Date: Wed, 17 Jul 2013 22:29:21 -0400
From: Lucas Brimstone <lbrimstone00@gmail.com>
Subject: Never 16

DISCLAIMER: This story is based in truth.  Some events/persons have been
altered for the purpose of the story.  There may be scenes of unsafe
practices which are not endorsed by this author.  All other usual warnings
and precautions should be considered here.  Feel free to write with any
comments, corrections, etc.  Think of this as a Gedankenexperiment.  And
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When something momentous happens, it's hard to process the whole event at
once.  Most people analyze everything in parts and then form an opinion and
course of action.  However, most people are not normal.  In fact no one is
really normal.  We all have secrets to hide or parts of our lives which
changed us.


By the time Cole and I left with Fish for Harrison I was fucked up.
Everything slammed into me the day after I lost my virginity to Cole.  I
wanted to lose it to him.  I love him.  But then there was the thought of
not really knowing what love was.  Would Cole remain faithful to me even if
he loved me too?  I knew he would bang some English dude the first chance
he got.  Was this the type of person I wanted in my life?  Those few days
that week I spent mostly in silence and depression.  Kyle and Lex tried to
talk with me but I just brushed them off.  Now I was in the car headed to a
suburb north of Manhattan.


Cole warned me that this trip would be far from normal.  We were staying
with his friend Austin since Cole's parents did not want to deal with a
boyfriend of Cole's.  I was told I would find Austin fascinating.  They
were correct.


Cole and I walked up the path for the mid-sized Marrian residence.  From
the outside everything seemed normal.  The inside and the people however
were totally different.  Cole knocked on the door with force.  Soon after
the door was answered.


Austin opened the door and welcomed us while wearing only a pair of low
boxers and an open bathrobe.  The resemblance to Brad Pitt in fight club
was eerie.


"Cole! How are ya?" Austin asked with enthusiasm.


"I'm doing good Aus. This is my boyfriend Lucas," Cole introduced me.


"Lucas, good to finally meet you," Austin shook my hand.  "Come on in I
just have to finish something down the hall.  Make yourselves comfortable,"
he disappeared from the living room.


The interior of the house was somewhat disheveled.  I looked around the
room making note of the older furniture and dusty cabinets.  It was like
Austin had just bought the place from the estate of someone who was long
dead.  Cole sat on the sunken burnt orange couch in the little living
room. I decided to remain standing and inspect further.


"Austin lives with his sister. They both moved out once Austin graduated
high school," Cole stated.  This explained the state of the house.


"Interesting. Did their parents abuse them?" I inquired why they would be
so quick to leave.


"Well their father left when Austin was four, I think Liv, his sister, was
seven.  At that point their mom was really struggling to raise them on her
own.  Austin was always over at my house until I came out.  Then we both
just kind of wandered around.  His mom was, or is, an alcoholic.  Sad
really," Cole explained.


"That is rather sad. Do you suppose he is over having sex now?" I had a
suspicion that he was.


"What makes you say that?" Cole asked.


"Well the way he presented himself at the door.  His casual demeanor and
eagerness to leave.  Also the apparent bulge in his boxers," I stated.


"Geez Lucas you just notice everything.  I wouldn't be surprised though,
when I was living here he always had someone to bang.  Come sit with me,"
Cole moved over and I sat down.


"Something I should know?" I grew nervous.


"Did you observe that too?" Cole moved to sit closer to me and rested his
head on my shoulder.


"No, just a hunch this time," I turned and kissed his ear.


"Lucas I feel really guilty and a little embarrassed.  There's all this
stuff I've been saying that I feel like is kind of awful.  You are just
this great, confused, and innocent kid and I'm this deviant with issues.  I
don't want you to think I don't love you, because I do.  Lucas I just can't
understand what's wrong with me," Cole really was upset and I was getting a
little scared.


