Date: Mon, 28 Jun 2004 18:23:04 -0700 (PDT)
From: Rio Mack <badprose@yahoo.com>
Subject: If Only I Were Gay 2

"If Only I Were Gay . . ." (part 2)

by Rio Mack

	Leif paused for a minute, trying, through his stoned bliss, to
appreciate the magnitude of the moment.  What he'd dreamt about, longed
for, drove himself to shamed distraction over - mind-blowing sex with some
gorgeous hunk - was right here, right in front of him.  This huge, perfect,
uncut cock, for example.  He kissed it in a kind of erotic gratitude, then
rubbed it all over his stubbly face and head.  Joel was whimpering in
ecstasy.  Leif gently took that thick massive hunk of rock-hard man-meat,
still stunned at being able to play with another guy's dick like this, and
tried moving the skin up and down.  It slid beautifully; the fleshy
foreskin, now only slightly covering up the dusky red head, exposed it
further as Leif jacked it.  It was a marvelous new toy he wanted to while
away hours with.  He could feel it getting twitchy.  He moved his mouth in
and alternated kisses and licks on that sweet head, while stroking the
shaft with the graceful fingers of one hand, tickling that huge ballsac
with the other.  Joel was crying out now, "Oh dude, Oh shit.  Leif, I
fucking love this.  Don't ever stop!  You are the best fucking lover ever!
Too sweet, man.  Just incredible!  Oh how fucking much I've longed for sex
like this!"  Joel's intense desire for sex with another guy - simmering, he
knew now, for a long time just below consciousness, at the level of deep
bodily desires - had now finally flourished into full, luxuriant bloom.

	Leif purred, lapping at that huge dick a bit more.  In the back of
his mind, he still couldn't believe it.  One of his recurrent sexual
fantasies up to now was that he'd wandered into some landscape being used
as the set for an Abercrombie & Fitch catalogue shoot, and he'd gotten
there just in time for the after-party orgy.  One of the beautiful naked
models took a fancy to him and . . . well, Leif had jacked off many times
to that one.  And now . . . He held Joel's dick harder, never wanting to
let go, and tongued deep into the piss-slit.

	"Oh fuck!  Oh fuck, I love this, man!" Joel moaned.

	With great difficulty, only because his ass was itching to be
filled by that slicked-up beauty of a cock, Leif managed to pull himself up
and embrace his first gay lover, the lover of his dreams.  They kissed
ravenously, going at each other like two starving men given their first
meal in weeks, grinding their dicks together in desperate passion.  Leif
drew back and said, "Come on," and the thin beauty pulled the big jock by
that thick rod into the bedroom.

	"Make yourself comfortable, dude," he said, slapping Joel's ass and
pointing to his floor futon, covered with pillows and lovely East Indian
cloths.  Meanwhile, he lit the twenty-some candles he kept around the room,
a hard feat given how much his hands were trembling with lust.  Then he
brought over another full bowl of dope for them.  Joel grabbed the pipe,
focusing on it now instead of the bobbing ivory dick of his lanky
dream-boy, which had hypnotized him as he'd watched it dart around the
room.

	"Joel, this is the most turned on I've ever been during sex in my
life," Leif said quietly, stroking Joel's dirty-blonde shoulder-length
hair, still not believing what was transpiring.  "Thank you, man."

	"Oh Leif," Joel said, as a huge puff of dope left his lungs.
"Ditto, dude.  I finally know what sex is, what passion is.  Oh, you
fine-assed, beautiful-looking stud!  You are so fucking hot!  Damn, it's
like I want to do all sorts of wild, nasty things to you! Fuck, my whole
body is just tingling with desire for you!"  He took another hit and passed
the bowl to Leif, who finished it off.

