Date: Thu, 10 Apr 2003 11:46:03 -0700
From: Steve Thomas <s4d@hotmail.com>
Subject: Leonards-Lust Ch. 5

This is a fictional story.  It is based on many experiences and fantasies of
the authors.  If you are really into graphic sex, it may not satisfy your
purpose for coming here.  If you like to hear of real love and real teen
angst, with a little sex thrown in, you are in the right place.  There may
be some amount of graphic sex between males.  If this is objectionable to
you, or you are legally too young to be here, you are cordially invited to
press your back button.

CHAPTER 5

Rennie

Around 7 that night my folks and I sat down in my fathers office. I thought
my stomach was about to jump out of my throat and run and hide. God knows
that was what I wanted to do. My parents, though, looked somewhat smug.

" Well what is this all about?" My father asked. "Are ya sick? Is everything
alright in school?"

I know this tactic. My father always does this, especially when he already
knows what's going on.

" No Dad, everything's alright. I just wanted to talk to you guys about some
things. We never sit down and talk, just the 3 of us, anymore." Ok, I know I
was stalling, but you can't tell me you wouldn't have. Well not truthfully
anyway.

" Your right dear." My mother replied. "We don't talk enough. Why, you could
be married and we wouldn't even know." She gave a side wards smirk at my
dad, who suppressed a giggle.

"Alright, I guess the direct approach is the best approach -- I'm Gay!"

"And?" my dad said.

"AND? What do you mean, and?"

" Well, Honey, what your father is trying to say is we already knew that, we
thought there was something else you needed to tell us. You haven't done
anything with Bobby have you?" My mom probed.

" Ewww no, Bobby is hot and all but he's like a brother." I can't believe
I'm saying Bobby is hot to my parents. Wait a minute, how did they-  "How do
you know about Bobby?" I asked quite shocked.

" You young people" My father started. " You think that everyone over 40-"

"Hey! Speak for yourself!" My mom interrupted.

"Honey, I think the boy can add it up and tell your age" my father chuckled.

" Well that doesn't mean you have to go broadcasting it" my mother stated,
quite miffed.

" Like I was saying" dad continued. " You think that all us over {pause} 25
{a sidewards glance at my mother} are blind. We've known about you, because
you talk in your sleep, But even without that confirmation it's quite
obvious to a `parental unit' when their child is of that persuasion. Some of
us just ignore the facts and some ignorantly hide from it. We were just
waiting for you to tell us. As for Bobby, come on! I mean have you watched
your brother in law at a mall? His head turns at every thing with 2 legs and
a cock."

OMG! Did my dad just say cock?

"Well I'm ummm glad you're okay with it, I guess." I kinda stammered.

" I didn't realize we had a choice. We love YOU Lawrence" my mom said. "
Whether you're attracted to women, men or water buffalos it doesn't change
that. We do however worry about your cousin's influence. I mean Morty is way
out there. He's into some pretty heavy stuff and we don't want you to get in
over your head"

"What do you mean heavy stuff, mom?"

" Well, Morty has been known to go on some -- well -- binges for lack of a
better term. He likes to drink and smoke pot and I don't want you involved
in that atmosphere." She replied.

"Well Mom, I can handle myself." I started. " Besides you let me go to the
BBQ at his house 2 weeks ago." I said in my defense. "I like Morty, and this
ban from his company is kinda old." Wow I felt pretty bold just then.
Normally that would have elicited a dirty look from at least my dad, but he
actually agreed with me.

" The boy's right." He said. " I'll tell you what You're turning 18 monday
and Morty has been beggin us to do something for you. I'll let you go on one
condition... You take Lenny with you."

`DUH' I thought to myself. But why would dad want Lenny with me? I asked
him.