"I can't judge you for what you might have done before we met.  You are a
deviant and have issues, but I do too.  I love you and I want you to love
you.  Now may not be the time to talk, but I have some theories," I
replied.


Austin returned to the room with a girl following behind.  He was wearing a
pair of jeans now and a T-shirt which was short and exposed his abs.  The
girl was tall and had wavy hair the color of a good merlot.  She had very
striking features and wore a white dress with lace towards the bottom.


"Guys this is my girl Daphne," Austin announced.


The next few hours were spent with Daphne and Austin.  I learned that
Austin was an apprentice electrician and he met Daphne on a job.  She is
studying at a college in Manhattan.  Occasionally she would lazily run a
finger down his abs as they sat on another couch.  It was as if Austin was
a testosterone fueled god.  Honestly I wouldn't blame Daphne for falling
for him.  He had the looks and charisma, but I could tell he was the source
of Cole's bad habits.


After two hours with Austin and Daphne, I asked Cole to walk me around his
town.  We left our things at the house and headed out.  Harrison was a
place much different than my town.  The area seemed more focused on the
nearby city than the people living in it.  It was much bigger too.  We
walked out in the cold as the sun began to descend and cover us in an
orange glow.


"So what are you thinking?" He asked.


"First tell me about you and Austin," I responded.


"Fine. Our first time was when we were sixteen.  I had gotten into a fight
with my dad about something and it turned into a shaming for being gay.  So
I walked out and called Austin to meet me by the train tracks.  We sat in
the gravel and I cried after telling him my family hated me.  He said I
could stay with him.  Back in his bedroom we talked and he started coming
on to me.  I was so angry and upset that I didn't care," Cole sighed, "and
then he fucked me.  Our last time was when we were eighteen, I had fucked
him."


"I thought so," I said.


"What do you mean, you thought so?" Cole sounded upset and a little angry.


"Cole I think for you sex is a comfort mechanism of some kind.  You cope by
having sex.  You know it too but you don't want to admit it.  You know
you're going to want to have sex in London but you'll feel guilty, so you
told me to do the same.  Just admit it," I conjectured. Cole was quiet,
then he started sobbing.


"You're right.  I feel like sex is all I have.  I only gave you my number
to hook up.  But then I fell in love and I know there's more to all this.
All of it is so hard to change though," he looked like he thought I would
leave him.  Seeing Cole tearing up had triggered the meltdown I was overdue
for.  My hands trembled and I moved to hug him.  I stared out into the
street.  My thoughts ensnared me.


Cole was the best thing that ever happened to me.  But maybe he was also
the worst.  I was constantly pushed to my mental limit with him.  He showed
me my true self and how much I could handle.  Cole protected me but he also
used me.  There was no telling what he would do.


"My mind is like a glass shell.  You can fill it with sand but too much
makes it crack.  I know who I fell in love with, the guy who smiled and
talked about music.  It's gruesome that someone so handsome should care.  I
just want us to be OK, but sometimes it's really hard," I sat on the
sidewalk and cried.


"Aww Lucas I didn't want to upset you too. I'm always afraid I'll hurt you.
We're figuring this out together, and I know we'll be OK," Cole sat next to
me on the concrete as cars drove past on the main road.


I cried for a few more minutes.  I knew we would figure this out somehow.
After a while I just sat silently while Cole stared at me with those deeply
emotional eyes of his.


"We will be OK. You just need to promise me that you will never let
yourself be driven to someone else so long as you call me your boyfriend,"
I said, my voice still trembling with sadness.


"I promise," Cole took my hand and held it.


"However we will maintain your London proposal.  I don't want you to go
even crazier abroad.  But this is the only time you are ever allowed to do
this," I said with a bit more seriousness.


"I understand.  Let's go back now," Cole stood up, "And who said I was
crazy?"


I knew we were at least headed in the right direction.  Cole still had
issues but we would work through them together.  I had issues too.  Being
gay was still something I had to cope with.  Plus I had never really
experienced a lot in life.  There was still so much to do.