"Mmmm, "said Leif, releasing a lungful and looking at that muscular beauty
sprawled on the madras throws, candle-light playing off the curves and
ripples of his sleek, powerful body, looking like some Bedouin prince ready
for total pleasure in his harem, "and what a gorgeous fucking body it is,
dude."  As Leif took another hit, Joel stared at the tall, lean,
lightly-muscled stud.  "God, do I want to fuck you.  Fuck, man, I've never
wanted to cum in someone so badly in my whole life.  My whole body wants
you, not just my dick - my mind, my soul.  I want to be in you, be one with
you.  Leif, you are simply the best-looking person I've ever been to bed
with.  Fuck, how you turn me on, man."

	Leif smiled, put the pipe down, and straddled the legs of his hot,
buff hunk.  He played with his tits a little, kissed him, and took that big
dick in his hand, letting his long fingers play with the foreskin and head
some more, unable to get enough of it, grasping it alongside his own
throbbing member.  They both luxuriated in that sensation a while. The two
of them were like nearly-drowned men that had been exhaustedly thrashing
around in the sea forever, it seemed, who now lie there on the beautiful
warm beach of Leif's bed, savoring their incredible fortune and joy, eager
to start a bold new life after feeling all hope lost.

Then Joel sat up, grabbed Leif's head and kissed him deep in the mouth,
tongue swirling with all the desire in him.  He pushed Leif back so he
could stare at that smooth young body in the candle-light.  He let the
fingers of one hand play across Leif's lips and stubbled cheeks and head.
The other hand took Leif's long, milky-white dick and rubbed it up and down
until Leif sighed with pleasure while he kissed and licked Joel's fingers
playing across his face.  The two young men loved this naked closeness of
utter intimacy.  Joel moved his hand slowly down to the base of Leif's cock
and sensually closed on the boy's balls, twirling them around in his hand.
Then he moved lower and, with his middle finger, pushed with an almost shy
desire against the sweet tight hole that would be his gateway to pure
pleasure.

	"MMMMMM," a loud, guttural moan from Leif.  "Oh yeah, dude!  Yeah!"
Leif wriggled his ass excitedly against Joel's finger.  "Damn, have I been
waiting for this!  Here," he said as he licked juicy saliva all over the
fingers of Joel's that were still in his mouth.  Then he brought them down
to his ass-crack.  "I got you slicked up so you can finger me like crazy."

	He lay back, sighed in stoned, dreamy pleasure, and watched as his
candle-lit stud hovered over him, bent down to kiss him, then gently but
firmly let his spit-slick fingers explore his first male pussy.  With the
other hand he slowly jacked Leif's rock-hard cock.  His glistening fingers
played in and around the boy's hole, eliciting sweet, sharp coo's from his
lithe lover.  He periodically brought his fingers back to his mouth to keep
them moist and slippery.  The thought of penetrating this tight little
hole, being even closer to his stud-lover, had Joel in the heights of
erotic passion.  He wanted to show Leif what a strong, athletic lover he
was, give him the best fuck he could.  He watched as Leif's hole got wider
and wider under the insistent stretching of his strong fingers.  Finally he
could put it off no longer, the sight of this glistening boy-pussy was too
tempting.  He bent in closer and started tonguing Leif's sweet pucker.  It
was utter bliss for both of them; they were totally amped.  Sex had been a
dark, tedious journey for both of them until now, but turning a corner,
they'd suddenly found themselves in the midst of some beautiful garden,
some incredible pleasure-zone.  Joel could feel the piston throbbing and
dripping between his legs - harder than ever before, he thought, hard but
patient, as if it knew what was ahead, and could eagerly wait for the
dream-sex to come.

	Leif was loving his first real rim job.  A couple girls had done a
few token tongue-swipes to appease him when he'd asked, but now he was
getting the deluxe version of what his body craved.  He lie there in total
pleasure, and then rose up to kiss his stud, leaning him on his back.