" Well I like that kid and I have a feeling he likes you and wouldn't let
you do anything that you might regret later." He responded. I nodded in
agreement secretly thinking `they have no idea' " Now unless there's
anything else -- Your mom and I had planned to take Joy, Jakey, and your
sisters to San Diego for the weekend. We asked Bobby but he said he'd chill
at the house with you. You're welcome to come otherwise-"

"Naw, I'll stay here with Bobby." I replied maybe a little to quick.

" I thought so. Well, I guess this is goodnight. We're gonna turn in `cause
we're leaving early to try and beat all the traffic."

"Goodnight Mom and Dad. I love you!" I gave them both a peck on the cheek
and practically ran all the way to my room. I felt like a giant weight had
been lifted off my chest. I couldn't wait to call Lenny.

Lenny:

I got home and as soon as I stepped in the door, Dad stopped me.  "That
looks like a Saxophone case, Len.  Let's see!"

I opened the case and my dad's eyes flew open! "Did you come into some money
I didn't know about?  Where did you get a horn like this?"  He picked it up
and fingered the buttons.  "Whew!  Well cared for too!  Action seems like
new!"

"It is new, Dad."  I did not think I would have to be creative quite this
soon.  STUPID!

"Leonard, Kirk, this is a very expensive instrument!  You be careful with
it.  Is it your new friend's?  Are you borrowing it?"

"Uh, - well -- yeah!"  (That's the ticket!!) "I am borrowing it -- from
Rennie."

"He sure seems to be a nice boy.  What is he, about 16?"

"Actually he's almost 18.  He said I could keep the horn."  Then I added,
"As long as I wanted."

"Well, see that you take excellent care of it, son.  I wonder if he knows
the worth of it."

"He does.  I told him.  He already knew.  Dad, he used it once two years ago
and cast it aside like an old toy."

"But, how - ?"

"All I can tell you is that his parents are very rich!  They have an indoor
swimming pool with a two story spiral slide directly from Ren's room to the
pool!  Does that tell you anything?"

"Lenny, I really like  Law -- Rennie.  But he is a new friend.  Just be
careful.  Take good care of the sax, k?"

I was so worried about my story that I didn't quite hear Dad right.
"What??"

"I said take good care of that Saxophone!.  What did you think I said.?"

I lied: "I just didn't hear you."  I thought he said to take good care of
the sex!  Well, I have to admit, it was rather dominant in my mind!

I had hoped to escape into my room and not be seen, but now it seems it
really doesn't matter -- that much.  I went to my room.  I sat on the couch.
I began to wonder how Ren was dealing with telling his parents.  All of a
sudden I started to tremble.  I was shaking with the thought of telling my
parents -- my dad!  I needed a distraction, so my first thought was a wank.
I was thinking about this when my eyes rested on the Sax.  I carefully,
almost reverently removed it from its case.  The mouthpiece was stashed next
to it.  I stared at the mouthpiece.  I never thought before how much a
saxophone mouthpiece can look like a penis.

Well!!!???  Maybe an uncut penis!

I carefully dug it out of its little recess, and put it up to my mouth.
When it was that close to my nose, I could not help smelling it.  I closed
my eyes.  MMMmmmm!  I don't know if I just imagined that it smelled like
Rennie tasted, but then I ran my tongue over it.  I felt an immediate
swelling in my shorts!  Gosh!  I was so horny!  My crotch jumped again as I
stuck the mouthpiece into the top end of the sax.

I put it up to  and into my mouth again.  I wanted to blow it, but the reed
was a little dry, so I began to suck on it a little to moisten it up.  I was
just about ready to try a note or two when I heard the doorbell.  I jumped a
little, then decided it couldn't be Ren until my dad rapped on my door and
poked his head it.  It WAS for me.  I felt a tingle wash over me, expecting
to see Len fill my doorway.  My dad stepped aside and walked down the hall
away from my room.  I guessed that he left him downstairs for some reason.
I wondered why.

I jumped up and ran down the stairs.  Dad was in the kitchen with Mom, and
the door was ajar.  I looked out the door to see a very large man standing
with his back to me.

