Date: Fri, 18 Apr 2008 13:46:48 -0700 (PDT) From: B B <wasputz2525@yahoo.com> Subject: nowhere but up-6 Warning: The usual disclaimers apply here. If you don't like any of the following, leave now: gay sex, vulgar or harsh language or underage wherever you are reading this. This is pure one hundred percent fiction. No one in this story is a real person, living or deceased. Please do not copy without my consent. I hope you enjoy!!! Main characters: Jeff(author)-19, roommate Lance-18 Friend Bryan- 18 With Hayden on the phone, I needed to decide whether to accept his offer to visit or not. I figured a short visit wouldn't hurt. I waited then for him to come pick me up since I didn't have a car. I had a license and got it when I was 16 at the home but never once had a car. At the home, they encouraged us to get a driver's license so when we left, it would be one less thing we would have to worry with. Hayden was there promptly while I waited on him in the parking lot. Hayden took my cherry last November in his room late one night. I wanted to experience a guy and Hayden was willing to share the experience with me as it was his first time with a guy as well. We had a few other sexual encounters after that but it was for sex and nothing else. He was never found out after I came out in February and wanted it to stay that way for he claimed he was still straight even though I knew he was different. Hayden greeted me with a smile as normal. He was about as normal as they come with a conservative hair cut and a regular body with an average cock. I enjoyed being around him and was one of the first ones I told my story to. He was sympathic towards it but never reached out to me unless I asked which was rarely. We arrived at his apartment which was some of the older ones in town. His roommate and best friend Gary was gone home for the weekend. We caught up on our summers and laughed about our freshman year together. I hate to say it but Hayden had his way and got me in his bed. I felt so slutty about it but wanted to feel him in me again. He was gentle with me but there wasn't that spark like Lance and I were developing. After we finished, I asked to go back to the dorm and was taken there. Once in my bed, I began to cry and regretted what had happened. It was my first time to feel that way about having sex with someone, including Bryan. I was angry and disappointed that I was Hayden's whore for the night. I knew I should have refused his offers but when he went down on me, I knew what was to follow. I let him use me and didn't want to disappoint him after agreeing early in the week to do so. I wanted people to like me and told myself Hayden would not like me if I refused to let him fuck me. The next morning Sunday, I was up early after barely getting any sleep. I beat myself up mentally over my slutty behavior the entire night. Around 9, I headed to take a shower and right when I got out the door, Bryan came out of his room with a towel around his waist. "How was your date last night?" I asked. "It was okay I guess. Where were you all night?" Bryan asked. "I was over at a friend's place," I said. "I see," Bryan said and we walked into the vacant shower. We showered up and agreed to have breakfast in the only open cafeteria on campus. After getting our breakfast, we sat at a table alone with just a few others filtering in on this Sunday morning. "Is something bothering you?" Bryan asked. "Yeah, it is. Can this stay between us for now?" I asked. "Sure. I'll stay quiet," Bryan said. I told him what had happened and how I was feeling about the situation. He could see how emotional I was and how I dearly regretted what I had done. "Jeff, we all live and learn. I know a little how you feel," Bryan said after I finished. "I've had sex with girls just because of my reputation that I had in high school and for what I had. You do care for Lance and now feel like you honestly cheated on him. You're not the first guy to do that and I've done it too. Just accept that you fucked up and move on. If it's eating you up, then tell Lance and get it out in the open when he gets back. He might hate you but you'll feel better about it." "You think I should just tell him?" I asked. "Just gauge him a little and don't do it if he's in a bad mood. Man up about it since you have a conscience about you," Bryan said. "Jeff, it ate me alive when I fooled around behind my girlfriend's back with her friend. I didn't tell her and it just festered in me like a zit until she found out and all hell broke loose then. Confession is good for the soul too and he might be willing to forgive if you think ya'll have something going," Bryan said. We finished our breakfast and headed back to the dorm. I felt better about the situation and knew there was nothing I could do at that moment until Lance returned. Bryan and I hung out the rest of the day together. As usual, we headed to the rec center and worked out some to pass the day. While heading back, I got a call on my cell phone from Stephen asking me if I wanted to check out his place. I agreed and asked if he minded if Bryan came along since neither of us had anything planned. Stephen said it would be fine with him and let him meet more people. Bryan and I dressed and headed over to Stephen's place. It took a call to find him since he didn't know the area very well. We finally found his place. I knocked on the door and Stephen answered it with a beer in his hand, "Come in. Do you remember Devin?" Stephen said. "Yeah, how's it going?" I replied and then introduced Bryan to them. "You guys wanna a beer?" Stephen asked. "I know I do," Bryan said. "Sure," I said. "I thought you said you stopped." "Fuck no dude," Stephen said. "I just tell Mom and Dad that shit so that don't worry. You know how Mom worries about the littlest things." "I remember," I said. "She wants me to take a picture of you with my phone so she can see what you look like now," Stephen said after handing Bryan and me a cold beer. I posed for the picture and Stephen quickly sent it to his mom. It was definitely a surreal feeling there after