: i got a feeling 5

For a second I was confused but then I smiled as I remembered where I
was. Jason had put his arm around my chest and I felt really comfortable
and warm. I closed my eyes again and just enjoyed the wonderful feeling of
being so close to him. His chest to my back, his crotch to my ass and my
head on his strong arm.  Declan was wrong. We did withstand the
temptation. And I also felt that Jason wasn't ready, yet. It was new to
both of us but he had more to struggle with. He had been with women and I
could tell that he wasn't up for wild sex yet. Perhaps I wasn't either but
I knew that I loved sleeping with him. I felt fit and really relaxed. If
only I could wake up every morning in his arms.

"Mmmh." Jason mumbled something and I turned to face him.

"Morning."

"Need to pee." He said, his eyes still half closed. Definitely not a
morning person. He got up and walked to the bathroom. A minute later he was
back in bed.

"Slept well?" I asked.

"Mhm."

"Not very talkative today."

"Go back to sleep."

"No way. It's almost nine."

He grumbled something and pulled the cushion over his head. I grinned, got
up and took a leak myself. Then I grabbed my bag and took out a
present. Perhaps it was stupid to get something, and it was actually more
of a joke, but when I saw it I just had to get it.

"It's not really Christmas yet, but Jase, I got something for you." I said
and he peeked out from under the cushion.

"I like that." He said and managed a smile.

"What?"

"You calling me Jase."

"Oh. Well, this is for you."

"You really got something for me? I don't have anything." He said.

"Doesn't matter. It's nothing much and not really a present. Open it."

"Okay." He said and took the wrapped up box. He carefully opened it and
this gave me the opportunity to look at his chest. He really had muscles
and I was sure he worked out. They probably had their own gym somewhere in
this mansion. He had that amazing washboard abs and his arms. I loved his
strong arms. And of course his beautiful smile and his dark blond hair and
his blue eyes.

Jason finally had the paper off and opened the box. He flinched when a
figure jumped his face.

"Fuck, what's this?" He asked and when he looked closer he chuckled softly
and then gradually laughed louder until I joined him. The figure that
jumped from the box was still wiggling back and forth on the helix. It's
mouth was open and you could see it's red tongue. In his hand it held a
bottle of coke.

"Like it?" I asked with a grin.

"Absolutely. Just reminds me of my own stupidity with that tabasco-coke."
He suddenly looked at me with intense eyes. "I always wanted to ask you,
how come you always knew something was up?"

I shrugged. "I just had a feeling. And you know what they say, harm set,
harm get."

"Yes. You sure proved that true but you still didn't explain me how you
always knew."

"Let's talk about that another time, okay?"

"Sure." He said and I wondered why I was uncomfortable telling him. In a
split second I changed my mind. I wanted our relationship to be really
honest. "Jase, it's not really a secret."

He nodded and I continued. "Your father knows and many others do as well. I
get these feelings that tell me if something is wrong or they tell me what
to do. That's one of the reasons your father hired me."

"So that's why you always knew what was up."

"That's right."

"I see." He said and then frowned. I knew what was coming. "Fate is on our
side. You said that yesterday."

"Yes."

"So you had the feeling that we'd end up together?" He asked.

"Not at first. I had the feeling that I'd be with someone named Jason but I
met two other Jason's at first. One is an old professor and the other just
a kid. And then you came and at first I didn't want it to be you and later
I wanted it to be you but I was scared of listening to my feeling."

"But you did."

"Yes."

"And your feeling tells you what?"

"That we'll be happily ever after."

"Fuck, I hate this." He said. "This sounds like it's predestined and we
don't have a choice."

"We do. You can just..." I swallowed hard. "You can just say you don't want
to see me anymore and we can stop it if you don't want it. I won't hate you
if you do."

Jason was quiet for a long time and I just sat there, wondering what he
thought about all of this, wondering if he'd say no to me just to defy my
feeling, just so he wasn't a part of some predestined plan. But I never
thought of it as predestination. My feeling usually just told me whether or
not something was good or not and the decision was still in our hands. Like
the guy that didn't listen to me. He became a father at his young age but
that just meant that he went the harder way when he could have prevented
that from happening.

"This is so stupid." Jason grumbled. "But... I really like you and I'm not
just stopping what we have just because of a stupid feeling. So... we try
this boyfriend thing."

I smiled and he pushed me back on the bed with his hand. "So, what do you
think I'm going to do now?" He asked.

"You wish."

"Sure do. So?"

"Shouldn't we go eat breakfast or something?"

Jason grinned at me with a suggestive expression and I pushed him off me
but laughed. "Nope, I'm not your breakfast."

"Too bad." He said but followed me in putting on some clothes and then we
went to the kitchen.

"You're not eating in the dining hall?" I asked.

"No, that's just for dinner and sometimes lunch when we're all here. When
we eat individually we just go to the kitchen."