"Hello?" I ventured. He turned around.  He was maybe an inch taller than I
was, and maybe 23 or 24, I guessed.  Let's see, what else was there about
him?  Ummmmm - - - oh!  He looked vaguely familiar.  OH! Did I say he was
gorgeous?

"Hi." He said almost shyly.  He immediately looked down and seemed to be
stuck for what to say next.  I could see that his face was getting redder
and redder.  I stepped out and closed the door behind me.  Finally, "Are --
are you Lenny?"

I could not help myself!  I did a full look up and then down.  Well, not all
the way down!  My eyes stopped just below his belt.   After way too long, I
finally said, "Er -- um -- uh -- OH!  Yes!  I am Lenny."

"I thought you were, I mean your dad said you would be right out, so I knew
-- that is I - - "

"I KNOW you from somewhere!"  I exclaimed.

"Yes, you do.  I'm sorry to take you by surprise like I did.  Now that you
are talking a little I do remember you!"

"Well, I'm happy that you have remembered!"  I retorted, almost
sarcastically.  He turned deep red.  I wanted to cut my tongue out!  "OH!
I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to sound like that!"  Now I could feel my own
cheeks getting hot.

He thrust his hand out. "I'm a friend of Seth's.  Rob is my name.  Sorry to
keep you guessing."

"Seth!"  I blurted out.  "Is he all right?"

"Well, not exactly." He said soberly.  He has been doing very well since his
- - - accident.  But just the other day he had a setback.  Blood clot in his
chest -- lung.  He is in a coma.  His buddy, Luke was with him when it
happened.  He keeps asking for you.  He can't hear anyone, but he still
talks -- mostly gibberish -- but he sometimes asks where Lenny is."

"Oh my gosh!  Now I remember you!"  I suddenly blurted out.  "You are one of
his -- their -- roommates aren't you?  Rob!  That's right!"

"Yeah, that's me.  I was wondering, - do you think you could come to the
hospital and talk to him?  I don't know why he calls for you, but maybe you
do?"

"Well, I took care of him a bit after Luke came -- from Hawaii, wasn't it?"

"Yeah.  Luke is pretty broken up about it.  Can you come?"

"Of course!"  I opened the door and said, "Mom, Dad, I am going with Rob to
the hospital!  Remember Seth, the kid on the gurney?"

Both my parents came out of the kitchen.  "Of course we remember him!  Is he
in the hospital again?"

Rob spoke up.  "He had a blood clot stick in his left lung.  He is not in
very good shape.  He needs a reason to fight.  He has been asking for your
son, from his coma."

"Leonard, if you have time to change, maybe it would be better to have some
shoes on at the hospital."  My dad said.

My mom added, "and maybe you can replace those shorts with a pair of pants.
Does he have time for that, - er -"

"Rob!  My name is Rob.  Of course.  This is not an emergency.  I ran toward
the stairs, then checked myself.  I came back.

"C'mon up stairs with me while I change clothes, okay?"  He followed me up
the stairs to my room.  As soon as we were in, and I closed the door, he
spotted the sax on my bed.  I went to my drawers and started pawing through
clothes.

He gingerly picked up the sax, - again almost reverently -- and then said,
"WOW!  Is this yours?"

I had just shed my shirt and my shorts.  I was only clad in the pair of
white boxers that Rennie had given me.  My back was to him.  I didn't even
think of what I must look like as I turned and replied, "Oh!  Yeah!  Nice
isn't it!"  Then it hit me how crummy that must have sounded.  "OH!  It --
well -- it IS mine, but -  (Sigh!) it was a gift!"

"Wow!  Some gift!  Do you have any idea what these cost?"

"Actually I don't!  I knew it was an expensive instrument.  I was afraid my
dad would not let me keep it."

"Well, if you dad knew, he may not have.  This is a real collector's piece --
besides being about the best there is!"

"Wow, how do you - -"

"Would you mind - - -?"  He gestured to put it to his lips.