	"I want this to never end, dude," he said as he kissed Joel.  Then
Leif flipped around, shinnying his body down toward Joel's cock, until his
ass-crack was back in front of Joel's mouth.  Joel laughed and called out,
"This is the move that got you thrown out of that chick's dorm!"  The boy
smiled and shimmied his crack over Joel's eager tongue.  Leif's own dick
was painfully hard, and an irresistible lure to Joel, who brought a hand up
to jack it quick and hard - he wanted Leif to come fast so he could use his
cream as lube for their first fuck.  Leif reached down and lightly stroked
back and forth along Joel's long thick meat, slowly but firmly, keeping him
totally revved up until it was time to fuck.  Leif had secretly craved a
huge, hard cock in his ass for so long.  He'd fingered his hole so often
when he masturbated, and begged the girls he'd dated to use their fingers
or tongue down there, but none really understood his desire.  He'd dreamed
of the big-dicked men he saw on the web, ramming it home while he bucked
back.  Oh man, to think his time was finally here, and with a man more
beautiful than he could have ever dreamed.

	"Joel, this is everything, man.  Perfect.  I never want you to
leave."

	"You'll have to kick me out without my clothes," he mumbled between
lusty slurps.  His one hand, working in tandem with his tongue, kept
stretching the hole in that smooth, creamy ass, while the other had Leif
close to coming.  Sure enough Leif gave a quick hard grunt, and his
boy-cream started oozing out in juicy spurts.  Joel grabbed all of it,
waiting until Leif had shot his whole load, then he pushed Leif onto his
back.  Raising his own rippling musculature up, he kneeled over the scruffy
pirate angel beneath him, lathering Leif's cream all over his own
precum-slick tool and around Leif's beckoning boy-pussy.

	"I am totally stoked for the best fuck of my life."

	"Me, too, dude.  Throw me the best fuck ever.  God, I'm so fucking
ready."

	Joel looked down at the cool, slender stud below him, and focused
on the cut, sexy ass he was about to fuck.  What a fabulous prize to have
in front of him.  Oh, where the fuck have I been all my life, he asked.  He
bent down and kissed that beautiful scruffy face again, rubbed Leif's sexy
hip-bones a little, then rose back up, massaged those sweet creamy-white
buns, and began to work his cum-greased cock into Leif's waiting hole.  It
only took a couple of tries before he was easing slowly and luxuriously in
his new lover's tight ass.  Christ, what a feeling.

	"Oh Leif," he groaned, "THIS is fucking!  Oh man, let's do this
forever!"  He went slow and sensual at first cause he wanted them both to
savor their first time.  Joel was totally caught up in the pure physical
rapture of long-dicking his young stud's tight hole, a deep, bodily
pleasure unlike any other.  In a few seconds, the blissed-out Leif caught
Joel's rhythm and started to gyrate his hips up and back and side to side,
riding that long stud cock as it pumped him in and out.  The sensation had
him gasping.

	"Damn, Joel, this is fantastic.  Harder, man, faster.  I want your
big dick to really ram my ass!  Let's really get it on, dude!"  Joel was
only to happy to oblige.  He picked up Leif's lean, lanky legs, threw them
over his shoulders, and released about four months of frustrated sexuality
into the boy.  His well-muscled abs, lower back, strong thighs, and
powerful arms became a sleek, rippling fuck machine.  Soon, a sexy sheen of
sweat covered him, Leif saw, and his tawny hair was matted with dripping
sweat.  God, what a hunk, was Leif's last thought before he drifted off
into sheer passion.  He was bucking now in ecstasy at Joel's quick,
rhythmic ramming, matching the bigger boy's every stroke.  Joel looked down
at his scruffy dude tossing his head back and forth amid the pillows,
caught up in the throes of utter delight.  They worked together in a
beautiful equation of lust.  Harder and faster and deeper Joel went,
matched by Leif at every stroke, as an animal fury took them further and
further.  Joel's could feel his balls bouncing madly in his sac, banging
exquisitely against Leif's ass.

	"Oh, you fucking sweet bitch, I could fuck your sweet as all night.
Damn, you get a dude hard and hot for you!"

	"Oh fuck me, you big fucking stud.  God, your cock is so fucking
big and hard, I feel like I've got a log in me.  Pound my fucking ass.  I
could ride this thing all night!"

	"Yeah," Joel, grunted, getting close, "that sweet lean ass.  I'm
gonna fuck it every day.  This fucking ass is mine, you fine fucking stud."