I nodded and when we sat down in the huge kitchen the friendly cook brought
us our plates with wonderful food. After we ate we went up to his room and
just sat down on the couch, our feet lightly touching and neither of us
saying something. For some reason I didn't feel uncomfortable and just
enjoyed sitting there peacefully with him.

Jason was the first to break the silence. "Tell me a little more about
yourself. I only know that you have a best friend named Declan and that you
have those weird feelings."

"Let's see, my birthday is on the 24th of January and I'm a single child. I
like cats but I've never had a pet because my mother is allergic. My
parents are okay and they know about you. After I got the feeling I told
them that I'd meet someone named Jason."

"How did they react?"

"Surprised, probably a little shocked but they know whatever I say is
true."

"That's pretty amazing."

"I guess. Declan and I go away during summer and winter breaks. Beach in
the summer and mountains in the winter. We're both snowboarders. You?"

"Me too." Jason said. "So you'll be gone. When?"

"In a little less than a month. You know, you could come as well."

"I don't know. Wouldn't I be intruding?"

"I don't think so. Maybe you should meet Declan first but if he likes you
it should be cool. We sometimes take other friends with us and once or
twice he brought his girlfriend of the month."

"Girlfriend of the month?"

"He changes them like... like his shoes. Yes, he has new shoes almost every
month."

Jason chuckled and the sound sent tingles through my body.

"Now you tell me a little about yourself." I said and he did. He told me
about his family, how he really loved his little brother Jesse, about his
friends that I already met and then we talked about music, movies, sports
and things that went on here and in other places of the world. I really
began to like him more. The time passed fast and around noon we went to get
some snacks and watched a movie. I didn't concentrate on the movie though.

I always thought it was stupid to go to the cinema or watch a movie to just
make out. Whenever Declan went to the movies with his girlfriends he never
really knew what the movie was about and I always made fun of him. But now
that we sat next to each other I felt myself getting nervous and my heart
beat faster.

Perhaps I'd have paid attention to the screen if the first few seconds were
really catching but they weren't so I just stared at Jason's leg that was
pressed against mine and then looked up, saw the bulge at the front and let
my eyes wander up on his chest. I gazed at his strong chest and then his
neck, his Adam's apple and his lips. They turned into a smile and I looked
up to see Jason grinning at me and blushed. I couldn't believe I actually
blushed but he probably couldn't see it because we'd shut the light and
only the screen was lighting up the room.

Jason didn't say anything and just put his arm around my shoulders and
pulled me closer. For a while I stared at the screen and enjoyed the
feeling but then I couldn't just sit still anymore and again turned to look
at him. Jason was now the one staring at me. His intense eyes almost made
me shiver.

His arm on my shoulders pulled me closer to him until our lips
touched. Just softly, like the touch of a feather. But then I put my hands
on his back and we made out for real. His tongue asked for entry and I
opened my mouth, letting him inside. Jason was an amazing kisser and I got
lost in it, I let my hands caress his back and just enjoyed it. I felt
myself getting more aroused but I didn't try to take it one step
further. We were taking things slow and Jason was probably still working
things out in his head. So we just made out and well, when the movie was
over I had no idea what it was about. Jason and I were both flustered and
out of breath when we stopped kissing and I smiled at him. He just smiled
back and we stayed close together on the couch.

When it was time for me to leave I really didn't want to. I wanted to stay
here with Jason and make out some more and talk some more. Since I didn't
have work the next week he said he'd call me so we could see each other
sometime after Christmas.

I was probably floating home and when I walked by my father he grinned at
me with a knowing smile.

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I really didn't have a good feeling about it. As soon as he mentioned it I
knew it would be unpleasant and I didn't want an unpleasant new year. But
not going would be even worse.

The last week was really great. We had a small Christmas-party with just my
parents and me and we talked a lot, about everything, we enjoyed the
beautiful and peaceful time of the year and ate good food. The next day,
the 25th we went to my grandparents where all the other relatives
were. That meant another set of grandparents, an uncle from my mother's
side, one two more uncles and an aunt from my father's side and many
cousins. I was totally stuffed in the end and could barely walk to the car
because my tummy was so full.

The next day I hung out with Declan, we had presents for each other and we
went out for a drink. I always enjoyed spending time with him and felt very
lucky to have such a wonderful friend. Who else had someone like Declan,
who never judged me, we never really fought, who really loved me and cared
about me. We were more like brothers than friends.

Declan definitely wanted to meet Jason and I told him that I'd try to set
up a meeting. Declan's opinion on that matter was really important to me,
no matter what my feeling told me.

And in those days Jason and I were texting each other. Just a few messages
a day and before going to bed he called me and we talked for a while. I
felt really close to him and he was constantly on my mind and in my
dreams. When I finally went over to his house it was the first time that I
didn't go there for work. Only seconds after I rang the doorbell Jason
opened the door with a huge grin on his face. "Come in." He said and I
followed him into his rooms.

He closed the door behind me and pushed me against the wall to ravish my
mouth. I didn't resist and just enjoyed the kiss.