I saw his lips purse a little and then it hit me like a ton of bricks.  This
guy was sooo hot!  I think -- no I KNOW my crotch jumped, and when it did,
his eyes flew down to it!  I immediately turned around and stammered,
"sh-sh-sh- sure!"

I was afraid to turn back around.  Then I heard such a wonderful mellow
sound coming from behind me.  By this time I had some jeans on, and I turned
back around, my mouth agape! When he saw me turn he stopped.  "Don't stop!"
I pleaded.  Then I noticed his eyes sweeping over me!  From top to bottom!
And just as my eyes had a few moments before, his stopped on my crotch!  I
turned back around, sparing him some embarrassment.  I found a shirt and
then put on my best sport shoes, and said, " guess we can go now."

He almost reluctantly put the sax down.  I walked over to him, removed the
mouthpiece, and stowed it and the sax, back into the case.  I was hoping he
did not see me put the mouthpiece up to my nose just before stowing it

"Weren't you going to blow it out -- drain the spit hole?"  He remarked.
Well, I couldn't imagine after that short workout it had it would need it,
bit I looked at him, and I SWEAR he was almost drooling!  His full lips were
shiny!  And as I looked at him he licked them!  I was SURE it was the sax he
was drooling for!  I racked my brain as we walked out to his car.  He had a
red Trans Am convertible, fully tricked out.  As I remember, he was dating
Seth's cousin -- girl cousin.  I put my emotional tongue back in my mouth!
GOOD GRIEF!  I had just left Rennie!  How could I be having such strong
feelings for this straight dude?

"I never saw this car at Seth's place."  I said.  "I would have remembered
it!"

"OH!  I just brought it down from home.  I didn't have it here before.
Didn't need it.  I just drove my -- well, Carries car.  That's Seth's cousin.
We were - - going together - - sort of."  He sounded embarrassed. "But
that's all over."

As soon as we got going, he pulled out his cell phone and pushed a button.
"Hi!  Yeah, he's with me now.  What?  Oh.  Okay.  See you in about an hour."

"Some kind of therapist is there."  He said.  "We need to chill for about an
hour.  Had dinner?"

I actually just came from eating Renate's feast, and sick as I felt earlier,
I did not chuck it!  But I was not going to turn this guy down for anything.
  I nodded then shook my head.  I felt like a scum!  I felt guilty!  I
rationalized it was just a meal -- and it was!  Perfectly innocent -- except
in my mind I was making it more.  Only in my mind.  But just the fact that
it WAS in my mind disgusted me!  But I could not drive it out!  I couldn't
keep my eyes from stealing over to his hands, his face, those lips, and then
again down to - - -.  "So, Leonard, how did you meet Seth?  Oh sorry!  Guess
you were in deep thought."

I was indeed!  I jumped when he spoke!  "OH!  Well, it was the first day of
school.  When he came into class, I really could not see him.  He was
covered with bandages.  There were rumors that - "  I stopped, embarrassed.

"I know.  He admits it."  Rob said sadly.  "Seth has seen way too much grief
in his short life."

"I know."

"I doubt if you know it all.  He was the victim of attempted murder --
twice!"

"You're shittin' me!  I knew he lost his lover -- that doctor!"

"Well, anyway, he's been through a lot!"

"Well, anyway, At first it was curiosity.  I felt sorry for him.  And I made
friends with him.  Then I began to "baby-sit" for him -- you know to give
Luke a break.  Then Luke and he had some kind of disagreement and I thought
I was home free!  Oh!  Did you know that I am gay, too?"

I blushed deeply.  So did he, as he answered, "Yes!  Seems like there's a
lot of that going around."

"That's right,"  I said as we pulled up to a very nice restaurant.  I
chuckled and continued,  "You are rooming with a bunch of poofs aren't you?"

"Yeah, I guess you could say that.  I -- er -- well -- uh -- I just recently had
to admit to myself that I am- that is -- well, er -- you know!"

