Date: Thu, 9 Nov 2000 17:18:13 +0100
From: Josh <joshbc20@yahoo.com>
Subject: If I could, part 1

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Ok, let me say first that I really enjoyed all the response I got, writing
"True Love".  Even though I said, I wasn't gonna write anymore, your mails
made me realize that you have to keep positive and I'm trying my best to be
:)

For my old readers (that is those who read "True Love"), you may recognize
some characters from the old story, because I decided to include some of
them to tell you what happened to them.  To my possible new readers, just
enjoy the story!!!

This story is 100% fictional and any resemblance to real things is pure
coincidence!!!

Let me thank you again for your great response! Love you guys!
I've got a new address: joshbc20@yahoo.com
So keep sending those mails!
Love, Josh
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If I could (The sequel to "True Love"), Part 1
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Let me introduce myself first, my name's Rick, I'm 19 and just got started
my first year at college. I'm just your average looking guy, never was the
most popular guy in high school but nevertheless there were some people who
liked me and thought of me as being a great guy :) So did my girlfriend
Jennifer, she is the most pretty girl I've ever seen and I considered
myself as the luckiest guy in the world being the guy that she loved.  She
was the girl-next-door I madly fell in love with, I think everybody
considered us as being right for each other and so did I.  Until this year
we did everything together, we always went to the same schools and our
social lives were kinda based on each other. But this year, after we both
graduated from high school, I decided to go to another college, far away
from home. I told her that I wanted to see what life is like away from
everything you know, from everyone you know. She said she wasn't ready to
do that and decided to go to a local college back at home. We promised each
other that whatever happened we would never forgot the thing we had and how
much we loved each other.  But last week, when we had to say goodbye, I
really had a tough time dealing with not being able to see her for a few
months and I couldn't keep myself from saying I loved her and that way it
became a real hard time for both of us, so we promised to keep in contact.

So here I was, in a new town with all this new people around me. I moved in
the dorm and I already met a few of my new dorm-mates, they seemed nice but
at the moment my mind was elsewhere, with Jennifer.  School was starting
next week, so I had another week to get to know everything and everyone,
but today there was this big welcome-party and since a few guys asked me to
join them, I agreed and went along.  I had been to parties before, so I was
used to people doing wild things and trying to find a new date, some just
for a night, others trying to find their true love...  But this was way
bigger than anything I had ever seen, so I was a bit overwhelmed.  Anyway
it was getting late (or early, as you could also say) and us guys were
getting drunk from all the beers we had to drink, I mean being a freshman
at college, you kinda have to proof yourself and drinking is part of that
:) I wasn't the person who drank much, so it didn't take a long time for me
to get drunk, only two or three beers was enough to lose control.  Normally
I was a really shy guy, but now I decided to dance along with the others
and just make some fun.  After about an hour I decided it was enough for me
and wanted to go back to the dorm, just about then another boy entered the
room and looked me right in my eyes. I got a funny feeling and didn't know
what was happening to me, I couldn't move, I just stared in this guys'
eyes, they were so special. Two blue eyes, in which you could drown if you
weren't careful enough. He noticed I still was staring and smiled.

"Hi, I'm Robin. If you could stop staring for a moment, you maybe could
tell me your name." he said.

Just at that moment I felt my head starting to spin and I had to get out. I
hated myself for drinking too much and went outside to throw up, leaving my
new found friend alone with probably the worst impression I guy could make.
One of my buddies just left the party and saw me, he took me back to the
dorm.

I woke up the next day at noon with the sound of Jake, my neighbour
shouting at the door to open up.  I got up, wearing just my boxers to find
that I had the most painful headache I had ever had, I just put on a
t-shirt and opened the door.

"Man, you really shouldn't drink that much, you know!" Jake said with a
smile when he saw my face.

"Yeah remind me, next time there's a party, not to go with you again." I
joked.  "Why are here shouting like a fool at my door anyway, you knew I
drank to much last night." I asked.

"Hey, don't blame me. It's just that there was a phone call that might
interest you." he said.

"Jennifer?" I asked.

"Nope man, you really miss that girl, don't you? It was your roommate
calling to tell that he's coming over in a hour." Jake told me.

"Wow, in an hour. Jeezes, I've still got to clean up and take a shower. I
better hurry!" I said while I began taking my clothes together and put them
away in the closet.  After 15 minutes, the room was kinda clean, well it
was fine to me anyway. So a quick shower then!  On my way to the bathroom,
I passed the kitchen where I quickly took an apple to eat and hurried
myself to the shower. You see, our dorm has a communal bathroom with
several showers to share with my other dorm-mates.  I went in to see I was
alone, well normally I also would have been showered and dressed already at
this hour, but just last night... well I'll try not to drink next time I go
to a party. Man, this headache was killing me.  The hot water felt good on
my body, I always enjoy a good hot shower, it makes me forget all my
problems. Just enjoying the water pouring on every muscle in your body :) I
got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist and was just
about to brush my teeth when this guy entered. He looked kinda familiar,
but I didn't know where I knew him from.

"So I see, you made it back to your room last night." he smiled.

"Yeah, I did. Just made it." I joked.

He saw me looking at him again, trying to remember him.  "The name's Robin,
remember? From last night." he said.

"I'm sorry, I had a bit to much alcohol yesterday. You see, normally I
don't drink but Jake and the guys were drinking and gave some beers too. I
was really sick." I tried to explain.

He smiled and said he understood. Then he looked me in the eyes again and
asked me what my name was.  These eyes, I remembered. I saw them last night
and told myself it were the most beautiful eyes I ever saw.

"Your eyes..." I said "... I remember you now Robin."

He smiled, "So, well I guess you took a good look at them. But I still
don't know your name!"

"Oh sorry, I'm Rick." I wanted to shake his hand, but just when I put out
my hand, my towel slipped.  Here I stood, fully exposed to Robin. I really
know how to make a good impression to people, last night I just could avoid
throwing up on him and now I was playing mister-exhibitionist to him.  "I'm
sorry Robin. I guess this isn't my day." I smiled. "But hey, there's
nothing to hide that I didn't see before."

We shook hands and told him my new roommate was coming over, so I had to
hurry.  Just when I was about to enter my room, I saw another guy standing
there. He had the same height as me, about 6' and he had brown hair and
eyes. He was really cute and seemed nice too.

"So you must be Rick," the guy told me, "I'm Josh."

"Hi Josh, nice to meet you. So a freshman too?" I asked him.

"Well, not really. It's my second year, but I just got transferred from
another college. We moved and I wanted to get away from some people I
knew." he told me.

"Oh, sounds like love-problems." I smiled. "So, I guess this girl hurt you
a lot then?"

"Actually, his name is Matthew and all I can say is that I really loved
him, but there was no future for us."

Wow, I wasn't expecting this at all. My first time living alone and now I
had a gay-roomy, speaking of new things.

"Well, then you should move on Josh. I mean, I'm sure there are lots of
nice guys waiting for you here." I said.

"Thanks, I didn't know how you were gonna react, but I wanted to be honest
with you." Josh said.

"That's kind of you. It's all a bit new to me, I mean I don't know any gay
guys, but I'm cool with it." I smiled.  "So Josh, let's get you unpacked
and introduce to our dorm-mates."


To be continued...

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