"Missed you, too." I said when he finally stopped attacking my lips.

"Sorry." He said with a smile.

"I'm not protesting, am I?"

"No. So did you bring your swimsuit?"

"Yes."

"Great. Let's go."

They had a big indoor-pool. At the end there was like an opening that led
outside if they opened the room and probably led outside. It was amazing to
swim in the big pool when there was just the two of us. We changed and took
a quick shower and then jumped from the diving board into the water.

When I came up I saw Jason's wet hair, drops of water dripping down, his
shoulders glistened and he looked so incredibly sexy I wanted to jump
him. But instead I went under and grabbed his foot. If I attacked Jason
somewhere else I'd probably stand no chance since he had much more muscle
and was taller than me. But I was a good swimmer and even though it was him
who had the pool I trusted my abilities to make him suffer a little.

Jason struggled but I held on to his foot and pulled him under. We fought
underwater and when we came up we were both breathing hard but
laughing. And then he tried to attack me and we just fooled around in the
big pool. When we were exhausted we laid down in the seats next to the pool
and talked a little about the week and other stuff.

"Are you free on Saturday?" I then asked him.

"My friends are coming over. Why?"

"I wanted to ask if you wanted to meet Declan then. Tomorrow he isn't free
so I thought the day after tomorrow. But..."

"You can both come over."

"Are you sure? I mean..."

"You already met my friends." Declan said. "And besides, Kyle has been
asking about you. He thinks you're a good guy. I know better, of course."

I slapped his arm and he looked at me with a mock hurt expression. "Ouch!
That's exactly what I'm talking about. Violent for no reason! Ouch! Hitting
others! Not a good guy, definitely not. Ouch! You're so mean!" I hit him
for the fourth time and he grinned. "So, you coming over on Saturday with
your friend?"

"Sure." I said. I was sure that Declan would do the
you-hurt-my-friend-I-come-after-you-speech and I should probably warn him
about Jason being in the closet and having to stay there.

Jason and I spent the rest of the day in his room. We made out, we watched
a movie (we really watched it) and then I ate dinner with the
Carbons-family. Cliff Carbons was happy to see Jason and me becoming
friends and Jesse was a sweetheart like always.

So everything was wonderful and great, I felt like it was the best time of
my life but then came Saturday.

Declan and I went to the mansion and when he saw where Jason lived,
Declan's jaw dropped. For a while he just stared at the mansion and then
looked at me, back at the mansion and again at me. "He lives here?" He
asked.

"Yup."

"Damn. That's one rich family."

"Yup."

"You have a rich boyfriend."

"Yup."

"Can I have him?"

"Nope."

"Too bad." Declan grinned at me and I went to ring the doorbell. I could
see that Declan was surprised that not a maid opened the door but
Jesse. That really reminded me of the first time I ever came here.

"Come in, they're all in Jason's room." Jesse said and just then his mother
came, greeted us with a friendly smile and led Jesse into another room.

"Fuck, why are they so rich?" Declan whispered as he followed me upstairs.

"You build your own company and if you're lucky you'll live in a house like
this too."

"Yeah, sure. No, I'll just marry some rich girl. Do they have a daughter?"

"No, idiot." I slapped his arm and he grinned at me.

Jason and his friends were sitting on the couch. I saw Kyle and Cameron and
Adrian if I remembered his name right. But the fourth one wasn't present.

"Hey guys." I said and they all said hi. I introduced Declan to them and
noticed him staring at Jason, who was looking hard back at him. I really
hoped this was going to go well because both liked me and both had that
protective-macho-thing. They were both really built and a fight between the
two of them was something I really didn't want to see. I wasn't sure who
would win.

But they behaved and Jason then smiled at me and I thought I could see the
hunger in his eyes. I so wanted to kiss him, let him ravish me but we were
surrounded by friends.

Kyle said we should go bowling and so went down to the bowling hall. We all
played at the same lane and while one played the others sat back, drank and
talked. I got to know Kyle better and the more I heard about him the more I
liked him.

He was very good at bowling, as was Declan. I could see that Jason was
doing his best and never wanted Declan to win. Jason won but it was
close. A while later the two of them went out and I wondered if I should
follow them but I let it be and just hoped they would become friends.

The rest of the day was really nice and we all enjoyed the company of the
others. Even Jason and Declan were friendly. And then Cameron mentioned the
new years party. As soon as he said it I felt that unpleasant feeling and I
hoped Jason would not go but he looked excited about it.

"Are you guys coming, too?" He asked.

Declan shrugged and looked at me. "Why not?"

"That's great. I can come get you two." Jason said and they all began to
make plans, Cameron and Adrian telling how great the party would be and I
just felt bad. I would go. For one because Jason really wanted to, and
second because I felt that if I didn't go it would be even worse.

Whatever was going to happen on New Year, I was not really looking forward
to it and I braced myself for a shitty party.


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