	"Uh, uh, oh, I'm cumming, Joel!" and Leif squirted his third load
of the night all over his chest and abs.  Joel missed not a stroke as he
scooped up what he could, took a slurp himself, and fed the rest to Leif's
lust-crazed mouth.

	"You gorgeous fucking cum-hound!" Leif managed to say, as his very
breath was fucked out of him.

	It got too much for Joel; he knew the next couple thrusts would do
it.

	"Here it comes, you sweet beautiful bitch.  Hope your tight little
boypussy is ready for - uhhhhnnngghhh!"  And he came harder than ever
before.  Still thrusting, but overcome with delirium, each thrust pumping
loads of cum into Leif's well-fucked ass.  When he had been fucked dry, he
collapsed on his lover, lay still for a while, then slowly, worshipfully,
rubbed Leif's lean, luscious body, as if he were venerating the gods for
having given him such joy.

	"Oh Joel, God do I love you!  Oh, fuck, that was fine!  We are real
men now, dude.  We finally know what man-sex really is.  Fucking
incredible.  Oh fuck, man, I am so glad I was your first gay lover, dude.
Fuck, I want to have so much more sex with you!"

	"Oh yes, dude, fuck yes.  More and more and more.  Damn, Leif, that
was fucking SEX!  You're incredible, man.  Thank you!" he panted in the
afterglow, rubbing and kissing his lanky dude all over.  "Lovers for sure,
man.  Shit yes.  God, this is wonderful.  So exciting!  YOU are wonderful,
dude.  Fuck, I want to make that bar we went to a national shrine or
something!"

	He kept his beautiful new lover in his arms, letting his hands play
everywhere over his body, all the while kissing and licking wherever he
could.  Leif was in the bliss of exhaustion, but returned what he could of
Joel's sensuous touches.

	"Man, are you ever a hot lover.  And you say chicks didn't dig
this?" Leif asked, getting hard again.  Joel saw the boy's cock had risen
and was on it in an instant, one hand playing with the boy's tiny red tits,
the other working the cock base and balls, his tongue madly slurping.  Leif
held Joel's head down, letting his hands wander through his lover's thick,
damp, shoulder-length hair.

	"Damn, so this is sex, huh?  No wonder it's so popular . . ." he
dreamily sighed, bucking his hips languorously into Joel's mouth.  "I've
never cum four times in my life, but shit, dude, see what you can do!  No
way can it hurt to try!"



	The next morning, Joel woke to the startled feeling of
disorientation that comes from waking up in a space different from one's
own bedroom.  After getting oriented, he remembered last night in the cold,
sober morning.  The reality of what had happened - his first sexual
encounter with another guy - stood out in sharp relief.  They were both so
swept away.  Jesus, what were they thinking.  Fuck, just who is this guy?
But any anxiety soon dissolved into the warm bodily memories of the
incredibly hot sex he'd shared with the beautiful young boy sleeping next
to him.  Oh yeah, it was right, Joel thought.  He could easily take a
steady diet of that.  He felt more in sync, more enamored of Leif than he
had with any girl he could remember.  His dick was soon stiffening at the
thought of what they'd done, of his fine young lover's skill in bed, how
good it felt to kiss and suck and stroke and fuck that gorgeous body.  And
how eager he was to get right back to it.  He hadn't had anything
approaching regular sex in a long time, and Leif and he were calling each
other 'lovers' last night, which meant . . . But then he was seized with a
horrible thought: what if that was just the buzz talking?  What if Leif
woke up embarrassed - or worse, ashamed - at what they'd done?  He lie in
bed a while longer thinking about how much he desired Leif, how incredibly
exciting the thought of this boy as his lover was, how right it felt, how
much he wanted to hang with him, be with him, get to know him, spend days
and days and days with him, but he was now overcome with the thought it was
not to be.  He heard Leif grunt and move next to him as the hot boy woke.

	"Oh fuck, what a night," the young stud moaned.  He opened his
eyes, smiled, and reached a big, slender hand over to give Joel's cock a
squeeze, then raised his body up to plant a wet, luscious kiss on Joel's
lips.  "Mmmm, who wants to go again?"