My GOD!  What was this he was telling me!!??  After a long, embarrassing
pause, I said, "Hard to say at first, isn't it?"  I smirked a little in
spite of my self.

"You got that right!""  he retorted.  "I have been struggling -- in denial --
for years!  Then I ended up room mates with Chris -- that's Seth's brother --
and Craig.  Well, Craig was about as oblivious to his own sexuality as I
was.  It was I who got them back together when Craig went home to Detroit.
He was trying to escape his feelings.  I brought him back, still denying
that I felt the same way.  I was dating Carrie, Seth's cousin, and telling
myself that I was so strong for "keeping myself clean" from sex.  Truth was
that I was just not that turned on sexually.  Finally it was Carrie who
recognized what was the problem."

"Really!!!???"

"Yup!  She confronted me one day and accused me of being like her brother!"
Rob said.  "I was furious!  I stomped out of her house and strode up the
stairs to my flat three steps at a time.  I came in and in two steps was in
my room and slammed the door!"

"Wow!  Was anyone home?"

"Heh!  Yeah!  In about two seconds, there was a light tapping at my door.
It was Seth.  He opened it and peeked in.  He was still in his wheel chair
or I would have probably slammed the door shut!"

"But you didn't."

"No, with tears in my eyes, a came out to the living room and sat down.  I
looked from Seth to Luke, to Chris, to Craig, then back to Luke.  `Luke,
come here, please?' I asked"

"Luke came to me.  I stood up.  `I need a hug,' I said."  This was usually a
signal for everyone to give a group hug.  They all moved in that direction.
`no!  Just Luke'  I said, looking at Luke -- and then Seth - for permission.
Seth sat there in his wheelchair looking bewildered."  Rob stopped talking
for a long moment.

"So, did you hug him?"  I asked.

Very quietly he went on.  "Yeah -- and more!"

"What???!!!"

"After the hug, I looked at Seth and asked, `Do you mind?'  He nodded.  I
then asked the same of Luke.  Then I kissed Luke!"

"Wow!"

"Yeah, that's what it was like!"  He said, his face all of a sudden turning
crimson, as if he just realized what he was telling me -- practically a
stranger!  "Then I said, `I Guess I'm gay!'  They all started laughing.  Now
THAT hurt my feelings!  Until I looked into Seth's eyes, and he quietly
said, `duh!'"

"Seth and Luke slept with me that night, Seth proclaimed that I should not
be alone this first night after
I made this discovery -- a discovery which practically everyone but me knew
about already!  They showed me a couple things that first night!"

"First night?"  I said incredulously.

"Yeah."  He could not look into my eyes.  There were a few like that!"

"WOW!"  I said.  I then saw his eyes stray over to my growing crotch, then
quickly back in front of him.  We were already stopped, in a parking spot,
but he backed up and pretended he was straightening the car up.  When he was
finished I did something completely out-of-character for me.  I looked one
way, out beyond where he was sitting, then I looked beside me to the right.
The top was down, so I looked out the back as well.  No one was anywhere to
be seen, so I leaned over and put my lips on his.  He almost jumped and then
looked around for himself.  Assured that no one was near, he grabbed me and
pulled me into a passionate kiss.  Then it ended as suddenly as it began.

"I'm so sorry!"  He said.  "But -- but -- this is all so new to me!"

"I think," I said, "That I started it!  You just finished it.  And with some
style!"  I added.

"How old are you?"  He asked.

"17."

"Shit!"

"I'll be 18 in a week!"

"Oh!" He said, relieved.

He blushed.  So did I!  He smiled.  So did I.  Then the guilt set in again.

Notes:  Don't even say it!  I have been jealously guarding Rob!  But it just
happened!  And don't try to second guess where guilt may take these boys!
Comments are welcome to Steve and Ken at s4d@hotmail.com.  Please mention
"Lenny" in the subject line.  Thanks and love!