This was when our weekend started to get strange.  Austin was certainly an
interesting individual.  Cole and I got back to the house an hour later.
The front door was unlocked.  What greeted us was startling.


Austin was fucking Daphne in the hallway.  She was braced against the wall
as he drove himself into her.  His tightly muscled figure thrust up against
her lithe form.  Neither of them noticed as Cole and I watched in awe.
They were moaning in ecstasy and Daphne began calling out his name.  Within
a few minutes she orgasamed and he quickly followed suit.  Austin withdrew
with a bizarre slurping noise and turned to us.  He was still semi-hard and
I could tell he was the same size as Cole.


"Wanna give me a fuck for old times bud?" Austin asked and it was hard to
tell if he was kidding.


"I'm good," Cole replied.


Daphne went down the hall and Austin slowly followed after her.  All of
this was unheard of.  We had just watched porn.  Austin wanted to get
fucked too.  Then there was a knock at the front door.  Cole went and
answered it.


"Are Daphne and Aus around?" the caller asked.


He was someone Cole didn't know.  6'3 with silver red hair swept to the
side.  His jaw was square and his eyes were olive.  Freckles scattered
across the flat bridge of his nose.  He was quite built in his navy tank
top and chino shorts.  His most distinguishing feature was a light brown
mustache.


"Yeah, and who are you?" Cole asked.


"I'm Johnny.  Daphne's boyfriend from the city," he replied.


"Oh of course, let me go get them," Cole was very nervous at this
development.  It seemed like Austin picked the wrong girl.


"What do you do Johnny?" I asked to try and buy time.


"I'm studying economics at Columbia.  You and your boyfriend make a cute
couple," he smiled.


"Thanks, how could you tell?" I was surprised he picked up on it so fast.


"Because, Austin's my boyfriend," he smiled again.


"Hey Johnny's here," Austin said enthusiastically.


Daphne walked over and embraced Johnny before kissing him.  Cole looked
like he was anticipating a fight.  But when Daphne moved back, Austin went
and gave Johnny a kiss.  Cole was dumbfounded and I was a little stunned
too.


"What the fuck?" Cole nearly exclaimed.


"Hey you got me hooked in high school bud.  I'm just glad I could find two
awesome people to be with.  My dick gets what it wants," Austin grinned.


"Yeah and your ass too," Jonny gave Austin a slap on the butt.


"Alright let's cool it here," Daphne said wearily.  All the sex clearly
tired her out.


"All of you are fine with this?" Cole asked.


"Fuck yeah we are.  This shit is the best thing going," Johnny quickly
answered.


"I stay with Johnny through the week and Austin on weekends. They fuck on
Fridays.  Gives me a break from the sex every other day.  Not that I want
it," Daphne explained.


"Speaking of," Johnny grinned at Austin and they left the room.


I couldn't understand how one guy could have sex so often.  The energy
required was unthinkable.  It wasn't likely that Austin and Johnny would
just stop after shooting off once either.  I wondered if Cole what Cole
thought of all of this, but I couldn't ask in front of Daphne.


We spoke with Daphne for over an hour.  Austin and Johnny didn't emerge
from that room until later in the evening.  All of us agreed to go get
something for dinner.  Johnny and Austin stank of sweat and semen, but they
didn't care.  We took Johnny's car to a nearby Chinese restaurant.


Cole and Austin hit it off like old friends.  If the whole sex show could
be ignored, Austin was a friendly individual.  They talked about what
things were like growing up and how rough they had it in high school.
Johnny was also an interesting individual.  He was very intelligent and had
an opinion on most topics.  From across the table I also couldn't help but
notice how attractive he was.  But all I had to do was look at Cole sitting
next to me and know I had everything I needed.


"What are you guys planning on doing tomorrow?" Austin asked between bites
of hamburger.

"Going to see the city," Cole replied.