spending quite a few nights at Stephen's house when I was younger. Devin barbequed some dogs and burgers for us while we sat there and talked. I hated that we talked so much about our high school in front of Bryan but he didn't seem to mind while drinking beer after beer. I stopped drinking early so someone could get me and Bryan back to the dorms. We stayed around and played video games with them. I really enjoyed being back around Stephen again. I got to use my license and drove Bryan's car back to the dorm. When we got out, he puked in the bushes. I knew it was coming after he warned me earlier. Bryan was barely able to make it to his room and was I ever glad to see his roommate in the room to help me get him in the door. I headed to my room and called it a night. The next day it hit me that I would have to face Lance. I was very nervous about and wasn't at all sure how he would react if I got the nerve to tell him. About 4 that Monday afternoon, I heard a key in the door. Lance opened the door with his hands full. "Can I get some help here?" Lance said. I raced over and helped him. "There's more in my SUV too," he said. "How was your weekend?" "Okay and yours?" "About the same," Lance said and we headed down to grab a bunch of things. I grabbed all I could as did Lance and still left a few things. We made another trip and finally had all his things. "You bring everything you own?" I asked seeing all his things piled on his bed. "I told you I would bring some things I no longer wore. Except for a few things, it's all yours," Lance smiled. "You shouldn't have," I said. "Well Mom insisted that I bring it all. What you don't want she told me to donate it and get it out of the house," Lance said. "I don't know what to say," I said scanning the piles of clothes. "A thank you would be great," Lance said. I felt guiltier than ever while I sorted through his clothes that Lance no longer wore. Some it still had the tags on them. I hung each thing up in my closet and folded the shorts, jeans and athletic shorts to stuff in my drawers. "Oh yeah, here," Lance said and handed me a laptop. "My dad got a new one and this was just sitting in the closet." I threw him on the bed and kissed him like never before. We finished up after the long kiss. "Lance, have a seat," I said. "I need to get this off my chest right now before I explode." "Okay," Lance looked at me. "I royally fucked up this weekend," I confessed. "What? You suck Bryan's big dick," Lance smiled. I dropped my head in shame, "Yeah that and worse, I had sex with a friend. I'm sorry Lance." Lance lifted my head with his finger, "I totally understand. I can see how sorry you are by the look on your face. Jeff, things happen and it's not like we are committed just yet to each other. I forgive you." Tears ran down my face, "I feel like total shit now after you brought me all this stuff." "Jeff," Lance wiped my face, "there's nothing you can do about it now. We're human and sometimes our dick gets the best of us. Let's just forget about it and tell me you didn't love sucking off Bryan." I finally was able to break a smile, "Yeah, boy is he ever hung. Did you deepthroat that shit?" "Are you kidding? Hell no, that big dick would have been in my gut," Lance smiled. "Did you guys hang out a lot while I was gone?" I told Lance we did and about going my friend Stephen. We were interrupted by Bryan, who helped me tell about the little gathering. I caught him up with the other incident too with Rick and Sean as well. The three of us left and headed to grab a bite while Lance told us about his weekend at his house. When we got back, I wanted Lance and Bryan to show me all there was to know about the laptop. I knew how a computer operated never something this cool. Lance showed me the basics and then got me logged onto the internet that was offered at the campus. I was amazed somewhat by this new experience. Bryan left after a while. Lance showed me all the cool sites like Facebook and MySpace. I knew about them and finally had the chance to create my own space of each with Lance's help. About 11, I turned off the laptop after being on it for so long. I smiled at Lance who was reading his text for a class. I motioned him to me and pulled him tightly to me. "You're the greatest, you know that?" I said. "Jeff, you are too. Seeing your excitement in things I took for granted has really grounded me somewhat," Lance said staring into my eyes. "I'm so grateful and flattered by you and your family's kindness," I said. "Think nothing of it, Jeff," Lance said. I grabbed the back of his head and pulled him to where we could kiss and make out. In short order both of us were naked and hard as a rock. "What do want me to do? I'll do whatever you desire," I said. "Just fuck me Jeff," Lance said. "I want to feel you in me." I grabbed a condom and lube. Lance lay on his back and spread his legs. I fingered his ass and decided to taste my first ass. I got between his legs and stuck out my tongue. My tongue circled his ass hole for a little bit. "Go for it," Lance said, holding his legs high. I stuck my tongue in and tasted his ass. I heard him moan and continued until I finally couldn't stand it any longer. I crawled on top of Lance and kissed him. My hand guided my raging hard meat to his entrance. I pushed in and felt it slip past his sphincter and go into his warm ass. He pulled me close and kissed me while his legs now wrapped around me. It felt so right having sex with him and sparks seemed to fly. I loved hearing his deep moaning and groaning while I drove my cock deep in him time after time. We both started panting as our sex heated up. The bed squeaked but neither of us cared at that moment. I was too into showing my gratitude towards him to care. After we both shot our thick creamy loads, Lance and I just lay side by side in a haze. He petted my face while I admired his nice body. He sweetly lay his head on my chest and soon fell asleep right there on me in the cramped bed. TO BE CONTINUED... Thanks for the emails. I try to respond to each one. I do appreciate all the comments.