Date: Sun, 26 May 2013 17:27:40 -0700 (PDT)
From: Dave Ledge <mikedave01@yahoo.com>
Subject: Kevin Chapter 20 - Conclusion

Kevin, Conclusion

Hello to all of my faithful readers.  I know it's been over a year since I
wrote a chapter in "Kevin".  Last year was an amazing year, one of the best
of my life.  This year, not so,so far--although I'm really looking forward
to meeting a faithful reader in Germany at the end of June.  Nothing
terrible this year, just that it pales in comparison.  I also am trying to
deal with the fact that an older guy I loved back on Long Island probably
died during Hurricane Sandy, but I'll probably never know for sure.  My
younger ex is no longer writing me since I didn't give him the advice he
was looking for last fall about his new lover.  Every time I wear clothes
they gave me, I mourn for their lack in my life.  I love you Vic and Joe!

If you haven't read my "Older and Younger" series do yourself a favor and
enjoy (and yes, I know I'm patting myself on the back.)  I still get fan
mail from time to time about that, including a Lesbian woman yesterday who
said this series inspired her to think about getting married to her girl
friend in Spain!  As for "Kevin" I'll conclude it here.  I started Chapter
20 last year.  I just added a new section to it now.  I'll finish Kevin
after that with a kind of summary of what happened over the last year and
thoughts for the future of all the people in the story.

If you have the time, pull up Chapters 1-19 from the Nifty Archive. I think
you will enjoy them, too. If not, here's a quick summary.  Jacob is a late
thirties career U.S. Army guy.  He's dark blond, muscular, in shape.  After
seeing friends die in Iraq and Afghanistan and having his boy friend cheat
on him he decides to leave the Army.  Eventually the Army offers him a deal
he can't refuse.  If he will finish out his 30 years of service it will pay
for him to finish his Bachelor's degree at the University of North Carolina
at Chapel Hill.  He left early to join the army in a spirit of patriotism.
Upon arrival on campus, Jacob decides to join the marching band, hoping to
meet people.  He used to play the tuba/sousaphone and despite his rustiness
barely passes the audition to join the band.  At practice on a hot
afternoon under a blistering late August sun he takes off his soaking tee
shirt, like many other guys.  The lead trumpeter, Kevin, takes note (sorry
for the pun) and a life-long love story begins.  Since Kevin is also an
honors student and a star on the soccer team as well as being tall, dark,
and handsome (some guys have all the luck) the relationship is not without
problems.  Some guys try to break them up and some guys try to help them.
Jacob's maturity and (even) wisdom in trying to help all the guys he meets
eventually leads him to being called "Father Jacob" a title he grudgingly
accepts. Important people in the story are Patrick, a 19-year old guy with
a complex story who has a major league crush on Jacob, but nevertheless
helps Jacob understand his love for Kevin; Marco, the hunky Latin stud on
the soccer team who doesn't understand Kevin's and Jake's relationship
because he has never understood he loved Kevin, too.  Jacob is able to help
Marco understand himself, despite the huge obstacles, and become the person
he really is. Kevin's Dad, Daniel, and Marco's Dad, Diego, are also major
players.  The final major person is Mike (yeah based on me, but his cock is
even bigger than mine, grin.) You'll read enough about him in the following
chapter.

As always, please do not forget to support the Nifty site to make stories
like these possible.

I also answer all of my emails at mikedave01@yahoo.com.

Kevin 20.

"I had just gotten Daniel settled and shooed out the door, and had barely
read the text from Mike saying he would come by tomorrow night and not
tonight, when there was a new knocking at the door.  What the heck? I
opened the door and Patrick rushed in and said, `Jacob, I met him!  I'm in
love!'

And he kissed me full on the lips, beaming at me!"

Well, that was quite a statement!  I looked at Patrick in wonder, trying to
figure out whom he could have met and where.

"Jacob", he said, easily deciphering my expression, "I was walking through
the Union and there he was, in uniform, recruiting!"

I continued to look blank.

"Recruiting for the Army, of course, and he says he knows you!"

I shook my head at Patrick's enthusiasm.  "Slow down man", I said to him.
"Start at the beginning, please!"

"Well, that is the beginning! I was walking through the Student Union and
noticed that today was some kind of job day.  I enjoyed looking at the
older men representing some of the companies hiring and was amused at that.
However, when I got to the Army table, there he was!  His uniform fit him
perfectly.  He must be your height and close to your build.  I do love his
honey blond hair and his blue eyes, too!  I just had to meet him!  So, I
stopped by his table and pretended to be interested in the joining the Army
(and we both know what a joke that would be, Jacob!) just so I could meet
him and be near him.  Well, he responded pretty well to that.  I noticed he
gave me looks that were not professional, too!"