	"Oh, man, Leif," Joel said, as he gratefully stroked the lean,
tender beef of Leif's body, "I was worried maybe it was all a dream.  I'd
been lying here digging the thought of a relationship with you, and then I
thought maybe it was all a silly dream or something."

	Leif continued stroking Joel's dick to hardness, while moving his
mouth lower on his nipples.  "If it is a dream, DO NOT attempt to wake me."

Joel continued to dance his hands all over the smooth, lightly muscled
flesh of his sweet new boyfriend, loving to be able to be so intimate with
this young beauty.  He thought of a life ahead of him in which he'd be
saying, "This is my boyfriend, Leif."  'Boyfriend'?  Jesus, he thought,
who'da thunk he'd ever be saying that?  But Leif made it feel so right and
so easy.  He'd had a flood of desire to give for so long, and now such a
wonderful someone to give it to.  "Leif, why did we wait so long to try
this?  Obviously we both thought about it a lot, given all the net time we
spent on it."

Leif rose up opposite Joel and thought about it.  "We're conditioned, I
guess?  Who wants to be thought of as queer?"

	As they lay side by side, Joel caressed his lanky lover all along
his torso.  "Mmmmm, after last night, I sure as fuck do."  He licked and
kissed all over Leif's smooth, curved abs, spending time on those pointy
hip-bones he loved so much.  Leif's abs were firm and lean and definitely
cut, very sexy, but not as breathtakingly beautiful as the ripped,
deliciously curvy set Joel had.  It was as if all the fat had burned out of
his body, Leif thought.  All that was left was just a thin sheath of flesh
over gorgeous muscles.  The sexiest-looking model from the new Ralph Lauren
ad stepped out of the pages of a magazine and into my life, Leif thought,
as he let his tongue play all over those abs, rubbing his stubble roughly
across them because he knew Joel loved that.  Then he got to work on that
cock, flipping his crotch over top Joel's head, so he could work on that
rock-hard man-flesh he could not get enough of.  The two of them could
finally enjoy the 69ing they had fantasized about so much as they clicked
through photo after photo on the net.  Gay sex that was real, not virtual,
was all so new and incredibly wondrous to them.  Joel still marveled at how
that full, supple dick of Leif's, which would just snake down along his
thigh in a sexy sort of pout, got so hard and long and straining as he
played with it or took it in his mouth.  He intellectually knew it would
happen, of course, but it was still an incredible treat to see up close.
From having no sex for so long, his senses were now filled with a hundred
details of this astonishing new sex.  They still handled each other's cocks
reverently, unbelievingly, at first, until the hard-core masculine lust
kicked in.

	Joel flipped them over so he was on top, then had his head bobbing
up and down on Leif's slick rod, letting his hands roam in that silky
smooth ass-crack.  And Leif, to start with, lapped at the choice asshole
above him, one hand milking that horsecock of Joel's, marveling in erotic
ecstasy as the hunk's big ballsac slid up and down, tickling it lightly as
it bobbed. Soon he could resist that beautiful meat no longer. First, he
played with the foreskin, stretching it out, then taking the fleshy hood in
his teeth, pulling it gently, then biting it a little harder.  That led to
twirling his tongue all over Joel's uncut head, then licking the shaft,
then back to the head.  Meanwhile he kept playing with that big ballsac,
his skillful fingers dancing all over it, quickly bringing Joel to the
point of no return.

	"Oh you sweet fuck! God, that tickling is so incredible!  Oh, what
a touch, man!  Keep it up and I'll cum any second!"

	"That's the idea, dude," Leif managed to slurp out.  Meanwhile Joel
was going further and further down on Leif's rod, excited by the physical
challenge of trying to deep-throat his new lover.  He gagged a couple
times, but soon he took it all the way in, until Leif's light patch of
pubes was tickling his chin.

	"Oh, fuck, Joel.  Incredible!"  And both boys came practically
together, each pressing the ass of the other close down into their faces,
so they could savor the other's juice.  After the waves of cumming
subsided, they kissed with deep joy.