I smiled at that and Patrick's continuing enthusiasm.

"Eventually I told him I had a good friend on campus who was also in the
Army and who was going back full-time to the Army at the end of this year.
When I told him your name, he seemed a bit surprised at first, but then
smiled and said that he had known you a few years ago.  He asked about you
and what you were doing.  I answered the best I could.  I didn't mention
Kevin, though.  Not sure about that.  I mean the Army just got rid of
`don't ask, don't tell', I know."

Well, I was curious now myself.  "So, what was his name, if you found out?"
I asked.

"Jacob, who do you think you're talking to anyway?" he grinned.  "Of course
I found out his name.  And he's coming over for drinks later on at my
apartment, too!"

My grin at Patrick's maneuvering faded instantly, though, when he told me
the guy's name and I sat down heavily on my sofa.

"What's the matter, Jacob?" he asked.

"Did you say Roy Scott?" I asked.

"Yeah, why?  You do remember him I guess?"

Yeah, I remember him.  I remembered coming home early, unexpected, that
night seven years ago.  I remember thinking I would surprise Roy, so
entered the apartment quietly.  We had been lovers for about a year and I
had fallen for him, I thought.  After entering the apartment, I stripped
naked.  I knew Roy always slept naked, so figured we could start at "second
base" instead of "first base"! LOL. I was envisioning his wicked grin,
seeing me enter our bedroom with a hard on, followed by the rest of my
naked body.  My cock was already twitching at the thought of entering him
and making him moan with desire and pleasure and fucking the shit out of
him!  Grin.

But then I realized I was hearing sounds from the bedroom.  The sounds
sounded like hot sex!  I figured Roy must have downloaded some porn from
the Internet and was getting primed for me by watching it.  But wow, was
this loud and realistic!

I crept to the bedroom and looked through the slightly ajar door and got
the shock of my life!  At first all my horrified eyes could see was a pile
of naked bodies in the middle of torrid sex!  Soon enough, though, I
realized that Roy, "my Roy?" was in the middle of the pile.  I then
discerned that the man behind him with his big cock up Roy's muscular blond
ass was Colonel Jones, our commanding officer for the battalion.  His hairy
hard ass was pistoning his big cock into Roy as hard as he could!  And then
I saw that Roy's thick cock was buried deep inside one of the new recruits,
the skinny boy from the sticks!  The slapping of cocks into asses, the
moans and groans of all three, as they engaged in super hot sex, would have
turned me on another time with someone else in the middle.  But not then.
Not at all.  I quickly lost my erection.  I backed out of the apartment and
dressed quickly outside.  I drove in silence to the liquor store. I bought
a big bottle of no name vodka as well as some kind of mixer. Who knows what
it was.  I drove to the lake.  I got out of the car.  I sat down on the
grass on the verge and drank and drank and drank.  The tears came
eventually.  I finally passed out and slept under the stars.

The morning sun woke me early.  I was bleary eyed, still tired, and sore.
I waited until I knew Roy would be gone from the apartment. I entered then,
packed up all of my things quickly (I've never had that many things anyway)
and moved into a small place I had found earlier in the day.  I left him a
note saying I had witnessed last night's sex and that we were done as
lovers.  I didn't even bother to accuse him of unfaithfulness and betrayal.
What was the point?  He could figure that out himself.

When we saw each other at work after that, we ignored each other completely
and never spoke to each other.  When I transferred out to another unit, I
think we were both relieved.

While all of this was running through my head, I could tell that Patrick
was puzzled at first and then started to get upset at my reaction to his
new flirtation (love, hah!). Oh well, better explain this and get it over
with.

"Patrick, do you remember my telling you that I thought I had been in love
twice before Kevin, once with a woman and once with a man?"

He nodded yes.

"Well, Roy was the man."

His face went white with surprise and shock.

"I came home early one night to find Roy as the "meat" in a "sandwich",
getting fucked by our commanding officer and fucking a boy not much older
than you are."  I stared at Patrick then, but didn't really see him.  I
looked through him, remembering that horrible night.  "If you see Roy,
don't bring him by here, whatever you do.  In fact, why don't you just go
now, too?"

I led him out, him still speechless, and closed the door behind him. I
wasn't sure what I felt anymore.  I had closed that chapter years ago and
now had my Kevin to replace anything I had ever felt for Roy.  Kevin is so
honest, straight forward, and loving.  He is everything Roy wasn't.  I
finally smiled a bit then and relaxed for the first time since hearing
Roy's name.  I thought about calling Patrick and apologizing.  But then I
came to the conclusion that I had nothing to apologize for.