	"Oh man, pinch me, dude!" Joel smiled.  But they needed no words,
they both knew how delighted they were to have found each other.



	"OK, what's up for today?" Leif asked, getting out of bed.  "What
about we shower, then grab a bite?  When do you have class?"

	"I've got a 9 o'clock and a 12 o'clock.  Then I'm on the front desk
this afternoon from 2 - 7."

	"Cool, same shift as me again.  I tell ya, it's destiny, dude!"

  	"Hey, Joel, listen," Leif added, as he thought about something.
"How does this sound?  But, you know, only do it if you're cool with it.
What if after your 12 o'clock you get some of your clothes and shit and
hunker down at my place for, you know, however long?  Is this nuts?  Are we
rushing this?  It just feels so right, you moving in.  I mean, man, I like
ALWAYS want you around."

Joel got up and hugged him close, grinding their wet cocks together.  He
rubbed his face against Leif's and brought his hands down to cup that
wonderful ass.  "Hell yes, dude.  I'm with you until you're sick of me.  I
fell hard last night, man.  Into a brave new world.  And I want to ride
this out as far as it goes.  Shit, you fucker, you can't give me a taste of
the best fucking sex I've ever had in my life and cut off the supply so
fast."



	The boys showered, loving be able to be together in such an
intimate setting.  Leif begged for another fuck when they were all soaped
up and hard, and Joel was only too glad to oblige.  They got all lathered
up.  Joel fingered Leif's ass in hurried passion while Leif reached back to
jerk his cock and balls.  He pushed Leif gently against the bath tile and
thrust his long curvy rod up the boy's soapy ass.  Then he pressed his body
against Leif's, rubbing his strong lathered hands all up and down his body
as his hips jutted in and out.  He kissed Leif all over his close-cut head,
tonguing his ears and telling him how much he loved him.  One hand was
jacking the boy's dick as his hips kept up their rhythmic pumping.  Leif
reached back and slid a soapy finger up Joel's ass.

	"OH YEAH, dude," Joel yelled.  "Hot!"

	Leif kept fingering, now reaching back with both hands.  Joel had
one hand jacking the boy's cock, the other tweaking a nipple, all the while
his muscular hips continued with wild abandon.  Leif shot first and Joel
came a couple minutes later.  They embraced, kissed, and then washed the
soap off.  Stepping out, they dried each other off, caressing and kissing
as they went.  Before they left the bathroom, Joel grabbed Leif's arm,
looked him in the eyes, and said, "I had no idea I was looking for the man
of my dreams, but I am so fucking glad I found him."  They kissed deeply
and hugged for a while.

	Then they hurriedly dressed, realizing how late it was getting.
Leif pulled on one of his too-small sleeveless T-shirts, which hugged his
lean musculature tightly, letting his tits poke out brazenly; this shirt,
like most all the ones he wore, ended right at the belly button, and the
low-rider jeans he threw on started just below those gorgeously angular hip
bones, a total turn-on.  Joel licked his lips at the sight of his
cool-looking lover, who dressed so sexily androgynous.  "You shit," he
laughed, "I might not let you out of the house looking like that.  You're
fucking jail-bait."

	Joel had to wear the same clothes as last night, but Leif got him
to tie his longish blonde hair back in a ponytail.  Very hot, they both
thought.  Joel loved having someone care about his grooming, giving him
tips like this.  He hoped Leif would do more of it.  "Hey, man, you should
take me shopping some day.  You've got such a good eye for clothes.  I
could use some help."

	"My pleasure, but I gotta tell you, you look best wearing nothing
at all."

	"Hmm, after work I might have to model that outfit for you."

	"Shit, why wait til after work?" Leif had a wicked glint in his
eyes.  "You think we could get away with a quick one in the john at work?
You want to try?"

	"Damn, would that be hot or what?  Fuck, dude, I'm gonna be hard
all day thinkin' about that.  Shit, dude, that's just the kind of kickin'
sex I been lookin' for."

	"You found it, man."