I decided not to mention this scene to Kevin when I saw him at band
practice on Monday. I mean, what would be the point?  That really was all
water under the bridge, ancient history.  Seeing Kevin, holding him,
hugging him, and being shielded by Russ and Rick all helped assuage me,
too.

Later that evening I poured a couple of beers for Mike and me as he started
to talk about the weekend and his dates with Arvo and Matt.  It turned out
that he was now even more confused than before.

"Jacob", he said.  "I really had a great time with them both.  They're both
so different.  Arvo is so Nordic intense and he gives me these really
intense looks that make me blush.  Being a red head sucks at times!" he
added ruefully.  I laughed out loud.  "But then he flashes his incredible
smile after he sneaks in an absurd comment that makes me laugh! He's a
great kisser, too!"  He blushed slightly.  Damn, he was cute, I thought.
"As for Matt, he could charm a squirrel out of a tree."  Interesting
metaphor.  "He does this `humble boy' act that sort of sucks you in and
then pounces!"  I arched my eyebrows at that!  "No, I don't mean it that
way!"  This time he did blush for real.  "I mean, he is so much fun.  I can
also tell there's a lot of passion just waiting to be released.  He's also
a great kisser!"  At that he looked at me in total confusion.  If anything,
that made him even cuter!

"Mike", I said, "Looks like one date isn't going to give you the answer you
need.  I also wonder, now, if either of them is going to wind up as your
Mr. Right anyway."  I shook my head at his quick protest.  "Yes, both of
them sound incredibly hot, but maybe you actually want something/someone
you haven't met yet?"  He slowly nodded at that.  "I've been playing Father
Jacob a lot recently with a bunch of guys here."  He grinned at that.  "And
it seems to me that when you meet Mr. Right, you generally know it very
quickly.  Sometimes there's even a kind of "electricity" that passes
between you.  Sometimes there's almost a kind of "lightning".  This isn't
always true, of course.  And that feeling can also mislead you.  Sometimes
this feeling doesn't translate into the long term for a long-term
relationship.  However, it doesn't sound like to me that either of these
guys might be your Mr. Right.  Does this make any sense?"

"Yeah, a lot", he said.  "Should I go on dating them both and see what
develops, if anything, though?"

"Definitely. However, don't lead them along.  You don't seem like a guy who
wants a lay without love, unlike others I could mention!"  He laughed at
the thought, knowing I meant Patrick.  However, I also could have told him
that Patrick wasn't really like that either.  "And they need to know that.
And if there's no spark, you need to tell them that and let them both down
easy.  Be sure to inflate their egos when you do, too."  He looked a bit
surprised at my words. "Damn, Jacob, you really could be a Father Jacob.
That's really good advice."  I gave an internal sigh.  I suddenly felt
ancient.

I gave him a strong hug as he thanked me and started to leave.  We both
allowed ourselves to enjoy it and get a bit hard. Obvious enough with me.
Really obvious with him!  LOL.  We laughed at our reaction to each other.

"Damn Jacob", he said.  "If you weren't with Kevin..." "I know", I
replied, "but I am and he is the love of my life."  "Yeah, I know that,
too," Mike said.  He nodded, reflecting. "And thanks for the good advice.
My head is a lot clearer.  You'll have to meet both Arvo and Matt.  You'll
understand my confusion better.  The thought of being naked with either of
them and making love with either of them is pretty wild!"

"I have no problems imagining that!" I exclaimed.

We both laughed again and he left.


Kevin, Conclusion.

Fast-forward a year.

Well, Carolina did win the national collegiate soccer championship!  Both
Kevin and Marco were huge forces during the extremely tough
matches. Carolina had to deal with home team of UAB (Univ. of Alabama at
Birmingham) as well as in-state "daughter" campus of UNC Charlotte.
Matches were played in Hoover, Alabama, a suburb of Birmingham. Jacob
finally decided to drive for eight hours to make the final.  Since men
hugging men is no big deal in soccer, his embrace of both Kevin and Marco
was unnoticed at the win... Jake and Kevin both graduated together last
May and held hands at graduation.

Jake is now in Afghanistan.  Kevin is in law school at Harvard. Yeah, he's
just that good.  Jake and Kevin Skype most days despite the time
difference.  They're both dealing with incredibly different stressful lives
as well as they can.  I (as someone who knows them both) think it's going
to work out for them when they both get back together in the States, even
if it won't be easy and they'll have to spend a lot of time working things
out.

Mike and Patrick are still dealing with trying to figure out who they are
and what/whom they really want.  Frankly that is appropriate. They are
young.  Diego has decided to be celibate and try to learn about what he
feels.  Again, a good choice... Daniel and Officer Bob are a couple.  It
was arranged in a very civilized way.  And, damn aren't they happy!